Dude, you don't sound "victimy". If we don't talk about medical mistakes, nothing will ever change. It's literally their job to make sure this shit doesn't happen. Yes the system is overburdened and yada yada, but there's still a huge problem at the individual level with far too many healthcare workers. They don't understand pain nearly enough. They don't pay enough attention. Then something goes wrong and they mismanage and neglect complications. They need to be held accountable. Thank you for talking about it and I'm so sorry you went through this!!

A few years back, my daughter was carried into the ER in excruciating ab pain. The staff thought she was drug seeking. In the morning she was rushed into surgery as she was bleeding internally from a ruptured ovarian cyst. She almost died. Not to mention my own misdiagnosis told to go home and take a laxative. I had advanced colon cancer. Yup I know how bad the system is. Prayers for you to mend quickly ❤❤❤❤❤❤

As someone who deals with chronic pain on a daily basis, my heart absolutely goes out to you. The US Healthcare System is revolting. The old phrase “one bad apple spoils the whole bunch” is spot on in this particular industry. The fact we have to accept the punishment due to other’s addictions is unbelievable. Rather than making drs responsible for closely monitoring an individual taking pain meds, they’d rather just avoid using them. I truly feel like if those in power had to live a day in our shoes, this wouldn’t be the case.

This is why patient advocates are so important. Patients are just ignored so often. They are not believed when they say they are in pain, they are forgotten- it’s awful. Having someone there to stay on the ass of the medical personnel can be so helpful.

I had an emergency c-section. After surgery I was immediately taken off IV meds and forgotten about. I had to call staff in and beg them for medication. This wasn’t once but every single time. On day 2 they decided to only give me Advil. It took the nurse looking at me for 30 mins shaking and crying to finally give me something stronger. You are not alone.

I've experienced "being forgotten" while bedridden in a hospital and NO ONE should ever have to go through that....ever. I felt betrayed and guilty in my neediness and lost a lot of trust in the people caring for me. We move past that and regain our pride with the help of close friends and family. Huge respect for all you're going through.

This sent me back to some of my worst experiences in the ER. Particularly being abandoned, screaming in pain, for hours on end, is something that's happened to me multiple times. Once when I came in with what turned out to be kidney stones and was placed in a room and promptly forgotten about. No nurses, no tests, no medicine, for five hours. By the time they got pain meds into me the stones had already almost entirely passed; somehow they were capable of hearing full volume screams and not popping in to see what the issue was. Then another time I was brought in by ambulance with chest pain and severe dizziness, and left in the waiting room strapped into one of those locked wheelchairs because I could not walk and they didn't want me falling out. I blacked out in the wheelchair; they never discovered me or checked on me. I woke up in the same wheelchair a few hours later, delirious, managed to get my restraints off, and wandered out into the parking lot, IV still in my arm. I walked right past the front desk and security to get out, but no one seemed to be concerned about a delirious patient, IV still in arm, wandering into traffic. The fear in your voice mirrors mine; I have medical PTSD from it all (and I'm sure you do too) because being helpless and abandoned and in pain is one of the most terrifying experiences one can have. When we have these medical procedures, we are agreeing to put our lives in the hands of nurses and doctors. We are consenting to let ourselves be put in a potentially more dangerous situation, where our abilities and personal freedoms are limited (the number of times I've been unable to even get the pain relief I'd be able to get with OTC pain pills that I simply was not allowed to take bc I was in an ER!!!!!!!) and we are at higher risk, because there is an understanding they will take care of us. When that pact breaks down, the result is, quite frankly, hell.

As a nurse that used to work in a hospital, I’m so sorry that happened to you. I can’t imagine the suffering , both physically and emotionally you went through. Speedy healing❤❤

once my wife was in the hospital for a skin infection during chemo, she is allergic to most antibiotics so they keep her cause of special IV treatments. I visit her and realize for days they forgot her IV antibiotics. it fell off the computer and none of the nurses even tried to remember anything about patients. I threw a fit. being sure to be loud enough so every patient on the floor hear me advocating for all of them. how many other people are missing treatments? I wanted them all to ask that. II was just short of getting arrested police were there. I told the police and the dept head there to please arrest me, I want the news coverage. the system does suck.

THEY. DIDN'T. TURN. IT. ON?????!!!!!!!😢😢😢😢😢

Being a vicim doesn’t necessarily mean you have victim mentality. That was so brutal, you have to give yourself space not only to heal the wounds but also the horrific trauma. You have a lot of survival mentality. Really really hope it turns out that the surgery will help in the end. ❤

My goodness. It never stops amazing me how incredibly awful our medical system is. This isn’t my worst hospital experience but it’s along the same vein as yours. When I was 18 I was forgotten in a hospital room for 8 hours and when a nurse finally came into my room she was 100% shocked to see me in that room as she was bringing another patient to it. My mom had been to the nurses station 15+ times to try to get me some help as I was literally bleeding out onto the floor and no one even made a record of what room I was in. This was all after already waiting 4 hours to get into this room. I lost so much blood I was in critical condition and barely responsive when the first nurse finally came in to check me out.

I’m so sorry that happened. As an emergency healthcare provider (paramedic) I apologize for what happened to you. As a recent surgical patient that took 2+ hours postop to control my pain, I empathize with you. I also get where you’re coming from about allowing people to help and asking them to help. (I’m non-weight bearing on my right leg). Thank you for sharing your journey. I can see it’s hard for you but I know educating people who don’t really realize just how broken the healthcare system is. Take care. 🙏

Yes, our system is broken. I was forgotten, in pain that was unbearable. Then I was released from rehab with zero pain meds. I love your videos but they also scare the shit out of me. I'm like you.... if it can go wrong medically, it will. I have several super rare medical conditions and now no leg. I feel your pain....literally. My prayers are with you.

Pain management in the US is seriously screwed up. Been there, got the tee shirt... I suffer from peripheral neuropathy and the pain is a permanent part of me for the rest of my life. Everyone is so fearful, that those who truly need medication can't get it. I often think that if they could feel the pain I'm in, they would do anything to get relief. I'm so sorry you had to go through that nightmare.

I can't tell you how much this video hit me and helped me right now. I'm coming off two major surgeries done within 5 weeks of each other and having regrets about the 2nd one (though in the long run it's totally the right thing to have done). Some related issues got worse but I hope the end results will be worth it all. I also live alone and have relied on amazing friends and neighbors to help me through. It's been hard to accept help but have learned to take it when it's offered. Here's to healing for everyone who is going through it at the moment... and I hope nothing but healing and improvement for you!

Dude, you are a badass for being so active and present while recovering from such a bad experience. Not wanting to do it in the first place and having it come out like this just isn't fair. At least it's looking up a bit now! Thanks for keeping us in the loop!

Hi Jo, I had 38 surgeries in 3 and 1/2 years trying to keep my right leg below the knee after a motorcycle accident just over 20 years ago when I was 21 years old, and so number 39 was when I finally had enough. I've been through most of all things you describe and I want you to know that you are as strong a woman as I've ever seen, you will manage to get through this and it will all work out. God bless you !!!!

I ran a pain management practice many years ago. I’m so sorry for how you were treated. From what little I’ve heard you tell us, you had pretty much non existent pain management. Good pain management is absolutely necessary for quick healing, and increasing your quality of life while recovering. I hope you never EVER have to go through that again!

About to finish my first year of med school, and thanks for sharing these stories. It continues to motivate me towards the kind of doctor I want to be. To echo what others have said, you don’t sound “victimy”, you genuinely were/are a victim of the shitty system we’re stuck suffering with until someone changes things on a big scale. I hope to change it on a small one at least. Recover fast as you can!!!

im a pharmacy student, and I'm really sorry that all of these things happened surrounding this surgery. i very instantly recognized your description of the pain as an allergic reaction, and I'm really disappointed that none of the healthcare providers around you could do so until you were forced to really advocate for yourself

I just love you and love your channel. I am 67 years old and have 4 children. I have a husband that is paralyzed from the neck down due to a massive stroke 10 years ago and he is at home. I am his caregiver. 3 of my 4 children have type 1 diabetes - I am a type one diabetic as well. I have spent my life as the caregiver. You make me feel good. You take life in stride and deal with all that comes up as it comes up. People always say to me you’re so strong. No I am not I just deal with it as it happens and don’t hang on to it. You are an impressive woman. . T

Hugs. Having worked in health care and being a patient myself, I'm sad to say that this doesn't come as a surprise. I had deep vein thrombosis and pulmonary emboli once and, because of the nurses' misunderstanding. I was sent home with a script for two anticoagulants. When I did a follow-up with my PCP he gave himself a smack on the forehead when I told him. This was confusion was set up by the hospitalist who only wanted to see which of the medications was cheaper and covered by insurance, which the pharmacy couldn't tell him unless he ordered both medications. This was compounded by the Pharmacist not catching the order for two anticoagulants when she checked out the order when I picked them up. This makes me a little anxious about having my cataracts removed but it's have them removed or slowly go blind.

I’m a nurse and I agree on the burning it all down and starting from scratch. Our patient ratios have GOT to change.

I am so sorry... I have been forgotten too and also have had to hold a bladder full of urine for over 12 hours after years of having a foley catheter in 24/7 with no relief when my catheters have blocked up! So i get how that feels to be forgotten and have medical trauma to some degree at least

I understand completely, Jo. I know from my own experiences with surgeries and hospitals just how totally f**ked up the health care system is. You're 100% right, Jo. Most of the nurses and other care workers are great. However, I've had problems very similar to yours, Jo. Mistakes get made, but, like you said, it's the system that's at fault. I'm so sorry to hear about all the trouble you're having, dear Jo, and the problems you had in the hospital. You go ahead and vent to us anytime you want or need to. It's ok. I'm praying for your complete recovery, Jo, and I'm personally sending you all the love I have for you!!! 🥰❤️🌹 You're beautiful and amazing!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Jo, you are not a" victim." You are human, honest, and realistic. I truly wish that you would experience feeling better every day. ❤

Former bedside RN here. Stories like this take me back to those horrid days of me being in the middle of all this but as a medical professional. The system is so messed up to say the least. All I can say is how sorry I am this happened to you.

What some people also may not understand is that every time pain meds are reduced, even a tiny amount, can cause withdrawal symptoms. I've never gone through the amount of pain that you've had to deal with, but I do know how the system can let you down. I hope that from here on out that your pain at least eases for you! You're extremely strong Joe, it's cool to be upset, angry and sad. Don't sweat it, just make sure you let it out.

Zombie leg round 2? Wow, being one of those people that if something can go wrong, it definitely will go wrong in my life, I have absolute sympathy for you and the mess you've been through. Others have said it but it's worth repeating, Jo, you are an absolute badass. Hugs to you and hoping that all the bs of this surgery round ends up being worth it in the end. Thank you for the updates and for being you.

I’ve had knee surgery, and pelvic reconstructive surgery which resulted in compartmentalisation syndrome in my right leg because of the position they kept me in for 8 hours. I also ended up with some tissue necrosis. The compartmentalisation syndrome was ABSOLUTELY the worst pain I have ever experienced. Recovery sucks, but recovery with complications sucks and is scary. I hear you on this one, Jo. ❤

That many hours without pain management esp when the surgery was on the nerves is so dangerous (and obviously cruel). Pain management is a huge part of post surgical care. It’s just inexcusable. Did you have a case manager at the hospital? I learned last time to ask for one immediately (or plan ahead) so I have a person I can call right away if there are issues. I’m so glad you are home and healing. Thanks for sharing all this especially when it is all so new.

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with so much pain. Glad you're at home recovering now. As a fellow disabled person your stories are inspirational.

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="597">9:57</a> its all because the DEA has doctors etc afraid to prescribe much pain medication. They want to prevent addiction etc but they have went too far with it.

I can’t relate to a lot of what Jo’s gone through but I CAN relate to being ignored while under the care of post-op. It makes you feel crazy when you feel you’re being forgotten.

Sending love and light to you, Jo. I have so many medical experiences akin to those you described in this video. Being forgotten, ignored, minimized, disbelieved (and suffering consequences as a result), and so many other horrific things. Medical trauma is real. I went into medicine hoping to be at least one healthcare provider who truly gives a shit and tries their best in this awful, broken system. Currently too sick to work and care for any patients other than myself, but I hope to return to the bedside. Thank you for sharing with us - please be gentle with yourself and give yourself permission to hold space for the traumatic nature of these experiences. Your feelings are valid and acknowledging them doesn’t make you a victim. It makes you a survivor on the path to healing. 💕

Jo, you are such an absolute sweetheart and a brave warrior. I think I speak for many of us when I say, that if there was some way we could each take a little bit of your pain on ourselves to make it easier for you, we'd jump at the chance. Love ya.

You are such a strong individual. It is hard for you to be unable to care for yourself and then need rely on strangers. This is what its like for a lot of people who grow old without having family around to help take care of them. You really needed a family member to be with you to advocate for you so you are not forgotten about for five hours!

As someone who's been a surgical patient, had direct family go through many procedures and am now married to a healthcare professional I've seen all sides. It genuinely pains me so much knowing how broken the system is. How underfunded essential resources are and how burned out so many of the truly amazing healthcare workers are is so discouraging. My heart goes out to you and I wish you all the luck and speed in your recovery.

I'm so glad that you kept advocating for yourself throughout that horrific experience, and your frustration with that situation is completely understandable

I'm so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I really hope that in a couple of months, you will be posting a video saying, "Hey guys! My pain has gone down a ton!" ❤

Fellow weirdo here, so I'll be tuning in for that next video, for sure. :P I am so sorry you had to deal with this. Our system is so completely busted, and there just doesn't seem to be a will to fix it at this point. I hope your recovery is swift and complete, and you're able to function without pain!

You don't sound victimy, you sound incredibly strong, eloquent and aware. In this society we always seem to want to be able to tell a positive story, to ensure everyone around us it will all be ok. But sometimes life just sucks and I'm grateful you were willing and able to remind us of this. It will help us forward even when times are rough. I hope you feel better soon!

Oh Jo, I'm so sorry you're going through this, sending you lots of hugs and good vibes for a speedy recovery.

You are absolutely amazing. I'm so sorry so many things went wrong, I started choking up when you said they forgot you for 5 hours. But I'm so glad you're back home now and slowly improving. Sending you all the positive energy, you're a true inspiration.

You poor girl. I know exactly what you went through. I went in the hospital for shoulder surgery and left 33 days later after learning to walk again. I watched all the old sci-fi movies from the 50’s and 60’s. ALL OF THEM.

You are amazing, I hope you recover quickly and I completely agree with you with the hospital management. You are a real queen and I could never imagine going through what you have gone through. You are amazing ❤

I am so sorry you had to go through that Jo!❤ You dont sound victimy, you sound brave for sharing this, thank you!

Even though we're disabled in different ways (I have mental and invisible muscle disabilities), your videos have really helped me with being a bit kinder to myself, especially since Ive also been the victim of medical neglect. I really hope you have a speedy path to less pain.

"So many suits" made me chuckle lol. You are so tough, I could never deal with what you've gone through. I appreciate you sharing everything with us. Much love to you ❤

i’m so sorry that you had to experience this. i’m so glad you’re here and you are sharing this with us. i know so many fellow disabled people, myself included, understand and experience similar things in regards to horrible care. i can’t wait for your recovery to get better and for you to be reunited with the dogs again!

I’m so sorry you had to go through all that! I hope can start doing more and the surgery ends up helping you! Sending love and good healing vibes!

My jaw dropped so hard listening to this that it fell off my face onto the floor, and ran away screaming!!! What the hell?!?! I’m grateful for your friends (go friends!!!!!!!!), for the things that went right, and for your tenacity in recovery. Here’s hoping that the pain you’ve had to deal with becomes less and less and less…to the point it goes away.

Brave thing , i feel your pain, i have had heart bypass, facial cancer removed, BNA amputation, after losing three toes first, just last week i was back 4 left foot toe amputation, Amazing young Lady Joe. Best Wishes from Down under down under, Tasmania. :-)

Oh goodness Jo, I'm so sorry for all of the issues and pain 😥 I hope it continues to improve and I'm so glad you have the support you need ❤

So happy to see you back! Thanks for sharing!!

How a country so wealthy can have such a poor medical system is beyond me. I really hope it works out and long term it reduces the pain you were experiencing.

Omg, I am so so sorry Jo 😢 I am so sad and angry at how the medical system failed you so many times and the many complications you’ve had. I have had different kinds of medical trauma over many years and when you started to get choked up talking about it I did too 😢 I’m so glad you have a wonderful group of friends there for you physically and emotionally and a good show to binge and art to work on and enjoy. We all so appreciate you sharing your story with us. Not sure if you have ever tried therapy or are someone open to it, but I’ve found it helpful to work through medical trauma with my therapist. I may be wrong but I think you mentioned having ptsd in an earlier video. I have had severe complex ptsd for 12 years now and it’s so hard. I just can’t thank you enough for your honesty and transparency through your videos. I’ve been thinking of you often and hoping better days are ahead 🤗

My gosh, so so sorry you went through this. Thank you for raising awareness and sharing 🤍

You really went through the ringer, didn’t you?! I’m so sorry you were forced to go through that. Thanks to your friends for being supportive. ❤

We’re all obviously interested in not only your journey but you as a person. Thanks for sharing both the good and the bad with us. All the best to you, Jo. xx

I'm also one of those weirdos who find these things fascinating, so I'll be looking forward to the allergic reaction video. It's LITERALLY the WORST to be in a hospital without a support person who can leave the room to help advocate. It's terrifying, and I've been there FAR LESS than you, but I hear you. I'm so so sorry to hear how MANY THINGS went completely sideways. I'm glad you're being able to start to get back to things a little, but, man, what a long and difficult journey. **hugs**

You have been through so much in your lifetime so far and are very courageous. You seem so kind and gentle and I think those qualities help you to make your way through all of these physically difficult journeys. You should be so proud of yourself.

I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this, Jo. That sounds awful and I want you to know we’re all rooting for you. You’re not alone in this 💙💜

You are so incredibly resilient! I know a lot of people say that, and it's true, but it still SUCKS having to go through lack of proper medical care. I gave birth during the height of the pandemic, and received very sub-par care. Left alone in excruciating pain, told the doctor was with another patient when I was about to go unconscious, and being told I could NOT change the medication without the doctor's consent. Feeling I was reacting badly to it, which ended up being true and putting my baby in cardiac distress. Then apparently contracted an infection that no one told me about until 9 weeks later, when I complained about heavy bleeding for the whole duration of that time. No meds, not even the courtesy to tell me I had an infection. Excuse the rant, it just still gives me PTSD 2+ years later. The system is SO screwy. And your situation I cannot even imagine. Nerve pain is so awful Thank you for telling this story here on KZfaq. Sending the best vibes your way during this difficult recovery.

Good to see you in good spirits (or faking it amazingly well). Pain is a pain.

I'm so sorry that you had to go through that and so frustrated on your behalf! And I am SO happy to see you back and smiling with your regular outro. I'm crossing my fingers so hard for you that the four to six months yields positive results!

I just wish you some sunshine days ahead. You are a warrior. Much respect to all you have had to endure.

I have missed you and wondered how your journey was going. Very sad to hear how difficult it has been and how intensely painful it has been. I am sending you loads of virtual (((hugs))) and {{{snuggles}}}!! Thx for the update!! Much love, Jules

I really hope the recovery goes well for you!! I am really scared for my surgery, but you always make me feel better about it. Helping me see the positive sides of it, even though you are going through a really rough patch. Thanks for being positive about this and I hope everything goes smoothly from here on out. Thanks ❤

I wish you all the good things in the world Jo ❤

I want to thank you for being so open about things and making me realize that recovery isn't something a few days long and then you are fine. I got out of a 3 month carehome/rehabilitation stay last June after a bad break in me right leg. I've spent a year relearning how to walk more than a block or so. My family and friends have been great but it has been your videos I've turned to for encouragement. My rehab has gone well but feels like it has taken forever. You have shown me its ok to be mad at the situation and even have a few pity parties as long as I then pick up and go on. I'm sorry that you have had such a rough time with the health care system. It's broken for sure but know through all of it you are still making a difference to people. Thank you for being you and I think all of us are proud of you through this and beyond. As a human being you are amazing and if it helps to get mad at it all then I'm here to listen to that too. You being human reminds me I don't have to be strong every second and it's ok to take breaks. This has gotten pretty rambling so I'm sorry about that. I just want you to know you do make a difference.

I hope that healing, mobility, and comfort come to you soon. I love the digital art you've been working on!

thank you for sharing this story with us, we send you lots of support and love! I'm glad you're friends took good care of you, you deserve that💖 Also, as a digital artist (been there for years now) your paintings amaze me! And you're new to that?? Unbelievably good, congrats!

I'm sorry that happend to you, you are a serious Warrior!❤

Its so frustrating how our system is broken and the healthcare workers are overworked. So happy you are doing well and thank you for sharing. ❤

I’m so sorry you had to endure all of that. I am in awe that you are able to keep such a positive attitude through it all. You are an inspiration to all of us❤

really hope the rest of your recovery goes quickly!!

I'm soooo sorry you're going thru this suffering. Sending Hugs & balloons for silly smiles, if for only a moment.

Glad that you get to enjoy art again after that horrendous time at the hospital. I am so sorry you went through that, being forgotten in a hospital must feel so vile, I can't even imagine it. Wishing you a calm recovery without any suprises anymore :)

You’ve got this sweetie just stay positive

*Sending you ALL the best thoughts*. I'm so sorry this has all been SUCH a trial for you. I hope you get the relief you're hoping for and much more.

You look amazing, I hope this surgery worked for you. Hang in there and just take your time healing, you don't want to overdo it. ❤

Jo, thank you so much for giving us an update, we were worried about you ❤let’s hope the rest of the healing will go smoothly!

Your strength is absolutely remarkable. Keep as positive as possible. You've got this.

Your strength and ability to focus on the positive through all the shit you've had to endure is truly inspiring. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm sending you all kinds of positive vibes and healing juju!

Your strength is so inspiring. You are more amazing then you know. We are rooting for you. Seriously. And thank you for being so transparent. Love your spirit

I'm sorry you had to go through that experience! I've had some pretty horrid ones in hospitals myself including 'being forgotten and there's no way to sugar coat it. That said I'm so pleased to see the Jo we've come to know is shining through once more! You're a rock 🎸 star!

Sending kind thoughts your way. I hope your recovery gets better and better with each day. Thank you for sharing your experience. You are so strong, lovely, and positive which I hope continues to bring you some peace through each day.

Damn Jo. I’m sorry you did not have ideal hospital stay. Sending good vibes to you. Feel better soon! 😊

Jo, my heart goes out to you for what you went through. Sending out prayers and positivity for the rest of your healing. 💜

I'm so sorry you have such a tough road to travel. Your strength shines through but you don't have to be strong all the time. It's okay to cry and acknowledge the shit you've been through and do some self nurturing and tenderness. I hope you have people in your life who you can be real with. I've had a taste of what you've been through so couldn't make it all the way through your video as my ptsd woke up. My situation was not nearly as severe as yours but it still stuck with me for so many years before I could really look at it. Take care dear💗

Never be afraid so say exactly how you feel. It gives incredible insight (among many other important things) to us who haven't gone through that kind of pain weather it be physical or mental. Saying it how it is, especially in your unique experience is something we came here for, and even if that wasn't what drew us in, sharing your stories as you do highlights the flaws of our medical system, and that's the first step to fixing it. You channel is an integral part towards awareness, education, and hopefully, a better reality than the one we live in now.

I'm so sorry to hear what you had to go through. That must have been horrible. Still hope you get well soon.

I'm so very sorry for all you're facing. Thoughts and prayers! ❤

Wow. Just wow. I know it isn't rare for this to happen unfortunately, but damn. After your video explaining your fears and then those coming true in all the worst ways. I can't imagine how you wouldn't be traumatized again by all that. That is so much suffering to bear in an attempt to heal your body. I'm sorry the system fell apart and failed you again Jo. You are a very strong person and to share this with all of us and relive it in the retelling and editing. I can only hope you finally get relief from the pain after going through all that.

I went through so many emotions during this video. I really felt the trauma when you spoke about being neglected with no pain medication and feeling trapped, because there was nothing you could do. Thank you for speaking on this. It’s so important to share!

I'm so sorry all of this happened to you, Jo. I truly hope this procedure worked and you're feeling better soon. Sending love and lots of (gentle) hugs.

Girl you have a lot to fight and you are a fighter. You're a blessing to us all

Ohhhh Jo that sounds like a latex allergy and as someone with a bad latex allergy myself I feel for you so much. I've actually had to take a photo of my arm after a nurse didn't listen to me and used latex tape to hold down an IV with the swelling and the skin peeling off and keep it on my phone now so every time I get an IV or blood drawn they're horrified into making sure they're using the latex free 3M medicare tape. I'm so sorry things have been so horrible. I'm glad you're feeling well enough to talk to us though. Take it easy and hoping so hard for you that the surgery ends up having been a success. 🤞💜