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@antrikter7 ай бұрын
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@crystalfonseca5986Ай бұрын
0:51
@user-yo1nv8oi6r9 ай бұрын
i feel nothing at all
@user-sl4eb3db9r6 ай бұрын
You just feel everything and it's so deep ((
@Literally_pinocchio6 ай бұрын
Same here but it's been going on for sooooo long
@YtsVilo6 ай бұрын
Only the pain in my chest
@skullqueen18266 ай бұрын
Wrdgaf
@E4J56 ай бұрын
Real
@cinnamongirl99910 ай бұрын
life is starting to feel like this again
@Derfaelschaer7 ай бұрын
I just want to be loved
@rapmusic3930Ай бұрын
I love you bro
@Theodore355Ай бұрын
I love you too, and Jesus can love you like no man nor woman
@Theodore355Ай бұрын
And He does love you like no other, remembering His sacrifice on the cross, for our sins
@Julial-tc23 күн бұрын
I love you and am ready to give you my soul
@MHB_0721 күн бұрын
@@rapmusic3930u don’t love him, stop lying
@Bappobaptist12310 ай бұрын
It’s crazy how winter of 2021 was the best and worst time of my life I was so suicidal but at the same time now that I look back I miss it so much, not being suicidal but life was just so much easier and calmer than it is now
@ry4nlol10 ай бұрын
real.
@thesillyboy41099 ай бұрын
Real
@YuiMei_DBD6 ай бұрын
hmhm..
@lakshtakundal11926 ай бұрын
same 😢
@moi-ev3pi4 ай бұрын
Nostalgia just makes everything feel better than it was
@tonyasa46588 ай бұрын
I saw her in winter of 2021, lost her exactly one year later. She still haunts my mind.
@espresso59908 ай бұрын
Yah please bless her soul and please heal the family, friends, and others. Toda Yah… I’m so sorry
@tonyasa46588 ай бұрын
@@espresso5990 She didn't pass away, she's just someone else's. It hurts to see, but life goes on
@armansinghbhati84468 ай бұрын
@@tonyasa4658mine passed away in the winter of 2022. It'll forever haunt me
@RTSclips7 ай бұрын
keep it pushing
@im.redflag6 ай бұрын
dont worry abt ppl like her, ik its hard to forget her but she doesnt deserve to be in your head:(
@soupe178 ай бұрын
This version comforts me in the moments where I feel the worst. The guitar gives the song an under tone of sorrow and misery but, the sort of piano like melody tells me how everything will be better one day
@barbecueman4 ай бұрын
i hate how i look when i cry. i hate how my lips pout, how my face scrunches, how my eyes squint. yet, i can't stop. i cant help but let the tears fall down to my chin and stain my cheeks. i cannot help desperately clutching to every good memory i have and replaying it repeatedly bittersweetly. i have to embrace the ugliness of each cry and sob until they fade.
@Ami-gb8uc10 ай бұрын
2020, many cries, many cuts.
@FiveNightsAtFreddys_15 ай бұрын
I feel like I’m experiencing my last moments in life and taking my last breaths
@roshi1k3964 ай бұрын
Are you still alive Bro?😧
@emilyborishkevich85724 ай бұрын
You good man?
@lucasaidanbowen4 ай бұрын
are you okay?
@Hadryn11 ай бұрын
This music. Has everyone feeling different emotions. But my own is constant repitition. The same thing over and over again. it brings me. a strange feeling of calmness of knowing nothing will change
@nup510 ай бұрын
I agree with this. looping the video put me in a trance, I almost fell asleep. great repetitive rhythms...!
@Cldxcamy3 күн бұрын
I want old times back , the times when school was fun , the time we used to go trick or treating and there would actually be candy and people with Halloween spirit , when really thick snow used to come on Christmas. I miss it .
@its.just_hanza13 сағат бұрын
This song makes me question “why do I even exist?” Because I grew up with strict parents and they basically yell at me for every wrong decision that I have made, and this song comforts me.
@jjaredrdrigzz9 ай бұрын
I cannot wait to listen to this all autumn-winter 2023
@Solid_Snak39 ай бұрын
same, it will be the best feeling of our lives.
@zitzonrblx4429 ай бұрын
@@nightf879 nostalgia will go crazy
@ssophh2228 ай бұрын
doing that rn
@Dready1417 ай бұрын
ong ( it doesnt snow where i live)
@Breezepm2 ай бұрын
@@Dready141real…
@keyomerd52049 ай бұрын
the thumbnail got me to click it, the rest of it literally stunned me, such a powerful winter restlessness...
@Helluvaheaven4 ай бұрын
I just want to be myself. Guys, we don't know each other, but I wish you all were happy and loved, good luck in life, your dreams and plans will definitely come true, just believe in it.
@Menevolence4 ай бұрын
I feel you man. Everyone says "be yourself" then you realize no one likes you for who you are but rather what can you provide them. Good luck to you too brother. May we all find peace.
@Helluvaheaven3 ай бұрын
@@Menevolence Yes, I understand, it just happens that for each person you have your own personality, and when you realize that you can't find yourself, you start to wonder if I really make sense? But when you realize that life is life, and it is not clear what can be expected from it, then you begin to understand that this is not the end, even if the situation is so bad that it seems to you that there is no way out, then it is not so.There is always a way out, it's just that not everyone can handle it.
@Albert_Jaeger3 ай бұрын
I just want to be better than what i am, i just want to wake up and not hate myself, i just don’t want to make the people i love angry and nervous becouse of the problems i cause, i just want to be happy and make the people around me, even stranger, happy too. I hate myself.
@Helluvaheaven3 ай бұрын
@@Albert_Jaeger It’s a familiar feeling, two months ago I had a deep depression, but I did it, I’m sure that you will succeed too, don’t give up while you have time, there is a way out, even if you don’t see it yet.”
@Albert_Jaeger3 ай бұрын
@@HelluvaheavenToday i turned 17, it’s been ten years now that i feel and am like that, i don’t think it will get better, but thanks for the kind words.
@sako3xx6 ай бұрын
idk if i can do it anymore.
@sako3xx4 ай бұрын
barely thuggin this shi out 🤣🤣
@FiveNightsAtFreddys_15 ай бұрын
I feel calm yet sad. I feel like I can’t breathe
@whotrynamrdАй бұрын
is love too much too ask for?
@ABD-jx3ki3 ай бұрын
It brings me pain in my chest as if it was my last day
@Mangonade694203 ай бұрын
Therapy is expensive but turning to christ is free
@blackdahliafn Жыл бұрын
this song makes me feel like im in the waiting area between two realities, idkkk
@lovzerr Жыл бұрын
fr
@ssophh22211 ай бұрын
yess
@noog675610 ай бұрын
A liminal space. The transitional space between whatever you imagine, could be a hallway, or an empty school were students used to roam. Some may find it eerie, calm, or both.
@MdabdunnurKhan9 ай бұрын
This is the song i listened to while waiting for my plane to arrive before starting college in a different country. It did indeed feel like two realities.
@nikaantia80227 ай бұрын
id what? that's a lovely organisation you got there, where can join
@user-mo9xb1cu9k8 ай бұрын
I hate myself
@FrogsonGames3 ай бұрын
Don’t ur a god in the works everyone is .
@viridianarodriguez7217Ай бұрын
me too..
@seezymountАй бұрын
don't
@synthchad766722 күн бұрын
Don't, God loves you, even if you don't love yourself
@yusepsalazar38154 күн бұрын
Don’t because just imagine what you worked for and what went well
@Am.1888Ай бұрын
It's quiet, but it's not quiet
@twilightskyyyy.019 ай бұрын
Each time I revisit this version of the song, it's like revisiting a piece of my past, especially when life feels like a weight on my shoulders. It evokes those moments of pure happiness, back when everything seemed perfect, even though I didn't realize it then. I look forward to returning to this song not when I'm feeling down, but when I'm in a better place, so I can reflect on how far I've come. 🤎
@g_k6s9 ай бұрын
got me overthinking💯💯🔥🔥🗣🗣
@rafidnabil91544 ай бұрын
I wish I could stand under this lamp post in the middle of the night and listen to this music. It would be an amazing experience.
@laylakindafruity3 ай бұрын
When life feels like this song:
@arise_femto Жыл бұрын
same shit, different day.
@gtyyttrffftftf573011 ай бұрын
Real
@identificadornormal2 ай бұрын
so change it
@ethanhananel5698 ай бұрын
I feel like im losing sleep Waking up before the crack of dawn Go to the gym to earn my keep Feelings wash over as i slowly mourn As the sweat drips down my face Stinging my eyes as i am reborn Like a pheonix from the ash Maybe this time it will warm my core
@user-yf2cn5pm2rАй бұрын
I made a very serious mistake, I can't reverse it and I feel very guilty, I just want to be loved again :(
@nup510 ай бұрын
me when 2020-2022. those combined years were defined by a deep funk, that I couldn't shake. almost dropped out of college due to my brain utterly crapping itself. I have since recovered. but that was not a good 3-year window. reality sure does hit hard... and it holds no punches! doesn't matter if you're knocked down, or even knocked out. if life's got more punches to throw, it *WILL* throw them at you. you'd be wise to prepare yourself for anything. and I mean anything, all at once. kinda what happened to me, and I couldn't handle it for a few years
@lxcy019010 ай бұрын
spectrum wording
@nup510 ай бұрын
@@lxcy0190 it is what it is.
@antweboo9 ай бұрын
I think of the cold nights I got through the past 5 years, I am only just now truly reaching happiness and acceptance. The cold nights aren't cold anymore, and I don't feel the loneliness or burn of nicotine anymore. I don't wanna jinx it, but I truly feel free. Free of the grasp of the ghosts and demons of my past, and free of the chains that held me down for so long. It's, surreal.
@nup59 ай бұрын
I know that feeling. I've only ever felt it once, and even then... I'm not certain it's completely over. Surreal realities are often the least understood; we're talking about a level of emotion that can't be easily put as words. My comment may not mean much, then. But I hope this finds you well.
@antweboo9 ай бұрын
@@nup5 stay safe brother
@Reelprankstergangster10 ай бұрын
This hit hard in winter 2022 but it wasn’t till February 2023 is when the mystery illness we’ve all been experiencing for the last couple of months began haven’t felt myself all year numb
@vortexink8837 ай бұрын
Your scaring me at how relatable this comment is can you elaborate more.
@bobiznc294Ай бұрын
tha feeling that will become when i listen to this song .......😔
@alnajjar10685 ай бұрын
After my father died. I started listening to this song. I feel his loss so much I just want to be by his side. I want to hug him. I feel like I want to give up....
@Tep900012 күн бұрын
This song feels like a dark Strom awaits you in your journey as to see if your able to reach your goal
@che_marley5 ай бұрын
Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve those challenged by serious and chronic mental and emotional illnesses. Give your power of healing to those who minister to their needs, that they may be strengthened in their weakness and have confidence in your loving care; through Jesus Christ our Lord.Amen
@bakhmannn2 ай бұрын
In my restless dreams, I see that town
@LaithSamman3 ай бұрын
2 years clear from hugs 😂😂 (help)
@user-iq1dp8pc1c29 күн бұрын
4..
@albertodolores Жыл бұрын
Una sonrisa del momento Un recuerdo del ayer El se mata en pensamientos Por momentos que no van a volver .
@viniical11 ай бұрын
¿Escribiste esto tú mismo?
@muramic10 ай бұрын
Beautiful ❤️
@Zemiaza10 ай бұрын
I feel very weird. Like I’m going to cry and I don’t know why. I’m relaxed any somehow conflicted, tired too.
@Diagoooo6 күн бұрын
I miss her so much.
@bbyd0lly9 ай бұрын
no matter how many times I play this song, it never fails to make me cry. I’m crying rn don’t know what I’m doing with life I been like this since he left it’s sad he moved on so quickly like I meant nothing to him, I just want someone to text when something makes me happy or text someone my proud moments knowing they will actually be proud of me, it’s hard to move on especially when you loved someone that much. Everyone says I will move on, I try to smile then let it out at night laying in bed. im not sure if he even cares, I hope he does because I really cared for him.. pls leave suggestions on how I can move on step by step.
@Nazevk9 ай бұрын
Sorry for what you have to go through, I know it hurts I’ve gone through it the same thing before. There’s no method or trick to carry on with life after a person, you just have to understand that the more you leave yourself in that position the more it will hurt the more it will affect you. You won’t be able to be happy if you’re living life of sadness because of a person, the best thing you could do is to focus on other things, start life projects, but don’t let a person tourn you apart from the inside because of a breakup. Here’s a life lesson, you never really fall in love with a person, you fall in love with the dream, a whispering fantasy. Any love is a fantasy. Don’t look for that person anymore, try looking for yourself. You won’t be able to move on if you don’t stay strong, if you don’t let the person go. Everything in life is not about how much a person is depending on you, how much they say they love you, how much they care. What matters is how big their heart is for you, their actions, their words. I recommend staying single, stay single for a while, for months perhaps. I haven’t dated someone in 4 years, I’ve noticed how sadness and depression wasn’t getting me nowhere. Don’t try chasing someone who wouldn’t want you back, not worth it. Trust in the Lord your God, pray to him ask him for directions, to guide your life, to change you. Seek him, you won’t be able to do this by yourself. In Psalm 34:4-5 says “I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.” Stay strong, takes time to move on, you will be alright.
@martinchircoff90609 ай бұрын
I broke up with her a year and a half ago, i hated her, hated the relationship and how she treated me, i gave everything of me to make her life perfect and in the process i forgot about mine. I lost friends, I argued with my family, I made my little brother cry, I did things, said things that I simply can't forget and can't forgive. I continued with my life though, I'm studying and doing pretty well, I'm going to the gym, I've never looked better, I feel so strong and mature but it still feels as if I'm the same guy who lost everything and has no direction. I accepted the fact that we broke up, I let her go and moved on, but I being in a relationship is the thing that hunts me, being in live with someone and creating memories is the feeling that I most want. But it's not there, im alone, i haven't met anyone. That doesn't mean that there isn't hope, I understood that there are things that are suppose to happen, there are moments that need to happen in order to become someone bigger and better. Look at yourself in the mirror and embrace what you've become and will become, someone beautiful, powerful and capable of being human.
@willowum7 ай бұрын
Bu şarkıyı dinlediğimde çaresizlik üzüntü hissediyorum. Bazende daha farklı, bilmiyorum eskilerin vibe ını veriyor gibi. Garip
@Lu9cii Жыл бұрын
This is pure depression
@benyounesshayder12016 ай бұрын
The monsters was under the bed but now theyre in my head
@chomp72711 күн бұрын
wow when i found this song i was just happy to finally have found a calm relaxed not super sad sleeping music. for some its the same like for me and for some its rly sad. stay safe and strong people! one day! :c
@elizabeth.anastasiaa11 ай бұрын
I can’t wait for winter
@nicolasbruno82910 ай бұрын
Same, I want that warm, soft, quiet, nostalgic night-luminance back 😭
@tezaksam52479 ай бұрын
@@nicolasbruno829i feel like when its winter time its like to look back what youve done and to look what will you do,it feels so surreal and its like when time stops just weird and i want that because im unhappy,this summer was so bad i worked a whole summer,no one ever checked on me,i was just alone going from job to my house alone,and i was hoping to be different than school but it wasnt,no friends no memories nothing to remember but still it was so bad that i will remember that period for the rest of the life Sorry for english
@nicolasbruno8299 ай бұрын
@@tezaksam5247 Yeah, you described it perfectly I love that. I hope you can find peace this winter and afterward, we'll all be looking for it, and I guess we just have to trust that life has good and bad times. Also don't beat yourself up, everybody learns languages at their own pace and I understood everything. 👍
@tezaksam52479 ай бұрын
@@nicolasbruno829sorry bro for not answering and in last week i really took life seriously,im trying my best and thats giving me hope for december when like i said for me time stops. And i appreciate your answer and i hope you are doing good.
@nicolasbruno8299 ай бұрын
@@tezaksam5247 Thanks and dw, prioritize life always. I hope you are doing good and keep getting more hope… See you in December 👍
@realahhjigga11 ай бұрын
i wish i could go back to being my happy 6 year old self before everything happened.
@adamarrudadelima3089 ай бұрын
Will this never end?, Will it be the same thing for my whole life?, I can't take this anymore
@G.0.A.T1009 ай бұрын
You know that feeling, when you just wanna feel what feeling last felt like, that feeling that actually feels like what it's like to feel..yea..I can't feel it anymore (I'm going insane)
@69nCRACKED11 ай бұрын
If I lose her I lose everything.
@gamerh.t34396 ай бұрын
I am so tired from this feeling I am so empty same shit every day like it's been 2 years now i am getting exhausted I just wanna know did this feeling will stop I really want it to stop i can't resist anymore same thoughts every night same feeling every morning hope one day i can feel happy when i am alone If someone passed this situation please tell me
@juanenriquemendoza76536 ай бұрын
Look towards the future, not the past. Stand strong, find hope in something you truly believe in. Set a goal, something bigger than yourself, something bigger than “happiness,” “pleasure,” or “joy.” Bet it on purpose Make it about your PURPOSE find hope in that. Never stop fighting for what you believe in. Believe in yourself to support the people who you need you the most, including yourself Find hope in purpose, find hope in the future. What happened in the past, happened It IS, inarguably, history. Stop looking behind you. Eyes up, and focus on what’s in front of you, the ambitions you’ve set out for yourself. Move forward. Rage… Fight… always.
@nanabaydoun664811 ай бұрын
Obsessed >>>>
@fran1115 ай бұрын
Esta canción, se siente como el final feliz de una película triste.
@donniewalters00 Жыл бұрын
poison tree and limerence have my heart
@zxraiiedits11 ай бұрын
Fr tho love them both sm ❤
@br1tico4749 ай бұрын
Today I listened to an old audio of hers and I felt sad and started to tear up because I miss her, I liked her but I realized that I lied to myself and I still miss her And I told myself that I didn't feel anything anymore and I would never love again and I'm not going to say goodbye, that's just me venting. Goodbye guys, take care of yourselves
@yaboibroter6 ай бұрын
Crazy how everyone wants to feel sad.
@BecauseThe-zd4ee2 ай бұрын
This reminds me of 2020😢
@ybzuqАй бұрын
whenever I listen to this song, it automatically brings me back to him. I remember when we listened to this song together while we were watching the stars together. Although it was dark and totally cold. He told me that the Poison tree reflected his feelings. Poison tree is not only the definition of depression but deeper love. We have known each other for many years now and have loved each other for so long, I have loved him. I am wearing now a necklace with a poison tree on it to remember him. To remind me of us. I love you
@johnhonaker29985 ай бұрын
This song makes me feel like I'm jumping out of reality .
@Kitkit89725 ай бұрын
i feel like every time i take a step forward i go 4 steps back
@ykufw.J4 ай бұрын
I've been through so much pain I don't feel it anymore I just know it's there.
@camilleryanАй бұрын
bro, everytime I watch this video, I always get an add beforehand telling me I might be having symptoms of depression that I should get checked... the fact its before this video makes me laugh everytime.
@-OopossummzO Жыл бұрын
Infinite IKEA vibe
@davidmtuedwa3165Ай бұрын
for even though ive always been told that seasonal change is inevitable: why does my winter never seem to grow old?
@chrishelm77546 ай бұрын
I feel like I’m alone on a bench in a snow storm watching life pass by
@ngl.evd0Ай бұрын
its.. beautiful...
@bugbo1111Ай бұрын
It’s just relaxing in a way even tho it’s like linimal space
@Gnarp_darp9 ай бұрын
This gives me such a vibe.
@lucasaidanbowen4 ай бұрын
I am in love with him so much. He doesn't even know I look him in that way, but I cannot stop thinking about him, he haunts my mind and that's crazy how I love him. I know he thinks he's worthless, I just want him to know he is unique. He is the loyalest, kindest person on the entire world. I want to hug him, feel him in my arms, feel his heartbeat. In my dreams I'm in a field of dandelions and wishing on every one that he'd be mine. I can't live without him. I can't even fall in love with anybody else, I just want him.
@Isitmatthew Жыл бұрын
I listened to this 30 times already
@breadgernades140510 ай бұрын
thats 2 hours bro u good?
@erion_yt2639 ай бұрын
@@breadgernades1405 i dont think anyone listening to this is good
@cartervonbroda26918 ай бұрын
i fell asleep w this on 10 hours
@Funk0_ Жыл бұрын
This picture reminds me of the winters we had in Colorado when I was a kid.
@Ceylin-yn8cl9 ай бұрын
Reminds me of 2021.
@karmina_11 ай бұрын
New favorite song for sure, tysm
@cartervonbroda26918 ай бұрын
i fumbled her🥱
@Ava245289 ай бұрын
I love this song sm
@user-pf8qy3kl4m6 ай бұрын
this is the most calming music i ever lisiend 2 i love u bru take care
@havvanurozturk336 ай бұрын
Keşke bu yılda böyle karlar görsek ama küresel ısınmadan dolayı her yıl azalıyor 2024❤
@RV.shorts49620 күн бұрын
I lost everyone, i don't have anyone, i am all alone, she left, don't know what to do, voices getting louder
@user-gl7qs9yv7o18 күн бұрын
Talk to someone you can trust and if you can't please talk to a therapist about this ❤
@Kidjoshua1214 күн бұрын
Ok bro look she left you and it’s a good thing she did cuz you still have more time In life and you will find someone better and just cuz she left you doesn’t mean your whole family left so spending more time with family is better then just a girl
@Jin_Sakai7111 ай бұрын
Winter 2019-2020…
@wynxamatina5 ай бұрын
I find this calming❤
@marspIanet2 ай бұрын
i feel like i HAVE to show how good this song is, but i cant express in words.
@hzm.d501910 ай бұрын
bro i used to listen to this shit back in winter 2022
@adn-pyro7051Ай бұрын
Oh beautiful poison tree... let your power grow in meeee
@dvnxeАй бұрын
𖣂
@zone50368 ай бұрын
The song of this winter
@nolangonzales8534Ай бұрын
There's nobody for me back home, and there never has been.
@RH3TTWA1K3R5 ай бұрын
My hamster just passed away, this made me get all my tears out in a good way.
@cjshutup8 ай бұрын
i love the small guitar plucks so much
@Itsfreakinjer2 ай бұрын
I miss the love of my life.
@Iuvzach6 ай бұрын
Bro it's 5:49 AM and I haven't gone to bed yet, i'm a fucking mess I swear to god.
@blanco09493 ай бұрын
had the worst deppresive episode of my life in 2021-2022 and listening to it now literally makes my chest hurt from memories of listening to it during that time.
@aarontapp-xi8sc9 ай бұрын
I think 2012-2019 were the best years of my life. I am 16 now but I wish those times would last. I have so many regrets. I wish me and this girl name Brianna would continue to love each other as we used to but since she is in Florida and I am in the Midwest of the united states this was never possible. I rarely see or talk to her anymore. I have so many feelings balled up inside me I just wanna release them here or anywhere but I must continue to be strong for me and my family and friends.
@aarontapp-xi8sc9 ай бұрын
Brianna If you ever see this message just know I will always love you even if you move on and I won't stop you from living the best possible life you can.
@TheFlaminOctanesАй бұрын
"who have you become?" better than who i was before.
@buniiprincess11 ай бұрын
GODDDDDDDDDDD i wish I appreciated the time I had with you I wish I held you more I wish I kissed you more I wish I smelled you more lol I wish I pulled you in more I love you so much at the beginning I wasn’t thinking of the limited time and it went past me so quick without me even realizing. You saved my life, you made me realize that even in this fucked up world I can have you to rest my head on when things got too hard, you were always there for me , you didn’t judge me or my feelings or when all I did was cry uncontrollably… I keep thinking about the little things we did together and it keeps making me cry knowing it’s being taken away from me, i was so stubborn and didn’t realize it till later, i played dumb , you stood by throughout all of my nonsense and made me believe I could be lovable. I love you because you make me feel things; my emotions are on fire when I’m with you, I get to forget about myself for a bit. You did that , I love you so much. And I never want to let go of a part in my life that had you in it because you’re all that could ever make me happy. Please don’t forget me, I will love you forever
@dielcastro7710 ай бұрын
Sei lá mano, é triste mas eu gosto ✨💜
@lavishty_ Жыл бұрын
This is a vibe, thank u ❤
@bryanmontenegro488513 күн бұрын
After leaving the hospital ive been at a state of extreme numbness mentally.