The worst thing in the world is to love someone. Love is the most painful and cruel feeling a person can feel in his life. I fell in love with Lily at the age of 5 in kindergarten and since then I have never loved anyone else, we remained only as friends until our 30s when I was always just a support to her but not a partner. I had to watch each of her partners, which in the end everyone disappointed her every time, but I must admit deep down I was always happy because of it. When I finally got the courage and was able to win her over and we were finally together I thought I could finally be happy too. After six months in the relationship she announced we were expecting a baby and I thought I had finally achieved everything I had hoped for in life……. Two weeks ago when Lily was seven months pregnant, a drunk driver crashed into her. Lily and the baby didn't survive. I've never in my life felt what I'm feeling right now, it feels like something is tearing me apart from the inside into a million pieces. I feel like my whole life is just a black and white movie that I'm not a part of. Nothing makes sense in my life anymore. I didn't said goodbye to her and I didn't want to let her go I want to hold her hand her everyday but I can't because she was taken away from me.

Pain is that which protects us, it leaves deep scars to remind us to be wary and builds up thick walls to keep away those that would harm us, but in the same beat it traps us alone in the dark.

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Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow.

I've helped a lot of people. Helped a lot of people heal. My gift is I can read people well enough to help them heal and my curse is there's no one who can read me well enough to heal me. It's true, if I die today, no one will remember my existence. 😊

Never ours, yet ever near, her absence whispers, solitude's tear.

Love is given someone the means to destroy you and trusting them not to, and you'll want to run from it, but yet also secretly desire it.

Wow that hits hard ❤ but amazing edit

we're all here because of the pain of it all

I still cant understand how she just left from one day to the other after 13 years together. Becoming adults together and going through everything. I guess love is the most brutal and gruesome thing thing that has ever happened to me. All the stuff i‘ve been through is nothing compared to the pain that has been silently following me day by day. It‘s hard when you would never think of leaving somebody but the other person has it all planned.

Don't worry guys, someday all the pain you're experiencing will go away forever....

I heard that. It's time to let go. His hand isn't for me to hold, bcuz he needs too many others to hold it, so-to- speak. Loving someone who will never reciprocate, is a slow death. An altogether level of pain.

Finally! Awesome, Thank you ☺

been a while :) awesome edit, keep it up

I hope when I truly die that I have changed many life’s. Even if it’s one life because for me it is better to have died with meaning then to not have had a purpose :(

The darkness and emptiness came back😢

I've never seen that quote at the end before, but I have a toxic ex trying to get back into my life again & I am 100% using that whole goodbye versus letting go & it's time to let go to try getting through to her. Last time we talked I told her to "consider me dead" as my way of saying she had o let go & accept O was never coming back into her life, but she called her cousin the sheriff to do a welfare check on me so I need to pick my words with her very carefully when I cannot avoid confrontation, which she is trying to force. TLDR: so grateful this video popped up in my recommendations. It's beautiful

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Im not ok

SO GOOD ! new sub 😍😍

I only ever wanted to say goodbye to her now I have to let her go I understand now 😔

Man I am so angry at times. I just feel broken. So alone.

The feeling of pain can be defied in many different ways. It can be from betrayal or self disappointment. I’m suffering with the most unimaginable pain right now and I’m pretty sure I have depression but I don’t know how to tell my parents. I’ve suffered with so much pain for so long now that I am becoming emotionally numb. I’m getting so heavily bullied every day and my friends from my old school have completely ghosted me and I don’t know what to do. I’m constantly alone all the time and I quite literally have no one at school to talk to. I just wish it would stop for a moment. I genuinely cannot remember the last time I felt happiness. Which I know at first may sound selfish but I do try to hold onto every positive thing in my life but it is so difficult when all of the pain and torture overpowers it. I’ve completely isolated myself from my family and any hobbies I may have had before I don’t have any now because I just completely lost interest in them. Every day I deal with so much pain and yet nobody seems to care. All the people at my school can do is blame me for everything that’s happened between our friendship group. One thing I want more than anything is for one of my friends to actually act like they care and ask me if I’m okay because I’m never okay

The thing is, why do we love someone who doesn’t feel the same way as us? Why do some of us choose and stay with them instead of letting go? It really hurts deeply. Sometimes I ask myself to stop but I can’t. I know that he didn’t like me that way but I can’t do it. I don’t know anymore

Please make one with summertime sadness music

Life is hard 🙏 stay positive strong ❤ everyone

im dying inside

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When I write these I wonder if anyone will read it I hate that people need me. Not financially. Not physically. But emotionally. Mentally. They count on me and I feel guilty for wanting to end it all. I hate that I want to leave while knowing that there's people who need me. That their lives are better with me in it. It's selfish to want to kill myself. I have the power. The ability. And the ideas to do more good then bad but I don't want to make sacrifices. I don't want to hurt people. I don't want to use people. I just want a better world and the truth that it can never be achieved without sacrifice. Without someone losing a house. Without someone getting divorced. I know it's pointless for me to see these things. But one day I understand one truth that made me feel lost. That everyone is just in a ball of collective cause and effect. And the results, the reaction. Is what we receive everyday. Those "everything happens for a reason" bs. I just feel lost.

Everyday Peter thinks only if I didn't let her make that decision or broke that fu*king promise she would still be alive

peter & gwen💔that's pain

I just wanna be okay 🥺🥺🥺the substances don’t work anymore I wanna be okayyyyy 😞😞

At end we have to let people go

Can anyone tell me about the bgm ? I want that bgm

Jesus loves you all guys...i know you are in pain but "He says those who are weary, tired and broken come to me and i will give you rest"...Jesus is the healer❤

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The worst pain is when you loose someone you love. Then knowing you can't do anything about it. Then when you have your own father walked out on you and the people you need don't care..that's the worst pain.

fuck dude i'm saad as fuck. i hate being alone feeling alone. alone alone alone!

Name of this movie

Its all numb

3:21 name of this show anyone?

5:24 movie name please 🔥

0:45?

The girl I love is already moved on and I miss her I will never love anyone anymore because she has my heart even if she married some other guy she would always own my heart but I will never stop loving her even if it causes my life too end

I’m tired… and I just want to never feel