If you are struggling with Mental Health there are lines where you can get professional support: www.nhs.uk/mental-health/nhs-voluntary-charity-services/charity-and-voluntary-services/get-help-from-mental-health-helplines/

nothing is worse than blaming yourself for something you dont deserve to go through

Sending love to everyone going through something they do or do not talk about ❤️❤️

It's the feeling of panic when someone asks you how you're doing, and you know that if you start to open up that the dam will collapse and you'll break down into emotional mush, unable to hold back the floodwaters of negativity. You feel this panic so you say "I'm fine"

I've been in this state for more than a decade. More than half my life it's all I can remember. Nearly destroyed but I'm slowly crawling out of the pits and next week is the first time I'll be receiving professional help🙂

Betrayal of the mind is the biggest betrayal of all.

I was feeling uninterested in work and even to eat food since 2 days. I feel I'm Ill, it's been a long time since I had a hearty laugh with the people I like, went out with friends. Staying away from family has been taxing. Working from home doesn't help. Today I took leave and left home at 9, went out to a cafe, read for sometime and then sketched for a while. Went to a nice place for brunch and I'm typing this from the cafe. For anyone feeling low and having thoughts of loneliness, take your self out. Be there for yourself, take a day off work, mental sickness is real sickness.

What a beautifully accurate way to describe how I’ve been feeling lately. Listening to this was a cathartic release, I needed it.

I fell into mental illness so badly that I couldn't even talk.. the only way I could describe it to people was to tell them I feel like I lost my words.. my hair even turned a different texture it was really bad but thank you for your videos

Thing is it can go on for weeks, and you have to make decisions as an adult. The worst is being depressed and anxious and unemployed because it's all on you to find work and convince people that you're competent when you feel absolutely anything but

This is the hell my mind goes through every day for the past 25 years. I just try to get by day to day, there is no cure for this burden on my life. The only thing keeping me positive every day is thinking about my son he is my joy in life.

I wish people around me can understand what goes on in my mind with chronic depression. All they see is a slew of success and a slew of months where i have "let it all go," thinking that i willing swing from one extreme to the next. They do not know how hard it is to wind up everyday and exist without questioning the purpose of existing.

*“When you recover or discover something that nourishes your soul and brings joy, care enough about yourself to make room for it in your life.” - Jean Shinoda Bolen*

Yeah, it feels like my intelligence (memory, understanding conversations, solving problems) has gone down since mental illness attacked me.

Man... Adulthood is so lonely and I have just entered it. I cannot begin to explain how scared I am of what's to come. No one's there to tell me of my worth (therapists in my country cost as much as my parents' wages).

I was diagnosed this year with 3 different personality disorders. My life has been lonesome and terrifying ever since. By far the hardest year of my life, a few times I didn’t think I’d make it to my 31st birthday, but I somehow made it here..

Ive never been so blindsided by my mental illness. Feel like a helpless infant rn

This is EXACTLY how it feels. Precisely and profoundly accurate. For the most part, I'm a fairly laid-back person however, financial worries can lay me flat for days or weeks at a time. Losing my job 6 months ago has been the most difficult thing that has ever happened to me in all of my 56 years.

In my experience, the phrase that helps the most when I'm on a crisis: "this too shall pass". Ironic that it doesn't feel that way, but it always does. Big hug to you all, make your best effort always in keeping up the fight!!

To the *incredible person* that's seeing this, I wish you all the best in life❤ don't over blame yourself, accept things and go forward. Don't let others define what “success” is for you. Get up, learn the skills needed and get after it, all the keys to a happy life is in your hands. Keep pushing.

The idea is simple. When you are depressed and in low mood, DONT TAKE YOUR THOUGHTS SERIOUSLY, and dont try to figure out what is wrong. Just let the bad mood pass, sit back, relax, listen to music, divert your mind. And when you do this, you will return to normality and happiness much faster.

I'm taking care of my elderly mother with dementia while working full time for a poverty wage and enduring my own mental illness. I can't just "not think" I need real help but I have no health insurance (thank you America) This video is very accurate and I think literally everyone is like this. Some just are able to get it together long enough to be successful and maybe even thrive..But most of us aren't.

I had the most extreme ptsd after my fathers suicide in 2017. What helped me was running .. that and writing about how I felt everyday … it’s amazing the link between the body and mind. God bless you all

Thank you for this. Lost my job and feeling very numb mentally. Brain fog is real.

Recognize the moment when you’re a thinker who’s no longer able to think. ~ wise words

This was perfect timing for me.

I've really passed through alot...my mental health was totally shattered in the past times when I lost my wife and it was just so horrible..Psychedelic are the reason why I didn't take my life when I was at my end.i was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity

I don’t have turrets but dozens of times a day I involuntarily blurt out “I hate myself” almost as some sort of coping mechanism. I feel sadness for what I do to myself. I don’t know anyone that can ever understand my burden.

Did anyone else experience all this but with the addition of an abusive parent occasionally entering the bedroom to externally reinforce those those internal voices? 🙂

Some days are better. Some days are worse. Just get some rest, it's going to be okay. "One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star." Friedrich Nietzsche

Just told my partner that I can not be a mother because I’m so broken and the thought of inviting another human being into this ugly, dark world of mine seems so unfair. Not a day passes by without thinking of taking my own life. There is no logical explanation why I’m here and what life is. Absurdism is what I see.

Sending lots of love to everyone suffering in silence. It's not easy, but you're doing good. If you think the pain is a little too much, get professional help, you deserve all the love in the world ❤️ ✨YOU✨ MATTER ❤️

'When Life leaves you blind, Love keeps us kind.' Kudos to everyone who were actually involved in making this video. 👍🏻 Thanks for sharing this

No way this just popped up in literally one of my darkest moments in the past few years

I have struggled with mental illness most of my life. It feels just like this video describes. I have tried many things and many methods to try to "cure" myself. I have even tried not thinking, like the video says, but for me that is not what works best. Mindfulness is the best medicine for me. It sucked at first. I felt worse before I felt better, but the more I did it the better I felt. I am more present in reality, which makes me feel more alive. When I was distracting myself with social media, food, weed (whatever it happened to be), I felt less involved in my life, which made it easier to continue to not get help. And asking others to tell me what to do wasn't the answer either. I needed to take responsibility for my life (the good, the bad, and the ugly parts), to fully begin to heal. I am not saying it is the only way to help. But in my honest opinion, i do think it really helps you to enjoy life again and not just to survive it. My heart goes out to those of you in the thick of darkness right now. You are not alone and do whatever you need to do to survive right now. When you are ready you will do what is needed to heal. Stay strong and ask for help when you need it. You will be surprised how many people just want to see you better.

Im currently doing everything to fight my trauma. I had a teacher who screamed and yelled at me for years. He told me various nasty things and now im sick. Im doing everything i can to get healthy and i really hope that soon i will be.

I have vivid dreams pretty much every night. Its like living a second life. It gets exhausting never being able to shutoff for an hour or two.

2 minutes in and literally crying at how accurately you're describing what I'm feeling. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone. I hope you all stay strong x

*"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love." - Marcus Aurelius*

For anyone who is struggling and feels like they won’t make it through please don’t listen to the intrusive thoughts. You will see the other side. I’ve been lower than low before and attempted to end my suffering over a dozen times. But I’m glad I’ve not managed to do that. I am still here and I’m breathing and I’m living. Please don’t give in. Give more

Thank you for this. Sending out positivity and love to everyone who needs it.

I am going to therapy for 2 years now with ups and downs. Depression episodes for months. For anyone that feels depressive please go and find help. I know it's really really hard, BC we are fighting everyday not to give up. Fighting for our life with our mind. But therapy helps me a lot. So I hope for U stranger it will help 2. Don't stop fighting and stay strong 💪!

I didn't think it was possible to put what I experience into words in this way. The intro leaves me speechless because it captures exactly what it feels like to be in my head day to day. It couldn't be put any better! Thank you for making the unaxplainable so visible and touchable. I'm amazed.

Been following your channel for a while now. This one could not have been timed better. I’m not depressed like most but man am I anxious, unorganized, stressed. Thanks for taking care of us School of Life.

All I can say is that this one video means the world to me right now. Thank you OP and thank you to every other one of you here too. Honestly, thank you.

Honestly I was so used to this mental state, I thought I just matured and that I was "dumb" which was why it was so hard for me to think. I realized yesterday that it may have been not the case. This video opened my mind up a lot

Possibly the best description of a period of mental illness I’ve ever come across. When I go through this myself, it’s virtually impossible to articulate how it feels to be mired in negativity and lack ANY ability to reason one’s way out of it 😩

This vid is incredible. I've been working through ruminating, self hatred en isolating patterns for 7 years now, and can say I'm just about recovered as one can be. This video holds so many truths, which I now know to be true. I hope this reaches a lot of people, 'cause these insights can help people so much!

Illness, both physical but especially mental, undermines the usually unthinking trust I have in my body. Only when things are not working as they should, I realize how mind-bogglingly complex the human body is and how little we know about our mind. It is fascinating that our consciousness constitutes our whole existence, and yet we have no idea what consciousness actually is.

It's even worse when you know you are unwell and not functioning but are blamed for being unwell

This video is so validating. It explains what I have never neen able to. What I go through exactly. Thank you. 🙏🏻 I want some family members to see this. They think I can change what I am going through and wonder why I can't get on with things. They condemn me for being lazy and ask why dont I pull myself together. My sister even asked did I know I was making her feel bad and I had to stop. I have learned that I have to walk away from these toxic people and that my doctor and cousellor are my most reliable sources of comfort, guidance and support and not my family or friends. It is hard tho because then they think I am ignoring them. Setting boundaries can be painful.

This explains mental illness better than anything I have ever heard before. I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone.

As always, I am in shock at how succinctly this channel describes the experience of mental illness. Thank you for this.

Good god, that opening absolutely nailed those first few frantic moments when waking up

I like the way they say that the mind thinks that it is doing its job normally but it's not. This is when there are signs of distorted thinking. It took me 4-5 years of therapy to even recognize that I was thinking in a distorted way, that harmed my own health.

I love how I saw this video right when I needed it. I HAVE been irrational and delusional, my brain is tired of thinking and overthinking everything. I do need a break, thank you.

this is a very welcome topic. the most frustrating thing i've found with mental illness is having no clear line of when things have changed. as the video talks about - your mind seems to be working in the same way, it sometimes even feels clearer and more accurate. inside my mind is not the place to look for signs of change, though, and keeping an eye on my sleep and hygiene and normal routines are better signs of what is happening inside. i love the suggestion to rest - it feels like the world is always telling us to be active, to do more, to get on top of your problems and take control of your life. mental illness is often mental activity, problem solving and trying to take control. finding a solution takes letting go, being ok with not being ok, taking a break from things that are hurting us or adding stress, and asking for help.

For anyone in pain, just know that no matter what, it all doesn't matter in the end, so don't fucking care about it all too much. Next time you are sad or unhappy or in pain or fear, just hug yourself and sit in front of the mirror and talk. Talk for as long as it takes to go through it. Pain or fear only come to remind us to look inside. Our deeper selves need deep love and kindness and if we ignore ourselves for too long, we suffer. Don't ignore your needs and desire to be loved.

I wish I could explain and prove point by point why all those negative thoughts and feelings are true in my case. It would take too long to state my case but every time I hear this kind of information I think, “I wish that were true for me”, but if you make mistakes there are people who will not let you forget or ever feel forgiven. Yes, I know humans don’t have the right to do this, but they do it anyway and I am not strong enough to defend myself from them. Religious groups can be this way. It can be cruel.

Thanks for this, you really nailed it. When I feel like this, it's like my mind needs something to feel bad about, and actively looks for the bad in everything.

this actually brought me to tears. it feels so relieving knowing someone can put what you’re feeling into words

I hit a bipolar depression drop off out of nowhere. Lost my job and my business. Forcing myself to: eat, floss, shower, change clothes… I spend the day in bed watching KZfaq to distract myself from panic attacks. Had to fight off suicidal ideations. I thought I wasn’t going to make it. Didn’t check into a psych ward because they are expensive and life sucks there even worse. Not sure how I’m going to proceed in life since I have a 6 year old daughter and obviously chose not to end my life…Been upset at God and don’t understand why I have to go through this burden.

Gosh, i was going through the exact same thing lately. It is really exhausting to deal with such thing especially when you are unaware of it. You dont know what to do or think or move properly. You cant do anything. It is litteraly hell. But now i know it, when i realize i am in this situation i wont think or decide or feel anything. Just rest. Everythings will be fine again.

I feel this video offers enormous insight. I also feel it takes enormous discernment to know which negative thoughts have legitimacy as not all are the result of mental illness.

Wow,.. Im going through this right now. Im constantly ruminating the mistakes i made that ruined me, all the coulda shouda wouldas. So much self hatred, knowing it was my fault, over and over. I isolate horribly because of the anxiety and depression this all caused. No one can believe this has happened to me. Im stuck. It's like im mentally paralyzed. I just don't want to do anything i used to. I really hope i can heal, or snap out of this quicksand of horror asap! Im so glad for you... that you've gotten better. Im on the tightrope..

I've seen this several times already. I haven't seen or heard anything that resonates so much. I was recently diagnosed with Reoccurring Severe Depression; watching this has helped me acknowledge the condition as part of me and knowing that I can manage. I have to thank everyone at School of Life for putting such helpful content. Truly.

I can't believe how connected I am right now with this video. Until recently I told myself that I was a logical thinker, and how I'm aware of the depression I'm experiencing. But I convince myself that this being, as the video suggested, terrorist in white coats, have objectively told me that I need to think about the things in my head, and how the world will end soon, how my parents will die soon, and how every little thing has meaning and yet I don't appreciate it as much as I should. But this was so unnecessary because in reality, I didn't do anything in my life, I abandon all my chores, just like the video demonstrated. The visuals are amazing and I felt like my emotions were described so easily by the animation. Thank you so much for the video, I love it so deeply. For the people out there struggling as well, I am with you.

i needed this

Very ill and very unaware of the depth of traumatic survival mode and accompanying depression and anxiety lasted for decades. Around 6 years ago, 56-57 yrs old, I realized some of it. The Internet finally offered exposure. I had been reading very often, and finally found an insight that clicked. Cptsd therapy helped for almost 2.5 yrs. The same later and I'm unable to cope any longer. No income, daily stressed by belittling, loud name calling, dismissal, refusing to acknowledge near 24 years of sobriety and complete fidelity over 42+ yrs. I'm a male in hell.

Add in situations where some of this is result of gaslighting (intentional or unintentional) and living in a toxic world where you are taught you are wrong to struggle with it

There are quite possibly two competing identities within everyone. The positive & negative aspects. One is the popular "hero" archetype, and the other is more of a Frankenstein/Joker archetype, who feels unloved, misunderstood, mainly unseen but yet only seen and laughed at as some type of sick joke, unable to find any real meaning or purpose in the world to help him deal with the suffering. This Frankenjoker will begin to hate himself as well as the world that created him. He may embrace his hatred and become a villain, taking out his vengeance upon the world that creates people like him, or maybe he just kills himself because he doesn't want to become a villain but yet is consumed with hatred and even sees himself as a villain. Most of us struggle with what we identify as

I've experienced and largely overcome depression many years ago. The past few weeks it's been coming up again and I've forgotten how to deal with it. Thank you for this.

The last five years of my life have seen the most incredible, painful realities. Rejection of the worst kind, relocation multiple times, living out of a suitcase in the floor, grieving and loss, romantic issues, allergies, weight loss, ptsd, hormonal issues….I always thought I was the one who could take everything on and just deal with it, but this year, I learned I’m not a strong as I once thought I was.

I know there's something going on inside me that often shuts me down even when things are positive outside but I'm unable to recognize and deal with it. Love to everybody in a similar phase.

You’re inside my head with this one.

I had to stop drinking alcohol because the next day I'd be so self aware and scatter brained I'd go down a rabbit hole I struggled to escape. It was terrifying. Same thing with Marijuana. I believe my brain can no longer handle the abuse.

I’ve never felt like this before I’m on the verge of mental breakdown When I talk about my mental illness, I feel like a burden. My siblings are suffering from the same issues Sometimes they can hear me but sometimes I can see that they don’t listen cause they’re already having their own struggles. I want to find hope and have faith that I’ll get better but nothing working out. I used to enjoy working out & watching shows but now I’ve lost interest in almost everything.

The art in this one is exceptional.

Sending so much love and hugs to everyone suffering through this thing called life! Don’t give up hope, God bless 💗💗💗💗

I’ve always known that I’m mentally ill. I’ve been on and off different meds for different things and life isn’t easier either. But this really made me feel like I’m not crazy or dramatic or wrong for feeling the way I do.

This is a realisation I had coming out of my first and most significant depressive episode. Since then, I don't really trust or try to rely on my own judgement when I'm depressed. It's actually somewhat freeing. I suppose, in a sense, though, that's because I have learned how to tell when I'm depressed, and how to label thoughts as depressive.

I’ve experienced and am experiencing all the characteristics you’re describing. The problem is, when shutting down, I can’t start up again.

Never forget you deserve to be happy. I do not know if there is a god, or meaning or anything in life, but you are you, all our lifes are a story, write the one you want. Be yourself. And look for people that can love you the way you are.....

I struggle day in and day out. - When it hits really bad, I feel like I'm in quicksand and I can't get out of this spot. My entire body, mind, function shuts down immediately. I take my meds, my psychologist just died. It has been a rough road, but I know that this shall pass.....

I was in existential crisis for 1 and half year looking at the ceiling every night questioning my existence reason for it and feeling detached all the time. Beautiful sceneries did not look beautiful anymore puppies weren't cute anymore and all the day long i would try to analyze all the information i had to find the answer to existence and not finding one made me more depressed. Until i saw a video in which the person said that we are not going to find the answer within ourselves for this whole existence and it made sense. All the continuous thinking was doing was making me more sad and i stopped that. No more looking at the wall asking questions to myself. If answer has to come it will come one day but no more destroying my life looking for the answer.

Only problem with this advice is we live in a world in which trust has been so damaged, hardly anyone, maybe no one, even knows who can be trusted and how to recognize whether or not someone can be.

Love this video and The School of Life for helping me with their insights. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️❤️

The world makes me ill, I know as a society we are heading down a wrong path,

This helped me understand my partners depression so much. Going through it as a neurodivergent mind and being with a neurotypical who experiences it is totally different. Thank you for this video. It encompassed so many things he tells me he feels

This gave me tears. What a beautiful depiction. Putting clutter into words... thank you.

"To be mentally ill is to be swamped by the secretions of fear"

This channel has always healed me in times of need.

I go through this about every 3 months it's hell but I'm getting better each time. Thank God.

To all my warriors out there who are fighting their own demons without anyone knowing ,you are a hero and an amazing and brave human being .keep on going dear ,you will find the light and peace soon enough ❤❤❤

*To all dreamers out there, don't ever let the world's negativity disenchant you or your spirit. If your surround yourself with love and with right people, Anything is possible.* *Great Stuff!*

Overall very good advice as usual. I would even expand these thoughts here to the point where people in general have an attitude of believing they are the best at judging a situation, a condition or a state of being. "I know best" is a statement that is more often wrong than right.

My mind's starting to shut down from consistent, random flashbacks of childhood trauma and never ending, toxic family get together memories. I don't even know how I manage to walk around the house and to the shops every day. It bewilders me lol because I can feel my brain beginning to shut down to the point of no return. I don't even know who I am ever was. 💔

I watched this for a friend, but I realized how strong I've become since my mental health first started declining. I've learned most of this on my own,. When I could think again, I made solid foundations to lay down on when I noticed that I'm frustrated because my brain didn't work the way it normally does. I don't really have people to help me with making decisions, so a part of my life has been damaged because I couldn't take care of it. It was so damaging to my self-esteem and I believed I wasn't capable of anything. I knew I had goals, ambitions, things I wanted and needed to do, but for a long time I didn't know why I wasn't able to achieve them. When people would ask me why I didn't do anything, I'd just say I'm lazy, and when I learned about depression, I'd say I was depressed. Having these labels deepened my belief that I wasn't capable. It sucked, but seeing how everyone else around me was also struggling (when I was in the right headspace to make logical explanations) I decided I didn't want that for myself, after a while of speculation and learning, the signs and red flags would become noticeable, and so I'd take a time out from life. Though I have missed out and ruined some things for myself, I let go of the weight that life holds. I allow myself to flow and I've grown trust in "everything happens for a reason". I don't worry too much now, and I do what makes me happy. I stopped caring about what other people thought, or the weight of labels. I took my life into my own hands, did my own research, and became my own person, rather than a person prisoned to their own mental state, stuck in fear of what it is. I want to live with love and spread it. so for the people doing this alone, for the people who feel prisoned and suffocated by their own thoughts, I hope you realize that these things that are "wrong with us", this lack of will, this "incomplete" life, and our "disadvantages" are a blessing in disguise. We are unique, we are powerful. I realized there is no cure, because we aren't a disease, we are just different, and that difference sucks yeah, because nobody has the answers to our problems, but I just hope you find enough to keep going. I strongly believe there is something out there for us, I believe we'll be able to find and achieve something no one has ever seen before. I won't say stay strong because you know, so please just stay here a little longer, life can't always be a struggle. there is beauty and livelyness out there, it's just a little difficult to find that right now. Keep holding on to that little piece that you've been holding onto, even after it loses it's meaning, because ourselves will always come back to us and just trust we'll be better because of it.

This is scary accurate and exactly why I went through today

This advice is all good and great unless you literally have no time to do these things or are forced into bad situations against your will!