kzfaq.info/get/bejne/npNzq7Gn2snGfIk.html , a video about sexual assault awareness

Having depression is caring about nothing. Anxiety is caring about everything. Having both is caring too much about nothing.

*She shouted everything we were too afraid to even whisper....*

“It’s not that much fun having fun when you don’t wanna have fun” took the words straight out of my mouth😢

Dear parents, We don’t need therapy. We don’t need medication. We don’t need you to yell at us. We need you to support us. We need you to talk things out with us. We need you to spend time with us.

she yelled every single thing that we're all afraid to even whisper

Depression is like being colourblind and constantly being told how colourful the world is.

Depression is like living in a color less world with no freedom,no happiness but still smiling.

“i make plans but i don’t wanna go. i make plans because i know i should want to go. i know sometimes i would’ve wanted to go.” I felt this in my Soul.

My depression is telling me to die.... But my anxiety is to scared to... Why is it like this....I’ll never win.....

You can hear the pain in her voice, ☹️

"No, I'm afraid of living." I was doing really good at keeping my cool with this whole thing, and then that line was said, and I broke

"You're not a drop in the ocean. You're the ocean in a drop" "Depression, panic attacks and anxiety aren't signs of weakness. They're the signs of someone whos been too strong for too long" We're not alone in our constant dance with depression and the demon on our shoulder. We're not just survivors, we're warriors. We need to learn to ease our minds to make the dance easier. 🖤🖤🖤🖤

When you are alive: people dont care When you are dead: they started to care

“Hey you look sad, are you okay?” “Yeah, just tired.” *Tired of nobody believing me when I say im depressed* *Tired of crying myself to sleep* *Tired of lying* *Tired of feeling like im ugly* *Tired of being alone* *Tired of being bullied* *Tired of people* *Tired of throwing up* *Tired of having to do everything myself* *Tired of hiding my face behind a mask of lies* *Tired of stress* *Tired of sleepless nights* *Tired of feeling fat* *Tired of wishing for my life to end every day* *Tired of being judged* *Tired of being asked if I’m okay when the answer is right in front of them* *Tired of having to fake being happy* *Tired of having panic attacks* *Tired of being worthless* *Tired of worrying over every little thing* *Tired of hate* *Tired of myself being so pathetic* *Tired of not doing anything right* *Tired of nobody believing I have anxiety* *Tired of being a disappointment* *Tired of masking my tired eyes with pounds and pounds of makeup* *Tired of being unable to cry around people* *Tired of Life* "You sure?" “Yep. Just tired.”

Appreciate for a hot second the fact that she was most likely having a panic attack on stage and it most likely took her so long to get the courage to recite these words.

my parents.："you can tell me anything" me: starting to tell them, them: starts to insult me.

Me: Hey mom i think i have depression Mom: its because of that damn phone

Once you're gone, everyone starts to care. hey, if you're seeing this.. look how far you've come! I'm so proud of you

To anyone who is strugging

she just shouted everything that ive wanted to scream. the words that fell out of her mouth are the ones that are cages behind my teeth, and the emotion in her voice is the emotion i have been begging to see again, the emotion that left me because even i am not good enough for it.

"Why are your grades so bad?" "Why don't you wanna try?" "You're ridiculous, take responsibility for your actions" Can't you see that my actions are no longer my own, they are my emotions, and i no longer want to try because i don't even think i have a life, for you took it from me and made it your own, when you chose what school i should i go, when you decided i couldn't go over my dad's house, when you mocked me for having depression, and when you sat there and said i was ridiculous, what you don't understand is that depression takes all of a person's life and changes it, to where there is no hope. There is more to my failing grades then my effort.

Mom says you're being dramatic. I was being really dramatic when I was ready to overdose.

"Why are you depressed? Life's beautiful!" Is like saying "Why are you asthmatic? There's so much air!"

*She literally said those words which we don't even imagine/dare to say!..*

Cut's after cut's. Depression after depression. Cries after cries. Death after death. It's either death or living....

" Your being pathetic..." " Your lying..." " Your perfectly fine... " " Your not depressed..." " It's just a phase..."

This is how I feel everyday when my mum says "there's nothing wrong with you"

This is so relatable I been so depressed for years now & I feel like it's gotten worse lately.

Who ever watches this there either -deppressed -Sad -Thinks there unworthy -wanna be dead -hates life Me too...

lies ive been told: " i love you " " you can trust me" " your not depressed " " ill never leave you " " the pain will go away " " lifes easy " " you'll be okay "

To mum, I didn't need to be yelled at I didn't need to grow up I wasnt a drama queen I was depressed, i was dieing and you did nothing . You let me suffer for years without help, you knew i was struggling and you watched. I'm still here. I dont know how but i am, no thanks to you.

Honestly people do say you can choose to be happy... True. But when people are to broken beyond compare it's hard. 💔

Dear moms... *Being depressed isnt a phase* *Feeling ugly isnt a phase* *Being a transgender isnt a phase* *Having anxiety isnt a phase* *ITS NOT A PHASE AND NOT HORMONES*

Depression is when you care about nothing Anxiety is when you care too much about everything Having both is like hell Edit Thank you for the likes and stay safe. I love you guys 🖤

The way she screams "I'm afraid to living" always makes me cry.

“ when others can’t yell, you yell for them. “ THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS.

Me: can we talk ? Mom: yes? Me: i have depression, i'm sorry.. mom: iTs tHaT gOdDaMn pHoNe hUh?

"Mama. I don't wanna die. I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all." - Freddie Mercury.

i just cant stop crying this is so true to all the mums out there stop making your child condition worse. some of us just need someone there with us and to listen.

Imagine the amount of anxiety she went through to tell the story of millions like her.

"You're so lazy how come you're tired?!" "Nevermind..." 'but I'm not physically tired I'm mentally tired of all of this.. '

Who else is proud of her for shouting everything we wanted to shout?

My eyes are wet, and I'm not sure why; I was unable to stop them. I struggled to put all of my emotions into words, but got stuck at a confusion; this is crushing me. I appreciate the recommendation, KZfaq.

Thank you for this. To anyone who reads this, this is the story of how depression stepped through my open door, disguised as love. I became depressed around the beginning of my second semester in 6th grade. This guy that I had liked (we'll call him *N*) had broken up with his girlfriend of at least 2 years, and I know now they were taking a "break". Well, the guy I had liked started flirting with me and teasing me, hugging me, holding my hand, and after about a week of this, we started dating. We were dating for about 2 almost 3 weeks before he started ignoring me. And it was 1 week away from the start of winter break. From Dec. 22 to Jan. 4 was our school's winter break. I was so nervous, would *N* forget me? Would he go back to his ex-girlfriend? I was anxious and I didn't sleep well most nights. I had known this guy since 5th grade, and now, in 8th grade, we go to the same school. I changed schools after 7th grade. And he was expelled in 7th grade from our old school, so he went to my school, since it was one of the few other junior high schools in our town. Anyway, after winter break, I went back to school and he started ignoring me. I later learned that month that he had started dating his ex again, and from what I'd heard from people who'd known him for a while, he and his gf had been on and off for about 5 years. I became part of the NJHS (National Junior Honors Society) soon after he started ignoring me about 5 weeks after. *N*'s brother was in 8th grade at the time me and *N* were in 6th grade, and he had gone to the ceremony as well. I saw him after the whole thing and he didn't look at me. He didn't even glance in my general direction. I called out his name and I was a 3 feet away, and he didn't. even. react. That night, I cried in my bed, and when my mom asked me what was wrong, I just told her "I'm just tired from everything." *N* ignored me for the rest of the winter and half into the spring. My best friend tried cheering me up, but I was just hopeless. I cried almost every night, silently since I shared a room with my brothers. No one knew what was wrong with me besides my best friend, whom I told about *N*. Less than a year after, I had moved into my new house with my family away from our old apartment, and about a month or two after, I started cutting my arm, self harming. My dad yelled at me, telling me this whole story about his cousin who did the same thing and cut so deep, they had to take him to the hospital, and give him blood. I tried telling him I would never cut that deep, that I would never commit suicide. But even now I still question myself, "would i commit suicide if it got that bad?" or "I don't have it as bad as others, I need to suck it up." I have started going to a therapist, and they've helped me a lot, I feel comfy around them as well, but when they talk to my parents at the end of the sessions sometimes, I just tense up, like I get nervous with my parents around. Thank you for reading this EXTRA long comment. I feel heard.

Damn... "no i'm afraid of living" That's it.

I don't want live But I am to scared to die Depression vs anxiety

Depression is like drowning in a world full of air but your lungs are filled with water.

This audio legit made me cry because she's said everything that I've wanted to say for me.

Forget it.. *SHE THINKS IM DRAMATIC*

If there was a way to die without hurting my family and friends I would

as a person carrying depression and anxiety on her shoulders for so long, i feel safe knowing others are out there and have told what they have wanted to, but still here i am not speaking abt neither of my problems, im stuck in a room where all my insecurities are shouting in my head and the loudest voice among all of them are the worst of my insecurities, i feel trapped, scared, lonely and most importantly i feel insecure. i've lost the ppl who mattered the most to me and i could tell anything to them and only when i hade the one person, she left a few weeks ago.. i've been hanging on for as long as i can remember and trust me, i havent given up, im still trying so please give me a chance and understand im trying my hardest even on the lowest days, when i cry myself to sleep, i still walk into skl with the brightest smile plastered on my face, this is who i am and i cant change myself even with all the hate that ppl twist me to be dissolved in, i am still who god decided to make me.. but the only time i can say this is online where no one knows me, because im scared, so scared..

"It's Just Not That Much Fun Having Fun When You Don't Wanna Have Fun, Mom . . ." God, That Hits Me Hard In The Feels EVERY Time 💔

My depression tells me to kill myself but my anxiety is scared to die. We can never win Edit: (FYI I’m no longer suffering and I am okay now. I am only suffering from anxiety. If you guys feel down please talk to someone you trust and they will help you through this. Stay strong!)

"Mom I'm not scared to die, I'm scared of living" I felt that

To that one Seoul reading this,I know you're tired, you're fed up, you're so close to breaking.But there's strength within you, even when your weak.keep fighting

"you're just being overdramatic, you'll grow out of this. You're going through a phase by thinking all of this."

Depression is like living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die

“Why are you so quiet?” Because if I'm quiet then no one will notice how much I'm hurting.

The amount of times I've been told happiness is a choice or to light a candle to watch the flame of something destructive have so much life, so this really hits home 😞

"I hate myself" Mom: *gives 5 hours lecture* "I hate myself more now"

Mother: _No,_ *IT'S BECAUSE OF THAT DAMN PHONE*

Holy shit she has said everything I have been afraid of letting out of Pandora's box she's is a voice who speaks for all of us broken children

Im so tired that i cant even shed a single tear while listening to this

“Are you okay” “Hehe yes tired” Tired of feeling dumb Tired of wishing I was pretty Tired of myself Tired of fake love Tired of my fake friends Tired of feeling ugly Tired of being myself Tired of being something I’m not Tired of everything Tired of starving myself Tired of wanting to die Tired of not being able to get Up out of bed Tired of wanting love Tired of giving love Tired of staying up the late nights Tired of feeling unwanted Tired of feeling fat Tired of feeling sad Tired of feeling the depression Tired of giving and giving and getting nothing back Tired of being tired I’m tired of being sick and tired! I just wanna end my self I’m so tired.. IM SO TIRED! I’m tired of life...

“Why do you talk so much?” Because people tell me I’m too quiet “Why are you so quiet?” Because people tell me I talk too much Edit: To the people that like or comment on this because you relate, you are loved no matter what

Those words are literally trapped inside me and she just shouted them out...THAT BRAVERY

Okay I have full respect because when you have depression it’s really hard to come out and tell someone EVEN your parents that you have depression! But this girl had the courage to say it too a whole crowd! But what she said in this video was very VERY relatable!

Severe depression... You feel numb you have so much mental pain that you can’t feel physical pain...... And that’s when blades make there move... You want to die but anxiety makes you scared to die... You are lost not knowing what to do.... So all you do is curl up in a ball and tell everyone you are busy... You cry and cry until your eyes hurt... At night you toss and you turn stare up at the empty celling reminding yourself that the celling is as empty as your heart.... 5 a.m. you gotta wake up you just have to! To show the world that your fine But deep inside you know you are not

*"I'm fine"* That's the biggest lie most people told.

Sadness is like a big fur coat, its made of dead things but it keeps you warm💔

You go girl! Speak up for yourself, speak up for those who can’t talk about there depression and anxiety!

I have depression Mom doesn't believe me I have anxiety Mom doesn't believe me I'm suicidal Mom doesn't believe me. I have depression My father doesn't understand. Why? Because I fake my smiles I try to be the perfect daughter. But I can't im dying in side. I wake up late every day I'm called lazy, no im not. i just feel dead and so empty that I don't feel like living anymore. No one believes me and when I try to talk about my feelings I cant. Because I'm so used to people not listening and not believing. I keep all my feelings bottled up inside me, I cry oceans of tears each day....but no one cares

Mom: come talk to your mother Also my mom: screams at me every second*

This gave me goosebumps... words I wish I could speak to my parents so maybe they'd finally understand

HOLY SHIT!!! Just wow. She sounds so incredibly educated but not only smart, so visual and just DAMN UGH how does she not only explain the feelings but give it analogies/ examples that we’ve all been through…. The “MOM!!!??” I felt that…. Like how can you stilllll not understand?😔😔

Friend: how are you? Me i’m just TIRED TIRED of faking a smile TIRED of living

pov: That one girl in school that has depression is having mental breakdown and all the other kids w/ depression are clapping for the girl

The "when will you get better?" is the only word I'm hearing everyday, just feel nothing, also losing my appetite...

“NO I AM AFRAID OF LIVING!!! mom I’m LONELY!!” That just hit so hard Damnn I fucking relate

''Mom still doesn't understand.'' And she never will. Never.

Me: “I’m depressed..” My family: “Then don’t be depressed, change it.” Mom, dad, brothers, sisters.. *Depression was never an option..*

you know you’ve hit rock bottom when you can recite this whole poem off by heart.

Thank you for this, I could never talk about my anxiety like you can!

"Its not fun to have fun when you Don't want to have fun" Thats so true

Dear everyone reading: Happiness isn’t the only emotion

Such an energetic voice, when I was depressed I didn't even have the strength to speak and explain something to someone.🙂

videos like this bring the voices of those who arent strong enough to yell it from the roof or just sit down ansd talk to someone . depression isnt always the struggle betwee our selves and the dissationfaction of it all

Mom:*sees scars on my wrist* "...Well talk about this later..." *one year later* Me: "When is later, mom?"

Depression is like being colour blind, and everyone telling you how colourful the world is

You can here the pain in her voice but this video is a good video she really got me thinking all of the stuff I’m thinking right now and it was a very strong video

Hearing this made me realize that I relate to this so much that it made me cry a lot 😭 and to be able to feel the pain and truth coming from her voice it just so messed up to know that those around you don't even notice your pain when they should.😢

"Dont be lazy" "Its just a phase" "just think nice things" "youre being dramatic" ....... :)

Me: I have depression My family: no you don’t (Alternative universe) Me: I have depression My family: why didn’t you tell us before? No one would believe I have depression They think I’m too happy to be depressed Everyone has their own fight But my war will never end I’m getting weaker and soon I’ll die...

i am not sad right now, but tears just came out. i am impressed and stunned. that poem is wonderfull

I had no business knowing every word to this poem at 10. And at the time, I could relate everything she was saying

"Friend": "You okay?" "Yeah.. Just scared about the test..!" Teacher: "Your grades are getting worse... Is everything alright?" "Y-Yes Miss! The test was just harder than expected..!" Mom: "Sweetie, you need to get better grades! Are you okay?" "Yes mom... I'm fine... Just... Tired..." Can they really not tell I'm not fine? Is it really that hard? Why does life not go easy on me? Why does nobody notice!?! Why am I so lonely... And at the end of the day... All you hear is... "It's that internet."

« why are you *acting* so depressed? » and she said she knows what it feels like

When she said it's not that much fun having fun when you don't want to have fun hits hard tbh...

It's been over 2 years since I've found this and I've been coming back to this. It makes me cry everytime, if only i had the courage to tell my parents everything. But then again, I'm not strong enough to do so. Oh god I'm crying again.. Edit 1: damn... its been a year since I posted that comment. Honestly, I thought I was getting better but here I am... I ended up wandering all the way over here again.