Honestly, this video is a lot. It was a lot to film and a lot to edit, but I felt a need to do it anyway. I started making these videos as a way to express myself and work through the highs and the heavy lows of my life. As painful as the year was, as devastating the loss . . I’m still here and I’m feeling hopeful and strong for the future. Thank you for sticking around, thank you for watching 💜

Sorry for your loss of a dear friend. I applaud 🎉your job and moving forward decision. Courage in self love and taking care of yourself first!

I just want to give you a big hug. I’ve been watching you for years and you are so different from most youtubers with your sincerety and kindness. Your videos are always interesting and thoughtful. That being said, maybe your next career could be a full time content creator. You live in the greatest city in the world. What about touring NYC and taking us with you. Walking around the city- the boroughs- NJ and beyond-the potential content is endless- and it’s right there waiting for you.

Please share your new life HERE! ❤ I’m excited to see your next steps in this journey of life ;)

It's good to see you, Rah. It pains me to learn about the loss of your friend but I hope you take comfort in knowing that you were an amazing support to her in her last moments. Something I'm sure she was extremely grateful for. Thank you for reintroducing us into your new life. I understand the challenges of starting over on a clean slate. But it sounds like this was the decision you needed to make in order to prioritize your health and wellbeing. I look forward to your upcoming videos. ♥

Man, my friend is dying of cancer.. he might die tonight. It's been weird seeing someone so healthy become so sick. Really puts things in perspective. Shit has had me up at nights crying for him. I know how you feel. Keep your chin up.

I teared up a few times watching this video! I am so sorry! I know not everyone grieves a loss the same way, but when you are ready, then you will start to grieve. You seem like you already are. Gosh I just want to give you the biggest hug! Good for you for starting to eat healthier and on your way to getting in shape! p.s. your Oregon friend from Instagram.❤

So sorry about your friend. She was very fortunate to have you as a friend just as you were to have her. Cherish those memories. It keeps her alive. I’ve lost several close ones along the way myself. Congratulations on finding the courage to leave your job that you’re not happy with. You get out there and find what you love to do. You will look back and be glad you did! You appear to be a strong individual and yeah, I’d be willing to bet you have a lot going for you. You be you! Beautiful young lady with an Incredible smile, Respectfully, Dave from Dabomb Smokes!

A follower from Britain, so great to see you back even if it's for a short while. All I want to say is I wish all wonderful things to come you only have one chance at this life so fly with it girl you can do this no fears❤

Thank you for sharing the story. I know making the video hurt but I hope the act of creating it helps process some thoughts and feelings, and maybe aid in some small way. I know you say the video is something to look back on, but I hope it helps present you too I know it is a small thing, and the overall theme and words in the video is more important, but I really love editing choices. The b-roll, establishing shots, and cool angle choices - all great. Top work Rah 👍

I'm so excited for this new journey you're about to take. I'm so sorry for your loss. What a blessing that you were there in her last moments❤

May God bless you and give you strength, you can get through this, I’m rooting for you 🥹🫶🙏✨

Oh sweetheart. She will never ever leave you. You are both connected forever and ever ❤

I’m so happy your’re back ❤ I relate to you in so many ways. Sorry for your loss ❤

Wow, this is my first time seeing you and it’s a few months later. So relatable. Thank you for sharing this. May this journey of building your life on your terms be rewarding !!

Thank you for sharing what is on your mind and on your heart, even when it is hard. I work in palliative care/Hospice; I commend you for being there for your friend at a vulnerable and scary time in her life. It must have been so scary for you to watch the suffering and death of your close friend. Bereaving is healing. I have been watching you for years and find an incredible amount of comfort in your videos... this video feels like catching up with an old friend. I am excited to see what the future holds for you, Rah. We love and support you.

I've been watching your videos for a few years, and it's weird to feel a connection with you, even though you don't know me. I wish I could give you a hug right now. You're going through a lot, and you've gone through a lot. Thank you for sharing the hard times, too. Take care of yourself. ♥️

I am really sorry for your loss! RIP! But you're coming through.

Hi it's soooo good to see you 😊 I wish you all the best in your Life, keep your beautiful head up and keep smiling ❤ Selina 💋

My condolences that your special friend passed. Shucks! That's so hard. Looking forward to following you on you new adventures. ❤️

Happy birthday. Sorry for your loss. You will see your friend again. The One True God promises a resurrection of the righteous and unrighteous. Until then, remember your friend and continue to keep the good memories you shared together alive. Good luck in your new endeavors.

I’m so sorry to hear about your friend. It all sounds incredibly devastating & I can very much see the pain and sorrow in your eyes. I’m glad you’re taking steps towards freeing yourself from your stressful job and hopefully you will be much happier moving forward. Thank you for sharing your journey with us ❤

The minute you leave that hospital on your last day, you're going to be yelling 'Free at last, thank the Lord I'm free at last '!! I am so sorry about your loss. The only way through this is to keep moving, keep noticing the beauty of life, keep trudging and soon you'll be feeling free and breezing through. The weight of certain aspects of life WILL be lifted. You're on your way, you're doing everything 💖⭐🎉 right.

❤ warm hug my dear. You’ve got this !

Hey welcome back. Keep posting. I like your videos ❤️

You sound so much more mature and confident about who you are and what you want. So happy for you!

Oh, love. Its so nice to see you. And I watched this video while walking in nature myself. I audibly cheered when you said you were able to quit your job. But then the news about your friend. I’m so, so sorry. I lost a friend a few years ago, and the pain and grief is immeasurable. Take this time for yourself, unabashedly. So much healing to do, and you can do it! Be kind to yourself, and, when it suits you… keep your admirers updated. 😊 sending so much love ❤❤❤❤

Sending lots of love and prayers your way!!

It’s hard to hit record again after such a long break. I recently did the same, so I get it. I’m so sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Thank you for sharing about her, even though it was difficult to do so. I’m excited for your new beginning after putting in your two weeks notice. I hope your next job will bring you joy. 💚🐝

I’ve watched many of your videos. You are an interesting person! I hope you find a great new path. Ask God to put you on the best path for you. 🌸🌸🌸

Very sad news about your friend. Life is so short and you have no idea what’s around the corner. Glad to hear you are leaving that job and burnout behind and towards positive things ahead. I quit my awful job also last year for a career break and haven’t looked back. Can’t wait to see more of your journey!

Can commiserate with your hospital experience (namely, the OR) -- and let me say, I am SO, SOOO proud of you for prioritizing your mental health. You'll find something that better suits you and allows some much-needed respite. I'm terribly sorry to hear about your friend. I think it goes without saying she appreciated your presence every step of the way. You sound like an amazing friend. Take care.

Please know you can leave KZfaq and enjoy your life but glad you are back. I lost my best friend myself she was 29 she die awhile ago but never forget her.

I'm so proud of you, you are so strong

Sorry for the loss of your special friend and also wishing you lots of success in finding the life and job which makes you happy

Challenging couple of years for certain. Your friend was truly fortunate to have you by her side. You will land on your feet and find a new meaning. Take care 🤗

Rah , i want to hug you and you are do better once quiting the Job.

Good for you girl!!! Do whatever makes you happy, you only live once!!!! Also, aren't you like a genius or something and a specialist in your field of medical work? Greater things are waiting for you!!!

Stay strong beautiful! Just keep swimming…

Watched your "I ate One Meal a Day for 30 days" for some personal inspiration! You are still as pretty as in that vid! (Also you now have a bed frame, woo!) Looking forward to following your next steps (I subbed!)

Feel hugged my dear❤

Was literally just thinking I should check your channel to see if I missed a video Edit: wow heavy video. Sorry to hear about your friend. Not sorry to hear about you leaving your job as it sounds awful. You'd think that in the US where the cost of medical care is the number one reason for bankruptcy they'd be able to employ enough staff to cover the work. Also the little tummy is kinda cute so don't even worry about it.

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how tall are you??? I am tall and I think we have the same body type. You are helping me so much!

Can you tell us about your name? Is your birth name Rah? Pretty and interesting.

You look bigger I thought you were on a weightloss journey???