i kind of knew you were feeling this way, I know how hard it it’s to post frequently and you’re doing much more than just posting. don’t worry about us, we don’t mind if you post less or more. we just want you to feel good posting and proud of yourself.

This is why we love you Annie. You’re always transparent and protect your boundaries. I cant even imagine how difficult it is to juggle the stress of life and still keep the productivity going for KZfaq. Sometimes you need to let all these things out and I appreciate you for even trying to open up and talk to us about. Whenever I feel this way my grandma would always tell me “you’re doing better than you’re feeling” and it has always helped me. Hope it helps you too ❤

girl i so feel you about feeling ashamed or guilty for “not doing good enough”, and the same about self worth! i’m a christian teen girl too so i have always felt like i could relate to you quite a lot! i will 100% be praying for you and i’m so happy for you pushing yourself to be vulnerable and open online. you’re doing awesome and i have all the faith that you will put up that good fight and conquer it. i’m hoping you see very soon how wonderful you really are and the amazing person that God has created you to be. it’s ok to take time, it’s ok to feel sad, it’s ok to feel like you’re unsure of these things or even behind. we’re so proud of you annie and you’ve been such a strong soul and role model for so many people! i’ll be sending love and lots of prayers your way. God’s gonna be there right with you as you fight through this. thank you for all that you do, i’m so glad you’re taking time to heal and we’re so excited to tag along on your journey ❤️

Well done for your boldness and honesty so publicly. 2 Chronicles 15:7- But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.” Through your faith in God you are stronger than you realise!💗

One of my favorite verses in high school was 1 Cor 2:2. "For I resolved to know nothing except Christ" and it helped me relieve the pressure I was putting on myself to find myself. I enjoyed the season of slowing down and learning how to just be. Thank you for being honest. I hope you can find the rest your soul needs 💕

This is why I love you. You’re so honest and you don’t even have to tell us this. You are awesome Annie and don’t change for anyone.

Keep your chin up bestie, you got this . Thankyou for being so honest and open with us. You have no idea how many teens are out there, watching your videos, and feeling better because they got someone to relate to

We love you Annie for who YOU are!! Take breaks, or do whatever which makes you feel good at the moment! You are amazing and you'll always be... sending so much love your way! 💞

oh my word Annie, thank you so much for this. it makes me happy that YOU are pursuing authenticity, but as a junior in high school myself this was a much needed reminder. I related to so much of this I can even list them all, but mostly I related and felt so fulfilled by how you talked about being defined by who you are in God first. As you said those words, and I thought about that myself… I got a taste of relief, relief from feeling like I need to get a better SAT score, a glowing college application, or that I need to go to college at all. I just felt the presence of peace, and how God is going to take me on the best journey of life, and I’m going to be much more fulfilled by putting him first. that was a long way to say… I appreciated this video more than you know, and I value everything you said more than even I know I think. i AM praying for you, and i pray I’ll follow you in this journey toward peace over productivity, and authenticity ❤️🙏🏻

I hardly ever write comments, but this video really touched me. I’m also sixteen and go to high school, so I could always relate to your videos, Annie. I just felt like you were talking from the bottom of your heart and this video was truly like a meditation to me, felt very refreshing in a way(?). You made me realise I should also be more available to people because I struggle to make real friendships at school, because I’m looking for something meaningful, not a surface level friendship. I want to make new friends rly bad but I just feel like I only connect with people at school on a surface level and yes it’s fun to talk about not deep stuff but I sometimes want something more. I’m not rly vulnerable with people at school because i decided to become a private person once as I feel safer this way. I feel like whenever I hang out with people from school which is hardly ever, it’s very transactional and does not fulfill me because it’s still about school. I understand you so much, it is hard to bulid true friendships as a teen sometimes.

i’m only about halfway through, and i love listening to you. to you talk about your faith, the concept of feeling almost self loathing when you blame yourself when your “heart” hurts. self confidence. each time i can remind myself to, believe that i’ll be praying for you, annie ❤️

it's okay to take any breaks,take good care of yourself

it's okay, idk what i am doing either but that's the beauty of growing through life. excited to be clueless with you. very proud of you and thank you for being vulnerable with us. love you annie.

girl what you said about chinese academic focus hits home for me. i am ethnically chinese but i've been going to an international school my whole life. I haven't exactly experienced the typical chinese toxic academic focus b/c my parents are pretty open to what i want to do and allow me to spend time to explore my true passions but i definitely have family members struggling with it. but at the end of the day, i'm pretty proud to be chinese. I love my country and I take pride in being able to speak mandarin bc i love my culture and tho sometimes it gets hard to be asian in western society, i still embrace my identity. keep going annie!! lots of love

This was honestly one of the most comforting videos I have ever watched. I related to so many things on such a deep level and I found that you basically explained every emotion that I had been feeling throughout the last month (feelings that I simply didn't know how to put into words). I don't know if you will ever see this comment but just know you have helped so many people going through tough teenage years (just with this 20 minute video) and I am truly grateful. ❤

Annie, Ever since I started watching you I have found your videos entertaining and informational. I love watching all of your videos. Posting shouldn’t have as much pressure as you seem to feel. Whatever you post, I’m sure your viewers will enjoy it because it’s about you. We subscribed because we relate to you and we enjoy watching you.

I am so appreciative for your honesty and your expression of faith. It’s really great to hear Christian’s on KZfaq! ❤

this is the most important video you have ever made to me. I consistently started watching your videos a year ago and even though i think your videos have helped me in so many ways, i would lie if i said that I never compared myself to you. It made me feel like I’m bot doing anything with my life. But at the same time you also helped me get out of bed. This really helped me to see you as a human being instead of this ideal picture of who I should strive to be. I’m just really grateful for everything you’ve made, especially this.

even though you’re younger than me i’ve learnt a lot from you and i’m glad i found your channel. it’s okay to take a break and just know we support you! i feel you and i understand about not feeling like yourself.

The way I relate to you so much. I realise as much as I am self-aware or ahead of my peers, I am still such a teenager. Like I've been struggling with my identity too and understanding my emotions and how my friends are. It's been one heck of a week and I think what I learnt is that it's best to just accept you are struggling and there will be times you're unsure. Thanks so much for this video and I'm telling you it will get better

honestly, I wanna let you know that showing that you're not perfect with productivity is so much better for me, as one of your viewers I find that this raw honestly also helps me so much because productivity for me is never perfect either. And it reminds me that that's okay and that no one is ever going to be perfect at productivity. You're not contradicting what you teach, you're showing those you're teaching that you're human too, and that we're all human and that we need breaks and we do struggle. thanku for this

This video is the most mature thing I've ever watched from you, Annie. I'm inspired. You have come to accept all these feelings and problems and I can't tell you how relatable it is. Thank you for sharing this, I'm really proud of who I've watched half a year ago, and who I just watched right now. Thank you for posting this video and I'll be praying so hard for you!!!

I can relate to you on feeling like you're doing high school backwards. In middle school, I graduated with Distinguished Honor Roll (the highest honor you can get). For three years, I held myself to an impossible standard and I just barely accomplished it. Going into high school, I continued to hold myself to that standard; but I had a lot harder classes and I was struggling with mental health. Then came Covid.... And I did online school. Online school is not for me, let's just mention that. I ended up dropping out of school in 10th grade because I was so emotionally, spiritually, and mentally drained from trying to reach impossible standards. I want to note to anyone reading this: while grades are important, your mental health will always be more important. In the grand scheme of things, your mental health has more of an effect on you than your grades do. If you are struggling with mental health, take a step back from things, and focus on that. It is completely okay to do so. It is actually better if you do so, rather than burn yourself out (I speak from personal experience). Anyway, dropping out of school seemed completely unproductive and I thought I genuinely ruined my chance at going to college. But it turned out that it was the best growing experience for me. I needed a break. I learned a lot, I got better, and I came back stronger. I'm now doin much better, but because I dropped out of 10th grade, I had to repeat that grade. I took a literal step back in my process of going to college. It's just now that I am catching up with others my age in finding things I like, focusing on hobbies, joining clubs, etc. instead of constantly doing school work. I was able to make many more fulfilling friendships and I even discovered my passion. You sharing your journey has allowed me to relate to you in this way, and I wanna thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing it with me. We are in this together!! It's okay to feel lost or feel behind because in the end, what matters is that we took the chance to better ourselves and do what we love, no matter the time or pace. Sometimes you need to move backwards in order to find the right path forward.❤️ wishing you the best of luck on this new journey

It’s so hard in high school with the struggle of feeling like you “have” to do all these things for college applications. I prioritized my mental health my senior year and I have never regretted it. Good luck with everything, Annie! You’ve got it girl💛

i have always been so inspired fro you, and this is why we all love you. You're always so transparent about eveyrthing you do and giving people the motivation to keep on going. Thank you for that and be proud of yourself!!

We will always be here to support you🙂! We love you Annie!

you’re evolving, it’s normal stick close to God and you’re chillin ik u feel behind in a way bc u feel like you’ve discovering these things abt yourself late but you aren’t. you’re okay promise❤

i do a lot of extra curriculars. i’m a junior. and oml i get the STRESSSS. everything feels like everything is pilling up on each other and my mental health has been getting worse. u’re not alone in this junior year is gonna suck ass but as class of 2024, we’ll get through it.

I relate to this very much. Thank you for helping me realize what I truly need and how to fix my life.

hi, annie. please remember that it's okay to feel these things, and we will be here for you NO MATTER WHAT. we love you for not what you post or do or anything like that, but who you are deep inside. don't worry, and please don't take things too seriously. just try to enjoy everything you do!

don't be stressed! God's got you!

Thank you truly so much for sharing this. I’m not going to lie, every time I would see one of your productivity videos I would think how on earth does she keep this up 24/7. It is really is nice to see that literally not one single one of us has it together all the time, no matter what. I can also whole heartedly relate to the feeling of feeling like you are ahead of everybody else and all of your family and friends applaud you for it and all of a sudden it is what you are “known for.” And that moment when you realize you’ve taken 3 steps back and you feel like you’ve failed because you’re actually going back and completing those steps that you missed, and now you’re back with everyone else, or even, behind. That is at least how it can feel for me. The fact is that there is not one perfect path for life, or even two or three. There is an infinite amount of life path possibilities. Thank you again for this candid video. It was really nice reading so many comments that I could relate to❤️

Hi annie, i’ve been watching you since 2019 and i’ve seen you grow so much. I know that not posting on youtube may feel like your letting people down but i promise your not. i know that feeling so well of feeling like your disappointing others by not doing something but there is absolutely nothing wrong with doing what’s best for yourself. I’m so proud of you for being authentic and honest. i wish you the best and i know that you will continue to blossom throughout life

I admire that you told us this. I have been going through some similar things in the past year and it's really hard sometimes. Sometimes we have to fall so we pick our selves make up and begin a fresh new journey. Life is hard but we can get through it with Jesus by our side.

Thank you so much for putting yourself out there. I’m a junior too and I’ve been experiencing the same feelings too. However I’ve been trying to put myself in more clubs and giving myself academic challenges hoping in some way it will magically disappear. However that’s not the case and I’m coming to realize that I have to start reconnecting and coming back to God and to change the way that I do things. Because the way I did things then isn’t the solution for now. In some ways I felt like the only one going through this but I always had this verse in my mind that nothing new happens under the sun which comforted me in a way. Then YOU POSTED THIS! I feel like God is trying to show me something. Also, something I take with me in all this is that to be renewed you have to be uprooted. And I got that from Karren Atakora who said something along the lines of that in her video of moving to New York. She’s a KZfaqr who’s new to Christianity. If you made it this far, thanks so much for reading and God bless you. ❤

This video just reminded me that you can't be always perfect, you can't give always 100%, thank you and you are amazing

wowow first let me just compliment how well spoken you are, in the video i know you worried that the unstructured style would ramble in a negative way BUT for me personally it much easier to connect with your message, honestly watching this video was so refreshing, im also a highschool junior this year and I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed :/ I felt this video deeply, many of the issues you’ve been having concerning identity and mental burnout I see reflected within myself, my work habits are abysmal and in the past i placed you on this pedestal because you were accomplishing so much, your lifestyle was inspirstional to me but it also felt unattainable, i understand upholding that image must’ve been exhausting and to see you be this genuine on your channel is really eye-opening and makes me feel less alone so thank you ❤

One of the reasons why I love watching your videos is because of how real you are.please dont feel pressured to post.its ok to take breaks.we just want you to feel good and I get how balancing everything at just 16 can be so hard. you should be so proud of yourself and please keep being yourself and dont change yourself!

annie this is why i love your content. you aren’t afraid to say that you disagree with what you’ve said in the past, you admit you are struggling with identity. you are helping so many teenage girls by posting this. thank you annie for everything you do ❤

Hi Annie. I from Brazil 🇧🇷 and lately, I've been feeling the same what you're feeling now. I just wanna to say that you aren't alone, this is tough, I know, but it's temporary and after you win this, you gonna be more mature and feel much better. Deus te abençoe muito ❤️ Você ajudou muitas pessoas como eu que querem ser e dar o seu melhor mas as vezes, é muito pesado carregar esse fardo sozinha ❤️ You get this girl 😘🏆

This has got to be my favorite video that you’ve made. I felt so connected to what you were saying❤

I remember I started following you I think around the whole Dote debacle. You were talking about assimilation or being white washed as being a person of color. You said some other things that were just so profound. I’m at least 10-15 years your senior but I know those are things I felt when I was your age and would ah e never had the guts to say. Also, being honest with your faith and being out loud about it not being ashamed or the feelings that go along with it was inspiring ans encouraging to me. Thank you so much for being honest ans so real while respecting your boundaries. I’m so gratefulvv for your time and words. I pray for your understanding and mental clarity. Remember to cast your cares on the one that loves you.

annie im so glad you posted this, we will always support you no matter what❤

it's fine to take breaks! Do it for you

Thank you so much for those Bible verses in the description box, I really need that.

I can definitely relate to the false sense of confidence/security in everything because of people viewing you as more mature or ahead of your peers. It’s encouraging initially but can be a bit destructive later on

I’m so proud of u u need to remember that ur still 16 ur still learning about yourself

I haven't watched this yet but will do so when I have the chance!! I really hope that everything is okay and will be keeping you in my prayers!! Keep up the great work Annie🙏 Just watched the video. Definitely one of the best you have ever done! And very honest. I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling in these areas but I'm glad to hear that you're finding your identity in Christ and it's so encouraging as a fellow believer to see how bold you are in your faith!! Keep growing in the Lord🙏We love you Annie!!!

Your reactions seem so real, your mimic so honest, love this!

If I’m honest, I’ll have to admit that this is the second comment under a KZfaq video I ever wrote. So, I hope you can see that you really touched my feelings with your honesty. I felt what you said when you were talking about pushing all emotions away and just being this working machine. I used to do that too. Growing up in an emotional abusive household I didn’t have the possibility to express any feelings and so I learned to stuff them down and define myself in academic success as well as in being excellent at my extracurriculars. Your recent videos - and especially the last one - have helped me to learn that I am not what I do and that I am allowed to love myself even if I am not hyper productive. I neither want to sound cheesy about my faith but one idea that has helped me a lot is that if God loves us as the person we are and as They created us, why can’t we do the same? We can never be 100% sure about the unconditional love of other people but we can always know that Jesus will love us no matter what. Another idea that stuck my head while/ after watching one of your videos was the question about the sense of productivity if you’re not mentally healthy or happy. Isn’t it more “productive” to care about your well-being instead of your grades if you’re not okay? Anyways, I’m going to stop rambling now. Thank you very much for your honesty and your content in general, keep going on in your journey and God bless you!

i saw this coming tbvh. take your time, and focus on yourself. love you!

Annie, as a regular viewer of your channel I want to commend you for being so raw throughout your entire video. I know as a growing teenager, it can be quite daunting putting your most vulnerable facet on the internet, but by doing so you've encouraged so many young women like myself to be comfortable with accepting our current emotional state. You are so incredibly mature and courageous for confronting what had been bothering you for so long and I am incredibly grateful to have come across an influencer like yourself. I pray that the process of seeking solace in God's plan becomes more and more easy as you continue to evolve, develop and cultivate a strong internal identity.💖💖💖

I just found your channel a few days ago and I love it! Even though times can be rough think of how well your channel has risen! That takes quite some effort. We're here for you

Annie we love you, I know hard it is to feel how you are feeling it is very hard and sometimes you just have to take a break. I hope you're feeling better soon.

I love how yoir faith stabilizes your life!!

Thank you Annie!! This Junior year has been crazy for me, and today has been a rough day so I needed this!!!

This needs more attention, you and your channel 🤍💐

Thank you for your honesty. I stopped watching your videos for a while because those productivity and goal setting videos felt different. Its not wrong, but as a girl who is the same age, I started think about the stress that you were facing. As a teen age girl, it’s hard enough to deal will life itself and growing up. It’s hard to be honest with other and the most difficult part it is being honest with yourself. You are not alone. It’s sad how social media categorizes influencers as these “characters” which really effects influences and their true identity. Something else that I understand is culture. I am Hispanic and I struggle too. I’ve grown up with little diversity and it has effected the way I see myself and who I want to be. Over time, I am slowly learning more about my culture and it makes me feel blessed to be Hispanic. It’s your choice to get involved with your culture. Everyone has a choice and you have to do what you think is best for you. Not to mention, it will always be there. You can be 50 years old and you might get interested or maybe you decide not to and that’s ok! Give your worries, thoughts, and goals to God. He’s the only one who truly understands how you feel and he’s the only one who sees your road. Trust him and lean on him. Again, thanks for the honesty and you are not alone! 🤍

Love you! Thank you so much for posting this!

glad you are getting more vulnerable with us!

I've been watching you since you only had 5k subscribers, and even then you've always been talented and were able to keep busy. I know it's definitely hard to post as much as you do and keep up with your normal life. Take all the time you need and post as frequently as you need, you only have one life and you don't want to over do it

Annie I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter and I'm proud of you

Thank you. I've been feeling similar too about making my KZfaq videos on my main channel. Thank you for thos. You are amazing.

We love you and we know you are not perfect. You are doing the best you can. Have a great day

me and my friend spntaneoulsy decided to watch this video together and it was so wholesome omg I love this annie

As someone who is also feeling confused about who they are in life or even in christ…don’t worry, the confusion and everything that comes with it (stress, fear, uncertainty) is part of the process. one bible verse that i have been seeing lately is “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake” ( Palm 23:1-6). All of the standards you put on yourself, and the stress you feel because of it, just know that God is waiting for you to release everything and become the Shepard in your life. The peace that comes with that will be unimaginable. Please, take time to speak to him. He hears you, and knows you best ❤️ ;)

As someone who’s been watching you before you went down the productivity lane (and I’m kinda ashamed to admit, felt like you became a lot less yourself), your true fans will always be here. And I can’t wait to see you take a break, figure things out, and do what you want with your channel!❤️

God bless you, Annie - thank you for this. 🧸🫐 -brother in Christ ✞

I Relate so much to you rn...I'm also going through an existential crisis atm:( Hopefully we can both figure it out 🤍

EXCITED!!

YOU ARE, WHO YOU ARE NOT YOUR CULTURE GIRL!! 🌺Stay true to yourself as an individual and strong in who you are in Jesus! ❤He'll guide you. Be proud of your culture and realize the negative things you don't agree with in your culture. That's okay too: ) Don't pass it down to your kids in the future. You are trying to find yourself. Let it all go stop trying to please others and just be yourself. You will be a lot happier when you do!! You are who you were created to be!! Relax in that.❤💔💗💓💖☺

this is better than you can imagine

I been watching you since i was 12, and seening you like just changes things

First and I'm so sorry :(

i love this, Annie

i'm nigerian and i kinda relate to u in a way of culture even tho i grew up and was raised in nigeria i never fully learned how to speak my tribes language so i felt so disconnected in a way however im connected in a lot of ways im trying to learn and accept my culture even trough its flaws , for example colorism is something that affects a lot fo poc cultures adn it saldy also affects mine, im not accepting it im more so neglecting it and denying that part oif it. therer is more to a culture tha it's flaws and the more u leanr the more u love im chrisitan as well adn i have come to realise that flaws will be in everything man made . (sorry for my typos im rushing lol)

the best thing you can do is be honest with yourself and finally accept the real you. i hope you're feeling more relieved now!

Focusing on your point of feeling lost culturally, there is a poem called "Notes for a Poem on Being Asian American" by Dwight Okita. It's literally just notes that is somewhat set up in a poem format, but I recommend you (and anyone else) read it. It gives great insight into feeling lost and not knowing whether you should connect more with your American side or your Asian side; in the end, it comes to the consensus that rather than focusing on one or the other, you should embrace both. It may help you in feeling more in tune with who you are : )

Hope you take care of yourself

OMG I miss your videos 🥺

❤ it’s all good girly

Hi Annie I just wanted to say just take a break be a kid ! Ik this hurts to hear but maybe you should just stop beeing productive one day just sleep in don’t do anything you have time and you can always do it later like the hps programs they are great really but feels forced take a break you deserve it and thank you for this video ❤

Wow I didn't know you were learning Brazilian Portuguese! I'm from Brazil so if you ever need any help, I can help ya

Hey Annie 👋 you really inspire me

In this world there are most people that have a big big wall in front of their path and that wall is called The Wall of Shame the Wall of Shame stops the feeling that's flowing on the other side of the Wall of Shame there's a river of feelings and on your side is cluttered with box of Shame if you can't break through the Wall of Shame you can't go through with life

HEYYY

Hey girl new subscriber!, give your life to Jesus and you’ll know what to do! I hate to see you sad

Awesome video

Sheesh one of the first ones

Sis nobody is forcing you you're your own person nobody is forcing you to be a certain person Do Your Own Thing KZfaq was your decision and your decision only so just be you yeah you're cool and smart and whatever but everybody needs a rest too

Sorry u fill this way!!😭

You are you;)

Nice

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Your routines have always seemed like it can't possibly be done for a long time - it seems exhausting!

If you need anyone to talk to, i'm here. i may be younger than you but you can still talk to me anytime

What happened to Liam and your other friends lol 3 yrs ago?

God sent His one and only Son to come die on the cross for us.He took that punishment that we deserve so u can have eternal life

Hi