Same here …it’s hard to be shell of what you were. We should be sad and depressed.

If you don’t mind me asking. Ssa send you to have a CE? I did last year and was denied but after that I started To see a psychiatrist and also counseling from my childhood trauma, anxiety depression and ptsd. Did they approve you because you have specialist for mental health? To which i di not and my regular practitioner was not specialist in behavioral health so i have since corrected this and I’m now under reconsideration. But i also have an autoimmune disorder that has been and continue to be treated by the rheumatologists. I only pray that i get approved this time around. I’m be going broke and loose my home if i have no funds coming in.

I never had a CE…I had plenty of visits and tests and MRI’S, CT scans and X Rays. My depression is long-standing with anxiety. I did not apply for that illness. I have psoriatic arthritis, degenerative issues from neck to tailbone with bulging and herniated discs. My biggest issue are my feet. Tendons flare and swell and arthritis all through. This continued to worsen from age 45 on. A ruptured appendix seemed to make my body go haywire. I have other autoimmune diseases as well. I worked as a pharmacy tech and had to give that up. I then tried 4 other jobs and failed at all. My doctor telling me I was unemployable and disabled put me in a daze of depression and anxiety. I am relieved to have been approved, but I’m only going to worsen not ever get better. You definitely need to see as many specialists as possible and have good records. Keep the faith!!

love yourself and know there are others who understand you. i wish you peace and happiness.

So people encounter difficulties and get "stuck" - they can't process it and move on. Severe post traumatic stress disorder is an example of that.

@@DisabilityExams maybe that's what I have then. Horrible divorce ripped my children away, and my home. A therapist I met with said I could have PTSD. From the abuser.

And winter is not a relief because winter is one long fall hazard yes I’m grieving my old life, Not every day not all the time but doing ordinary things is a physical struggle and why shouldn’t I be tired at the end of the day from that physical struggle like anybody else who want to work on a given day I think people don’t understand that

I'd be interested to know how you differentiate grief, sadness, and depression.

@@DisabilityExams if I could give an example because sometimes nowadays words are hard, my grandpa who is like a father to me died in 1982. There’s a hole in my heart that nothing could ever fill where he used to be. Whenever there is news footage of World War II I look for him. Grief is inconsolable. Sadness will not necessarily trivial is momentary considering a lifetime. Depression can be the natural normal result of life events and might accompany grief for a time but unless unless it’s part of another disease process is generally treatable and therefore limited grief is forever. I fully understand the woods and waterfalls and anywhere I used to hike are with some people might consider inanimate things but to me the loss of them grieves me because they cannot be replaced, because losing that ability has taken away family time there’s nothing to substitute with children who want to play outside and you can’t because it’s too hot out, there’s nothing to substitute taking children sledding and you can’t because it’s the fall hazards. And the kids/grandkids don’t understand when you tell them no let’s do this instead they want what they want which is a normal their kids. This doesn’t feel like a full explanation of the grief I feel but it’s the best I can do right now perhaps grief also has much to do with class. Depending what sort of funds you have you could hire help , you could buy fancy gadgets to help me move around safely, you could afford high-speed communications to communicate by visual phone calls the way that children are doing these days and even up to young adults I know that’s not what they’re called but I forget the FaceTime that’s it. Maybe even you could afford bio identical‘s instead of standard psychiatric medicine which causes weekend which causes higher blood pressure which causes more medicine which causes just a vicious circle. I lost my marriage because according to my husband he did not want to deal with sickness the rest of his life his first wife had died and he did not want to sit around and wait for me to die. OK fine his choice but he took his entire family with him. It’s so terribly hard to grieve the living. I don’t sit in my rocking chair in front of my window in my sack cloth and ashes day after day. But my grief is never far from me. Thank you so much for asking I’m sorry my answer was so long I’m not a very short winded person :)

Same

Viagra?

@@DisabilityExams LOL not in my case

@@DisabilityExams benzo killed me