I'M 90 DAYS SOBER (It's time for some honesty)

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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.
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@moviesandmusic5055 3 жыл бұрын

I'll be at 90 days Tomorrow. One of the best decisions I have and ever will make in my lifetime. I'm 31 and was an alcoholic for nearly 7 years

@bignoknow 6 жыл бұрын

This is the single most important thing in my life right now and while it has been hard (depression/anxiety/rumination) it's rewarding and life saving. Trusting the process. I'm gonna be a ok so long as I don't drink and do the next right thing each day. I look forward to hearing your stories.

@1trillionviews516 6 жыл бұрын

cbdawgpound - that's good advice. I'm 38 and just learned this (thoughts determine your emotions) 3yrs ago in rehab.

@1trillionviews516 6 жыл бұрын

cbdawgpound - for sure. I agree 100%, like the movie thing you said. It does work! Thanks man!

@annawisniewska11 6 жыл бұрын

Youre super strong to beat all that weaknesses, congrats! If i had one advice to give you it would be focus on others not yourself. Ty to forget about you and your pain and try to serve others, help others. It gives amazing meaning to your life and even when youre depressed it makes sense and helps you in the end feel better! Oh and thank you for all the honesty!!! Its also not easy to be so honest! Try doing work for homeless or for special care children house! Every week no matter what helping others! IT makes miracles

@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361 5 жыл бұрын

bignoknow you are doing and trying so many things to get better .thats very good but have you tried giving your life to God. Jesus that will radically change your life

@michaelheery7427 5 жыл бұрын

Jeeeez u amerivans have so much PROBLEMS.M

@KanwarAnand 6 жыл бұрын

This really makes me want to be sober for 90 days with no excuses. Did 39 days earlier and then my son was born. I celebrated hard.

@Willgking 6 жыл бұрын

I know exactly what you mean when you say the real you and the drinking you and that I must adapt to the real me outside of drinking...it's hard being stuck in my mind but I will keep sober.

@americandee7721 6 жыл бұрын

I am so glad that you learned that your depression and anxiety can not be healed by drinking. I refuse to drink due to my mental health. I pray you stay on this path and never have to go back to a bottle to relieve the symptoms that can be worked through without it.

@delacrvz 6 жыл бұрын

Everything you said word for word I related to. I only struggled with alcohol for about 2 years, and I’m in the same space as you right now. Except I’m only on day 21. One thing I did notice in these 21 days is that I feel more. I used to numb my feelings for so long that I forgot what it felt like to actually feel emotions. But the feelings come and go, negative thoughts come and go, I don’t dwell on them, and that took me years to learn how to do. It feels so good to feel genuine sadness, and happiness, and fear again, and just let it come and go like waves. Good luck to you.

@Ryanettner 6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for this video. Im struggling so much. 6 weeks sober from alcohol. My main issue is I have a horrible panic disorder. It is hard to leave the house. These videos help

@BarbaraMerryGeng 6 жыл бұрын

I have been thru it all, and finally I allow myself to feel whatever I feel ..if I’m sad, I accept the feeling of sadness, if I ruminate, I allow myself to ruminate. How about being kind with yourself ? Ah, this is what finally work for me. 💝 I love myself exactly the way I am ❤️

@naomibeery478 6 жыл бұрын

You can handle whatever comes your way! Resist and whatever it is goes away.

@washhawthorn 6 жыл бұрын

I can see a very distinctive look on your face that says that you are on your way to true clarity, and not just telling the audience what you truly want to believe and more or less, just explaining to us why you don't want to go back to drinking. I think, I would recommend meditation. No strategies, no methods. Just step out of your thoughts. Just be who you really are, because who you really are has no thought process. Once you get the depth of love that arises in a state of deep meditation, there will be many positive realizations about yourself that will become evident and extremely clear. 'Don't believe everything you think' Don't believe ANYTHING you think, because its just a thought process, and a thought can be birthed and can die, but what sees the thought be birthed and die cannot die. It's your awareness of thought that is the secret. Be aware, with no thought and feel the bliss. Peace and blessings.

@happytrails699 6 жыл бұрын

You look great Noah. Keep it going. It's hard to quiet rumination. You can do it. Takes lots of work.

@1trillionviews516 6 жыл бұрын

Congrats bignoknow. 90 days is a respectable clean time. You look great too! Keep it up brother!

@americandee7721 6 жыл бұрын

Best advice I can give. Never run from it, run towards it.

@blovely7071 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much. This really helps. I’m a little over 2 weeks sober. The devil calls and then I remember The anxiety drinking gives me, not being able to sleep. The weight gain isn’t cute either. Thanks again for the honesty. Blessings to you and your wife.

@soberman4679 6 жыл бұрын

Thanks for another great video Noah. I'm 10 days sober right now, 26 years old, have had a month of sober time here and there. My alcoholism got really mad towards the end, i drank alone all the time just like you. My struggles have been an almost constant fear of not being able to stay sober, binge eating to decrease stress (basically switched addiction from the bottle to the plate). I'm going to meetings every day, it's truly a blessing and helps me out tremendously. All the mental struggled have been worth it, every morning I'm glad I didn't drink and every evening when my head hits the pillow I'm so glad I didn' drink that day. The serenity prayer is huge for me, doing it many times a day and that is big too. Being humble and accepting just like you said in the previous video: I dunno what is truly best for me, yet. It'll come. Early sobriety is hard. Of course it is, drinking to solve every problem and suddenly the solution is taken away, of course it's hard as f***. Glad to see you looking healthy, you sound like a sober man to me. Not just in the sense of not drinking, but actually healthy thinking and living. Thanks buddy. 🙏

@mashiralee1 Жыл бұрын

I’m at 80 days today and my mood swings are intense sometimes. Thank you for sharing ❤good job!

@armincartoonist 6 жыл бұрын

Noah, these longer videos you do are SO helpful. I'm sorry for your struggles and I'm happy for your resiliency. But you're being an awesome role model right now. Thanks man.

@alexelliottloughran93 6 жыл бұрын

Keep posting more like this please. Also more detail on withdrawal. It isn’t from curiosity, I know how bad it gets and you need to tell it, for your sake. Face the fear, happiness is just a push away.

@zmodem4619 6 жыл бұрын

90 days is great, man! Congrats! You are the inspiration for me having gotten sober CONTINUOUSLY throughout the years. I've relapsed more times than I care to admit; maybe 30 times. I sobered up when you got sober years ago, and then I relapsed a bunch before you relapsed. I am 410 days sober right now, the longest in my 36 years of existence. Stay the course; it's totally worth it! Hrm, I guess I'll add some things other than the general "Good for you, stay steady" stuff. Life is about learning, and the experience of living without alcohol is a hard one to learn after years of abuse. Using alcohol to form your way of life is a difficult thing to get through. Remember how in our 20's, early 30's we are supposed to live life and figure ourselves out? Well, if we impart alcohol into that mix, and make our lives shaped around that, then we have to remember what we are doing sober: we have to re-learn how to live without booze. Remember, that means basically crash-coursing ourselves out of a decade or so of habit, and basically live without it. This is like attempting to adjust your life without driving a vehicle, when a vehicle is almost absolutely necessary. Normal people don't need booze to live, but for alcoholics like us, it's almost as hard a change as one day driving a car, and the next day building our lives around using a bike instead. There's a ton of adjustment and sacrifice that's necessary to make this happen; it's not easy, but it is doable. Good luck on your end, brotha! Congrats on 90!

@chafaq 2 ай бұрын

90 days next Thursday for me. I still beat myself up for not having realized and know what I know today earlier. Alcohol and drugs almost ruined everything for me. It clicked when you said that you got to know yourself. That's exactly what sobriety is about. Reconnection with yourself. I don't remember who said that but it's so true : " the opposite of addiction is not sobriety, it is connection " what a tough but wonderful journey. I wish everyone embarking on this journey a lot of courage and determination. Love everyone ❤️

@derekredwood7121 6 жыл бұрын

Have you done all of the 12 steps? I haven't had a drink in 6 months and not feeling depressed at all after years of depression. Sure I have my moments of stress but that's life. You can do it buddy. Stay sober and then get good treatment for your mental health issues. Drinking makes it all worse...Keep it going!

@tarkover4479 6 жыл бұрын

Lookin good! Good luck my friend, I've got 5 days sober from opiates, amphetamines, and pot. Been feeling good.

@kristinreynolds577 6 жыл бұрын

You are so strong! You will get through this! Congrats on 90 days!! I have been there and I have been sober for 8 years, and you will make it! You are super strong to put your complete self out there. It’ll be great to watch your journey!!! Good luck on your journey!!!

@ptxaholic 6 жыл бұрын

Noah, I was just discharged from a psychiatric unit due to thoughts of self harm and cutting my wrist. Along with taking an overdose of seroquel and klonopin. It's a bit different and difficult now. Having a medication change and being watched so closely was nothing I'd ever experienced. I'm beginning a new journey, one of which I'm still wondering who I am. You have been an inspiration to me, and I just want you to know that this horrible disease will not win unless we let it. You look great by the way 🙂

@maiyathomas8050 6 жыл бұрын

sara beth Amen sister🙏🏽

@Fallout3ProHunter 6 жыл бұрын

Been drinking almost every night for the past 3 months for the same reasons as you, 2nd day sober and your videos once again keep me motivated. Thanks Noah

@BlackLabelSlushie 5 жыл бұрын

'The alcohol stopped working.' Yep so true in my case.

@killuminati563 6 жыл бұрын

I have 10 months sober and still struggle with depression/ anxiety. Things do get better though , I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, thank you for sharing your story , this too shall pass.

@ZekeBarajas 6 жыл бұрын

Hang in there Noah, I've been following you since I was 4 months sober, i'm 30 months sober now. Early sobriety is a rollercoaster. the longer you stay sober and as long as you are doing the footwork you will be okay. Keep using your physical activity as an outlet and don't give yourself the downtime to where the wheels start spinning. Getting sober was a challenge but dealing with life as a sober person is even harder. Hang in there brother, lean on your sponsor and keep hitting the meetings. Much love and respect. oh, and after being on depression and anxiety medication for 6 years i'm finally off of it. Life isn't perfect but it sure as hell is a lot better.

@alejandrozuniga4503 6 жыл бұрын

I wish i could understand my mental health as well as you understand yours, you are one if the very few people i look up to, you give me so much hope man and for that i am so thankful for you

@willjb89 5 жыл бұрын

Noah, you look amazing. Happy to see you still on here! You are my hero bro ups and downs, thanks for being so open.

@lexi6081 6 жыл бұрын

You can do this Noah. I haven't drank in over a year and I no longer miss it. I can have a beer but I gain happiness from having a clear mind so I'm usually not bothered (I just get the romantic feeling come Saturday night). Those feelings you get, let them be. No avoidance, no escaping. Just sit with them and they will fade.

@6AMBJMCGRIFF Жыл бұрын

T ‘yum. 6. Ymmy@ r. Kg. Ufmy. Y go CJ Matt

@ms.opinion8470 6 жыл бұрын

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I'm at 60 days. Your story and videos help me tremendously! You can do this! I can't wait to see more of your progress.

@1trillionviews516 6 жыл бұрын

Aprils World - congratulations!

@FFKHFVR002 6 жыл бұрын

This video is very genuine man, and as I always say it’s truly great your sharing this with us, because it is helping lots of people going through it, and trying to be there for those going through it. I’m So happy for you Brother, and I couldn’t be more prouder of you.

@taotaostrong 6 жыл бұрын

Your present process is clearly working for you! You look younger, healthy, and strong. You sound hopeful. Congratulations and thank you for sharing!

@phil2114 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing brother, thank you for being so candid. I'm very familiar with those dark thoughts. I'm in early recovery, 12 days today. Listening to you and others just like you on KZfaq is so helpful, thank you and well done!!!

@Jolvie 6 жыл бұрын

It's really strange to watch this video since I'm dealing with an addiction to 'numbing' myself out by constantly using the internet, and of course this isn't as serious as alcoholism, but I found so much of what you said in this video so relatable. I also have experienced 'black tar' depression as you described it, and am experiencing depression now, and realizing my crutch is simply not enough anymore, I want to live life properly. I have realized how afraid I am, how frustrated I am at what I'm doing everyday to avoid real life, etc. and it's really made me want to fully try to surrender and not lean on the crutches I've created for myself (specifically the 'building my life around' comment, it made me realize I do plan my day around when I can come home, go online, get sucked into the rabbit hole of the web on my laptop, or go into my phone, and just completely detach from reality). Seems deceptively normal but it's anything but, for me. I spend more time doing this than in the real world, and I'm extremely good at hiding it. Anyway, thanks for the video x

@michaelheery7427 5 жыл бұрын

Did your GARDEN.

@brocksbigadventures 5 күн бұрын

I love it when you said.....I am with me all the time....I remember this feeling .... Then I understood it ..... I was me....finally meeting the real me without drinking....that scary .,,,, but I'm learning to love him (me)

@a.c.9993 6 жыл бұрын

Very proud of you!! ♥️♥️♥️

@GroundWave 6 жыл бұрын

Congrats bro! I look up to you. On a similar path of getting better with everything! Go live one of these days

@Alexis-ec9cl Жыл бұрын

You look way better just 90 days later (watched your day 1 and now day 90) wow! Congrats. I’m 49 days sober.. hoping people can start to see the change as well

@hogarthay 6 жыл бұрын

Hang tough big man , you are doing this and should be so proud. Train at the gym brother with all your heart again and again. Proud of you

@1stephanieandpaul 6 жыл бұрын

You look great Noah! I see a lot of change in you. You look and sound much better! SO happy for you!!! Keep it up!

@myeshadapisces 6 жыл бұрын

Great progress noah🙏

@Stormy5475 6 жыл бұрын

Way to go!!! Even at 8yrs sober, some days are a cake walk and others I’m on the rails waiting for the train wreck. Keep going sober is WORTH IT.

@chrisdangerfield4250 2 жыл бұрын

Love your honesty....I'm in same boat only three day in. Thanks for your talk.

@loriterpstra4702 6 жыл бұрын

Congratulations, Noah. Prayers, Amanda God bless.

@deannaharby5677 6 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry you have been going thorugh so much pain---- your honesty and sharing is helping others---I know it is not easy----keep strong..... blessings...

@paulcape-melbourne9146 6 жыл бұрын

Just keep going Noah you are a role model to us all thank you for everything

@Mellybeans0919 6 жыл бұрын

Congrats Noah!!!

@kirstenschaenzer6991 6 жыл бұрын

I am so proud of you Noah! ❤ And you should definitely be proud of yourself. You're looking good, I wish you the best with the mental side of it all. I know you can do it. Hang in there, you've made it this far. 😊

@ketoking9435 6 жыл бұрын

Noah,, Congrats for your honesty and achievement,,I'm only 7 weeks into zero drinking,,my first birthday celebrating in 36 without a drink,,,it's a life changer,,, Thank's for a great vid,,

@swedd013 6 жыл бұрын

Hee Noah, Rene here from Holland. I’ve been watching your videos for a while now and I must say you have been a real inspiration for me so far. I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety, insomnia and addiction as well for a pretty long time now but your videos give me the motivation to get up and actually do something about it. I was 2 weeks sober from smoking weed, made the mistake by doing it again for 1 day and now i’m sober again for 1 week. I learned my lesson from the last time I did and I want to stay completely of off it now. Hope you are doing well and keep up the good work 👍🏻 i’m going out for my daily walk right now wich you inspired me to do!

@olixz 6 жыл бұрын

Congrats mate and you're an inspiration as well!. So true addiction for a time works to help with the nerosis but eventually it stops being a choice!. For me personally it's food, which I really struggle with. Good luck, take care.

@jaybird6034 6 жыл бұрын

thank you Noah I appreciate all your work

@samanthaanne1056 6 жыл бұрын

You’re amazing!

@joywalsh6150 6 жыл бұрын

So proud of you but i tell you that always x i bet Jessie is so proud of you too! You look sooo much younger!

@lesleysmith9122 6 жыл бұрын

This was a very helpful video. Thank you N

@belladonna1083 6 жыл бұрын

Grateful for your videos

@vanessaa.2105 5 жыл бұрын

I know this was 6 months ago but I wanted to say I am so proud of you!!!! New to your channel!

@bstokes9424 6 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing. Awesome video

@KonjikiKonjiki 6 жыл бұрын

My boyfriend and I stopped drinking together (as in, both of us stopped drinking) and it's been amazing how much we do around the house and together now. it's been pretty groovy to have more money, too.

@DJV94022 2 жыл бұрын

No one was ment to be a drunk or a stoner or a walking zombie

@jimmyjimenezjr6822 6 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this Noah..i see hope

@raqui174 6 жыл бұрын

I’ve been trying to overcome my depression for a long time. Coupled with alcohol abuse tendencies it’s been tough. I use to think that if I stopped drinking exercised and ate healthy and became over all productive I would magically feel better and won’t want to drink. But although everything would be going great I still found myself wanting to retreat back to a more primitive state. Being healthy takes so much work reason why I keep relapsing.

@emcjakes 5 жыл бұрын

just passed 90 days thanks for sharing!

@kikidemontparnasse303 6 жыл бұрын

Really get where you coming from! Well done 90 days is huge! I've just a little bit longer sober time from alcohol this time round. However I have one more huge monkey on my shoulder - Suboxone! Alcohol was my worst enemy but sub wd is really scary but just need to do it! Glad I have people like you going in the same direction. Thanks for all your efforts!!!

@ratrodramblin 6 жыл бұрын

Noah, I am batteling the same battle. It's weird how all the medications i've taken, zoloft, lorazepam, librium ect ect. But they don't do the same. Alcohol has extremely hurt my liver. I go two months then the devil calls and I fall. Watching your videos help me. Always know that. I've had de-realization i've been in your same shoes. But i'm not where your at. Anxiety depresson is hitting me hard and leading me to my darkside. I'm with you, i'm thinking of you. Please do yhr same.

@mikeynorton8119 6 жыл бұрын

I like your insights man

@ashleyaris8128 6 жыл бұрын

So happy for you. I can see the serenity in your smile and eyes.. I'm still drowning in alcohol. I will get there one day again..

@1stephanieandpaul 6 жыл бұрын

I pray for you Ashley!! I NEVER thought I would stop drinking and drugs BUT almost 9 yrs ago I did! Thanks god! YOU GOT THIS!!!

@Smellmyfartz 6 жыл бұрын

Steph Kelcourse how did you do it?! I can’t and I envy those who can. Congrats you’re stronger than I. Alcohol is winning and I can’t seem to fight this battle much longer.

@walt2162 5 жыл бұрын

Lucas' Park Reviews have you done AA? Find a guy who has been sober a long time. Im on day 33 and it seems like I'm thinking about it less and less. Ask God for help. What helped me the most was when my sponsor said that all I had to do was make it to the pillow sober that day and thank God. So if I ever felt like drinking, I would hurry up and eat something, then take my worthless ass to bed.

@JohnSmith-ur6mr 3 жыл бұрын

Excellent video, certainly relate to not being about to trust your own judgement about drinking. Just 1 a day at a time. Hanng tuff.

@HerculesRealtor Ай бұрын

Congrats for passing one of life’s hurdles! Thanks for sharing your thoughts so eloquently. Please check out Vipassana meditation and spirit rock silent retreats - keep up feeling, and being with those feelings - and thoughts, they come and go. And we dont have to believe all our thoughts ! Byron Katie says! Peace!

@williamvaughn3123 6 жыл бұрын

Your one year sobor video helped me so much on my 90 days . Today I have 9 months and 4 days. After 22 years and it stops working well I didn't want live ,but buddy was going to AA meeting court order so I started going with him. Your just getting sobor didn't fix everything , but if don't drink I can get better .

@themiserykid 6 жыл бұрын

I just Googled "helpful video so I don't relapse" and the Universe pointed me to that old video you made saying, "Fuck you day zero!" It clicked with me, then I watched this. Now it's 11PM. I'm about to take a shower and go to bed. Doesn't look like relapse is happening tonight. Thank you! I am a new subscriber.

@williamvaughn3123 6 жыл бұрын

Just push threw and keep telling yourself it will get better. I didn't think was going to make it ,but. I a ok so far. Just read the Big book when people can't be around.

@KelaHoneyBee 5 жыл бұрын

Wow we are so similar. I stopped drinking for six months and then I started back. You have inspired me to start over again.

@shelleyshaner9621 6 жыл бұрын

So proud of you and still am praying for you. I know I have told you before you Reno d me of my friend and lots of stuff you addressed here is what he would tell me. God bless you and keep your chin up and if you could, pray for my friend. Thanks and {{{hugs}}}

@shelleyshaner9621 6 жыл бұрын

*remind me

@pam164 6 жыл бұрын

Your doing great 💕

@POKIE-SLOTS-JIMMYS 6 жыл бұрын

congrats mate

@shellecestrong1129 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing😇💗

@RichardsWorld 6 жыл бұрын

Seroquel really messed me up and got me in serious trouble in the military. I ended up stuck in a military mental department for 4 nights. I had a co-worker have serious issues with it a few weeks later and I explained to the upper chain of command what Seroquel makes you feel like. It is only good for making me and my co-worker sleep. Which isn't what it is supposed to be used for.

@a.c.9993 6 жыл бұрын

Richard's World Traveler My doc put me on seroquel as well. I had to flush it down the toilet bc it made me become a non feeling zombie that couldn't sit still and at the same time super sleepy. It has been one of the leading prescribed meds in the US to have law suits brought against it. Many of these drug also destroy your impulse control.

@michaelheery7427 5 жыл бұрын

@@a.c.9993 americans love JARGON . JEEEZ I PITY NEW COMERS..

@mypugsarefat 6 жыл бұрын

Good Man with a good heart Look after it !

@alexelliottloughran93 6 жыл бұрын

Also, massive congrats. You seem to have made a breakthrough.

@zedconnect1172 3 жыл бұрын

Nice one congratulations

@atypical_moto 6 жыл бұрын

My problem has always been boredom. Am I supposed to just lay on the couch tonight and watch TV and kill time for the sake of waking up tomorrow to do it all over again? That's why I drink. I weigh the two options. Do nothing, or go to the bar and see where it goes. Some might say, do something else. I do have hobbies that trump drinking and I'd love to do them every day but that's just not possible. So drinking fills in the gaps.

@EzraDanielH 6 жыл бұрын

Congrats on 90 days! I decided to stop drinking two weeks ago and I think I'm feeling the same kind of stuff. The rumination and obsessive thoughts are much worse and without alcohol, there's no easy break from it. It's pretty difficult but I'm glad I'm becoming more self-sufficient in the way I cope. It has however made it really hard at night because I think a lot about my three year girlfriend who broke up with me. I really felt in love with her and when I'm in bed at night, I feel lonely and ruminate over what I did wrong or whether or not she ever actually cared about me or if she was really the person I thought she was. It sounds crazy. I feel sort of disillusioned. I used to be able to calm this with alcohol. I feel kind of like I'm wallowing in self-pity and I don't like that. My derealization/depersonalization is also worse and that can give me anxiety but I think that might be the adjustment. I guess it's good that I'm being forced to work through this stuff. Thanks for your channel, Noah. I originally found it a little over a year ago when I had an anxiety/depression mental breakdown after my first semester of college. I ended up needing to leave school even though I didn't want to. I didn't even know what was going on because it had never happened to me before. It really helped to watch your videos and hear from someone with a calming presence who was going through it too. Cheers man, Ezra

@a.c.9993 6 жыл бұрын

Ezra you can do it!!! Those lonely nights are so hard but it does get better. Hang in there!!!

@EzraDanielH 6 жыл бұрын

alley katt Thank you for your encouragement!

@a.c.9993 6 жыл бұрын

Ezra You're welcome. The more support and encouragement we all have the better. :)

@donnabyrd6368 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing

@justie2012 6 жыл бұрын

1 day at a time love! I’m like you, your not alone! But I know you know that 😊

@gemzzwhoa 3 жыл бұрын

This is me all day man wow ... I thought I was alone but I am not. The only thing that I've never done is go to therapy but I will definitely need to do it.

@Johnny9ers 6 жыл бұрын

I'm at 30 days sober now from alcohol..still need to go start a 12 step program also dealing with anxiety and depression

@jfg1104 2 жыл бұрын

I'm literally on day 35, of no opiates, THIS DESCRIBES EVERYTHING, I have been going through. Thank you. And other brief thoughts. Advice,?

@jamiestrathearn63 6 жыл бұрын

90days is a big step, but it takes baby steps brother... One day at a time... Good luck with your journey...

@Tauro010 6 жыл бұрын

Im really strugling with the drinking, been like this for 2 years, i promise my self then lie to my self and back and forward i dont seem to get no where

@pakaza 6 жыл бұрын

Noah... I have watched you for a few years. Over time I have seen you fail with alcohol.. And I have lost faith in you. I couldn't be happier for you with your 90 days of sobriety. This is a true accomplishment. The darkness will leave you now... SLOWLY... but it surely will. You are getting control of that monster called alcoholism and now can really concentrate on getting rid of that other demon of depression. This time, with a straight head on your shoulders. Listen to your Dr's… continue talking. Its the best therapy. Think of the positives in your life and compare, if you will, to others not so blessed in life. Don't let your followers down with drinking again. You can do this... Congrats again on 90 days sober Dude!!!!!

@kylestaker9279 6 жыл бұрын

Curious to your thoughts. I am 33 months off a benzo and was doing ok until last February then was hit with suicidal depression and now it’s a mix of depression and depersonalization which I have never had in my life. I don’t know if it’s withdrawal or major depression causing the dp/dr? What are your thoughts?

@Healingandchoices 7 ай бұрын

Spiritual health is the root AND the key

@soccergalsara 2 жыл бұрын

"I'm someone who would commit suicide". to be honest, I feel exactly the same. and I felt freedom as soon as you said that. (not for alcholism though, other reaosns), but thank you !

@rodneygipson8087 6 ай бұрын

Hey this popped up in my feed today. Im only two months sober after almost dying and being hospitalized numerous times just to keep it short. Are you still sober?

@jerrydavis5001 6 жыл бұрын

Your body looks better ( pause) but it does. Keep it up brother

@jamescoyle297 3 жыл бұрын

I’m 64 days all it seems to b is good days and bad days and I’m pretty sure that’s alcoholism and it will always be that way we just learn to use the tools not to pic up that 1st drink god bless 🙏

@Gigget_Emj 6 жыл бұрын

If I can add a book to your must read list check out Recovery by Russell Brand. His interpretation of the 12 steps is so candid. He shares his story as he goes through them. It's quite inspiring.