‘I’m waiting for my perfect self to show up.’ That really hit hard with with me. So often I neglect looking after myself and I don’t start things because I don’t feel like I’m good enough yet. I know I don’t know you in real life, but you truly seem like a genuinely kind, caring and lovely person. I hope things get a bit brighter for you soon. Sending you my love.

I am moved beyond words. Please know that you are loved Rah. Feeling speechless.

I often find that being my own best friend is all that I can rely on. It’s solid. I think you have a lot of self love and self respect and I know you are going to be super fine! Sending you a big hug. I feel much better too when I clean up and pick up in my room. It’s a form of “picking up the soul.”

I understand❤️ I’m so proud of you. Wanting my insides to match my outsides is the whole thing, good or bad❤️ I’m glad you’re in the world at the same time as me.

Oh Rah, I feel so bad for just now watching your latest video. I continue to admire you for your honesty and transparency. Depression is a relentless cycle, but thank you for being open with us and continuing to fight for your worth. You are a wonderful person, please keep sharing. 💕

Dear Rah, I started following you after seeing your intermittent fasting video. I fell in love at once with your sweet soul. About a year later you are giving me epiphanies about my own childhood, how I've dealt with life, relationships, isolating myself, and how I (haven't) take(n) care of myself. Thank you. I feel like your sister. Sending you a big warm hug

I know it takes a lot to be vulnerable, and opening up is the best way to know you are not alone. There are workbooks on inner child work on Amazon, I recommend getting one. My mother has a plethora of issues and is toxic and I chose not to allow her to affect be anymore; I'm 44, emotionally free, and I'm a mental health counselor. Hugs and know there is always hope!

Wow, I didn’t expect to relate to so much of what you shared. Thank you ❤️ so much to think on now... waiting for your perfect self to show up, the perfectionism that makes you feel like you’re two different people, meticulous & a mess. Sometimes it truly feels like I am trying to punish myself for something but am not sure what. Like I deserve to feel disgusting, ashamed, unclean and skip a shower. I wish you all the best and may this be an entirely new spring and summer for you 💛 I am committed to changing my harmful habits and this came at the perfect time. Let’s do better in taking care of our inner child. ✨

Thank you for sharing❤️

I understand you so much! I admire that you have built a successful life. I have had self-destructive behaviors all my life long. Remember,you deserve and you're worth. Hugs❤️.

Aw just discovered you because you appeared in my "mentions" (thanks for the mention. Hope your healing is continuing to shine through in your life! Maybe I'll see you over on the Fairy side soon!

Thank you. You touched my heart.

Sending you Love and Light... Proud of you!

Yep you've got to reparent yourself and remember parenting is hard work. A lot of doing things you don't wanna. It'll suck for a while but like every parent you'll get into a routine. Because of my parents, I never felt I was worth anything, until I had my own children who thought I was worth everything. So I chose to see myself through their eyes and feel worthy. You're such a beautiful person. I hope one day you'll see how special you are ❤️

I found your channel through the diet content (I'm doing IF and eating 12-8pm, 1200 cals) but I relate so much to this video, and my not-so-good parental relations. It's hard to dissociate from our feelings when it comes to making the right choices for our health and mind. Thank you for putting it all into words, you're not alone and I hope you are as happy as possible right now 😊 hope to see some more of your content one day! x

I’m way late on this, but I’m soo doing your dishes and listening to you. You’re introspection tells me you will thrive… keep doing what your doing sis 😘

Rah i admire ur strength and how far u have came through it all, u're more than loved sending u love, light and happiness ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

thank you for sharing so much of your story and struggle. this video gave me strength and helped me very much.

Very interesting. I have found being my own best friend has become more important as I get older. Thinking of you. Praying for you. You’re so cool.

I don’t know you personally, but your situation that you lived in makes you more mature and helps you be a better person. I’m proud of you and love you

Hi Beautiful. You are strong person. Sometimes we need a break. Im on that stage in my life when I need time to think everything. You are the kindest and Lovely person. I wish You all Best.

You radiate so much love and positivity! Thank you for sharing, I know that wasn't easy, but it is definitely appreciated.

I needed to hear this badly. Thank you

G I R L !!! I’m stopping mid video and giving you virtual hugs bc I just admire you and your success . I hope you find the peace you need to heal.

I do these things as well... and hearing you say that you sometimes live in those conditions and not taking care of yourself because you don’t deserve it or aren’t worthy of it made me realize that I tell myself those things. It truly is reprogramming oneself to do the things that come easily to others. Side note, now that you’ve shared about your mom... I almost wonder if that had a part in your career choice. You’re taking care of others, and even mothering them in a way of that makes sense. I could be wrong though! Take care of yourself dearest Rah. You are most certainly worthy of self-care and a clean space to thrive in. And I am too! 💚🐝

it was like I was meant to click on this... Thank you

You always inspire us...you go girl..love you

This is soo me...but with my father and it is affecting me still. *HUG*

Rah, i been following for a while now. I do have to tell you that you doing is letting out of emotion and something you can look back at because your letting it all out and there will be a point in life that the more you repeat and take it out chest you will heal it takes time and you letting this out is good. I admire you for picking up and do what makes you feel good. We have to take a time to do us. It's okay when you stay away to focused because that's the time we can make for ourselves to refresh or recharge our own battery. I am sending you lots of hugs 🤗 . Wish I was there but i know we all need time to work on ourselves.

Rah I understand so well. My siblings & I have such bad memories because of my mother. Sounds like you're going in the right direction for healing. I love your channel!

Good to see you 😊🤗

Love and light 💛🕯️ I love it here 💞💞

I get it, I’m right with you.

Thank you for sharing this because it does help those of us who are on a similar journey. I just saw another person speak about re-parenting themselves and breaking those cycles of neglect and poor habits that they formed when they didn't have anyone to teach them otherwise. She talked about how her parents weren't there to nurture habits like eating properly or taking a shower and so when she was a child and she had to take care of herself, she made the executive decisions about things like how important bathing was. Those issues carried over and now she's making it a point to speak to the child she was, as the parent she needed. Its really eye opening.

You are beautiful. Deep inside you have a beautiful heart and a desire to be beautiful. These feelings you have about the bad things is because they don't EXIST IN YOU. ITS NOT YOU. That's why it hurts so much.

Thank you so much for sharing this journey. I can relate to it deeply. Rooting for you! You are worth it! 💕

Thank you! This is powerful and a good reminder that our own needs are to our own journey more than the pain we have that will wear us down.

Sending love and support to you Rah 💜 you’re a beautiful person who’s doing what’s right, and so many see that in you xxx

This resonated with me to my core. I feel like when I watched this it was me talking to myself. I am right there with you going though the exact same stuff. ❤️❤️❤️

So very proud of you...be easy with yourself and remember parenting is hard at times so be gentle with that little girl inside you. You are absolutely amazing and have such a great soul!!♥️♥️

Good for you. Looks to me like you've identified the root of your problem and that's a wonderful start. Can't change the past or your awful mother. March on and you'll get there. You're a wonderful girl.

Rah it doesn’t matter, because you are perfect and lovely and your eyes are so sweet when you’re melancholy. Some man will come into your life and pour life and love into your heart. We love you just as you are, sincerely and eternally…

I understand u ❤️

you’re amazing

Can TOTALLY related here girl. Some mothers are reeeealllyyyyyy toxic and in the end you realize that you are better off without that negative shit in ur life. Family isn't always blood.

Sending hugs x

Fühle dich umarmt 💕

OMG if I could wave a magic wand to make things better for you I would do it in a heartbeat. You have worth and value. Your videos bring joy to me personally. I hope you are doing better xxx

Mel Robbins recently did a KZfaq on the difficulties of getting in the shower, brushing teeth, etc. She had on an author who wrote a book about this!

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Nice Sharing......

Let God parent you❤ I've had to do the same. God will equipped you to do it🙏

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ananda mandala.

I understand you.Where have you been??

Miss you

Hello Rah :)

Mama is mama miss you too much baby

I know I can say this to u and u won’t find it all wu wu because u totally understand IF… u should try doing a prolonged water fast. I just did for four days for my MS, but it reset my depression and anxiety. Totally check it out … xoxo

Read Dr. Gabor Mate he is also on youtube. Sometimes we have to be our own celebrations in life and you create your own family outside the family you are born in. (big hugs )

Does she have ig ? I would love to follow up

U still follow.one meal a day

please stop complain❤️

I HAVENT CLEANED MY ROOM((( WHY YOU'RE SO LAZY?

I love your candor and can relate to your past. Yes you have great friends. They can be your help to heal. Mine did. Your have to divorce yourself from toxic thoughts and people. I believe in you. I was there too.