Thanks for being raw and real with your journey. It is going to impact more people then you'll ever know.

Thank you so much for this channel and this conversation!

Thank you for your honesty and transparency. Praying for you. I assurre you things are as bad or worse in "the world" shame is such heavy baggage. I'm glad you responded to grace and the finished work done at the cross with the power of tge Resurected Savior. Much love

Powerful , love the comment about death not being our savior

So glad that you started this podcast Bontrager...sorry but I don't know your first name. I'm sure this podcast will grow & help many to heal more in the telling of their stories & also encourage others to leave the Amish & tell their stories as well!

Powerful!!

Wonderful transparency in this testimony of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ.

Concerning spirits--He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.--There are evil spirits. Trust God and the Holy Spirit works on your behalf. Being powerful is believing in God's power.

God can take addiction cravings away.

Reading the Old Testament is helpful. It is our school teacher and leads us in the proper direction: it informs us of what God wants in our life. "8 But we know that the law is good, if a man use it lawfully; 9 Knowing this, that the law is not made for a righteous man, but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and for sinners, for unholy and profane, for murderers of fathers and murderers of mothers, for manslayers, 10 For whoremongers, for them that defile themselves with mankind, for menstealers, for liars, for perjured persons, and if there be any other thing that is contrary to sound doctrine; 11 According to the glorious gospel of the blessed God, which was committed to my trust." (I Timothy 1, KJV)

You're doing the right thing to not looking into much evil spirits things; though the bible tells us we are not ignorant of Satan's devices 2corithians 2:11; we are told in Romans 16:19 to be wise unto that which is good and simple concerning evil. Believe we're created in God's image in a sense that God is three in one(Father,Son and the Holy Ghost), so he created us three in one also( spirit, soul and body) Otherwise thanks for sharing the testimony, I love them they help me appreciate God's amazing grace towards sinners of every strip. He not only saves us from hell and gives eternal life freely; He goes on to help us taking us out of the messes we put ourselves into on a daily basis What love!! What a merciful God

Female virgins are wonderful women who can offer chastity to a man, a requirement for marriage. However, some female virgins are more wise than others. A virgin female can still end up in an unwanted situation by aiding her want-to-be-husband male to promote fornication (I Cor. 7:2) through former negligent conduct and leaving a pre-maritally bonded girl (Ex. 22, Dt. 22) if she does not qualify his background. The parent or guardian of the female is responsible to have a trust relationship with his daughter so as to be able to give her to a man in faith, knowing she is chaste. However, the parent of the virgin is not as likely to have this trust relationship with the male she is to be given to. There are men who may not be legally married but have in their life time had sex with a female virgin. In these cases, the male would still be obligated to the first female virgin, especially if he had two or more female virgin experiences, whom he joined in coitus. Then, the delusional, male presumed groom-to-be really should be trying to resolve his responsibility with his first virgin and her chastity (to re-unite and legally marry as long as the female had not become defiled by another man), and realize he must remain single if he doesn't in order to prevent another marital obligation to another woman while his former maritally-bonded woman is alive. We live in the apostasy and have lost the great protection of dowry and community living (homogeneous conditions), which guarded marriage (monogamy) and other Biblical institutions. So if a virgin female thinks everything is alright concerning marriage merely due to her own sexual purity, she better beware because she also has a responsibility not to become intrusive to a once-virgin seeking chastity and marital completion/restoration with the presumptuously presumed groom-to-be of the present virgin.