If we can’t handle the sad clay we don’t deserve the happy clay, baby. We love all of you and want to be here for you❤

I’m a pharmacist. Paroxetine has one of the worst discontinuation syndromes we are aware of. It’s notorious. I think this could be part of the issue. Buspirone is good for anxiety but not so much for depression. Honey, nothing is hopeless. You just need the right provider. Please hang on while they figure it out.

We all came here and watched this because we love you and we know you’re human and we know you have emotions, it’s okay to not be okay, we’re here to listen honey. We got you.

When I signed up for “Claybaby” I signed up for it all. The funny, the sad, the boring the “whatever”. We’re here for you. I hope you get relief. Everyone deserves to be happy, healthy and thriving. Whatever that looks like. I wish I could snap my fingers and give you a life without tinnitus.

Tinnitus is no joke. Ignore anyone who tries to undermine how serious it is. You're very strong and I KNOW you will overcome this. Thank you for reaching out to find answers! You are loved.

We just want the real Clay. We don’t expect you to be an emotionless robot who never feels down or overwhelmed. Big big hugs. Hang in there. I’ve been there too. ❤❤

it’s okay to not be okay. you’re not alone, clay. this video isn’t stupid. thanks for letting us in. we will take all parts of you, we’re friends

I almost never comment on KZfaq videos. I came straight here after you mentioned making this. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Do Not let them tell you you have to deal with this. Keep trying to get help, You are your biggest advocate. You are not as alone as you feel. There are so many people here JUST because they care about you. You're one of my favorite creators by far. You are so real bad funny bad have such good energy. Never feel bad for talking about this stuff.

You asking for help is such an amazing step to take. From a depression warrior, I wish you so much love and healing.

I don't have the ear ringing but I have chronic anxiety, I convince myself something else is wrong with me constantly and feel like I'm LOSING my absolute mind. I get dizzy, stuff looks weird, panic attacks, etc. You are not alone. I'm still going through all this as well. It's hard to leave the apartment at this point but I feel better that I'm not alone

I’m a high functioning MH mess. I’m hyper aware of when my body and brain aren’t ok and it’s crippling. “I can’t do this anymore” is a terrifying place to be and you’re not alone. Keep advocating for yourself and make whoever listen, really listen, to how you feel. Medication was something I didn’t want and fought against forever but it was because of not wanting to admit I needed help. Finding the right medications and dose was a major turning point for me. I feel more like myself than I have in a long time. I hope you find what helps you feel better ❤️❤️

Clay, I deal with Tinnitus as well. No one knows just how hard it is to handle daily life with it, not even wanting to get up out of bed. It's debilitating. Know that it's not your fault for one. And secondly I really hope that you can soon find moments of relief, and relax when you do have those moments. Keep fighting on 💜

Clay is always here to make us feel better so now it’s our turn. Love you clay and so many other people love and support you. Your videos brighten up my day along with thousands of others babe.

As an entertainer/comedian, one of the biggest burdens is always presenting yourself as this high energy, positive person. Always feeling like you have to be “on.” You want to make everyone you’re surrounded with happy when you’re battling your own demons. Take care of yourself first, babe. You’re so incredibly talented and have so much love. ❤

I really just wanted to say: showing emotions is a human thing. No one is happy All the time. There’s nothing wrong with sharing how you feel in the moment. Your words could impact someone else. Please don’t give up! Much peace and love! ❤️✌🏻

I've had chronic tinnitus for 10 years. I have been to so many doctors and had so many tests done and they just tell me to deal with it for the most part. One test came back a little funny so I'm going to a neurologist soon. But I am absolutely losing my mind. The anxiety is terrible. My biggest thought is that I'm 33 years old and I'll be living with this for the rest of my life. So I came here to tell you, you're not alone. I always say why me, too. Don't let anyone tell you, it's just ringing. NO! It's frickin debilitating. But try to advocate for yourself with doctors. Go to an ENT, go to a neurologist, MRI scans (if u can afford it and have insurance...I understand Allll that too). Cognitive behavioral therapy is supposed to help..I've never tried it but it's one of my next steps. I think the anxiety and depression will get better if the tinnitus is dealt with. Don't give up. I hope you can fine some relief from everything. But I totally understand what you're going through. Also, talking to people that have the same problem helps a lot. There are forums online and sometimes if I read about other people going through it, it makes me feel not so alone. Please, reach out to me if you ever want to talk.

I lost my partner from my debilitating depression, that was hard enough without everything else you’re going thru. We love you.

Oh my gosh the ear ringing is insane I don't blame you for feeling this way

I enjoy watching you! Listen I struggle with anxiety and depression I was in a really really bad place 5 years ago, I actually wrote my suicide letters to my sisters my parents and my kids and I read them to this day because it changed my life. I put myself in their shoes and read it as if I were gone and it literally made me so sad for that girl that could write that. It put a lot in perspective. Maybe do that. I’m so glad you showed us your soul. I don’t have this Illness but I am so very sorry. We love you clay bay

Do not feel pressured to make us laugh! You don't owe us anything love. You are a real human being with real feelings and sometimes those need to be addressed. Us that really love having you will understand and try to be here for you the best we can while we all deal with our own problems. I hope you can find some relief for your ears. I couldn't imagine. 🥺 Sending lots of healing vibes babe!

Clay baby, I’m so proud of you for reaching out for help. That is a HUGE step. Thank you for trusting us with this information. You are not alone. It’s not just “ringing ears” it’s so much more than that. We love you so much. Please take care of yourself. Don’t worry about us, we will hold it down while you take time for yourself. We love you no matter what you post about. I feel like I’m watching my best friend struggle. You’ve got this. This is not a punishment although you may think. We love you!! Keep your head up love.

Paxil DESTOYED my self image. I gain a little more than 50lbs, my anxiety and depression got so much worse and when I finally convinced my doctor to change my medicine, the withdrawal was awful. I was sick for over a month with nausea, vomiting, dizziness, headaches, paranoia, list litterally goes on and on. I am so sorry you've gone through this. I greatly appreciate you speaking on this because it's reinsurance that I am not alone, and neither are you❤️ and it's okay not to be okay, you will get there. You've got this love! I know it's a lot easier said than done, but stay strong. 💕

Any issues or pain with your ears or teeth Is the WORST. Like literally I wouldn't wish it on my WORST ENEMY. I am so freaking sorry you're going through this. I pray you find a solution Clay. Seriously. Also starting/coming off of medication makes you feel so insanely crazy sometimes. It's awful!! We all love you & I hope you find a solution.

The first step to healing is admitting “I’m not OK” and that was so so so hard for me to do, so I love you so much credit for this. You will plow through this!! I’m no Dr. So I’ll leave those questions to the pros, but I’m a fan and I support you!

I am Bipolar and have severe anxiety and it can be really rough sometimes but you are not alone and you’re not crazy your just going through it. I am on meds and they really help, but it’s all about finding what meds work for you. You got this babe! Much love Claybaby ❤

And THANK YOU for being honest and raw. You’re helping so many people just by showing that they aren’t alone in these emotions

Never ever, think that the vibe you pick up isn’t right. That’s your gut telling you exactly how they felt. Unfortunately with towns out in the country with smaller communities, are not used to people with different backgrounds like California and other bigger cities. I would always get a second opinion, even tho there is only one psychiatrist, I would see if there is anyone else you can see. I know you posted this about a week and half ago but I’m bearly seeing this. I’m sending you so much love and hope you are able to get the right help with no Judgment. And please don’t ever apologize for being a human being. We all go thru something, we all take something to help us and you are a beautiful soul! I truly appreciate you and everything you do. You are loved, you are beautiful! Love you so much and thank you for sharing. 🙏🏼✨🤍

I have tinnitus too. Mine only comes on a few times a month & it sends me into the worst panic attacks. I think to myself how could anyone deal with this on a daily basis. I see you & you are so strong to come on here & talk about it. Everyone acts like content creators can’t be sad or do anything different from their regular content. I’m a small creator & I feel that pressure. You have 6mill & that pressure must be so much. You were one of the 1st people I followed on TikTok & I just adore you. I understand. You will get through this & I know you will use this struggle to help others who are dealing with similar things. Sending lots of love.

Honestly I am going through the same thing 🥺 I’ve taken Paroxetine, Buspirone, Fluoxetine…like nothing helps my BPD or anxiety. Clay honey, we are all human. We understand you have things going on, stay strong baby. I have severe scoliosis & ask myself everyday why tf am I here dealing with this BS. I wish I could hug you & tell you that one day things will get better. XOXO!

Clay. All I hear is myself. I could no longer mask. It was awful. The anxiety, depression.. symptoms. Lost all quality of life. I had been on and off psych meds. I realize now they were just creating a worse situation. I tried everything. No long term results. And never a satisfactory result. I was at the end of my rope! I know this may sound ridiculous. But I went and did Ayahuasca. It fixed it all. It gave me acceptance of things that I never have. Honestly I’m better than I’ve ever been. Look into. You’ve got this! All these people know you do! We believe in you! Good luck!

The courage, resilience, and wisdom that has gotten you through each panic attack and struggling moment is in you. It was you who has gotten yourself this far. One day at a time. One minute at a time. Rely on us and others when you need. We are here to help you along the way. ❤

It’s not stupid! I can’t imagine living with that 24/7! I randomly developed panic disorder and derealization in 2019 and I could often hear my heartbeat in my ears. It drove me crazy and had me sooo anxious! I ended up feeling better with some meds, but it was a life changing experience & since I lost someone I loved at the work of their own hands in august I too have been facing crippling depression again. So, just know you’re not alone and you don’t always have to put on a brave face for us! We support you in your highs AND your lows! & this too shall pass!! Hang in there!! ❤❤

Those thoughts are terrifying. And feel so isolating. Don’t be scared to reach out for help where ever. Your are a gem 💎❤️

Different circumstances but I went through a horrible depression last summer that I can’t explain. It look weeks, but I got through it. You will too.

Omg claybaby! I had no idea is this was a real thing. I get it everyday but it comes and goes. I couldn’t imagine dealing with it everyday, constantly. Please try and keep your head up. You have so much fans and love, I hope someone sees that can really help you. Please don’t give up on yourself. Keep searching!

My mother recently got diagnosed with hemiplegic migraines and they get set off by everything. I know shes been struggling like crazy with it and i can’t imagine what this does to you. We are here for you.

My middle son has tinnitus 24/7 too. His ears got blown out in a tank. I know this is so hard. I love you Clay! Thank you for sharing your feelings. I'm so proud of you. We all love you & appreciate you making us laugh. You've made me laugh when all I could do is cry on days when I was so overwhelmed. I am sending good vibes your way & a big hug. Just take days like this 1 minute at a time. Noone can be happy all the time. I promise. ❤

I'm also a Pisces and actually share the same birthday as you. I have been going through this same similar state. Im on Celexa and for the most part it is extremely helpful. I take it everyday and have for about 5 years. I love making people laugh and im always the positive one. This week there was a shift in my emotional and mental state and it wasn't like anything I've experienced. Just the feeling of complete doom. I reached out to my parents and sisters and just expressed myself and told them I wasn't okay. Just speaking about it and leaning on them was a significant help. Im feeling much better today in comparison to a few days ago. You're not alone and im so deeply sorry you were/are feeling this way. You are magical and magnetic and you serve an important purpose in this life. Meditate, breathe. Lots of love and light

Please don’t ever push it down and ignore your feelings! Always talk about it!! Ignoring it sent me into a mental breakdown and put my life on hold for two years. Seek help no matter how many doctors you have to go to! I’m from Arkansas sadly and they are very judgmental to anybody who is different from their “normal”. We love you for who you are and true fans understand you need time and need to talk about it!! Sending good vibes 💜💜

Take care of yourself first. Don’t worry about making others happy. I experienced the same thing with intracranial hypertension. I literally could hear my own heartbeat in my ears constantly and I felt like it would never end but it eventually did

I'm balling right now bc the minute you said tinnitus I know exactly what you are going through. The multiple ear buds and speakers has been a must in my life for about 2 years now. It effects everything in my life and I can't even remember the last time I had peace. I totally get it and I'm sorry you're going through this. Especially with the meds. I'm so afraid of taking what's been prescribed bc I'm a hypochondriac. Ughh I know it's hard but from what it sounds like to me, you're taking all the necessary steps to get better, and that's half the battle!!!!!!! I hope you find some relief once you talk w the Dr!!!! This will pass, you will get through it. You are strong, resilient, and loved by so many

Awee I recently came across this kids TikToks and I love his videos but this video just made me love him so much more that he was being real and showing his real self.. I really hope he’s better (I kno he still has the issues with his ears) mentally and an emotionally.. he’s such the sweetest kid

You do not sound stupid. We are here for you and we love you! We understand that you’re a person with real feelings. We didnt just sign up for claybaby, we signed up for you! ❤️❤️

You dont know us, but to all of us you're our BFF. We are here for the ups , the downs, the laughs and the cries. None of us are ok all the time. We love ALL of YOU💙💚💜

You’ll be okay. Thank you for being authentic. I’m praying you get the best doctor to help you and advocate for you. Know that you are amazing and very loved.

I also have tinnitus and I know what you’re going through. Meditation helps me immensely with all the sounds in my head and the anxiety it causes. I wish you health, happiness and success in the future! ❤

Hey Clay, big fan of yours. I want you to know you are not alone in this battle. I had the hardest time finding a good psychiatrist for a while, but now I see an incredible one. Depression is a bitch and I've struggled with it too for a long time. Please don't give up on finding a good psychiatrist! Praying for you, you amazing soul!

I understand your pain. Don’t apologize for showing your feelings and being real. You’re so kind and special. I was in a very dark place back in 2015 and literally I drove myself to the hospital and admitted myself in the psych ward. I stayed for 3 days and when I came out I knew I didn’t need to be in there. Thank you showing your love and warmth.

Hello Clay Baby ♥️I’m a healthcare worker and nursing student. I’m also a mom, a wife, a friend, a sister, and so on. The most important thing is I am a human and I need to care for myself to be able to function and help others. My husband and I are veterans and both have tinnitus. I totally understand what you’re going through. I want you to know I’m so proud of you and it’s more than okay to not be okay all the time. Please keep your head up. You are strong. You are resilient. You are loved. You are worthy. You deserve the best and nothing less. Sending positive vibes and prayers your way✨

I understand. I’m in Arkansas too. It’s not very welcoming and they don’t seem to care so much about mental health either. I hope you find help from somebody you trust soon. Tinnitus sounds like torture. I’m so sorry.

You’re allowed to be vulnerable, we love you soooo much. We’re here for all of it 💕

I’m currently tapering off of my anxiety medication. I have severe crippling anxiety and am going through all of these same side effects. I know it’s awful. But I appreciate the transparency and I’m here for you. You’re not alone.

I feel like even screeching and ear screaming aside!!!…you just described severe depression and anxiety disorders to a lot of people because it all feels the same and it’s awful !!!

More people need to share this stuff because we all struggle. It’s not good to bottle it up and shut people out. Thank you for sharing and please don’t be sorry. 💜

It's not a stupid video. Your feelings are completely valid. We all love you. You take the time you need, to figure out how to get your mindset back to a positive place. Things may not be great for you right now, but you're trying your best, and that counts for a lot. The world is a better place with you in it. ❤

Speaking for myself, I haven’t followed you for very long but after watching this I instantly feel a closer connection to you. I couldn’t imagine what you’re dealing with but I want you to know you’re loved, and needed and appreciated! deeply! I hope you find a way to dig yourself out of this funk, and I hope you get better doctors soon, one’s that can actually help you! overall I hope your situation gets better. Stay strong! Not for your fans, but for yourself! You are so brave for posting this and so brave for waking up today! Much loveee ❤

I too have depression and anxiety. it took me 3 years of hospital visits and working with my Dr to get the right meds. please hang in there you truly brighten my day. we love you

Invisible chronic illness is very hard to deal with and I empathize with you. It’s ok to be yourself and those who matter don’t mind and who mind don’t matter! I’ve struggled with seeing doc after doc to get to the bottom of what I’m dealing with. Tried every test, lab, specialist, medication, diagnosis, and still don’t have all the answers. Keep being your own advocate and fighting for answers. One suggestion that helped me when no one local could…check out TeleDoc type providers so you can expand outside the town. A lot of them have membership programs that aren’t too costly. Wishing you all the best and no matter what, never apologize for getting real life shit off your chest. ❤

Yes talk about it clay. As much as you want. We are here to support you and hear your stories. I hope you find relief very soon, can’t imagine ringing in my ears 24/7. You are definitely not weak. You keep on being a soldier !! Big hugs

Take time for yourself Clay🥺 We love you and we are here for you

So sorry you're going through all of this. Please know that we love the sad version of you as much as we love the funny version. We are here for you.

It's OK to not be ok ❤ sending love and light to you and know that you are not alone 🙇‍♀️

i have BPD and it’s so difficult for me to function most days. I’m not on any medication because they all make me feel like a zombie. I’m so exhausted with myself and i know others around me are too. i’m sorry you’re going through this. ily. i’m here for you. ❤

As someone who suffers from chronic anxiety and has been taking medication for 12+ years.. The new medication can take up to 6 weeks to actually “help”. Also, this process is a journey, you may not find a medication away. You are already taking the right steps in seeing a therapist. I hope you consider moving if possible.. even a different city that’s bigger? Your environment can be a huge factor too. ❤️

Laughing is only a bonus Clay, we follow/subscribe because of YOU.. you don't have to always be funny. That's not what it's about. Hope you get to feeling better soon 💜

My therapist told me the most comforting thing once when I said "I feel crazy". She said "crazy people don't know they are crazy". Stuck with me ever since. You are not crazy, you are having bad mental health. And that's OKAY. And you WILL get through it. Guarenteed

Thank you for having the strength to share. I haven’t been on that certain medication, but I have withdrawn from my anti-depressants before and it is terrifying. I was a fentanyl addict so I’ve dealt with physical withdrawal and underestimated the power of mental withdrawal. 😢 thank you again, I hope you find the peace that you need.

You have to slowly titrate down off off any benzo/anti-depressant. 10% titrate every 3-4 weeks. You are not crazy…there are several of fb groups about this. Your tinnitus is probably from activated nervous system due to what you are going through + coming off of Paxil. You are not alone and it’s not your fault. It’s coming from the medication. Nobody talks about the impact of coming off these meds or changing them. Much love to you. ❤

I love you so much! I might not have the same thing as you but I do have bipolar disorder and my depression and mania episodes gets so bad sometimes it’s like I can’t do anything 😢 I completely understand where you are coming from and we love you! Everyone in this world deals with trauma and terrible shit we are all people at the end of the day and we are not perfect and some of us struggle more than others just so you know we are here for you, I am here for you and this was not a stupid video I appreciate you sharing this part of yourself with us, especially how amazingly funny you are makes me feel like I’m not the only one that feels insane and out of there mind❤ thank you 😢❤

I have experienced mild tinitus from having impacted wisdom teeth and inner ear issues. I also have had anxiety and depression since childhood. When i tell you that tinnitus made me break down in a movie theater, a walmart and a cheesecake factory . . . It literally made me want to die. I feel you clay and I'm crying for you. Please stay strong and get a new doctor.

My sister has currently been dealing with the same thing for a little less than 2 weeks and the doctors literally have no answers. I cannot imagine how you feel. You have every right to feel this way. You are not crazy. This can effects on your mental state like nothing else. You make so many people happy. Now it's your turn to have someone make you happy and lift your spirits. It's okay to not be okay

Clay I am sorry you are going through all this. I love you and hope you can get this fixed. I have severe anxiety and ptsd and have been where you are. Its not easy but know you are not alone ❤ thank you for being so honest and transparent. You are one of my favorite creators on TT and I appreciate you being real with your fans. I wish I could fix it all for you. The best the world has to offer you is out there waiting on the right time for u to grab it. Take a deep breath, cry when you need to, talk it out with people. Try a telehealth provider for your mental health. There are good ones who care and will help you get back to where u need to be. 💜💜 love you!

I don’t know how to help because I haven’t been through this myself, I hope this stops happening to you, and that you find something to help you with this, your so brave!! You got this man We are always in your corner

This actually helped me. You have no idea. I’ve been on some medication for the past 4 weeks, small dosage it’s my first time, just for my anxiety. It’s helped with anxiety but worsened my depression. I’ve started drinking and feeling the urge to just get drunk to just not feel it anymore. This video has made me feel less crazy, like im not alone so thank you for sharing. We love you and appreciate the light you give

Discontinuation syndrome from paroxetine is so horrible. I stopped taking it suddenly when I was 18. It was the absolute worst depression that I’ve ever dealt with, in my entire life, and I’ve dealt with MH issues most of my life (I’m almost 40). You are not crazy in the least. Also, just be yourself when you need and want to. We will be here for you.

You are one of the funniest creators I’ve seen on Tic Tok. Your videos have gotten me thru some dark days! I can totally relate to the antidepressant withdrawal. It’s awful! What your going thru is important, and I know you will be helping people by talking about it. I hope your able to take a break from things and get to feeling better! ❤

I’m so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time but I’m glad that you are opening up about your experience and seeking support. I’m a psychologist and discontinuing/changing medications can be really really hard. People often feel bad for several weeks to a couple months as their bodies adjust. Please hang in and know that you will hopefully begin to feel better soon. Additionally, there are many people who struggle with tinnitus and hopefully you can connect with others who can give you support and guidance on how to manage it. You are an amazing person and you will get through this difficult period. Sending you so much love ❤

I came off Paroxetine too.. I was on an array of antidepressants for 10 years. Withdrawals were so hard and lasted for about 6 months. But I kept going on. Because I knew and trusted that eventually it would end. And it did. And I just spent those six months smoking weed, focusing on my health and fitness and working a casual job just to get by. You WILL get through this. I know it's so hard but it gets better. Sending so much love. You make so many people so happy and you don't have to be anything that you aren't. Take the time you need to heal. It's what we all want.

Not a doctor at all, but I’ve been watching you for a long time and really appreciate the goofy positivity you put out into the world. I personally deal with hereditary tinnitus and overstimulation so I can relate, and would like to suggest if you haven’t already looked into it: Loop earbuds or something similar? They’re mildly sound-blocking earbuds meant to filter out noises that cause overstimulation/isolate intended sounds. I know from experience the inner ear irritation and feeling like you’re losing your mind and these helped a bunch. Sending love your way 💜

We love you. You are not alone. You don't have to pretend. Be who you are. We'll love you through it. 💜

First of all Clay, there is nothing to be sorry for. I want you to know that you have people online who love and care about you and that want to see you get better. Thank you so much for having there courage to share this with us, I know it probably doesn't feel like it but talking about and sharing what you are going through is very brave and not something everyone is capable of. Thank you also for trusting us enough to share this very personal part of your life and journey. I'll be praying for you and ask God to put the right people in your path to help if not completely heal you. God be with you and bless you Clay.

i haven’t experienced the ringing in your ears, but i have suffered from depression & anxiety since i can remember. i have taken Zoloft since i was 15 & it’s the only one of many that have helped subside my anxiety & depression enough to help me make it through the day, but not too much to make me feel like a zombie. i’m currently going to doctors for evaluations on if i have ADD as well. i have suppressed my true self, again, since i can remember & i don’t want to do that anymore. i understand the feeling of losing your mind. it’s overwhelming & leads you to feel helpless when you don’t have the answers you desperately need. but i promise that having you here has & will help people. seeing these raw moments helps us to realize it’s okay to not always be okay, to not always people please, to have feelings. you’re showing your viewers that you’re a human behind the phone & that we can actually relate to you on a different, deeper level. so thank you for this. we love you & i will pray for you & your healing.

I signed up for clay baby because of your SPIRIT.. most of us aren't fair weather followers, we really love you and we're all here out of love and concern. I wish I HAD positivity to you but I'm drawing from an empty well myself so if nothing else, I'll be miserable with you hunny

You’re incredible, Clay! So sorry you’re going through this ❤

Your not crazy, your not alone, be kind to yourself, be patient with yourself. You have so many supporters that will be here for you. I get you I hear you. You did the right thing speaking up ❤

You’re not alone Clay! I have always dealt with anxiety/depression but it wasn’t until about almost a year ago maybe it got way worse. I think me being a stay at home mom started to take a toll on my mental health as I have been one since June/July of 2017 and other factors of life I was going through. I’m the same, I was always the “everyone’s friend” funny kid in school but never had actual friends. I always kept to myself. So here I am with no friends at home all day with kiddos. I feel I don’t know how to function as an adult anymore as I really only stay at home and grocery shop and go to my kids sporting events, so I think it really started to get to me but I could never explain it. I had very crazy mood swings I wouldn’t shower for weeks or even want to get out of bed or change my clothes. I wanted to lay there and just drift away and I started having out of body feelings. Like I was alive and doing things I needed but I felt I wasn’t me doing it, I felt trapped inside my mind watching myself then would later snap out of it and barley remember what happened in that time. Then get a burst of energy, deep clean wanna go out and have fun and stuff then next thing I know I’m back in the depression phase. I have many many cuts on my stomach, legs, wrists, from wanting to feel something as I always felt numb. It wasn’t until one day I pulled into the drive way and just was blank and started bawling my eyes out randomly wanting to die. I didn’t wanna live the way I was with the million of thoughts always running in my head. That’s when I was like okay I need to seek help because I didn’t even understand why or what was happening. I went to my DR and told her everything and she put me on Bupropion. It’s been almost a month on it and it’s helped me a lot with the bad thoughts and I feel happy now. I do suffer from insomnia also so I feel drained still all the time but if I can fix that then I’ll finally feel “normal” again. I’m very excited I finally found something to help what I was going through, it is a very dark, lonely road to go on and I hope you can find something to help you, but just know you’re not alone. I felt I was alone because I didn’t understand, and couldn’t explain it and I’ve seen so many other people has experienced what I was going through. Time will heal and I’ll be praying for you! ♥️

Thank you for sharing this with us!! Ugh You sharing this helps other people too! My heart goes out to you ❤ I have severe mental health issues as well as physical problems. These are real problems that deserve real validation! I hear you Clay! I’m here if you need a friend!!!

Your health is more important than making us laugh. Please be well and take care ❤

I've never struggled with the tinnitus but I can understand where you're coming from by feeling like you're losing your mind. I had a months-long issue with dissociation/derealization after taking drugs I shouldn't have. It's scary and it feels like it will never end. But all I know to say is that it will end at some point and you will feel okay. I hope it gets better for you soon ❤️

Thank you for talking about this. I've had tinnitus since I was 16 and I'm 36 now. I haven't heard silence in 20 years. At night I used to just scream into my pillow because I couldn't deal with it anymore I'd scratch at my face and just scream and cry because it was constant and knowing it was for forever was awful. I got it from my dad's wife hitting me over and over again on my head one day so I've dealt with so much anger from that because I would be normal if it wasn't for her abusing me and if my dad would have protected me like a father is supposed to I wouldn't have this constant ringing in my head. I get it. You're not alone and thank you so fucking much for talking about this. I wish more people would talk about it.

I LOVE the rare tender honest moments you have. I think you should do more! The one who seems happiest is usually the one holding the most pain!! We are all learning and healing everyday. Sometimes the best therapy is just letting it all out. You would be surprised how many people can relate so closely!!

Praying for you Clay ❤ You will get through this! We suffer but we conquer 🙏🏽 Your story isn’t over yet!

You have been my light for so long! I have never not laughed at one of your videos. I know it’s all jokes but you are always so supportive and kind and funny and I want to send the same energy back to you! We love you

I have it too! I completely understand! It gets really bad when I’m stressed. I can’t sleep because of it.

You are not alone! So many people suffer with anxiety and depression. I have tinnitus from time to time but I can't imagine having it all the time. You are hilarious and you seem like such a fun person. I have a very hard time finding a primary care doctor I like. I'm a pharmacist and sometimes knowing about medication and what I think they should do and what they actually do is two different things! Most of my specialist are an hour and a half away. Maybe you can search the internet and find better doctors. I use healthgrades when I am looking for doctors and I look at reviews to see what other people think of them. Hoping for better days and finding the right medication and dosage for you! Thanks for sharing! ❤

I appreciate your transparency. Sincerely, I am not here to invalidate your experience. I think you are going above and beyond what you can do to make yourself feel better. I am diagnosed with a few things, myself. And I deal with it without medication (it works for some, just not my style) I struggle with intrusive thoughts everyday. I checked into breath work. Aligning my thoughts in an almost out of this world way. If that makes any sense....Because your brain will rewire itself the more you practice. Tinnitus is a physical auditory condition. So I'm not sure if I'm helping at all. But I would definitely seek another medical opinion. Don't give up. You will win. We are more than our bodies.

I have tinnitus, too. It IS crippling and it impacts relationships. But you can get through it. When you find the right medicine combination, things WILL get better. Hang in there…you are loved. ❤

It’s okay to not be okay - some of the funniest people have depression. It’s their way of coping. I’m really sorry you are going through this and I hope you find a way to get better - both physically and mentally. Don’t give up on you - you are more than worth the effort. I’m on lexapro and Abilify and it’s been a miracle combination for my severe depression.

As a native Arkansan, Arkansas doctors are not the best. You have to search hard to find the good ones. Even though my husband is from hot springs, and I'm there when I can be, I've only ever gone to the ER and not a normal or specialty dr there. I would suggest, if possible, to look for a dr in Little Rock or Fort Smith or Fayetteville, the bigger cities. I also have ear ringing a lot, so I understand some of how you feel. I don't have it 24/7, I even have it as I'm writing this, mine usually signals a incoming headache. I really hope you can find a solution and someone who will actually listen and help

When you said out of body experience I could totally relate. I suffer from depersonalization which makes me feel like I’m not here and nothing is real. I doubt reality. It’s an awful feeling. I always said I’m going crazy. My mom said crazy people don’t realize they’re going crazy! So you’re fine and you’re going to be ok! Sending much love and prayers to you. This too shall pass. xo