A lot of heart in this episode 💛💛

I feel so sad 😩

I had thyroid since I was 17 which was discovered by my secondary school principal as I failed n level as I only went for one paper. prior, I was struggling with studies halfway through mid term after prelims for n level, although I did pretty well for English, my anxiety started to go haywire, I had daily throbbing headache, my memory starts to fail drastically, I would forget homework, forget my way home, the moment I reached home I would crash in my bed and slept for hours till it was dinner time. slowly it got worse as I only woke up past midnight instead of afternoon. and was bullied by my classmates with lots of different bullying tactics daily and even got followed home. slowly my leg muscles starts to shrink, it became very soft like jelly and I was struggling to walk. when I sit on the floor of the parade square, I couldn't stand for morning assembly which the entire school would stare at me, my entire classmates would shout at me to stand, but I couldn't because I didnt have the leg muscle to stand, therefore I stopped going to school as I felt like im crying on the inside and nobody noticed or gave their helping hand. I was struggling to walk to school as leg muscle shrink, it took me an hour to get to school instead of 10min. I didnt further my studies since then and have been staying at home since then. majority would ask my mom, what's wrong with me and what was I doing at home. back then I was so into doing diy crafts, decorating my room as that was what I was on KZfaq daily. i went for appointment to my doctor as I was diagnosed with thyroid immediately after my principal told me to get tested for thyroid. and bingo, I had hypothyroidism. I lacked of female hormones. not much details were given by the doctors, but since the very beginning she was sure I've brain tumour but the MRI scan proved her wrong, over the years every appointment she wouldn't explain much and always asked me to do another MRI scan, we declined because we were financially struggling. and this year's appointment she told me my pituitary gland was damaged. I didnt quite understand as she didnt explain what was it. I had to google search what she meant, I found it was brain injury to cause the damaged to the stem of the brain. back then I was thinking, hmm I didnt have brain injury though. few months later I accidentally tripped and fall while going up small flight of stairs to the mall, which I wasn't sure whether if I hit my forehead to the railings but when I got up, my forehead was red. few months later I dreamt of 9 years ago when I was in school, playing girls soccer as goalkeeper, suddenly I heard shouting from outside the field gate and saw a soccer ball being kicked to the sky, so I stare at it and when I realised it was getting closer, it hit my head and I walked out of the field nose bleeding, and went home to take a nap immediately when I reached home because I was struggling to walk home. I remember when I woke up, my mom told me I slept for a day. since then the bullying got worse, classmates would place my bag elsewhere in the school, did a lot of nasty pranks. they followed me home and since then I didnt went to school ever since then. even when collecting my n level result I asked my mom to do so, and the school didnt even notify her to collect n level certificate which few years later when my condition got better, I had to email to SEAB to purchase my physical cert because I didnt received mine which I only realised it when I went for my job interview. and last year when my dad's friend intro an admin job, I was very happy but I experienced brain fog on the first day and quit on the second day as I felt like the whole routine isn't desirable to my lifestyle because Im only able to sleep at night and wake up around 11am, the routine changes disrupted me mentally. I wasn't happy when I experienced the brain fog. and I was still struggling with daily throbbing headache. when covid hits, I stopped having headache for around one to two years and this year the headaches were back. few months ago I dreamt of how I got my brain damaged. to sum up, I have hypothyroidism + diabetes insipidus + pituitary gland damaged which if im not wrong its hypopituitarism, I asked my doctor for the names of the conditions I have but she declined stating the entire things they typed in are totally confidential which cant be printed out, so I managed to memorised these three as I usually have brain fog and unable to memorise simple things. I was pretty sure my brain damaged was caused by brain injury I had when I was 17 when my classmates kicked the soccer ball which hit my head and I left the field nose bleeding which I kept having constant nose bleeding for many years until recent years. and in recent months I kept having that dream. when I realised it last month, I left a comment in a Facebook post, they recommend me to get the school to admit it was their wrong and to compensate, I asked my teacher if the insurance covers as I got brain injury which became pituitary gland damaged, he said the insurance have lapsed. everyone goes to school to learn but I went to school and got my pituitary gland damaged and only managed to figure it out after nine years. the doctor insisted that I have birth defects when I told her I remember the brain injury

It seems like fun to be on this show😊

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the questions were too depressing. should have added in some more light-hearted ones to soften the atmosphere.