As a Veteran with PTSD SLIPKNOT has help me push through the shit.

this is new information to me. In 2010 or 2011 I had the privilege of having several personal conversations with Corey while I was struggling with a divorce and Medical Discharge from USMC from a suicide attempt after finding out my wife had been unfaithful the whole time we were married. I wonder if those conversations way back may have been something Corey remembered. Slipknot has always been a voice I had stripped away as a kid raised in Church. Corey and I had some deep conversations about that. I will not be so vain to think I inspired anything, but I am humbled to think it is possible and I am thankful to know he is supporting my brothers and sisters who suffer from PTSD as I continue to fight through

Dam didn't know that that's cool as shit

😂

he started the band and is it's original drummer as well as backing vocals and percussion. he also directs most of the music videos and etc

@@jakedergeist he also hits that thang and makes it ting.

@@jakedergeist You forgot, he fires people too, and "contracts" people to play for the band, they don't actually get to join. :P

@@jakedergeist sean is a business man, and is more into film than music. "Artistic" but not a very talented musician lol

From Micro: Yes, it is really discouraging when happiness seems to be nothing but a distant dream in our own journey. Everyone around us talk about it, so many self-help books and methods are overcrowding libraries shelves and social media, but as much as the recipe seems simple for some, it becomes a real challenhr for others. Then you start comparing yourself to others, you see them - seemingly happy - or at least having some sense of ownership in their life, and you wonder why you don't, feeling even more hurt and alone. So many times I personally asked myself if I wasn't just too broken or too far gone for the very possibility of experiencing genuine happiness. Not just as some very short and fading experience, but as something that could feel a little bit tangible and lasting. Something to hold on to without fearing the moment it would be gone. It's definitely hard to live in a world where happiness is this goal that everyone is pressured to pursue, but to feel like being constantly walking on the wrong path, towards the wrong direction where nobody else seems to be. It feels like there is a piece of the puzzle that is missing and you have no clue how to get it, despite trying your best to find it. I feel the exhaustion through your words, and the temptation to embrace some kind of resignation in the face of repeated hurt and disappointment. And honestly if that's how you feel, then that makes completely sense. There are seasons in our life when it feels like there's only so much we can take in again, only so much sorrow and brokenness we can process. It's not even the pain that hurts, it's this added feeling on top of it that you would be doomed to be stuck in an endless repetition, of having your hopes high only to see it turn to ashes over and over again. Somehow, it feels safer to just give up on hope itself, on the idea of reaching this seeingly unreachable goal one day. When you set your expectations to your level of disappointment, you avoid the possibility of being more hurt, at leastin theory. For what it's worth, to me personally there have been barriers at play that I took a long time before acknowledging. Unprocessed traumas and clinical depression have been major obstacles to reaching happiness - at least in the way I was conceiving it. I spent a lot of time surviving before realizing that I was heading into a direction that was at the complete opposite of what I needed. But the moment I started to identify those struggles, the moment I started to be helped in recognizing it and working on it, I also started to see that I am not too broken - I was just dealt with cards I had yet to process. A unique story that also needed to be told, even if there are lots of ugly parts in it. I guess my point in sharing this, is that you may not have to give up on hope, and even less on your right to live the life you aspire to get. Of course, it's okay to feel tired and even more to express it. There may paths in between though, complex and uncomfortable paths, but ones that could lead you to new ways to know and meet yourself at a deeper level. You are not the problem. Even if for example with depression my ability to feel happiness is affected, I can still see beauty in unexpected places and people that are a part of my life. Although it took - and will keep taking - practice in order to learn to see differently, with my own tools, resources, with who I am - and not from who others/society would want me to be. We can't all "just" do yoga and have walk outside to feel better, but we can still explore, experiment while being gentle with ourselves, and see what resonates the most with our heart. My hope for you is that you will keep trying, for you, for the very possibility of *feeling* alive again and whole, even beyond any sense of specific joy. You deserve to feel wonder again through this beautiful heart of yours. You deserve to feel a renewed sense of discovery - within you and in resonance with the world around you. You really do. Hold Fast, friend. I believe in you. - Micro

I’m totally jaded. I don’t believe that love is real. Totally jaded from a 15 year marriage to a narcissist who gaslit me for 15 years.

I think I see where you are coming from. I found out that "happiness" is a not a goal or a place you reach, its a short term episode, a moment to cherish. Its not supposed to last for an extended period of time and its good that its that way! I need to have these ups and downs, otherwise I cant appreciate the good moments in the same way when I do not experience the dark and bad moments. I see life as just like a heart-monitor by now - it needs to peak up and down, otherwise you´ll end up with a flat line - and a flatline means you´re dead, not necessarily physically but emotionally. I know times when I'm down in a hole (which I quite often dug myself) and barely able to get a positive peak together, but these times go by. For me a part of remedy is not to take myself and the world around me too serious and to not lose my sense of humor. Even when I have nothing to laugh about, I`m still able to laugh at my own stupidity, pettiness, close-mindedness, etc.. I´m not sure if you genuinely cant feel happiness or if you are searching for something that IMHO does not exist at all (happiness for a prolonged period of time) and keep overlooking the small moments of happiness along the way. This I just how I feel about "the pursuit of happiness" and how I try to handle my depressive episodes and is not necessarily applicable to you and your situation!

That's about right

i think the problem is the desire of happiness. seek peace, not happiness.

And Paul Gray

Joey was sick on the drums it’s not the same with ought him r.i.p ❤

Well i dont think they are "angry music" ppl just listen to the "screams" but there's so much more behind all that.

It also works with sinus headaches

maybe because headaches are mostly caused by pressure in your head, puting pressure on your eyes (wich are directly rellied to the brain) sends the signal tha there is more pressure elsewhere, like it changes the place of the pain and gives a releif on your nerves.

but i'm no specialist

it also works with my paroxysmal supraventricular tachycardia

@@hugofortintruchon5298 There is a hierarchy of sensation, with pain at the lowest priority. Next is pressure, it think, then awareness of where your body is in relation to itself ie the position its in. This is why walking it off is a real thing. It gets other stimuli going that are a higher priority than the pain. This is a very, very, basic representation of Pain Gate Theory. Check it out if you'd like to know more, or at least know the proper hierarchy, cause the way I ordered it may be wrong, I do know for a fact that pressure is a higher priority than pain. This video is a relatively brief explanation of how it works. kzfaq.info/get/bejne/nt1dqat3lrLWoY0.html The body is designed to survive, and if you are being attacked by a predator, pressure on your body give you more useful information for your escape than pain does. Pain tells you damage has been done. Pressure tells you where things are, and are not. Running doesn't do any good if you are trying to run through the tree at your back. Also, knowing where your body is in space is critical to surviving as well. You can't escape if you don't know how to arrange yourself and limbs to be able to run or fight back.

Love your take on this line. A powerful reminder of how important it can be to distinguish between what we can change from what we can't. So easy (and tempting) to fall into the trap of dwelling on things we have no control over... just for the illusion of control it gives, even if it's only an illusion.

Especially after "I've wished for this, I've bitched at that, I've left behind this little fad" brings more to this meaning. Complain all you want but eventually you just have to get on with life and let people ruin their own instead of yours.

It's funny because when I was younger I had this engraved on my iPod (yeah that old) but at the time it was more along the lines of "you didn't make me, I made me. No matter what you do only I can destroy me." It was more of an outward expressed rebellious tone but in time it became more internal wisdom like a reminder that " *I* can't kill what *I* did not create" so why worry about it?

I agree. And most times I show someone Snuff, they don’t believe its really Slipknot.

The acoustic live performance Corey Taylor did is my favorite version for sure.

me personallyy i dont like snuff, dead memories is a much better non metal style song

I love .5 The Gray Chapter

Snuff is definitely one of my favorites

I just hate how the music video cuts so much audio from the studio tracks 😢

The first time I realised it was when I did it as I was listening to the song 😭 I was like hold on a second

I mean yeah, but also the reason behind the headache being the thoughts in your head repeating and killing your brain.

@@its-aydonus6842 Or allergies.

I thought it was about turning left onto a busy street from a parking lot 😂

I get migraines and cluster headaches. Sometimes I could swear my eye is going to explode, and you have to dig your fingers in to keep it contained.

From Micro: Congrats on the active recovery, friend. Really. Addictions are such tough beasts to tackle, and I imagine all the steps it took you to get to this very point of being in a stage of active recovery. From the recognition of the struggle itself, the brutal reality check it takes to say "I'm not okay and I need help", the willingness to change direction when something inside you insists on moving you towards sabotaging yourself, the welcoming of others help and support into your life, the recognition of your own strengths and resources... and the bravery to share it here. That's so many steps you've been taking, so many milestones reached, so much resilience gained over time. I don't know if you ever took time to celebrate it all - or even just some of it - but I really wanted to acknowldge it here. You are amazing, and I wholeheartedly believe in you as you are on this healing journey, especially as you also navigate the realms of depression. That's something I deeply resonate with - the days when you just don't feel much and want to stay stuck in bed are a real hurdle, too often invisible to others. For what it's worth from a stranger like me... I see you, I see your efforts, I see your strength through it all. The nights of utter loneliness and desperation you had to walk through, and the beauty of learning to bloom again now, differently. May music keep being a catharsis, as much as you need, and may your path keep unfolding towards healing, towards the life you aspire to have, towards the emotional safety you deserve to know. You got this. - Micro

From Micro: PS - Nero Forte is my fav - suuuch powerful energy and lyrics. +1 on seeing a reaction on it! :heart:

And then this one is about having a headache

MAGGOTS - ASSEMBLE

Plus the fact that race/gender/social class/whatever, doesn’t matter. They are there for the music and to get some awesome catharsis though kick ass music.

@@Jim87_36 fr the video slaps so hard

or “Gently” :)

Corey found the story online and thought it was a true story and wrote the song, then it turned out it was a copyrighted story for a fictional crime scene investigation website, the author sued the band, they removed Frail Limb Nursery (which directly sampled the story's audio files) and Purity, eventually the lawsuit and website went away and the band was able to use Purity again in albums (they played it live)

Cool recommendation Sarah, love this 🔥

@@JesseLarrian of course dude!

From Micro: @lucky13driver A career like yours is pursued out of passion, meaning, purpose. You don't get into it with only half of your soul involved. But along the way, it pushes you to feel as if you have to lose parts of yourself too, which freaking hurts. Life in general doesn't have the same shape once you see people in their darkest and most vulnerable moments. When you see in the eyes of someone the shock and despair someone can experience in a situation of emergency, as well as how fragile and uncertain life can be. There is, without a doubt, a before and an after when you witness all of this, and I imagine how much it must feel at times like this process gets repeated each time you are called for a new situation. The mind can block it all and creates a needed numbness at times, but there are moments when the day goes silent, when you can finally breathe more slowly, but also when it must feel like your start taking the measure of all the things you've seen. I hope that you manage to rely on your loved ones, even possibly on professional support as much as you need. Helpers need help, and the job you are doing is definitely one of a kind. You make such a beautiful impact on people's lives by being there when they need you the most. But you also deserve the same care, and to have people supporting you. No matter how ugly it can be to talk about it, you deserve allies by your side who are ready to listen unconditionally and without any judgment. Just for you to have the possibility to breathe again at other stimes and seeing the beauty around you, even if retirement is in four years. You are not alone my friend. Thank you for what you do, but even more thank you for sharing about how it affects you. Oftentimes, people are afraid of talking about the trauma they experience in the "care" field, for there is this unsaid expectations of having to be the strong one. But at the end of the day, we're all human beings. And when you recognize how your job affects your mental health, it's not only opening a door to help you, but also to offer an even better support to those who need it. There is something profoundly beautiful and transformative in expressing the burdens we've been carrying, and the images that get stuck in our mind at night. Proud of you for doing it here, friend. I'm rooting for you. :heart: -Marie-Anne, Heartsupport Staff

From NateTriesAgain: Yeah, there's something cathartic when lyrics literally express these deep thoughts that get stored within us from traumatic experiences. It's scary AF when all of a sudden someone pulls a gun on you and you realize how vulnerable your life is. It's such a violent expression of powerlessness. And it is jarring to our normal human experience of mutual trust and respect - like on a base level...you're human, I'm human, life is hard, we're in this together...and yet when moments like that happen, it shatters that kind of fundamental humanity, and it makes life feel awkwardly fragile. And there's anger to that - it feels like such an injustice for someone to be so selfish to put you in that position. I feel like these lyrics really speak to that anger at the injustice of it - like why would you do that?! And it's something that your heart feels the need to shout, feelings that were birthed in fear and need an expression. Thank you for sharing that here.

@HeartSupport I thought about it and if you needed to chose one of those Linkin Park would be the best. I'll never forget when I saw them at new years eve Y2K 2000 concert at the Silver Dome / Pontiac Michigan. I saw them live many times after but that was my first time seeing them live. I really really would like to understand the lyrics better and see if you can decode maybe what happened. Start with the song Lost which was released last year as the most recent song, there are so many like fighting myself, numb, in the end, somewhere I belong. I still love the lyrics I cannot stop listening to it because he talks about so many feelings I can relate to even now. Maybe analyzing their music can help people who also struggle like he did.

From eagertuna0: Hi there, thank you for being here and for sharing with us. Depression and anxiety such challenges and I feel for you in the struggles of handling those conditions. With that said, it's wonderful to hear that Slipknot has been inspiring and that you're such a long-time fan! If you'd ever like to share further, we're here for you at forum.heartsupport.com/. I hope you continue enjoying this incredible band! -Tuna

From Cat187: Hey! Thanks for reaching out, I'm really sorry to hear that you’re going through such a difficult time and Im proud of you for reaching out! Seeking help is a sign of strength and if you ever feel overwhelmed please don't hesitate to reach out to someone you trust<3 Music can have a great impact on our mental well-being and has a powerful way of connecting with our emotions so it's great to hear that Slipknots music has become such a great source of support for you. Remember that you don't have to face these challenges alone. Cat187

@@HeartSupport all I can do is thank you for acutally taking the time out of your day to say something to me that goes a very long way more then some can imagine this past month and these past almost 4 years truly stripped my soul apart and just been trying to stitch it back but just reading what you wrote it another stitch for me and I thank you deeply

@@HeartSupport thank you so much I hear what your saying thank you

I will say all of it sucks right now but I know deep deep down somewhere inside there is a beast that isn't wired to give up I know it's still there that's why I'm still here I'm jus truly trying to reawakening that inside of me and I am also here if anyone needs to talk as well

From DyllonKG: @georgesimmons4923 Hello my friend. Thanks so much for posting, Id never even heard of Hashimoto disease. And I've got to say, you're so incredibly strong. www.loom.com/share/a4d85f62184143df9d382e2703472f5a?sid=38f44640-e18f-497b-8c59-ca5c083511fe