Benjamin Tod, "Dark Before the Dawn," // GemsOnVHS™

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About this song, Benjamin had this to say;
"This song in a lot of ways is about my never ending struggle with bipolar disorder and addiction. It also encompasses a battle with delusions everyone seems to live with. In that I believe it is relatable to most people who have self doubt, anxiety, depression and manic tendencies.
In the back of my mind there is always that underlying question of whether this life is worth it. There is always an unsureness of whether we are winning the war as a human race. Our better angels seem to believe that we are and that good can prevail through the suffering and turmoil. Our demons insist that the battle is already lost and that the determination of evil historically will prevail.
Nihilism is a dangerous drug and it consumes many corners of our society. It is ungrateful, resentful and it is always the easier path. Righteousness is nuanced, appreciative and requires real wisdom in order to balance the axis of justice and mercy. Righteousness requires a ton of work and often a little bit of luck to prevail.
Sometimes fate plays its hand and we lose even with the best of intentions. Sometimes there are no answers or solutions for the tragedy of life. I have for most of my time here allowed that darkness to devour me and it almost won. I am very fortunate to be here and I don’t take that responsibility lightly.
We must stand and fight. We must, begrudgingly at times, believe in an ideal vision for humanity. This life may be sad, but it is always beautiful.
-Benjamin Tod
I dedicate this song to the memory of Luke Bell."
In this episode, we ramble on down to my friends Benjamin Tod and Ashley Mae's little slice of paradise in Kentucky, to hang out in a big field with their work truck and new puppy. Truth be told, i've never seen Ben happier than he is now, getting his hands dirty building something bigger he can call his own. Its almost like he is a family man now, but instead of kids his family is a bunch of animals, piles of dirt, a couple big loud trucks and Ashley. Good for him. They are building the Muhlenberg Music Mission for the kids, of course. (www.muhlenbergmusicmission.org/)
The band, Lost Dog street band, recently announced a little hiatus from the hard knock life of touring. Again, good for them. They spend more than half the year on the road playing shows, and have for years. Each time, they can't wait to get back to the chickens, to the cabin, to the little daily work of building a life rooted in the land. Who can blame them? That is what's real after all. Not social media, likes, comments, views, show business and the like. At the end, you have the songs and what you've built for yourself. I know they love their fans, but they love their chickens and tomatoes too. I just hope they continue to find peace and salvation. Maybe even host a couple good cookouts at their house. I'll be there, buddy!
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@GemsOnVHS Жыл бұрын

Check out Benjamin Tod on instagram, @benjamintodmusic. We're slowly getting our catalog of field recordings on Spotify - follow us on there. open.spotify.com/artist/7t78CwAbQIA6DKAKUKBYgl?si=tfpp2IA4QNq5wYqr6Jfw4w

@yunoletmebeanon Жыл бұрын

I am so grateful you are adding these to Spotify, I've always wished you would so I can easily listen to them in the car on the long drive to work. Just followed you on there. Please add the "The Mountain" rendition by Benjamin Tod to the Spotify page as soon as you get the time. (It's a pain playing youtube videos while driving, especially in a stick). Thank you so much for all that you do.

@daphcliche1584 Жыл бұрын

Hello from quebec love you all You are in my ears everyday 😍👌

@louispatrick2363 Жыл бұрын

Congrats I've got 5 months

@andresrivera8324 Жыл бұрын

Please upload all of these sets onto Spotify! I, along with 99% of your listeners prefer your live spontaneous recordings versus studio recordings. Much more raw and beautiful. I feel like we’ve all been waiting for this moment. Thank you!!

@jessicahimes1747 Жыл бұрын

I'm from Rockcastle county Kentucky .....I achieved 2 yrs sober yesterday and I'd like for Ben to know he's been a major part of my sobriety .....you can move mountains with your lyrics brother keep it up and I thank you sir

@maosbartender2898 Жыл бұрын

all my kin is from Rockcastle. Keep it up, cousin.

@GeoffPeterson33 Жыл бұрын

Hell yeah Jessica! 3 years myself and glad to be here, glad you’re here ✌🏼

@tmacskoolsu Жыл бұрын

One day at a time!

@jamieb8867 Жыл бұрын

Congratulations

@boweewowee Жыл бұрын

Bless up

@mreichard838 Жыл бұрын

Benjamin Tod is a god damn national treasure. I hope he never stops making music.

@jeremydickenson8059 Жыл бұрын

Hell yes

@pageluvva Жыл бұрын

Well said

@zachbradley9464 Жыл бұрын

I hope he never stops doing it his way

@zachbradley9464 Жыл бұрын

I hope he never stops doing it his way

@mreichard838 Жыл бұрын

@@zachbradley9464 from interviews I've seen with him he definitely doesn't seem like the type to do it any other way than his own. Its part of what makes him special. Maybe Ashley Mae's way every now and again though 😂

@rangerk9 Жыл бұрын

Ben - “I have been trapped inside this song for a couple of weeks now.” Me - “I will be trapped inside this song for more than a couple years now.”

@elviss.w.i.l.l.5247 Жыл бұрын

No doubt!

@jkdean82 6 ай бұрын

Damn true. Same.

@christopherramey1266 Жыл бұрын

40 years old, wife and kids asleep inside, me enjoying my morning smoke and coffee, sobbing like a baby. This man is special. I'm sorry and thankful for everything I've ever done. Ben puts that feeling in words. Every. Damn. Time.

@MysticHeather Жыл бұрын

This is it right here! Well said!

@dorothy8979 Жыл бұрын

what I would give too have my kids and wife asleep inside...miss it deeply....

@markusa5521 Жыл бұрын

Amen brother

@brandonwestbrook6003 Жыл бұрын

He’s the epitome of an artist. Not the “artist” so many claim to be, in current times. A true warrior poet

@jamesmetcalf3015 5 ай бұрын

It sure hit my front door son you got what it takes I wish I had away to get your address I wrote a litte song I been honor if you would take a look at it I ture beliveyou are one to sing it

@michaelkennedy8270 Жыл бұрын

This man nails life every time he opens his mouth and sings.

@pageluvva Жыл бұрын

I was going to comment but you summed it up perfectly.

@cadeohara6319 Жыл бұрын

@@pageluvva kkkkkkkkkkk

@mikelinniii1186 Жыл бұрын

That he does,every word is true

@Rthomas176 Жыл бұрын

Every now and then you hear exactly what you need to exactly when you should. Thanks for this song 🫡

@InternalCompassofNC Жыл бұрын

Facts for sure!

@GrasslandsG81 Жыл бұрын

For anyone reading this who also deeply relates to Benjamin's lyrics, hang in there... We got this!

@VotedMostLikelyAlcoholic Жыл бұрын

Let's all make it to the dawn

@PaigeAshliegh Жыл бұрын

My husband didn’t make it out of the dawn 💔 depression won.. our 2 year old twins will never know their daddy.. I miss my bestfriend..💔 😢

@RaymondThompson-rz4hj Жыл бұрын

@@PaigeAshliegh 😢

@PaigeAshliegh Жыл бұрын

@@RaymondThompson-rz4hj his name is Jeremy, I miss him everyday.. I became a widow at 29 years of age.. He took his life while under the influence.. He called me at 4:01am crying telling me he loves me so much over & over.. I just wish he loved himself. I wish I could take his place at the very least. The cops didn’t take my pleading seriously.. they were 5 hours too late getting to him 💔 I don’t want to be here without the love of my life, we were supposed to die hand in hand 50 years from now.. nobody deserves to die alone thinking death is their only way out. He was so perfect, he’s now become the entire sky when i look at it. I am patiently awaiting my time to make it home to the spirit world so I can feel his warm embrace. I simply am not here anymore, whatever spark I had within me, he took it with him, on that horrifying nightmare of a day that my life has now become 💔 I’m going on for the sake of our children, trying to be the best mother I can be. I never knew this level of pain existed. I hope I can make him proud but I can’t even leave bed without him.. He was my absolute everything.. My soulmate, the love of my life.. If they ever invent a Time Machine, I know the first place I’m going. I just miss my bestfriend 😢 I don’t want this life or even to be in this world if he’s not in it.. but our boy/girl twins are all I have left of their amazing heavenly father, he exists now only in my memories, and in my heart. He showed me Benjamin Tod a month before he died right after I saved him from another suicide attempt. Now his music and interviews are all I listen to. My beloved husband.. why did you leave our beautiful family. I’m so lost he was always home to me.. I just want to go home💔 kisâkihitin nînapem.. which means I love you my husband, nîya osâw pîyesîw, my Golden Thunderbird, his spirit name which was given to him during a sweatlodge ceremony, we are so spiritually connected I got my name osâw pîyesîw iskwêw or Golden Thunderbird Woman, as Indigenous Cree people this is a very sacred moment for us, and we got it 4 days before our wedding.. On august 4th, 2018. We have 4 matching tattoos, one of which is eachothers initial on our ring finger because it’s believed that vein leads straight to one’s heart. 💜 I feel him everywhere.. and I want to go home to my husband, if I didn’t have our children I’d be buried beside him right now.. If you knew him you’d understand how magical he is.. heart of pure gold. Our wedding video got quite a lot of new views after he passed away.. you can find it on Facebook quite easily or it’s on my IG: paige.ashliegh if you’re interested.. My 6’5” beautifully gorgeous husband.. inside & out. A smile so contagious.. that I’ll never see again. I slept beside his casket when it was time to bury the love of my life.. I never thought I’d have to kiss his cold lips goodbye.. But as he always said it’s never goodbye, it’s see you later 💜 please Creator wrap nothing but love around my husband.. wherever he is I pray he’s found peace 💜🪶 my baby love.. My gentle giant😢💜 I wish this was a nightmare I could wake up from.. Be kind & hold those you love close, because you just never know.. 💔 I’d give my life for him.. I’d take his place in a heartbeat if possible.. there’s no words to describe this type of pain. One relapse after almost a decade long of being clean off drugs & he’s gone from me & my children’s life forever. I’m sorry for the long comment.. I just have no one, no parents, no siblings.. I only had him & now our twins. I don’t know how to go on without him, I can’t accept the fact that he’s gone.. So I won’t, it’ll be like we just went awhile without seeing each other 🕊️💜 I can’t wait for that day.. I’m not scared of death.. I’m scared of not living my life without him.. and until it’s my turn, I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy again.. Time doesn’t heal all wounds.. that is a lie people tell themselves.. and it might work for some but it doesn’t work for me.. depression is no joke & now that I’ve reached his level of depression I understand why he felt the need to leave this realm. 🕊️😢💜

@TheWTFMatt 9 ай бұрын

Thanks bro, you too

@McAwesomeDelux Жыл бұрын

Oh those damned long nights when every stupid statement, mistake and regret decides to show you that they are indeed as much a part of you as the joys and fond memories. Perhaps moreso.

@DerKaiserBrazil Жыл бұрын

Exactly my friend, as many good as bad statements and moments we will take with us for the rest of our lives ...!

@gratefuldead2379 Жыл бұрын

Magnifico my friend

@American-Dragon Жыл бұрын

@@DerKaiserBrazil in bad times it is good for the soul to help others. Embrace forgiveness for those that have tresspassed against you, ask forgiveness for those you have tresspassed against, be easy on yourself while you are at it. We all have done regretable things but there is good work to be done. Think on what it is you actually believe about spirituality, religion because the sooner you become comfortable with not living forever the sooner you are free to truly appreciate all of creation.

@dancom3207 Жыл бұрын

@@American-Dragon well said.

@DerKaiserBrazil Жыл бұрын

@@dancom3207 ... Exactly my friend, what you said is exactly what the Master Jesus Christ taught us !🇩🇪🇧🇷🇺🇲🙋🏻‍♂️

@americangirl8970 8 ай бұрын

My son became an addict after going through Hurricane Katrina. Then he was diagnosed with lung cancer in his 20's which they wouldn't treat until he got clean. He's been clean and cancer free for 6 years now and recently married a wonderful lady. Keep hope alive.

@MontanaCamp Жыл бұрын

Who woulda thunk ben went from hitchin rides on freight trains, to drivin a deisel on his own chunk of land?! You deserve it man ! Congrats on your growth. Now thats outlaw.

@clifftanner6289 Жыл бұрын

Deserved!!!!!!

@drue6360 Жыл бұрын

Funny I was thinking the same thing, I went through nearly the same exact thing. I was a piece of shit junkie back in Portland, I was a real wretch. I cleaned my shit up and moved to the mountains of Bonner, MT 3 years back. I own my own business now, I drive a cummins, and this land has redeemed my soul. I started listening to Ben so so long ago, it’s interesting the parallels, he can say what I don’t even have the ability to articulate.

@MontanaCamp Жыл бұрын

@@drue6360 and i agree with the parallels. every damn song feels like its describing my life and my past. Dude is a legend songwriter

@ericbest9562 Жыл бұрын

@@drue6360 I feel hopeless but I'm not a junky, I have habits and vices but not in the condition you described yourself in, if I stay away from alcohol I'm fine, issue is , well a lot of issues but my child support I pay, even with decent paying jobs there's really no way to support myself independently after the state gets its cut. I never was a social one so those old friends aren't around to bunk with. I'm married now and trying to save it but she has unaddressed mental health issues and I can't fix her without her wanting to fix herself. It's becoming very unhealthy for us and not to sound selfish but it is really taking its toll on me. If I decide I can't take it anymore then that puts me homeless, I could eat, shower I suppose and make it with a safe place to park. I'm so frustrated, I feel like I'm getting screwed out of my chance, I'm almost there , I've been wanting a sawmill and do firewood on the side with that, and I'm like right there and it's being snatched out from under me because I can't get her to address her issues and try to get better. I'm about to turn 40 and it has been up and down for better part of 15 years for me now and I thought I was on the uphill swing! I was sure she was the one, a supporter and stable, I've known her since highschool, I'm learning you don't really know know someone until you are with the 24/7 . I'm just rambling, I always want to hear how someone made it and see if there is something in their story I can use. I feel like time is running out and I keep losing chances. I worry about everything, I'm worried about her, the future, homelessness again for me. At what point do say homelessness in the winter is better than dealing with your current situation. You can always start over but I'm tired, tired of starting over

@humblepie876 Жыл бұрын

@@ericbest9562 You're 39, so much life ahead of you. I left a marriage in my late 30's (twenty-some years later we're still good friends, but the change was the right course to take). I'm not saying you should do the same, just that your comment reached my heart and I'm sending a prayer for peace and finding your way forward. Reach out to a local mental health agency to get support for your wife and to talk with someone who has resources and new ideas - shared housing maybe? You mention health and you sound like you have a lot going well, good work and dreams. Things do change, often for the better if we stay focused and honest with each other.

@Sweetwain Жыл бұрын

I was cleaning out a box tonight and found a folder of recipes from my daddy, who passed away in 2009. He struggled with depression and alcoholism, which ran in the family. The recipes must've come from the period after he got sober and ran a soup kitchen because they start like "16 cups pinto beans". He talked about measuring the water for rice by how far it came up his arm when he stuck it in the giant stockpot. That was the happiest I ever saw him. I'm grateful that he stayed sober and kept trying to help people, even though it got hard at times. He is much missed.

@josiahklein70 Жыл бұрын

Sounds like a wonderful man.

@MayberryMafia Жыл бұрын

Condolences my friend…! I rue the day 😔

@arlenfoster4254 Жыл бұрын

My brother took his life recently, the first verse of this song absolutely broke me. I feel like we were both in the same boat; starting new jobs, providing for our families and struggling to be there for our people when they needed us. I knew he had has his demons, we talked about it, but I’m sitting here four days removed just barely making it. I’m going to work just to escape the reality that he’s not here anymore. I don’t know that this comment will accomplish anything more than to let me vent my emotions. But if you read this, you matter to someone

@jaredseay Жыл бұрын

I'm in the same place, except I may be your brother in this rendition.... I don't know how to say this Arlen but I've been in a dark mind space and was ready to turn my lights out, your words just jolted me back from my darkness, my demons, reminding me that my wife and newborn baby girl would never understand if I were to just check out forever, so I'll keep fighting, thanks to your words, I'll keep holding on. Thank you for bearing your truth and your pain. I needed it

@robertgold2643 Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the reminder 🙏

@barrybr1 10 ай бұрын

@@jaredseay Hang tough brother. Focus on that family of yours and on anyone or any thing that needs help round you. It's good medicine to get out of your own troubles and focus on others when possible

@TheWTFMatt 9 ай бұрын

Sorry about your brother, man, much love to you, you got this

@dandolan3168 4 ай бұрын

Just over 2 years my little brother at 31 took his life....I understand my friend everyone matters

@doctorworm7764 Жыл бұрын

Absolutely haunting. Ben has a voice like no other.

@InternalCompassofNC Жыл бұрын

Agreed brother

@jackfruit9439 Жыл бұрын

If hopeful pain had a sound it would be Benjamin Todd.

@kevinekman7875 Жыл бұрын

Listening to Tod for 4 years plus now and I’ve finally made my mind up. Greatest songwriter of all time.

@heathkish6901 Жыл бұрын

Close, but let us not forget about Townes Van Zandt!

@drakeelliott5079 Жыл бұрын

I want to agree but Like Benjamin always says it's his best friend Nicholas Ridout. The two of them are the greatest I've ever heard.

@heathkish6901 Жыл бұрын

@@drakeelliott5079 That's completely fair! I'm not super familiar with Nicholas, but I love what I know. I've always considered Benjamin to be the modern-day Townes, his songs are on that level. Helluva compliment!

@gratefuldead2379 Жыл бұрын

This gentleman is something else. He grabs ahold of something deep inside of you and brings it out to play. But remember my friends he who labels which is best, may be missing the point and all the rest. Just something to keep in mind. Agape love my friends.

@justinb864 Жыл бұрын

@@heathkish6901 Or Leonard Cohen…

@b.wilson8782 Жыл бұрын

I cheated on my wife and have abused alcohol. I’ve lost nearly everything but her and am at my lowest but this song gives me such hope. Thank you

@lynntyler8682 Жыл бұрын

Ben's music helped me through a rough couple of years after I lost my dad to cancer glad I found him in the rabbit hole

@lynntyler8682 9 ай бұрын

I know lost my dad in 2019 my nest friend

@devinhorton592 Жыл бұрын

He really can’t help but write a gut wrenching, beautiful song

@baningobarge 6 ай бұрын

In BT's grasp of his guitar, there's a profound intimacy, and his songs, like timeless whispers, resonate deeply.

@Maddmonkey87 Жыл бұрын

Another fantastic video by @GemOnVHS, I have found so many great artists, but Benjamin Todd will always hold a special place in my heart. Keep singing brother, keep helping us heal.

@GemsOnVHS Жыл бұрын

Glad you enjoyed it

@Maddmonkey87 Жыл бұрын

@@GemsOnVHS not even going to lie this is the highlight of my day! Kinda star struck not going to lie. Haha have an awesome day!

@mykelbukey1235 Жыл бұрын

Gems on vhs is how I got into Ben/ldsb and now I've spun down the rabbit hole of this dark folk music and Ive found tons of new artists! Gems on vhs is the best YT channel out there!

@Maddmonkey87 Жыл бұрын

@@mykelbukey1235 same thing here saw a random video pop up in suggested I believe it was green eyed girl, but I was hooked from the first video. Their songs touch my soul and they have ways to express in words emotions I can't describe. Nice to meet a fellow fan.

@cedarriver Жыл бұрын

Quite excited for that album and how it compares to his last ones I gotta say! Chords and lyrics below as always folks! Feel free to correct me if I've got a word wrong here and there Standard tuning, no Capo C is played as C/G (alternating bass), but noted as C below for reasons of clarity That F is sometimes played as an Fsus2 (x3301x), throw it in here and there as you like Cadd9 330010 Verses C Cadd9 Am / F C / C Cadd9 Am / F C Chorus Am G C / Am G C Outro C Cadd9 Am / F C [Verse 1] I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control Alone and forsaken by everyone I've ever known Hell I've even abandoned myself some years ago [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Verse 2] Oh I'm living clean, oh I'm getting redeemed on this land But it ain't what you think, it's the toil of a much braver man Lately I weep at the strangest things we understand Oh like every new line that's defined on the back of my hand [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Verse 3] Don't call it religion when I seek salvation inside Oh it's just surrendering on yourself to this life And man, it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes Before they walk away being blinded by any old lie [Chorus] And I'm hardly holding on In the dark before the dawn [Outro] I'm thinking tonight of my entire life as a whole Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control

@Jon_And307 Жыл бұрын

Fairly certain that when he says "I'm thinking the night" I think it's actually "I'm thinking tonight". Thats just what I hear so I could be wrong.

@JauntyWhale Жыл бұрын

@@Jon_And307 tonight makes more sense

@rangerk9 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for this!

@irishsailor9181 Жыл бұрын

Is there a new album coming out ?

@rangerk9 Жыл бұрын

@@irishsailor9181 Thankfully, the 23rd of September. Greatly looking forward to it!

@billhicks7157 Жыл бұрын

How many times is one dude going to make me cry. His music and lyrics always hit hard.

@reesemckenzie2850 Жыл бұрын

thank you ben, i’m speechless. lyrics: i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control alone and forsaken by everyone i’ve ever known hell i even abandoned myself some years ago and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn oh i’m living clean oh i’m getting redeemed on this land but it ain’t what ya think it’s the toil of a much braver man lately i weep at the strangest things we all understand oh like every new line that’s defined on the back of my hand and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn don’t call it religion when i seek salvation inside oh it’s just surrendering yourself to this life and man it gets lonely seein the spite in their eyes before they walk away being blinded by any old lie and i’m hardly holding on in the dark before the dawn i’m thinking the night of my entire life as a whole oh and what it might mean if i ever get back in control

@artooshsybian3628 Жыл бұрын

Their music has been a constant companion since I discovered it some years back on this channel. Thank you Gems for putting this out there.

@GemsOnVHS Жыл бұрын

thank you

@davidanspach1624 Жыл бұрын

The comment sections of every single one of your songs proves how much love and strength you have given so many people. You very well may be the greatest singer-songwriter of all time.

@tritnaha1345 Жыл бұрын

This man has a phenomenal ability to put life as a whole into gentle yet piercing lyrics, all while having the composure and thoughtfulness to actually give people hope and solid, life changing advice. He's like a evangelist preaching the teachings of a lost generation, but without all the bullshit. A man-crush of epic proportions, no doubt.

@JWheeler331 Жыл бұрын

The way Benjamin Tod puts feelings into thoughts and then to words and then ultimately into such meaningful songs is second to none….. and I mean none.

@cristelsmith7236 Жыл бұрын

Having one hell of a day and all i can do is listen and cry. What keeps me up now breaks me down every time. I good cry never hurt anyone i suppose

@cristelsmith7236 Жыл бұрын

I do need to go inside this grocery store though so im trying to dry it up lol

@wiseriverhealing Жыл бұрын

I never ever thought i'd get back in control. I found myself walking up early with the birds singing and not being annoyed and then in awe of the sunrise to the point of weeping. That was something I never expected to result from getting clean, but it did. If I can you can. Just find something to believe in and don't let go. NA helped me. There are people that genuinely want to help you. I promise you with my entire soul your future self will thank you.

@NathanErtznerMusic Жыл бұрын

There's no amount of thanks I can give in this world to properly express my gratitude for Ben and his art. I would probably be gone without it. At the very least I fear what kind of man I would've become.

@jamieb8867 Жыл бұрын

Preach on, I couldn’t have said that any better

@johntheplumber2399 Жыл бұрын

Ben is hands down the best songwriter and singer alive. Seen him live and it was the best show I've ever been to. His songs are so deep and impacted full of truth

@sooie27 Жыл бұрын

“Man it gets lonely seeing the spite in their eyes” really hit me

@matt_queso Жыл бұрын

This man can do no wrong. Absolutely gut wrenching music... real country shit.

@that1guy899 Жыл бұрын

There's nothing like a new Benjamin Tod song to turn a shit day around! Thank you Ben and the Gems On VHS crew! You all rock! 🤘

@empirereborn6330 Жыл бұрын

The first verse makes me relate to his struggle The second gives me jealousy and guilt that he's on his way and that I'm about to finish at least this next drink while I listen in shame But the third gives me hope as all his songs do. I want to promise myself ill seek salvation tomorrow but once the days work is done its hard to resist. And I hope I will. But thanks Benjamin for inspiring me when I listen. You and Townes give me peace.

@HOSWELL444 Жыл бұрын

Don’t feel guilty for having a beer after a hard days work mate …. It’s all good in moderation ✌🏼🫡

@spencertherren6806 Жыл бұрын

The shame and guilt will kill us. Everytime. Just do better tomorrow and try to stay sober. I've been there, but it took time behind bars to get there. Keep your chin up.✌️🇺🇸

@Satdianmann Жыл бұрын

If I ever get sober it’ll be because of BT... his music just speaks to me

@InternalCompassofNC Жыл бұрын

Stay strong my friend

@nathanmartin9560 Жыл бұрын

Damn if this ain't relatable idk what is I drink a bottle and next day I swear it off then pick it up again the next night

@user-lc4jm6oo5y 9 ай бұрын

I'm a recovering addict and his music has seriously touched every corner of my soul

@trevaniaanderson6807 Жыл бұрын

I don't know what life is right now, divinely inspired, repetitive chaos, or a dang simulation, but whatever it is brought me to this man's songs tonight and now I feel less alone

@BrianOlsen-ss5iq Ай бұрын

This song hits hard. Been using almost all of my adult life. JESUS found me, saved me, and gave me a new life. Still in the process of dying to self. To anyone reading this, dont give up lean into JESUS he is real. And can do anything. You are worth it.

@CFogus Ай бұрын

Thanks brother I'm glad you found the light. Christ is the Truth within you . If you never struggle you never surrender. Welcome home pal I'm glad you made it. Rest awaits

@eurotr4sh Жыл бұрын

His writing is incredible, his delivery impactful

@cdawg_692 Жыл бұрын

All I can even say, is wow... much needed song for my life right now. I'm from a small town in Kentucky and drugs, fishing, hunting, and music, is about all we had... I really do thank God for Ben and his music. It's saved me many times

@SirSwaggyy Жыл бұрын

Man, this stuff is getting too relatable. Always the highlight of my day when I see what this man delivers (and does it ever deliver). Grateful for Gems to capture these moments in time. I always feel like I’m there, and I’m the one filming, but that’s only because of the raw intimacy that’s shown. All love.

@brandenmiquelas3319 10 ай бұрын

Ill never forget listening to a bluegrass pandora radio station some years ago and one of his songs came on and had me crying like a baby and Ive been a fan ever since. He's an absolutely amazing musician

@joshpaz1 Жыл бұрын

Listened to this on repeat for months, then randomly when he says he abandoned himself i started balling.

@hasselbrashears8097 Жыл бұрын

I’m glad to see this dude winnin he deserves it. He’s probably one of the best song writers out there and will be remembered as such. I swear since I first found “using again” it’s felt like he is singing about my life in real time. Every song since Just fits my struggle so well. It gives me hope that if he is dealing with a disastrous life like me and is able to succeed then hopefully I can to. Godspeed to all of us fighting the good fight knowing the world is against us.

@candice3457 Жыл бұрын

Godspeed brother

@claypeacock5912 Жыл бұрын

I played this 7 times in a row. Gonna keep going too.

@RILEYLEIFSON_UTAH Жыл бұрын

"I'm thinking the night of my entire life as a whole... Oh and what it might mean if I ever get back in control." As someone who's been hardly holding on for far too long...this hit me hard in the chest.

@boweewowee Жыл бұрын

Benjamin…I know it is often hard to stick around, but we need you man. This is a (another) beautiful song. Thank you.

@johntroze11 Жыл бұрын

I know Benjamin caters to us alcoholics and substance abusers. His music is comforting to take in on a daily basis no matter what mode our minds are in. What impresses me is his ability to give us all hope while still pouring out his soul on a song that isnt necessarily a positive one. He is doing what I wish I could do. I think i speak for alot of us lost dogs out here.

@gmod8033 Жыл бұрын

Don't give up the fight man it gets better it gets easier.

@johntroze11 Жыл бұрын

@@gmod8033 Thank you for your kind words. All the best to you and yours

@westxranchin Жыл бұрын

Wonderful. Tearing up as usual

@MsJeannate11 Жыл бұрын

God damnit. He did it again. This man literally never ceases to amaze me.

@shaunmularz983 Жыл бұрын

From a California boy. This guy is one of the best artists ive ever come across. So thankful to find him

@Colbeagl3 Жыл бұрын

looking forward to seeing this grow to 1M+ views. Such a great voice and lyricist

@unapologetic1 Жыл бұрын

Be disagreeable son. Be a disagreeable person. Best advice I ever heard at a show

@kellogreklaw5213 Жыл бұрын

Nine years sober, but still bipolar as hell. Benjamin Todd is my creature comfort.

@eoindaly6374 Жыл бұрын

Hang in there man

@santsi7306 Жыл бұрын

Thank you miss Ashley mae and Ben. Music for the soul. Coincidence in how well the lyrics fit the time in mine and I'm sure several others lives. I'm glad your clean Ben. And you write about it. Thankful for y'all

@ervinromans5533 Жыл бұрын

Thanks to Ben and his music. I finally feel like I'm not alone in this life and on this planet. Thank you for everything Ben.

@Tully4Prez Жыл бұрын

This song gives me Hope. I've been on a journey of solitude, as I walk across America. Sharing Light, so others don't see the darkness I saw for 20 years.

@omgruokay2787 Жыл бұрын

My KZfaq needs to get better at suggesting videos, why am I just now finding this gem 🤔. Simply beautiful 👏

@GemsOnVHS Жыл бұрын

jump into our channel and find more.

@ryanellis7520 Жыл бұрын

Man this dude wails it. Just raw, honest, life. The world needs more storytellers like him.

@theclanofone Жыл бұрын

Every word is so poetic and personal. His song writing is what people say my poetry is. To connect with each person in a way that is so raw and soulful.

@lew-e Жыл бұрын

Love the music and love Kentucky. I keep telling my wife we need 50 acres in Kentucky and to forget all about Illinois

@lew-e Жыл бұрын

I just came back to this song and to write that same message. Guess I haven't changed my opinions much in 7 months! I'll see me again in the future

@blueoval250 Жыл бұрын

Talent like this is rare.

@brianrosnell3250 Жыл бұрын

Man's music can give you chills and steal the words out of your soul

@d.allanparrott7991 Жыл бұрын

Absolutely Sublime Ben, watching you grow as a Songsmith from humble Days of Busking to Your slice of the American Dream and Growing as A Man ... I must say this Elder music Man is Proud of You ! And will continue to support Your Career & Dreams. Bravo My Lil' Brother❗🙏🇺🇸💪

@marissamoreno3124 Жыл бұрын

I really needed this song.

@djafterlife1000 Жыл бұрын

I absolutely love each song of yours

@donteoklahoma7220 Жыл бұрын

Absolutely beautiful

@chrisatchley225 Жыл бұрын

This song rings to me.. I’m not sure if many quite understand what you mean about seeking salvation inside, and seeing the spite in the eyes of people that get blinded by the lies of culture.. Brilliant.. I like to believe that there are more like us out there that see the world the way you and I do. But when I heard this song I felt a lot less lonely. It would be pleasing to cross paths with individuals like us more often. I believe Ben is one of the many fallen angels here on earth to call lost souls to a higher place. Cheers to Ben for creating a timeless masterpiece. And congratulations on your meaningless success. I occasionally appreciate my own.😂

@shaneking2574 Жыл бұрын

Yet another amazing song. Thank you Benjamin

@laynesharp5821 Жыл бұрын

Can't stop replaying this over an over

@POVwithCOOK Жыл бұрын

Soooo amazing! Been needing more!

@misstwojoints Жыл бұрын

Everything Ben does is amazing. This, as well as the description are beautiful.

@xxkariexx1 Жыл бұрын

I missed my chance to see him a few weeks ago and I am so upset. His voice, his songs, his message, his vibe everything is just so beautiful.

@jaccolaan3664 Жыл бұрын

Priceless!

@boweewowee Жыл бұрын

Thank you sir for this.

@figuremeoutyourself Жыл бұрын

yalls uploads are always the best ty as always 😭💖

@sobehigh420 Жыл бұрын

Amazing. It hits my soul

@jeffreyjamison2701 Жыл бұрын

Another amazing song. First time I heard "Using Again" I broke down and cried like a baby sobbing. Only song I ever heard that put my exact thoughts to words. Thank you Ben and Gems.

@boweewowee Жыл бұрын

Bless up brother

@neptunianspiritwarrior Жыл бұрын

Always hits the nail on the head!

@corbanchildress8292 Жыл бұрын

"This life may be sad, but it is always beautiful." Couldn't have said it better myself. Thank you for existing Ben.

@whatever-gm6tm Жыл бұрын

So amazing.

@patrickgraham21 Жыл бұрын

Absolute masterpiece. You’re a gem. Can’t thank you enough, buddy.

@robeylemere Жыл бұрын

I’ve been struggling with the loss of my dad. I just want to say thank you for doing what you do.

@frankflint1943 Жыл бұрын

thank you for this.

@giovannicucca2042 Жыл бұрын

The way BT tells stories trough songs is just amazing. No matter 2 chords or 10 I could listen to him singing for hours. As a guitarist myself, It’s something that changed also my perspective in music writing: sometimes good lyrics and an incredible voice do not need too much guitar, it’s magical as it is.

@fergofns Жыл бұрын

Great song, love it.

@SabrinaAngel Жыл бұрын

Adore this man’s soul ❤️

@rootelated 10 ай бұрын

As a former train hopper, busker, and severe addict, Id like to say thank you Ben. I crawled out of my stupor after OD'ing in front of the EXDO center in denver, got high one more time and slowly got off of alcohol; married my wife who also got clean, and had a beautiful baby girl. Sara is 4 months old and perfect. Ive been sober off everything but tobacco and the occassional trip for more than 3 years now, I stopped counting or caring about the days after about a year. I make well over 100k a year now in West Virginia and YOUR MUSIC has been in every pore of mine and my wife's life for every bit of 4 years now? Its hard to say time flies. But dude your shit hits hard and as someone who lived and died by my mando to feed my fucking dog and my pack to carry my back..bro i feel it so hard. Thank you. Oi mf!!

@Vassara_ Жыл бұрын

Every damn time. What an artist!

@quantumgiggles2806 Жыл бұрын

You speak for my Soul, God Bless you Benjamin....❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🤗

@buckvanzyl Жыл бұрын

wow.....and thank you its beautiful....

@fckyoutube2852 Жыл бұрын

Another great song from a great artist.

@idahoman325 Жыл бұрын

If an emergency surgery were to be needed the surgeon when asked which tool to cut the deepest would have Ben Todd lyrics on the top of his choices. HolyfckShit this man is genius.