marie: "straight out of the kettle" coffee: *straight to the floor*

The title hit me right in the heart bc I actually like being sad. I like having something to cry about and relieve my stress over. I like the warm baths and Netflix binge watching and the unhealthy eating. I like crying to the point I’m choked up. I guess I don’t like being sad because of the reasons that have caused my pain.

Do you, or does someone in the comments, ever get the feeling that they're partly responsible for the mental health issues? That maybe if you stopped thinking about it, stopped asking yourself so many questions about it, it would just go away? Like "shes not giving me enough attention anymore let's just leave it here"...

Watched u spill ur coffee and subscribed instantly

Somehow lately i feel less depressed after 9 months to a year of feeling like shit and it feels wrong..

i’ve linked my spotify in the description 🤩

you & pip should collab with kati morton, would be very interesting :)) love your videos btw xxx

I struggle with depression diagnosis too because I didn't feel like I was, but then when it gets really bad im like OHHH yeah, maybe I do have it after all

There was time in my life when I was a teenager that I felt defined by my sadness, and in a really fucked way, I didn’t want to get better, i felt that my sadness made me interesting and different and I didn’t want anyone to be as sad as me. Flash forward I’m the least toxic, most positive person I know, I’m grateful for every moment and I do the law of attraction lifestyle

I completely get you about the high functioning depression thing. I think I'm still suffering with depression, it still creeps up on me every now and then but I don't feel 'depressed'. I get similar symptoms to you. Like you, I know what it's like to be rock bottom, so not being that doesnt feel like "real depression"

I’m really struggling with a relapse rn & this video couldn’t have come at a better time 💖 I love u & your videos sm x

Would love a video on ways to reduce appearance of scars (older ones ideally) xx love your videos as always thank you

She answers it in the minute 22:26 You are welcome :)

My counseling session is literally me sitting in a dim room closing my eyes and talking to myself

30 mins of u???!!! Literal heaven

It feels easier to follow a negative circle round and round rather than break out if it ... I feel like saying yes to things and getting out of your house slowly makes recovery possible, as well as trying not to feel ashamed of mistakes and set backs!! That's what i'm trying to tell myself anyways lol!

0:39 ''I had a vision'' if this isn't the most pisces thing I've heard.. cause sAME

Mental health Monday!! 😁 yay!! 💜💕💖💗💗💓❣️

Needed this today, thank you, so much xx

You're such an inspiration! Your videos help me so much! 😊💗

Thank you for being so open and honest in every video💓. You being open helps me to try and be open in my recovery. Thank you for being you xx

needed this

OMG you answered my question 😱🤭 that has made my day 💙 your a living inspiration Marie, your so strong, stunning and just inspirational ❤️❤️❤️

You are so wise and inspiring! Thank you for this video 💛

The background of the quote was soooo much better. Thank you so much Marie. Xx

You’re such an inspiration to me 💗

Marie you're such a beautiful soul. You make me so happy 😊

you’re such an inspiration to me and many others, keep going strong!!! you’ve inspired me to do my own youtube channel💫

Your videos always come at the right time. I’m seeing a councillor soon and I’m not sure I want to. What you said about experiencing joy made me realise why I want to get better, for my family and for my boyfriend, thank you x

How do you look so good in a headband? I just look like miss trunchball

Love u sm 😁 ur so inspirational and the coffee spill is so relatable 😂❤️

I know why I sometimes don’t want to stop self harming 😐 it’s the whole competitive side and maybe if I had deeper cuts people would take me more seriously. Sorry to say that but it’s a struggle.

I haven't commented in a while but I wanna say that this video came just at the right time for me and has helped me so much. I have an important meeting today for my future and I was feeling so anxious about it. But I know I have to just get through this afternoon. It will be so good for me to have achieved it today. And that's what I'm gonna do for my recovery right now! Lots of love for you. Hope you're doing well ❤️ (also a thing that helps me want to get better and stay out of hospital is the thought of how much I missed my dog when I was admitted!)

I love your videos so much, thank you for giving me hope 💙 I hope you’re doing well! 💙

Please could you do a video on podcasts that you listen to that are helpful as I really struggle to find ones that I actually find engaging... thank you for everything you do xxxx

you’re glowing in this vid marie✨!!x

Your answer to the question at 22:22 is on point 👌 thanks Marie

WE LOVE YOU MARIE

Really loved this video! That intro with the coffe was honestly so relatable haha! 💗

Your videos are so helpful and calming to watch. Love you 💕

Absolutely adore you girl Thankyou for such a good vid xxx

Lots of love Marie 💕

I really liked the deep part! I feel the same way (not wanting to waste my life being ill) because there is so much more to life!

Meant to be trying to sort my sleep pattern out for sixth form next week but I am already late for your vid :)) love your vids! you really inspire me and I am now 6 months clean of self-harm. So I just wanted you to know you and your videos are the reason I ever opened up about my self harm. Your helping so many people, love u xxx

I understand you so well Marie 🖤

Loved the video! Yes please for lives xx

Marie, you said you want to use what you’ve gone through for good. If you don’t know that you’re already doing this, you are ❤️ also I would love to see live Insta videos

Honestly inspirational x

Very powerful video, Marie xxx 💞

I haven’t formally been diagnosed with depression (Only anxiety), but I developed these illnesses while in therapy. I’ve gotten used to being so miserable all the time and I don’t care anymore. It’s not that I like being sad, but I just don’t have the energy to get better. My parents and therapist know I’ve self harmed but think I’ve stopped. I haven’t stopped and I don’t know how to tell them or if I should. Nothing is working right for me even with my medication and treatments I can’t stay well. It’s also incredibly exhausting keeping up this facade of being happy, talking to people, and keeping up with my hygiene. Im only 14 but it feels like life in general is against me. Nobody has realized I’m still doing bad and I’ve pretty much given up. Sorry about that tangent but nobody knows who I am on here so I can say that stuff. Also love you Marie! You’re so incredibly beautiful and strong. I’m inspired by you.

I literally can’t deal anymore. 😩 but you’re so gorgeous x

You’re so gorgeous omg

I feel like my experience of coming out of hospital is that I actually found it more isolating then hospital itself. It’s kind of like you forget that while your life is stagnant everyone else’s still goes on. So I think that’s definitely what I struggled with the most because it can be really lonely and scary. X

So my therapists have said this to me . And it drives me crazy. Maybe deep down I didn’t . But now I am doing absolutely EVERYTHING in my power to get better

Do a video on what you do on your bad days!!💗xx

This video really helped me, I really appreciate you.

I'm really struggling with my mental health this past week. But watching your vlog has made me feel better and you are very inspiring. Love you ❤

I am really going through a bad time but your videos help me so much

idk why, but your intro always makes me emotional

remember a clean room = a clean mind so keep your room clean!

I totally get what you mean when you say you just want to live a mundane life and don't wanna be known as the depressed auntie, that thought has been a huuuuge reason (if not the main reason) I want to get better tbh. Also, to anyone who feels like they're stuck in a rut right now, you can come around to wanting to recover

Honestly Marie, every video you post you put so much time into and so much thought. Its appreciated by us all. I love you so much lovely! PS: this is hit or miss but could you possibly do a video on attachments? How you cope and what to do, I think it'll be helpful since I amongst others struggle with this a lot. Just an idea though x

AhHHHhHhhH clicked so fast,legit.Lysm x

You are beautiful and such a wonderful woman!!!! Stay strong pretty

Stunner !

I too was diagnosed with bpd and depression I deal with it the same way as you.I only realized the social part this year Im trying to go out on more dates and be social despite feeling so sad

I had a similar experience with seeing elderly women in the hospital and being scared into recovery. I was I'm hospital around Christmas in 2013 and there was a women who asked one of the staff members if we'll get Christmas presents and he kind of laughed and said no. And so this woman responded: "but in 1990 when I was here on Christmas we did" And I was so shocked by that because I just thought: omg, she's been struggling with her mental health for more than twenty years, what if that happens to me as well o.O

i will watch the video and i love you but after how bad i feel with bpd and the fact i dont think im ever going to get better. of course i want to get better. i personally dont understand not wanting to get better. im missing out on living and im just existing. well ill watch the video now haha. xox

so beautiful inside and out xoxo

Do you use any filters on your videos or do you have amazing lightning?

love uuu,

She looks so beautiful in this video omd 😍😅

Pleaaaaase put your Spotify playlist up! On insta or in the comments etc! Wanna listen to some bangerssss ❤️

Another great video! Thank you! ❤ Can't find link to your Spotify. 🤔

I feel the same way when i try and explain my depression

Love your videos. What’s your Spotify link?

There are alot of people who get really fixated into finding an answer and needing a diagnosis and I totally get that you would want a reason but it becomes rather unhealthy to A point they dont move on or let it pass they want it the problem to stay I guess also because they might be not done crying it's in a way of the disorder is gone but now you have problems due to it, when maybe it could of just passed away I dont know that's just the way I see it obviously it isnt for everyone.

"oH FUCK" "YOU ALRIGHT?"

TW Talking mental health with my family/relatives wouldn't work. It's a stigma in the real world and in my family we've added another one. Lost my father and nearly my mother by suicide, Lost a cousin as well, two other are on the pills for depression. There's no way to ask them for help.

Wow your eyes are gorgeous

It can't be sad If it's metalcore or death metal :)

Early squad

I was on a waiting list to speak to someone for years. Eventually just gave up

Those eyes x

What's your Spotify!? Need this enlightening music haha

Anyone else with an eating disorder not wanting to recover for whatever reason? I’m struggling to recover. I do badly want to go back to old ways

Hi Marie, I’m starting college soon but I feel very detached from reality and I seem to be making bad decisions in my life because I just don’t care about it anymore, I don’t really want to go to college because my mental health is already bad and I’m not sure what to do. Do you have any suggestions? Love you always xxx

oh, you're an introvert? i wouldn't have guessed, pegged you as an extrovert hehe. but its a compliment coming from me (introverted lily pad), love love your bubliness, optimism and spark. xx if you know the mbti, are you an e/infj?

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i am having councelling because my school found out how low my mental health is/ was a week ago

What if I take meds but when they take away the sadness im numb what do I do?

That coffee’s straight out of the kettle, but I’m gay out of the closet🌈✨🦉

Did you leave your Spotify? 💓

Any advice with scars and swimming?

I guess theres a huge difference between not wanting to get better, but what if I want to get worse, is it even a mental health issue if I make my depression worse on purpose by saying awake and not eating and then having the question am I depressed or am I attention seeking or am i just messed up, does anyone else feel like this or am I just so messed up.

Yayyyyyyyyy

How’s it been lately? Figured I’d ask because one, you deserve to be asked and two, your voice sounds a bit shaky. Hope all is well though! ❤️

What’s ur Spotify?❤️

I felt like I didn't want to get better before I went to a twenty one pilots concert. They saved me

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