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FENTANYL POISONING: Julio César Benavidez's Story

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A daughter shares her story of losing her 45-year-old father to fentanyl poisoning.
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@whatyouseenow411
@whatyouseenow411 Жыл бұрын
As a recovering addict and father, I am CERTAIN he loves you and is so proud of you! I am deeply sorry for the pain you have suffered!
@DominiqueDeMann
@DominiqueDeMann Жыл бұрын
He don't give a damn about her
@carolbenavidez6955
@carolbenavidez6955 Жыл бұрын
Honestly he did if u really knew him he did love his kids alot and always provided for his kids . Everyone deals with life different when u have mental problems so u can't just say he did not care when no one really knows the truth he loved the shit out of his kids that's why it's called problems
@clarissacanalda
@clarissacanalda Жыл бұрын
@@DominiqueDeMannI usually don’t feel the need to reply back to negative comments but I know he cared about me. he cared about all of his kids. he had his struggles & unfortunately wasn’t able to overcome it but there’s no denying he had an amazing heart
@myreasonforlife.9511
@myreasonforlife.9511 Жыл бұрын
I grew up the same way with my father , there was also him beating me and mum, he never touched my brother's.
@DominiqueDeMann
@DominiqueDeMann 11 ай бұрын
@@clarissacanalda The proofs in the pudding, he catered to the dope and gave his life for it instead of you. Non Fiction!
@rickboer7715
@rickboer7715 Жыл бұрын
You are using your pain to teach others. It was brave of you to share your story.
@vahgeuvje10
@vahgeuvje10 Жыл бұрын
Your so intelligent, you should become a counselor. Your compassion shines like no other. God bless you
@MoM-do7js
@MoM-do7js 11 ай бұрын
One of the saddest things about addiction is that you think these drugs make you feel better but in essence they are “depressants” so ultimately, the spiral leads to MORE depression. It’s the devil’s advocate. His favorite tool to try and take souls, break families hearts, cause derision, and ruin lives 💔
@PresidentCoochieGrabber
@PresidentCoochieGrabber Жыл бұрын
He struggled for so long. He's at peace now. Sorry for ur loss. U are such a strong girl.
@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet
@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet Жыл бұрын
A lot of people say “they’re at peace now” but the fact is if a person dies without choosing Jesus as their Savior and living as the Bible instructs and they die in their sin they’re definitely not at peace. Hell for eternity is NOT a place of peace.
@PresidentCoochieGrabber
@PresidentCoochieGrabber Жыл бұрын
@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet he is at peace. He is no longer struggling with mental health and drug addiction so he is at peace. Whether u pray and believe in God or not, life still goes on the way it goes on. U have to be weakminded and someone who is easily manipulated to believe in all that hypocritical unlogical unpractical crap the Bible preaches. Religion is just a way to control ppls lives. I live how I want to live, u live how u think some imaginary guy wants u to live. I do the right thing in life because it's the right thing to do not because some guy is in the sky holding me accountable when I die.
@TheSacredlizzy
@TheSacredlizzy Жыл бұрын
@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet bingo. Chances are he didn’t know Jesus :( there is no peace for the wicked
@lizard0372
@lizard0372 Жыл бұрын
@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmetSeriously??? 🙄🙄 He had an addiction, an illness, it doesn't mean he's evil! These kind of comments are not helpful or necessary!!
@jaimechavez5249
@jaimechavez5249 Жыл бұрын
He doesn’t sound like a good human being
@isadorawest4379
@isadorawest4379 Жыл бұрын
Our dad was a great father regardless of his struggles he always made sure we had what we needed before anything he was a hard worker a great grandpa
@SR71GIRL
@SR71GIRL Жыл бұрын
Very well said, young lady. May your father Rest in eternal Peace.
@davide.b8027
@davide.b8027 Жыл бұрын
Every time I see there's a new story I instantly think "YES!," but then I feel bad because I know I'm about to hear a story that doesn't end well.
@YanaWright
@YanaWright Жыл бұрын
W.O.W........MY THOUGHTS AS WELL 💯
@jenniferlosoya9742
@jenniferlosoya9742 Жыл бұрын
I can relate. I lost my dad, who was an addict to opiates since I was little, to a fentanyl overdose in February 2021. We still don’t know if he knew he was taking it and took too much or if it was in something he thought was a Vicodin or something. I know- it wasn’t on purpose though. Man, your story reminds me SO much of mine… but I do remember him before the drugs. He had a bad injury and they prescribed him opiates and he just got in too deep with them. He was such a good dad and man before that- successful, driven… he gave me an incredible life as a child. I LOVED my dad. He was a good man and he loved me and my brothers to death but he wasn’t perfect and made mistakes. We struggled on and off in our relationship once he was active in his addiction, but I never doubted he loved me. I knew. After I had my oldest two boys- our relationship stabilized although he was still In Active addiction. He LOVED his grandsons and he really came through for me and them. We became very close the last 8 years of his life and I am eternally grateful for that. Four years ago, I had my youngest and the situation was rough- I did it on my own. But he was there for me and my youngest adored him. They were all close. He’d watch them whenever I gave him a chance. My oldest two still, ten years later- miss him and cry at least once a week. I was in my own issues with substances but his death scared me straight. I’ve been sober since 4/10. I drank once in between his passing and when I started keeping track and got into actual treatment for my addiction on 4/10. It made me sick to drink after. I miss him SO much. It’s so beyond bizarre and unreal still that he’s gone. My brother regally struggled- he had been the one to find him and call 911… but he also is sober now for a little over a year. I am so proud of him. We are all doing the best we can. There will always be a void. And again- I know he was an addict and I don’t care how others saw/see him… he was my dad. And I loved him. And I will miss him until I leave this earth to be reunited with him again. I am so sorry for your loss 💔 please know he loved you. Addiction is strong and often those of us that have addicts as parents grow up thinking they choose the drugs over us but at some point- they don’t have a choice. It IS a disease. I thought I had so much more time with him. I hate that I said he WAS a good man and dad before the drugs- because he was still a good person deep down. I guess I should say he was the BEST before addiction took over. My dad loved me unconditionally though and was a very compassionate man with a huge heart. Very in touch with him emotions. I know I got that from him. Okay now I’m just ranting… I guess I just miss him.
@Globelle
@Globelle 6 ай бұрын
Beautiful testament to your amazing dad. You are wise beyond your years and I am so touched by what you wrote. Congratulations on your and your brother's sobriety. Keep fighting!!! God loves us all even in our weaknesses. I don't understand the people who leave nasty comments. Maybe they are bitter and I pray that God teaches everyone compassion like you have for ourselves and our neighbors. May your dad Rest in Peace. ❤
@Kbrown2018
@Kbrown2018 Жыл бұрын
Sorry you never really got to experience him before drug addiction. I’m Praying his wife is still successful in her recovery 🤲🏿
@ItalianAngel21175
@ItalianAngel21175 Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry sweetheart. Please remember nothing you could have done would have helped him. In life we have to fight our own demons, our own battles. You grew up watching and seeing things you should have never seen, yet you chose to take that pain and turn it in to something positive. You had both parents as addicts and you came out stronger and braver than ever! Knowing the lying and steeling and being sneaky was not your father, that was the drugs shows you are seeing things very clearly. Although hard to do, we need to get through the regrets and guilts. I don't believe he'd want you to feel that way. What I do believe is he wants you to love your babies with everything you got give them the love he didn't have. That's how and what you can do for him. Stay strong, keep your head up. He may have not done a lot of right things in his life but he made you and you were the one thing he did do right, you remember that! 🙏💖🌹
@SUPERSPAZD
@SUPERSPAZD Жыл бұрын
So beautifully written, and I wholeheartedly agree.💗
@ItalianAngel21175
@ItalianAngel21175 Жыл бұрын
@@SUPERSPAZD 🙏😊💖🌹 Thank you!
@isabelltecaxco-yd3lw
@isabelltecaxco-yd3lw Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss of your precious dad, I'm 62 and I've seen a lot of death in my family. My dad died when I was 11 and I thought he would come back to the house after he had kidney failure but he never came back. Then mom died when I was 23 and I thought I would die from the pain in my heart. Nothing you did was or anyone could have done to save your dad. I've struggled with addiction most of my life, I never had children cause I couldn't bear the fact of leaving someone behind with so much pain. You will process your dads death when you are ready and I pray that you can move forward in your life with your babies. Our parents do what they can and sometimes it just doesn't make sense. Life is hard and you have to keep going for your kids. Your dad is out of pain and I remember when I would lose my loved ones people would tell me how strong I was but I wasn't. I knew they weren't suffering anymore but my pain is just starting. May God wrap his arms around you young lady and comfort you during this difficult time.
@stacya4713
@stacya4713 Жыл бұрын
Your Father loved you with all his heart. He was sick, and hurt…. His pain was immensely deep… He had no choice but to numb his pain. You have your dads caring and loving heart 💜
@vtobias2
@vtobias2 Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry that drugs robbed this beautiful girl of her father. You love the addict but hate the drugs. I have no doubt that he loved his children more than anything.
@mrs.robinson76
@mrs.robinson76 Жыл бұрын
So sorry mamita may he resr easy and may u find peace as a former addict myself I seen the pain in my own families eyes and for them I have been clean 9 months now and counting God is good.
@TexasPictures
@TexasPictures Жыл бұрын
We also have a series of recovery stories you might find interesting. kzfaq.info/sun/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj
@kimdouglas8598
@kimdouglas8598 Жыл бұрын
Watching your video is like watching everything that my daughter went through with her father. My daughter's father was a drug addict his entire life and always chose drugs over her. When he died and I told her about it, she told me that she was sorry to hear that with no emotion. She refused to go to his funeral because he chose drugs over her. My daughter is 24 now and he died four years ago. Process it as long as you need to hun because you need to understand that this was not your choice and that you did everything you could as a daughter. Just take care of those sweet precious gifts from God that you have❤
@showboat4613
@showboat4613 Жыл бұрын
My condolences 💐 to this beautiful woman on losing her father 🧡🧡🧡
@bipolarmomandnowwhat
@bipolarmomandnowwhat Жыл бұрын
Thanks for this it hits different since it’s #fathersday
@pam164
@pam164 Жыл бұрын
What a shame, he lost so much through drugs.
@jenniferthompson6280
@jenniferthompson6280 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for having compassion for him instead of hate, my lil brother is a sever alcoholic and drug addict, we learned that he was repeadtly raped as a young boy by a neighbor growing up..my family was always so angry with him for his addiction but, not me..i felt for the little boy that was traumatized and took to substances to dull the pain, once it over took him , it was stronger than he was..we should show mercy to addicts bc we never know what is behind it, and we never know how we would handle the same situation..im sure your father loved you dearly, this was bigger than he was able to overcome.
@kechiahignight565
@kechiahignight565 19 күн бұрын
This was a beautiful comment. Thank you for helping her with your kind heart.
@Heidi-zr5wb
@Heidi-zr5wb Жыл бұрын
The kids are the ones who suffer the most.....adult and young
@BCEBilbo
@BCEBilbo Жыл бұрын
I’m glad she was pretty honest about her fathers addiction/situation, instead of trying to pawn it off on marijuana or “anxiety”
@wavy5624
@wavy5624 Жыл бұрын
What do you mean marijuana genuine question how is that an excuse
@jennifervidal37
@jennifervidal37 Жыл бұрын
@@wavy5624 so many of these videos the parents say there kid was a “good kid” “only smoked a little marijuana” which I’m sure is the case for some but
@wavy5624
@wavy5624 Жыл бұрын
@@jennifervidal37 yeah weed doesent make you do harder drugs if anything it makes u content which is the opposite still sad for the victims ofc
@shellysbrewing
@shellysbrewing Жыл бұрын
Hello love, i was addicted to heroin and blues, morphine, dilaudud, and oxycodone for 15 years. I started out on smoking weed then snorting coke then pills then shooting heroin. I am now in recovery for 2.5 years, firstly, i came from a home with 2 parents of middle class and we lived comfortably. So i really believe its the people you hang out with but more importantly its your genetic makeup, if you have addicts in your family then your more prone to being an addict. I truly believe its a disease like diabetes, if your parents and grandparents are alcoholics then youre gonna be an alcoholic, if you become a drinker. My grandfather was a huge pill popper, and i believe thats where i got my pill addiction. My dad is an alcoholic and my brother is an alcoholic. You my dear did nothing wrong, your daddy had alot of battles he was trying to fight, and trust me he was trying so hard for you and he meant every word he said to you. When he left for that little while, he wasnt trying to escape from you love, i guarantee you he was trying to detox, and let me tell you detoxing from opiates depending on how long youve been using and with what like meth, coke oh and benzos? Thats even worse because benzos have their own line of detox withdrawals symptoms, and all of that literally can take up to a full year to get completely out of your system!!!! Not even joking you sweetcakes!! From the sounds of it your daddy sounded like a man that really wanted to make his family proud, and i promise you dear he loved you with his full heart and thought about you every single day! I bet you he is watching over you now and will protect you and your siblings untill you are all together eternally again in paradise ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@calvinsmyth
@calvinsmyth Жыл бұрын
150 people will die today across America due to Fentanyl overdose or poisoning. This has become the number one killer for the young and middle-aged group. What has happened to our government that they can focus loads of effort and $ to fund another country's poltical war overseas, but they won't/can't make a dent in the drug war that wages outside every door in our own country and is affecting virtually every American family in some manner?
@ilovegoodsax
@ilovegoodsax Жыл бұрын
I would challenge your declaration about fentanyl poisoning being the number one killer of young people and middle-age adults but okay, you're entitled to your own opinion. The "drug war" is nothing new, and has been raging for decades. There are no easy answers. Mental illness needs to be destigmitize and mental health/substance abuse services should be readily available to all here in the U.S. Be mindful of the politicians you vote in to office -- from the local to federal level. Then there's also the issue of individuals taking personal responsibility for themselves and their actions, but that's another story for a different time.
@rockstarofredondo
@rockstarofredondo Жыл бұрын
Because it’s not “our” government.
@Adriana-ti5er
@Adriana-ti5er Жыл бұрын
Quieran mucho a sus hijos, diganles cuanto los quieren, diganles que son sus hijos muy amados, hay una enorme diferencia entre un adulto que fue amado en su niñez a otro adulto que fue rechazado en su niñez...
@henrickrw
@henrickrw Жыл бұрын
Totalmente de acuerdo
@SUPERSPAZD
@SUPERSPAZD Жыл бұрын
THIS. 🙌🏽💗🙌🏽
@zwan1820
@zwan1820 Жыл бұрын
Muy cierto 😢
@carolinamaldonado3116
@carolinamaldonado3116 Жыл бұрын
Sabias palabras 😌saludos y fortaleza a todos los q han perdido un ser querido.
@MelancholyRequiem
@MelancholyRequiem Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for being such a fantastic role model for your sisters in handling this tragedy with such grace, understanding, compassion, and strength. Much love and many prayers sent everyone's way ❤🙏
@Sandra-ww6oz
@Sandra-ww6oz Жыл бұрын
Dear, you are brave, strong and intelligent- as well as a truly loving daughter. Thankyou for sharing your story. Regardless, you could not have done more - you were there for your Dad and he knew it he had just grown tired and maybe felt helpless. He watches over you know pure of heart and spirit with the love and that amazing smile we were privileged to witness in your home movies the smile he reserved just for you. God bless you, love and prayers from Sydney Australia 🇦🇺 ❤ 🇺🇸
@reneerenee5073
@reneerenee5073 Жыл бұрын
Poor baby girl ❤.. She seems like a sweetheart who doesn’t deserve such heartbreak.
@GregLopez75
@GregLopez75 Жыл бұрын
You are very brave for sharing your dad's life. I wish you all the best. May your father rest in peace.
@mahoganylove5757
@mahoganylove5757 Жыл бұрын
Man this breaks me up....the hurt in her whole face is so sad. It's vital that we all understand we can't control others especially what they have been through in their early childhood....please know your dad loved you and at least tried. When sober he thought of nothing but you, the family. That says a lot. Baby girl is in my prayers. He is still with you...he is right there....in his perfect mind heart and body. No addictions. ❤😢💯
@JA-rs3os
@JA-rs3os Жыл бұрын
Never give up. Addiction rewires the brain and you have to keep trying to first break that and then rework it. It's a long hard process that takes time and work.
@dianarendon5845
@dianarendon5845 Жыл бұрын
I’m deeply sorry for your loss my friend. I’m sure your dad is now your guardian angel and watching over you and protecting you and your children from falling into addiction and make the same deadly mistakes he did. My ❤goes out to you.
@zenawarrior7442
@zenawarrior7442 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story and so sorry for your loss😑💔
@sandyrodriguez2803
@sandyrodriguez2803 Жыл бұрын
Hearing the daughter speak out about her lifetime dealings with her addict father was definitely eye opening. I can only imagine the pain, guilt, disappointment and anger she experienced for nearly THREE decades. It was also interesting to hear how she eloquently described her father as having good heart, but also as a man who was mentally ill as well. Makes sense to me.
@Ahardee
@Ahardee Жыл бұрын
I'm a recovering addict and I know my use ruined my relationship with my daughter. I love her more than anything else, and I'm sure your dad felt the same way about you. Drugs unfortunately make you not care about anyone or anything but the drugs when you're in active addiction. Prayers 🙏
@timmitzlaff8960
@timmitzlaff8960 Жыл бұрын
You’ve had a lot on your plate to deal with my friend. That video of you and your Dad when he would take his hand away and you would move it back was a beautiful thing. I could see how much he adored you. It’s really too bad the disease of addiction robs away so many beautiful moments. You will be in my prayers and I hope talking about your experiences will help you heal.
@stephanieball4450
@stephanieball4450 8 ай бұрын
One of the pictures you showed of him holding you around 3 years old, shows how much he loved you! It was written all over his face! God bless you 😊
@GmarineIraqVet
@GmarineIraqVet Жыл бұрын
He lives on through a beautiful strong woman that is his daughter.
@seekingserenity1902
@seekingserenity1902 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for your story. Prayers for you and your family.
@nightshy
@nightshy Жыл бұрын
Omg I’m so sorry for you. I just recently lost my mom in May due to fentanyl. Me and my grandpa was the one that found her💔 I still can’t unsee how I found her, I wish and hope one day I have the courage to speak about what happened and bring awareness. Everything you said, almost the exact same thing. My mom had so much plans for us and my daughter. She wanted to take my daughter to so many places but never got the chance bc her addiction. I miss her so much and I’m so sorry. It hurts so much🥺
@toosakraan
@toosakraan 11 ай бұрын
So sad, her depth and understanding is so beautiful and I can relate.
@rhondajohnson8310
@rhondajohnson8310 Жыл бұрын
These are all so sad but to see how it addiction, mental health affects generations of a family is just heartbreaking. My heart goes out to her and her family.
@principecaprincipeca2243
@principecaprincipeca2243 Жыл бұрын
His daughter is so sweet, gentle, kind and understanding. She has a big ❤️ Same time she is down on earth, not playing it down how hard it had been on het. Wishing you all good. I hope life will gives you pearls.
@roxananunez4238
@roxananunez4238 Жыл бұрын
So sorry for your loss 😞😪🙏may he rest in peace
@milena7043
@milena7043 Жыл бұрын
Oh no baby girl, there's nothing you could've done. Unfortunately drug addiction is a sickness that if the person doesn't want to get help, or admit to having a problem, there's nothing you could do. God bless you.
@jamiejohnson3886
@jamiejohnson3886 Жыл бұрын
Any parent struggling with addiction should listen to this young lady. The pain of addiction always lies within your children. Addiction is always a selfish choice. Please do not leave your children with this pain. Know young lady that his addiction had nothing to do with you or your other 6 siblings. It was his choice, his addiction. Drugs are never the answer. This though is how you leave your children, broken. And she casually says "he gets his buzz going".....how sad for her, so selfish of him 😢. "he felt the family did not care about him".....did he care about them, no. Again addiction starts with a person seeking an escape. Don't father 7 children if you want to escape. Your children do not get an😢 escape. I pray this girl understands none of this is her fault. I understand he had a hard life.....so do not father 7 children you pass your pain to your children & this is his fault. We all have pain in our past......all of us. You can either make it better......or you can get high and escape. Your children do not have the option of escape. You always leave them thinking it's their fault. The fault though is solely yours. 😢😢 Again grow up, your life is not just yours when you have children ....it is shared with your children. You can always help yourself....if you want to. This is what happens to your children if you don't. I can't say I hope he rests in peace....he should forever feel what his addiction did to them as they will never be at peace.
@sharonmcfaul2956
@sharonmcfaul2956 Жыл бұрын
My sincere condolences to the loss of your father! May he RIP🙏
@sunriseschubert4391
@sunriseschubert4391 Жыл бұрын
I lost my beloved mother unexpectedly on October 2022, and is heartbreaking 💔. Only God is sustaining me at this point. Because life has lost meaning to me already. I'm just taking it day by day, and holding on to Jesus Christ. That's all I have left. 🙏🏻✝️🕊️
@lola.lola11.11
@lola.lola11.11 Жыл бұрын
You could not have done more, it was not your fault nor your responsibility.
@EvyG
@EvyG Жыл бұрын
Thanks for opening up and sharing your story . Don’t feel guilty at all . An addict must want to change 1st , it’s not your fault . Now you have all the memories like you said when you went to prison to go visit him with your son keep your head up. Take care I’m so sorry for your loss.
@Whippy99
@Whippy99 Жыл бұрын
You have absolutely nothing to reproach yourself about. Nothing was your fault. I hope you find peace. ❤
@MsTravelsoul
@MsTravelsoul Жыл бұрын
I definitely understand what you’re going through and how you feel. I was the same age as you when my dad died from his addiction. He also used to self medicate and like you, I always knew it would be how he died. When I got the phone call it was shocking but not surprising. I’d like to tell you it gets easier but I’d be lying. It never gets easier, it just gets different. Peace to you and your family.
@jamesconfrey9117
@jamesconfrey9117 Жыл бұрын
Your dad was a good dad, you can see he was great, it is the drugs that is terrible. the drugs takes over the mind. I really feel sorry for you, and your kids. Thank you for sharing your this,hope it helps others.
@isadorawest4379
@isadorawest4379 Жыл бұрын
I miss dad so much sis i love you Clarissa
@anniejones2651
@anniejones2651 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your dad's story. You told it with great love for him. You are an amazing person. Continue to be strong. I pray that this story save a life and change lives. Be blessed.
@albertlopez5017
@albertlopez5017 Жыл бұрын
It’s not or was ever your fault . He had a addiction only him would of wanted to stop . You are a amazing person keep being strong for you him and your family GOD BLESS YOU ALL
@anthia1156
@anthia1156 Жыл бұрын
You are a very kind and sweet daughter and I bet you are a good mother too. Please do not blame yourself; compassion is given up to the point we don't end up harming ourselves and living close to an addict can be devastating. You did what you could but you were the child and he was the father, the ultimate responsibility of how this relationship was shaped lies with him.
@MentalWellnessWithWaihiga
@MentalWellnessWithWaihiga Жыл бұрын
I have 6 years sober. It's rough. I'm so sorry he suffered for so many years. I know that he loved you. He loved his family deeply he was just deeply ashamed and embarrassed. We are truly ashamed when we are using. But addiction is powerful, cunning and buffing. But please trust me, he loved you. He just couldn't over come the addiction alone. Please don't blame yourself and please find healing in Alanon meetings.
@Pitukka
@Pitukka Жыл бұрын
I can identify so much with this story sadly my father passed away almost 2 years ago this coming November due to his heroin being laced with fentanyl my father struggled with drug addiction all his life and his upbringing wasn’t the greatest either my worst regret was not being on good terms with him before he died and it kills me every day and I will never forgive myself for not being more understanding with his illness 😭😭
@jenniferlosoya9742
@jenniferlosoya9742 Жыл бұрын
Very similar to my dad as well. He passed two years ago in February. He was an opiate addict and likely had gotten pills that were laced. I miss him so much. I’m so sorry for your loss.
@natalienelson8681
@natalienelson8681 Жыл бұрын
You did nothing wrong. Unless you’ve been a severe addict, you can’t know that there’s not much you can do but pray.
@patriciamoore6922
@patriciamoore6922 Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss it’s so sad that this poison is taking so many lives idk you but I can hear and see your pain you strong keep your head up beautiful young lady
@kalalooney5964
@kalalooney5964 Жыл бұрын
I'm very sorry for your loss. Addiction is such a dark, ugly disease . Praying for healing and comfort as you and your loved ones navigate the grieving process.
@lola.lola11.11
@lola.lola11.11 Жыл бұрын
Very strong lady, my love to you, all the way from 🇧🇷
@rebecca_jusrebecca
@rebecca_jusrebecca Ай бұрын
So much for being vulnerable and sharing it is so good to hear from the child’s perspective. It’s amazing really because you never really do hear this side. Thank you for sharing.
@DavidJones-ib3zy
@DavidJones-ib3zy Жыл бұрын
Yr a special and strong lady & your compassion makes you even better. I'm 51 and been addicted for 30+ years & still there are many times I Just Want To Give Up . But ! I won't RIP To yr Dad , It's a hard life.
@jenniferhalf1650
@jenniferhalf1650 Жыл бұрын
Beautiful woman. Inside and out. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad at 13 due to drugs. I know how painful it is!!
@rosearellanes5648
@rosearellanes5648 Жыл бұрын
Sending this young lady hugs and prayers. So sorry for the loss of your father
@cindybrady2501
@cindybrady2501 7 ай бұрын
Your insight gives me a window on what my daughter must have gone through with her father - it gives me more understanding of her relationship or lack thereof with him , and the confusing emotions that come along with dealing with the addict and the confusing emotional rollercoaster that comes with dealing with an addict ......thank you
@QunDeev08
@QunDeev08 Жыл бұрын
…sometimes people just don’t realize the AFTERMATH or the effects of verbal and emotional abuse!!! it’s not just a fist or a slap but if his father was DEGRADING HIM and CONSISTENTLY! then he just didn’t have a fighting chance! 😔😔😞😞his self-esteem was already NIL! self medicating bec. u just dont know WHAT TO DO! always leads to this without some imminent intervention! I AM SO SORRY!!!! for their family’s loss!!! can’t imagine living with the PAIN that this young soul carried around like a shadow for too many years! God have mercy on his soul! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 for the fam! 💙
@nadyakotik6927
@nadyakotik6927 8 ай бұрын
You are changing the generational cycle as you are a going to be able to parent with love and grace.
@isadorawest4379
@isadorawest4379 Жыл бұрын
I was in his life he was a great father it wasn’t all just drug use he wasn’t just a druggie he was a father n a grandfather
@ElaineBennettEmbraceYou
@ElaineBennettEmbraceYou 3 ай бұрын
I think you are a very wise and compassionate young woman. What you went through was not easy but it seems you are learning from your father's experience while helping others at the same time. Sending prayers to you and your family 🙏🙏🙏
@dovewhite7472
@dovewhite7472 Жыл бұрын
I'm sorry for the loss of your father. My ❤ goes out to you. Jesus ❤you
@robinsimmons1526
@robinsimmons1526 Жыл бұрын
Praying for your family
@mitcheleneking7390
@mitcheleneking7390 Жыл бұрын
What a touching story 😢. Sorry for your loss
@johnosgraveyardjaunts2235
@johnosgraveyardjaunts2235 Жыл бұрын
So sorry for your loss x 😊stay strong beautiful.God Bless u x
@cindystewart6516
@cindystewart6516 Жыл бұрын
What an eye opening perception! I hope you an your sisters are clean. I wonder what he would say if one of your sisters became an addict? I'm sotty for your loss! That being said an addict is always in pain and now he's peace in the palm of God.
@janeporter818
@janeporter818 Жыл бұрын
So sad. Sorry for your loss 😢
@moniquegarcia1011
@moniquegarcia1011 Жыл бұрын
Ur speaking for so many children be proud I'm an ex heroin addict I lost custody of my oldest but my youngest 3 are saving my life. May you be in peace and you'll see your Dad in Heaven.
@StaceyBeryl
@StaceyBeryl Жыл бұрын
My heart breaks for you. I prayed that you feel God's comfort and peace. Just know in your heart that none of us are powerful enough to change someone else's behavior. Addiction is a horrible thing for all involved. It doesn't stop the addicts' love for us, they are just overpowered by a horrible thing. We lost our 28-year-old son in 2013 and I look forward to the reunion we will have in heaven some day.
@maureenbryan3465
@maureenbryan3465 Жыл бұрын
What is wrong with people doing this stuff when you have family that relies on you and do drugs ,disgusting behaviour for the two people that supposed to be role models,why have children and put them through this crap
@nora_nayeli
@nora_nayeli Жыл бұрын
Grief is very difficult but forgiving yourself is the hardest part of the grief process because you always think of the what if’s. You did everything you could do to be there for your father. Even though he was in and out of your life you seemed to be there as best that you could. You are a mother with children and as a mom there is just so much you could do because you also have to provide care for your kids and I’m sure your father understood that. I’m sure he knew that you guys loved him even though the drugs and past trauma made him feel not loved. Be gentle with yourself because you did what you could to be there for him.
@williamyoung5038
@williamyoung5038 Жыл бұрын
God bless you,I know much I loved my father who died of cancer and my grief was unbearable for a while.But as time marches on your grief will turn to fond memories of your father!
@denisesalles7248
@denisesalles7248 Жыл бұрын
I know it's hard to believe, but it's not that you're not enough to make them stop - it's that the demon of addiction is bigger than everything. I'm sorry you lost your dad in childhood and now to death as an adult.
@jenniferlosoya9742
@jenniferlosoya9742 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for understanding how it really is for addicts- we never wanted to be addicts and we never “chose” the drugs over anyone- at least after addiction gripped us. It has so much power and I think a lot of people either don’t know or don’t think that most are doing drugs to escape and the majority of the time it’s to escape trauma in their life. They’re hurting…
@Leosmommy19
@Leosmommy19 3 ай бұрын
I understand the anger and frustration of the loved ones dealing with an addict. Especially when parents choose drugs over their kids and family members have to pick up the pieces, but they still had no right down talking her father right in front of her. 😢
@carmineselvaggi6463
@carmineselvaggi6463 Жыл бұрын
RIP 🙏🏻❤️
@tyrellwilliams2914
@tyrellwilliams2914 Жыл бұрын
In Prayers 🙏 Condolences ❤️❤️ to a Very Loving Family and daughter. Of a innocent and Loving Father ❤️❤️❤️ And his entire life ahead of him . Sorry for your Loss. Rest in Paradise.
@myreasonforlife.9511
@myreasonforlife.9511 Жыл бұрын
What a Beauty she is, sorry love. Sadly death is forever and silence is powerful. Hugs 🌺🌼
@mandamorris7934
@mandamorris7934 Жыл бұрын
Im so sorry sweet girl. I will pray for your family. I will pray for your mother... that she find peace... I will pray for you, that your journey is one of understanding and clarity. Blessings.
@LSTAR06
@LSTAR06 Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through now. You seem really smart and self aware of the situation you find yourself in. You didn't ask for this and you did what you could. Addiction is the real monster, not your dad. I hope that you will find peace one day.
@garrisonmanne6410
@garrisonmanne6410 Жыл бұрын
You were MORE than enough. The disease of addiction is so incredibly painful and constant that love has no effect on the evilness of this disease. Again, you are and will always be more than enough. Unfortunately, it just doesn't work that way. Godbless.
@diana7676
@diana7676 Жыл бұрын
Very sweet woman , it’s sad that she has to deal with her whole life . I hope your generation is better for your kids which I know it will.
@jackiethibodeaux3696
@jackiethibodeaux3696 Жыл бұрын
Rest In Peace Julio 🙏🏼🙏🏼 Blessings for The Family to get this painful process of losing a Family member. God Bless The Family 🙏🏼🙏🏼🫶🏼
@user-zq3gf4pf8l
@user-zq3gf4pf8l 10 ай бұрын
I was reading a breaking story about the death of Kobe Bryant when my phone rang. My uncle told me my mother overdosed. I asked what hospital she was at and he responded "she's dead." My world changed and I will never be the same. My heart breaks for her and this drug takes to many parents from thier children.
@TexasPictures
@TexasPictures 10 ай бұрын
very sorry for your loss.
@QueenieBee99
@QueenieBee99 Жыл бұрын
Your father loved you sweetie unfortunately there are people we cannot save no matter how much we love them and try. I have this also in my family - Don't feel guilty. He knew that you loved him and one day you will see him again. Now he is in peace and no longer suffering! Take care of you
@d4mskippy746
@d4mskippy746 Жыл бұрын
❤thank you for sharing your story with us❤ my God bless you and comfort you.
@mariaconsepciongudino9608
@mariaconsepciongudino9608 Жыл бұрын
So sorry for your loss. You seem like a strong woman. Please don't blame yourself for HIS actions and mistakes. You were a baby, you grew up knowing he had an addiction, you were a child and couldn't help him. You did the right thing by staying away from him with your children. Kepping them safe is your job. He made a choice and unfortunately, he made the wrong one. Dont feel guilty. Be strong. I wish you the best and hope you are able to get some counseling. You seem like a bright gal. ❤🙏🏽🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
@cupcakesimbamoyo
@cupcakesimbamoyo Жыл бұрын
It’s hard to see our Dads suffer … specially when you love them so much . Although my Dad suffered addiction and eventually committed suicide . I have never and will never feel another pure love like my Dads it’s something every girl deserves . Hold on to the the pure love he had for you I can assure you you were his greatest joy and achievement
@tcklme712
@tcklme712 Жыл бұрын
Love her story, thank you for sharing!! I'm sorry for your loss :(
@janeceeastwood8035
@janeceeastwood8035 11 ай бұрын
There’s no way that you could have known, and there’s nothing you could have done to make him better, either. Only he could have done that, so please, take it from an old woman, don’t carry any guilt for what happened to your father. It was what he wanted, and his spirit is at peace. It sounds as if you have plenty of compassion; don’t beat yourself up. Over and over, he made his choices, and we all have to live, or die, by our choices. Unfortunately, others do, too, as in your case. Live well. Enjoy your life.
@sylviamoreno687
@sylviamoreno687 Жыл бұрын
Prayers for you and your dad. Hold your head high and keep getting stronger. No regrets ❤
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