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One thing about metal, is that is the voice of a millions of teenagers who aren’t getting the attention they need. Strangely, when I started to listen to heavy metal, my very catholic father started to pay attention to me, because he was worried about my soul (lol). He gave me a book about metal and it’s dangers and it came with a list of bands to avoid 😀. Greatest list ever!!! Great bands!

That lyric “listen damnit, we will win” alone is what I love about this track. So simple yet so empowering!

I didn’t know your story, and for what it’s worth from a complete stranger, I’m glad you chose to pursue happiness in life instead of just ending it. You seem like a really cool and self aware person. Enjoyed the video.

I am a survivor and Ironically getting in to Motorcycles has helped me find some happiness. People think I am strange (You could get killed) but I ride easy and free and it brings me a small measure of peace. Everyday above ground is a good day. (Unless your an earthworm! :D )

The earliest memory I have of being depressed was in kindergarten on the playground. I was swinging and all of a sudden I stopped and just felt this sadness come over me, I felt so alone, and no one would miss me if I was gone. That feeling still visits me. I taught myself how to recognize the precursors and prepare myself for that low. Normal childhood, no traumas, loving family, loving wife and kids, awesome friends...I have no idea what brings on this grey. Thanks for sharing your journey.

I grew up on bands like Metallica. Back in the 70's and 80's this kind of music was viewed as "satanic". This is the stupidity of people. The messages from many of these kinds of bands were actually quite introspective and sometimes positive.

With your dad being a Vietnam vet, you should DEFINITELY take a listen to "Disposable Heroes." Same album as this one. This whole album is just...amazing. Every song hits a different chord, and it hits the chords hard.

Spontaneous air-drums, air-guitars, and headbanging are an unavoidable part of the experience. No need to say "I'm not a drummer". I was first introduced to metal by a kid in earphones headbanging next to me on the school bus some 25 years ago. I tapped him on the shoulder and said "I would really love to know what the fuck your listing to that would cause you to move your head like that...". Dude said nothing, just gave me an earphone, and after a couple of minutes listening to Iron Maiden, I was hooked. That said, rock on, my girl...

I am not a huge Metallica fan but "Dyers Eve" is a song I love that would fit perfectly on your channel, there is a bunch to bring up regarding mental health in that song

As an Iraqi/Afghan veteran I thank you. I have battled my demons since I was a child. The first time I attempted suicide I was six and attempted it numerous times during my youth. Songs like this is what got me through those dark and depressing days. Since I have used my demons to help me survive the madness we call life. It was only through combat that I realized my reason for failing so many times. I wasn't meant to end my life, I was meant to save the lives of others. Now my body is destroyed, I can barely walk and rarely ever leave my home but I'm a warrior, I can't seek my own end, I have to wait until my tour of duty is over and someone else sends me to the afterlife. Thank you so much for sharing your life with the rest of us. Stay strong. Also never forget that those of us that know we're crazy are the only ones who are truly sane.

Nothing like being on the floor, in the pit at a Metallica show. You're so wiped at the end but had the greatest time!

"Make sure, you're not surrounded by a..holes!" I definitely agree. That thing can cause so many problems we actually wouldn't have.

Just listen to the moment when James sings "Sanitarium". The guitar and drums transport so much anger. As a kid, finding this music was ... special. Today, you have people in the charts singing about their mental health issues. Billie Eillish and ... well tbh i have no idea whats in the charts these days. But it's more common. When i grew up it was hair metal, singing about girls, euro dance singing about nonsense, punk singing about beer and corruption and the parents music which was either Beatles love songs or Paul Simon at best who was singing about some sad stuff. But it was just that, sad. And then, at least for me, two things happened, one was Metallica and a while later, Nirvana. That changed everything, music that was about how i felt, that was sad but also angry and loud and fuck all. This was so important. I wouldn't have made it through puberty without them.

Metal is great therapy !

I hope you go next on “the unforgiven” trilogy, it’s about a person and how society effects is life.

God bless you!!!!! Metallica's music saved my life when I was a teenager in the 90s. Never give up . ALWAYS BELIEVE!!!!!!!❤

I have probably listened to this song thousands of times since it was released in 1986. Always thought it was linked to the song Master of Puppets in a way, where that is from the perspective of the drug and this from the user. But your view opened a bit of a new perspective. Will probably have to give it a couple more listens now.

The energy in Metallica songs especially the first 4 albums are what I like to listen to when I get the time to work out

"Fear of living on!" Those words and that melody...I dunno, something about it hits hard ever since I was a kid. Keep up the great content!

Ok Amanda, I literally just skipped this song whilst playing the whole Master of Puppets album for fun just literally minutes ago! I watched your 'Tout Le Monde' video a couple of days ago and here you are now on my recommendations page! I now am now a subscriber to your page. The "tout" vid brought tears to my eyes. You're amazing!!! Never stop doing what your doing for mental heath. People like you are champions of society. Thank you

Mental illness, PTSD, depression,, all are very real to the person liveing life with that reality!👍 But there are sometimes things in life can help focus the mind around the reality,,, and this song does try to address that👍

You're not crazy, you're actuality incredibly intelligent and gifted! Don't ever let others bring you down! I suffer from depression, agoraphobia, social anxiety, panic disorder, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder, so I can kinda relate to what you're going through. Sometimes we just gotta get rid of the toxic people and influences in our lives and do our best to carry on and make a better place for ourselves. Stay strong and have faith, you're not in this struggle alone Amanda! 🙏

Metal can be so therapeutic. My brother used Metallica, Slayer, etc to get through his long hospital stay from a kidney transplant. A dark time, looking at a much shorter life span...I can't imagind

Damn. I love that! You simply said "I WILL be art of this movement. I WILL help people." And no matter what, you meant every word. Im on a similar mission, with my fellow veterans and mental health. You motivate the hell out of me! Keep up the good work

Yes, you can be depressed and anxious about your depression and anxiety. Once you accept it, the healing can start but people will still judge you. This song is on the album Master of Puppets. The song Master of Puppets is about drug addiction and the song Disposable Heros is about war. They are all on the same album. It is often considered the greatest metal album of all time.

Metallica was the motivation though my youth and keeps me going today, 35 years later!

Love this song and truly a great reaction, Amanda. Greetings from Denmark. We are all deadline with our shadows to some degree, with different weight throughout life. Be safe and healthy.🤘😎🥂

This song is inspired from the movie One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, if you haven't seen it I can recommend it :)

Hey girl. Thank you for all the positivity you spread on your channel. I'm still struggling with it but one week ago at 3:00 in the morning I got up during the night to use the restroom and i walked in there and my twelve year old had taken her life. There's a song she actually loved and it was playing very lowely in the bathroom where i found her. I hope you read this story and check out the music video for "never too late" by three days grace. No one else will do it for me.

Glad you got through your struggles. Mental health is NO JOKE!!!!! I haven't experienced it personally, but I've known people who've struggled. You're a BRAVE PERSON to react to these songs on such a personal level -- keep up the good fight 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👌👌👌👌👌👌👌👌👌

i just recently come across your videos and I suffer from Agoraphobia and depression and ptsd and have been struggling really bad the past few days due to a 10 plus year relationship ending just before the holidays. Your insight and you talking about the struggles you have dealt with have been a life saver for me these past few days. It's nice to know there is someone else out there in this world that has the same struggles that I deal with every single day. Your positivity is uplifting and I feel very blessed to have found your channel. Thank you for making these reaction videos and talking about these things please continue and keep up the great work. You are my new hero.

When a "mental health professional" tells you, "You can't [be happy], cos you're too sick"... is that them discouraging you and trying to keep you defeated and down? Or... are they possibly telling you something they hope will motivate you? Is it BAD psychology, or REVERSE psychology?

I remember when I had depression a few years ago I was also diagnosed with Autism, this was important to understand why I was in that situation, but this wasn't the only thing around why I was depressed, it always happened that there are many things that I can't do well because of pshysical things and always been nagged by everyone especially my father because of his way of being. All of this affected me so much that it came a point that I was especially low, I was enclosed to my own world, I was talking less than I usually do - not too much I'd say -, I haven't talked to anyone about my situation, I was stressed out and crying most of the day(s), I (I still can't do it as well as I'd like to) didn't look to anyone's eyes when they were talking to me, I didn't eat as well and many other things that I was passing through that time when finally I tried to take my life... this is when my (ex)girlfriend came to save the day: she was suspecting about that something wrong was happening with me but she couldn't know what because I didn't talk - I still don't do it that much, I'd rather to stay silent and alone too - but when she found out what I was trying to do she did as much as she could do to help me out, now I'm thankful with her to have helped me out a lot. Now I am a lot better and also I understand why I am the way I am and try to get better. I know it's been a little bit long but I needed to tell it. Thanks for sharing with us your experiences, Amanda and keep going on with these videos that I would say they're gonna help a lot of people

I appreciate that you mentioned veterans and their service and the mental health challenges that we face. I'm a US Navy veteran, I served active duty from July of 1994 to March of 2000. I was in Special Warfare and saw A LOT of combat and had some very traumatic experiences. I believe my military experience was the main reason for my mental health struggles years after I was out. I have been diagnosed with combat related PTSD and thankfully I had great support and services through the VA here in Michigan, but I know that's sadly not always true for every veteran. Just to give a glimpse of what I saw and did is it ok with you and or the other subscribers if I were to tell of a particular incident that I believe broke me mentally and emotionally in the moment and also lead to consequences 12 years later? It is somewhat gruesome to be honest and some people might question why I would want to relay traumatic tales from combat in the comments section of a KZfaq channel to nameless and faceless strangers, but many of my experiences I have only told to a therapist and my older brother who was also a combat veteran. I've never even told my wife any details because I'm afraid she would never look at me the same again. I think it's a cathartic therapy perhaps, IDK but something is telling me maybe it would help. Please give me feedback

Your story of overcoming your depression is Proof positive that perseverance gets you desired results. Always keep on Keepin on. \m/

One of my really good childhood friends and I would listen to this song as we drove around and hung out. He sadly passed away when a pack of coyotes got him when his car ran out of gas and had to walk. It hurts to listen to so I am going through this emotional roller coster with you on this one.

I am so loving you reacting to this song, another Metallica I think is relevant is Broken, Beat, and Scarred.

As a TBI victim, mental health’s a huge deal for me. I totally understand what you’ve been saying in your videos and support you 100%, Amanda. Keep kicking ass in life! 🙏🏻💪🏻🤘🏻

I love how honest you are about your struggles with mental health,if more people were like you this world would be a better place.💖💖💖

Mental health. This band and those words go hand in hand. You would really enjoy some of the lyrical content on the load and reload albums. But I would say, since you noticed the helmet and dog tags, and mentioned your father and the plight of our soldiers, your next move should be Disposable Heroes. An 8 minute epic about the evil of war and the scars it leaves on those who have to (and are sometimes forced to) fight in it.

Oh wow. I can't believe a medical professional actually said that to you Amanda. You are right ...if people tell you something about yourself often enough you will start to believe it. The negative tongue has a lot to answer for. You are awesome Amanda...it makes me feel warm...when I see you smile after all you've been through. A testament to positivity and believing in yourself . As far music is concerned...I'm a complete rock and metalhead...and Metallica are one of my favourite bands. Metal certainly pulled me through some dark times when my wife left me ..even though I thought everything was fine. I blamed myself ...confidence at a low ebb...even though it wasn't me who finished our marriage. I'm now divorced ...but all is well .. Keep everything going Amanda. You are a beacon shining love all around. Take care. Peace and love from Liverpool UK 👍✌️🤘❤️

You're truly an inspiration to me. I found your channel by a YT recommendation and you've already helped me through alot lately! :) Thanks dude

I got to the part where, if you didn’t like me or want to be with me… I don’t need you. If you truly care for someone, it shouldn’t matter for anything. Love that person and be there for them. They need you

Another great reaction, loving your insights on all of these songs. If you want more Metallica I would recommend The Unforgiven (the first one - it has sequels!), a song exploring an individual’s struggle against the expectations of others. It has a powerful music video too, though I’d recommend the shorter version as the theatrical video has a lengthy interlude right after the intro.

I think you need to listen to the song 'snuff' by Corey Taylor (the acoustic version). Such a powerful song, and you can hear the amotions through his voice. The song itself is not about something very mentally but after one of his friends died, he sings the song for him.

Just wanted to pop in here and say that I think you are really brave talking about this important matters so openly. You and your "mission" are so important these days. The world needs more Amanda's. I will keep following you and your channels for sure. Take care and keep shining Hugs from Sweden 💖

The music and the lyrics like this one by Metallica help me to get through when I was a teenager, angry and lonely, restless and afraid. It was almost 40 years ago. It's nice to see someone discovering the power of this stuff and how metal are not what "normal" people say. I think James Hetfield helped more people around the world telling his feeling in his own words about pain and grief than any psychiatrist with drugs.

I loved your Metallica’s reaction. I live with a person who has Borderline disorder and I understand how difficult some things can be. You should react to Papa Roach - Last Resort 🧐

Harvest by Opeth is also a great one to react to! It hits home for me personally

I always love how they weave melody together that catches the feeling of emotion. In the tone they use it brings it down to a very personal level. Hard and soft tones then going to an angry fast harsh tone. They web around real human emotions with tone that is second to none

Just subbed Amanda. You're stories are RAW, REAL & GENUINE!!! Happy you're still alive!!

I love how happy and exiting your reactions to the song are.

I never add public comments, but after hearing you speak of your victory over depression and your uplifting advice to others that need to hear such things to give them the keys and tools to help in their fight...after listening to you I felt an inspiration I seldom experience. I wasn't feeling the least bit down before I watched your video but afterwards I felt renewed and my spirit refreshed. You are a great warrior. You're awesome. God bless you.

I never had the song broken down like that, I did not know the story behind the song. I do have mental illness and I have hit the bottom of the barrel two times, where I lost everything and it took my friend and God putting her in the store that day to realize that I am not alone and I needed help finding help. I was so overwhelmed with seeing my life spiral out of control, that I just wanted to end it all and have the problems and myself disappear. I got the help I needed, and got on medication and what really sealed the deal was the business I was currently employed at closed down and I transferred to a different plant in another state and I left the old life and all of the bad people behind and started all over from scratch. Now I am building my life back up, getting my financial issues resolved and am living a much happier life.

I just found you through some other reaction channels starting with your Falling in Reverse and Megadeth videos. Metallica is one of my favorite bands. This song was the first song I performed with my brother when we were learning our respective instruments (me on drums, him on guitar.) They were my gateway into metal music when I was very young and have helped me through a lot of dark times in my life. Your words are very inspirational. I’ve been dealing with a lot of depression and was suicidal a few years ago and hearing some of what you went through and seeing you here in a better place gives me more hope and motivation to get better. I’m glad you’re still with us and making these videos and working to end the mental health stigma. Thank you 💜

I'm glad you're here to share these reactions with us, and that you were able to prove them wrong by finding happiness

Combat veteran here... I have struggled with repetitive nightmares going on 15 years. I'm not a doctor/psychologist but very recently (3 weeks ago) my new psychologist at VA informed of a new treatment discovered accidentally during a an unrelated study that a certain blood pressure drug (clonodine)side-effects was the almost elimination of nightmares in conjunction with Ambien. I take Clonodine 30 minutes prior to Ambien and the results have been nothing short of astonishing. I don't fear sleep, and I'm no longer tormented by nightmares. I'm finally in a place I can consider see a future free of Ambien and nightmares. Again not a doctor, but I'm grateful for this treatment.

Another lovely, heartfelt reaction, thanks again for reacting to Metallica (my fave musical artist) and as always for doing what you do to lessen mental health stigma.

Thank's Amanda I can only hope that when I find my happiness she is as knowledgeable and understanding as you are. All my love keep the good work.

The first 3 albums of Metallica is just wow! They got me into music, first cassette I bought, Ride the lighnting, I was 6 :D

Hey Amanda! I’m just a Metallica fan and have just been playing Metallica videos on KZfaq today and I just ran across this video. I just want to say that I’m glad you are here with us today and I am glad you are in a better place. Mental health is a battle and I have been in that same fight for 25 years now. I’m doing the best I have ever done but I still have a long way to go. No matter what happens just remember that we can’t control the things that happened to us sometimes but we can always control how we react to it. I learned that staying positive and being positive and just being a better person to people helps a lot. When we put out negative energy like arguing with people online about politics or just being rude to people and that’s the energy the universe will give it back. I realize that when I help other people and I do things selflessly that it makes me feel better and no matter what problems come my way I know it might be tough but I will be OK and I will make it. I try to look for the good in every situation even if it’s a bad one. If it’s bad I just look at it as a learning experience and I smile because I know I will come out on the other end OK and life will continue. Again I’m so happy and so glad you are here with us today. I hope you have a good positive people around you because you seem like a good person and just never give up. Great video by the way keep up the great work.

Your brave for being public on your emotions, mad respect for you. Appreciate your ability to come forward on your mental health. Your an inspiration thank you for sharing to help others.

I just found your channel. I love your videos and your message. I am a huge Metallica fan (which is what brought me here) but I plan on watching the rest of your videos now. :) For what it's worth, I am glad you chose the path of healing and perseverance. I care that you exist. You are spreading a great message by sharing your story and touching many people's hearts. Thank you for what you are doing.

Still my favorite song of my favorite band. It was my "theme" song whilst i was in such a place for three months because of depressions, an internet/gaming addiction and a light narcissistic personality (not the real disorder, i was on that path but never crossed that line). Listened to it every day, helped me a lot. :) They know so much nowadays. I was shocked how much they knew about me, without me telling them anything in the beginning. Great docs here in Germany.

You are not alone my friend. This band has helped me through dark times, not to mention Lars got me into drumming when I was 6. Constant battle I live everyday with all of it.

I saw maybe 10 of your clips, but this is the first one you didn`t start to cry. Your smile in this is georgious and addictive, made me smile too. "Sanitarium" finaly gives you good vibes :)

Oooooh snap,the stunning Amanda doing one of my favourite songs that i even suggested on your first reaction. I absolutely love the instrumentals in this song! I think i would have loved this as much as i love Orion by them,if Welcome Home (Sanitarium) was purely instrumental like Orion is too. But the lyrics does add to this song,for sure. 😍🔥💞

So a few years ago when I was suicidal, my (adult) children called the police. They naturally had to bring a canine unit. So as I'm sitting in the cruiser on my way to the hospital, next to a dog that lets out a low growl every so often, this song comes on the radio. I couldn't help but laugh to myself. I think the cop was listening too, cuz he promptly changed the station once he figured out what it was about.

I too am a vet. Thank your dad for he’s service and sacrifice.

Thank you for this vid It was really helpful for me tonight. Stay strong.Im Trying my best.

Great review and thx for sharing !!! 🤟🤟🤟

Wow awesome. My 3rd fave Metallica song. I've listened to this song thousands of times since 86's and gives me great joy in watching someone hearing this for he first time. It's nice when you can just appreciate the music and lyrics. Well done again. Cheers.

Been my favorite Metallica song since my high school days in the 80s. I wasn't normal then, not normal now. Don't let anyone make you be normal. Normal and healthy do not have much in common.

When you said it feels you're living the same day over and over, that hit home

A real wholesome song is "come on home" by Freedom Call. Its an anthem song that really brings a homy feeling to the metal community! love your content and your a star! Greetings from Sweden!

You mentioned the word inmates. It reminded me of a singer I know of named Jimmy Barnes who for a period had a serious cocaine problem that brought him to a rehab facility in your state Arizona. On entering, he described the people who were there as inmates and was told to stop immediately. He battled drugs and alcohol for years, trying to escape his past. He had a difficult childhood with poverty and the things he witnessed in the home. He eventually went on to be a successful singer in the band Cold Chisel and as a solo singer, but it took until a night on tour in Auckland when unsuccessfully (thank god) tried to take his life and then was like,'i have to change'. He then wrote 2 books. One about his childhood and the next about how it affected him as a man while making music. He had to put down a lot on paper to make sense of it all, he had his own demons he spent years trying to run from then realised he had to turn around and face them before they run him down. This completely changed how I listen to all his songs and he made a great album after based on some of things in his books, but he is doing so well now, in a much better place.

You have a very big heart Amanda ❤. Great reaction

I spent 8 years in prison. When I got out in December 2015 I started having nightmares about being back in prison. Now it is 8 years later and I STILL have those nightmares maybe once a month. trauma can last a LONG time.

about this album. this was the very last album that they did with their orginal bass guitarist Cliff Burton. he died in a bus accident that the guys were in while staying at Amsterdam. it was cliff that taught basic/ fundamental music comp/ theory to the rest of the band. so their signature tone is essentially cliff's contribution.

I have been hospitalized three times in my life. It can be very traumatizing just being stuck in a mental hospital and not knowing when you will be able to leave.

Damn you inspire me...keep on fighting, hail from belgium and suicide survivor 👏

Salut depuis la France,Amanda !i really like your videos and I’m sending you some positive vibes and I hope you will feel much much better throughout your journey!stay strong and stay safe,Amanda !😊

It`s Soo nice to see you smile again!! I really hope that you are feeling better friend from Sweden

You are beautiful and seem intelligent, charismatic, and positive. I feel bad for you for what ever happened to you to put you in that position. Keep pushing forward for mental positivity, and keep your reactions coming. You inspire me to look at people with true mental illness as a true sickness and not an excuse. Thank You

amazing story, great channel, love what ur doing!

There are still doctors preforming electro shock therapy, and when at my whits end, i was will to try anything. I dont know if it helped, but i don't remember something from that time. I know it wasn't untill I found a doctor that actually listened to me and worked with me to find the right meds and therapy that my life was able to turn around. Thank you for keeping the mental illness awareness in active conversations

I'm crying and I don't even know why. Came here just after your reaction to Fade to Black, and I can't tell how I've got to see these videos, but I'm thankful that I'm here. I'm not in a place to hurt myself, but I realized couple of weeks ago, that me and my inner child just waiting for all of this to end. I can't see any purpose to keep going, I have my responsibilities, family etc, but nothing really motivates me to live. Just some stuff I *have* to do. There's nothing in this life I can say I want it. Its just the pain and nothing more. Some kind of acting as a person I'm not and have no hope to become. This sounds and feels heavy, but its true and it didn't fade away once I realized it and said it out loud. It started to fade away when I kind of allowed myself to cry and to accept how I really feel. And that started with a bunch of people accepting me as I am. What they did or at least made me feel like was they just were there for me. Together in this dark room and feeling the pain like I did, telling me I'm not a junk or crazy, that it's OK to no be OK and they are here to help me. Life is still scary and those people are not around all the time, but now I know that I can ask for help and I'll get it. I need ask the right person though, but that's different discussion. THANK YOU for making me crying and for the beautiful message you're spreading. You remind me that, despite it is dark both inside and outside, this can change and that I can do it. It is hard and I'm afraid of the journey, but I am ready for every baby step I need to take to finally be able to say that I'm happy and truly believe it with all my spirit. I think I never felt like this, but I want it so bad. THANK YOU once more. By the way, you know what's even worse then hearing that "you'll never be happy"? It's when you finally are brave enough to being vulnerable and tell someone how you feel and how it is really bad, and they say "oh cmon, you're fine, look how happy you are!" completely ignoring and denying the way you really feel. That's pain by itself, plus (at least for me) it creates the conflict and the guilt that I'm even worse because I feel bad, when I really don't have any reason to. I went too far I think :) I just wanted to say THANK YOU Amanda for what you're doing. I am glad that you did it and I am sure the amount of people you will help to overcome their difficulties is huge.

@MentalAmanda I know I’m late to the party, but I just wanted to thank you for these videos. While not being diagnosed with any mental disorders despite being a USMC vet and former fire fighter, I believe your videos are really helping those who do. Your raw emotion and honesty when reacting to these videos, in particular Fade To Black, let people know it’s ok to not be ok and it’s also ok to seek help, whether it be from a professional or a friend. Continued success in helping to shatter the stigma associated with mental illness.

My mom before I was born had what they told me was a nervous breakdown and was hospitalized somewhere in New Mexico. From what I was told it was a horrible place where she was subjected to electro shock therapy. They censored her mail so dad took a long time before he learned what was happening. He did succeed in getting her out. I don't know many details because I wasn't told much else and I wasn't alive then.

It's important to note that the band wrote this after watching One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest & reading the book they based the movie on.

WOW!!!!!!!!!! What a difference. Before I watched you do sanitarium. I watched you do fade to black. And the difference in you is amazing!!!!!! Keep up the excellent work. Loved watching you have fun. Headbanging and playing the air drums. Was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

Another song that helped me through depression. I love to listen to this song cause my sanity... and I felt like something in me was being like really really really angry. So much angry that I hated my best friends. But now all good. Love in Welcome home sanitarium especially 89 Seattle version.

I'm also a Suicide survivor and I've been in and out of Mental Institutions since I was 9. In 2007 I was finally diagnosed Paranoid schizophrenic and the last institution I was in was 2014. I'm on Zyprexa now and I've been symptom free since 2016 but it's always a struggle but I won't stop taking my medication no matter how it makes me feel because I'm never going back to that Hell I was in again. I really admire you and even though we don't personally know each other I consider you a sister in troma and in faith because God put you hear for a purpose and you're doing God's work. Lots of Love to you sister 🙏

Amanda. Your felings are right on. Been there as a 32yr male. This song has been with me for 10 years

At 13 I spent 10 months in a psychiatric hospital dealing with issues from my adoption. I first became aware of Metallica and heavy metal music while there. It was heavy metal that helped me deal with the issues. Welcome Home Sanitarium was our theme song while locked away. I love your outlook of the song

I came home from work one evening. I made dinner for my dad, whom I cared for during the preceding 10 years. I walked into his room to find him on the floor…dead. Que the pain, trauma, and regret. Lasted for 5 years, and essentially destroyed me.

I Love and appreciate your comments and knowledge about you I am happy to have seen your reaction you are amazing

Thank you for your beacon of light in this cold, dark World.

Bedlam was a real place. Royal Bethlehem Hospital in London England. Now a tube station. Closed in the 1800's.