@Goosecore that's very brave of you and I respect that..me, not so much of a people person, I can talk online to folks all day but in person, nahhh..I'm good on that

@Goosecore I made a poem similar to your response so we are probably very similar but I'm starting to not care about the fact that I will let alot of people down if I'm gone. Consciousness is a prison for me when I am forced to acutely observe every repetetive moment day in and day out. It is nauseating to live this routine life with only the desire to become unshackled. The worst part is all your friends and relatives live shallow dopefiend cookie-cutter basic style lives and you just have to play along until you can be alone and blast music and drink to get a reset and lower your mental acuity to the point where you can accept the present moment. I drink alot too but it isn't a problem for me because it helps me get that reset when I need it and helps me not keep ruminating on things sometimes. The narrative or string of events that has made up my life has no bearing on me, I don't have a sunken cost fallacy regarding it. I have stayed single for all but 6 months of my entire life and made sure not to have any serious commitments or responsibilities because to me they are just time sinks and distractions from how empty baseline reality is. People seem ecstatic to pursue entertainment and distractions but life is just a hobby where you upkeep your breath for no reason but to delay your death. For me dying in 60 years from now would be a living hell and I don't think I could handle that mental limbo of having to repeat every routine day over for that long acting like there is a prize at the end. People romanticize retirement but it is a horrifying way to go. Keeping someone around for your own sake is quite horrible and I hope couples in the future really weigh the burden of bringing consciousness out from nonexistence creating a big problem where there wasn't one to begin with just because having kids has been conditioned into their minds as the ultimate goal in life. Everybody is so drastically conditioned that to be open-minded is torture and to think for yourself is almost like heresy.

allpoetry.com/poem/15156150-Awaken-the-phoenix--the-guiding-force-within--by-Heathenflame

@Goosecore I suppose if I could live in scotland and work at a distillery or work at like a national park where I can feel open and free in nature. I'm taking a long road trip tomorrow to force myself out of routine and my comfort zone. I used to drink about 8 beers a night on my days off and supplement with liquor but now I have about 2-4 without liquor because I'm saving money for the road trip. I'm thinking of just abandoning georgia and never coming back after I go on this trip. I can find a new job if I need to but I need a hard reset and/or DMT.

@@heathenflame I find that without making a constant effort to control & choose what I’m exposed to & when...most media (in America) feeds depression, anxiety & negativity. The food that is most affordable & available is unhealthy & contributes to poor health which can & usually does contribute to poor mental health. I’ve been dealing with severe depression for as long as I can remember, even as a little kid, currently because of circumstances it’s nearly impossible to dodge the constant barrage of news media & it has become overwhelming, Is I type now there’s a violent riot being shown on the tv in the next room. My only point is that if you are able to have control over what you’re exposed to & what you eat, also with at least 30 minutes of exercise everyday, you might begin to feel much better. I know it takes allot of work to be happy & healthy, it takes no effort to be depressed & antidepressants only cause more problems (in my experience). Lastly, there’s a very old, short poem called “The Desiderata”, look for it, it’s very simple, it’s not religious but it had a profound impact in my life & I read it when I’m feeling down, it already makes me feel better for w little while. Best wishes to you & all of us who have dark thoughts weighing us down.

Perfectly Stated Yes I agree with you they are all together

We mere mortals were not worthy of her existence and talent, therefore she moved on to the next realm.

She was a weak satanist

@@jeffsfx6750 She never claimed to be a satanist; do the research FOOL!

Satanist

Some form of suicide

So why are you here?

So sad, RIP

But most of "us" have heard or heard of them don't try to put borders around us like your silly rap and hip hop does

FUCK OFF

Bloody halfwit

she suffered from a mental illness , so yes , of course someone going through some dark shit will sing about dark shit, get out with your ignorant shit...why the "lol" ...i am sure she isnt suffering anymore...its.people like you why people rather end their life

That’s not okay for you to say that. She expressed her emotions through her music and her amazing singing. She couldn’t take the pain and hate anymore and this is not something you should joke about.

Have you ever heard of creative writing, my dude?

@@jeffsfx6750 What bans do you listen to, who do you think is a talented singer? Posting negativity about the dead is a lowly thing to do.

@@jeffsfx6750 Says a guy whos such a big Fan of Motley Crue, that its your avatar. Your opinion is now invalid.