An emotional purge can be good for you. I hope you don't mind some advice from a 66 year old former photographer in poor health, poor of pocketbook, and who's been through some bad times over the past 30 years but still manages to keep a positive outlook. I'm new to your channel so maybe I've missed some vital information but I don't understand what is wrong with getting help from friends and family? It doesn't mean you're some kind of a failure, just the opposite, you know you're ignorant about some things and someone else can maybe help you understand instead of you trying to invent the wheel. Again, I'm sorry if I'm off base saying anything but from what I've seen you're intelligent, artistic and maybe a bit too independent, or thinking that you need to be so. My Mom was Miss Independent as are my two sisters both of which started out at the bottom and did extremely well for themselves. But there were times they butted their heads against some obstacle or another and it nearly broke them. It wasn't until they 'gave up' and asked for help that they surpassed the thing that was blocking them. If it weren't for the kindness of three girls, models, I wouldn't be here today. I was a mess after a girl I was in love with suddenly acted like I didn't exist and wouldn't tell me why or what happened for her to literally overnight change her entire attitude about me after 8 years of being together. It's been 21 years and I still don't' know. But I always say that God saw what a wreck I was and sent me not one, not two, but three strangers who became the truest friends I've ever had. (In fact the first girl worked for a disaster recovery company.) Don't miss out on that happening to you by thinking you have to go it alone. Friends and family are there to help you carry your difficult load when you need it. Don't shun them. Nor the help of strangers like what happened to me. Unfortunately intelligent and creative people are more prone to depression (that's a fact) and so you will have times when things seem overwhelming like in this video. It's similar to what people do when they write a letter. Putting all their frustrations and grief down in print and then tearing the paper to shreds is so cathartic as I think making this video was for you. I will pass on one thing that my doctor told me decades ago, and that is if you should ever feel like hurting yourself, don't be alone, don't try to tough it out. Get help. In my case I went to a local fire station because I was out of town. They helped me tremendously as did my family and those three great friends, my 'A Team' Amy, Amber and Arban. I'm a stranger to you but I hope you'll take my message to heart. I know the future will be bright for you. Bob

This is really helpful and so meaningful and needed. Thank you for sharing this realness! It’s so beautiful and so inspiring. ✌🏻🌱

actually second comment lol