I can't FOCUS on ANYTHING*

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8 ай бұрын

I Can't FOCUS on ANYTHING without art. It has always kept me sane, and that's why I don't question these weird impulses my creativity has. Honestly, it knows better what I need than I do. Even if it also makes me feel a bit... uhh weird when I'm buying shaving cream and food colour in bulk for... reasons 🐻
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@KezzBracey 7 ай бұрын

Bought a tear to my eye when you revealed your self-portrait. And that's why your videos are more than drawing and painting videos; they're *art* videos.

@angrymikko Ай бұрын

That’s very kind of you.

@JMulvy 8 ай бұрын

This hit home for me. I even teared up a little. Not just because of your story of self-doubt, but because I could relate to it so well. I doubt I am over-stepping boundaries by saying... we all do. Much love Mikko! Keep making your great art. It inspires others more than you know, myself included. 🤗

@kindbutangry 3 ай бұрын

ohhh, that "i have become my own bully" hits me so hard. i was also bullied, now i try to see myself in a positive way and i have improved in it, but those thoughts and feelings of weirdness and unworthy will still lurk behind me, always. Also, whaaat is this technique?! :o

@jenniferleeesmith 8 ай бұрын

Amazing! This brought tears to my eyes. Not only are you a great artist but a great story teller, and thank you for being so honest with us!!

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Just felt like a video I had to make. I’m in the process of working on a bunch of very technical art tutorials and somewhere between the mountains of work I needed to get this video done for reasons I don’t fully understand myself.

@MarceBr. 8 ай бұрын

This touch my heart in many ways... but this bear is Def a self portrait... that's how i perceived you in my mind...I have followed you for years, but in the few days i have joined the members channel, and i have share with you and the Discord community i can feel how you keep an eye on us, helping and advising when we ask for your opinion, but also you're not afraid to let us know when you need your own space 😂, you're strong and direct when you need to... I have the sense that you don't want thousands of followers agreeing and content with everything you say, i have the sense you hope for a real community, a few but really good heart and supportive people, and I think you nail it because i love that chat!. Besides i always read all your paragraphs because i know there's gonna be something there that's gonna crack me up, you're really funny too!. You keep the struggle real, i see you're not afraid to show when you're frustrated, or tell us when some painting or some process inside of your painting have tease your nerves, and that's important, because with you i have learned that not everyday the muse is there ready to help you to be creative, that some weeks you're gonna be blank, but the important thing is to move your butt and get yourself to work... so yeah!.. you're a bear!. Thanks for this video! Its amazing to see the final result after all that expectation 😂😂

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

I don’t say this often enough but the Discord membership group definitely inspires me too. It’s so awesome seeing the progress of you guys in the art & assignments channel. Sometimes I do feel like I should always be doing more but maybe that’s just a typical problem for creative people as a whole. Sensible working hours should be more of a thing and at least for me personally that’s something I constantly struggle with. Especially now that I’m doing the (shall not be named here videoseries) at the same time with my other work. Multitasking a project of that magnitude often makes me feel like nothing is getting done. I am committed to finishing it as soon as possible but I also need to acknowledge the fact that. Doing an entire video series is going to take time no matter what. And yes sometimes I do like writing walls of text on topics that wouldn’t quite work as a video but I feel they’re important to be said anyway. And honestly I will just never get tired of talking about art. I’m just super lucky to have a group that I can talk about those things with 🐻

@user-hq7lh8wq9z Ай бұрын

I believe doing art, accepting mistakes and imperfections, letting it flow is teaching us something about ourselves and world around us ❤

@dyllanrodriguez2828 8 ай бұрын

I’ve been in a rut for a long time now, give or take a few months because this year has emotionally beaten me down. I picked up my pencil and just couldn’t do it, felt so frustrated and defeated, I have been finding satisfaction in my writing of stories, game ideas, and so on. It’s actually funny but I recently started learning premiere pro after being scared to dive into another thing and maybe the worse happening for me confidence wise but the opposite happened and I have so many plans now for videos and projects, and in that I have picked up my pencil again, inconsistently but it’s in my hand again and it felt right again despite the lingering frustration.

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

I always say that it’s essential to have creative hobbies that are just hobbies. If art is your job or you’re working for it to become one it’s dangerous for the creativity to be burdened with so many expectations. I have creative hobbies that I don’t film or share because they’re my way of fiddling with the dials of my imagination to get it working again. It’s also a great way to take care of yourself because you deserve interesting hobbies that are meant just for you to explore and experience new things. Premiere is pretty much like photoshop for video and I don’t see it any different than making art with any other tool. It should also be said that sometimes we just need a break. There are vacations in every other job as well but artists often expect themselves to have the same level of creative output at all times. I don’t believe in art blocks. I think that’s just a term we invented to blame ourselves for needing a break. Breaks I do believe in and they’re not a bad thing.

@Squidpeg 5 ай бұрын

This is so real and relatable. Thank you for being vulnerable and brave enough to share it. ❤ Also, if you did a masterclass on all the BTS of making this video alone, I'd pay sooooo many dollars for it!!

@saffo5177 2 ай бұрын

omg mikko! so sad to hear that you feel this way :( your art is amazing. i would be thrilled if one day i could make art that's like 1% as good as yours

@user-ht3pc4qt7e 5 ай бұрын

I needed this. Lately my anxiety has also kept me up or waking me up earlier, more than usual. But staying creative is definitely the way for me to go. I love your work and how you explain and teach art. It’s very unique and inspiring ❤️

@SydneyLawton 8 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this, Mikko! The way you describe waking up at the beginning really stuck with me - i don't think I've ever heard it said like that, but it feels like what happens with me; my dreams eventually start feeling like life is intruding, to the point where even the most absurd situation will suddenly ask me if i got that task done yet and *snap* I wake up, worried about the task. When I paint, hours go by without a single thought in my head - blissfully silent for a mind that moves a million miles a minute under normal circumstances. 😅 Imma need a name for this technique or steps to follow or something cuz I am DYING to know what the shaving cream does 😂

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

It’s just one cheap way to do marbling on paper. For sharpest results just doing it once on a layer of shaving cream is enough. But for this I wanted to have the vertical smears for flames (blue is naturally that colour when inverted the flames didn’t need any additional hue adjustments). It’s also possible to use any flat hard plastic like a ruler to wipe the extra shaving cream off the paper to improve sharpness. I ended up with this technique when I was doing a collection of these for an exhibition in Helsinki. Luckily I didn’t need to explain the mess at home more than “I’m making art!” (Sometimes I wonder if my bf trusts me a bit too much🤷🏻‍♂️)

@MsRafanatic 8 ай бұрын

❤ This is beautiful and sad ❤ lots of love to everyone who feels this way.

@MoreSopranoNeeded 6 ай бұрын

Youre such a beautiful soul, Mikko! Its like you come shining through your videos, comforting us and sharing with us. You always manage to talk about art making and life in such a genuinely human way

@DazzlingAction 8 ай бұрын

I just say to my self half the time "I'm just experimenting. Let it be what it is." Sometimes it just happens to not work out or work out. We're all learning with each new artwork.

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

I haven't quite pinpointed what a routine for using this brain hack could be; but there's something about techniques that inherently come with random failures that are somehow very soothing for any art related anxiety. In this process I made plenty of layer's that either got destroyed by the soaking phase (rice paper is incredibly fragile) and plenty of drawings had to be thrown away because they were way too offset from the rest of the set (you can see the previous layer through the paper but it's very vague silhouette so some of my guesses were just wrong [I don't have a lightbox that could be a solution]). Giving control to the process that I know can go wrong for reasons beyond my control takes a lot of pressure off. And when things do work out, this lack of ownership lets me enjoy the results because I got lucky. There's no quilt in my mind when I say "this turned out really well" because I'm not propping myself up on a pedestal. I'm just happy I got to be there when it happened.

@lawncrow 8 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko I recently experienced this phenomenon while using a brush pen to do my drawing, brush pens are hard to control and do a lot of stuff you might otherwise not expect, so having that pressure taken off gave me some room to enjoy the drawing process again. I'm honestly torn when it comes to 2d art right now, a lot of the time I just feel bored with it I guess, 2d art is one of the mediums I feel like I struggle to express myself in the most, maybe that's from my own expectations on myself but it's hard you know? I have such like, art choice paralysis, I jump to wanting to do different mediums a lot of the time, pair that with the tendency of fantasizing way more about stuff instead of doing it and you end up with not much actually done. I don't know what I'm trying to say here but I guess I just wanted to share something that was on my mind, I find it very hard to actually talk about my art online and I've always attributed lack of community to a lot of my art woes, so I don't know maybe leaving this comment will help or something.

@dookyy 8 ай бұрын

WOW! ❤ I'm in awe of your work and message. The video itself is a piece of art, the reveal at the end left me speechless. Thank you for being vulnerable, everything you put out is helping me so much on my journey.

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Wow, thank you! Learned new things about After effects in the sequence where the layers appear. It’s a fun program to use when you finally figure out how to do something but rendering the wrong guesses before that can easily be quite tedious.

@Raiin0311 8 ай бұрын

Your such a unique person AngryMikko, and it's something that is to admire. Your self portrait is so beautiful, not just the way it turned out but the weight behind it. Appreciate you sharing this with us. 😊

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Thank you so much, I got ridiculously lucky with the way the soaking phase went. Lost only one drawing that got torn in half by the weight of the water but all of the rest were perfectly usable = )

@Studiodorg 8 ай бұрын

Beautiful drawing. Thank you. 😊

@Dilara_Rk 2 ай бұрын

Beautiful❤ this resonated deeply..

@angrymikko 2 ай бұрын

So glad! Some videos like these have less reach but I always feel like they’re worth making when the right person finds it anyway:)

@Dilara_Rk 2 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko I definitely agree :) This happens with artworks as well, you spend so much time on it and you’re enthusiastic about sharing, but when you share you don’t get so many likes :) We have to follow our hearts no matter what🩷☺️

@tbearbryant 5 ай бұрын

You painted my portrait. Thanks, friend.

@hArtyTruffle 8 ай бұрын

I love bears. Wish we could hug them in real life without being eaten 🍽️

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

When I look at myself in the mirror I can always tell myself that “at least someone out there thinks I’m a snack” Even if it’s a bear 🐻…

@hArtyTruffle 8 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko A positive spin on being eaten by a Bear… I like it 🤭

@RichardLaurence 8 ай бұрын

A lovely thoughtful message Mikko

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Thank you. Some videos are harder to write but it’s also the type of work that makes time absolutely vanish for me.

@joyh5904 8 ай бұрын

Loved this video. And the art you created.

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Thank you so much! I’m pretty happy with the way the pieces came together in the end.

@user-yv6xw7ns3o 7 ай бұрын

Well. I wasn't really planning on bawling my eyes out first thing at 6 in the morning today but ok, ya got me! 😢😿🥺😭😭😭🙀🥲 Thank you, man. I get a lot from what you put out there and I really appreciate that you do share about your experience, as well as your art and process. Everything you said here hits a lot of the personal struggles that I've experienced in my journey through life so far. Art IS therapy! Or at least, it definitely can be if one is open to it. This video is therapy too! 💚🐱🤗

@angrymikko 7 ай бұрын

It was not my intention to make you feel bad. Thank you for your time watching this one it was important for me to make.

@KimThirion 8 ай бұрын

Whew, felt this one deeply. ❤😢❤ such a necessary message. Wonderful video!

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Some video ideas that come to me don’t play by the platform rules and I know they’re not going to be pulling traffic. But sometimes I honestly just want to make the thing because I feel it’s important. This was one of those videos.

@KimThirion 8 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko I’m really glad you did! It was exactly the message I needed right now ❤️

@user-yv6xw7ns3o 7 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko I'm so glad you do. Very cathartic and big inspiration, and I can see it's not just me that feels that way. We're lucky we get to hear from you about such meaningful stuff straight from the soul.

@sendaisweetie5297 8 ай бұрын

Relatable. And we all put a bit of ourselves into our art. I wonder what my animal self-portrait would look like? ^u^

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

My toxic trait is thinking everyone’s spirit animal is a different kind of a bear 🐻

@DannyBoy443 5 ай бұрын

I don't 100% agree w/ Mikko on the opening line. It's (mostly) easy for naturally curious and creative people. But it CAN be difficult if there isn't a path you work towards everyday. You have you keep at it.

@buffyramm294 8 ай бұрын

Beautiful!!

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

With this technique honestly it’s good luck when it turns out well. Because of that it’s easier to let go and focus on the process. When good luck happens it’s easier for me to enjoy the results. Less pressure on having it all on my shoulders. Just showing up for my part seems much easier.

@justaddshadows 8 ай бұрын

Your bear is very handsome. Don’t be your own bully, Mikko ❤ be your own bestie

@OTTERSandKNIVES 8 ай бұрын

Well said!!

@browsermage 8 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing 🙏

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

Thanks for listening 🐻

@hArtyTruffle 8 ай бұрын

Hey, I feel like I’m dumb and gross too. I don’t think it… logically…. Just a left over from a dysfunctional childhood. Thanks for sharing you. Interesting how so many people are the same, yet different ✨🫶🏻✨ I have one of those ink pens. Not used it for ages… Think I’ll give it another go. Ooooh, I love how you submerged the piece in water. Watching the way the ink moves in water is a meditation. 🌻

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

It’s weirdly cathartic to destroy the drawing after putting so much love and care into it. It reminds me that it’s just art and the process can be the reason on its own. Especially facing the fact that some of the sinked drawings will just be unusable and fail. If at that point I didn’t find meaning in the practice then it will all have been for nothing.

@DrStrangechilde 8 ай бұрын

❤❣

@nemojpitataj 2 ай бұрын

a great video, something that i rlly needed to hear, i can really be my own biggest critic. just one technical thing, the background music is too loud and you dont speak clearly enough for me to hear you without subs(i have a slight hearing disorder), hope that you can fix this in future videos. otherwise, great content! i only discovered you a couple days ago and im already addicted

@hArtyTruffle 8 ай бұрын

Me neither x

@electronicbagatelle 8 ай бұрын

Very similar to you but sometimes it is hard for me to start... 🐻

@angrymikko 8 ай бұрын

As unromantic as this comparison sounds to me making art is comparable to a gym routine. Momentum is really difficult to get going but once you have a set time slot for it, it eventually gets easier to follow the plan religiously. Sure there are sessions that aren’t as productive as others but I at least show up for my part of the work. If creativity feels like taking a day off and not showing up then that’s not on me at least I was there doing the work and by doing so I know I’m keeping the routine going if nothing else. Hopefully this video explains why that’s important on its own whether or not any great art gets done in those sessions.

@electronicbagatelle 8 ай бұрын

@@angrymikko You are absolutely right, I will try to set specific times. Oh yes completely understood sometimes it is just for the sake of doing it, not necessary producing anything nice, but enjoying the action itself. You are super inspiring thanks!