Addicted till age 66, been clean since , over 4 years. Don't give up trying to overcome. One day at a time, face the pain, and don't look back. All things are possible for you

I was addicted to meth for 23 years and I'm happy to say I'm over 6 years clean

“It’s almost like oxygen, you feel like you have to have it to survive.” Man. 10 years clean here, and a mama to 2. I can’t imagine being apart from my babies. But I have been that person shooting up day after day and so, I am thankful to be sober today. And I’m wishing her the best. I can feel the sadness. You are not alone.

She did not hesitate for one second when she responded “lonely” to describe her childhood. So sad.

I really appreciate her being so open about how she felt as a young mom. It's not easy to admit you didn't want to be a parent.

Wow! This woman's story really resonated with me. I felt every emotion in her. Im also a mom of two kids roughly the same age as hers. Jenny if you read this... don't give up hope. Your kids need you and will forgive you. ❤

These mom’s often bail on their children when their unprocessed trauma resurfaces at the time when their child(ren) hit the same milestones they were injured by. It’s all unconscious. I’ve seen it over and over, sadly. I hope this woman gets a chance through recovery to work on her own past so she can stop passing it in to her children. The sins of the mother get passed down too.

I overcame years of heroin addiction and eventually fentanyl addiction so can you. The hardest part is forgiving yourself for destroying your kids, family and friends for years and believing you deserve anything better than shooting up and homelessness. It’s extremely hard but you can do it. You’re not the things you have done. You are worthy of forgiveness and love. We have very similar life stories and I did it, so can you. I will be praying and hoping you realize you are extremely valuable and worthy of happiness. Stay strong, never give up.

Jenny we are rooting for you. When u said u died and were mad that you were saved, that broke me. Your addiction stems from your childhood trauma. Your kids having a mom that died from drug overdose is trauma. It’s possible for them to follow your path in order to heal from their trauma. Please please get help Jenny. Your kids care and want a mom

The people in my life who call themselves "empaths" abuse/ traumatize their children and spouses, and are completely self- absorbed and self- pitying. I used to call myself that but stopped when I realized this. I learned about boundaries and self- awareness in order to stop taking on other peoples' stuff. Being an "empath" is a real thing, but unfortunately a lot of people who harm and abuse others use it as an excuse, in addition to trying to romanticize themselves as extra special and gifted.

I lost my beloved dog two days ago and I finally realized what it felt like to want to totally numb my feelings. I understand what these people mean when they say they want to numb their feelings when the sadness, pain and heaviness becomes so overwhelming and unbearable.

I love how Jenny acknowledged that her addiction and eating disorder are ways for her to control something in her life. Her father not being affectionate wasn't something she could control. Her mother being an addict was something she couldn't control. Her depression was something she couldn't control. This is a really important revelation to make. The only thing is, she's normalized it. She's comfortable where she's at because the control is something she doesn't want to give up. Being comfortable isn't a healthy feeling all the time. I hope one day, Jenny, you get out of the routine and better yourself. You have self-awareness, it's just executing what you already know.

Lots of love for you Jenny from a fellow Foco native, empath and eating disorder survivor 💙💙 you got this!

This really shows you how strong trauma and addiction can be. Having 3 children and still not doing whatever it takes in order to see them says alot.

From once she said she never fitted into any group ,, then later saying being told she was an empath I understood. Drugs have taken her off her natural path before she understood her abilities and strengths . Soo many do not find themselves and get lost in the confusion of “ growing up” . She never time to truly develop. It is funny but it is someone else that can see what you are .

Mark, please come out to Portland. We need help showing how dire the situation is here and what people are going through on the ground/on the streets.

“I love my kids more than anything in the world.” Except Fentanyl.

Thank you Mark, thank you for this interview with Jenny, She explains a lot about how someone with addiction thinks. Very powerful story of a mom who wants to go home, but fears the dope sickness so much , she puts her self through it over & over again. Wishing this young lady the strength to forgive herself enough to make her path home.

The last thing ANYONE needs is to be kicked when they're already down. None of you making comments know how much she loves her kids. Your story isn't hers. Yeah, alot of people get clean for their kids... but for others its harder and it's a longer road. I dont judge her. I wish her the best. One STEP at a time Jenny ❤️, thats all you can do right now

Jenny, I am a 38 yr old stay at home mom of a 17, 13 & 4 yr old. BUT, I am also a daughter to a homeless drug addict mother. She has chosen to be homeless and I do believe it is from the shame. I was 27 when my mother left I still wait for her to come bacK and meet my kids. I hope you find the strength to go back home. It will be hard but believe me when I tell you no matter how long it's been we are still waiting. Stay safe be strong, god bless.

I don’t know if they even do DARE classes anymore but damn they should have just shown these videos instead. This is heart breaking, cause I have been her, and I got lucky and was able to get clean for my kids. It’s not as simple or easy for everyone tho. Sending much love and healing for this beautiful mother 🌙✨🌎

Jenny is an intelligent and lucid young woman. She finds the right words to describe her addiction which leads to the separation from her children. She is a mother but drugs have always been her life. I hope that she will have moments of happiness and that she will live her life alone without this drug that destroys everything.

I understand that raising her children is not what she wanted to do with her life but this can’t be what she wanted instead.

Girl, you got this! You have 3 babies that need you. I know you feel like they're good without you or it's too late, but your children need their Momma. It's never too late to be who you want to be. Your interview showed what an empath you are. If only you felt the same about yourself as you do others, you'd be unstoppable ❤

I feel for every addict because I’m a recovering one. I’ve been clean for 3 years and the reality of it, you’ll never get better unless your REALLY put in the work and STOP blaming / having an excuse for everything that happens in your life. At the end of the day if you don’t want to truly get clean you won’t.

My heart breaks for her children 💔

This message is for Mark: You are doing amazing work out there! Been struggling myself for many years and your show has helped me SO MUCH I am currently detoxing while binge-watching this. It's giving me the strength to keep going on to the next day..I appreciate you and what you do and all of those who share.

I'm not an addict but I know I could've easily been her if only a few aspects of my life and experiences had been different...I believe we all could be her if I'm being honest. I'm also a young parent and while I love my child more than anyone else sometimes I long for another life with more indepence, freedom & less responsibility...but this reminds me of how much I would miss without my child, how empty and devoid of meaning my life would be, I am reminded of how much we need each other and how he has given me my life as much I have given him his.

I don't think she understands how much she is hurting her kids by being selfish as shit. It will scar them for life and they will never get over it. So sad

“He thought he was being helpful when is was just hurtful” WOW.... I’m rooting for you and sending love !!

My daughter will be 7 on Christmas Eve as well. I’ll have 14 years sober on December 23rd. I hope you’re able to get sober and build the life you and your children deserve. I’m so thankful that I made the decision to stop and stay stopped.

Her honesty is amazing, I will be praying for her she deserves recovery.

I was abandoned for drugs by my mom. If it were not for the drugs she would have taken care of us kids. There's not a big enough bow you can put on that to disguise what it was...abandonment. Period! The reason doesn't change the facts. This woman abandoned her children. 💔 I hopes she can find her way back to life before she loses it.

She's talking about how it's hard to quit because you'll feel sick for a while. That's not why it's hard. Being sick for a week is not so bad and it's over quick. It's the long haul that's hard. It's when you get bored and complacent and depressed. When u relapse you're long past withdrawal. It's something wrong where u can't remember how to be happy. An addicts brain tricks them, lies to them, indeed.

A sure sign someone is an 'empath' 'indigo child' when they have three kids they abandoned to live on the street, dye their hair purple and do drugs.

Jenny is really intelligent and articulate. She is beautiful inside and out.

If you get addicted to fentanyl might as well go to the funeral home and let the funeral director know your final wishes. Fentanyl is curing drug habits every day by sending people to the grave from OD. I hope the best for her and hopefully she can get off fentanyl before it’s too late. I’m not a drug addict but I have lived in cities where it’s full of heroin/ fentanyl and meth addicts and I personally know people that have passed away from OD so it hits home.

Kind of ironic how she’s complaining about her child hood and how it’s effected her yet she’s doing the exact same thing to her children smh. If ur gonna be a shitty person use protection!!

It is scary how similar my story is to Jenny’s, however I did not ever become addicted to hard drugs or alcohol. I always knew I was very close to being another statistic because of my upbringing, but never really knew HOW close. Hearing Jenny’s story really shows me how close I have always been to that life. Jenny, it took massive amounts of courage to talk about yourself and your life the way you have and I admire and commend you for that. Just remember, empaths are very powerful people and if you ever get to a place where you are ready, I know you can beat your addiction. It will be rough and ugly and uncomfortable and gross at time, but I believe you can push through it because of your power and light you have hidden away deep inside along with all your feelings and emotions that you have as well as the ones you have adopted from others. A good therapist can help you dig them up and help you to process them correctly and let them go. You can also learn how to differentiate YOUR FEELINGS from OTHERS FEELINGS, which I have found to be life changing for me. Good luck honey. I’m sending you good vibes and wish you all the best in your journey and I hope you let your light and power out one day soon.💚

She has a beautiful voice

Glad she said she feels comfortable where she's at cause atleast it's honest but as a revocering fentynal addict before I actually truly truly wanted it I just never tried & that's where she is right now she just DOESNT WANT TO STOP YET ... Sucks but it's addiction

Jenny, you are such a bright and well spoken young woman. I hope you can get help and get back to being a great mom and whatever else you want to do in life.

Hard to feel sorry for the edgy hipster chasing parties. Self pity is strong in this one

Gorgeous eyes. Such a lovely person. Rooting for her full recovery and hopeful that she can get back to her family someday.

Fun fact: If you don't want children, there are ways to not have any (say no to your partner, various contraceptives, or even abortion if you are okay with that). I am very understanding when it comes to drug addiction but please don't blame your depression and drug use on your children or the fact that you had them.

Oh my gosh the way she explains being an empath! My daughter is 13 and is an empath. Thankfully, she understands she is one and she and I have researched a lot about it. She is learning how to recognize what feelings are her own and what feelings are other people's so she can protect herself. But I can see how this gift can turn into a curse as well.

When she started speaking about being an empath and placing the worry of the world on her shoulders, I crumbled. Being an empath in a cruel and selfish world is the hardest job anyone can do. It’s a toxic relationship with constantly feeling like you need to be more, listen more, help more… and at the end of the day you are left with an emptiness and void. I hope to see you find yourself and what truly makes you happy in this world. You are so intelligent and have plenty of time to change up your narrative. ♥️

Being a people pleaser for your kids is what it should be in getting off drugs and back being a mom. Being an empath for your kids in how they have been feeling is the best motivation for a true indigo child.

hey jen, i'm in Denver and you said you havn't been here in 3 years. well sweetie fentanyl is now every where!!! it's even in arvada which is kinda mind blowing, the homelessness and fentanyl have completely takin over here! i'm recovering and quit right at the time fetty hit (thank god)! I have never seen anything like this! if people are F'n with a drug that is so strong that H doesn't work for them anymore, whats next people??? I feel like this is going to change things for the worse and be worse then anything anyone has ever seen! it's like driving down a dead end street at 90miles an hour!!!!!!! good luck jenny, im routing for you!

My prayers are with Jenny and her recovery and her Beautiful Family 🙏🏽

She acts as if having children was the worst thing in her life. No, this what you are doing is the worst thing in your life. All the dreams she feels she wasted by having kids, are the same dreams she is wasting now. The children are the victims and she has a selfish mentality. You have left your kids no responsibilities and you are still not living this dream life you felt having kids held you from. You wanted drugs and you chose drugs. Just say it and own it, don’t blame the innocent children that are suffering from the results of your bad decisions.

I'm really impressed by her intense concentration and focus especially when high. It hurts though to know all that energy is on her failures and tragedies. As it is for all of us addicts. We are addicted to our self hatred. The deadliest addiction. One indigo to another... I see you, sweetie.

Children that grow up in drug or alcohol environments become ultra sensitive to other peoples emotions. It is a survival tool to protect them. It becomes harder and harder to know how they are actually feeling and they will constantly seek out safety and comfort and usually turn to drugs and alcohol to cope with the chaos in their brain and the constant anxiety they feel.

Dearest Jenny, your story is not over. This is not how it ends for you. I don’t know how and I can’t know when but I have to tell you that this interview, it’s going to change your course of action, your future and your story. I understand wanting acceptance, validation and support from a man. Mark just gave all of that to you via this space of gentle listening and care. Take it, run with it, use it to fuel change so you too can see the beautiful, articulate, compassionate woman we have all witnessed. I’m #TeamJenny

I relate and it hurts...I'm 22. I have a 15 month old son. When he was was 1 month I overdosed and died. I got clean and got him home and I I just am so miserable...I resent myself and my husband and my child and I dont know how to deal with it all. Sobriety after years of heavy use of heavy drugs and motherhood after unexpected pregnancy in the midst of it all...who knew being sober would cause so much emotional pain and now I'm trying to hold myself together...these videos always get me so emotional and I just want to sit and talk with these souls...we all need someone

You can do it Jenny!!! Your life will be amazing after you get sober, believe me...I lost everything!! I am coming up on 6 years of sobriety I am rooting for you🙏👊❤

I couldn't watch it..she said "you know" so much, it's all I could hear

She says she shouldn’t have been a mother so young, well you know what causes it, so why didn’t you protect yourself? So instead you are putting your kids through hell, and almost describe them as burdens. Coming from a woman who can’t have children, your selfish. You take your kids for granted. Get your ass clean, and stay that way. Don’t let your kids grow up feeling the same way you did. You’ve already left them for drugs. Drugs are a choice. Addiction is the consequence from that choice. So, you chose drugs over your family, but cry about it. Take responsibility, get your behind clean, and take care of your kids. You’re being selfish, and unfortunately, your children are now suffering because of what you’re putting them through. It breaks my heart for them. It sounds like you have a great family. Get counseling, go get help. There are tons of people in these comments that have gotten clean.

This is so heartbreaking. A classmate of mine passed away from fentanyl overdose (patches) at only 14. FOURTEEEN. This was in 2006 or 07 before fentanyl was a household name

"When i go home, and i see how bad ive hurt my family" *starts crying* Me: *starts crying* I didn't see that one coming, and it hurt. It just sucks to hear and see. I can feel her growing pains. I can feel her regret, thinking it'll never be back to the way it once was. If it was once priceless.. or once amazing and over the moon etc. Anything close to that is pretty damn good. There's so much to salvage that she's not seeing right now ) :

Dude let's keep it G, you're not a mom. You're not a mother. Saying you love them when you've done nothing to provide for them nor trying to do everything within your ability to get them back in your custody doesn't show love. Youre doing everything a mother doesn't. That's a title you earn, it's not awarded to you when you give birth.. its what you do while you're pregnant, it's what you do when you give birth and after that baby gets brought into this world to take care of you and yours that gives you that title. Other than that, you're just a birth giver.. You abandoning them does nothing that's conducive to their mental and emotional health. Your children come first always or SHOULD come first always. They are our future. Why wouldn't you want to show them what you never got to see as a kid? Do the things that you couldn't? Treat them better than you've been treated? Get off the streets. Get clean. Quit calling other junkies your friends because they're not. They only come around when you got something or have ends to throw down on a sack.

The withdrawal keeps so many stuck. Restless leg syndrome was what I couldn't handle I could deal with everything but that I literally wanted to be dead instead of feel that. I kept reminding myself that it's temporary and I won't feel that way forever and I made it. restless leg is what also keeps me sober. It's the worst thing I've ever felt and I do not want to exsperience it ever again.

I just feel like its all excuses. And I am so glad Mark asked her “…using your kids as excuses to use drugs.”

How she described being an empath and how it feels being an empath…👀. I literally paused my breath. It’s as if she has lived in my mind my whole life. So hard to explain. You are worthy! You are loved and needed. God bless 🙏🏽

Mark ..thank you for being the sounding board. Your Studio 🎙 is a healing room ...if only for a day. One day at a time people, if only everyone had one talk a day with a positive force.....xo

I’m also from the front range, thornton Co. I don’t know why but knowing a local is suffering in this way breaks my heart even more then usual. Jenny, if you see this please don’t give up. Remember it’s all about your brain telling you, you need it. The survival part of your brain freaking out. Once you get past the physical withdrawal it’s literally just your brain throwing a fit. Please keep trying your worth it, your kids are worth it! ❤️

We always said when a person hits bottom with an addiction, they will stop. Well my Doctor told me the other day, that Fentanyl is a 'rolling bottom'.

She has so much potential & is a really good human being. I wish I could help her. I can imagine her being such good mother to her kids one day

It’s hard for you? It’s HARDER for your kids. they need YOU. Please get help. Get on methadone and be a mom and live your dreams

I know methadone is not the best answer but it can save your life. It helped me so much. 7 years clean from opioids. I tried so hard to get clean until I entered a methadone program it was impossible.

I feel sorry for her suffering, but bringing 3 children into the world who in the future will have the same problems as her? selfish

Jenny, you are enough! You can do this. Your kids need you, too. Please get help!

Payers for her because God is amazing and this strong girl can change . Everybody’s rock-bottom is different . Mine was jail . I was homeless freezing and nothing could change me . Courts sent me to rehab (St. Jude’s) and I found strength Once I got a job and saw that I could do it . I really thought I would never ever be able to live life sober . Been sober now for four years and life is so good ! God gave me a chance and I took it !

Jenny don’t repeat the cycle with your kids. You said you think your parents addiction and your dad not showing he cared played a role in your current addiction. Break the cycle if not for you for your children. You can do it. 💪🏼

so many lost souls in USA.. here in Finland also is drug users but not that scale..hope her life get turn to better.

Jenny you are so worth this fight. Please reach for sobriety. Stop beating yourself up constantly. Put the guilt down and allow yourself to learn from those mistakes and grow from them. Sending you so much ❤️

I usually am extremely empathetic and I do see her pain and feel for her but the way she talks about her children as if it was a burden is heartbreaking. There are SO many ways to not get pregnant so excuse me if I don’t sympathize with the level of selfishness. She made these choices but her children did not. That’s not love. I do understand that she doesn’t love herself, so how can she love her children but I don’t know..it’s hard to sympathize but that just means I have work to do within myself. Triggering. May God continue to watch over this light and beautiful soul. May she find her path and her peace.

It seems Drug addicts need therapy to work through their issues before they move on to a healthy recovery.

Mark. I like that you’re engaging more with the people. ❤️😊

I don’t know, I just can’t relate. I approached motherhood with a profound understanding that, I’ve chosen to bring a tiny innocent and helpless Angel into the world and from that moment on my life is not just all about me, my first obligation is to be there to love, care for, and protect my children and I no longer have a right to choose to use drugs, alcohol or any other selfish indulgence, I gave that choice up whenever I chose motherhood. I too am an empath, and that’s not an excuse. The first misconception People tend to have is that life is supposed to be a happy fun loving hayride that doesn’t ever hurt or cause obstacles, stress, or pain. This was never promised to any human being.

She's lucky to be alive, my son didn't make it. RIP TREVOR.

It's really sad to acknowledge that majority of these people have dysfunctional childhoods . I'm a people pleaser even today at 54. I've stayed off all drugs and alcohol but I suffer everyday from addiction cravings. Cigarettes, alcohol, food. And self hatred. I wish I could pass on my sobriety and say you will be ok.

Such an intelligent, objective, and honest woman. Pulling for you Jenny.

such honesty. such truth.

It feels like having a sponsor (12 steps) could be of so much help for you. Give it a chance. Please. Thank you.

I have no sympathy for her atall. As someone with an opiate addiction if you want to stop using it’s not the end of the world with subutex or methadone , at this point she is just being selfish and a terrible person , I feel for her kids

I feel so bad for her. I've never been addicted to hard drugs, but I get it. My shrink, who is absolutely a true godsend, told me that the only choice is to walk through the fire. So I hope she keeps walking, and I hope that I do too. We simply just have no other choice. Life is fucking tough. Beautifully tough

Withdrawal was hell on earth for me!! That keeps me from ever depending on opiates again. Mark all these interviewees are heroes too me. BC speaking your truth is the first step to some form of healing. Q

Too bad. So caught up is bull. The food thing is a big indication of deep discomfort and self loathing. She is analyzing herself non stop instead of just doing stuff. But she has a good shot to have a decent life. She needs 1 friend who cares. I was successful in rehabbing my girl friend from an eating disorder by basically showing how much I cared. She was 23 and never went back to it. All she needed was someone who really cared 100%. She is in her 50s now and Incredibly healthy and successful.

Poor thing is spun so bad she won't stop talking long enough to allow a question to be asked & more importantly, she can't see that she loves the dope more than her kids.. Fentanyl is going to kill those children's mother and they'll be in the same cycle if she doesn't wake up. Open your eyes, sweety. You seem so sweet and so full of potential..

Some people just chose this life She is a prime example

I love hearing moms make excuses to not take care of their kids

This young woman is obviously very intelligent I hope she’s able to turn her life around.

I can just feel her pain….it’s palpable. 💔 I believe that connection is the opposite of addiction…and I feel like there is something in Jenny that prevents her from connecting. I’m not sure if it’s fear of being overwhelmed by taking on others’ stuff, or if she feels unworthy at her core. Her ‘dis-ease’ is what keeps her trapped in the cycle. I would encourage her to try some CODA meetings to deal with the core pain, and then maybe she will see the way out… Big hugs Jenny…you are still a beautiful, worthwhile, and loveable person. ❤️

I'm an empath, and I never knew how affected I was by other people. I just wanted people to be happy and not feel their saddness. It makes it harder to feel your own happiness and enjoy your own emotions

Jenny, you are a beautiful soul. I'm truly touched to hear your words. I want you to know from someone who has felt alone a lot of the time, you are not alone. The world needs you, strangers like me care about you. If youre reading this, I sincerely wish you the best. Today is the best day to just wake up and start over. People easily forgive and they understand. It's worth it just to let someone else take the controls for a while to help you get on the right track. We all love you and want to see you shine ❤

Jenny. I think fentanyl is a problem is every state. I live in PA, work as a parole officer and trust me, it’s a problem here. Hoping the best for you that one day you will get the help you need.

Honestly you can’t say you love your kids more than anything if your not willing to give up your drugs for them and sacrificing through withdraws . Sorry to be blunt but this women sounds pretty genuine but also seems to have an excuse to every reason why she is stuck doesn’t seem like she truly wants out

I'm glad I got off dope before fentanyl came on so strong. I feel like I dodged a bullet. I'm on methadone for 2 years now. Down to 8 MG. Almost off. I pray I don't fuck up again. My name is also Jennifer and I have 3 kids. I'm a people pleaser/empath too. We have to learn how to not worry about everything we can't control.

I could really relate on her saying how she would hear someone out and the other person feeling better and she's left feeling drained. It can be hard to Navigate Boundaries when you feel sorry for the other person while people pleasing.