Ignoring the increasing darkness of the current times, I have to say that the fact that _Contagion_ also predicted Gwyneth Paltrow being a severe health risk to everyone is amusing.

"i can't pay attention to the news, and I can't not pay attention to the news." right there, man.

I will never get over the fact that on launch one of the most consistent critiques of this film was that its portrayal of government-political action on a pandemic as being half-hearted and half-arsed and people were too easy to believe conmen and shills, and now the modern critiques observe that the film's portrayal of government political action was mildly to wildly optimistic depending on your host country, and sadly naive as to how well-marketed the conmen and shills would have to be to work.

The sentence "Would this be the year there would be nobody left to bury the dead?" brought out the wildest most primal form of grief.

The projection on the couch is a really creative and impactful way to avoid a copyright strike. Very slick. Thanks for all the artistic inspiration.

I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way, but listening to someone talk about these complex feelings with such eloquence is comforting in a way. It will suck for a while but we will get through it. Thank you. Stay safe, everyone.

I honestly can't believe this was over a year ago. March 2020 is seriously so early in the pandemic in highsight, so weird to think about how much further downhill things went after that

"disease has no eye for poetry" really hit home. all suffering can be endured if it is given meaning, but a pandemic has none. this didn't need to happen and we all didn't need to die.

“I need to practice emotions, and I need to live in a bounded world, and I need to believe we can choose better.” That hit way different and harder than I expected.

"We remember January but it has as much presence in the mind as childhood."

My friend and I watched Contagion freshman year of high school. We both made fun of the daughter for caring so much about prom in the middle of a damn global pandemic. Four years later.....my class of 2020 prom and graduation all got canceled. Karma is something fierce. I apologize to her character, she was justified in being upset :')

watching this and reflecting on the pandemic brought me to tears. millions are dead and there's a sense that we're all back to normal, my groceries are nearly unaffordable yet politicians blame the usual scapegoats. i think Contagion portrays optimism in its end, but as you said there's no end for us and we're left rubble and ash and uncleared smoke that wasn't there before, and we're told to pick ourselves up by our bootstraps and get cleaning. this disease peeled back the gause over every gaping wound in our system so the public knows its government is a walking undead creature that speaks with human tones and reassurances as if we cant see its true form now. i wish sometimes that it all had a sense of dramaticism, but it meanders and leaves me wanting to force an end myself. i hope your doing well, Dan, and your new normal is something tolerable. i can tolerate mine, but im so, so lucky.

"On the one hand I am deeply privileged enough that I can stay safe and be isolated. On the other hand I cannot think of the other hand." Thank you for putting words to my emotions. I really appreciate it.

Ever since I was a young child, I have been violently thanatophobic, to the point where it has basically altered the quality of my enitre life. I recall being three years old, and suddenly being convinced that I was choking to death... going into hysterics as my parents attempted to reassure me that, logically, if I were to be choking, I would need to have something blocking my airway in the first place... but logic seldom cures anxiety, especially for a child. That was the first, but not the last of my anxiety attacks based on death. Between the ages of 3 and 17 I had them multiple times a week, sometimes many within the span of a day. The self-diagnosis behind them changed constantly: a heart attack, a stroke, a brain hemmorage, but the certainty never wavered. I awoke almost every day of my formative years completely sure I would be dead before that night fell. Sometimes I would peer through the anxiety attacks and enoy life as a child my age should be able to, but even during these high moments thanatophobia would still be there, gnawing at the back of my mind, reminding me that I was going to die one day... that after death was almost ceraintly nothingness, and that these two facts in tandem meant nothing I loved or cared about mattered at all. Eventually I found a combination of medicine and counselling that helped me cope with the obsessive compulsion and the anxiety, and life stabilized for a long while Then, around age 25, I developed cancer of the appendix. They caught it early thanks to a nigh-miraculous bout of appendicitis... so early, in fact, that they could cut the tumor out of my body and that would be the end of it, though it would cost me half my large intestine and a portion of my small one besides. I was warned about the risks of surgery, and the date was set for a week ahead. To this day, I remember how numb and calm I felt that entire week. It was the single point in my life where death was looming over me more real than it had ever been before... and I just felt nothing. It was like I was watching a dream. As I said goodbye to my family in the waiting room the day of the surgery, I pondered whether I would see them again, but it was clinical... like wondering what the weather tomorrow would be, and my last pre-surgery memory was me making small talk with the surgery team while I waited for the anesthetic to kick in. It did. As my eyes fluttered shut, I pondered whether they would ever open again. I'll never forget how eerily calm I was about everything. This scare has been nostalgic for me because it's caused me to experience both of these emotions again. I've barely been holding it together for weeks as I worry about things I have no real control over... then suddenly a switch flipped, and now I just feel numb about everything. I just process everything logically because it's the only means available to me to interact with it at all. Sorry for oversharing, not sure where all that came from... guess hearing another nerd grow introspective made me feel the same.

I really ****ing wish this hadn't aged to well. FFS, nearly 2 years later. Thank you, genuinely, for the video. Escapism via other's escapism is alive and well, I suppose.

This is just surreal. I remember how I felt in March - grasping for something to make me feel better, watching Contagion as a way to process overwhelming emotions, being afraid for my own safety, having bouts of depression that kept me in bed for hours after I was supposed to be at work, then bouts of mania were I felt the need to clean everything... but now.... Now? I just feel empty. I feel nothing but nostalgia watching this, like "oh how nice, people used to take this seriously. I'm not sad, I'm not afraid. I'm just resigned. I've long since stopped feeling the impact of the hundred thousand people who've died, the millions of people who will suffer health problems for the rest of their life, the thousands who are facing homelessness... It just is, and I almost wish we were still in this place where the fear was so overwhelming that we could do nothing but watch Contagion on repeat.

Gwyneth Paltrow being associated with misinformation about health? Wouldn't have ever thought.

This video felt like hours and yet bearly half of a half hour has passed, the last 2 weeks of March have been the longest month ever

Coming back to this video just over a year later. God, it still hits. I need a badge that says 'I was a student nurse during the coronavirus pandemic and all I got was this lousy badge'.

Four and a half months later, I still can't stop watching I Can't Stop Watching Contagion.

"A low mortality rate is often the result of adequate care, but the quality of care goes down as the number of severely ill goes up, As the number of infected healthcare workers reduces the number of people qualified and capable of administering that care. This in turn has a knock-on effect where unrelated illnesses and injuries become more dangerous, a heart attack or broken leg that would be easily managed under normal circumstances becomes that much worse when there not enough people to help, aren't enough beds to go around. The more people who are exposed, the more need to roll the dice against that 1-2% and the more are going to loose." Thats the thing i have been trying to formulate for myself, thanks for putting it in to words. I am stealing it.

I have to admit, there’s something comforting about the film version of this, where the government is informed of the problem and spurred to action.

Hi Past Dan, I'm from the future. One year from now we'll have a vaccine and you'll be posting a vid tearing into Doug Walker and making me appreciate Pink Floyd more. Hang in there, Past Dan.

"I'm already an agoraphobic shut-in, with a bad sleep schedule. But it's too much" Thank you for putting this into words. I know so many people, especially online, who are introverted and can function in isolation normally, but the sudden realization that we don't even have the opportunity change that, that our social lives can be so utterly been been canceled in a moment was really something I don' think any of us were ready for

"And I need to believe that we can choose... better." God I love this channel.

Matt Damon's character has one of the most powerful reactions to a loved one's death I've ever seen in film: complete and utter denial. "Sir, your wife has passed away." "(Long pause) Okay, when can I talk to her?" "...Sir, she's dead." "(An even longer pause) WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"

rewatching this is the closest thing to that feeling I had at the start of the pandemic, it still doesn't feel real, I still don't believe that I lived through that, and I still can't believe that I'm not scared anymore, I feel like i should be

12:25 The time distortion section is still resonant and brilliantly written; I remember hearing it in 2020 and was amazed at how dead-on it felt. Although now in 2022 I feel like my sense of time is just kind of broken really. Things feel recursive and so I watch this video again

my anatomy professor made us all watch this movie before because he didn't want to teach that day & he just slumped over his desk asleep. there's a coffee machine in his room. i drank like an entire pot by myself that period & could practically feel myself vibrating during the last act.

At first you think this video was easier because he didn't have to edit a whole video essay like he usually does, then you realize he actually edited the whole thing before projecting it on himself. Dang.

OTHER KZfaqRS: *Posting silly April Fool's videos and pretending everything is fine* DAN: *Staring blankly into the middle distance. Amy paws at him and he absent-mindedly pets her. Outside, the wind is getting stronger, and in the distance a wolf howls, but Dan doesn't seem to notice*

"I'm already an agoraphobic shut-in who works online and has a bad sleep schedule....but it's too much" THIS is what has been hitting me the hardest. My employment hasn't changed. My typical activities aren't impacted much. I already struggle with anxiety and depression on a "good" day. I feel like I shouldn't be so drained all the time.

"I'm tired all the time" yeah me too, I keep taking naps in the middle of the day and not doing anything even though I want to work, I hate it

Days ago becomes distant, Months ago becomes irrelevant, Years ago becomes ancient... This video organized the mess of thoughts in my head I've had for the last 3 weeks. Thank you.

“This could be the new normal for a very long time”. It’s currently February 2022 as I write this and Dan couldn’t have been more correct. The past 2 years have just been a complete chaos. If someone comes across this message in a few years, I hope the pandemic is over, for all our sakes. Continue to stay safe everyone.

I was living with my mom at the time shut downs started in my state. I drove her to the grocery store to get things we needed. She went in and came out some minutes later and said there was hardly anything in there. I said “ok, let’s go somewhere else.” As we were driving through the virtually empty streets on a Thursday afternoon, my mom said “I’m scared” and started tearing up. I told her it’ll be okay, that I had heard the Asian grocery store has a lot of stuff still (you can imagine why). We went there, got everything we needed and went home.

This is going in the time capsule. "This was what 2020 felt like". A gripe: I've noticed that very few videos on this site about this film don't mention the writer, Scott Burns. Why is that?

It's like listening to a depressing song when your sad, it's a form of acceptance. The world is cold but beautiful. It moves on with or without us.

This really hits different halfway through September

watching this in november is... something.

When i cast this to my tv from my phone Im literally laying out on my couch, in a mirror image to Dan. So I don't just see "man watching tv" or "actor lying in path of protector". Really, watching this, its hard not to see Dan like a reflection of myself, on the surface of my tv screen. I'd really been struggling with depression since like September, which I felt I was finally starting to get a handle on, when this disaster struck. It's hard not leaving the house. Seeing someone I respect and admire slumped on the couch, binge watching tv, trying to hold onto hope - it feels very validating somehow. Thank you Dan for the depth of empathy and artistry you lavish on your projects. And everyone in the comments, stay safe & sane out there 🖤

I, coincidentally, happened to watch Contagion in December right before the epidemic began, and it made me panic way more because in the beginning I thought 'Oh shit, it's happening'. After a few weeks, I watched it again and it made me feel optimistic because the virus in the movie is much worse than this one. I thought 'If they can get through that, maybe we can get through this.'

I watched this movie with a bunch of coworkers a few months back. Two things shocked me. First, I couldn't believe how similar the situations shown in the movie were to real life. We are literally in the middle of a similar situation, albeit less lethal than what was in the movie. Second, all my coworkers who are hardcore alt-right trumpers loved the movie, thought it was poignant, and thought it was spooky, but didn't fucking put it together that we were in the same situation. The movie makes the point that the only way to get out of the situation was with vaccines, and yet all these coworkers talk about how vaccines are dumb and fake or whatever else. Some serious cognitive dissonance.

I can't stop watching "I Can't Stop Watching Contagion" and it's been nearly 2 years since you released this video. Big love to you, Dan. From another Dan that is also an agoraphobic shut-in.

When I was really worried about us getting evicted last winter, I got really into Frostpunk, and when I eventually made a video about it I made a joke "why am I wasting so much time in this fictional universe about surviving the snowy post-apocalypse I need to log off and focus on how we're going to actually survive the winter" When I was really worried about us getting evicted last summer my mum told me I should look for a different job besides youtube, and I suppose that would have been the responsible response to the situation but instead I got really into ISLANDERS, the city builder sim where you create little cities on islands until the game doesn't permit you to build anything else and then you throw away your whole city and move on to the next island. When I was worried about us getting evicted this winter I probably should have looked for supplemental work instead of getting really into Cities: Skylines, but there's something about city builders... I guess there's always SOME point in the play cycle where the numbers look really really bad and it feels like the city will fail, and either I get to pull it back from the edge and save the city or I fail and I just have to start over, and either way it's like poking a raw nerve. Thanks for this video, it meant a lot to me. I hope you and your loved ones are safe and keeping well during this time.

Seeing this movie on trending has been a source of significant stress for me every time I open Netflix to find something to distract myself from reality. Thank you for helping me understand why people might be choosing to do this.

Watching this after millions of people die is surreal. We never figure it out.

It's so weird coming back to this now. It's from so early in the pandemic and we all remember that time vividly, but it also already feels like a story we tell each other from how distant it feels. We're so desperate to just get back to normal but it also feels like this was the beginning of the new era.

When my grandmother died I put on the most depressing movie I could find and watched it. Interestingly I felt nothing. Not from the movie nor from her death. It was all just a grey fog.

I'm in the weird opposing emotional cage where I can't bring myself to watch movies like that bc I'm scared of becoming more scared than I already am

watching this in january is a smack in the face,,, we're still going huh

as another *at risk* person, and one who has almost died of covid and now has long covid, I really hope you have been able to stay safe from covid and are doing okay 💕

Can we also talk about how damn stylish the whole movie is? The music, the cinematography, it's like a highly polished technothriller mixed with a fashion shoot.

"Wonderful things of folks are said, When they have passed away. Roses adorn their narrow bed, Over the sleeping clay, Give me the roses while I live, Try to cheer me on. Useless the flowers you may give, After the soul has gone." Good video.

watching this nearly a year later while still in quarantine hits different

Two years on and we've basically repeated the same cycle TWICE with new variants. Every time our politicians announce they're lifting basically all safeguards feels like another round of Russian roullette. Will this bring up another new variant? Will this be the variant that sets all our progress back to square one? Or could it be even worse than that? The idea of reliving that March of 2020 all over again is terrifying. Even if it was that bad, by now most people are so adamant about "getting back to normal" they may be more than happy for any number of people besides their own circles to die, so they can go watch a movie or eat at a restaraunt.

Petition to create a series of movies projected on Dan laying down. No commentary or anything, just the movie and Dan's face reacting to what's on screen.

I'm watching Chernobyl again this week--it is tragic and also refreshing to watch people actually respond to a crisis in the radical and practical way the crisis demands.

I can't believe this video is only 3 months old

In 2023, this video is haunting.

You won't believe how good it is to hear your voice during these times. I'm going to rewatch your videos as you, after Ellen's Rich Evans, are one of the most soothing voices, at least to my ears.

My life too hasn’t changed much. As an introverted sahm of two children 3 and under in a country where it gets to -30 In the winter, I wasn’t going out much anyways. If anything my life is easier bc my husband is home to help with the kids. But it’s the constant state of being on the edge of panic that’s wearing. Of wanting to get away but having nowhere to go, of wanting to call everyone I know to check on them while simultaneously fighting severe phone anxiety. It’s exhausting. I hate it.

Now that we're approaching a year in pandemic crisis, I find myself struck not only with how distant and unreal life before covid felt, but how little I can remember of how it all felt last spring.

I remember finding this video weirdly hopeful originally and now in fall of 2021 the part about developing a vaccine and how that was not the climax but the start of even more work is ringing most strong. And I'm having a hard time believing we can actually choose better anymore - at least not in the United States

There's something comforting about knowing someone else is in a similar mental state to me right now. Thank you.

You had almost crying there mate, god damn it, I guess I am not proccesing the situation enough

November 20th 2023 and I am back, yet again, watching this video. Now as a COVID-cautious person in a world that no longer cares.

this video becomes more and more depressing with every month that passes.

True art is a reflection, and an interpretation thematically, of real life's beauty.. and horror. That's the importance of great works: _Life imitates art, and art imitates life._ Be safe. Love each other. Don't give up.

This concept of "emotional practice" is something that I've been struggling to formulate for a long time now. Thanks for giving me that push that I needed to understand my feeling.

It's now October of 2022. Although a lot of people in the U.S. seem to *act* like the pandemic is over, the infection rates are still comparable to what we had during the pandemic. I'm the only one in my neck of the woods who even bothers to wear a mask, but I feel the threat is still real, and it will stay real until we finally reckon with everything broken about our systems and society.

This video is, in a strange way, comforting. As an essential worker I am experiencing a weird alienation to the general experience, to friends and family, and yet this video taps into all the things that the ones sheltering and the ones out here have in common. This video helps me feel less alone in an uncertain world where my chances of infection are extremely high while I watch politicians mess it up every step of the way ignoring scientific evidence. While on the clock I keep rallying everybody saying we will make it out of this together, but when the day is over I need to sit down in the dark and process the sense of impending doom that follows me around. This video is an illuminated screen in that darkness.

This has been the longest video you've made and I'm eight minutes in.

My god, you have been the first person I've heard who encapsulates the feeling of the respiratory threat. "On the other hand, I can't think about the other hand." I'm also At Risk, and I can't tell you how comforting it was to hear that exact feeling. Thank you for putting out this video, things are hard to do right now and I think it was clever to have the projection over you as the visual. The desire to live in a bounded world in all this is a really great take on why people are watching this film so much. It's a valid way to try to parse feelings about this. And there was a great point brought up in the most recent episode of Even More News, this feeling is like.... grief. Mourning. I guess for the loss of normalcy, for the loss of feeling safe in the world and safe from other people, while we still want to be social and empathetic. It's knocked us all on our asses, and I really really appreciate you talking about it. Stay safe out there. One day we won't have to be so scared.

I'm really glad I only ended up finding and watching this video now, in 2023, after it's all "over." This is indeed an exposed nerve, and I don't think I could've withstood it when this was released. Thank you for making this, though, and putting into words a lot of the feelings about the unprecedented times.

Rewatching this is February 2021. Still hold as true as the day it released.

There are so many things I want to say after watching this...but trying to type any of them out, it just feels empty. Just...however long this takes, I hope we choose better, too. Take care man. Stay safe.

Watching this with the hindsight of July 2022, and im blown away that this came out in late March 2020, and yet so much happened. I thought I was just explaining hydrochloroquinine to my aunt at Christmas, but it was already present on 3/31/20, which i thought was last week and also a decade ago.

"I'm tired all the time" Me too. All my classes have switched to online. I'm in school to be a veterinary technician (vet nurse), and it's really hard just reading shit. I've never been a book learner. I like to see things and then I can try and do them. I'm so stressed out from school. And life. And everything. I stopped drinking when this semester started but now I'm drinking every night. I should probably not do that. But hey.

I watched this video when it came out months ago. I was trying to work out and ended up sobbing on the ground. I’m watching again for only the second time (I’ve watched all of Dan’s other videos to the point that I can quote them) and now I just feel numb. This video makes me a bit anxious and a bit sad, but I’ve gotten so used to this pandemic that there’s hardly even room for emotion anymore. Life goes on, I guess

Having watched Contagion in cinemas, this video in 2020 and now again in 2022, all of this has turned into one big fever dream memory soup.

Only five minutes into this, and I scrolled and clicked the "Show More" for the description and read it, bemused, wondering when the history part was going to be relevant, only to be sucker-punched by the "We can come out of this crisis better than we went in." And now I'm crying. This was produced in March 2020. I was working as a receptionist at a home health care facility - aka, I was in the health care field, but only at the most periphery. But I still had enough connection where I was considered at high risk. I went from visiting my parents at least once a week to not seeing them for six months - including both my own birthday and my dad's 70th birthday. It was agonizing. I don't know if we could have come out of this crisis better than we went in, but we could have gotten through the crisis *better* and I will spend the rest of my life resenting the political parties that actively made the situation worse.

i couldn't keep watching. sitting here, at the start of 2023, where the world around me has decided that it's over and we couldn't have done better anyway, so why bother now... i wildly fly between hoping we all die (i want the people who would let me die to come screaming with me), to hoping everyone stops being so selfish and deluded and cruel and actually works towards real change and improvement. but i know neither will come to pass, least of all the latter. eugenics has appealed to people on both the left and the right for centuries and centuries, no surprise it rears its ugly head with such ease, and is embraced openly by even those who claim to be allies and liberal. the world wants me and people like me dead, and has been happily provided with a solution that "only affects the sick and elderly" - only affects the people who don't matter, in other words (even tho that's not true, and everyone is at risk). but i'll get the last, depressed laugh - for every able bodied person who scoffed at masking and vaccination, who went through a bout or five of covid and thought themselves fine.... you will know what it's like to be me, in due time. the perpetual exhaustion, the brain fog, the chronic pain, the inability to remember small but important things - long covid is real, and it does not discriminate against the "healthy" and the "disabled". it will drag you, weakly crying, down to the level of the people you besmirched, and you'll find yourself without a safety net, without a support structure, and without any sympathy from anyone apart from those you denied any to begin with. if you're lucky, the people still left in your life will stick around, but don't be surprised when they say you're overreacting, seeking attention, that you just need to get over it. maybe take some vitamins. and don't forget - it's all in your head.

Laying on the couch, in the exact same position, watching this video over and over again. I can't stop crying, it just describes all of the horrible numbness, terror, uncertainty, and loneliness I'm feeling right now. Thank you for making it

Jesus this has expressed about fifty different vague feelings I've been struggling with. Thank you Dan

I just came back to this video and oh my god this was the exact feeling that the start of the pandemic had. For me, even now, it still feels so raw and that so much has never been hashed out even in 2023. Thank you for putting these feelings into something expressible.

Sitting here, in the worst the pandemic has been yet in my state, fighting with my father daily to please please please wear a mask - knowing that the aunt who scoffed in April is a frontline worker struggling to get PPE now - It feels routine, 10 months in, and yet sometimes it feels like there is this howling, frantic maelstrom inside of me, of fear and grief and panic and anger. I lost my uncle to this disease in may. Sometimes I forget. It feels like a lifetime ago.

I just have to say, the use of the projection and the voiceover is such a great and effective technique to express the feeling of being stuck in a haze of watching news and Contagion.

This reminds me of how the movie Siege starring Denzel Washington became relevant after 9/11.

In ten years when the Met does a retrospective on Corona this should be playing on a loop.

Strangely, the thing that struck me most about the early spread of the pandemic was how so much of the information around viruses and contagion was stuff that I learned in Year 8 biology, and I was shocked at how so much of what I considered to be quite basic science education was apparently completely alien to millions of people. But it feels to me that the problem lies with a system to fails to properly inform and educate from the very start, and frankly I think that branding all who didn't and don't understand as "Covidiots" or "too dumb to live" is exactly the sort of callous, elitist divide-and-rule snobbery that allows that system to keep perpetuating itself, so I have resisted every urge to look my nose at any other person.

It's November 2023, almost exactly four years after the virus now called COVID-19 was discovered in Wuhan. Three and a half years since I lost my job due to a COVID-related drop in business. In some ways, things are getting better. I got the vaccine, I've made career decisions, and next month I'll finish the college courses needed to follow through on them. It almost feels like the pandemic is over. But it's not. My sense of time is still warped; it's less than a week until Thanksgiving and I almost said it was _October_ 2023. I barely leave the house, and try to avoid standing near other people when I do. My grandma and great-aunts all got COVID this last week. Hopefully nobody else in the family caught it before we realized they were contagious. I need to get a COVID booster. The USA doesn't report COVID deaths any more. Thousands of people in the USA were dying of COVID every week when they stopped. Everyone acts like the pandemic is over, like things can go back to normal. Like things _should_ go back to normal, no matter the cost. But it's still here.

While I haven't seen Contagion, when this news started to break, my mind kept going back to the cinema scene in Outbreak. How easily disease can spread via our own way of life. Yet still the lesson goes unlearned. One of the saddest indictments of this entire pandemic? The global numbers of those that had to be told how to correctly wash their own hands. Basic level hygiene...

"This could be the new normal for a very long time." It has been. I wish we could see the end.

That line “it’s too much” really struck a chord within me. I spend most of my free time indoors disassociating from the rest of the world, so my external life has been barely changed other than school, but I just could not handle the quarantine. I had never felt so alone and so hopeless in my entire life doing what I do every day. It’s like the stasis of the quarantine has created a hyper reality, where we are acutely aware of our routine and the monotony of our lives because we have become so disconnected from everything else. I guess what I’m trying to say is I should have watched this so, so much longer ago.

Holy sh*t dude. I'm so happy that you are able to express this "raw nerve." I hope you are able to get the support you need, virtual hangout with friends and teletherapy. I know I've needed it. I've felt like I've had to put up a brave face for my friends, family, and my students (I teach college courses, now online). I am able to cathartically watch you cathartically indulge in emotions that I've had to hold back. I just got the news that colleges I teach at are preparing to teach their classes all online in the summer, and I need an outlet like you have, to express these emotions outside the bounds of teletherapy. I too swing between wild emotions feeling good about the things that I can meaningfully make better in my own life and the anger and fear about my emotional needs are not and cannot be satisfied for the foreseeable future. I will try to hope that we will come out of this terrible time better than we went in. Thank you.

The calm voice telling me all the things I had at the back of my head stays with me. It echos through my skull back and forth both reminding me I'm alone and that there is a voice, not at all unlike many other voices, that is there. Thank you... just thank you

I do not envy your eyes after staring towards the business end of a projector for over 15 minutes.

I started crying when you talked about the hyperextension of the present, the mental exhaustion of thinking about time

I got 3 minutes into this then found myself thinking "what is this aspect ratio??" Really though, great video. The uncertainty right now is so uncomfortable for everyone. This is a surreal time. Everyone is trying to settle into a new "normal", with zero knowledge of how long this new normal is going to last. It's scary stuff. Stay safe, everyone.