My hocd has gotten to points where im not even sure if it is hocd but then i know it’s hocd because deep down i know im straight and always have been straight

These thoughts aren’t me and I know there not because when they went away I was happy and now they have came back and I don’t feel like myself anymore 😪

We shall get through this fellas!

I initially got the thoughts at about 12 but one time I tried to say that I was gay but it felt weird and then I still always had crushes on girls and never felt any real attraction towards the same gender, then I saw heartstopper on Netflix and then that’s when my hocd really started and I kept having intrusive thought and getting fake attraction and also my attraction for girls stopped and I also forgot what attraction and having crushes felt like. I did actually start having a crush on this girl who I’ll give a fake name for “kim” and when I eventually confessed to her, my heart was pounding out of my chest and I really liked her a lot. I’m straight by the way.

I started my hocd at 11, when i found out what gay means and that was when i went into secondary school. Lots of people were coming out of the closet so i was thinking what if i am gay. I used to look at straight people kissing and then gay people kissing and see which one i prefer, i used to always take sexuality tests to see my true sexuality, they were always heterosexual but i was never totally reassured by them. I also kept on thinking back in the past whether i had any gay experiences that I didn't know about and it was driving me crazy. When i was twelve i joined this game called imvu which was for a joke and there was lots of girls coming up to me and trying to do things it made me really uncomfortable at the time. However, afterwards i kept on asking myself 'did you enjoy it?'. I also really admire Taylor Swift and think that she is really pretty and i have always wanted to look like her, but then I thought 'what if that is because i have a crush on her?', this also happened with a few of my friends at school and i used to get a lot of intrusive thoughts of doing things with women. I have always had crushes on only guys even when i had my hocd i have never had a crush on a girl before but i was always worried that i would suddenly just turn gay and have a crush on a girl. I am still suffering with hocd today, i am now 13 and i am worried about telling anyone because i am worried they might think i am gay (dont get me wrong there is nothing bad about being gay it is just i hate the thought of myself being gay) if anyone sees this who has hocd and is constantly worried about being gay, ask this: 'who do i have a crush on?' 'Who have i had a crush on in the past?' 'Who have i dated in the past?' 'If i am worried about being gay it means i am probably not gay because I would be wanting to be gay if i was' 'did I consider myself a heterosexual up until now?' I hope that my story helps others with their hocd

please someone help me. at first, I thought I was going to be gay or bi, but then I know deep down I like girls(I have never got aroused seeing a man). yesterday I just found out about hocd and that made me feel good that other people are going through this not only me. now theirs something in my head saying that I'm bi. when I went to play soccer and I saw my friend it felt weird seeing him and those intrusive thoughts came back. I just want to have a wife and kids when I grow up. question: is there something as a fear of being bi?

It may be hard to have no reaction to it at first without rationalizing but trust me this is the only way to stop anxiety and get rid of the thoughts

Hi!! this is my story i hope you read this...i really need help I am mexican, i have 14-15 years right now. About a month ago i asked myself a stupid question, i added to my spotify some songs of a female group and i start to think "I'm adding a lot of female songs, will I be gay?" but i don't give it too much importance, i know i like boys since i was 3 or 4 years so i don't worry for this.... after that, (2 weeks later approx) my friend (she is bisexual) tell me that she like me (sincerely her words disgusted me) and feel disgusted with myself i questioned me "why a girl?", i would never hang out with a woman or kiss her or have sex...i don´t wanna have a experience and since this day i am questioning my sexuality, i don't wanna be bisexual, i wanna be straight, get married with a boy, have babies, a normal life, but now this toughts is haunting me, i have stopping eating, sleeping, i feel bad, the toughts gives me Anxiety, I am afraid to find an attractive girl for fear that I like her, i am really scared, I'm afraid of being bisexual I don't want to be bisexual. out of nowhere I started to lose my anxiety, I don't know if my brain wants me to accept that I'm bisexual but I don't want to be like that, I want to be straight, I'm straight, I don't want to be with a woman, I just don't want to :( i need help, can you help me please, If I think I'm bisexual or something, I'm scared and I want to commit suicide, I don't want to be like that, I want to be like before, I had my defined sexuality, I don't know why I doubt, I know who I am and what I like but I'm sick of that thought, I want you to leave me alone Please help me

I just turned 14 and I want these thoughts to stop... it’s ruining my life and I really want to find a way to cope with them that’s not seeking a therapist because if I tell my parents they will just say hocd is fake and instead get really mad at me. Plz anyone help if they can I feel so sick and tired of this.

I'm 15 years old and I've always been attracted to boys, not girls. I've had thoughts since August 2019. I was worried that I lost my attraction to boys. I got stressed out in the mornings, feeling the loss of appetite (eating), just thinking that I might be bisexual/lesbian/demi/pan/ace. Right now, I think I'm feeling bisexual, but I just want to feel straight again. I've never had crushes on girls.

People going through this you need to accept these thoughts don’t give them energy don’t fight them the more you fight them the more they comeback. Just observe and accept them. Try meditation. STAY STRONG BROTHERS YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS.

Mine started at 15 it got so severe by the time I was 19 I went suicidal. I actually tried something to think it would “go away” I was desperate for some answers needless to say it definitely wasn’t me. I felt immense shame and guilt for what happened and I still struggle to forgive myself today

I’ve been suffering from hocd for about 3 months at first it was telling me that I was gay now it’s telling me that I’m bi even though I’ve always had crushes on girls and have never had crushes on guys as a matter of fact I was sort of anti gay is this normal

Gonna be honest sometimes I feel straight and even through the high ocd times I feel deep down straight but sometimes it makes me feel like I lost myself completely and it feels like I accepted it but I know I didnt I joke about now so my sensitivty to it has decreased and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm gay and I dont feel anything towards it I feel very unsure at times and why dont I feel anything anymore am I just gay or what

I am 13 and drownings in my thoughts it’s been almost 3 weeks I want it to go away I haven’t told anyone and I don’t think I will I haven’t even dealt with high school or bills or a job or taxes or any of that yet. I’m not even in the prime of my life of anyone has any self help tips it will really help. This sucks so bad!

Thank you dude, this really helps. I had it all the way back when I was in seventh grade, and now I'm older and I've recently gotten over an extremely hard six month bout of horrendous anxiety that was the worst anxiety I had ever had. Right when I got off of those particular thoughts, this came back to my mind. At first I pushed it off, seeing it as my mind's attempt to just try and gain the upper hand over me with fear after I finally defeated it, but it came back, and it came back strong. All the other things I used to tell myself the truth back then don't work anymore, and it's been bumming me out big time. Then the whole shtick comes through, you know how it is, one thought leads to another thought, etc. Heck, I'm so tired from my six months of insane anxiety that I'm not as reactive to these HOCD thoughts, and so instead of me realizing that I haven't even gotten time to rest from my old anxiety and that's why I'm not reacting as harshly to this second round of HOCD, my mind tells me that the reason I'm not reacting is that because I'm gay and I know it. I hate anxiety man. No matter how many facts and logic you throw at it, it always wins. I've been straight my whole life, but then one thought comes in at one bad moment, and all the work comes crumbling down. Makes me sad, but your video gives me hope again dude. I'll keep on keeping on, and defeat it just like I defeated it the first time!

I'm a gay man in my 50's who was formerly married to a woman and now has 4 adult children. I didn't have the language to verbalize it but I internally knew I was gay as a very young boy. It took me until my late 30's to finally admit it to myself and to come out to others. The collateral damage was devastating. I also grew up in a very religious household so I was told that gay is a verb, something you do, not a noun or something that you are. That idea was very damaging not only to myself but to others as well. The truth is that deep down I knew and there wasn't really any question in my soul who I was despite the raging homophobia around me. Imagine my shock and surprise when my young adult son who had been diagnosed with OCD mentioned his self doubts and questioned his sexuality. Keep in mind that I'd be THRILLED to have a gay son! But I was pretty certain that he wasn't gay because of the way he talked about it and the way he behaved towards men and women. I'm convinced he was experiencing HOCD and due to having a gay Dad in an environment where he would have been fully accepted and cherished as a gay man by one side of his family and likely despised by the other. As his OCD got under control, so did his HOCD. I don't, and didn't, believe he was gay but I believe it's an interesting phenomenon that I would have doubted existed if I hadn't been so intimately involved in it. May I suggest a small tweak in the way you and others talk about this? Being gay is one of the BEST things about my life. I'm not saying that to be cheeky. I truly think being gay is a gift and if you frame HOCD in that way, it might shed light on determining if you are gay or just HOCD. What if being gay was like winning the lottery and you would be lucky to be gay, but it's not something you can manufacture or think your way into. Only a few chosen few get to be so lucky. Your obsessive thoughts don't qualify you enough for the winning lottery ticket. I mentioned how damaging the religious teaching was that made homosexuality a verb rather than a noun. But there's a flip side to that same philosophy from the other side. It is that if you think or do anything gay even just once then you're gay. But I'd argue that you are not your thoughts nor are you gay because you experimented once or twice. I had straight sex for 11 years and it didn't make me straight. Being gay strikes at the core of who I am. Lastly, everyone wants to know how you know...here are a few little things that I've experienced that seal the deal. These happen in moments when instinct takes over. I've never once had a sexual dream with a woman. It's always been men. When I see a couple dancing I'm drawn to watching the male almost exclusively. I hardly notice the woman. I have straight male friends who tell me the opposite. The woman's movements instinctively draw their eye. I feel the same towards the man. In a crowded space like Disneyland where you see a lot of couples, where is your eye drawn towards at first without even thinking of it? Almost without fail I'm looking at the male partner. Hope this has helped.

Here’s my story: I woke up from a nap and for some reason sexuality and sexual orientation were on my mind. I had never questioned my sexuality and this was very weird and uncomfortable. The what if’s we’re going all through out my head but I knew I was straight and wasn’t phased. As days went on it stayed in my mind. I acknowledged these thoughts and reassured myself I’m straight. The thoughts got worse and worse. I didn’t know what was happening so I typed it into google and this is how I found out about Hocd. I’m not trying to self diagnose myself but I don’t think this is the only OCD I’ve had. In the past there were certain thing that felt like they would get stuck in mind and no matter what I did they would stay there and mental torment me on a regular basis. I also always seek reassurance for these kind of thoughts and I feel fine but then I go back to feeling scared and fearful. It’s gotten so bad I have to isolate myself from other and I have emotional numbness. So does this sound like hocd?

I have had hocd for 5 months and ive gone through everything me as a kid had always had ocd for alot of things harm,checking and more but hocd was bad i always just simply admired guys i would see older guys and try and look like them i thought they were cool i always loved women got aroused by them i was attracted to girls in all ways and so my hocd came up when i noticed a guy was good looking and i got really scared becasue i questioned my self am i gay am i attracted to him when i simply just noticed it and it kept going with unwanted thoughts

I’m in middle school and I’m pretty sure I am lesbian I don’t want to like boys but I’m not necessarily against it. Like if I developed a crush on a guy I wouldn’t be upset, just dating girls sounds better than dating guys to me personally. Take all the religious stuff and hate out of the equation and I’m actually really happy that I like girls. Crushes are crazy scary but they also feel really good at the same time. When I was young I didn’t have any crushes on romantic interest in anyone but now that I’m older I do. (Nothing sexual, ofc) I am happy and confident in my sexuality ❤ Remember, your valid, o matter who you are and what you believe as long as you are kind

I have Hocd for 16 years now and I'm not even attracted to the same sex and only had crushes on women. I was struggling with that homosexual thoughts until today but now it's easier to live with them. I really don't exactly know how to overcome it to silence the inner voice. Maybe someone can help.

Do your heart beat fast everyday,wake up everytime sweaty throught the night

These thoughts are really really irritating and i know it's not me

Iv never been gay iv always like women but since November after I saw stories of people becoming gay from being straight made me wonder if that could happen to me and it been stuck in my head ever since and it won’t go away and now I can’t even get turned on my women like I used to and I feel like the same sex starting to turn me on but I don’t wanna be with a guy

Right now I’m 13 and suffering from HOCD my mind is like “you like that guy” but in reality I don’t, I’ve been friends with that guy for years and I’ve never seen him like that, and I know I’m not gay because I’m attracted to girls and I even have a girlfriend right now. It’s just these thoughts in my head that keep telling me “You’re gay” and I try and try to take it away from my head but it keeps on coming back, But right now I’m just like sad, and I don’t want to get depressed, I’ve gotten a lot of anxiety attacks in school as well. I’ve also tried calming myself down but it just doesn’t work. l’ve also tried your techniques but they still don’t work for me. Also, before this whole thing started to happen, I was hyper-active at school, I’d talk, laugh, and chill with my friends. Yet, now I’m sad, I cannot focus in school, and I just get anxiety attacks at school like I said earlier. Please respond for you can help me.

This triggerd my Hocd a littel, because i get anxity that feels like butterflies in my stomach. By the way i have no sexual or romantic attraction for guys. But for you to have a crush to someone you need to be sexully and romantic attraction to same sex. Isant that so?

I just wanna go back to fucking normal man! Like I was 2 weeks, literally... no unwanted thoughts, no questioning, none of that bull shit man! I fucking hate this. I know deep down I’m not gay, never felt any way towards a guy never did anything w an opposite sex never want to never would. I hate thinking this shit

Yo u have no idea what hocd Is like...hocd is not homophobia..often people who have hocd don't have problems with homosexual people..ik due to me going threw this..and I'm 17 I have been questioning this for 2 to 3 months and I'm still going threw it...i hate it

Bruh my Hocd makes me to feel I like the intrusive thoughts and I don't pls help me

Can HOCD make you fear to be bisexual because I like Girls a lot Last year I feared I was gay Now it’s bi I’m 14 and this started at age 13

You said gay people had a voice I thought the back of there head saying they’re gay , and now it’s confusing me because I have hocd and there’s a voice in the back of my head saying I’m gay so isn’t the voice the ocd ???

I’ve always liked girls, I can recall crushes from elementary school and when I go into middle school I got addicted to harem anime girls and last year I had a huge crush on a girl not to mention I had always been into femdom stuff but always felt straight andOut of no were I had a weird dream started questioning my sexuality so idk 🤷🏼‍♂️ kinda stuck

Whatever you do dont give up, have the mindset of never giving up and always fighting till u succeed, it will feel endless but it felt the same for me over a year and i am starting to overcome this

I started having these thoughts last night after thinking “what if a guy kissed me” and then I started thinking “what if I’m gay” or “what if I’m bi” and it just scared me so much because I’ve always been straight my entire life (I’m 17 btw) so when I woke up this morning I was still thinking about it and it raised my anxiety even more and so I just kept trying get it out of my head but nothing seemed to work but when I searched it up and saw this video and the comments it made me feel better and I think I’m starting to get over it. I’m still experiencing some questioning thoughts but not as much as before now that I know about hocd. But what can help me?

This is really similar to what happened to me. Earlier this year somehow out of nowhere I just began to think about what if I like men or what if I like one of my friends even though by before this had always been straight I want it to be straight and I didn’t really have any attraction to guys and I still had an attraction to girls but for some reason I still can’t shake this feeling that I was gay for some reason and part of me knew that I wasn’t this way but for some reason, I just couldn’t believe it and it got to the point where I will wake up every morning with cold sweatsAnd really really bad anxiety and to the point where my chest with her and my stomach would feel like it had a pit in it. It came to the point where I had to tell my mom about it and me being in a very religious household she of course told me to pray about it but I knew that just praying wasn’t going to solve my problem and she excepted everything I was going through and help me the best she could to get through it it got to the point where I had previously been really hurt by girls including my best friend and all of a sudden all of my emotions just shut off and somehow this convinced me that I was somehow gay then I got to the point where I think I was trying to compareIn contrast whether or not I was attracted to men or female and seeing which one I like best watching gay porn to try to see if I will get aroused and watch straight porn and I will get the same result of me not being aroused a gay porn but me being Aroused a straight porn but somehow it would still make me think am I sure even though I had the answers right in front of my face I even asked some of my friends vaguely of course if they’d have gone through the same thing and many of them have and I realize that it was more normal than I thought now I am still really going through it and trying my best to go through treatment but I am still trying to learn if any of you can relate or recommend anything for me to do let me know. Cause I just want to move on with life and be happy again and live my teenage years.

Thanks man, thanks, sometimes it’s pretty hard to get out of my own head, or to talk to somebody about it, especially given I live alone and don’t have many friends around, I’ve also alienated from some of them because of HOCD. I feel like I’ve talked to somebody who is going through the same experience, and I have more clarity now and energy to move on. Thanks.

Just pay no attention to the thoughts just say whatever with no emotional or mental reaction and move on

Yo I've always been straight im also a believer in God I was molested at 6 years old and never rlly thought much about it but I during Quarantine when I was 18 I was watching a TV show called the chi and I'm a guy btw but I remember this scene about a transgender and they were talking to them and saying it's ok to be your self and stuff but basically I had thought Maybe dating a trans wouldn't be that bad and I remember it turned to worse things slowly I had stopped sleeping on my back cause I had horrible thoughts about people on me I stopped bending over even by myself I stopped showering I stopped eating and everything I stopped tlking to my friends and everything I started having very uncomfortable thoughts about sexual thoughts about my male cousins male friends at even one point I had a thought that I mightve like one of my friends I would wake up out of my sleep in cold sweats my life was horrible I thought I never would forget them things but guess what I eventually did and my thoughts were calming down my crushes for girls came back and everything I had gotten out of 2 relationships recently one was for 3 months the other was a year and now I got a crush on this new girls I've been talking to for 10 months who I've liked for a while now but guess what after 2 years of no hocd it came back and now my anxiety is back through the roof all them thoughts game back and I've been un happy lately but Ik im not gay I actually have ocd I've dealt with Pocd and Harm ocd even relationships ocd but the thing is guys it gets better one day your gonna wake up and forget it all trust me I've been Dealing with it for 3 years I just hate hocd cause it goes completely against who I am and this girl I like deserves the world and I wanna give it to her but I need to get these thoughts out my head im getting a therapist to also but anyways guys good luck

my thoughts started because i saw freddie mercury and his private life my thoughts are destroying me what should i do

I think i have hocd for 4years now. At first i always check my actions. I get over that but now it is worse. When i look at good looking guys i always question myself. Does anyone have this symptoms?

I think your feelings are valid. Perhaps, this is something straight men go through...I have never heard of a gay guy having this..not saying it doesn't happen. I think most people know if they are gay or not. I hope you aren't blaming porn on being gay. People should stop beating themselves up over sexuality. Also, do some people have porn addictions? Yes...I also think some people are addicted to nicotine. Not everyone is going to get addicted to porn. Not everyone who watches porn are going to watch rape or stepsister or even gay porn. It's all about who you are. Your story is yours and I'm sure some people can identify, but porn will not and cannot change your sexual orientation.

Is it normal to get happy while texting ur friends to the point where you actually smile because it happens to me with all my friends and I’m getting scared 😰

I started having this thoughts maybe almost a month by now, my thought were like "what if I'm gay?, what If in the future I will be gay?" It's just annoying and irratating. (I'm a girl btw) eveytime I see photos of other girls I felt so attracted to them even though way back then I don't. Sometimes I would even get groinial response which kinda suck. After a few weeks I don't know If I even have hocd or not. I'm start thinking that "maybe I'm really gay...and I'm denying it..." but I know I don't want to be.

I am 20 years old boy and I have been attracted to girls all my life till now.I even have gf but some days ago i felt like i get attracted to guys but actually i hate that thought and my mind isn t being able to forget that thought.help me please..

im 16 years old and im male so i started with thinking i might be gay even tho im not im always attracted to girls but suddenly this question "what if im gay" suddenly came up to my mind and ive gone crazy bc of the thoughts.. few months later ive recovered thank god but this time it began to come back again and its more worse than before. the thoughts make me want to move like a gay person even tho im straight i really hate this it feels like im being forced to do it even if i dont want to... but even tho i think about that.. it makes me think that im used to do such gay stuff even tho im not. i hate this so much. i do gay stuff but that doesnt mean im gay. idk if im denial or not bc its like my brain has been tricking me ever since this thinking started. my thoughts tells me that i like guys but if im focus i like girls like alot i want to start a family. can you guys ease my mind and tell me if im denial bc when i was a child ive never liked guys only girls.. then this thought came in.. pls can you guys tell me if i have hocd or denial im so tired of thinking this way...

I like the way you differentiated between HOCD as having a fear of actually being gay, v/s the feeling of butterflies and wanting to smile around a person. At first when I watched your other video I thought briefly it was homophobic, but I truly don't think you meant it that way. It's okay to be straight or gay, and it's okay and normal to wonder about it.

yeah fk this sht ruined my mental health, back then I was so comfortable about my sexuality I can make gay jokes like nothing and I NEVER overthink about it, now when I see a literally all above average men I feel like my gf cheated on me, also I can never watch a show about bestfriends without thinking theyre gay, when I talk to my crush (girl ofc) I dont have this gay thoughts at all I feel relieved, after for like an hour it goes back wtf

I first started when I was 13 with a friend of mine, but it did not feel right. I got very sad and was taking medication for it. I went through psycological therapy and got the intrusive thoughts taken away. My relief lasted for about 2 years but then I got the intrusive thoughts again because a friend of mine kissed me as a joke. Nowadays I decided to not judge the thoughts and feelings I got, I was relieved. I sometimes get these groinal responses to my friends. I do not want to feel this and it often feels wrong. I wished everything was as it was before. Whether I am gay or not, I do not care but it really feels like a bummer because I do not want to feel this things.

So I have dealt with social anxiety and I also bottle up my emotions and hold everything in, I know that this leads to worse things later down the line. But it’s more like when the thought came in to my mind it had nothing to do with myself, it was me reading a comment thread where someone told another person that they are gay in denial and it made me ask the common question “am I gay?” I automatically thought no I’m not. This really isn’t the first time I’ve ever thought it I always had minor intrusive thoughts about sexuality but I knew I liked girls because just being around any girl made my heart beat so fast and double it for girls I liked. Never in my younger years did I crush on boys and even now hocd hasn’t made me feel any attraction. Even though I’ve had anxiety and minor other problems I am introverted so I spend a lot of my time thinking to myself, I think a part of me is more bummed that my mind has totally betrayed me at this point. But I’m 19 and I already went through the discovering myself stage in my life and I am certain I’m straight and the only thought that really saves me from this ocd is my ex gf, who I was in love with. I say that it was real and I have no doubts but you know that no matter how much logic and proof you throw at it, it’ll just make you feel like you’re being desperate in denial. I have paranoia issues as well basically I’m the epitome of a shut in and I was a shut in for 6 months. During that stage I didn’t question myself at all, my mind became my safe place, but I’m out of it and it was due to me being on the internet all the time that these thoughts came to me in the first place. It’s only been like 5 days or less since this all started and the first thing I found when looking up why these thoughts were in my head was some dude talking about coming out, it wrecked me I was holding in tears while on my way to work, that’s when it took over, the first 2 days were me wondering every now and then but shoving it down but it became more annoying so I looked it up and that’s what I found, since then it has become more of a 24/7 thought. Only time I’m free from it is when I’m distracted or the next few hours after I wake up. I never had any fantasies of being with a man nor in any way. I felt the moment my I guess you could say libido was drained from me, it was the day I read that article and I just yawned and suddenly I was feeling a more familiar feeling, I was distant I didn’t care about anything anymore. A lot of my dreams in life included getting a wife, I always wanted to move to a foreign country and marry a foreigner. I wanted to write novels and webcomics and I always liked romance stuff so I would incorporate it into everything. It’s not an urge to write gay stuff, it’s the overall loss of wanting to write anything anymore, or to travel. Because I’m tired of these thoughts, they arrive everytime I try to do something I could normally do before. I’ve also had the bisexual thought, wondering that if I’m having this dilemma at all then naturally I must be bi. I push that away too because I genuinely don’t have an attraction to men. But yeah that’s how my 5 days have been, the last 2 days I’ve had a decent hold on it but day 3 was horrible.

Ok now Ik I'm not bc when u said what are u gay that shit was funny 🤣🤣

I don't know if anyone will reply, but I started finding every single guy attractive last year even in games, movies, irl which I never done before (except maybe 3 times, but this was before I knew what SO-OCD was), but I never had any urges to go date them. Shit scared me so bad. Never was Diagnosed with OCD, but I have watched A LOOOOOOOT of Porn mostly of women when I was younger, but during quaratine... My addiction got worse over time.

Could I ask you a question? Have you ever did anything with a guy? For me! I had my girlfriends, even had a six year relationship. It wasn’t till I was in my twenties that I tried kissing a man. Now, if it grossed me out, then I would know for sure I was straight. However, that one kiss had so much power behind it, that I saw fireworks? We were like hungry for each other, and because we both were dudes, you could feel the intense strength behind that kiss? For every pound of pressure I gave, it was met with either the same or even greater pressure. Hope that makes sense? By the way, I realized that I’m not all the gay. For one, I could never be in a relation with another man. Then, being around so much testosterone would drive me crazy. I would still need the softness of the female. Now, when it came to the sex part, then I would prefer another man. We each are so unique and sometimes I think we cause ourselves so much undo stress. Be you! Thanks for sharing, I didn’t really know about this? Take care and be safe. Alex from LA

My story is that one day I found out my uncle was gay and he dress like a man he talks like one and now I don’t want him over because I’m afraid of him because he made me like this question my sexuality and Now I see everything in his world and I want to get to me because I am in love with this one girl I met and there is that voice in the back of my head saying ur gay and I don’t want to be gay and I just don’t want to see things in his world I want me

I started having it after I quit smoking weed.

My mind is so black and white i think if i'm gay i don't deserve to live, like that was my compulsion

The solution Give it time... be patient... face your f.e.a.r= Face Everything And Rise

Ozzy I have a question, I get less anxiety from HOCD now but I am scared I have accepted that I am gay. I don't want to be gay, but I am lost. Can HOCD turn you homosexual?

Fuck!! I was doing so good man! I swear! I was almost getting over this, and my dumbass kept roominating again... which led me to searching things up... I looked up how did you or when did you find out you were gay and reading the story made me feel like anxiety because the person went into detail how he and his friend did things to each other as young kids and that’s when he found out he was gay and I guess I put myself in his shoes and it freaked me out and now that story is stuck in my head and has me feeling like I would like that shit too and idk I hate this all and now I’m back here... feeling like I want these thoughts and just in denial when deep down I know I’m not this and I still like girls

Ozzy. I like the way you make a case for HOCD. Its a good case and needs to be made. The reason, perhaps, that you are being accused of being homophobic might be because you never actually say that it is a good thing to be gay. Neither do u say that it is a good thing to be heterosexual. U remain on an analytical level in the presentation. It comes across to many that u are afraid to say that it is "good" to be gay. To avoid saying that it is good to be gay u avoid saying that it is good to be hetero... so that u are not accused of being homophobic. Try saying that BOTH gay and hetero are equally good, spiritually and physically, while still making your argument for HOCD... and u will find that u have the support of all!!!

Been doing this for like a week and i dont get anxious anymore

I spent the last decade + of my life loving women not even being able to sleep next to a woman with out sexing her to sleep! Even as I say this I’m dating a really hot Asain woman! Whom was love at 1 sight wanted her from the second I laid eyes on her and over 2 weeks my HOCD came back and now I’m questioning everything I ever knew it’s crazy should be impossible I lived a rock start lifestyle when it’s come to women! I had HOCD when I was 12 years old that vanished and decades later here I am

I have some signs of lesbian just a little bit but I don't want to

It’s like I feel more comfortable wen I think abt a man and I’m a girl but how do I stop the other thoughts from creeping in

Mines recently started 😢 I’m 21 next month it’s destroyed my relationship with my girl when I literally know I’m not gay

Excuse me about the butterflies. I had this friend who was expelled for having sex in school bla bla bla what not and i havent seen him in 8 months so when he visited my school a couple days ago i felt really excited i almost ran to him. But i didnt feel shy talking to him like i did with a girl i had a crush who came back from holiday on the same day. Do u think my reaction was justified and now come to think of it i felt the same excitement when my brother was visiting from abroad its not like a planned on hugging or kissing the guy just alot of excitement to see someone who i hadnt in seen in a long time.

This is a great video! Thank you for sharing

The worst I had was an overbearing mother who constantly talked about Homosexuality and how evil it was. Really weird. I didnt care two bits about gay stuff and there was always a level of paranoia my mother instilled in my brother and I. It caused paranoia, depression, and anxiety. Led me to question myself and identity. Fast forward 40 years I've been with my wife 8 years but, the thoughts of how I experimented out of self doubt and the memories are still there bother me and in return give me the worst HOCD. Just gotta ignored feelings I think, realize you needed answers, and move on. Anyones thoughts...?

No ozzy I don't think there is any indicator of you being gay or not. If you want to be gay you can chose to live that lifestyle.

My friend was telling me that they were coming out on January 17 and when they were telling me something In my head ticked off and starting saying are you gay maybe your gay and I just brushed off the thought but when I woke up the thoughts came right back and I know I am straight I know I am but the thoughts in my mind keep saying what If or your gay and I don’t want to be gay I want to be straight I’m losing myself and I cannot take it now it feels like the feelings are normal and it freaks me out even my more I can’t even tell if it’s ocd anymore but I know I’d never date a man or have sex with a man I just wan the thoughts to leave everyday I spend hours online checking to make sure I’m straight stalking girls pictures to make sure I’m straight I have panic attacks every night I can’t take it anymore

Wow I'm 20yo and I got hocd and reading comments for teens I am damn sure it's OCD, I never had these issues when I was a teen I didn't even thought about my orientation, I didn't even felt like I am 0.000001% of gay or from LGBTQ.

I’m 13 year old who is questioning herself and doesn’t know what to do cause I know I’m not gay but there’s a voice inside of me saying are you sure and it scares me and I can’t take the pain someone please help me

Can we have ocd if no one our family has it?

Can you be gay if tou dont like it? Also i was in a relationship with girls 3 times and i liked it but now i have thoughts😓 plzzz answer

Help me I’m getting distressing thoughts of men (I’m a guy) I’ve never questioned my sexuality till this point I’ve been thinking about it every single minute of the day for 10 Weeks and it’s killing me. I don’t know why but I feel less attracted to women both romantically and sexually. I’ve always had crushes on women and loved women I’ve even had depression over a break up with a girl in the past please help me (I’m a virgin). I’ve always loved women and I hate these thoughts they’re literally killing me please someone help me I beg

Backstreet boys made some nice songs, im straight (suffering with HOCD), but some of their songs are good.

since having these thoughts I feel more drawn to men. I know inside that I'm straight. Is that normal?

I first had hocd earlier in the year maybe even in december and I used to keep on telling myself in my mind I dont like boys I like girls and I feel like all of it started cus of porn. Around the first 3 months I feel like I knew deep down I was not gay and I have always liked girls and never liked boys. I knew deep down I wasnt gay but I continued watching porn and I don't know why but I feel like it just made stuff worse. This is about 6 or 7 months from when it first started and I found myself listening to music and then I somehow some thoughts of relationships with guys came to my mind and I dont know but I feel like it somehow aroused or Interested me so I fought the thought but it keeps on coming back. I have never experienced this not even when I first developed hocd and now I am really starting to question whether its hocd or denial

Amen bro Ik i ain’t gay I’m straight all the way man but I’ll be honest I got hocd and tournaments me daily and I get so much fear of wat ur saying about hocd and wat it is n wat I’ve looked up Ik I have this condition of hocd I fight with prayer man bc Ik I’m straight I’ll never be that kinda person bc I’m just not that type of person I have a wife and before her I always wanted a beautiful girl who’s gunna love me and take care of me just as ima do for her u now for people who are gay don’t take this the wrong way but God loves you and I pray God free you from that in Jesus Christ name their is a lot wrong with that bc it is an abomination unto God he destroyed it so why u tryna be something that ur not God created man and women Adam and Eve to be together that goes to show u ur true sexuality amen 🙏 I love everyone the same it’s just wat ur about u kno God loves you God be with u help and guide u mold u and shape u and as for hocd people know and understand ur truth and accept the hocd and don’t fight it or try to reassure bc it brings weight unto the fear Pursue urself into a relationship with opposite sex if ur a man or women don’t fear bc if u fear demons the devil or any kind of thought hocd ur denying Gods healing power don’t forget ur not alone I love God love my wife and I struggle with it but daily I ask God to help me in my hocd condition God is good and will lift u from ur burden

(PLEASE READ ALL OF THIS) This shit is so annoying like ik deep deep down im not gay i have always liked women but its like my brain goes noope u like men even know i dont get attracted to them, sure i may think a man is good looking but that doesnt mean im gay, like u said in the video if u look at a man get butterflies in ur tummy constantly think about them ur most likely gay, for me HOCD started in 2017 i was walking and i had this thought what if im gay but then i was like im not gay ik im not and it was like this cycle ur gay im not gay ur gay im not gay god it was annoying, then it went diddnt think much of it, fast forward 2019 in school and these thoughts keep coming back for about three days this constant back and forth with my brain then it went did not think much of it, then 2020 before a acid trip i was like what if acid makes me gay what if i turn out im gay and started feeling scared and it was just these stupid thoughts, and i was like how can i be ik im not, then it went and that was January btw now its may and its been the worse its even been and i went to get some food and saw a good looking man and then in my head i was like yh ur gay and my god it was not annoying bc ik that i was not but i was just feeling of anxiety is i was, for me to get rid of them i have to be more active and doing stuff and relax my mind at the end of the day ik im not gay and my brother told me this thing that rlly helped he said know this ur not gay but even if u were u would like men and it would not be a big deal just like us liking women for us its no big deal so accept that fact if u were gay but know that u are not and it rlly helps hope people are not giving up this is hard but we can push threw we are more then our thoughts peace and love (no homo though)

Probably doesn’t help that I was groomed when I was younger

My thoughts are like what if I go to school and I’m suddenly just attracted to guys not girls this making me not want to go to school How do I get rid of this please help I can’t go to a therapist because I’m young and I don’t want to tell my parents about something like this

Thank you sir. this helps me a lot.

This all started when my neighbour knocked my door who’s a lesbian so I thought in my head are u attracted to me or what if your attracted to me so I asked myself what does this mean why am I thinking like this does this make me a lesbian now so for weeks I couldn’t eat or sleep I’d cry all the time but now I don’t get anxiety anymore about it the thought is just stuck in my mind and it feels like denial when Iv never ever questioned my sexuality if I try to do erp imagin the worst things I just don’t get anxiety or butterflies I’m confused 🙄🙄😩

This really helped. Thanks you.

My layman opinion: To combat HOCD. Program yourself to accept that being gay is not a bad thing or any worse than having blonde hair. Straight men have paranoid unfounded fear of homosexuality. If you have HOCD, it will only make it worse. Gay wouldn't frighten or upset you if you didn't think it was a big deal, or would make you a social pariah. Affirm that no one or no thing can make you do what you don't want to do.

Im 21 years old male and i always had crushes on guys and not girls i have never been attracted towards a girl.....i find guys kind of attractive and even if see a hot girl it doesnt excite me like my other male friends.......i like watching straight porn but my focus is on the naked guy not the naked girl .......i dont know im confused......sometimes i feel like my childhood experience has something to do with it....like......my male cousin and i had a sexual relation for like 10 years whenever we met each other and as a child i really didnt knew how to react but i kind of enjoyed it (we meet once or twice in a year) but we dont do it anymore and just dont talk it about it .....but sometimes just deep down i feel like i was never born gay.......im just so confused .....pliz help me

Hey Ozzy! is it normal for those who are going through hocd to have thoughts that my parents won’t let me be lesbian/bi EVEN though they don’t have a problem at all!

I have not had feelings for men, and I currently have a crush on a girl. Although I have had gay sexual thoughts, and I have tried experimenting with it. I am still attracted to women. Idk what is going on

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There is a gay guy at my school very feminine but when he is around I actually feel really bad because I hope that I am never gonna be like that. But when my HOCD is fine I don't care but I don't smile or feel any attraction towards him. But there is a girl she always makes me smile and laugh. Like if I look at here I feel like I I am smiling I try to hide it but she is really sweet and beautiful.

Why does my attraction to the woman i love loss when this hocd strikes, i want to go normal it feels like I'm not interested to her and it feels like im homosexual even tough i don't, maybe it was becuase of porn, i was a porn addict for many years of my life, it was my vice and i do it every day before i sleep, but before this gay thoughts happen, i am just walking in the street and i see my old friend(he is a male)when he see me i feel like theres something about me, it just like i don't like this thoughts in my head and it keeps repeating and became worse, later when saw men it feels like I'm gay because when i see them i feel like having intrusive thoughts like "are you really gay?. And i am so anxious that when i saw some people with my same sex, it was jusy like they are thinking that i was gay, or maybe I'm just obsess of thnking of it, in the evening the toughts are still in my head and i try to do things to reasure that i am straight not gay, i try so many things like watching porn but ot never satisfied me because i didn't ejaculate that day and thinking about what to do if there a guys out there and trying to don't like a feminine, porn on the night i never been satisfied and my sex drive is low that my ejaculation is low, and when a woman is in front of i never have fantasy feelings about them like having a night stand, I'm confidently say that i am straight because i love my woman, and i never been have a crush about guy, in the morning i woke up i see my old best friend and he was a guy, and when i saw him i feel like being gay and that thoughts are killing me, and i start thinking to die, I'm not having a time with my friends that i do back then i never communicate, and theres always a bad thoughts when i sleep when i hug a pillow all i remember is my woman, when this things happen i remember my old friend(male ) Which was i didn't have a feeling for him back when i was a child, i search for the technique, and the thing that make it worse is denying it and avoiding it, the more you fear the more it will haunt you and more anxious you will become, when i play with my neighbor friend i became calm and my anxiety became low, and the thoughts are became less, The only thing to won the battle is --face your fears --thoughts are just thoughts don't think about it too much it just like watching a train, you should watch a train don't ride with it, honestly because the more you deny it the more you'll been trap. --accept the thoughts if the thoughts are telling you that you ar a gay then accept it -and think that ok I'm a gay and so what!, i know it is wierd for the first but you will realize it, and it will make overpowered the ocd and make you less anxious -- if you sleep at night hugging your pillow and a guy( your male friend appear) don't change the thought it will make worser, just sit with the tought, just put your pillow behind you and let them pass --don't reassure that you are gay or straight it will make things worse because the more you assure the more you became anxious and ocd will come back and you will fall to thr trap again - hocd can make you think that you don't love you partner and make you think that you are closet gay, your attraction are there and it stand by just sit with the thoughts and your love to you partner will comeback someday If you are straight you are straight, being honestly guy if you a gay you have it since you are child and connected to genetics but hocd is not its like a disconnected wire that you just fix it and put it were it belong If you feel sad and want to cry just cry and IF YOU ARE STRAIGHT AND YOUR THOUGHTS ARE TELLING YOU THAT YOU AREN'T, BELIEVE ME YOU ARE STRAIGHT IF YOU ARE A GAY AND YOUR THOUGHTS ARE TELLING YOU THAT YOU ARE STRAIGHT, BELIEVE ME YOU ARE GAY JUST SIT WITH THE THOUGHTS "YOU ARE OF WHAT YOU ARE" YOUR ATTRACTION WILL COMEBACK I PROMISE YOU , i suffer through this but i confidenttly that i am straight i love my woman even though she is just my crush i want to marry her someday and have kids with her, maybe this day i can't regain my attraction to the woman i love but i beleive it will comeback -don't lose hope theres always a blue sky waiting tomorrow BLUE SKY by hale And last there are days that are hard but i promise it will make yoh stronger if you face it with no fear ,,, and lastly DON'T , DON'T EVER WATCH PORN it will make your brain crazy,, PORN sucks, PORN can ruin lives

This dude videos help me so much thx u bro

You guys need to realize.. if you say your straight and have lived that life for however long and you identity as straight that’s it! Why are you gonna let fake thoughts fake feelings or whateve dictate how your life should be I know it’s hard trust me I’m going through it.. I constantly feel like a dark cloud follows me everywhere I get homosexual thoughts at times and I get them when I’m in public sometimes and just bad feelings that internally like something isn’t okay doubts and sometimes even question eveytging I do making sure I’m not sitting a certain way. Laying down a certain way it’s out of control but I know it’s stupid af. The thoughts do suck ALOT I hate them I don’t get arousals like a lot of people do, I don’t even get the desire or urges to watch any type of gay porn or to even test myself.. I’m very s self aware and understand whatever is going on is NOT me no matter how “real” it seem. You have to know your values and beliefs and stick to that. Idk about y’all but this attack started from the most simple random thing but obviously ocd comes in and does it’s thing. Learn to separate YOU TRUE-SELF from the disorder. I know it’s hard but you have to try! Do not live this lie ocd wants you to live. If you have a relationship with god or don’t seriously grow on and get close to him pray pray pray pray pray pray pray and let him HEAR YOU! He has the power to FREE ANYBODY you can be free from this. Just keep doing the things you loved doing before this ! Keep going out don’t put ur life on pause because of this ! Trust me idk about y’all but one thing the therapist won’t tell you! But I Believe 90% of this type of disorder is spiritual! Seriously everything, and the suffering I’ve gone through, feeling depressed! Being out of work for almost 3 months. Avoiding SO MANY PLACES ! You think this is of god ?! This is the devil attacking you! He’s doing this. This is what he wants ! God wants you closer ! I’m almost 30 and have a girlfriend who is riding w me. NOT ONCE NOT ONCE did I ever feel like this have thoughts like NOTHING. Sucks and feels weird all the time that I get these thoughts and the feelings when I’m here with my girlfriend! I hate it so much and want it GONE! I want just a clear mind again and my happiness and joy back in my life. But you have to stay grounded to who you truly are. You got this and will over come this.

I have hocd or at least i think i do i remeber you said that if you were friends with a gay person then you migh be i had 3 lesbian friends and i talked to a gay man in highschool but wasnt really friends with him what is your opinion

I just want to know how did you finally find that certainty and knew you weren’t gay .. As you know ocd is living with that uncertainty.. I would love to know please comment back. Do you have an email or anything ??

Is it normal to have a though like what if I’m gay or I’m game or i cause I said I’m gay i need to come out even tho I’m straight but now it’s just in the back of mind like maybe I’m gay even tho I don’t want to be help meeeee

I started to have these thoughts like two weeks ago.I got anxious and started panicking.I sometimes even fall asleep with thoughts okay im lesbian theres nothing wrong with that but then i wake up and start shaking.In some moments my mind is clear and im sure i want to be with a boy but like my mind says oh honey u cant u r a lesbian and its so hard.I even look at some boys and im like omg hes so attractive but then the thought comes back and its really confusing.

In this "enlightened" age, it is interesting to hear you talk about sexual attraction. Supposedly gay is cool now and acceptance is the norm. But no, this really isn't the case. I am a gay 71-year-old man who got married to the love of his life at 25 and didn't divorce until I was 49. I also have three sons. Let me just say that if you are gay, as I am, you know at a very young age, probably before you even hit puberty. I don't want to generalize on how you know, but let me just say you know you're different. With me, I've always wanted to be "close" to other men, and be with a man who I could hold close. I had this same feeling for my wife in our early years together, but not women in general. I rationalized it that I was attracted to men but wasn't gay because I loved my wife and was not only attracted to but wanted to be with her. I don't regret my years with her, but regret that my life and hers were shaped most likely negatively by my inability to more openly deal with my feelings when I was in my early 20s. It's easy to blame society, or parental pressure. But we all bear responsibility for living honestly, and to deal with the angst this young man in the video is discussing.

I am scared my case is different cuz I have watched lesbian porn in the past :-(. I am a woman

Dude this stuff kicked in about 2 weeks ago and I've been lost ever since