I wish my mind could forget... (a discussion on PTSD)

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I wish my mind could forget... (a discussion on PTSD)

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Andy's Little Homestead

Ай бұрын

I wish my mind could forget... (a discussion on PTSD)

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@andyslittlehomestead6705 Ай бұрын

Thank y'all for your patience, had a busy day so this went up a little late. I also forgot to mention in the video, thank you so much to everyone who helped with our medical bills. I am so grateful for your kindness. For anyone who's interested in supporting the channel or checking out behind the scenes, take a look at our Patreon. Y'all are the best. www.patreon.com/Andyslittlehomestead

@denisegaylord382 Ай бұрын

There is a lot to say about mental health, but I see dark humor of situations very healthy. It means that you can shift your perspective, hence making it easier to, not necessarily understand the situation, but to accept it for what it is. I have been part of that rehash of a crisis with those that were in it with me, and I find it's therapeutic to be able to see it from a different viewpoint from my own perspective. As the old adage says, if you don't laugh about it, you will cry. But sometimes the crying about it gives us the release we from the pain and grief of the situation to be able to laugh about it later. Life is certainly stranger than any fiction created. Keep up the good work. The physical and the mental. They go hand in hand. Many prayers and blessings for your life, and that of your family Andy. 🥰 I will be cheering and praying for all y'all. 🙏❤️🕊

@codyerickson1310 Ай бұрын

If I had the cash I would.

@andrejka_talking_out_loud Ай бұрын

ptsd needs to be changed from a "disorder" to the phrase "post traumatic stress RESPONSE" the response to trauma is how anyone normal would respond...

@davidwoermansr Ай бұрын

@@denisegaylord382when people question my dark humor I always tell them I have 2 options start crying in my beer again after 20 years sober or cowboy up and embrace the chaos I can't do the first because I can't break a promise to my kids who were the driving force to be sober and I can't cry haven't been able to since I was 9 and fire damaged my tearducts and did massive scaring physically and mentally I'm sure the new cashier at the local DG that doesn't know me thinks I smoke weed all day since I buy eyedrops in bulk online and pick it up when I make the 8 mile trip to town then hurry back to my hermit hole built in a hillside overlooking where 2 rivers meet the lake every sunrise over that area of my family farm sure doesn't suck to watch if I go shopping in the big city 47 miles from home I love to take my pontoon boat and meet my friend at a dock in the closest campground to the dam if we're adding on to or remodeling 1 of my kids houses we pull the pontoon platforms I bought off a neighbor after a tornado flipped them upside-down he sold them to me for the low price of 300 for the small one and 425 for the big one an extra 100 for the trailers that's what it cost to buy them back from the insurance and I have spare parts my son made a new frame for the canopies and built a railing and tarp setup incase we haul sheetrock or bags of quickcrete or other moisture sensitive loads and with vehicle seats pinned in we can carry the whole family and camping gear to our favorite campsite secluded in a nice cove because there isn't a road within over a mile and it's still on public land we meet hikers sometimes hiking the lakeside trail

@davidwoermansr Ай бұрын

@@andrejka_talking_out_loudit's come a long way from being called shell shocked but they just as well leave it a disorder so they don't have to research it and relearn how to treat people who seek help since everything else is now a disorder most of which when I was growing up was quickly cured with a quick "reminder" to respect and listen to your elders and having chores and responsibilities every day we only got paid when doing such for the neighbors

@andyslittlehomestead6705 Ай бұрын

I hope that this video lands in the way I intended it to. I want to clarify that my intent here is to help others who may be struggling, who think they carry stuff alone, and who don't believe there's a way out. I hope that sharing some of what has worked for me is helpful, because it HAS in fact worked. If any of this video came off a different way, I apologize.

@PrairieDawnC Ай бұрын

Thank you for being a loving leader, Andy. I'm sharing this video with my oldest son, a highway sheriff.

@katieNu Ай бұрын

You are an amazing person, don't ever forget that. I truly appreciate what you do and the work you put into your videos. This is a message that needs to be heard by many, it's powerful. I'm a gulf war vet and currently work for the Dept. of Corrections in my state. I've had my brush with PTSD, trauma is something we all have to deal with at one point in time or another. The point being is that there are resources and people that share the struggles, don't ever think you have to fight alone. Thank you for your efforts here, you are appreciated by many.

@davidwoermansr Ай бұрын

Last month I hit a milestone I never thought I'd live to see 20 years sober getting out in the middle of nowhere and building my own code violation filled domicile my old sawmill isn't as powerful as yours it's run off a belt pulley of a farmall super MTA my kids have all built around me on the first place I bought next to my salvage yard and tow company I'm happy to be helping them add on as the next generation of shop and critter help arrives and is on the way you are always an inspiration and this one really hit home and was perfect timing I was slipping back towards dark thoughts of only my kids care and that should be enough but now that they're starting families growing the family farm and expanding their businesses now that they have trusted foremen so everything works as smoothly as when they're there so they can dedicate more time towards the farm and cattle I take every chance to provide free daycare but I'm having a slow rough recovery from my 7th spinal surgery in the past 27 years and I'm trying to use as little medication as possible I think I'll try going for a walk or cruise my 65 C20 to town or just around to check how harvest is going for everyone before before it gets hot miss attitude doesn't have vintage air yet I haven't been dressed and off of the property in over 2 months now I get lonely when the kids get busy and I know I'll be alone in my big house from now on since the kids are all out but I was forgetting some people other than family still carethanks for the slap upside the head to remind me to fight the darkness and get use to the loneliness God bless you and yours

@dalehoward7829 Ай бұрын

Im not a first responder but i seem to find myself in situations when people are hurt or killed. Just happen to be there. Reaching out is the hardest thing. I never tell people in my life about things.

@davidwoermansr Ай бұрын

@@dalehoward7829 you a truck driver because that's another occupation that sees alot of stuff people not paying attention and a truck is stopped by a wreck right in front of them I watched my boss die leaving Atlanta putting his truck in the ditch to miss a family that shot from the left lane to the exit I was a safe enough distance behind him to get stopped and almost on the shoulder before I was hit and demolished my trailer and totaled the tractor the dash cams in our trucks saved his widows insurance and she got paid

@southstreetbarbecue7875 Ай бұрын

I was a Navy Corpsman (medic) for four years, and a paramedic for 12 years after I got out. Nothing affected me, even when I worked a friend's infant that died from SIDS. I got out of EMS in 2000 and never thought twice about it. Until I was 51 years old, about four years ago. Suddenly I was having dreams where dead patients were standing around my bed demanding to know why I didn't save them. I started talking to a therapist, where I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and ADHD. We tried several medications but they turned me into someone I didn't (and nobody else!) liked. Nowadays I cope by talking about traumatic events. My poor wife is a great listener and lets me unload on her when I need to, and that has helped tremendously.

@Wil_Liam1 Ай бұрын

What years were you a corpsman ? Did you vacation in Iraq in 90/91 by chance ?

@southstreetbarbecue7875 Ай бұрын

@@Wil_Liam1 No, I was at Cherry Point working in Immunizations. I never deployed.

@Objective-Observer Ай бұрын

A religious director might be another option for your Garbage Dumps. They are trained listeners, and could have some coping skills to offer you. Ministers, Priests, Rabbis.. .. even if you don't have a faith, and aren't interested in finding one, Religious Leaders are called to help others, and they might have some survival skills to help you.

@user-pw4cm2pw1q Ай бұрын

Man. My wife departed 2yrs ago. I've been trying to get it together. I'm going to watch this a few more times. You Were Talking to Me. Orangefield Texas. Thank You

@markhorrell9213 Ай бұрын

Hi mate, l think l know how yr feeling. I lost mine too about 7 years ago. Had therapy,had friends to bounce off. With everything life throws at us we need to prioritise- just getting through the day with a sense of humour is a great start. Then...there's that role absence to adjust to(changed my morning ritual). My kids helped me heaps...but at the end of the day l'm the bloke that always believed that the glass is half full! We just have to focus on getting through it safely! I love Andy's stuff n have commented heaps.

@GreatWhiteSquid Ай бұрын

Been a cop and swat team leader for 12 years. There are some things that you just can't unsee, unhear, unsmell, or unexperience. God has been the only thing I've found to take away all the negative. He's the only one that has kept me sane!!! Thank you Lord!!!

@mikehoff2593 Ай бұрын

Brother my wife and I woke to our 2 month old daughter already with Jesus one morning. And to say a simple prayer or talk with Jesus helps..it absolutely gave us peace enough to sleep day to day for years after. We love you too and God bless you and your family Andy. God is good all the time.

@Price1861 Ай бұрын

That sucks, brother. I couldn’t imagine that happening to my own kid. God bless

@jesusisGod1434 Ай бұрын

I’m so sorry. The pain of losing a child is the worst pain there is.

@Growing-Our-Retirement Ай бұрын

So sorry, it has to be the greatest loss a person can experience. Stay close and strong, all will be made right in the end. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@JohnPaul-ol5zl Ай бұрын

It's difficult to say one thing that can help with PTSD or any other heavy matters , yet I would suggest keeping busy with hobbies or volunteering. Spare time just doing nothing can be dangerous for the mind after tragic events. Keep your mind occupied with other things. Therapy and counseling is also helpful. I pray for all the strangers that read this and hope you get through another day. It might seem that there is no point, but I assure there is. We are each so much more than matter and energy. Our soul shouts our magnificent value. God bless and keep fighting the good fight.

@Wil_Liam1 Ай бұрын

I feel you as my 3 month old son was laid down almost 32 years ago for a nap and never woke up again,and I could lie to you and say that you'll get over it,but you never will... You will literally hold the next baby every second that you can,and never leave them alone for even a single second afterward... The pain does get smaller,but it will always be there at the back of your mind on birthdays,holidays, and those last 2 dates... I wish you well,and hope that you don't ever give up children or your partner ,as it drove me and his mother apart permanently, and will add you to my prayers 🙏..

@cliffpalermo Ай бұрын

"borrowing that peace until tomorrow" Andy you are absolutely correct. Stopped drinking over a year ago. Never felt better, never want a drop again. Everything you speak is 100% accurate thanks for sharing many folks need and want to hear this. Im heavy on the caffeine!

@Shield.148 Ай бұрын

40 + years as a Volunteer Firefighter, 33 years as an EMT, 12 Years as a career Police Officer. I can relate. My son said that for years after I left my EMS job in NYC, I would scream in my sleep. I have found that talking with people who have shared similar experiences, helps. Time also helps the memories fade. BUT, certain smells, sights, sounds can put me right back there. Alcoholism is prevalent in emergency services because we use it to try and forget. But alcohol doesn't work. I feel it is my purpose as well. On a good note, I delivered 5 babies in the field, and one of them is named after me!

@davidgough1161 Ай бұрын

I feel you, Andy. I went to the grocery store and came home. My wife had put a firearm to her forehead and pulled the trigger. I found her when I returned home. One of my dogs was standing on her chest, barking, wanting to go out. We all feel depression and anxiety, I feel the same way you do. I ride my bicycle to give myself endorfins. I have sought help and rely on some anti depressants. I try to help others and make things better for others, everything helps. I try to leave the past behind and work forward and have friends to talk to. It all works.

@Price1861 Ай бұрын

I’m a former LEO and had my fair share of f’d up calls. I finally left the profession and went into an entirely different profession. I wouldn’t say I have PTSD. To your point I also had turned to alcohol and one day I woke up and just left it alone. I began to watch your videos (back during the “Andy off Grid” days). I moved from the area where I had served and met a neighbor who was a retired police officer. We struck up a friendship and talk alot regarding our issues we’ve seen. It does help to talk to people who can relate. Stay strong, Andy. You’re not alone.

@user-cd4ys7gs5z Ай бұрын

My next ink: I run for the quiet… You have no idea (or maybe you do) how much I appreciate your candor, your honesty, your willingness to bear your soul. Thank you for giving, Brother.

@y0ur_name_here Ай бұрын

Between multiple deployments and many years in emergency services, there are many, many things I'll never unsee. But, I know I'll never forget the people, the families, especially the kids I helped along the way. The bad weights on you, but the good ones do help offset that darkness. Bringing hope helps.

@joshuaballew5489 Ай бұрын

16 years as a medic and 9 years as a volunteer fireman. I feel like I was made to do this. Very little has bothered me and even those things were passing feelings. The thing that bothers me the most is that it doesn't. Keep on keeping on brother. We do it because few of us can.

@southstreetbarbecue7875 Ай бұрын

I truly hope it remains that way for you, but if it doesn't, talk to someone. There's no good reason to fight the demons alone when they come calling. Even if it's just other people online. My email address is in my KZfaq profile. Feel free to save it and use it if you feel the need.

@Dagrond Ай бұрын

I for one can be glad (silver linings) you have this "fireman's disorder", as I am glad for those with "policeman disorder", "civil servant disorder", "nurses aid disorder" and a hundred others. Our communities cannot run without you all. Thank you.

@neilrobinson7843 Ай бұрын

I understand and agree with every single word you spoke. I don't have PTSD, I'm not a Vet or a first responder, I'm the bloke that's on the end of the phone at 3am in the morning talking someone out of doing bad things to themselves, I'm not using "that" word but I'm sure you understand what I mean..........but that means I have no one to talk to. I have tried talking to friends but then you realise, they don't care. They only wanted to talk to yo to help them out, when you NEED them, they just don't want to know. I have lost some so called "good friends" who really are just users. If I can help anyone I will but when the tables are turned everyone runs for the hills. Luckily I have a vey supportive family or I would not be here to write this. The mind is fragile and if you need meds "to build that bridge" as you say, take them, . Mental health issues do not mean you are weak It means you have been strong for too long Take care Andy and everyone reading, look after yourselves

@wickedskittle9917 Ай бұрын

I am not a veteran, but I have PTSD from years of abuse and other traumatic, I'm having a horrid night. Can't sleep, my body is in fight of flight no matter how much I tell myself I am sage. I am loved. I am not in danger. Etc. And I got on YT to try to relax. I saw this and I clicked instantly. I appreciate your honesty and I hope this video reaches everyone it's supposed to. Edited to say : I have a two people I could reach out to and they would stay up all night just to sit with me if I asked.....but I cannot for the life of me make them lose sleep because I am feeling crazy. Even though I would never hesitate to sit with them when they've asked....

@Hochodo Ай бұрын

Your a real one Andy, it's weird to have so much love in my heart for a total stranger....technically I'm the stranger cause you put your life out there for us, and it's real and it's raw and it's better than any tv show someone can produce, that's the great thing about social media gives the average joe a platform, and your doing good stuff with yours dude been watching since the beginning on Facebook, and every video I like you more and more no homo😂 your genuine and honest and hard working and love to help the community, everyone has their struggles in life and not everyone beats those struggles but it sure is nice to see a guy killin it with all his ups and downs and just owning it, this video about ptsd has me thinking about my life and things I need to change and it's not even related to ptsd, thank you Andy,

@andyslittlehomestead6705 Ай бұрын

Thank you so much man, that really means a lot

@Liberty_DIY Ай бұрын

"I wish my mind could forget what my eyes have seen"...............Me too, Brother, Me too.

@TriedTrue Ай бұрын

God bless this video and comments section. You are all worthy of healing, hope, and Salvation. I beat 24yrs of addiction so I know it's possible with God. I pray complete healing and restoration over all of your minds in Jesus mighty name. Amen

@mbf347 Ай бұрын

Well said Andy. This won’t be a highly viewed video, but it SHOULD be. Keep it up.

@ddh1480 Ай бұрын

I was an alcoholic for 10+ years. I watched my dad die in the passenger seat of my truck and it truly gave me ptsd and all the fun that goes with it. You are right about escaping it and shutting your mind off to those things with alcohol. Your videos were such an impact on me to get sober and other things. I’m now over a year and a half alcohol free and it has changed my life for the better. We all have tough days but dealing with issues head on is so much more manageable sober. I thank you Andy for what you do and to talk about things that are hard to talk about for a lot of us.

@PrairieDawnC Ай бұрын

Congratulations on your sobriety!

@joeydonahoo8900 Ай бұрын

All love Andy, you help so many people!

@allenhaney9439 Ай бұрын

God bless. I’m an old Marine and I found hard mindless work helped. I split wood 8 hours a day for over three months it kept me on this earth. Now when it gets hard I go to the deep woods sometimes for a few days sometimes weeks but it works.

@user-fy6yq4lm6y Ай бұрын

You would have to be blind to miss all the messages before this one explaining their understanding and ability to relate to your message. They are not voicing it for themselves, but to show how you, Andy, help inspire us to continue to move. I do not want to expound on the ways you have motivated me, but please accept the weight of knowing you have that effect on people,...building code violations and all. God be with you, sir!

@angelabaril104 Ай бұрын

Loved seeing your smiling face today. PTSD is not easy, I have been there for many years. It is a battle each and every day and without God I would not be here. Love to all and God bless.

@justinbuehrig3405 Ай бұрын

Thank you so much for inserting this content randomly throughout your normally scheduled chicken house construction. It helps to hear others, such as yourself share your struggles and daemons to know that many of us are not alone in our struggles. Don’t always know what I’ll get out of your videos but I do take something from them.

@wallywallydingbat Ай бұрын

Brother PTSD can absolutely be a culmination of repeated exposure, it doesn't have to be a single event. Take that from someone who has PTSD as a result of cumulative exposures to traumatic and life threatening events, turned alcoholic, now a sober alcoholic. Learning different coping strategies in therapy is awesome but in my experience, you'll never return to who you were beforehand. Once seen and done, it can never be unseen or undone. Love you man.

@wallywallydingbat Ай бұрын

Also my strike rate is also zero on CPR so don't feel bad.

@DirtyPawsGarage Ай бұрын

12:34 fucked me up. Thank you. seriously. I'm a veteran that's been absolutely struggling recently, your videos help, alot. Thanks for changing lives.

@taylorgirone1214 Ай бұрын

Andy, as someone who watches regularly, I'd like to say that no matter what the content, there is always something to take home from each video, weather it's a chance to see something from a different perspective, or something I can use later in life. We appreciate your content, and continue looking forward to more.

@Hobocreekfarm Ай бұрын

God bless you , Andy!

@firehousecustomfab3286 Ай бұрын

Andy, I've been a firefighter and EMT for 18 years. I've lost count of the lives I've seen lost or the suicide victims that I've had to recover. I've done CPR on my mom and been with my dad as he took his last breath. I have struggled for a long time and my sister thinks I'm the strongest person in the world because of what I have been able to do, but I hate the quiet times. And I've stayed moving to get through a lot of it. God has blessed me with a great family and they have been a rock for me. The demons are real but God and family and our"tribes" help. God bless you brother.

@jefflocke9029 Ай бұрын

I'd rather listen to you all night talking than listen to a eulogy about you for 15 minutes! Salute brother!

@maxinemadero9650 Ай бұрын

Andy, I'm an old grouch. Fought therapy most of my life. I have been talking to someone, couple, three times a week. Does it help? It gives me someone other than a family member, to listen to my crap. 18 months in, and I'm sleeping more than 4 hrs a night. I'm a retired medic. I remember every call. ❤

@sharonandjosephaldridge4698 Ай бұрын

Thank you. I was on a code team and worked in a few ICUs. I prayed a lot and it helped. We also make laughter in weird situations that most folks won't understand. My son was a soldier. He self treated as you did and that didn't work out. But now I'm believing God is working all things out for good because I love Him and He loves my son. So everyday, I am thankful for the hope you share. Love y'all.

@melodeeplath8002 Ай бұрын

Excellent video to post. People NEED this ! Just talking it thru is so real to life. You are my Hero. Definitely helping ❤

@samuelbashans3810 Ай бұрын

I spent 26.5 years in the Fire Service. I've seen alot of things as well. Alot of things I can't unsee. God bless my friend

@michaelloomer9851 Ай бұрын

Thanks for being real. That’s hard to find in this Internet world. Everything is happy and growing in sunshine roses. But that’s rarely the way it actually is so thanks for sharing it even though it’s uncomfortable. Not only you by running into burning buildings, but you’re helping people you can’t see or touch with your heartfelt stories and sharing your experiences thank you

@user-cc9bv4kq1r Ай бұрын

I understand the quiet you’re looking for after losing my little girl. Archery is one way I found that stops the newsreel in my head of that day. Needless to say it’s worth a try.

@PrairieDawnC Ай бұрын

I know people who knit for the same reason. An activity that requires intense concentration will keep your head off of the bad stuff.

@dougmcghee2699 Ай бұрын

Great Men do tough jobs Bull... Stay strong for yourself and your family... Glad you've kept your mind stronger than the stations we face... Excellent video... Keep up the great job with your videos...

@jonpatzer5747 Ай бұрын

My father became a first responder and a volunteer fireman later in life and he changed because of what he had seen and dealt with and his way of dealing with it have been to help with families who need a little help and now he makes wooden stools for little kids to help them reach the sink or countertops. Gives him joy

@bradenmoon9 Ай бұрын

Hey Andy, I love your videos and your purpose, this new format is needed more now than ever 👊. I'm also 5 years sober, last drink 6/15/19, keep pushing forward brother!

@Dawndreams174 Ай бұрын

I relate super heavily to when you talk about not being wired to ask for help and on the medication aspect. Being upfront I am not a vet or first responder but a victim of childhood abuse. I was recommended this video my cousin, a marine who also found a shrink and pulled me in for an evaluation after he noticed I was constantly staring into space. Its still hard to believe I even have a c-ptsd diagnosis as I thought that was something only vets and first responders or those in life of death tragedies get not someone who experienced events over a longer period of time. Thankyou for opening up about your experiences. The medications do feel like a life sentence im on 3 different pills and they all make me feel different side effects. 2 anti depressants an anti psychotic , tranquillizer, and off label mood stabilizer. The appointments also feel like they don't help and Ive been hospitalized 5 different times, been to a rehab facility for 6 months, then been partial hospitalized for 10 weeks a few times. I have met first responders in the mental ward and the jokes and understanding have been the only thing that made me feel heard. Still what I went through feels too mundane compared to their stories but truly am thankful for those who speak about what they go through in a real manner and are happy to help.

@tundraluv Ай бұрын

Brother, these are the video that help fullfill your purpose and truly speak to your core audience. Thank you. I will be sending this to some fellow Vets who I think need to hear it.

@davidcunningham00 Ай бұрын

Much respect and love, any time anyone needs always reach out, lost my brother in march because of Suicide.

@robbieward7026 Ай бұрын

Thank you for addressing the underlying mentality behind addiction. The "borrowing peace from tomorrow" is a beautiful way of thinking about addiction and how it can compound after long stints of indulgence. I'll be sober from alcohol for 5 years in October 3rd. Having quit in October of 2019, I'm confident that's the only reason I survived the unreal mental stress of managing a restaurant through all things Covid. A tribe... I wish i had one but despite the extra time it's cost me on my personal development, it's put a spotlight on a quality i never knew that i had. I had dozens of gardens (people) i was watering (caring for) but when i quit and had to take/make time for myself for a change, few checked on my plants and even fewer spared any water... Instead of making me bitter, my revenge is being better. A better father, person, friend and Christian. I've never thought about the accumulated trauma of a career first responder. Pointing at every house like a drywall guy but for a very different reason.

@AY-vc5dg Ай бұрын

I am thankful for you and your transparency. As one of those silent sufferers, it's definitely God Who helps me get those inner conversations quiet. His Word is what keeps me on the right side. Thank you again, Andy, for being the light shining in darkness. Love ya and the whole family.

@kennethsonier1766 Ай бұрын

Good evening from Cape Cod 🐋 it's important to share your problems with others. Through all these little talks that we've had Andy you've made me sit down and take a couple times. I thank you for the effort that you put in and for sharing with all of us. God bless you and your family 👍✌️🇺🇲

@jjhowl Ай бұрын

I had a good friend take his life 4 weeks ago. No one saw it coming,he was a great guy who would help anyone out. We were all shocked when it happened. I think of him every day. RIP Scott.

@DerKaiser7485 Ай бұрын

Andy, I started following you around the beginning of your video journey. I started because I am a city boy who was learning how to homestead with my now ex-wife. I've learned so much from you over this journey, but the biggest lesson was not to give up. Believe it or not you helped me stay sober through a heartwrenching infidelity and divorce. I didn't give up on the homestead and more importantly I didn't give up on myself and God. I've recently joined my VFD and am in the process of getting carded. I'm fighting an inner dialog every day that I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough, and I'm not likable. I wish I could financially help support you but all I can do for you at this time is pray for you and keeping pushing forward.

@roburquhart2350 Ай бұрын

Andy , thanks for being real. It's helping me realize demons are just a fact of life. I'm not the only one with them. With God taking lead I can find my way back 🧡

@user-ex7xs3oc8r Ай бұрын

God Bless All!

@audiebodine519 Ай бұрын

Yes sir God bless.

@paulfreudenberg165 Ай бұрын

Im in no way a religious man but listening too you is inspirational. 2 years ago i was in a huge car wreck (non fault) a old lady with dementia T-boned me at a junction after she skipped a red light. As a result she passed away. I now live in constant physical and mental discomfort, fear and upset. Felt alone in this as police ended any after care, or follow up as too my health and well being. In the UK we have a tribe known as "Andys man club" where i have found solace and some relief from others involved in similar trauma. Thank you for sharing x paul.

@andrewt7797 Ай бұрын

Thank you for those wise words. Glad to hear you're feeling better. All the best man

@scarecrowsrc 18 күн бұрын

As a marine without any friends “because I changed to much “ my life is being stuck in my head most of the time…thanks for being my long distance friend Andy and keeping me going and helping me with my depression love ya and god bless thanks again and for taking the to talk to us about your depression and sharing your progress with us…it helps it really does

@codyerickson1310 Ай бұрын

As a functioning alcoholic I feel ya man. Thanks for your honest words. Id rather drink than take those meds and be inside my own head. Working on getting better but it's a journey.

@PrairieDawnC Ай бұрын

There's no shame in asking for help when you're ready for it.

@codyerickson1310 Ай бұрын

@@PrairieDawnC The problem is I don't think I'll ever be ready. It sucks.

@MC-kx9kp Ай бұрын

I'm cut from a rough, rough place and thankyou for sharing this material with us. My childhood felt like a lifetime or two. Nearly 40 now and my head is a fair bit quieter than it used to be. Jeez your words ring so mutually with thoughts and conversations I've had, with people and in my head. Peace ✌️

@patriciaramirez5632 Ай бұрын

Andy, i just want to say that you can sit and talk for these 15 to 20 minutes every week and that is fine with me. You have been blessed with an amazing ability to talk about horrible things, and make it sound like its just a realistic part of life we have to accept, and not beat ourselves up for accepting it. You have my full attention when you come on. Glad you're starting to feel better. God bless you.

@justinmills8084 Ай бұрын

God is the key to life. You have a way that brings a lot of people to like and understand your wit and sense of humor. Most people don't have that, I know I don't. Keep up the good work 👏

@joannedesbiens4981 Ай бұрын

I never realized you were on KZfaq. I’ve always watched your videos through Facebook. Now I am watching them through KZfaq and I always loved your videos. Keep up the good work you’re helping so many people.

@mattashby3642 Ай бұрын

Great video to put out. I was in the fire service, and can to an extent understand what you're going through. Good to talk about it.

@gina5191 Ай бұрын

I agree with what you said... Stay strong you got this

@christinastewart9830 Ай бұрын

I really love how you speak to us with a true and honest heart, Andy. I think that's what drew me to your channel. I am not a veteran, firefighter, or anything like that. I'm a child rape survivor. I have my momments, and I fight through them. I have never gone through therapy or whatever, but I have talked to a few awesome friends. I have gone to some classes at my old church that also helped. But honestly, people like you talking and saying what they've gone through, and then I think of how I can relate to it in some of the things (feeling wise) that I'm going through or have gone through. I think you are a wonderful person to put it all out there like you do. Thank you. You have been through hell and are making it so that others who are in that same hell and are struggling can know that there is a safe place to come and watch and not feel like they're alone. God bless you and your channel, Andy. Thank you.❤

@justinmills8084 Ай бұрын

I totally agree with you about seeing a therapist short-term having goals in mind and moving on. My wife has been seeing one for years, and I went with her a few times. The points I was making the therapist would flat out lie to my wife in helping support my wife's behavior. I showed her the proof in what my disagreement was, and SHE would still lie to my wife. I have seen them for myself dealing with stuff, and after 5 are 6 visits, they would tell me that they thought I was on the right track and say that they didn't want to waste my money. So if down the road I would like to come back to make an appointment. Frustrating that a Dr would convince my wife to keep coming back for years. My wife is not that messed up. She is the happiest woman I have ever known. I spend a lot of time with her, and she is pretty open with me. I have never lied to her, and she knows that. After 23 years of marriage, I think a person would know their spouse. 🤔

@mikeknox2408 Ай бұрын

Totally understand what your saying being a first responder (23 yrs law enforcement & 15+ years paramedic/firefighter) we see and deal things that most people just don't understand. Some things will always stay with you for life

@kullinalldredge8499 Ай бұрын

I hope your able to continue making content. These videos are always a motivation. Weather it's a serious one like this, or one of the goofy ones. "Keep on keeping on"

@wyattbarbour7886 Ай бұрын

You're a man's man bro. Love and God bless you Andy.

@pghguyinva Ай бұрын

Spent 12+ years as a FF/Medic I've seen some horrific 💩 I never understood why I'd do anything for anyone but could never ask for help myself A cpl times ive asked only to be let down because it took me too long to not expect what you'd do from other people At the 4:15 mark i felt like you were talking to me & that hit me like a ton of bricks Thank you for posting this I love you brother & god bless

@helengesell2668 Ай бұрын

Thank you, Andy. I appreciate your speaking the truth and the reality of it all.

@Redneckemtb Ай бұрын

Sounds like your first call and mine where very, very, simulator. I sure you will never know how much I needed to hear this today, but thank you.

@mbertram615 Ай бұрын

Legit love these videos!!! Keep fighting the good fight brother!!

@summahstuff2496 Ай бұрын

I love you dude.

@mikewatmough1312 Ай бұрын

Love your channel

@farmernledell Ай бұрын

Andy first thanks for your service, I mean that while hearted both fire and military THANK YOU next your helping those of us with out PTSD to get a glimpse into what our loved ones are living through ❤

@Super1200custom Ай бұрын

Very good message and thank you for yur service i spent 20 years in the service and I’ve been a volunteer ff and first responder since 1996 keep up the good messages that hits home for me a lot and I do appreciate it taking time to address those concerns more needs to be done and many more need to open up and seek help even when it’s hard

@quarlow1215 Ай бұрын

Lol excellent closing story. As a truck driver for many years (38) I've seen a lot of things in my time. I went out on the highway as an o/op in 2000 and in the first 4 months I damn near quit. I had seen, witnessed and been part of more stuff that I wish I hadn't seen. I'm fortunate to not have any real addictive tendencies so that keep me from personal abuse but watching a fellow trucker burn alive stuck in his truck was so close to the straw that broke the camels back. Luckily that was a kind of turning point, a kind of end to my initiation. Things got better after that. But I still wish I had never been the first on the seen in the middle of no where. I tell my self that at least he didn't die alone but his eyes looking at me with a knowing stare will haunt me forever. But it has changed me from who I was before. I'm not religious. I believe in if God is real I'll find out one way or the other when my time of breathing comes to an end but I talked to someone that day and since no one was around you'll have to draw your own conclusions who it was. Best I can say is be strong, lean on what works for you and I'll always have an ear for someone to talk to. ❤

@crempel596 Ай бұрын

Condolences on the loss of your friend, Andy.

@bburns221987 Ай бұрын

Been watching your videos for awhile 1st on Facebook now on both. Thank you for making this video. Will not elaborate more, but thank you.

@Happyp-ge2hi Ай бұрын

Hey man, just thank you ! That was spot on today , just thank you

@TSimps514 28 күн бұрын

I lost my little brother, older brother and mom in about a 4 year period from over doses and my dad died when I was 16 of cirrhosis. I wasnt in the military. I have anxiety every singke day multiple times a day and its very difficult to control my emotions. It mostly starts as anxiety and my response is anger because Im scared and I dont know why. I always have to face an exit. It doesnt get easy, you just learn to deal with it. Medication doesnt work if anything it makes things worse for me. Ive tried everything and had bad side affects. My advice to anyine struggling is to find a good woman and tell her the truth on how you feel and why and if shes a good woman she will be your peace. The best medicine is her just being there and Im forever grateful. Find someone that undestands your anger and why.

@KevinHarder-lj3dl Ай бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@garyjones9200 Ай бұрын

Thanks brother

@sharonjones-pierce3478 Ай бұрын

love u Andy!

@nicolasblake4678 Ай бұрын

Thank you

@taylorfugate7318 Ай бұрын

Thank you for this video brother!

@PullingRugs Ай бұрын

Spot on!

@user-vz6jb4mi9s Ай бұрын

Thank you for your openness. I have trouble talking to people about my demons. My quiet time is on the lawn tractor, God Bless

@TheCaptain164 Ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing this stuff with us man.

@johnc1593 Ай бұрын

Appreciate you Andy

@jeffpeters1014 Ай бұрын

I’ve seen some horrific things over the course of my career, time, consulting and the love and support of my wife gets me through the hardest times. If help isn’t offered, and it rarely is, reach out and get some. Be well sir 🙏

@christopherhowe2956 Ай бұрын

Good to hear from ya Andy!

@alexl1440 Ай бұрын

Thanks Andy.

@davidgough1161 Ай бұрын

I love you, Andy!

@ryangiven9962 Ай бұрын

Much love brother Andy!

@JohnPaul-ol5zl Ай бұрын

@rayhuang6073 Ай бұрын

Stay strong! Everyone deals with it differently. What works one day may not work another. I am guilty of suffering in silence. 14 years in law enforcement. Medically retired from injury. Retired 6 years ago, but I still have dreams all the time and get irritable. Keep finding the things that help.

@marksanford9556 14 күн бұрын

I work in a prison and have for a long time now. I can relate brother. I’ve seen some shit I wish I didn’t. I love the videos man. Times get tough but you’re doing a great thing.