That hurt my heart. I can’t imagine feeling so alienated and unsure of where you fit.

SAME!

That hurts 😭. However, she's amazing the way she is. She doesn't need to fit in any categories.

@@MuchLove-3 I agree, I really enjoy her content and that she’s helping spread awareness on things that a lot of people don’t know about autism and other issues in the world. She’s a very incredible human and I look forward to seeing what she accomplishes as I think she’ll do great things

Same..

Sameeee

I'm still thinking the same thing and i'm now 51.

Your blessed to be very intelligent

funny, i’m here thinking I was smarter

Yuppp. In elementary school I was incredibly smart and I’m still convinced that if I wasn’t as smart as I was I would’ve got a diagnosis at that age. Teachers completely ignore all the symptoms when you’re smart and I was just passed off as the shy quiet smart kid. It only became more obvious I had autism when I started not being able to keep up with middle/high school students

Definitely the same for me. Could not have ever put it better and more simply than this.

Agreed.

I totally agree with this. I was late diagnosed at 28 because of this and still at 45 it causes problems. Being in New Zealand where we tend to be 10-15 years behind other countries in the overall supports and that parts of our Health systems have collapsed, it will be like this for life I expect.

it's sad that people like her are a rarity

@@carolinem.6747 yeah, my dad smothers me and gets upset when I ask him to stop as if I hate him, I just don’t like being smothered lol

@@neckbackcripplinganxietyattack one time my dad said I wanted him dead, because I can’t regulate my tone of voice so I sound angry and/or annoyed

After 42yrs, my dad still touches me when he talks to me, it makes me want to claw my skin off, but he just gets angry when i flinch and rub the feeling away, feels sorry for himself, i hug him cuddle him try to show my love, but he can't accept my needs . I long for this kind of relationship.

I wish my mom was like this, she takes EVERYTHING personally and it’s frustrating because I’ve told her so many times it’s a ME thing and not a HER thing 😪

I completely undetstand!!

Me too :((

To all of y'all..I in no way to mean this sound condescending but I'm sure there is love for you..some people just don't know how to show it. I had a distant dad growing up and it does end up affecting you. But if I could say anything in the way of advice (I know none of y'all asked but like I said I'm just trying to give context to avoid condescension..) please don't ever let it define you. (I'm in no way qualified to give advice because everyone's experience is different..) please give yourselves every chance in the world possible.

@@brazenlilhussy5975 thank you. My mom was a narcissist. They don't know how to love. But that was my experience. I really appreciate you taking the time to write such a thoughtful comment ❤ I can relate to the original poster because seeing a mom this engaged with their daughter makes people like us compelled to comment. I also typically write how beautiful it is to see such a caring and engaged parent.....something some of us find .....what's the word I'm looking for....foreign.

@@floppybob1121 That's exactly why I took the time to comment, and usually I can put a good sentence together but it's such a touchy subject, because like we both agree everybody's experience is so personal to them, you don't want it to sound insincere. Thanks so much for your reply and that you took my comment in the way it was intended..you seem to be doing just fine btw..you can read context and intent from a comment so right off the bat they're great traits. I also noticed you said 'was'..I'm sorry to hear that. Take good care of yourself man, and thanks.

I'm autistic and I have never done well with non-answers to questions. If you're going to tell me to do something, I *need* to know the reason. If you can't give me a good reason, I won't do it - unless there are consequences I don't want to face. And I hate that

I would behave even when people said becuase I said so becuase I was petrified to be in trouble but I wouldn’t do it again if they gave me an explaination

Exactly! As a kid I would get so confused and frustrated. Sometimes it would even lead to meltdowns because I just needed to know WHY and understand

Telling your kid “because I said so” is just lazy parenting. As a neurotypical person, I hated it when my parents would say it. It’s a parents job to teach their child the critical thinking and reasoning skills to empower them to make good decisions later. Explaining why/why not we do certain things, allows your child to form connections and apply that logic to other situations. Saying “because I said so” sounds a lot like “I don’t care how you feel or whether or not you understand. I only care that you behave in a way that’s convenient for me.”

Louder for the people in the back!!!!

Yeah, I think every report card I ever got, in the comments said "Could try harder." Um, I already was trying as hard as I could. I may not have lived up to my full "book smart" potential, but I was at the peak of my "emotional smarts" potential without any more guidance than I got, and way behind my classmates in that regard.

i felt it too. i've always been told i was smart enough and capable enough to do well in school because i did well on so many tests and assessments and i learned so much so quickly, but i had no executive function skills to finish all my work and organize my life enough to keep my grades up, and any assignments without really clear instructions just overwhelm me and i can't even think of where to start. i've only gotten more burnt out in college to the point where i could not manage more than half the work for any of my classes this entire semester. my fiancé's helping me and if i don't fail, he'll be the only reason why. i'm not even diagnosed with anything other than adhd and depression, i just think i'm probably autistic too. it can make me emotional to just think about all the other classes i still have to take because i know that i'm gonna get overwhelmed and not turn in all of my work and i'm gonna feel terrible. i've been in this cycle since i was a kid but nobody ever thought there might be a problem other than adhd.

@@jk-jl2lo this is literally happening to me right now. i was diagnosed with asd at 3 and i’m in my first year of college and i’ve hit a wall. doesn’t help that i learned to assimilate very well so it’s just hard to explain to ppl besides my family (and even then it’s still hard cause i can’t even explain shit to myself sometimes😭). you truly don’t have anything to compare it to cause it’s not like you can swap brains with a non autistic person. if you haven’t yet, try to find someone who is specialized in that stuff if you can. some doctors will diagnose you with anything under the sun before even considering there may be a root cause

​@@joycebrewer4150You put that so well. I can completely relate and experienced this also.

I am 37, have autism, married, 3 kids and own 3 different businesses

Hey, just wanted to clarify something. You said that your daughter doesn’t know why people should have authority without earning it. Nobody truly does. But most people just accept that. The fact that your daughter questions it only shows that she won’t just accept it. The big question is which way should be accepted. Should we blindly accept authority, even if it isn’t earned? Or should we hold authority accountable, and stop letting incompetent leaders stay in power.

I learned I was on the spectrum when I was 14. My 1.5 year old sister (at the time) was severely autistic and practically non-verbal except "tickle-tickle".... when looking into it more we realized how much similarities I had too. I'm currently in my 3rd college attempt at 21 years old..... and to the creator of the video, i would GLADALLY accept you in a "you don't look autistic" club with me.

Right, people always think that people who are autistic are weird yet we're literally almost the same, so why judge🤷🏽‍♀️

If you have ASD reach out to me on Instagram I’m trying to start out a series of interviewing people with learning disabilities of all kinds so that I can present where we can change stuff in the field of education

Agreed! My son is Autistic.. and there was so much that Paige and her mother shared that were so very similar to our story and my son's struggles with Autism.

Same here girl !!

I lost my job because of my autism because I might of been a bit slower and my brain works different and they couldn’t accept that :(

😩 aww back them people were so ignorant about mental health 💔 thank God times are changing and is being addressed more 💚 i hope u're good now 🥰 i went thru something similar, and they never took their time to investigate if i had something to this day! And just because my son is autistic, i realized i may have attention disorder 🤷‍♀️ and went i asked my mom if she ever realized it, girl she bluntly told me YES BUT I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST THAT U WERE LIKE THAT 😐 i struggled my whole life at school, i even dropped out of college because i just cant learn at the same pace as others. With all my heart i just want my son's journey to be different from mine 💙🧩

My mum does this to my brother aswell and encourages me to I always need help with remembering he needs encouragement 👍🏽

My mom always called me fat so I starved myself and my mom never told me I was good enough even though I was also extremely smart and let’s just say I ended up in a mental hospital

@@briannaminton7997 I’m so sorry

I hope you’re ok, you deserve so so much better I promise you/g

@Anna Hofmann help I didn't get it either 😥 hahaha

Timestamp?

@@lybrachenia18around 25:08

@@ooser707 She had been drinking Baileys, an alcoholic drink so I guess she was a little drunk haha!😄

I'm amused not only that she openly admitted to it, but that almost no one else seems to have noticed 😂

I’m that “gifted kid”. I failed out of university and none of my family understood. I couldn’t eat at the dinning commons because of the sensory overload, the large crowded lecture halls made me too nervous to leave my dorm room. I have struggled my entire life, but no one has believed me because I was high achieving. when I was no longer able to preform well in school, my family used my previous ability to achieve to disregard me genuinely asking for help. I went to my old pediatrician and fought for a diagnosis for ADHD, and even that was incredibly difficult for me, in spite of there being lot less stigma for high achieving girls being diagnosed with ADHD. My experience with that has terrified me; my family told me that there was nothing wrong with me and I just wanted to take the lazy way out. I don’t think anyone, including my doctors, will believe me when I bring up my interest in getting a ASD diagnosis.

i’ve taken a few classes and nothing that we were taught about autism included anything like her characteristics. so it’s cool to see cases outside of the “textbook”

@@haileys5224 I felt that... I went from doing well in high school to struggling in college (where I live you need to do an equivalent to a pre university (2 years) in college before going to University) I ended up dropping out because I couldn't keep up with the fast pace school life and because of my anxiety :/... I personally think I have ADHD, but I'm waiting to get tested and see if it's actually that or something else.

Hello! Me. :)

I'm starting to think I may be autistic. I've actually thought it a few times over the past decade or so. There are so many things that just validate this for me. And I definitely find myself masking certain things about me. I was gifted but failed out of college because I could not comprehend the questions being asked of me. And math came so naturally and easily for me because you don't have to interpret anything. There are obviously many other things but that is just an example I find interesting because I was always top of my class, I was in the 30+ club for ACT, high GPA and was even in the gifted program but college could not click for me and I failed out and it was because I could not make sense of the questions

Yes! But also.. This is how people should talk to each other either way to UNDERSTAND each other, disabilities or not. I have never ever been able to talk so openly and deeply with my parents and not for a lack of trying. The fact that these mother and daughter have autism just adds up to my admiration and slight jealousy, because I've always craved that sort of connection. They're both emotionally intelligent and you can clearly see how they've had struggles all throughout but they wanted to learn. To understand. They ask questions and actually get involved in each other's thought processes, express an interest in each other's emotional experience of events... which is what it's all about I think. Watching this makes me realise how much you get deprived of love and acceptance when people have never been taught the importance of honest communication and emotional intelligence.. I'd say that's probably the biggest disability. Unfortunately no one has put it in a diagnostic manual yet.

Absolutely!!

@@mariyabardarska5895 I completely agree with your sentiments and I think the simple answer is that is really hard. You have to care for and love the other person enough to invest yourself in the relationship. It takes an big emotional toll on you as a person as well. Our son (9) is awaiting his diognosis for ASD - Autism Spectrum Disorder - (In the UK, other than clinically we don't tend to differentiate where on the spectrum). Being a parent is hard. You have your own experiences, societal expectations and gender/other stereotypes influencing how you behave. I would have to say, that just like Paige's Mom, I grew as a person and a parent in trying to understand what make's my son different. The journey, which I am still on, means I also realise it would be great if we all were this open and understanding with others - it would take away a lot of the misunderstandings and misconceptions we have about each other. I've never had this with my parents either but I hope that my son, and more neurotypical daughter (7), get the benefit of this learning process - to use your words, investing in each others thought processes amd consideration for each others emotional experience of events. This with validation and acceptance will hopefully build better, deeper, safer relationships for both our children. As Paige said, she wants the world to want to understand her so that she doesnt feel so alien in it. My son, I suspect, although he is not yet as a stage where he can express that, needs this too. So, for the moment it is a lot of investment on our and his younger sister's (along with extended family, friends and a supportive local school) part without much in return as we attempt to bridge that gap to him. We make plenty of mistakes but we hope that as we get better and he grows in his own experiences it will be reciprocated, as in this video, to build a healthy, understanding and commuicative relationship pattern for him. We can obviously use these skills elsewhere in life too.

Being autistic isn’t a disability for everyone.

Autism is not a disability, it does not mean less capable.

Caleb Leverett Omg I’ve seen your vids on your channel how’s Parker Doing

You should go get formally diagnosed. My son was diagnosed with autism and going through the process of his diagnosis rang so many bells with me that I went and was diagnosed as autistic as well and it has really changed the way I view not only my son’s life but has really explained events in my own life. It really felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

my siblings and I have different dads and we all have autism (my brother and I are level 2 and my sister is level 3 - yeah my mum has her hands full) so we believe my mother might be the one with autism but she doesn’t want to get diagnosed.

My sons’ father only found out after our younger (nonverbal) son was diagnosed. Our older son seemed like he had OCD and ADHD so the obviousness was so apparent. Now their father is starting to figure out his childhood (that he’s blocked) and it’s difficult but freeing for him

Wasn’t so apparent*

i hope i’m not being rude… but i am curious (and you have every right to not answer) but have you received a diagnosis? i related to what you said, i’m currently being evaluated (and have scored extremely high on all of my questionnaires/assessments). regardless, i guess i’m asking what helped you? i struggle with this with my mom wanting to “fix” things for me vs being my mom.

@@courtkendell really? I thought it was the opposite

Good for you!!! So happy to hear, that things worked out for you.

THATS A HUGE DEAL

This made me so happy🥰🥰♥️

Damn now I gotta step it up

Thank you

Do you suggest I send it to my mom?

I’m sending this to my mom too… hoping to get some validation. I can’t tell if I’m just like Paige, or if it’s all in my head.

@@cocraine yes!

❤

​@@buggysims723You can be different than her, but experience the feelings that she's had (and has). Your feelings are valid and if you feel the way you do, it is not all in your head.

Paige looks so much like her, just gorgeous 😍

That’s such a beautiful comment

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@@BbyMxM if you don’t feel it you just don’t luv

Really? I sense emptiness and selfishness in those eyes

My mom is the same way. Same with my adhd diagnosis. She thinks I use them as excuses. But she does say I think in only in Black and White. (I tell her I can see the middle ground- she doesn't believe me)

Mine's the opposite 😅 she insists that I am and wants me to go see a psychiatrist

@@Delihlah SAME, but with ADD

@@isabellemeissner9873 ADD doesn't exist as a term anymore. They combined it with ADHD so now you either have ADHD Inattentive or ADHD Hyperactive. I have ADHD Inattentive but my mom thinks I also have autism or was misdiagnosed.

@@Delihlah where did you get that information about there being no add just adhd with inattentive or hyper attentive? Because add is just attention deficit meaning they are “inattentive” and in adhd the “hd” stands for “hyperactivity disorder” so in essence what you’re still saying is, there’s only add (inattentive) and adhd (hyper)

Go talk to your mum

Omg same

I didn’t realize how much I look at the wall when I watch her videos...but WOW same!

sameee😭😭

Same I'm always looking at her walls and their reflection 🖤

this makes so much sense now. i stared at it the whole video

Yes, I have been diagnosed with ADHD and I’m looking into pursuing an Autism diagnosis. Most of what I deal with is internal. It has external consequences but they look like laziness from the outside. I wasn’t able to go to a doctor for all of it until I opened up. Because we mask, it puts so much pressure on us to notice the situation. I wish my parents knew sooner. But, I can’t blame them. It’s hard to tell because it’s all going on the inside.

It’s not just females

@@randomguy56789 they didn’t say that. Its just that women tend to mask more

@@playdoh658 not really, no traits are specific to gender. Autism has two main presentations: external and internal, not male and female presentations. So many men mask as well, or trans men, or non binary that were AFAB People NEED to stop saying female and male in regards to autism traits, it’s so harmful.

@@harmony8623 but it’s true? afabs were taught to act a certain way. which affected the way we behaved or atleast we believed the right way to behave is. It’s literally statistical...(also I never said men don’t experience it so i’m not sure why you brought it up) yes a lot of amabs mask aswell BUT there’s a much higher percentage of afabs who do. White male presenting ppl get diagnosed much quicker bcs the diagnostic tool is literally based on them. So anyone who doesn’t fit that criteria will have a harder time realizing they’re autistic (or parents won’t think they’re autistic but they’re misbehaving, trying to fix them to he more “ladylike”) so young afabs believe that they’re weird and so they hide who they are by masking. Not only do their parents tell them to do this not that (which gives them material on how to mask) so they can act like a “normal girl”, but classmates as well (especially if the child experiences bullying) I’ve experienced this personally and I know many many many others who did aswell. Don’t forget the “autism only happens to boys” (amabs) thing is still a thing. When amabs show signs of autism, its obvious to allistics. But if afabs do (collecting toys, talking a lot and so on. This also applies to adhd) it’s seen as normal

I stare off so I can concentrate on the speaking person's word. People always look in the direction I'm staring to see what I'm looking at. Lol.

I do that too and I'm not even autistic

I do this too! I felt valid as well :) i just recently like a week ago got diagnosed and it makes so much sense now for everyone how i was always different in some ways

Me too I'm always looking around im never not really

@@tapiwakay don’t know if it’s my adhd or just me but I do this too!! When I talk and listen I need to look away to concentrate or remember

Plus that's insulting. Like saying all autistic people look a certain way is very rude. Also, even if that person is/isn't autistic, it's hurtful either way.

Well some autistic kids DO have a look to them. Remember there’s a whole spectrum

@@ceeceedior21 There’s a whole spectrum that means we don’t all look like each other... some of us having similar features doesn’t equate to “looking autistic”

Or gay. Not saying it’s the same but so many people say you don’t look blank it’s just like thanks I don’t think there is a law on how I’m supposed to look on the outside if I’m this on the inside.

@@haleyrussom4997 Yeah I'm told by some "You just looked lesbian/bi" (I'm lesbian) and others are like "Nah you look 'straight'" like wtf ppl look different anyone looks any way??

Yesss this is so important. My parents could never.

I wish my parents could do that. I completely opened up to my mom about how she’s made me feel the past 3 years. She didn’t say anything and ignored it two weeks later when she sent me a text. Then she continued to treat me the same way 🙃

Its really beautiful. My parents could never. I’m so tired of talking to a parent and hearing well I just did the best I could... they get so defensive! I will always hear my children and validate their feelings. As parents we make mistakes and you should know how to say sorry and grow.

My mom literally says something similar to me-

Tell me about it. I think I may have felt the acceptance and love and warmth that come with that.. somewhere in a dream. My mom can't even comprehend the concept of sharing complex emotions, or the fact tha it is not about "blaming" her, it's just trying to make a connection. Whenever I try to speak openly about how I've felt about things she did while I was growing up, she either pulls out the victim card, sarcastically patronising me by saying things like "oh yeah yeah I know, it's all my fault, I was awful" or just plain and simple blames me for being too "closed off"... If anyone knows a way around that, please let me know 😁

SN: you're really gorgeous 😍😍

@@khandowando2399 aw thank youu

Yes you’re so beautiful and you’re also very right I love both my autistic sons they have changed my perspective on life for the better✅😍

@@TheePrettyTomboy aw thank you and that’s so awesome❤️

I totally agree! I think we have a lot to bring to the world and it’s a gift. It doesn’t always feel like a gift, but it is.

I'm sorry your mom made you feel like that... That isn't the childhood you deserved. You are very valid, important, smart, beautiful, all of it! 🖤🖤🖤

she posted her story (not full in depth but a summary of it) on her tiktok! you should check her page and you will find it

I think she plans to do a video on this in the future. :)

IDK how she got a diagnoses but my son was diagnosed after I took him to a phycologist... she diagnosed him pretty quickly lol

@@KittyCat-vu2lz your lucky , the waiting list in the uk is over a year I’ve been waiting months to even get a test and I’m 17 now

@@paigemackley4069 oh gosh! I'm sorry :( Why does it take so long there?

My dad didn’t believe I was autistic because he had the mindset “she’s just weird and quirky”

@@emelliott Or be like "You just learn slowly than others".

@@coloringbunnies1273 Whenever I bring something up to my dad that I did when I was younger might be because I'm autistic he tells me to stop looking for things that are wrong with me but I don't see it like that at all. I think it's just interesting and I'm also trying to consolidate stuff for when I can finally get an eval too

@@coloringbunnies1273 I think a lot of the time parent don't want to admit that their child might have a disorder or mental illness because they think that it might be their fault. So if they don't admit it then there's nothing wrong.

Same with my parents, but I suspect a lot of what they thought was normal was normal to them because they’re undiagnosed autistic.

I don’t know hold old your daughter is, but I am the same. I am now 21 years old and I think I got diagnosed around my ninth. A tip I can give you is get as much therapies and professional help as much as she can handle, not to chance her, but to give her the right tools to thrive in society. Because she will have to and people will expect the same from her then from others. This way at home she can be herself, but at the outside she will end up using this tool without even knowing. I’m extremely grateful that my parents did this for me, because I’ve seen children with parents who cleared the path for their autistic child. Like they didn’t have to do stuff they didn’t like or they didn’t have to get a job, but now these young adults are struggling in society. Also believe in her and don’t think she can’t do things because of her autism. I sometimes have high sensitivity issues yet I still work at a theme park and getting my Bachelors in Leisure and Events and I love it! It won’t be issue and she will have identity issues because of this, but what I liked the most when I was younger to be arounds kids that were the same as me. I made great friends and I never felt alone. Push her to the be the best version of herself and be proud of her, because I know she will thrive in this society and will live a happy life. Autism isn’t the end of the world even though for her it might feel like that on some days. Emotions are always difficult but no matter how old she is what worked for me was to keep it simple. Around 12 I started to learn emotions through emojis for ex. I’m sorry for this super long answer you didn’t ask for but conclusion: I am now grateful that I am not autistic enough to be autistic and I know your daughter will be too someday. She will grow up to be an amazing woman with her own little weird perks that make her not normal, but very special in a good and sometimes bad ways like us all!

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Yeah, being that high functioning is like being stuck in the "uncanny valley" of social interaction.

I used to do that in school when my 4th grade teacher was giving me a hard time and singling me out and stuff and constantly thinking I was cheating or just yelling at me for no reason in general. In general when something really bothers me i either cant get words out in an emotional situation and i can only breathe and stutter or i get angry i cant get words out and all i can do is growl frustratedly. I still don't know a ton about it despite being diagnosed in like 2nd grade but I'm fairly certain thats a non verbal episode? Or a variant of one? No one really told me or would help me. They still don't really so im taking initiative to find it all out myself lol but people always call it temper tantrums and ignoring them which makes it worse cause im trying so hard lol

Yes!!just what I wanted to say but worded better! ❤️also 24 and autistic (aspergers), so this was cool to see

That is how I feel, too! She put it so perfectly.

I see this resonated with so many autistic women! I think Paige should start a support group ♥️.

Yesss! Same 21 and #AspieSquad and I hate typing like communicating through texts. I only texts when I need to get info across or arrange something. I’m always like if ya wanna talk more call more or meet up✌🏼

I had a lot of trouble feeling like I was "autistic enough" to call myself autistc. And then I remembered that a neurotypical wouldn't headbang to the point of bleeding without even noticing it as a form of coping... It was not a fun experience but it was somewhat validating in a weird way.

@@noahfox179 I'm worried that I'm not "autistic" enough to be diagnosed because I don't have extreme behaviors like this. The most I do is repetitively pick at scabs

@@noahkach don't fear not being autistic enough if you are having symptoms of something don't fear being tested for it. Everyone is different and that's what makes us all amazing. Even if you aren't autistic a doctor will be able to give you answers or a diagnosis. (I hope this made sense and I explained it correctly)

@@noahkach being on the Autistic Spectrum doesn't necessarily involve any 'exteme behaviours' at all. If you wanted to see if you were likely on the spectrum there's a test called the autism quotient that can be done online & would likely give you a good indication of if you're likely on the spectrum

right! I can’t stop looking at it😍

You are stating FACTS 🤣

Mine is hahah but I’m the same as her haha

Owh you are not getting scammed. It’s just called ‘being lucky’ 🙈

🤣🤣🤣

♥️♥️♥️

😂😂

I am sorry that this happened to you. It’s my reality as well.

Facts. Narc moms need to realize their issues so that they can stop giving children autism

You don’t know everyone’s situation. I had my miracle baby when taking an opiate for chronic pain. I call him a miracle because I was told if I wanted to have a baby, I’d most likely need IVF or to adopt. My brother, who is 3 years older than I, is autistic, my fiancé (and father of my baby) is likely autistic, and my 2 1/2 was diagnosed with autism. But there are many, many, babies born from addicts that are NOT autistic.

Li Gi, you are right. Our children are NOT broken. I live by the quote “I wouldn’t change you for the world, but I would change the world for you”.

@@nationalgeo2191 autism is in our DNA and not something we "get"! Not from treatment and not from vaccines! We are different than you neurotypicals but we aren't lesser! Being neurotypical is NOT our goal!

@@mua3588 well that hasn't actually been proven whether or not it's in the DNA. But there has been a whole lot of theories among realistic intelligent psychologist that think autism as well as ADHD might stem from a lack of proper maternal treatment. I never said you were a lesser person, but if those psychologists theories are true then the only lesser person is your mother

Hey this is so cute may god bless her

@@sanaesam2441 she is the most affectionate person I know 🥰

This is the way I feel. I think there is definitely an issue with me, I don’t think I’m autistic, but there is definitely something wrong with me, but I think everyone else thinks I’m just weird, especially as I’m also pretty socially young, I’m not sure if that’s the way of saying it. One of my friends said last week that I’m ‘stuck in Year 5’ which is basically the best way I can think of describing it. Year 5 is 9-10 years old in England. I’m academically older than my age, so there’s also that that makes me different to everyone else. And it’s like I know that there’s something wrong with me, but no one else realises that maybe crying because I forgot a piece of homework is a problem, and I’m also worried that if anyone noticed there was a problem they’d just think I was attention-seeking because most teenagers don’t cry about stuff like that, and I don’t cry at important things, like when my grandparents died, obviously I was really upset, but I didn’t cry even though I knew I was supposed to. I don’t speak a lot, I can, I just don’t and I’m not very loud so it’s very easy for people not to hear me or not to listen. I was the ‘gifted’ kid when I was in primary school, so was my sister, and she still is now, but since about halfway through Year 7 I’ve just kind of stopped being good at stuff I used to be able to do. That’s not really what it is, it’s like I know how to do stuff but I don’t understand how I can do it any more. No one really puts me under pressure to do well, it’s more of an expected thing that I do well at everything. Like, not as if if I do badly anyone will be angry, but like there’s no possible scenario in anyone else’s minds where I fail at anything. I also fidget a lot, I think that’s to do with anxiety, and I used to have a problem with pulling my hair out but my mum yelled at me enough whenever I touched my hair to make me stop. Now I crack my knuckles and pinch my fingertips, which annoys her a lot but at least it isn’t harmful. Sorry about the long reply talking about myself, I always find it annoying when people do this, but I just wanted to vent a bit.

@@ihopeicanchangethisnamelat7108 It sounds like you should speak with a doctor or therapist if you haven't already. There's a problem if you feel like you aren't able to live fully. I'd share with the specialist what you've written here. Advocate for yourself; if the first doc you visit doesn't take you seriously then visit someone else. Your feelings are valid. Your observations about yourself are worth looking into.

I have felt like this my entire life.

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I’m only just seen this video and I agree

I had the biggest laugh at that; totally unexpected lmao

You ever drunk baileys from a shoe

@Devos Lemmens someone doesn’t know about Old Gregg

I’m so sorry, I know how hard it is to make friends. Sometimes it can be overwhelming but I’m sure you will meet some amazing people in your life!

It makes me sad because I just relate to her with everything and wish others could understand what’s going and that’s why I’m the way I am. Like I lost my job due to my autism because my brain works different:(