Clean off heroin for 13 days. It is a constant battle in my mind. It feels like I will never recover but I'm willing to fight. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time one second at a time. Pray for me.

Grimes just invented Space Country genre of music and I was here to witness it

This song still hits so HARD. Absolutely heartbreaking. This whole song sums up what loss and pain feels like. Cuts you so deep. Well done grimes.

Her range as a writer is simply amazing. One of her best songs ever.

Nobody's gonna talk about how she is literally sitting on Akira's throne?? Truly an anime queen

To anyone who listen to Grimes, please at least once get some high quality headphones and listen to her songs again, it's a whole new experience.

The lyrics, " Guess I fking love it, but I dont mean to" EXACTLY This is the struggle. Not wanting the poison.

Eight years clean from a decade on heroin this summer, and this song tore open the scars on my soul. It’s beautiful.

I really like being able to hear her lisp when she sings in this. It's cute.

I see a lot of people saying that Grimes is a drug addict or that she supports drugs, sure, the song doesn't blatantly say 'DRUGS ARE BAD DONT DO DRUGS,' but that is the message of the song. She's lamenting all the friends she lost from overdosing, and I don't see how that supports drug use in any way. She admitted to using them in the past, but I think the point of the song is that she has changed.

lost my mom and best friend to opiates.. i’m 6 years clean from heroine. i cry every time i hear this song

somebody help. it’s unhealthy how much i keep listening to this song

This makes me nostalgic for a year that doesn't exist

This song hits different when you're isolated

Lyrics: Lying so awake, things I can't escape Lately, I just turn 'em into demons Flew into the sun, fucking heroin Lately I just turn 'em into reasons and excuses Always down when I'm not up Guess it's just my rotten luck To fill my time with permanent blue But I can't see above it Guess I fucking love it But, oh, I didn't mean to I see everything, I see everything Don't you tell me now that I don't want it But I did everything, I did everything More lines on the mirror than a sonnet (woo!) Funny how they think us naive when we're on the brink Innocence was fleeting like a season Cannot comprehend, lost so many men Lately, all their ghosts turn into reasons and excuses Always down when I'm not up Guess it's just my rotten luck To fill my time with permanent blue But I can't see above it Guess I fucking love it But, oh, I didn't mean to I see everything, I see everything Don't you tell me now that I don't want it But I did everything, I did everything More lines on the mirror than a sonnet (x2)

One of the few musicians that's paying homage to the opioid crisis. I've lost a lot of friends, including one of my best I'd known since 4th grade, and I'm lucky to be alive after struggling with heroin & fentanyl.

this sound like the perfect song to listen when the world is ending and you know you did everything in your hand to prevent it and you just take the hand of your loved ones and go ahead with a smile in your face til the end. it resonates way too much with the feelings I have lately

I really like this song a lot more after reading the description. I lost my fiancé to heroin. I tried so hard to get him to quit his addiction for so long but I couldn’t. It made me feel like I failed. The grieving was so painful that I picked up and started using heroin for a while too to cope with his loss, and I even came close to death a few times. The guilt of possibly making other people go through what I went through was enough to make me stop. I’ve been a year and a half clean now. We also played banjo together a lot so I really like the addition of that plus the acoustic guitar.

"Always down when I'm not up Guess it's just my rotten luck To fill my time with permanent blue" - I don't know why I cried uncontrollably when she sang these lines. It just gets to me.

Her hair represents the passage of time. Those are old hair colors she has rocked at different times and you can see that she has grown and time has passed. She is literally back to her roots and her must natural state. But she hasnt cut the hair off, she hasnt let the past go. If you watch at 1:09 after she sings more “more lines on the mirror than a sonnet” which is an amazing line cause a sonnet is a poem that is 14 lines long, she says “woo!” and dabs like she is remembering partying then falls backwards in slow motion as if she’s been hit in the heart. She faces the other way with her arms similar to a dab but now she is crying and this one piece of body language is so deeply meaningful to me. It’s such a raw moment of yearning, reflection, sadness, and regret.

Grimes looks like a final boss character in a game that has high intelligence

It's like watching an empire in a far away galaxy that just got destroyed and Grimes the queen is the only one who survived, so she sits on her thrones alone while everything else around her has turned to ruins.

The fact that she has a lisp makes this song 10x better lol

I just love how she's influenced by different cultures' traditional music. The way it flows into her modern sound is so delicious to listen to.

This video looks like a moving tarot card, gorgeous x

Been a Grimes fan for 10 yrs and an addict (especially opiates) for 4 years, dedicating this year to recovery. Grimes' has gotten me thru some of the best and worst of life's trials this was the cherry on top... until next release Big Thank You for doing this

This song made me start playing guitar and actually it ain't going that bad

A few months after this was released, one of my best friends (who I saw Grimes live with 3x) overdosed. We played it at his funeral and every time I hear it I start crying - but I still listen to it multiple times a day lol. Fuck heroin, btw.

I NEVER thought I'd hear Grimes release music like this, but this shows how versatile and talented she is. Like wow, this song is amazing. Shows that she doesn't need a bunch of synths to make an amazing song. This is why I aspire to be a producer like her.

I have two years clean from heroin and honestly, I thought that I’d never get better. I remember telling my mom and siblings that this would be the reason I was going to die. I accepted my fate. I wasted so much precious time. I wasted my mind, my body, everything. But now I live a life beyond my wildest dreams. I have everything I’ve ever wanted and more. I’m two years clean and I never want to go back to that shit.

I always love how she credits everyone in the description etc. No other artist does that.

6 months clean off heroin!! I remember when I first heard this song about a year ago and it made me cry cause I felt hopeless like I was never gonna get off this drug.

"I can't see above it, guess I fuckin love it, but oh, I didn't mean to..." that line has the most significant meaning to me, no one in their lifetime becomes an addict on purpose.

I'll be honest, that acoustic shook me and made me look twice

‘Dying never felt so good’ my friends response when I told him his addiction was killing him.

One of my best friends died 3 years ago of an accidental overdose, we hadn't talked for months before it happened 💔. It still hasn't sunk in completely that she is gone. This song reminds me of her so much, I get chills. I feel like shes up in the sky floating around in space singing this song through the clouds.

Her braids are divided to six sections 3 each side (metaphor to her six friends who died due to heroin)

"Anyway, here's Wonderwall." - Grimes

This might actually be a perfect music video. Considering the transcendental beauty of the song itself, her breathtaking wardrobe, that magnificent set design, and the ruthless minimalism of the action in the video. Even if it's not truly perfect, it is 100% my favorite music video.

I love that you can actually hear her lisp in this song. Beautiful emotional song.

A K I R A T H R O N E

This sounds nothing like her other stuff, but it is still so "Grimes." I love her and her music.

When the beat drops at “1:12” and she’s just reflecting on how bad it is and the darkness of addiction with her head in her hands.. it breaks me everytime. Addiction is a demon. I’m 7 days clean just got out of rehab today, and I never want to go back to that shit but this is the longest time I’ve been clean from heroin/fentanyl for a long time. I’m so proud of myself. And everyone just stay strong, if I could do it, you could do it (: I love you

Insane how much difference a good pair of headphones can make when listening to music, I found Grimes songs weird with cheap headphones, but better ones open up so many listening opportunities. So much detail going on, replaying is not boring, it brings something new every time. love it 😊

If we ever go to Mars the national antheme will be composed by Grimes

First FKA twigs breaks her hiatus, and now Grimes. Life is good.

I will comment again. 5 years clean of heroin. Thank you Claire for this song. You understand so much without me caring but I owe you my life

On my way to rehab, finally escaped which a toxic addiction, man, lifestyle. So ready for change and feeling as if I can finally fucking breathe again. Fresh out of detox. The toxic abuser is gone, my bad habit is restrained. I’m so ready to fucking Live, Love, and Be a Better Me. Grimes I fuxking love you. I loved you before my meth addiction. Your music was my soundtrack during my journey all the way, from Rosa to WAP to Viloence the list goes on and now delete forever is the conclusion to me finishing detox and heading into treatment I’m so excited for my future however I’m ever so stoked just for what the day has in store for me. I love you all thanks xo also get help if you need it leave your abuser and quit beating yourselves up we are all fucked up but we have a choice how we love and live today love and light

okay but why is literally no one talking about the beautiful violin at the end??? I TEAR UP EVERY TIME

It looks like she's in Sailor Moon's destroyed Moon Kingdom

Fell in love hard when this first song came out 2 years ago, now its even more bittersweet sounding. Bittersweet is a great word for this piece of art.

Anyone who takes effort to express themselves. Truly are heroes. Express yourself and be criticize in the society. And deal with it. The universe loves you. I love you. Don't reply. Don't critique. Love and edify. It is what we all need.

Man. I'm honestly speechless. This song wasnt what I was expecting, but its everything I could want or need in a song. Absolutely beautiful, well done.

'But I can't see above it , Guess I fuckin love it!" this represents self-destructive behavior in such a deep and real way !!

Got me crying on the treadmill today

As a recovering heroin addict who can't even count the people I've lost on both hands, this song means a lot to me. ALWAYS CARRY NARCAN.

This song feels literally 1 minute long. It's so good

The way she represents self-harm and the guilt that comes with indulging in self-harm activities is so real, that even though I have never experienced such a thing -- I understand it now. This will go down as one of my favourite songs by Grimes, because it really hit me.

Innocence fleeing like a season……those 5 words just hits hard because I’ve seen a lot of my friends in high-school loose there lives to heroin and no other artist can put it like her.

Never tried heroin, but everything else and this song just so encapsulates addiction and all the hopes for getting over it and the lows for being in it. And also the cinematography in this video is perfect. It makes you feel like you’re escaping without having to. And slowly. That’s beautiful.

This song came out the day I came home from the hospital after having my daughter. I was dealing with severe postpartum depression and I played this song on repeat for hours while trying to push myself to properly care for her while my boyfriend was working. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. When I hear this song now, it's bittersweet because it reminds me of a dark time but also it's such a good song. Edit: I am doing much better and have a very happy little girl

When I first heard this I wasn’t feelin it, but her normal sound. But I gave it another try and I’m in love. Grimes is so fucking unique I love it. Every song has a different sound. No recycling, she just brings her art to life to beautifully.

my father just past away and i put this song on repeat i feel like i'm in different planet

This song makes me want to rewatch the Firefly series….so cool. Grimes is a truly rare talent.

Grimes is always ahead of the game

On a less somber note to the rest of the comments, Grimes' vocal performance here is one of her best, if not her best. I love how you can actually hear her normal talking voices lisp, and the country twang she inflects is just gorgeous. What's more the vocal melody is sublime, S-tier, phenomenal. Maybe it stems from the raw pain this song grew from, it just hits perfectly, so addicting. Honestly one of her best songs all round and that includes Oblivion, in my mind one of the most important and definitive songs post millennium. Grimes we love you

Wow... two years already, time is so fast.

This is badass, she created a cosmic queen and saw her empire crumble. That would be a good idea for a movie.

Clean off heroin for 2.5 years. 💪 Edit: Thank you so much for the likes and support. I'm overwhelmed by the positive response and didn't realize so many strangers could be this kind or open-minded. You guys make the world a better place and possible for others to heal.

I have always loved Grimes, but this song is so special and heavy and deep. My heart broke listening to this.

Idk what genre of music this is but I've been listening to it non stop for the past couple hours

The Akira imagery is so beautiful and perfect for this song

And this is Grimes. She looks the way she wants, does what she wants, and plays what she wants. This is the effect of freedom from music labels and music concerns. What I recommend to both musicians and listeners. Enjoy :D

this is so beautiful and really shows how's she's becoming more comfortable with her voice

Reading some of these comments while listening to this.. Oh my goodness, my heart 💔💝 It's sad and beautiful at the same time. It feels very bittersweet. We're all here for this song - for many different reasons and the same. This song is an endless supply of strength for all. Thank you Grimes ❤

My nephew lost his dad to opioid addiction. It’s rough to accept losing someone that way.

I’ve just discovered her ... omg I’m obsessed! this woman and her music has me euphoric! Her voice is hauntingly beautiful and she is unreal!

11 months and 6 days clean of opioids today. No friends, no family, no trust enough for therapy again. 1st Feb was my trauma anniversary, and this song is helping me recover. Thank you

This song gets me every time. The melody, her voice, the lyrics, the instrumentation. It’s exquisite. 🥺❤️

Violin at the end actually brought me to tears

Reminds me of the child empress from The Never-ending Story, right before Fantasia was almost fully destroyed by the Nothing

This comment section is the best, so much people sharing their thoughts and struggles, thank you for making such a different song

The most underrated Grimes song so far.

Somebody give Grimes her flowers! She deserves them 💐

The chair she’s sitting on Is tetsuo’s throne from Akira

I didn’t know what to expect when I saw she released this on Spotify the day it came out. I was walking home from work, and it became one of the most beautiful moments in my life. I’ve struggled with substance abuse and living with multiple mental illnesses for my entire adult life. The last two drugs for me to overcome have been caffeine and nicotine. I recently let go of the cigarettes, and have been feeling amazing. A big part of my struggles have been largely based on self-worth issues. The day this song was released was the first day I had felt amazing in a long time. Earlier on that day, the self-destructive thoughts started coming, making me doubt if I deserved to feel good, stable. But listening to this song on that walk home totally changed me. I got choked up, realizing that I do deserve it. That part in the chorus, “I see everything, I see everything,” hit me so hard. That night made this my favorite song. Thank you, Grimes.

Thank you grimes for helping us cope with our brokeness

Im addicted to this song. Dont change who you are for anyone Grimes

Anyone else get tears with how incredible this performance is? I remember when Grimes first started releasing music - so creative and artistically experimental. In her first few videos I remember her wild, unique dancing; the kind of flow that comes from one's soul, where you just let loose and let your vibe move you. It's like she's honed that creative, true part of her and it's both her defining superpower and her catalyst for evolution. Incredible that this is just her and who she is.

This is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.

How the fuck she can create such a vocal melody? This is extremely impressive!!!

Grimes music has a way of just being stuck in my head for most days.

This is becoming my COVID-19 quarantine theme song

Lying so awake, things I can't escape Lately, I just turn 'em into demons Flowing to the sun, fucking heroin Lately I just turn 'em into reasons and excuses Always down when I'm not up Guess it's just my rotten luck To fill my time with permanent blue But I can't see above it Guess I fucking love it But, oh, I didn't mean to I see everything, I see everything Don't you tell me now that I don't want it But I did everything, I did everything More lines on the mirror than a sonnet (woo) Funny how they think us naive when we're on the brink Innocence was fleeting like a season Cannot comprehend, lost so many men Lately, all the ghosts turned into reasons and excuses Always down when I'm not up Guess it's just my rotten luck To fill my time with permanent blue But I can't see above it Guess I fucking love it But, oh, I didn't mean to I see everything, I see everything Don't you tell me now that I don't want it But I did everything, I did everything More lines on the mirror than a sonnet (woo) I see everything, I see everything Don't you tell me now that I don't want it But I did everything, I did everything More lines on the mirror than a sonnet

Love that Banjo and Mandolin!

i always come back to this song in my moments of despair

she's gonna be the coolest alien mom ever 😢❤ bruh i just said she's cool why is everyone being negative nancies in the replies 😔

I love the fact that she uses Akira as reference.

I can’t stop listening to this song. It’s so beautiful. I wish I had found her earlier. This was a perfect introduction to her music. Made me fall in love with her talent and sound.

Love the not-very-subtle Akira reference. The final wide shot is amazing.