Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope this video reaches the person that needs to hear it. If you are trying to navigate the mountain known as grief, please know my heart is with you and I hope this video can help to assist you on the road to finding peace and healing.

You've made a difficult choice to move from surface-level vlogging to this deeper content, and it's worth it to the people you touch.

Best video so far

I lost my best friend 4 days ago.. I miss her so much

Everyday you're breathing and moving forward. Is another summit reached. Got me cryin' over here bro.

I've lost one of my best online friends last week, and sadly couldn't attend his funeral. I've never felt so emotionally wrecked before, since the last time I've lost someone, I wasn't able to fully comprehend the concept of death. He was a great guy, and I miss him. Hearing this today is helping me cope, even if just a little bit. Thank you, I really needed to hear this.

Hello Morgan, I subscribed to your channel today. In January 3, 2014, my mom passed away by suffering to heart failure/heart attack. My mom just adopted me, and my 3 brothers. I missed my mom so much.🙏

I lost both my Dad and brother within 6 months of each other. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them and wish I could talk with them. Grief is never ending and it changes us. Plan for tomorrow but live for today. Always say I love you even when your mad. Love you Morgan! Love this new style of video too. It's been a pleasure to watch you grow and I can't wait for more❤

Great subject. Over the years with CF at my age of 57. I have lost almost all of my good friends with CF. I feel for you Fibro, normal people just don't understand the kind of depression we feel. I have been to more funerals then I have ever been to weddings, and I used to photograph weddings for a living. One day at a time we step through our life and pain, just keep moving forward.

Thank you for your words. I just lost a best friend...and the pain is extreme. Your words brought me comfort. Thank you

The mosaic concept is so beautiful. Crying hard rn

Morgan, this video couldn't have come at a better time for me. I've been watching you for a few years, but I got into the CF YT community through Claire, and she completely changed the way I looked at the world and my own life. When she died it was earth shattering and I didn't even know her personally. I can only imagine how it feels to go through what you did throughout your life. Having lost a fair share of people in my own personal life, this video speaks to me in such a strong way. Your analogy about the summit is so perfect. So happy for you and your change in channel direction. Thank you.

Hey brother, Thank you for your courage & willingness to share! I lost my life partner 8 yrs ago to cancer, it took me 8 yrs to date to feel better about my life. I appreciate everything you shared today!

Eddie from Toronto 🇨🇦: I Lost my Only Friend 10mths ago im 40,Never been married no kids and my friend was Life I Completely Loat my Identity I had no idea who i was i spent every day with "Carlos" i Put him under my wing and sobered him up and i took care of him and i need to tell every this There is No Time Limit! On Greving! Do not feel Ashamed to Mourn The pain Never goes Away u just have good days and bad ones but u always hurt.

Approaching the 2 year anniversary of the death of a close friend who died in a freak accident. Your mountain metaphor is so helpful for accepting that I'll never be "okay" with the fact that he died. It's true that I'm one of the luckiest people on earth to have gotten to know him for the brief time that he was here. Thank you so much for making this.

I don’t know what to say. That left me speechless. I get it. On such a deep level. I’m a cancer mom. My son has a lot of the introspection you do also because of growing up in the hospital & so close to death. He was in active treatment for 13yrs. After a bone marrow transplant he finally is in remission. I stayed with him through the whole thing. Not a helicopter parent, just a sincere advocate. Anyway, I feel every word of this. I am enjoying these videos your sharing. Such in-depth feelings. Things people don’t talk about much but really need to. It’s wonderful your putting it out there so we can all hear it and not feel so isolated in our own minds. Take care ✌️⭐️

Thanks for this video.. it made me realize that my best friend will always be with me just like she never left my side although she's not physically here. Losing your best friend is harder than I've ever imagined especially the one you've known for 21 years. I miss her so much she was only 27 years old and I'm glad to know that she misses me too for showing up in my dreams after watching this video.. She passed away May 16th 2024 to gun violence her super old lady roommate "accidentally" shot her she claims and I pray for justice. I truly miss her every single day some days I think of her more than others but she's always on my mind. I still send her msgs everyday just to make myself feel a little better about it since I tell her what's going on in my day. etc.. Forever our hearts, rest well Nina 💙

What a beautiful way of describing grief. I lost my best friend tragically a few days ago and I don’t think it is something that I will ever over come or want to. He was a beautiful soul so kind and caring. Only the best die young ❤❤❤

I just lost my best friend. I needed this. Thank you

I lost a close friend yesterday morning in a car crash, i don't even know how to feel.. but was comforting to watch this video, Thanks. Fellow Cfer 💜

I have just been to my friend's funeral today and I came across your video. Your words really touched me and made a lot of sense. I really needed this today. Thank you.

With sadness comes strength. You're on a hella path right now. Dont stop... only to smell the roses.

Thank you for this video. I just lost my best friend. My kindred spirit. I really needed to hear this message today. RIP Joey 😢

I lost my oldest and closest friend this last Tuesday in a motorcycle accident. I've never experienced pain like this, I haven't stopped crying. He was like a brother from another mother. I don't even know where to start with my emotions.

A very close and dear friend of mine passed away on October 8th of this last year. I am very sad, and your video has helped me. I'm 46 years old, I have lost my grandparents. I loved them. It seems like loosing one of my best friends has been one of the most difficult things I've delt with. Your video has helped me, and I realize loss is something we all face.

thank you so much bro. just lost my best friend💔

I never had a friendship that felt genuine, I always felt out of touch with other people and I felt like I couldn’t be myself. I met Dylon and I must say I didn’t quite like him at first, I thought he was conceited but I was wrong. We related on a lot of struggles and had each others back when ever we felt our lowest. He always knew what to say and I tried to always be a positive support to him even though I have my own struggles with addiction. He was my best friend and more importantly family! I know that you really wanted to change and we even talked about it the night before you passed. I’ll forever be grateful for having you in my life and I wish things were different. I’m not going to lie, there is a lingering sense of emptiness and sorrow rendering my very soul because of your absence, I will do my best to honor your memory.

Wow Morgan - I'm sure you've touched a lot of peoples hearts with this one. You've put into words something that's very difficult to describe, when explaining to someone that hasn't experienced grief. I witnessed my mother's death and tried to resuscitate her when I was 14, and have carried that confusion/anger/sadness for the past 24 years or so. My ex wife left me almost 2 years ago because my wrestling with the grief was too much for her, but that's ok because I'm still here and still able to work towards being a better person than I was yesterday. Thanks Morgan, a few of us are definitely benefitting from this vid 😀

Lost my best friend 2 weeks ago, this helps wit the sadness and anger, thank you...

January 27, 2020. I lost my mom to cancer. I was there for the last month and she had time with my daughter. Time is so hard. As Rosie gets older and the milestones she crosses that my mom isn’t here to see. Rosie won’t remember her. She’ll know the memories and pictures. I talk to her all the time and think about her or movies that come on that she would watch on repeat “momma would love this” or a song that comes on “there’s momma!” I don’t think I’ll ever get over her death but we can’t be sad forever. I still remember the day of her last breath but it also helps me keep going for my daughter. ❤️

Oh Morgan, I have never heard anyone explain grief more eloquently from the heart. In all my years of hospice nurse having to say goodbye to those who I grew close to and my own family, pets and friends, this really sums it all up. I would love to share this with my hospice group. Really, nothing else need be said. 💕

My best friend passed away a week ago. She was 27, had CF and was waiting for her new lungs. She got into the hospital with pneumonia. I wanted to visit her but I had to say goodbye to her on the phone instead. I've gone through hell but the grief is teaching as you said. She was really strong, never complained and lived her life as fully as she could. I wish her carefree breathing and clear air where she is. I've suffered with depression, anxiety and other things before this happened and her loss made me realize how short this life is and that I have to live and do the things I love. I read somewhere that grief doesn't get smaller, life is what will grow around it.

Thank you for making this video. Even 2 years later, you’re helping. My mom passed in May and I just lost my bff of over 30 years, unexpectedly. He was showing signs of improvement after being in ICU for a week; they moved him to step down. I had just talked to him, and within the hour he coded and was gone. I’m totally gutted and really struggling to keep it together. I never got to tell him how much he meant to me. My birthday cake and Christmas dinner are still sitting in the freezer, waiting for him to come home and celebrate together. But it’s not ever going to happen and the grief is unreal.

I've watched some of your newer videos but had skipped this one because I had never really lost anyone close to me...on Valentine's day, a few days ago, my roommate and best friend went into septic shock and died within a few hours.. he had broken a bone in his foot, was misdiagnosed with some nerve inflammation before he was told it was actually broken, and it just seemed like he wasn't getting better. Plus he had COPD, severe anxiety, and other odd symptoms kept popping up. I was 2 hours away with my boyfriend and my roommate called me needing help and I called 911 because I felt like I couldn't get there fast enough.. he was admitted into the ICU and barely over 24 hours later, he was gone. I held his hand while he took his last breaths. I'm obviously in the very beginning stages of grieving him but I'm going to come back and refer to this video during the stages of grief.. thank you for sharing and I'm sorry for your losses

I am sorry for the loss of your friends. I only experienced losing one friend from cancer. So I can not comprehend what you went through. In 1985, he was 18 & I was 16. I watched him go from an athletic , competitive skater to 2 years later very very ill at deaths door. I saw him 2 days before he passed. I didn't stop crying until I had a dream with him in it. He sat next to me & told me he was 'alright now ' That helped me but I've never got over his death. I'm 53 now & still think of my last meeting with him. It's affected me all my life & I've drank to numb it. Sending you warm love & Thank you for sharing this ❤️

Sorry for your loss.

This is the first Vid of yours i have watched., one of the best ones ive seen anywhere.. My Beautiful Wife Jan went to Heaven 3years & 3 weeks ago.. Always trying ro make Jan proud of me and i kniw she is always by my side. God Bless Morgan

I really appreciated this video because my grandpa died in October and I'm still very sad.

I really needed this missing my childhood best friend that’s been gone since 2020. Aaron I love and miss you forever

Thank you for all of these beautiful words, 2 days ago my best friend passed away. I really needed this video. My heart is full of her love and I will keep her in me forever. 🤍

Oh. Just oh! I’ve sat here for an hour trying to say something, but I just can’t put it into words. I’m sending a huge Nanna because …..you made me think so hard.

I really am so glad you posted this 🌸🌺❤️

Rip Kitty my ace I love you ❤

Thank you for this, really needed some guidance or advice & I came across your video. I just lost my childhood friend on May 4th 2023, friendship for about over a decade. He was 24 years old. Still can’t express all the thoughts going through my head but one thing for sure is his spirit & memory will forever live on through me. I love you Richard, see you in the next life brother…

Hi Morgan. November 12, 2023. I lost my best friend to a stroke. She was only 28 years old. She left behind a loving daughter and boyfriend. It’s been nine months now and it still hasn’t gotten any easier to think about her. She and I met at work. We became inseparable very quickly. Ironically, we also lived around the corner from each other. I miss her so much. I’ve never dealt with having to lose somebody that that was that close to me. It’s just bringing my mortality to mind. And how I’m getting to an age where I am going to start losing the people I love. I’m sad I lost her. I’m angry she’s gone. But most of all I love her and I never want to forget her. RIP Araya ❤

You have lost so much in your young life.. but, with that loss comes great wisdom. You now see the big picture! You were never wrong with your feelings!! I hope you know that?! Grief will tug at you now and again.. but, with your sweet heart and as you get older.. handling it will be different!! May God bless this friendship known as Erin and Morgan❤️ Yes, I’m a devout Catholic.. Sorry!!

Lost my best man in 2020. Forward only❤.

So true i lost my mom in 79 and it hurts like it was yesterday

Yup the pain is just so hard ... but thank u for ur message . I have been thinking of how will I get thru this but ur right. I won't . I just need to stay positive. Cause I cry when I hear a song or think of a memory with my best friend. It won't go away . But I know she wouldn't want me sad ,she was the happiest person in this world . I love u pauline I will always miss u n think of u everyday ❤

Thank you, Morgan. This was by far the most meaningful and beautiful video I have come across. It actually feels like a blessing... because you have articulated some of my deepest, longstanding feelings about grief and loss..... You are right about that summit of grief and are beyond your years in wisdom. You have also have been living an exceptional life with so many losses to face and process along the way. My first painful loss was my mother's passing decades ago, when I was in high school. Sure, there have been many others and more to come. Your words have touched my heart, and are a great reminder of how forever love really is. Take good care.

Thank you for sharing this. It has helped. I lost a very close friend to cancer a month ago

All of our experience in life are what make us who we are. We feel things for a reason, sometimes it’s sorrow to remember people and things lost, we feel disappointment for things we wish we did different, we feel joy and pride for things we’ve accomplished or fun experiences we’ve had. Never have regrets, and never change a moment in your life, because you wouldn’t be the you, you are today.

I act normal because I really can’t believe that he’s gone. I just think he’s still here.

Grief means u have loved hard! Someone once said to me, I think it’s in a song actually… “the bigger the love the harder the fall…well, I’m crashing through the floor”…makes a lot of sense to me-I’ve crashed thru the floor on many occasions when I’ve lost people close to me…but they are with us every day. Every where we are, there they’ll be.

Thank you ❤.

Thank You for sharing that Morgan. Bless you!

Thank you so much for this sharing..😢lost my fiancé on dec 30dec last year ..it has been truly hard i lost mom 4 yrs back and now this...its a month but his memories lingers and i still feel sick to the stomach. The last bit was gold when you brought up i am feeling I rather stay shut off then getting to know another person . Going thru so much i have no words for.. But appreciate stumbling onto your video when everything you said resonated with me.😢 Thank you once again for this sharing...🥺

I’m so sorry for your loss 😢❤

Sorry about your loss

Lost my best friend just over a year ago. The false summit made me cry instantly.

I lost my best friend today. I found out after checking my phone after my job interview. I am in shock and denial. I don't know what to do, and it's hard to process. I love you forever Chloe. You will always be in my heart

My best friend of almost 20 years passed away Oct 6th of this year from a severe asthma attack that caused her heart to stop. I'm only a couple minutes into this video but I just wanted to say thank you because I feel like I needed this. I am also sorry for the loss of your best friend and other loved ones who have passed.

Thanks for sharing this Morgan. I remember you saying in an old video that you wanted to live for those who were gone. I understood at the time. But I think it's important to also live for oneself. If we only live for others, it's easy to become hollow martyrs. I have a different story than yours but sometimes I try to take care of everyone before myself and ironically that leaves me with little left to give.

I’m so sorry for your loss, Morgan. You’re the best. 💛🕯🐐🙏

Very well said!

Morgan The people who've touched you are the fibers that form the tapestry of your life. It's who you are! Some people leave footprints on your heart that last a lifetime. Others only pass by to teach you life lessons to help you grow. I understand loss so well, all my family, BF & my Spoonie Community, my life is surrounded by loss. I was in the hospital & an Anesthesiologist/pain doc sat with me. I told him I feel like I'm climbing Mount Everest & I'll never reach the Summit bc it keeps getting further. Interestingly, you equated loss of good people to a similar thought process, very cool. Each of us will grieve in our own way, it's so personal. You're right we'll always carry them with us in our heart. Hopefully their loss becomes a healing in our lives at some point. The Anesthesiologist called me a Sisu: meaning a Finnish concept described as stoic determination, tenacity of purpose, grit, bravery, resilience & hardiness. I also see you & Stephi as Sisu's. Thank you for your words & sage advice. They're all around us, I believe that 100%. Stay well & chill, much love from 🇨🇦 ✌

I always had problems with making friends in my life cause I’m “a little weird”. I found my best friend in middle school, and we were friends for 18 years, talking on video chat every day religiously. Called her for our daily call a few months ago, and the state police answered. Had to tell her estranged parents and sister that she was gone. Think about her every single day. Miss her everyday. Edit. My friend didn’t have any health problems, and the night I talked to her, 2 hours before she died, she was extremely happy and optimistic. Unfortunately, she did drugs, nothing serious, didn’t shoot up, didn’t steal, or do it every day, someone gave her something laced with Fentanyl, and just passed away within 30 minutes. And she didn’t just “fall asleep” unfortunately. I had been to 15 funerals prior to this. Family members, ex boyfriends, friends, etc. nothing compares to losing someone your age, someone so close to you, that you thought would be here with you forever. It just hits differently, and will always be different, and hard.

You hit home with today’s video. I really enjoy your content and everything you’ve said is something I’ve been feeling and struggling with a lot lately. Thank You for being you and sharing your stories.

Powerful stuff. Thank you foe sharing with us. I lost my dad to covid last year. And he was in another country so it was a nightmare of being far away and unable yo do. Anything. Grief is a bitch. But to think of it like that summit you can’t and wont reach. Dude - that was intense because for my family the trauma of his death and how we were forced to say goodbye w the zoom funeral and shit. Thats not gonna be “gotten over”. And accepting that has been healing. Knowing its not ok and that thats ok… it helps.

Very insightful. Thanks for your compassionate story.

Grief has kept me in a hole for about the same amount of time. 6 years at least. It's even harder when they're still alive IMHO...seeing your best friend/ex fiance when you've lost them due to certain situations and circumstances is painful af. Hopefully we all find closure.... eventually.

This is so powerful just what I needed to hear I recently lost my beloved dog and mother-in-law and I'm going through a really tough time but there's a saying I really like the harder you love the harder you grief X

Thank you for posting this.

Today it has reached me, your video, after that my 1st best friend left due to an organic failure, complete, by alcohol, a few years ago. But the 1st one before the days, he was not reachable a few weeks, i want so say good bye to my 2nd best friend. He was only 36, i am 52. He was an amazing guy, killed by COPD a lounge desease. He leaved 5-6 years with a new one, never smoked again now he is gone. my last friend. I wanna die.

thank you so much for this video.

Hi🤍 i just want to say: i pick up the phone to see KZfaq after being away for a while… and it makes me so happy to see you so different! Like in the best way possible. You look and feel good. I almost didn’t recognize you. Your energy feels so much more clean and peaceful and powerful ✨ thank you for this. I’m so inspire now to go and live through the pain i feel now🥺 hugs and lots of love for you🤍 Also I’ll go catch up on your channel now🤗🥰🙏

I really needed to hear all of this. Thank you

I lost my best friend 2 days ago😭he was doing so good, until he relapsed 😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔I’m in so much pain I can’t eat I can’t sleep my head hurts I keep throwing up and my mind is all over the place 😭😭💔#LLWILLIAM I love. You so much

Preach it bro. Such an important topic

I’ve been trying to find a way to keep pushing after losing what I saw as a brother. I haven’t watched this video yet but thank tou

Really digging this new stuff! Keep it up dude! 🖤

I am loving your new content!!!!! So deep and raw❤

This is my new fav video of yours! Great job Morgan.

I’m here for this new content ❤️

I love your new vlogs! You are touching lives Morgan!

Wow Morgan! I couldn’t of said it better myself. After losing Nat(best friend/cousin with cf) in May of 2020 and not getting to even say bye due to COVID I struggled for a long time. I still struggle daily. She was always my go to. Now Dakota( my daughter with cf) is struggling with pseudomonas and was just hospitalized for 3 weeks and it brought back all that hurt. My mental health took a shit kicking for sure. I know she’s with me but I just want to hug her and hear her deep belly laugh! I agree that grief is a gift in a way because she touched so many places in my life it would be impossible not to feel so strongly when reminders come up. Sometimes they make me laugh and others make me break down. So proud of how far you’ve come in your vlogging and healing journey. The deeper emotional side of you is what brought me into your world quite a few years ago. We love you!

These videos are so beautiful✨💜🌞🦋

Really needed this, thank you

Loving this change in content. Its very insightful and just fills my soul with reflection.

This was awesome, Morgan, thank you for sharing your thoughts! I'm so sorry for your losses. I don't have CF, but I lost my very best friend a few years ago, and the things you said here really helped me...Sending you love & hugs! 🦋🌈💜

Thanks Morgan. My mom just died on the 9th and I needed to hear this. Thanks for the assist.

I love this path you're on. Much needed video. Thank you.💙 Gone but never forgotten.

Wow Morgan this video was outstanding!! You helped me see a perspective that I had never considered and I feel it could be life changing for sure. Thank you for putting yourself, your story and your words of wisdom out there to help another human.

So sorry about your friend Morgan, life simply is not fair! Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video. One of your best videos.

I appreciate this video, and I am grateful to you for sharing your experiences. Shout out to your mom❤

Thank you! Within this passed month I lost another friend that triggered a lot hard losses ive had within the passed 5 years. This was really nice to hear.

G'day brudder..great message my friend..stumbled across your site..you seem like a lovely guy and make some really valid points for such a young cat lol..I hope you have embraced music as in playing an instrument or something the like and wish you all the best mate..cheers

My heart is with you brother stay strong

this early morning my friend with cystic fibrosis lost the fight against a pneumonia. She was one of the most incredible fighters I've ever seen. It all happened so fast, she went from feeling little headache and having a little low oxygen to this situation in a week. Very very similar situation like your friend Aaron. I don't know how to deal with this after it happened so suddenly .

Thank you for sharing ❤️ My dad died today and I needed to watch this ❤️❤️