This one got me. I felt her when she was talking about her dad. And her being the middle child. And the beatings. My biological father use to beat me and my brother never my sister who was the baby. I was the middle child and my brother was the oldest. My bio father also beat my mother everyday. He was a raging alcoholic and drug addict. He never worked. My mom worked 3 jobs a lot of the time. Whe lived in an 8x35 camper trailer on an Indian reservation in NM. We had no electricity or running water. My mom hauled water in 2 55 gallon drums. We got a bath once a week. We we shit in a bucket and I was severely bullied and so was my brother. I was 14 and came home from school on day and my mom had left. She had to leave or he was going to kill her. So my bio dad had our trailer moved to my families farm. Where my aunts and uncles and cousins all lived. He use to beat my brother so bad. One time I had started my period at school and my biological fathers girlfriend had to bring me some clothes to school. And all my brother did was ask her what she was doing. And omg that night my bio dad made me watch him beat my brother for over an hour in the bathroom slamming his face into the toilet the bathtub and the sink. To the point my brother could not open his eyes or his mouth. I blamed my self and still do because I had started my period at school. He made my brother go to school the next day and tell everyone he was jumped by Indians. For 2 days wars my life was pure hell. I caught my brother trying to rape my cousin. And I had to run and tell my aunt and my cousins dad who was my cousin but I called my uncle. My brother ran away. Bio dad was not home at the time. When he showed up I was under my aunts table scared out of my mind he was going to kill me. Because I had to tell on my brother. I didn’t want to tell because I knew what that meant for my brother who was 17 at the time. Well bio dad showed up found out what had happened found out I had told. So he was hunting me down with a gun and a belt. I was so scared I was 15 I knew I was about to do e if he got ahold of me. I was still under my aunts kitchen table I had wet and shit my pants shaking I was so scared. I heard him yelling and he got closer a closer to her house. I hear her click a shot gun and hear her say get the fuck of my property or I will blow your brains away. He said give me my daughter. She said over my dead body. He got in his car and left. That was one of the last times. Seen him. My aunt got in contact with my mother and told her she needed to come get me and my sister or we were going to have to go into foster care to get away from my bio father. I remember for 3 days sleeping in the bed with my aunt and the gun waiting for my mom to get to us. We only got to take a grocery bag full of our belongings. It was the first time in 2 years I had seen my mom. We got to the meeting spot for my mom to pick us up. We left the farm and was in the floor board of my aunts truck and a mile down the road we passed my bio father he was headed to the farm. They got the s to my mom we got in the car and drove 28 hours to Nashville TN this was 2 weeks before my 16th birthday. My life changed for the better we were in hiding for 4 years. I have an amazing step up dad who has been nothing but a perfect dad. He has shown me how a dad is suppose to love a daughter. My brother stayed behind and continued to live with my bio father. Who was still beating on him until the day my brother died 6/06/1996 by a drunk driver. I really think it was God calling him home to get him out of the abuse. That has been the only time I have seen my bio father since we left in 1992. I was going into my Junior year of high school. In 2008 my sister was diagnosed at the age of 30 to breast cancer. All the surgeries she had to have she got hooked on pain pills and became a drug addict. I watched her for 5 years just go further and further down hill. And she had 2 beautiful sons. On her oldest sons 16th birthday 3/11/2013 she passed away to a drunk g overdose. So I have lost both my siblings. My life has not been easy by no means. I have a lot of heart ache and mental illness. But I am happily married celebrating 19 years of marriage this year. We have 2 amazing sons 17 and 13. He is the best husband and daddy in the world. I really got so luck with him. I never knew someone could ever love me the way he does. And it’s not easy for me sometimes with my mental health heartache I go through daily. I hope this lady finds her happiness. I pray she finds her way out. There is someone that will love her the way she deserves to be loved. Sorry this is so long but she hit my heart with her story. Ty for doing what you do with these people. Addiction is a disease and I pray for addicts on a daily basis. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

What a sweet , articulate woman… I hope she gets the help that she desperately needs.

It's evident she just wants to be loved and cherished. Very sweet woman, dealt a bad hand in life. I hope she gets some help

This is so sad. I grew up with a lot of physical and mental abuse, it’s so stifling and paralyzing. I remember developing all types of phobias and having extreme anxiety. Growing up in pure fear and feeling unloved or like your not enough damages you for life. I have really bad ptsd from the hell I’ve been through but by the grace of god on September 1st I’ll have 8 yrs clean. I’m 48, you can do this girl. Find your happiness, learn how to love yourself and know you are enough!!! Don’t look for happiness in another human being, you will continue to be disappointed, same with the drugs. If no one has told you yet today I love you and keep your head held high, happiness will find you once you find peace within yourself.

The majority of these interviews are so difficult to watch. These people have suffered so much emotional, physical and sexual abuse in their lives it's unfathomable. But one of the hardest things for me to hear is when people say "I just wanted my parents to love me". They're literally asking for the bare minimum from their parents and their parents can't even do that. Utterly heartbreaking

Hope Christina can seek help and find joy again. She deserves so much more. Sending love from Miami.

This woman is absolutely AMAZING. Throughout her perseverance, she has kept her head up, and shrugged off the bullshut. I am amazed at the strength and CONVICTION! I pray for you!!

Mark has shown us that the opioid crisis does not discriminate against any walk of life.

What a beautiful soul. In the end we all just want the same to be happy and loved unconditional ❤. She didn't even seem at all like an addict to me. Praying 4 her.

I feel some kinship with Christina. Not only do we share the same name, but we have a lot in common too. My parents never really got along either, and they fought constantly when I was a child. My mother is a narcissistic abuser who manipulates and uses people all the time. I grew up never being able to please her or make her proud just for being me. Nothing was ever enough. It hit me hard when Christina said that she regretted trying to please her parents- although my dad was always accepting of me and loved me regardless of the choices I made in life. But my dad was my best friend, too. Maybe not as cruel as Christina’s at some points, but we were really close and he was always there for me. Tragically I was the one who discovered him last month after he passed from fentanyl poisoning. I never saw it coming and never knew he had a problem. It honestly felt like I lost both parents the day he passed. And my grief is immeasurable. But I hope that Christina can find healing, peace, and happiness too. Life is fleeting and we never get enough time with the people we love the most. But we are both worthy of love- and while it’s hard to convince ourselves of that fact, it IS true. I’m wishing you the best, Christina. And I’m rooting for us.

Bless her heart. She is beautiful on the inside and the outside and I hope she knows that!

I get the feeling that Christina walked out if this interview feeling heard and cared about. Validated. This is a testament to Mark’s ability to empathize with no judgement. He knows what we all know--Christina deserved better.

She seems like a total sweetheart and very strong for still having hope after all she’s been through. She is beautiful inside and out, I hope she can get off of the drugs and realize her own self worth, because anyone with a kind heart like that has a lot to offer the world. The part where she said her fear is that she won’t be accepted for who she is, that really hit home for me. She deserves to be loved and accepted for who she is and to live a healthy and happy life.

Wishing the best for her.

Beautiful soul Mark...you never cease to amaze me ...I envy your journey down these dark roads. Hugs to every soul lost along their way xo

Christina, I wish I could reach out and give you a huge hug! You are so sweet and deserve the best in life. I hope you find that special person. Your ex husband, by far, did not deserve your love and it breaks my heart how you've been treated. Take care sweet lady.

Christina comes across as a very self aware person that has sadly lost her way due to a life of little love or understanding. Having to push your sexuality aside to fit the norm must have caused so much pain. On top of that to suffer such abuse from your children and the streets is heartbreaking. I so hope she can find a way out to a better life.

Bless you. So soft spoken and hopeful. I'm sorry you've never felt loved and have been treated badly. I can't understand why, from watching this, anybody wouldn't want to love you. Sending prayers and love your way Christina.

Sweet Christina.. I wish you the best in life, you are a wonderful kind lady! Im sorry for everything you ve been through..

My brother and I unfortunately had an abusive father, punched and hit since we could walk, he use to make us go to his cupboard , pick out a belt/strap that we were to be flogged with. Our mother did very little to stop it, now I think out it nothing. When we turned 18 it stopped - we were men. Then he treated us different, 360 deg flip. He died with me hating him, something I have to live with, I should have let it go. He taught us a lot of lessons, most important one - not to be like him. Glad he taught me that one I guess.

Heartbreaking!! She seems like such a lovely person. It's horrible being lonely. I hope she finds the love she's longing for and doesn't settle for the first person who comes into her life. She's worth so much more. Please be careful out there. You're worth so much more than you know. Hugs from Canada. 🇨🇦 🍁 💖

My mom hated me from infancy. I pray she finds peace in her life. She has a beautiful soul! I also hope she's able to gain back a good relationship with her kids! 🙏🏻❤️

It resonated with me, What Christina said about having to make your own decisions and the trouble it can cause, whene you weren't making decisions for your self for so long.

Who on earth would she have 6 kids? Something doesn't add up, she's taken zero responsibility.

Gosh so many things she said I relate to… trying too hard to be loved by your parents and just getting abuse back .. it never goes away and taints relationships … and yourself. I wish you well and yes love yourself you are so worth it

Poor girl. I do feel for her situation . Such a sweet soul. I hope she can heal and move on into a healthy lifestyle. She does say “you know?” like most people say “umm”.

I’m so sorry for the hurt and struggle in your life !! I pray things get better for you !❤️ thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it wasn’t easy to tell. 🙏

Don't let Christina get in your head this was my sister-in-law she was married to my brother she up and left her kids her home her family for choices to do drugs she did not want to get help my brother was married to her for over 20 years and stood by her side every moment through the good and the Bad and the Ugly and she took him for granted he would steal from anybody just to get her fix that includes her kids she claims she tried so hard to be there for the absolutely did not pay attention to her kids at all she didn't have her first two kids for the longest time even before she met my brother she had given them up just as well and then she had four kids with my brother and also left them she does not even know her own grandchild everything this female is saying is the biggest lie I've ever heard in my life if you could put yourself in my family's shoes and see what we went through with her for many years and how much we loved her and cared for her at one point you would be very disappointed that she could even sit up there and lie to everyone! Denying what she chose to do and how she chose going out on my brother and doing drugs around her kids having them see her in such a manner getting brought back to life in front of their eyes getting family addicted to pills at a young age having affairs with other men the list goes on she doesn't mention all of this in her fucked up little interview now what kinda mother is that!? You can give birth to a child but if your not there for them your NOT A MOTHER YOUR A DISGRACE and God will handle your sins nobody can save her unless she's ready to change pray for this female she's very lost and obviously don't care about anyone but her selfish needs

Ironic how her best memories are from the man that caused her so much pain. I can see her in a brighter future. Learning to love herself without feeling to find someone to be happy, at least while she gets her life together. She has a kind soul.

she seems like such a kind-hearted, understanding, smart person

What a brilliant statement "If you dreams of getting married and having a happy life, it doesn't stay that way."

We sit down to watch and realize that abuse of some form has been in all of our lives as children. I have to say again, parents don't know how deeply they mess up kids lives and how it affects them all the way into adulthood. I hope she gets help and finally gets the happiness she deserves 💓

Praying for protection for Christina

Like an onion, generational trauma has multiple layers of neglect, abuse and dysfunction. Healthy love becomes a foreign concept for so many as a result.

Oh, what a sweet, gentle lady. I hope she finds healing.

Christina, you have beautiful eyes and an even more beautiful soul. May you find the love and acceptance you seek. Stay safe and healthy.

SMOKING METH LEADS TO DEATH, DON'T DO DRUG'S,love and respect from Dublin IRELAND 🇮🇪🍀hopefully this lady lives to get a happily ever after,

This channel is such a strange place.. there's so much darkness in these people's stories but yet there's almost always so much love and support in the comments.. it's crazy how much we affect those around us without even stopping and thinking about it..

The more I hear these stories the more I sadly accept that life seems to simply be a roll of the dice, mixed in with a random amount of resilience.

I love you Christina. Thank you for sharing.

Life doesn't discriminate. We all get called names. At home. In the workplace. Every. Single day. The relentlessness gets to a person. I hope you find peace darling 💜

Praying for her 🙏🏽🙏🏾🙏🏽🙏🏼

Heartbreaking story. It starts from childhood trauma. So sad. I really am grateful that I had a happy childhood with great parents. 👍 All these people struggled as young kids. 💔🙁 All dealing with parents or others with very inappropriate & indecent behaviours. 😠

" I was born with shaking baby syndrome but I'm ok I guess " really she is so positive she thinks she is ok, skid row is like riding the train to the end of the line in alot of ways, then you realize u have nothing and no money to go anywhere, that's one reason so many towns send people one way to LA so much it's insane. More people show up in one day than leave in a month. There is a literal border around it, designed to keep homeless people in.

This is so sad I wish her so much love and blessings ❤️🙏

This lady is amazing. What a horrific life she's had...and still able to have hope and a smile.

Christina, if you read this, you are a beautiful woman and person.!I hope you get off the streets you deserve it. I wish I was there and I would give you a huge hug. I know if you just let someone in they will see what we see, a very smart and caring person.

I just want to hug her and make everything good for her ☹️ She deserves to be loved 🥰

I hope she finds happiness inside herself and learns self love. All that love and respect she gives to others she should be giving to herself. I know how you feel Christina, my mother was a horrible example and still is. The chaos we grew up in does not have to be our lives. 🙏🏼🫀🧠💪🏼

Get Well soon, Christina! Love, Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸

I especially loved when she sang :)

Oh my god. This is my sister, well “half sister” as she describes me, we share the same mother but not father. I am both shocked and confused. I haven’t seen her in years because she left and never came back. As shitty as it is to see her like this, I’m glad to hear her voice and see her alive and breathing. I love my sister from the bottom of my heart, I cried the whole time I watched this video. My heart breaks to see her like this, the Tina I remember followed god and took care of herself and never would have imagined herself like this. I fucking miss my sister THIS is not her, not who she TRULY is. I’ve always looked up to her when I was a child. I wanted to grow up to be just like my big sister. We have matching tattoos for Christs sake. That heart she has on her wrist I HAVE TOO. The last time I saw her was actually when we got these tattoos damn near 3 years ago. I am incredibly hurt by her leaving and never trying to reach out when she needed help the most. She knows how much I love and care for her. My heart aches for my sister, it’s so hard to hear what she has gone through while in California. Unfortunately, I can say that some of the things she was saying about her family and upbringing is untrue. Of course everyone has their own perspective on life, but our mother loves her and has been searching for her ever since she walked out the door… we all have. It pains me to know that she feels like she’ll never get out of the struggles of addiction. I just pray to GOD that she finds strength in her to find help before it’s too late. Tina- if you ever come across this please know but I have been looking for you ever since you left. I just wanted to hear your voice and know that you were okay. I thought that you were a Jane Doe somewhere where I didn’t check. Im so hurt. I don’t have the right words to describe how I’m feeling, all I can do is cry for you sister I wish that you could’ve found the strength in your heart to at least tell me that you were leaving, so I didn’t have to worry about getting a call that you were dead some day. I’ve always loved you and I will never stop loving you. I will always accept you for you are and how you want YOUR life to go. Your baby sister misses so much and I just wish you would get better.

Poor girl, there is so much light around you...!

Christina, you have a beautiful smile. Your whole face lights up. I wish I could give you the use of my shower, some fresh, comfy clothes & a safe place to sleep. You seem so sweet & kind. I truly hope life starts treating you better & gives you many more reasons to smile. Love from the UK Xxx

Did they say in this video how old she is? I just love this woman who is just so sweet and caring and honest. Wish she could go for rehab and find a stable room to live in and change her life, where she can really enjoy life and really be happy and feel loved.

She seems so intelligent. I pray she can find her self worth and know that she’s much better than she been led to believe.

I am praying for you Christina!

Good morning Mark and SWU Family & Christine have a GREAT DAY EVERYONE GBY ALL 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Mark reiterated it… we are all lonely at some time- Christina I loved your voice! Love you & the love will come full circle 🦋💕sweet face!

She actually is so pretty and spunky.i grew up in this time and,yeah,you could not mention any hint of being attracted to other girls. she is so vibrant.pretty sure things could work out for this lovely lady💖

When she says "you know" im like no i def dont.. I just try to empathize

Christina I hope you find your way to sobriety, happiness and peace. Your children miss you. Your daughter has reached here in the comments…..she said you left when she was 12 and now she is 16 years old and misses and needs her Mom. Please find your value and connect with your children.

She has the most beautiful soul…

Christina seems like she is looking for happiness everywhere except within herself. I hope that she makes some great friend that help her on her path. 👍✌

I called in sick for work tomorrow cuz I accidently took a shot every time she said “y’know”

Opioid addiction is so sad man 😔

The bloody army wat a nasty place for a child let alone for humanity.

Thank you SO much for sharing your life with the world. You are helping others.

So much suffering. So, so tragic. Christina just gave and gave and gave to her family. Six children, too. I do hope you’ll do a follow up. I want better for Christina.

I can't seem to enjoy these interviews like I used to. Her name was Amanda Rabb.

We are all looking for love I’ve learned that the love we are looking for is already in front of me when I look in the mirror. I have to be the love. I have to love myself even if I never receive it from another person. I love me! We all deserve that love!

Christina, I think you're pretty. What a shame you've never felt that way. You're smart, have a command of the English language and you're eloquent. You're kind, sweet and hopeful. I wish for you a lovely companion, health, happiness, safety and love. Keep working toward it.

I hope the kids are Ok I pray 🙏🏻 for this family. So sad

*_I don't know what fentanyl is, but I can clearly see the devastating result ..._*

Wish you better times and the love and care you deserve...you really deserve a great life.

You're gonna find the right one,hang in there and everything is going to be fine

5:17 you can see the love in her eyes and how proud she is

I think I get it, she’s not the main character in her own story so she keeps starting new ones but due to low self esteem keeps allowing herself to be sidelined and put upon and drugs make her feel less taken advantage of?

I have given up on trying to love or be loved and Yep I understand her I've stopped trying to find someone to love me

Great interview but I'm confused by the title since she never mentioned being a fentanyl addict , she did say meth but I didn't hear any other drugs, not that it matters but just curious if it's one or the other or both ?

I would love to have a friend like Christina

Christina, you believed lies because you have a pretty face and beautiful eyes. I'm sorry about all the abuse you've suffered. I can't imagine the pain of your children abusing you. That had to be the worse. I'm glad you got away. I pray God's protection and that you'll find real happiness.🙏❤️❤️❤️

Yes you're loved. Even if it was flawed growing up. We really have a lot in common with family and relationship abuse. My Dad never got over my mom. Was an alcoholic for years. Basically drank himself to death. Memories of him were some good some terrible. People judge addicts a lot but never think about how much they may have in common as far as childhood and abuse. Everyone deals with things differently, but I know how it feels to never be good enough and never feel pretty. Never seem to do anything right. You'll find the right person that really loves you ❤. I finally did after a lifetime of abuse. Focus on yourself and getting clean. Take care of yourself, love yourself. Take any help you can trust to get off the streets and the drugs. Best wishes to you.

Didn't think she and I could possibly have anything in common until I heard her story. 6 kids and no one to help her. You did great "Dad"!

I find it strange that she wants love but left 6 kids behind to start a brand new happy life of fentynal addiction. Generational curses are the worst because you don't even realize you're sick.

Already know this will be interesting…

I wish I could hug her ❤️ You did do your best momma ❤️ Love from Arkansas ❤️

God Bless all these beautiful people with love and hope!

There's only one way for you to truly be happy ❤️

She seems very normal and rational for a meth addict. I believe her and feel for her.

I've tried every drug and the only one I've never touched twice was Meth. I never understood why people loved it so much. Especially now where it's everywhere. Even in places that were primarily dope and coke. Never understood why people would willingly want to be up for a week fighting shadow people.

I learn many things from her than teachers l

Did Dope 4 28 years just no it does get better just keep fighting the good Fight prayers from Toronto 🇨🇦🙂 ppl places n things if nothing changes nothing changes 💯💚💜🖤🤍🙂

Wish her the best, you know?

Prayers up

Unless I missed something, I didn’t hear her mention Fent. She said she’s into methamphetamine.

Good Morning!👋🤓from 7:00am Brooklyn NY 🇺🇸 to whatever time of day it is wherever in the world 🌎🌍 YOU🫵are my SWU family.

She was on here once before as Christine. kzfaq.info/get/bejne/p613oMWG3pPRh2w.html She looks and sounds like a completely different person. I always wondered what happened to her. She seems like such a gentle person. It´s nice to see her more talkative and comfortable and happier.I wish her all the best.

you are an amazing woman Christina!!!! much love to you!!! so sad all the crap you've had to put up with!!! despite everything, you still have hope of better things to come!!! i am sooo proud of you!!! you're a natural survivor!! you have a kind, beautiful soul. you're gentle and sweet. what is wrong with your mum??????? shame on her! shame on your kid's for not knowing better than to join your husband in his abuse of you 🤬🤬🤬 karma will catch up with them. all the things you are craving for, asking for, are simple things, nothing too extravagant! don't give up! keep on keeping up! you deserve the world! if i lived in the U.S. i'd find you and scoop you up as a treasured friend!! 💯👌👌👌♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿

More America .. more fentanyl .. it’s eye watering how many were seeing