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This song helped me out of a really dark place, and I hope it does the same for you. 💖💜
(and paired with miraculous - what could be better? 😁🥰)
I half-started at least three projects last week, but couldn't really focus on any of them, and then this song popped up and it felt like every word was for me.
This past week(s) has been especially rough - aside from emotional challenges, I've had some pretty disruptive health issues, one of which was particularly frightening since it was very similar to a stroke in symptoms, and this was the first time I had an episode outside of my house which made me nervous to trust myself to go anywhere in case it might happen again. (now I'm thinking it's probably migraine related since those can present similarly, mixed with this panic attack/heart arrythmia thing I have) Anyway, all that to say, this song came at the perfect time. 💕
I kind of forgot it wasn't a Christian song, because as a Christian I couldn't help thinking of how similar it is to Jesus' promises to me. (I guess that's true in any relationship though - when you hear a love song you can't help but think of the person you love. Or in my case generally miraculous, but depending on the song Jesus often comes to mind too. 😅🥰)
I think we all know what's it's like to have a heart that's been broken, bruised, and pieces that went missing. Sometimes we try to shield ourselves from pain and build up walls to protect ourselves from more damage and prevent anyone from hurting us...but that also prevents anyone from helping us too. We might try to pretend we're okay, or soldier through on our own, but our hearts are still wounded, and we long to be whole again. That's where the miraculous love of Jesus comes in.
The Bible says in Psalms 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." He promises to put our broken pieces back together and make something beautiful out of it...we just have to be willing to open our hearts and let him.
"I know you're scared to hurt those close to you" - okay, can we just appreciate how PERFECT that line is for Ladybug? 😏🥺💕 But honestly I've felt that way too. I know that everyone is struggling with their own battles, and I often feel like it would be selfish to burden them with mine or by telling them it might hurt them somehow, so I keep it all to myself, but that's the great thing about God - nothing is too much for him. He is always ready to listen. He wants you to bring him all of your troubles and is never hurt by your questions, fears, or doubts, and instead wants to comfort you and strengthen you in the midst of those hard times. The line is also about keeping others at a distance and feeling like you don't deserve their attention and love because your mess is too much and you're worried it would hurt them, but this song is about someone who sticks with you through the good moments and the bad. You don't have to pretend to be okay or hide your true feelings - you can be who you are and don't have to strive to be perfect to gain a love that's already given to you. ❤
But see, it's easy to say all that - much harder to put into practice. 😏🙃
There are days that feel too dark, pains that ache so much, and I often try to handle it all on my own. As the oldest child, the only girl, and a perfectionist at heart I have a bit of a responsibility complex - and despite my parents and friend's efforts, I often worry about things that are way outside my control and try to keep all my own problems bottled up and out of sight. (Which really just means brewing below the surface and probably plays some infuriating factor in my unsteady health. 🙈😝😏)
But it's not so much that I don't want anyone to know about my struggles - it's that I'm afraid of what they'll think of me after they do.
Will they still think I'm capable? Trustworthy? Good? (Woooow, the things I discover while writing these. 🤔😜😅) So I hide like Marinette under her pile of blankets and misery...but the truth is I do need someone, and maybe you do too.
And guess what? There is Someone who loves you enough to chase after you, someone who keeps knocking when you say go away, someone who is always ready to listen and already knows you completely. Jesus. ❤
I know I've shared this song before, but it one of my absolute favorites and fits this perfectly: • Tauren Wells - Known (... (you should check it out later 😉💜)
This week I was feeling pretty hopeless. This new health episode hit me like a pile of bricks, and made me question my entire life and future plans. It wasn't just the health problem itself - I know people have lived with far worse and interfering health circumstances are something I've dealt with before, I was more disappointed in myself for the way I was handling it, and wondered if I would ever be able to pick myself back up. But then I realized I didn't have to. Someone was already holding out His hand. (Running out of room again...check pinned comment 😉💕)