I created my fantasy world 30 years ago and my childhood notebooks & art are...something

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2 ай бұрын

I first created my fantasy world in 1993 as a tween. Did I ever think I would still be writing about this place 30 years later? Probably not or I would have made it less ridiculous... Here is a very embarrassing tour through my earliest notebooks from 1993-94. It's very nerdy and perhaps some of you will relate to your own adolescent obsessions!
By the way, I forgot to say in the video, but there is nothing wrong with the names Carol or Deb, just maybe not if you are a fantasy character with wings and a tragic past, LOL
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@bxnny0374 2 ай бұрын

babe wake up, new cozy creative just dropped and it's about worldbuilding

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Next week I'm also kicking off my world-building series properly, I'm excited!

@linseybachko4470 2 ай бұрын

My daughter and I watched this and it was exactly what she needed to see. She’s eight and writes her own stories based on these characters she made up. She writes and illustrates in sketchbooks but gets disheartened when she sees the books I read and write because she believes she will never get to that point. Seeing your old work made her really believe that what she is doing now will help her become a better artist/writer later, so thank you for sharing. I had to get rid of my old notebooks as a kid when we moved across the country so I didn’t have anything of my own I could show her to prove to her that I started where she is now.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

My heart! What a wonderful story. Gosh, and at 8 I was quite a bit behind where I am in these notebooks, of course, but she sounds like she has high standards for herself and I relate to that.

@amandasdumky 2 ай бұрын

I'm crying laughing at the Death Rulebook lollllll

@yuleham 2 ай бұрын

“Stuff like this is why people burn their notebooks” LOL true

@mercycunningham2813 2 ай бұрын

Yes, let it burn. I certainly did. No poor soul should ever have to read my first attempts. Or worse may get ideas of publishing my baby steps as an author after my dead should I ever become famous.

@steveneardley7541 Ай бұрын

I burned all my high school cartoons, because I thought they revealed a sick mind. I ended up regretting it. I wrote a funny vampire story in 10th grade, and it was published in the school literary magazine when I was a senior, to my complete mortification. I couldn't even read it. .

@tweegerm 2 ай бұрын

this made me feel a great blast of fellowship with nerdy writer kids everywhere. would be really interested to see you trace the transformation of one of these characters who survived into your published works!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

I'll keep going with these, enough people seemed to want more, and you will certainly see the progression of a lot of characters and ideas. Det is the oldest true survivor (as in, some names and vague details were reused for other characters, but not as a continuous character). His progression is wild to look back on.

@onetiredwriter 2 ай бұрын

I love seeing these! I now keep all my notebooks, but during a case of imposter syndrome in my teenage years I destroyed everything from before I was 15 -- not keeping them is one of my biggest regrets.

@shebreathesingold8043 2 ай бұрын

FYI. You're officially my new favorite authortuber! I love the videos where you really look back decades to either share history, wisdom, advice, etc. It's both fascinating and so interesting.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

I am just beyond happy that people have enjoyed these videos!

@Sadtape 2 ай бұрын

I feel like i know someone intimately when i see their margin scribbles

@annemorph Ай бұрын

I’m watching this with my 9,11, and 15 year old daughters and they are loving it! Thanks for sharing 😊

@ghostie7790 26 күн бұрын

Smiling form ear to ear!!! These stories are great and the pictures a beautiful! Reminds me of myself omg. I'm a graphic novel author now. These kinds of kids go places!

@kittystorms 2 ай бұрын

This is hilarious! But I'm having a conundrum: Which flavour ice cream do I choose, chocolate or poison?!

@SeaweedKisses 2 ай бұрын

Omg! You have no idea how much I enjoyed seeing your past self captured through your journals ❤ thank you for sharing these🥹 As a journal keeper, I make sure to store and treasure all my “stray pieces of paper,” too! That’s where the “gold” and gems lies, in my opinion. Not at the moment, but the value it offers later in the future when we look back.

@thewanlorn Ай бұрын

Ah, another person who has saved their childhood writing! I love to go back to mine like once every few years just to see how much progress I've made since then :D

@Mangzorz 26 күн бұрын

LMAO Totally forgot about Sweating with the Oldies, oh my god... what a horrible idea that was lol.... The 90s was ....a different time.

@Ebony.B 2 ай бұрын

Love how your videos are true to your name. Definitely cozy ❤ listening to this as I’m going to bed is perfect

@MissShembre 2 ай бұрын

I LOVED watching this! Okay-- in middle school, one of my first major characters/worlds was about a human-lion hybrid, and him and a couple other hybrids had Nightcrawler powers. I'd recently seen X-men 2, and was obsessed with The Lion King. It came to me in a dream. Their arch enemy was a lab scientist. :B I likely abandoned the world when I discovered Lion King fan fics existed.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Hahaha...so relatable, including the dream part. I have a number of diary entries just mentioning some dream about a character that I had. Poor lab scientists, always the villains back then! I had a thing with mermaid vs. lab scientist for a while thanks to Splash

@elizabethbriggsbooks 2 ай бұрын

I just organized my office and found all my old notebooks from when I was this age too. I was too scared to look at them though. You are braver than me, LOL.

@Vanbedda 2 ай бұрын

This was so sweet and funny! Thanks for sharing them, and I know you say you think they're a little cringe but to me they are endearing. The artwork reminds me a lot of how I used to draw when I was 10-12yo and the stories too. But the amazing thing is is that you kept going!

@rockywhisperingasmr721 2 ай бұрын

This was great. I have memories of doing things like this but alas, the notebooks are long gone.

@livethefun 2 ай бұрын

Genuinely loved this video, I don't have any of my childhood journals because I'm perpetually getting rid of things I at one point deemed "useless". Now I wish I had them still to be able to see what kid-version of me was thinking. Thank you for sharing yours!

@mercycunningham2813 2 ай бұрын

And one for the algorithm: Your cat Reinhard looks just like my cat Casper.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

That's 2 Reinhard lookalikes now, I could start a fuzzy orange cat club! They're so unbearably adorable

@vm0077 2 ай бұрын

This is so adorable and hilarious, I could watch hours!! Whenever I find a notebook or sketchbook of mine in the dredges of a closet, or an old video in the depths of my old computer backups, I spend at minimum an hour stumbling down memory lane… unfortunately a lot of notebooks (specifically - the videos live on undeleted, mostly because they’re from when I was so little I have no shame for them anymore) have been lost to fits of rage and crippling embarrassment. 😅

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Haha, oh yes, the videos. I have some of those too...the early ones are so cute, the teenager ones are hilarious to watch with my sister but are otherwise quite agonizing

@KimberlyLetsGo 2 ай бұрын

I was a huge Pier Anthony Xanth fan!!

@ryghpedersenwrites 2 ай бұрын

You are so lucky to still have all those files. I have my old writing, but not so much of my old drawing, however I really want to work on my artwork again and even if its just for me and those curious, do world building tours

@Sue-pn7mq 2 ай бұрын

Your notebooks are so cute and amazingly creative. I love this video ❤

@Alexandriakingoftrash 2 ай бұрын

This was really cute to watch actually! It's always interesting to see how ideas change as you grow - I kept everything I made while I grew up, but sometime during high school I found all my old artwork and writing and threw it out. I even remember tearing everything up into tiny pieces before putting it in the recycling because I was so mortified at the idea of anyone picking it up and seeing it. It was a weight off my chest then, but now that I'm an adult I wish I'd kept them so I could look back at them like this and see how much I've grown.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

i definitely had moments when I thought about tossing some of it. The stuff from my teens and early 20s is the MOST cringey to me because I remember being that age more, and I feel like I was more mature, and then I see stuff like the Det angst/blood poem and ohmigod...how could I be 20 when I wrote that!? But I guess my hoarder/archivist tendency kept winning out.

@prosetheus8951 Ай бұрын

Appreciate these kinds of videos. Great to see the journey of evolution of ideas.

@danaleepipes8312 Ай бұрын

So much fun getting to know you by reading these blogs. Rhinehart (sp) is so beautiful in the sunshine.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor Ай бұрын

I was never really drawn to the orange cats, but I get it now. He's such a beautiful little ray of sunshine himself.

@i.b.640 Ай бұрын

"Death may not ... The fact that I wrote this OS kinda sad." Not necessarily. She was talking about heavy penalties. Most people wouldn't even have the dress rule, because the thought you might want to wear a dress even though you are NOT a girl might not even have entered their minds.

@charmedvenuss 2 ай бұрын

man this makes 13 year old me feel better lol I always copied from whatever i was into at the time like the mortal instruments, and Terminator LMAO wrote stories and characters how i wanted to write it hahahaha, what a wonderful look into some of the moments of joy from your childhood!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Haha, I hope the Mortal Instruments and Terminator influences went into the same story because that's the sort of weirdness I can really appreciate 😂

@i.b.640 Ай бұрын

If this was Jeopardy I'd say "Franchises in which Lena Heady Played a part" 😅

@Ethan-qs7fo 2 ай бұрын

Your cat has the cutest little meow 😭😭

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

He's growing so big and strong but his meow remains SO WEE

@tomaria100 2 ай бұрын

This was great - hysterical. I laughed a lot! I bought the favorite book you wrote and now wonder what I'm in for.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Oh thank you for trying one out! I hope you enjoy it!

@grillninja6492 2 ай бұрын

I have a lot of sketchbooks and I have lots of similar experiences

@katendress6142 Ай бұрын

I've lost a lot of my early writing because I was writing in my school notebooks (while I was supposed to be taking notes for my classes) and I'm pretty sure they got pitched when my mom moved. into her current place. But I'm sure they were as cringey. I had a crush on Wesley Crusher when I was in junior high. I'd never heard of fanfiction or Mary Sues (because no internet) but I certainly wrote them.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor Ай бұрын

Same here, but then, what better time to write entirely for yourself without worrying how silly it is than junior high!

@jammjumble9928 2 ай бұрын

I loved watching this! One of my favorite things is seeing peoples’ characters, worlds and stories that they’ve held onto for a long time. It’s just so nice to see the love and care someone can have for an idea.

@littlemousereads 2 ай бұрын

This video was such a joy! Thank you for sharing ❤ My grandma recently found a box of my childhood writings and drawings and I've been too embarrassed to look through it. But after this video I really want to find out what's in there.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Yes, you should look! I mean, it is pretty embarrassing, not gonna lie, but laughter is also good for the soul. 😂

@nosafewords 2 ай бұрын

You can’t go wrong with Cutter and crew.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

No indeed!

@valeriegrice4775 2 ай бұрын

Super interesting video!!! Thank you!

@gabriellacrivilare438 2 ай бұрын

Oh this is DEEPLY relatable and funny and makes me want to go dig up all my old notebooks.

@erinmariesickler 2 ай бұрын

This is absolutely precious. What a gift to yourself to honor and preserve these story/memories.

@annek311 2 ай бұрын

I vow to NEVER AGAIN bring in reality when a child tells me about an idea they have. Never question how any of it is supposed to fit in to the "real" world. Of course Death must never appear on exercise tv! Obvious!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Haha...I mean, it's TRUE...you don't want to leave a loophole like that in the Death rule book

@allisonrose7902 2 ай бұрын

Not the fat phobic elves 😩🤣 I’m referencing another video but I’ve been seeing more videos lately about cozy horror, so there’s definitely something to your “creepy cute” desire. Might want to get on maybe a shorter project now and hold it in reserve if the movement gathers more momentum.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

There were definitely moments in these videos where I remember that although I have some 90s nostalgia, there are other things that are like...ugh, I forget how fat shaming was broadly cultural acceptable...and for that matter how I felt like I was the "ugly one" because my sister was blonde and I was a brunette. Plus the gender conformity. Ooh maybe I need to look up cozy horror and see what people are saying. i already have one creepy-cute one out, and I'm working on another now, so...here's hoping!

@allisonrose7902 2 ай бұрын

@@lidiyafoxgloveauthor the video I watched was from Kutiefly called “What is Cozy Horror?!” I don’t think I can put links in your comments. I think she gives a decent breakdown of what tends to comprise the burgeoning sub-genre. Creepy cute I think would fall under the same umbrella but I think coming up with a catchy marketing name would be good. I’m still thinking about it.

@i.b.640 Ай бұрын

I want to write cosmic cozy 😅

@cogmouse 2 ай бұрын

Seeing the purely theoretical plans for an X-Men fanclub unlocked long, LONG buried memories of writing down the exact same kind of stuff! For some reason I was really fond of coming up with agendas not just for fanclubs about whatever I was into (I definitely recall doing this for X-Men too, but also Chronicles of Narnia, Legend of Zelda, the Drizzt books, and I think at one point...fairies? Like, as a concept?) but also a theater troupe I was totally going to organize to put on plays I wrote (at least one of which was about wererats, for some reason). Incredible that you're still building on stuff from that long ago... I dunno if I'd be able to even LOOK at anything I wrote or drew when I was 12 without wanting to cringe into nothingness, much less see if there's anything creatively salvageable (although maybe 12 year old me was kinda cooking with that wererat thing, idk). I feel like still writing in the world you invented as a kid is sort of the fantasy worldbuilder's dream, in a lot of ways.

@SeanDuranMusic 2 ай бұрын

You rocked this, because as writers, novelist.... It was such a breather to just chill, and look into your diaries, which I didn't think they were stupid. At that age, I was drawing, football in community league, reading Snoopy and Disney books, maybe being accused of being beaten when I was in the 4th grade, I was reading at night before bed time, and the lamp fell on my arm and burned me. Next thing I know we are at the house of my teacher with my parent's. And music who wasn't into music, the 80s and 90s music was ALIVE and WELL!!! You must continue on this path. I usually don't watch long video's, but this sucked me in and I thought I was becoming an elf,lol. I have note book of note books and boxes and just crap I don't know why I can't throw away, throughout my life it seems.

@cedarmccloud 2 ай бұрын

I loved this video so much, seeing people's childhood art, writing, and characters is legit one of my favorite things! So many of your reactions were so relatable to looking back at my own work, but the one that got me the most was "I'm getting that vibe that I've just read The Mists of Avalon." I, too, was highly influenced by reading that book around age 12 or so 😂 what a mood

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Oh man it was a mood...that book hits so hard when you're 12

@ComedorDelrico 2 ай бұрын

This video was extremely enjoyable. I am just a few years older than you, and kept very similar notebooks. It was very nostalgic to revisit the past with you, even though they weren't my notebooks, they definitely brought back memories of my own childhood/early teen years. I don't have any of my old notebooks, but this little trip down memory lane helped me feel connected to that lost part of my past. The rules for Death had me in stitches! Especially the rules about the Brady Bunch and Sweating to the Oldies LMFAOOOO 😂😂😂 Please do another of these videos!!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

That's wonderful, I was hoping it would bring back some memories for other people too!! ...I wish I had written more actual stories about Death so I knew more about how or why these rules were applied...but the stories were still mostly pretend games with my sister at that point.

@teresachaotic.corner 2 ай бұрын

Your notebooks are so cozy! I also think you're a great artist as my attempts to draw characters back then were just stick figures! Watching this made me want to pull up a blank composition book and just let my imagination run wild just for the sake of it.

@mercycunningham2813 2 ай бұрын

Oh my, Elfquest. That's ages ago but did I spy a sketch of Reyk?

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Oh yes, I know there was an awkward Rayek drawing in there somewhere

@marimendoza3375 2 ай бұрын

That chart made me laugh out loud. Adorable!

@ThatNerdyMystic 2 ай бұрын

This is GREAT. 😂 I recently found a bunch of my notebooks from teenage and college creativity, including notes from a long and involved Neverwinter Nights 2: Mask of the Betrayer fanfiction.

@dkannapan 2 ай бұрын

I have notebooks like this! But wow, you were prolific. Makes sense, considering your rapid-release videos

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

I guess I was! Homeschooled kids with nothing else to busy ourselves with...but I couldn't finish anything to save my life back then.

@tatli3630 2 ай бұрын

These are fabulous! And your commentary had me 😂 I wish I'd kept some of my writing from childhood, but most of it got lost when we moved in my late teens. And yes, I did burn my diary 😅 On the other hand, I kept every single piece of drawing and writing my kids ever did, and they're still fairly young. my house is hoarder's paradise, and we still have some 6-7 years to go!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

My mom was definitely a good supporter of this too, she bought us file cabinets and folders and helped us sort and store all the loose papers, so that's awesome that you're keeping your kids' papers. It's so entertaining later!

@XYBeautiful 2 ай бұрын

I don't think I've ever seen a channel before that routinely gets a 20% like-to-view ratio like CC does anyway I did my part

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Haha, this totally sounds like we would have been friends... I also had SO MANY plays many of which were musical, and no one wanted in on any of this. And wererats! I mean as a big Secret of Nimh fan over here, why not, a rat was admittedly one of my first crushes

@XYBeautiful 2 ай бұрын

@@lidiyafoxgloveauthor the Broadway musical adaptation of The Eternal Embrace was one of my 'yeah, whatever' ideas from back when I wrote another book ten years ago. All of a sudden Udio comes out, and it absolutely nails musical theater, and I finally got to let the robot overlords deliver me the Broadway musical I've always wanted. I won't let AI write my own actual music or books because that kinda defeats the purpose of everything, but as for just a fun side project on a weekend, it was a blast.

@fairyfathom 2 ай бұрын

this was adorable lol

@jmpar4 2 ай бұрын

I loooove this! I have most of my sketch books and stray pieces of paper also. Thanks for sharing all of this!

@RMurphy25 2 ай бұрын

This was a great video. It was so funny, it’s awesome that you kept everything. You had quite the imagination growing up, it makes for a great writer

@kaychannon 2 ай бұрын

This was so interesting and really fun. It made me laugh out loud as well, and trust me, I really needed to do that this week. It's been a week and I have wanted to write, but have not been able do (stress). But it's Monday soon, the start of a new week, and this video was my little desk lamp light in a dark 7 days. Thank you!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

Yay! I love the idea of making little desk lamp lights. I'm glad it helped at the end of A Week.

@kaychannon 2 ай бұрын

@@lidiyafoxgloveauthor - and there I was doubting the nature of this metaphor, meaning my head was going - maybe you shouldn't write that, It's a bit cliche - Thank for what you are doing on YT.😌✍

@caiwyne 2 ай бұрын

I want to see more of these! I'd love to see how your characters and world evolved over time!

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

It seems like a decent number of people wanted more, so I'll block another one into the schedule for sure!

@IvyAlive 2 ай бұрын

I made the (correct) mistake of watching this while sitting alone at BWW and I was cackling like a madwoman 😅

@soulincolor 2 ай бұрын

The Brady Bunch thing took me out.

@Fubar2024 2 ай бұрын

I'm older and never read a romance novel. I tend to stick to crime/spy genres. Any suggestions to start? I am really enjoying how differently and gently you think compared to myself.

@lidiyafoxgloveauthor 2 ай бұрын

That's a hard one, as there are just so many different types of romances. I'm also not, like, the BIGGEST romance reader either, but here are a few I love: The Undertaking of Hart and Mercy by Megan Bannen: a goth-cozy, very quirky romance that I loved so much Outlander by Diana Gabaldon: Not strictly a romance but a historical time travel epic that has a very well-realized romantic relationship at its core Anna and the French Kiss (& follow ups) by Stephanie Perkins: YA contemporary romances that are just utterly cute and charming Ice Planet Barbarians by Ruby Dixon: If you want to jump right into the weirdness that can be romance these days, IPB is smutty with aliens but it's also weirdly cozy and comforting Emily Wilde's Encyclopaedia of Faeries by Heather Fawcett: Has two very quirky leads, delicious academia elements, and a detailed and strange world of fae Not really romance but I read Dorothy Sayers' Peter Wimsey and Harriet Vane mysteries for the relationship, since you enjoy crime novels that might be a good way to dip a toe in.