yeah because they don't know you have anorexia till ur dangerously skinny. they can't see inside your head. being healthy is more common than developing a full blown eating disorder

I remember hitting my lowest point and being taken to a hospital by my request. I remember even though I exhibited many anorexic traits and behaviors I was diagnosed with EDNOS BC I wasn't thin enough. I remember using that as fuel against myself to say "see, you aren't doing enough. You're still fat." And that's just so fucked up

Juana Paula what

grace l. langsford I started to cry when she said that, it hit a nerve

@jennyeet This comment is stupid and proves the poets point.

Everdeen10 yup

Everdeen10 I cried when she said that

That line broke me and that's when the floodgates of my eyes opened

Yep...

Everdeen10 so true

Me too.

Same

...yeah..

That sentence hit me hard :(

AYLIN KOHAN are you stupid?😂I’m not saying skinny is healthy I’m saying fat is unhealthy, there’s a balance.

I’m here for you. How’re you feeling?

Felt that

Yah that one hit hard

Me too!

@@Aileen_moon Do you really care?

Literally me

@@KCCain-pi8oi you ok?

K.C. Cain same. I’m bigger 170lbs and I’m 14 but I’m really athletic and EXTREMELY very good at sports and even the captain or some teams. But I wanna get smaller except it’s hard. And it’s not that I wanna starve I just hate being full cuz it makes me feel horrible

im scared of being full, but afraid of being too skinny.. its hard to achieve both

Agree, I was so small naturally. Around 60kg appropriate weight for my age and height. People called me aneorexic, and I was not just small and my twin and I would try to gain weight, my twin has trouble cause she has a slow gold bladder. I have had 2 children now and am at the right weight, just have. A bit of a belly 😁 but I have learnt to love myself

that makes me cry everytime

crowntheaj I read this comment as she said it. Wow...powerful.

crowntheaj I'm the like that make it 1.8k

luca vii Yeah that hurt me 😔✊🏼

what does it mean

AYLIN KOHAN Not hungry anymore

Yes. Exactly this. Powerful.

Still hungry but less with every visit to the therapist and every hug.

@@fabi45 that's great! I'm so proud of you for how far you've come! ❤

Alyssa Nering this it exactly how I feel. I can’t eat one thing without thinking about all of that

Ik i can’t do much but you’re beautiful and wanted angel 🥺💞

Me too. I’m glad I’m not alone.

same. all i see is calories. 39 calories in that and 78 in that.

The only thing I think about when eating or drinking anything

“So when I evaporated everyone congratulated me on getting ‘healthy” ... that hit home . Very moving .

Danielle Pascal damn

Yolo swag

i read that just as she said it

what does the line mean to you?

this line in particular stood out to me the most

This got me so bad

+Ben Liow hit home...

it's so sad how true that line is. i am currently fighting for my life against anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa. i feel like there is no hope. i need help, but my parents won't provide me the professional help i need. i don't know what to do anymore

+melodies4life thank you so much. i'll defiantly check her channel out. i am actually crying because you're the first person who has cared.. thank you so much

AYLIN KOHAN thanks for asking! That’s so sweet. Honestly I’m not doing too well but eh. 💛

AYLIN KOHAN thank you so much ❤️ you’re a amazing. Thank you so much, I really needed this. ❤️❤️❤️🥰

AYLIN KOHAN hey. I’ve been thinking about you a bit haha 😅. You’re really sweet and I’m really grateful for your support so I was wondering if you wanted to share contact info? Like insta gram. I’d love to get to know you better ☺️ Don’t have to if you don’t want to of course!

AYLIN KOHAN I’m @sk9nnyp9g on snap 💛💛💛 Thank you for being so sweet

@@it.9076 this thread made me tear up a lil bit 🥺

Everyone I think...

Me.

I don’t necessarily feel “pretty” when I’m hungry, just powerful and proud of myself for not giving in.

All the time

@AYLIN KOHAN I'm a lot better

Abby I can relate

from the bottom of my heart i hope you found a better therapist (which shouldn't be hard considering this one was a flippin mofo *every scold ever* and that you're healing and feeling better

That's messed up... I hope you're doing better and I hope you found a new therapist.

Same but it was if I can't see your intestines then you aren't skinny at all

I truly hope you get better. I am size 14 and I absolutely hate my body. I know the feeling too well.

My dad said the same thing to me in passing when i hadnt had the time or patience to eat much more than public school lunch(may as well be cardboard) and dinner and i wanted to cry

It's almost exactly what my grandfather told me when I was like 11. He would weigh me whenever he saw me and when I stopped gaining weight, he was thrilled. But I had stopped eating. And 2 years later....... Here I am

How are you now?

@@emmahancock8911 how’re you now?

@@saavikofvulcan6887 how are things now?

How are you? I hope you aren’t sick anymore. How do you feel?

Stay strong❤

Agree

Yup same.

Anne Sophie This is a fact for me.. I am not recovering, and probably never will.

Anne Sophie When I got sick I was thin.. When we found out why I kept getting thinner I was in the hospital for 3+ days. Than I was sent to a doctors twice a week.

heatherhaux is e

I got called a success story by my parents when i had an eating disorder. It only made it worse

I hope you don't let it take you back to being sick. Focus on being healthy not skinny. If you told her the truth she be horrified. No decent parent wants their child to go through the hell that is Anorexia. You can find another way. I hope you are doing well.

@@kats6736 not all parents are decent.

I'm so sorry you went through that. I hope your parents will rethink those comments and decide not to say such harmful things, and I hope you also have safe people who understand what you need.

Wow thanks for all the support! A year later my family know my story and have helped me. I’m a healthy weight and have fallen in love with cooking again. I still have bad thoughts from time to time, but I know how to manage them. Thank you ❤️

qween-zee I hope you’re looking after yourself in quarantine babe, anorexia is a stopper on one’s life and you should fight to keep your life free and unrestricted ❤️ you deserve it .

@AYLIN KOHAN Fine. I may not be very kind to myself when I make myself a meal, but I don't think I'm near anorexia and that's a plus

@@backpain5280 Thank you! There's going to be up days and down days but I'm relatively healthy, thanks for checking up on me, and memento mori my friend

How’re you now?

@@Aileen_moon I'm doing great, thanks for checking

@@makedadavies9900 I'm glad you're ok. Keep fighting

I read that as it was said

It's so true

Love that song, love that name

same i started tearing up I got so emotional

same

And I hate the fact it is actually true...

I’m here for you

@@kimberlyceulemans6015 I’m here for you

dreamergirlbaby the best pine, yeah. Really intense

Line*

Loose weight?

+Ariel H I developed anorexia when I was thin, as I have always been, but my some of my friends (the ones who were not concerned out of heir minds about me) and my friends friends who I did not know were complimenting me on how good I looked and asking me how I did it. I became the resident weight loss guru who told nothing but lies when I told them to just eat healthily, smaller portions and exercise. I was never following those words.

Im fat too (this isn't me). How did u become anorexic ?? I wish I could. All I do is eat when I want to look like the girl in my avi ! Smh

+bristay1 woah why are you wishing anorexia on yourself it's a serious illness if I were you I wouldn't make that kind of comment on this video!

***** I feel really sad now that I even posted my original comment. It never occurred to me that someone might read my words and be inspired to want to be anorexic. That really hurts. I cannot and will not insult you for saying what you did because I don't find you stupid or anything else along those lines. I just feel very sad for you that you would wish you could become anorexic. I actually want to give you a hug. I am sorry that you would feel so low about yourself to the point of wishing such a devastating mental illness on yourself. Whilst anorexia from the outsiders perspective looks like it's all about weight loss and being/looking thin or like a bag of bones, it really goes far much deeper than the surface. I have been tortured by very terrible thoughts and pictures in my head for years since I developed anorexia which have completely ruined my ability to sleep peacefully, sleep long enough or at times, sleep at all. It's beyond awful having thoughts that convince you to physically harm yourself, cut, beat, punch and starve yourself. The thoughts of utter hopelessness are by far the worst as they overtake you and lead you down the very slippery slope of suicidal thoughts and ideations. This is something I hardly ever speak about but I believe that ever since I developed anorexia I have become dumber and dumber. I forget things very easily and can't remember the simplest things that I used to be able to remember. Growing up I was an excellent English student, but ever since anorexia I have lost that excellence. Anorexia has left me with terribly painful joints which lock, crack, click and pop everyday. The pain which is throbbing and stabbing is sometimes so bad, especially when I get it in my pelvis, that I cannot put any weight on either one or both of my legs and as a result, I cannot walk. I lost a lot of friends and alienated my family because of this illness. A few years ago my cousin was displaying a number of symptoms which made me worry that she had also become anorexic. I can't even describe the amount of pain and sadness I felt that she might be anorexic. It's been a terrible disorder and I genuinely would never want anyone else to suffer from it. It turned out that she had developed very severe disordered eating and had she carried on she would have become anorexic. I recognised myself in her, especially the early stages of my anorexia. To answer your question, how did I become anorexic, I was already suffering from depression and had tried to kill myself 3 times when I was 15. I had absolutely no plans whatsoever of living past 16. I had developed disordered eating patterns at 15 and I was already cutting myself quite severely on a daily basis. I wanted nothing more than to no longer exist. All my childhood I went through many bouts of really hating the fact that I had ever been born in the first place starting from when I was about 4. I was an incredibly miserable child. I was so angry and so sad and very driven to commit suicide. I was sexually abused once as a child and a number of times as a teenager. The abuse that broke the camels back as they say was when I was 17 and that was when and how the disordered eating developed into anorexia nervosa. Somehow the only way I found that I could cope with what happened was to stop eating. I was very quickly diagnosed and put into therapy for anorexia even though I was already in therapy for all my other issues. Unfortunately for me, I was so deeply entrenched in the anorexia that I was in complete denial about it. I couldn't see and I couldn't believe that there was something wrong with me. I couldn't see that I was sick. Even though I carried on with this therapy, I only got worse and worse instead of better. Anorexia was like this incredibly powerful force that nothing and no one could make me see was ruining me. I was already mentally ill and perhaps predisposed to anorexia from birth, who knows, so this is the condensed story of how I became anorexic. It wasn't a diet. Anorexia is not a diet it's a sickness deep inside of your head rooted in a myriad of other factors which affect and influence its development in a person. Perhaps this will make you rethink your stance on this wish you have for yourself or perhaps not. Either way, I can only but hope that you see that anorexia is never something that one would wish for. If I had the chance to go back in time and undo my anorexia, I actually would because it has wasted so many years of my life. I've lost far too much time to it. I had to repeat college (Britain) twice and university once because of anorexia. I have lost a lot of time and years repeating things whilst my friends moved on with their lives. I am even behind my younger cousins who have already graduated from university whilst here I am finally in my final year of university. Why would I not go back in time to undo all this waste of life? Anorexia is such a waste of life. Please take care of your life. With plenty of love and concern for your sanity Hil

+Hil S hey hil, even if this message wasnt ment for me, i feel involved as i feel like im starding to get anorexic... even if i dont want to. hearing your story makes me sad and i feel very sorry for you (even if that doesnt help anyone). anyways i want to thank you for sharing your story. thats very brave of you. i wish you all the best and that you stay healthy. greetings from germany, prinzessin silbermilch

Oh I didn't get that, thanks for pointing it out. [Even though people with EDs usually round it up e.g 70=100]

the really sad thing is that i know exactly how many calories are in a pink lady, a granny smith etc

Tegan O'Neill damn maam ;-; i wish you the best!

I thought it was 64 but maybe my apples are smaller?

Yes frrrr she knows

+Blythe B this was amazing and thank you for sharing x

+Blythe B you have written some of my favourite poems, thank you for sharing your gift with words.

this is so amazing. I love you.

+Blythe B You are so amazing, your words are so touching. thank you for sharing!!

+Blythe B I would love to talk with you, Blythe.

+English3Muffin I feel this. I've always been skinny naturally but I might also have a condition that makes me like this. I have not been diagnosed but it is very likely and I have so many girls saying that they want to be as skinny as I am wishing they could have my body type and I always say "No, you really don't." because they don't know what it's really like. Everything else is so small, have fun having almost no breasts, being perpetually cold, not being able to be a healthy weight, gain weight, and getting made fun of for being too skinny when you're my weight.

Thank you

+English3Muffin This ^^. I went to the doctor yesterday. I'm clinically obese, but something is going wrong with my body. I started losing weight for no reason. It's scary. I have an autoimmune disorder, and I haven't changed anything. It's hard to eat nothing but liquids (because I can't swallow well any more) and not lose weight, but I wasn't losing weight on a liquid diet a month ago. All my doctor would say was "Congratulations -- at least you're losing weight." Even my doctor doesn't see my aberrant weight loss as something symptomatic of a failure of my body... he just figures I won't die 'fat'.

+Storm Weaver. Try another doctor.

Thank you. I wish everyone could be as enlightened. When I gained weight, everyone asked me if I stopped exercising. No, I started eating properly.

AYLIN KOHAN i didn’t see your reply, i still drink water on an empty stomach for breakfast quite often but i eat regular meals too.

How’re you now?

@@peoplearemyreligion how are you?

Me too. It feels good though

I tried it it only made me hungrier

That’s what happened to my friend. She’s now the most coveted girl because she used to be chubby and is skinny. I hate that I am slipping into this kind of mindset too, but I just don’t want to be disregarded or embarrassed and humiliated for being bigger anymore. I want what they have.

I hope you're doing well now, that you recovered from your mindset. I have not been diagnosed, no one (besides my ex gf and current boyfriend) know about me dealing with stuff, and doing unhealthy stuff. I never wanted it to go super duper far, cuz I didn't want anyone to spend money on me, and I like food somewhere. So... It's really weird, and hard to like food but hate the possible effect it can have on you... You didn't offend me at least, so in case you wondered XD Again, I hope you're doing well now I am sure you are beautiful btw ♥

I wonder how are you now

I was a dancer and a competitive equestrian (I did hunters and equitation which are notorious for encouraging anorexia and bulimia) as a child. I’ve always been kind of short with a broad stocky build and for that reason I got bullied a lot by my peers in dance and in the riding community. I think I got my last growth spurt when I was about 12. Most of my friends and even their parents would just call me big boned or say it was puppy fat and if I went on a diet I’d lose the weight. I first started to develop an eating disorder when I was nine years old and trying to squeeze into a pair of size zero shorts I got from my neighbor. I remember trying desperately to pull them up over my hips and sobbing uncontrollably because they just wouldn’t budge. I felt disgusting for being nine years old and unable to fit into a size zero. I didn’t know anything back then about weighing food, counting calories, or about pro-anorexia forums so I just ate only fruit for a while. Once I hit middle school and realized I still wasn’t happy with my body, I discovered pro-ana tumblr and from there the battle only worsened. I spent all my free time looking at thinspo and low calorie food suggestions and fad diets and workout routines. I spent my nights after riding and homework, sweaty and exhausted, doing sit-ups on the bathroom floor with the shower running so my family wouldn’t know I was up to something. I counted calories religiously, didn’t touch the school food because it didn’t have nutrition labels, and only got water or Diet Coke if I had to eat out with family. By the time I was 13 I hadn’t gained a single pound in three years. I was sick almost all the time and mostly lived on Gatorade and stale crackers. I got better for most of high school and started to eat normally and feel pretty happy with myself until my senior year. I went through a bout of depression after nearly failing my junior year and the depression led to the worst relapse I’ve ever had. I binged one night to the point where I made myself so sick that I was vomiting for two weeks straight and then stopped eating little by little until I was living on cigarettes and air. I shook all the time, I slept constantly, my body constantly was in pain, I missed school at least two or three times a month because I was too sick to go, my hair began to fall out, I stopped getting my period, and I was too weak to dance or ride. I was miserable all the time and spent most of my free time body checking on tumblr. I was emaciated at this point and it’s an absolute wonder that neither my doctors, teachers, or parents hospitalized me. I recovered during college and ended up gaining a bunch of weight after I dropped out and quit taking my Adderall and my mom still likes to remind me how good I looked my senior year. All my old school friends tell me I need to be that weight again too. And as a result it’s been relapse after relapse ever since. This is my second relapse in eight months. I would like to get out of this fight someday. I don’t want to die. I want to be healthy and happy and more importantly I want to stop hating this body. I’m sorry if I triggered anyone, I tried to make sure I left numbers and weights out of this comment so that I didn’t cause any upset. Thank you for listening.

@@lunarequine7734 Hi, I read your comment and if you need anyone to talk to please tell me. I can understand that it's too hard and no one didn't even realise? Thank you for sharing your story

Alanna Gibney I

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Hey. You’re 14 now. Stay safe in the pandemic, and don’t fall down there again :)

i hope you are well.

hey, you’re 16-17 now. i hope youre doing ok

Dude are you me same thing happened to me back when I was around 7 and as soon as I gained the weight back all those new friends suddenly just disappeared

im not recovering from mine, sadly

@@spare_quarter4086 same.. atleast not until I'm underweight.. then we'll see..

Adelin Rizkyka this was like a year ago But there a short film with this poem. Recommend checking it out.

Michael Goldshmidt i respectfully disagree. when I saw this the first time all I thought about is how so many “over weight” people feel this way. It’s ok to want to look a certain way but do it in a health manner. Becoming anorexic or bulimic because you don’t want to be fat is a horrible thing that is becoming too common.

Michael Goldshmidt I’ve been anorexic for over a decade. I’ve been too skinny, too fat, recovered, and on the verge of death multiple times. Everything she said is true.

Same I keep coming back to this because I relate and every time I cry my eyes out

@Michael Goldshmidt her message is amazing, its a true story for so many people, it's real and that's the best you can get

try again this year

i’m so proud of you.it’s been a year but i’m wishing the best for you. i’m trying to recover

I didn’t knew not having my period was a symptom of EDs, to clarify, I have not been diagnosed,but I still puke every food I eat because I can actually see it becoming numbers on the scale, I haven’t had my period in like 3 months, didn’t notice anything was wrong until I saw this video.

I know your comment was made two years ago but I have this male friend and he's like really thin and he has a Sixpack and I hear the boys saying they want to look like him. But they don't know that he just eats shit, pizza after pizza, bags of chips, chocolate and just so much more. Especially in the holidays he tells me that he threw up because he just ate shit. He could say that he can eat two pizzas and still feel hungry and people wouldn't say anything, I Mean, he's skinny and he has a Sixpack, so he's healthy right. I am overweight, now imagine me saying that I can eat two pizzas. You'd hear them talking shit about me. Because I apparently am unhealthy. But he isn't? And I hate my body, and I still just see skinny people everywhere. But I once saw this plus size model modelling jeans and a shirt in a fashion magazine, and no she didn't have a perfect hourglass body. I can assure you she looked really good, like damn. And for a split second I thought "if she looks good, why can't I?" Representation just really matters and people don't take it serious, but it's true. We need to see people of color more often, we need to see plus size women just slaying it, people of all ethnicities. Something needs to change.

Michael Goldshmidt It’s not about people being attracted to anything, it’s about media and how young girls are pressured into diet culture and body dysmorphia

@Michael Goldshmidt Well how about stop bullying ppl for how they look.

@Michael Goldshmidt Newsflash: Just because the world isn’t fair doesn’t mean we can’t try to push for positive change. And some people *do* glorify thinness. If you think they don’t, you’re only focusing on *some* people. Maybe those who glorify thinness are the “wrong people”, but they are people in our society nonetheless. Their influence can be seen in the 30 million+ people (of all ages and genders) suffering from an eating disorder in the U.S. You are very right, the average person is attracted to “healthy-looking people.” The problem being discussed here isn’t about health. The problem is how our society (a vague term, I know) emphasizes that in order to look/be “healthy,” you have to be thin. *You* may not have been affected by this. *You* may not think that being super skinny is healthy or attractive, but there are so many ways that people (teens and teenage girls especially) are told, explicitly and implicitly, that the only way they will be accepted, lovable, and “healthy-looking” is to be SKINNY. I’m sure you agree that it is unhealthy when you are able to see someone’s ribcages, right? Or maybe when someone’s thigh gap is wayy too big? Yet people (especially teens/teen girls) aren’t told as much how unhealthy these things are. Instead they’re told again and again how unhealthy the opposite is, how they need to strive to be the other type of unhealthy. I appreciate that you acknowledged that it is easier for some to get to the point of being healthy than others. This is true. I myself am lucky to have a fast metabolism, “good” genes, and in all honesty a small stomach. (Probably from being so picky as a kid.) But it’s simple psychology-if you are led to believe that your body type is ugly, unattractive, and unhealthy, you are going to struggle mentally with accepting yourself and trying to improve yourself in a healthy way. It’s easier for some than for others to push past the social norms. These people aren’t whining. They are calling out a system that preys upon the weak and tells them they’re not good enough. They are criticizing the notion that you should put your body size determines your worth. They are demanding that people stop judging others for being themselves. They are trying to tell people that you don’t have to use unhealthy methods to be perceived as attractive. You know what really won’t do anyone any good? Accepting defeat. Not calling out the misrepresentation, the under-representation, the false information, and the obsessive, predatory, and hypocritical tendencies of our society. Telling people “Well, it sucks, sorry. The world isn’t fair, that’s just how it is, deal with it.” This is a complicated issue. Don’t oversimplify it with your pessimistic, narrowly focused, condescending comments.

Michael Goldshmidt nobody gives a shit what you’re attracted to, weirdo. you’re probably one of the ppl who would praise this poet for losing weight even tho she was on the edge of death just cause she’s skinny. go on somewhere

I'm so very sorry. I hope you're doing better now. When others ignore truths, it's hard not to ignore them too. But we must learn to take care of ourselves where others don't🥺 I wish you the best

How’re you now?

I wonder that too. Personally, I wrote a similar poem speaking about my body issues and eating disorder, performed it in front of my mom and nothing happened, she related it more to herself and her own issues which is understandable

That’s what I was wondering.

I’m sorry xx

Michael Goldshmidt That’s not how it works. Anorexia is a mental illness. You can’t “just quit”

@Michael Goldshmidt doesn't mean it's the correct way to lose weight. Just get sick so you get skinny then become better? Weird logic u got mate. Especially the "some people" so not everyone. "Some people die, some people don't ah whatever it could help you!" gtfo with this helping people into mental illnesses bullshit.

by definition it is literally impossible to have anorexia and bulimia at the same time

+Gabby Stokes you can have a anorexia binge-purge sub type

Took the words right out of my mouth!

anorexia binge purge type is literally a subtype of anorexia - it is not having both anorexia AND bulimia. binging and purging is not a solely bulimic behaviour, just as restriction isn't a solely anorexic behaviour - they are all eating disordered behaviours not specific to one diagnosis. It is diagnostically impossible to suffer from anorexia and bulimia.

+Gabby Stokes Its actually called (or was called, i think they might have stopped using the term, but im not sure of the updated term) EDNOS, or Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified ... Basically, its what they used to diagnose patients who had behaviours of both Anorexia and Bulimia, and/or other irregular, damaging eating habits... Ie, someone who doesnt eat for long periods of time and then binges for an entire week, and then purges straight after; or someone who only eats on weekends, or certain food groups (meats, vegetables, etc) on certain days/weeks/times ...

How are you now?

Glad you enjoyed the show! Hope to see you back!

+Button Poetry is there a link to find out where these shows are going to be?

+missteanus Button Poetry Live is held every first Monday of the month at Camp Bar in downtown Saint Paul: facebook.com/buttonpoetrylive For PSi events, such as the National Poetry Slam, where this video was filmed, you should check out www.poetryslam.com

+FruityPearls Check comment above.

Button Poetry Yes but in which country is Button Live located? I am from South Africa so... is there any Button Poetry in South Africa too or is it just at Camp Bar in downtown Saint Paul?

you're already beautiful, you don't need to be hungry for that. take care of yourself, and if you want to lose weith, ask for help, don't do it on a dangerous way🥺

I see you wrote this 4 years ago. Just hoping you’re out there in the universe and know now that you’re beautiful? I hope you’re eating at least 3 meals now and are happy 💚

Lani Stephens me too:(

You should talk to someone about that, it's basic human nature to eat, it's survival. Nothing or nobody should ever make you feel guilty for eating. Hope you feel better

@AYLIN KOHAN i have bulimia now. But i am in therapy. Thanks for asking 😊

Laura ur too thin baby girl xx

No one here has said it yet, but they should: Good job. I'm proud of you.

+rose stay strong boo:)

I’m here for you

FrankieA I agree!!!

I’m here for you

i like feeling hungry and i think something's wrong with me.

+Kati I highly reccommended reading Intuitive Eating. I was exactly where you were and an still working out of it. You can do it, and you are beautiful. :)

+Ichabod Frances oh my god, you're so kind!!! thank you so much, i'll look into it. don't give up, my friend, you deserve the best:) thanku

Hey Kati, how are you doing now? Is it getting better? I wish you everything good in the world and in yourself, please stay strong xx

I'm here for you, stay strong

Take care Sun, please

+Pete Deatherage Thanks so much for your kind words, Pete! We do have a couple of albums available on bandcamp, and many books available in our store (which are a great way of supporting artists): buttonpoetry.com/shop/. You can also get Blythe's book from Where Are You Press!

Man, I follow Button Poetry impatiently!! I'm always waiting for them to post. I love these artists and hope to one day perform with Button Poetry!! I love the poem Interchangeable Parts

+Button Poetry do you deliver your books to Brazil?

+Alan Vieira We do indeed! Just choose your country for international shipping at checkout.

+Pete Deatherage You could always save the video to your computer and then copy it to your player or phone but I feel like that might be piracy :/

How’re you now?

Then I realized the damage it was doing. It was my final year at high school and I was losing concentration that I needed to regain in order to get the grades I wanted. My diet was that of a healthy person. But my body was used to being starved and so I gained a bunch of weight. Not enough to be obese like how I was , but enough for society to see me as "fat" . I developed a no-care attitude because I knew what was at stake. Now I'm done with school and I'm terrified. Part of me wants to go back to how I was before, but I'm so much healthier now. I can't stand being fat but part of me wants to just be happy and carry on eating 3 meals a day. But everyone around me seems disappointed and the things they said to me when I did lose the weight - and how they really saw me when I was obese - those disgusting thoughts of theirs circle in my brain and I'm just tired right now. This is the worst part.

+PierceTheBellybutton this is so real, same happens to me...

Jo Bo I feel just the same

Yo yo yo biatch

Your Mom yo yo yo bromosome how do you like my slam recommendations

+Schnapp Jamata I only see weight loss stories from people who were overweight to an average/healthy size praised. Mind I have never had an eating disorder or a problem with my weight so I guess I see things differently.

Sammy Ariel I used to hear stories like that as well, but now more and more I hear about how teens have turned to eating disorders as the only way for them to lose weight and stay that way. It's sad and as someone who's considered that path before, it's easy to see purging yourself as the only way out.

You don't choose to have an eating disorder, it is a mental health condition. That is like saying someone chooses to be schizophrenic. If someone could actually choose to have an ED, then they already have a mental problem to start with. I know that a lot of people restrict too much in a bid to lose weight quickly, then an eating disorder develops.

+Sammy Ariel and yes, I do already suffer from depression and live in a very stressful environment. And it is an environment that exacerbates the idea that skinny is the only way to be. I also agree that in the idea of eating disorder as a disorder, it isn't something that is a choice. But also like you said, when faced with other mental conditions and situations, it is definitely symptoms that can be mimicked into shadowing the disease. I'm sorry I didn't clarify earlier when I mentioned that I had considered it as a choice.

Ahh glad you agree, yeah unhealthy eating habits can be symptoms of depression. Hearing a voice telling you not to eat, believing things contain more calories than they have, or seeing yourself as fatter than you are is more like anorexia nervosa. There are lots of less well known EDNOS though, when you have a very unhealthy relationship with food but not enough symptoms of anorexia nervosa or bulimia. Whatever health problems you have I hope you can overcome them, good luck.