To suffer with mental health is utterly soul destroying.

Sadly I fear that depression in young people will increase due to social media and technology like mobile phones and internet use. Peoples minds are not switching off and relaxing due to internet addiction and comparing themselves to others on social media pages etc. Information overload

I haven't watched enough yet, but when you are in the most excruciating emotional pain and not a single person will lend a hand to help and your voice gets silenced, that seems like the very last resort. This world needs compassion and empathy. Everybody is so selfish, then have the audacity to call you selfish for not wanting to live.

Mental illness is often looked upon as weakness. It’s not weakness, it’s a disease that eats you up from the inside.. More openess and understanding and help is what is needed!

'There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.' - Laurell K. Hamilton. and it is VERY hard to get those wounds healing..

I truly believe that going to high school messed up my mind and contributed to my depression. If I hadn't gone I would be a different person today - a much better version of myself. Does anyone else feel the same?

the answer to the why is because you can't take the pain and hopelessness anymore, and you don't want to be a burden to anyone anymore...

Never doubt that someone who killed themselves loved those they left behind. If anything, they loved those people so much that they killed themselves. They thought everybody would be better off without them.

If you are watching this and you feel hopeless about your life, please don’t give up. You are loved. 💜💜

11 years strong of living this way for me.. just doesn't feel like it ever gets better, it's horrific daily feeling.

So many bad memories here. Please, please understand, we don't want to die. We want to end the pain inside. I myself, was also born in Northern Ireland 🇮🇪.

I nearly lost my life to suicide when I was 19, not understanding much about mental illness back when I was growing up, it hit me hard, I suffered terribly, the thoughts I was getting were not right. I fought hard though, I told my mum one night about everything I was going through, she put me into a clinic to stay for over 6 months, that's how bad I was. I never wanted to die, I just had a breakdown and terrible thoughts would always pass through my mind and go round and round to the point were I got no sleep. I was diagnosed with bipolar, multiple personality disorder and with psychotic tendencies. I'm still fighting the fight. I fight for everyday! I'm now 23. don't be ashamed of where life puts you and what you're faced with. please seek help.

My beautiful, loyal, lovely friend committed suicide at 34... we had known each other since we were 5 and ours was a lifetime friendship, no fallings out...there was no warning, no history of depression indeed on the surface you would think her life was perfect. Then she kills herself and you realize that maybe her life was not perfect after all...Unitl the day I die I will always wonder what drove her to do such an act...until we meet again RIP LISA MICHELLE TURNER and all those others who for whatever reason feel life is not worth living.

Depression, mental illness and suicidal thoughts can become so difficult to deal with that they actually lead to true physical pain and other adverse physical problems. Here's just a few: Anxiety, high blood pressure, panic attacks, migraine headaches, ulcers, tachycardia, obesity, alcoholism, drug abuse, drug addiction, difficulty concentrating, insomnia, anorexia, bulimia, self-harming....and the list goes on. Many people turn to cutting just to interrupt the constant flow of almost bone-crushing pressure and darkness. Depression is nothing to laugh at or to be taken lightly. It should be treated just as seriously as cancer or heart disease. God bless these families. And God bless all those who struggle daily with this formidable disease!

To be clear... not everyone that self-harms1 wants to die or would try to kill themselves. It's a way to feel in control and sometimes it's a way to release anger or sadness.

People who say suicide is selfish have obviously never been in that position.Can you imagine to have the balls to do such a thing knowing what you are leaving behind.So simple!!

The pain that someone must go through to take their own life is unthinkable. I've been in bad places, but to take my own like, that's years of constant pain. my thoughts to those that have suffered.

It's not the people that are ill it's the world we live in that is ill

Those who want to commit suicide do not really wanna die, they just want a different life to the one they're living.

What a broken word we live in.

“No one has ever told me your child could die from suicide.”

It's horrendous here in Northern Ireland. Most of us know people who have died this way. I know 3 myself. There's actually been families who lose more than one child this way. Then there's been groups of kids who plan and carry this out. If you think this is bad, think how many attempted this and survived.

Interesting coming across this documentary because I lost my 13 teen yr old Son almost 11 yrs ago by hanging. I found him. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who knows this pain!!!! 😭

It’s so bad depression l have suffered it for years but with help and a new mindset you can help yourself but a younger person they would not understand this should be taught in schools and the pressure should be off our young ones x

I was so deeply moved by their stories. I actually wanted to reach out and touch them but after watching this documentary, I will say a prayer for you. I could see the pain in your eyes as the stories unfolded and the shock of realizing what happened. You have all pulled through with strength. God bless you ten folds.

my mother threatened suicide our whole lives, it had me question did she really truly love us but know I understand she was sick and in pain

There is a stigma attached to mental illness which has been with us for at least 2000 years. It is totally indiscriminate and rife in society. Anyone who thinks they are not to be affected due to education, money or looks are completely deluded X x

My heart goes out to those who have lost a loved one to Suicide.

I am sitting here crying. My daughters on again, off again partner committed suicide with our garden hose. He took it to the park and hung himself. What a waste of a beautiful and young life. It’s very painful as he lived with us and was like a son to me.

There are too many expectations of people that leads to constant stress. The best advice to your kids is don't worry what other people think.

The saddest part is that these people were unable to find a way out. I have PTSD and other health issues as well, but I fight for my little boy every day 💙 RIP to all in this video and love and peace for thier families.

I had a very close and dear relative who committed suicide because her depression would cause her to sleep a lot and that wasn't bad enough the worst part was that she would have these terrible nightmares every time she went to sleep and she did seek help and nothing would stop the nightmares to the point where she didn't want to go to sleep anymore and then she got very high blood pressure because she was keeping herself awake and one night she just couldn't take it anymore and she took pills and ended her life! Just imagine going to sleep and every time you do your you're going to have a horrible nightmare and this went on for well over a year everyday even if she took a nap she would have a nightmare or a extremely Vivid crazy dream! The poor soul had no peace and I pray God has Mercy on her soul and on all the souls of these people that just couldn't find any peace or happiness in their lives!!

My heart breaks for all of these good people...

This brings back some of the painful memories of when I was suicidal in High School. It's crazy to hear from survivors and hear about those who did complete suicide and remember exactly what that feels like. You can't describe the feeling of seeing someone go through the exact pain you did. It's... an uncanny feeling.

I know that if I didn't have a family that I love so much, I would have already killed myself. Every time that I have felt truly suicidal, my family always comes to my mind and I can't do it.

It's terrible to lose a family member in any way. But suicide can be especially traumatising especially the fact that it could have been stopped if they received the right help and support from those around them.

People say its a cowardly act...I'm not saying it's the right thing to do! But I think you've got to be seriously brave to take your own life. 😔

Such a sensitively & well done documentary, but I found it almost too difficult to watch...My heart squeezes with emotion for the Families left behind with such pain & so many unanswered questions...God Bless them & comfort them...

I am already at rock bottom. I got a speeding fine earlier for going through a camera. It's the last straw when you feel the way I do even though I appreciate a speeding fine is nothing, but when you're depressed, even a small thing can seem overwhelming.

I held my 6'1" son above my head with one hand while I tried to cut the rope with the other. It's been 25yrs. I still see it in my mind like it was yesterday.

Huge problem here in Ireland. I’m renting in a small fishing village. In the 18 moths that I have been here, there have been 3 suicides and 1 failed.. My heart goes out to the families and communities ❤️ Please ask for help..people do care! It might just surprise you!

I know it's the norm to view suicide as the result of "mental illness". I'm afraid I can't see it that way. Surely, sometimes, it is. Sometimes, it is drug addiction. Sometimes, it is chronic pain and loneliness. There are so many reasons "why". All I know is that sometimes, people just do not belong here. As hard as that may be to hear or know. Some people just can not adjust to this place. They can not find their "niche". They can't feel connected and nourished. There are so so many reasons "why". There is no one reason, but I think the bottom line is they just become too tired to wake up to another day. It's beyond sad. I know the feeling. However strange it may sound, I feel like some people are just too beautiful and too sensitive to fit in here, to adjust to the harshness of life. For some reason, they just need to go home. No other option feels right for them, and they lose the will to fight to stay. No matter how much you love them, they just can't do it. We have to forgive them for choosing to go to their spiritual "home". It's not our "fault". My heart goes out to all of you who have lost a loved one and all of you who can't find your home here. I only ask that you give it a LITTLE more time. The sun may come out. Once you are gone, it is forever, and you will be missed so much. We will not go on as before without you. It's not possible. You really are that significant. Thank you for this video. It does my heart good to see you people who are reaching out to each other to comfort and support each other, and your focus on your loved ones' lives rather than deaths is just beautiful.

I am suffering from deep depression almost 3 years since I lost my father. I did my best to hide it,working, traveling,running away from myself and everyone 😔nothing make me feel better nothing... I cannot wait to dye just to go in the Heaven to meat my father and to be next to him I don’t care about anything. I have never been so empty and lost in my life.

Everyone asks why people do these things but I really struggle to see why someone would even want to be alive. There's no clear cut reason, nothing necessarily has to happen to set it off.Death is a way out, no matter what's going on, death is a sure fire way out.

Suicide documentaries and hearing people openly speaking about suicide keeps me alive. Not being asked why I feel suicidal and expecting me to rationalise it.

Just because we are forced to live this life, it doesn’t automatically mean that we want to live this life.

This was so enlightening- we assume our young people are ok - we need to show them constant support and love - this show was heartbreaking- so sorry for the families that endured this experience

These families are so brave to make this documentary in the hope that it may help others. Blessings.

God bless this family for making something good out of such a tragedy and loss.... I have suffered all my life with depression and have found this year to be one of the hardest yet.... it is good to know SOMEONE out there gives a crap and is fighting for a VERY worthy cause

Utterly heartbreaking. God bless these families.

Any loss of a loved one or friend is painful and life-changing. So, I can't imagine this type that is even more personal.

Martha's little brother is there for filming,and parents barely acknowledge him being there-......Fretting about their first-born disappointing them so badly ,feeling inadequate-meanwhile young 12 year old has to deal with his big sister gone. Gee,makes you wonder....

I'm sorry for your losses! I have no idea how I would continue to live after these traumatic events. Blessings and love, Nola

I live in Northern Ireland and suicide is heartbreakingly a big problem. There is for example cluster areas such as around Ardoyne. One family lost three young people, all cousins in the space of 10 months. It is such a big problem that is taking young people that isn't taken seriously enough. However there are organisations such as PIPS, PAPYRUS, and Niamh that try and help and support bereaved and people who are thinking of suicide. I went on a programme two summers ago where myself and other young people got to see some of these charities and a mother who had lost two sons to suicide. It was absolutely heartbreaking but an eye opener to the services that are available and the families left behind. Although the vast majority of these organisations are self funded and do not get governmental funding. The NHS does not seem to have the funding in place to deal with the seriousness of the problem.

There was a time when suicide was considered a cowards way out. Not anymore in my view. Life, for many these days is nothing more than a burden that goes on for too long. A burden that none of us asks for, it's just thrust upon you. If you're lucky enough to be born into a decent Family and have kind loving parents then hopefully, you get to enjoy the best part of your life which is your childhood, after that you join the rat race, work all day, go home too knackered for anything else, only to do the same thing over and over, every day the same. People say life is what you make it. No it isn't, because if that was the case we would all be doing what we wanted to do and achieve, so it all depends on the hand you get dealt. Obviously I feel for these families who have lost loved ones in this way.

I've attempted suicide many times and struggled with substance abuse through my life. Even now it sometimes gets so bad that I don't get out of bed for days and I spend hours alone crying. I hate having depression. I have a 2 year old son and another baby on the way and I don't want them seeing me like this and wondering if I'm ruining their lives. Then it spirals down and it triggers what if they would be better off without me. And since my depression is out of hand sometimes what if it would be better for my husband to just move on. I'm not close with anyone in my family and its just because I dont keep in contact. Not that I don't care about them it's just that I dont feel like talking for long periods of time. It sucks to live every day with a dark cloud over you. Even on the "good days" it's still really bad.

What a profound documentary. It touched my heart very deeply. It is really sad that so many people included the love ones of who committed suicide opt to critizes them and judged them. Depression is a very painful disease. No matter how good their lives can be or/and how privileged they are. Suffering for depression for many of us becomes a daily battle against time, space, and society. The fight stars when they weak up already panicking, their heart start beating so abruptly and fast that physical hurts, they feel like they can not breath, and their body start shaking and the fear invades the whole body. Every single day they face the reality of their lives. Every minute counts and the relief comes when the day ends. Just think like about being sentenced for life in solitary confinment, their body is their jail and the only solution to see to find freedom is to separate their souls from their bodies so they can reach their eternal peace. Many times the existence itself is so overwhelming and complex that their head develop terrible headaches and its weight is incredible heavy to the point that they want to slit their heads off their bodies to relief the pression and stop thinking. People with depression manifested their feelings, thougths, desperation, and hopelessness before taking their lives, unfortunately their love ones miss and avoid these signs, they do not understand or do not know how to help them until is too late. In many ocasions when they tried to share their feelings and thougths to their close ones typically their response are , 'just think that life is so beautiful is not reason to think that way", "you should be grateful because you have everything many others can not afford", "they are so many people around the world who do not have anything to eat, who do not have a roof where to live in, who do not have clothes, shoes and so on" they simply dismiss their pain and indirectly make them feel worthless, hopeless, quilty, frustated, angry, and even more depressed, and suicidal, their love ones attitude is one of their reasons they feel that their lives are going to be better without their presence. Many people tend to call them lazy, -you are making excuses to not face your responsibilities and to do your chores-, -you are selfish and weak-, -you are not considerate to us,- you are so reckless-, you have no strength to change your life-, or you are finding the easy way to face your live and duties . All these things are very wrong and untrue because to them, there is not light after the tunnel, there is not future to fight for because their accomplishments, sucesses are ephemeral, the emptiness in their soul will come back soon and the fight to exist will start again. Many times their fear petrified them to the point that phisically inmovilize them, they sabotage their lives and priorities but also they cry and suffer every day in silence and in the solitude of their private space while outside they smile, they seem happy and even they can be the light of the party, they are clowns faking their misery. To anyone who is facing this situation with any member of your love ones who is dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts, my humble advise is to listen to them and not judge them, do not dismiss their pain and struggles when they try to approach you, they need to be listen, stay by their side, educate yourself thru any source of information regarding their problem to better understand them, do not critize them, find professional help to help them and to help you go thru such a difficult time, and please do not feel sorrow for them is pity and offensive. They did not choose to be this way. Depression is a terrible chronic disease that need to be taken seriously. Good day.

When you speak people judge you and start to stigmatize and look down on you. After the first time attempt they understand no one cares and keep suffering on their own and die.

God bless these grieving families ♡

SEEK HELP....You are not alone, I am with you!

i know how it feels before an attempt. By the grace of God I've recovered, and have learned what had been missing. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, it's so precious. Anyone who would like a listening ear, I'm here for you. I know how much I needed one back then, when there were none, and the ones I thought would know how to help couldn't and made it worse. But I can see now that it can all be reframed when we know there is sufficient support and care. It's not that we no longer want to exist, just for the pain to stop. Insight heals minds, God bless you all :)

Had to watch it twice, and still could only understand about 70%. Was a poignant documentary, but the music made it 'sadder'.

This documentary and these brave people show that if someone is determined to take their life, no one can stop them. Unfortunately.

It's very painful to watch the families grieving the loss of their loves ones in such a horrific death.May God give you the peace and joy and love to remember your beloved always.

God bless you all. I worked in Nothern Ireland and I met some wonderful people and so are you all who made this document. Thank you for what you are doing for the world today.

Just finished the video. Very beautiful reminder of how important our lives are. None of us should ever even contemplate suicide, because that act is final and affects / effects so many people that we can never estimate how much damage it does, especially to those that we love.

This is a very moving and emotional video. What is said needs to be heard all over the world.

My brother took his own life 41 years ago he was 16 ,my mum. Always blamed herself till the day she died as he wanted borrow some money but mum was penniless ,he took cyanide the tried too walk to my sisters work place but died in some trees alone and in pain ,I will never ever forget that day I was 13 miss him millions.😢

Wow.This was so well done.Thank you for sharing. It's stories like this that will help change the narrative around how we approach mental health and illness.

Its an absolutely devastating desease. RIP my both parents who suffered of mental illness. 🕯🕊✝️🙏❤️

I HAVE CHILLES OF HAPPY FELLINGS JUST ON THE EDGE OF CRYING , the wonderful , kind ,caring people in the comment ! It a blessing in my life when I hear so MENY great kind ,caring people .it makes me feel worm and happy that not everyone is evil ,or are pretending to be the most caring loving of every thing and all people in this world ,and you find out you were tricked by them , they live off hate , the make others miserable ! It makes them happy , I’ll never understand these humans ,or even if they are humans . 🙏❤️🇨🇦

My heart aches for the families that are grieving the Loss of their children... There is No pain in this world like the pain of losing our child..no matter how old they are,.they are always our baby. May God give them the strength to move forward.

My Dad committed suicide in 1999. I was 15. Shortly after my mum died of a broken heart because of his death. No one supported us through this.

I'm watching this on my brothers birthday, he commited suicide last November

I really admire the support networks and most of all the people who lost a loved one .💜😪

So very sad, so hard when you're left with no answer as to why, I hope these families can eventually find some peace amongst this awful turmoil they must be still going through, and for those that have passed may they rest peacefully.

Wonderful helping hands to broken hearts❤️

Depression is soul destroying!

Pay attention...stop sweeping it under the rug and save your loved ones....the biggest lie I've ever heard was " we didn't know they felt so badly" yes you did!!!!

Beautiful documentary, with great respect shown to the bereaved.

Thats a very touching channel. God bless those families who took part to share their grief. Mental health is a very serious issue ... and definitely something that needs more funding and services.

The Piano Music Is Extremely Haunting!!!!!

Thank you for your hard and ever important work Niamh

Feel soo sad for these families! Such emotional pain to bear!

I know what it is like to lose loved ones .Be kind as we all need love and understandings. 💜😪

Well done to each family for their bravery to speak out I really believe it makes a difference, ur strength is humbling

Please send prayers my way and to anyone you know suffering from depression and other mental illnesses im going through too much and have no support 😣everday is a struggle i am so alone

I feel so worn out. I had a nervous breakdown and I'm so tired

They are doing such a great thing.it feels good to know that ppl care and there are many out there ready to help❤️

So sad and true I can feel the emotion and determination to destroy suicide from its core much love to these families I wish them all the best of luck

one of my best friends committed suicide in February. it's difficult to accept but I've accepted it. he never reached out to me. but I'm still struggling with the anger. he left two beautiful babies he loved so much. that is what angers me, knowing he chose to leave his babies. I miss him every day.

A very sad documentary but it's needed, suicide needs talking about, we learn from others stories. I don't think people will ever know how someone suicidal is feeling because a lot of the time they keep that feeling to themselves and you are just not thinking right when you are feeling suicidal. I know I didn't/don't when I have felt like that. I have chronic depression and sometimes I just can't see the point in continuing in this suffering, you just feel like you are alive but waiting for death each day, and also you feel incredibly guilt for even thinking like this, most of the time you don't even really want to die, you just want an end to this never ending eternal suffering. it's very hard to explain. RIP to all lost to suicide and love to all thier friends and family xx

My heart goes out to these families. There is no one to blame when someone takes their own life. We absolutely need to concentrate on suicide prevention. Support for the families is also very important. If you know someone who is in trouble just tell them you love them and try to convince them to get help. If this doesnt work remember this person with love and also know you did your best to help.

So sad, God bless these people.Crying my eyes out.

Feel so bad for the woman who lost her husband. All of them are hard to swallow, but that one especially difficult to imagine going through for me.

RIP To All who lost their battle with mental illness. Desperate people look for desperate measures.

Lovely way to honour their loved ones, More needs to be done to understand suicide, I think it's fabulous these families coming together & I hope they know it wasn't their fault!

This is so heartbreaking ❤️

It is often very hard to explain what you feel to others. Words cannot convey the depth of pain. Any down mood that hangs around, must be addressed and expressed. Imperative action must be taken. "Things will get better" is true, but in the moment it has little effect to the person that suffers.

Hardest thing about this is the comment section 2 years later. I think some of the comments sound not positive and I just hope everyone lived through their time when they got interested into that topic.