I just miss the old me wtf is happening to me.

IM LITERALLY SO CLOSE TO RECOVERING MAN! JUST THESE TRIGGERS I SWEAR! I PRAY FOR ALL YOU GUYS GOING THROUGH THIS. LOVE FROM L.A

Thank you for sharing that! I’ve been going through this 3months now but I got much more better when found videos about HOCD. I live in Hungary and there is no article or anything in my own language about this topic. It gave me relief you mentioned all of my symptoms in previous videos. I’m struggling with attraction towards women that’s the main topic nowdays, and it is rally hard especially in a relationship with my beloved girlfriend. So everyone out there it will be better, I already got better, patience! And again thanks a lot!

Thank you this helped me so much xI hope I can get better soon keep posting videos on this subject they help everyone a lot x

How are your videos not getting more likes? They're amazing and very helpful

the way i see it, i was never in denial before watching something that led to me having intrusive thoughts i always liked women and always will, my sexual drive may be down because of my mind but it’s only hocd talking, my sexuality doesn’t change because i saw something that was uncomfortable. Even trying to control it is getting a bit easier. Allowing the thoughts to process and as a back door spike it’s telling me “you’re accepting it” when in reality i just don’t care for the thought, I’ll get through it i know it.

My dude, your content is so amazing!!

at 5 years old i was raped, and it continued for 8 years. the problem with me is that i never got the choice of whom i wanted to love or like. that line was blurred. and i have gone all lthrough my l=fe thinking i was gay. i even tried it later on in life. but i did not want to be gay. and all of this came about because i never dealt with the rape. it took me until 61 to tell my wife and kids what happened to me, and that was the start of healing. and the more i opened up about the rape it got easier. but there are always triggers that take me back. but dealing with the thoughts have got so much better. i know now im not gay, but the thoughts always come back with triggers. but i can now deal with them, and talk openly with my wife about it.

Is it normal to mistake the increased heat rate from fear for feelings cuz it’s the part that fucks with me the most?

Thanks for the update video bro 💯👍🏼 still dealing w all this I’ve had days where I feel normal again but I happen to relapse on these unwanted thoughts like what if I’m bisexual or what if I’m gay what if I’m attracted to men. But at the end of the day I’m still attracted to women and women is the only gender I see myself being with even in the future. I hope I’m recovering I’m about 3 months in this whole thing since it started. Staying up I know these times ain’t true

This Quarantine has got me this.... It's Been 3 Month's and it's getting better but now when I get this thoughts it's not "What if" anymore It's more like I gotta do it.... It doesn't give me anxiety anymore but it does give me disgusting feeling....

Alright guys I finally dealt with my HOCD and got my attraction to women back. And I’ve got over it within 2 weeks. This has worked for me so I’m not sure if it would work for u but ima give my advice anyways. OCD feeds on fear and worries and I know it may be hard for some of y’all to stop worrying especially when it comes to cases like this. Well for me I didn’t accept that I was gay rather I told my self to stop worrying and whatever happens, happens and then my intrusive thoughts stopped and I got my attraction back so you guys could try this out if u want just telling what worked for me

We got this bro... Let's be strong. We go win. That's not who we are but evil spirits trying to steal our Devine purpose

Your Amazing Dude Thanks for your Advice

I’m getting a backdoor spike and I hate the situation I’m in. It’s a lingering lesser anxiety that there but it’s not close enough to destroy. I’ve been doing nothing but ruminating over these thoughts for the past couple of days

I have been following this guy for a while now and really appreciate his videos. I have been speaking to ocd therapist and now finally come to the terms that Ocd thoughts aren’t true. Is it common for ocd people to go through this question. I suffer with severe ocd with sexual obsessions which has Left me cripple for months. I think what use to scare me is going through my head can Hocd people realise they are and after numerous therapp sessions and confirmation I know this doesn’t happen and that ocd thoughts aren’t true. Did anyone know law get like this

I have thoughts like that too. Then I think of the infinite multiverse theory and does that mean there's a universe where I did randomly jab myself in the throat with a knife or throw plates at my tv?

Ozzy I have another question what's the difference between bisexual and false attraction I'm desperate pls anyone reply

I really have learned a lot about myself and my thinking by listening to you. You'd make a great university professor...!!!...

I love you content. :)

Yous story made me fell realtà sad for the situation that was going im glad that you where able to recover On question did you got diagnoise with ocd befor getting diagnoise with hocd

This is the first time I hear about HOCD, actually I had to google what that stood for....It's hard for me to understand it because I don't have any OCDs, therefore it seems kind of irrational (don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to insult anyone) that someone should worry about an attraction they don't feel. I thought most people who thought themselves as straight started to worry once they started to feel some sort of attraction towards people of their same sex, not before....So I guess, without knowing much about the subject, all OCDs are, in essence, irrational, since one is not able to control it without proper therapy or lots of work....It seems like a pity to waste some much time thinking about something that's not there....Best wishes...

I had this trigger about an year ago and it bothered me really bad for a month, it did kind of go away. Now for the past 5 days it's been super bad, I've been having 2 meltdowns everyday and it's hindering my every thought. I'm freaking out real bad. I need help. I've always been a super anxious person and this is just making it real bad.

Ok i just discovered your channel and i was confused about hocd, I didn't even that was a thing 😂😂😂

Nice vid mate

Have you ever questioned why you inherently believe being gay is bad? And if you DO potentially find a guy attractive (which you won't because you are straight), why it needs to be "cured" and fixed?

And thoughts are different than feelings **KEY** to remember.

Is it normal for sex drive to be low after going through hocd for around 6 months. That’s one of the things messing with me because before it happened I used to swipe through Instagram and be attracted to the girls on there but now I feel nothing and when I see something like a man doing exercise my anxiety goes up and I feel like I’m attracted to them when I know I’m not.

Thank you so much this was so needed btw I'm so close to recovery

Loved Women my Entire Life ❤💁‍♀️❤️ Feeling better knowing that im not alone with these Thoughts.

How are your lips so red? , can u tell me some tips ?

3:18 PREACH MAN! I feel that! But like I know I’m not but it’s just like I had two brains my regular one and then the HOCD brain.

Bro can you make a update video about false attraction

I just wish porn wasn't so accessible to 6-8 years olds

There was a university study undertaken where males who were straight and males who gay were shown male nude videos while an attachment was placed on their bodies to measure if they were stimulated by the videos and the research showed that males who were straight to the extreme were the ones who were stimulated the most by the videos . Many males and females are taught by their upbringing that there are strict boundaries to what is male or what is female and that they must look or act in a certain way and this may be a reason why people are so disturbed if they are viewed by other as not being completely male or completely female in the way they live their lives and the roles expected from them in a very judgemental society .

It sounds like your anxiety is the problem - not whether or not you are gay or bisexual.

What is your Facebook or email?

why the hell was this video on my suggestions?

Bro before I read one massage about hocd I feel anxiety when I say I am straight and when I say I am gay i don't feel anxiety but I read one gay patient comment my anxiety reverse now when I say I am straight i don't feel anxiety and when I say I am gay i feel anxiety please help me is this hocd or not please help me I don't wanna be gay

I was watching a gay movie scene and seeing that i felt grossed and closed the scene then within 2-3 i had thoughts am.. i gay am i ? I used to be really particular about the choice of girls i wanted (perfectionism) and admired good looking men too and that boosted my HOCD.. But the good thing is it seems to get better now i still have some past doubts but it's getting better.. Tell me your story 👇

Ozzy I think I have hocd as Ive been thinking it about it for months and then after a few months I started having attraction to men please could you help me and please message me

In all the years of me using KZfaq I've Never seen some shit like this WTF is happening

Can porn addiction also cause hocd?

Iv been struggling with it for 3 years it went away for a little but then comes back

Sorry to hear this is such a challenge for you. How much of this anxiety is caused by anti-gay sentiment from others? How much is caused by the anti-gay propaganda we see so much of in politics these days? Personally I don't care who you are attracted to. A lot of men are attracted to other women and still remain faithful to theirs wives. A lot of guys are bisexual and faithful and happily married to their wife or husband. I know OCD in general can be difficult to deal with. It is also OK to accept yourself if you are bisexual. I hope you are finding the help you need.

does No fap Help on this ?

So about a month ago I started getting this thought and I don’t feel right. I have a lot of anxiety and discomfort when this thought happens . Before this all started happening I was fine I had crushes on girls and everything felt good. But then one day I started having the thought and it go worse and worse to the point where I don’t really hang out with my friends anymore because I’m scared that I’m going to get a crush on them. Also I started having a wierd attraction towards every man I see .and before this I could acknowledge if some ones handsome but that’s it but now I start thinking what if I’m turning gay for them. And sometimes it tells me what if it’s not hocd. And I want to see if this sounds like hocd so I can get some help

I already commented on your other video so just Incase you don’t see the other one I’m commenting everything here

Guys is it normal for those who are going through hocd to have thoughts that my parents won’t let me be lesbian/bi EVEN though they don’t have a problem!

Guys guys, today the thoughts didnt come to my head and I was happy! BUT what upsets me rn is the way I know I like girls but my voice is so small Im a guy, Why do I have boobs I know Im fat but some fat guys never have boobs, and lastly the way I act is too clingy or too soft, I shouldnt be like this, men shouldnt be like this

Nothing more annoying then acronyms people think you should know.

No to know who you are, you gotta ask yourself those questions!!

I'm struggling with my own thoughts having unwanted gay I know I want to be straight

If one doesn't care if anyone is gay it would lose the impetus to go into that "feedback loop". If you are at "oh well" It would be fine if I was homosexual then the power of the thought goes away.

So only gay what if I'm gay ..that's the thought?..what about having sexual homosexual thought with anxiety..

I wish this types of videos was translated into spanish :(

Good video, Ozzy. But I'm afraid you need a do-over. It's AMYGDALA with a 'G' in the middle and the stress is on the MYG, not the DA. You can Google how to pronounce it. Once, I'd just let it go but you used the word at least 10 times. Your talk pointed out to me why some guys try SO hard to prove their 'straightness' and (what they think is) masculinity.

Talk about groinals

I am trying to push the thoughts away and i am increasingly accepting that there is no clear answer. ALl I want is a passionate makeout session with a woman again like I did last year.

I consider myself straight. But I can find guys sexually attractive.

I’ve literally had this for a month

I would suggest dont date anyone whos psychological response is humiliation or control Dont use drugs that cause arousal anxiety or mindedness. Dont worry about your obvious expression. Think about only do you want to hold the person and would you hold them out of camaraderie or because you think it might feel so amazing to touch a man who you see and feel inside your chest and palms. I wouldnt say im straight if i saw a girl who i thought was beautiful but if she can make me want to fill her with a knife as tho shes a watermelon. Then maybe. And if i like a man just seeing him makes my character change and if i want a man i will not only be comfortable i will be happy to share my feelings. Thats all despite my greater mind.

I haven't seen this much anxiety about same sex attraction in years, I thought people were pretty much okay now with if they were attracted to certain members of they're own sex, and that it was no big deal today.

Everyone has sexual fantasies with both sex and there is nothing wrong with it. I believe that everyone should try both sex at least once or twice in their life. That does not define you with a label such as gay straight by or whatever. It is you exploring Life trying new things out. Having sex with a woman or having sex with a man is completely different.

As I always say about vids like this, people are overthinking this issue (which really isn't an issue) except for self-conscious men who are making more of it than they should. I'm a healthy heterosexual man who loves my wife and have had a healthy interest in girls all my adult life. When I was in junior high, I had two intimate encounters with two different male friends (neither were gay). Both were simple opportunistic encounters. We would start talking about ourselves and ended up becoming aroused. Then we'd get naked, explore each other, then go all the way by helping each other reach orgasm (I got to watch another male climax, and feel some other teenage boy's semen on my hand for a change). It only happened once with each friend. They were fun and interesting 'explorations' of another male's body (one friend was circumcised, the other was not). I never dwelled on the encounters or felt bad about them. After a number of encounters with women, I finally met my wife and got married. Thinking back, I have never thought of myself as gay or homosexual, and I still don't regret or feel shame for what happened. I was curious. Nothing more than that. I see those encounters as more of life's neat learning opportunities...period. Have I had a few 'errant' thoughts about men since? Sure! I have had many more thoughts about other women too. But I don't act on them or dwell on them. Quit making more of this than it needs to be. If you're a hetero male and had a couple of intimate encounters with boys (when you were very young) or men, chalk them up as life experiences, enjoy women, get married, and live on!!! All the best!!!

Have none of you ever considered that you might be bisexual? It happens. There's nothing wrong with it. But apart from that, most people explore and experiment before they know for certain. Relax. Sexuality is on a scale. Being all the way to one end or the other of the Kinsey scale isn't even that common so some need to explore before they know where they are. And some unfortunate people lead miserable lives because they repress feelings for a long while as they fear society's reaction. Please don't be beating yourselves up about this. It'll work itself out.

There seems to be a lot of misinformation on this video, Ozzy commented on having homosexual thoughts and that was a bad thing, If you guys are having thoughts about other men, your probably gay. Thats just the way is it, you could try and fight your feeling, but unfortunately you will end up unhappy, living a life of regrets, because there is nothing greater that being yourself, and you would not have time to worry about all this other crap like HOCD, and what other people think, thats the true recovery.

U look Handsome

This is silly. There's lots of attractive women in the world and lots of handsome men in the world. Why torture yourself over something as trivial as sex.

Jesus Christ, there is so much homophobia underlying some of these comments.

The "thing" that makes the thoughts happen is being GAY.

Homosexuality is as old as mankind. You can be happy as gay. I knew I was gay because I only had night dreams being with men. So I accepted it. I lost some friends but I live my life honest and got new friends. Don't be scared.

Most folks educated on the topic will tell you sexuality exists on a spectrum. What a weird video.

Homosexual obsessive compulsive disorder? That's a first. Okay, first off, I am a gay guy so my take is different. I can tell everyone out there that homosexuality IS NOT what other people think of you, any more than being straight is. HOCD? I don't know anything about these but it seem to be based on some misconceptions. People in general think they no other people based on stupid labels so I am hearing a lot of that in HOCD description here. If your sexuality is more about what you think other people think of this or that than it is about your own sexual feelings that sounds like a problem. I wouldn't assume you are gay OR straight until you can work out the difference between the obsession with what you assume other people think and your own feelings. It sounds like for those who have HOCD they have a hard time telling if they actually are or are not homosexual largely because they are worried about how other people see them, that isn't a healthy way to deal with sexuality at all.

Oh, puleeze.

Why am I getting a homophobia vibe?