You talking is therapeutic to you, hearing you talk is therapeutic for me

Boogie ... you're an inspiration, man. Please keep using your KZfaq channel however you want, about whatever you want, and as real as you want. You'll always have caring fans that want the best for you. The rest that don't like that, can go bury their heads in the sand somewhere to hide from real life struggles.

Boogie man, No one on this planet has any idea what they're doing, we're all just winging it. Wing it till you make it.

Talking to your ex all the time is only gonna make it worse.

As a blind person I try my very best to be happy. But I still get stressed almost all the time. Because it’s tough living in a world that is built for people who can see, and not billed for those who can’t see. But I am getting there every day. All because of assistive technology. I am writing this comment with my voice. Not my fingers. It’s awesome.I can relate with you on stress and depression, just keep being you, keep being great.

Your the reason I made a utube account boogie after watching you for a year I wanted to support you, I enjoy the time you share, your never alone buddy I hope your inner smile gets stronger

You must cut ties, its very painful especially when youve been together for so long. but you gotta move forward.

When I went through my divorce I wish I would have broken off all contact with my "x". That would have made things so much easier. Try it.

dude ... trust me.. u need to take a break from the ex completely... u will know when its cool to be friends again

Honestly, I think you're making a huge mistake by still communicating with her. Maybe in a few years but right now it doesn't sound like you're ready for it. It may not seem that way to you right now because you're living it, but trust me when I say you'll have a clear conscience once you distance yourself from her completely.

I really care about u, im brazilian but i understand english, and i think you are trully a warrior. I been fighting eschizophrenia some years, but like you, im indo the best mental state ive ever been. So keep going, keep fighting! You are not alone. Best wishes Jessica- Brazil

Hey Boogie! I just had to stop and say thank you. I can't tell you how much of an inspiration your videos have been over the past few months. We share a lot of the same struggles and there's a lot of things people without these struggles don't get, how you can feel two totally opposite ways at the same time... how things like success and "doing well" can sometimes even be HARDER than failure and "doing bad" if you're not a person who's comfortable feeling good. I've spent a good chunk of my life feeling like an alien and it means so much to watch your videos and not only see someone who gets it (or at least a good chunk of it), but someone who's also doing the work, physically mentally and emotionally, to try and improve their quality of life. Much love!

Realest dude ever.

Boogie I disagree that having your ex-wife in your life is a good thing. I feel like it prolongs the suffering and the memories which cause sadness. I think if you cut her out of your life you will move on faster, but I love ya man and whatever you do is cool.

Boogie, thank you for sharing so honestly. I went through a major breakup about 6 years ago, so I can relate to some of what you are feeling. I think you have the right attitude in reminding yourself to look the future and know that things will be better. When I was going through my break up, I kept telling myself " just throw five years at it. In five years you won't feel this pain." And that is true. My life has improved so much since then. Also, I was given the advice to not talk to or see my ex for 60 days. Even if you like your ex and want to be friends, it is helpful to have this time to learn how to be without them, have some space, and move on. I followed this advice, and thought felt excruciating at first, it helped me so much. I have passed on this advice to friends and they say it helped them to. Maybe you should try this with your ex-wife. Much love to you Boogie.

Boogie, I’m glad you make these videos. 8 months ago I had the same surgery that you’ve gone through. I reached my 100 lb loss mark a month and a half ago but the scale has barely moved since then. I thought I was the only one and I’ve been beating myself up. Thank you for being honest about your journey with myself and others, it makes me feel less alone.

Boog, others have said it, and I will too: It's time to put your ex-wife completely behind you. Start winding down the regular communication; BE independent. It's hard, I won't deny that, but it's worth it for the sake of moving forward with your own life. Keep at it.

Acknowledging the hard stuff is important. The reality is a lot of creators are feeling forced to smile for the camera... its unhealthy but they’ve tied their livelihood to that positivity even when they are many feeling... your honesty is inspiring more people to be honest with themselves and others. We’re all stumbling through it...

I love you boogie, in the extent a viewer can share love to a content Creator. I'm 32 and I've been through a lot of what you have been through as well and i see so much of me in you. I was obese (not morbidly tho) and through so much struggle, self understanding and wanting with all fibers of my being to love myself, i managed to get to a very fit state. I complete in CrossFit, roller skates and usually do marathons, and i love my life so much right now. I try to get as many people as i can in this blissful way of living, loving one another and becoming better. I see you doing so well on this path, cause i see myself when i was at your point of this mountain. I can't tell you it gets easy, but i do can tell you it gets blissful. And you love that you endured the pain afterwards. You love yourself deeply for being the one that actually got there, and you finally trust yourself to truly take you to true happiness, even if new difficulties arrives, cause you know you can do it.

Boogie, i have been following since my last breakup, the time i found out about yours and watching your videos helps me not feel so alone in my own emotions, thank you for sharing it really helps.

My 2 cents - you need a clean break from your ex. Obviously stay friendly but keep your contact down to a minimum. Sounds like heartbreak to me. Keep your chin up and try to move on. Best wishes.

Boogie we know you're a really nice guy, but honestly I'd advise you to cut off contact with her. Not in a mean way, I know you'll probably avoid it because you'd feel it isn't justified but you've gotta put your own wellbeing before anything she wants here, trust me it'll help immensely.

It was really powerful hearing this video from you boogie. And I would like to say, thank you. Thank you for being so strong and getting up everyday, and moving forward. I finally got to sub to you yesterday on twitch and I am incredibly happy to be able to support you even more! So much love to you boogie and everyone else❤️ -Gumiiwormz

Life is beautiful chaos Boogie. Just keep slogging through man you’re making huge progress and it’s crazy to see! I’m also doing the get back in shape thing while being in emotional turmoil from a break up and I know it sucks but dude, everyday gets better but I’m sure you know that. Even if you don’t know what to do make all your mistakes at full speed ahead and things will fall where they’re meant to be.

7 years ago, Diablo 3 brought me to you and your channel. LOL, I thought Francis was real! What made me subscribe is when you were honest about your suicide attempts and really, truly opened up to us for the first time. Basically you showed me your were a real person, and not a fake happy all the time while the camera is rolling youtuber that only shows the good times. Thats why I stayed, thats what made me love you. Stay strong boogie, were not going anywhere, we are with you. #Boogieknights4life

Boogie you look really great honestly. We are so proud of you.

Boogie. I can't imagine going through what you are going through. But I can definitely relate to the chaos of emotions you're describing. Back in 2016 I graduated, and then in the same semester, I started my masters degree, lost my father who passed away in another country, and moved to another city to be closer to school. Then the next year I lost my grandmother (who's health the family had been dealing with the whole summer), almost lost my father in law few times, and officiated my brother's wedding! Now I've graduated again and though things have calmed down, I'm still searching for that next step. So yeah. Talk about a mixed bag of emotional stew, as you so aptly put it! I say this not to compare our situations, but relate and to say these emotions are valid and entirely normal, especially when big changes come all at once. Lots of love to you! Keep doing what you're doing!

This is your 'therapy'. You do whatever it takes to improve, to progress, to pick yourself up and keep going. Everyone wears a mask. There is the mask everyone sees, and then there's the face under the mask. It's very rare when people expose the face under the mask. It takes a brave person to show the face under the mask. If this is your way of recovering....then keep making videos. Keep sharing your progress. My wife and I recently shared a 10 year anniversary. It's difficult for me to understand/relate with your divorce. But everything else you're doing to improve yourself is wonderful.

Keep your head up man, always wishing the best for you. You’ve never come across and whining or a victim, we all have stuff we have to get out. You have no idea how much just listening to you and watching your videos have helped me get through my stuff. You’ve literally helped saved my life, love you dude!

Sending you good vibes and positivity for what its worth Boogie. It'll get easier brother!

I don't watch you much (basically just when youtube decides to put you in my recommendation tab) but it's so surprising to see you like once per month and see how much better you are looking. Forget about the fact that a few people "hate this content" it's motivating as fuck and even if a random person sees this video and it puts a smile on his face it's worth the bitching from a few.

I love your update videos on your life boogie. It really helps me seeing you do all these challenges in life and pushing through it. It helps because I struggle with some of the same mental issues and I want to find out how to fix them and your videos really help alot. So thank you and keep the updates coming I'll be waiting for you to get that 300 lb mark

If you are like most people, you need to cut ties with your ex and stop reminding yourself of it every time you talk to her. It's tough, but cut that off completely and move along. It takes a couple of years but once you establish new norms, you'll begin feeling better. Stop hanging on man, you are doing yourself a disservice, trust me man.

cut all ties man, staying in contact with an ex you still love is a self destructive prophecy. A clean cut always works better and makes you heal way faster.

Boogie ... From a bro to another bro .. Wisdom wanks mate .. They work. If you still want to talk to her right after, then you're still in love ... If you're cool & collected, than you were just in need of a release.

Been there. Through the pain and doubts, you’re going to have such personal independent growth. Your future is very bright, I’m thankful to be able to be along for the ride and cheer you on!

"You've got to feel it to heal it." Keep going. It's rough, tough it out. You'll be better for it in the long run.

Boogie, my ex left me for another woman, (I know different from how you and your ex split), but...I tried to remain in contact with him and hoped for him to maybe come back. After 2 years (yeah took that long for me) of being hard on myself and thinking there would be hope, I was able to finally put my foot down, stop feeling low of myself, filed for the divorce, and cut all ties with him. He was shocked at first, but he let me go. I have no communication with him and I’m at a much better sense of mind and thought. It’s been 7 years and I have no regrets not talking to him since I have moved on, on my own. My thought is you need to just put your foot down, cut ties, no matter how much it hurts or bothers you. The wounds have healed for me, and I know they will heal for you. It just takes time. Love ya Boogie stay strong!

Dude, I'm a recent subscriber but you're one of my favorite KZfaqrs. All the vids you've posted have helped me with the hardship (and breakup) I'm going through. I am grateful for you.

Thank-you for sharing this, I'm at a point in my life where I have an extremely good platform to start my life from financially, but I constantly seem to second guess myself with the anxiety if it all, I don't know what it is really about you, but hearing you talk is relaxing even though I know your struggling yourself, I kinda feel inspired by you, and it might be because a lot of the same questions you ask I find myself asking too, I'm lost, I'm scared, and at times I feel all alone, I don't know where I'm going, or what I'll even find when I get there, but watching your videos make me want to find that out, I'm scared, I'm very stupidly scared.. I always have been, and I don't think that'll ever change, but I want to try, because what I fear the most is giving up without having done a damn thing about it... that's my worst fear I don't want to waste the only chance I have for a good life.

2017 was the worst year of my life, and I took a lot of vicarious pleasure through you, Boogie. I was like "Oh, man, that boogie, he's finally getting everything he wants. It's all working out for him!" I was really happy for you. Then the divorce happened and you started talking a lot like how I'd been feeling: depressed, angry, confused, discouraged, and just plain broken--and cursed, because you knew that some of the damage never really heals. So it taught me why I've always enjoyed watching your videos: In some ways, we think very much alike. Something that helps me to...not necessarily heal, but at least cope...is to remember that the human mind is a very big place, and like the Earth it has a lot of variety, from the most beautiful mountains and valleys to the most brutal and blistering wastelands. Our thoughts are a traveler on a voyage of the world, and we can only really appreciate the vastness of our minds by appreciating the distinctness of our different emotions and mental states. The beautiful places are still there. Can we return to them (or perhaps in some cases see them for the first time), and if so how: Those are the questions of the day.

These videos really do help! You're being honest with yourself and your feelings which is something we all struggle to do and I think it's important to be honest and fix the negatives rather than avoiding them like you said. Great video!

I truly appreciate this message and channel. Your content is great and informative in soo many ways. From reviews to life experiences both good and bad. I am also going through some rough seas and have been battling them my entire life and the maturity and communication of your messages inspires and motivates me to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, it just needs ALOT more focus and hard work to get there and that with more difficult focus on our own deep lying issues we can overcome it and will. Thanks again! Your self expression really helps me. Hard to really explain thanks it in a few words. But I can relate even though things are soo very different, helps me understand myself by feeding off this. But yeah a good balance of good and bad and thanks for pushing positivity to the world and helping us see that there are ways to deal with our problems.

Nothing but love for you, Boogie. It seems like knocking one wall down only reveals another, but you continue to push and push and push through. You're someone who I've never met but who I'm extremely proud of. Your story is a message, and you continue to inspire. Stay strong, Boogie!

Boogie, i cannot express how much you are helping me and many many more..I am a 23 student from Bulgaria, working full time in foreign city and sometimes everybody is feeling depressed, anxious, alone...and in those moment you and your channel are like a safe boat..you, sharing your experience, your life, your thoughts...it is priceless..i am really proud of you and i'm feeling you as my friend ..sending love from Bulgaria

I love you boogie! You're the best man and I always love watching you're videos. You always have a place in my life just with your videos man

I feel you bro! your progress has inspired me too man... 60lbs down from 430 and still dropping...keep pushing bro.

Keep going man. You inspire so many just through being vulnerable, and whether or not people agree with how you handle whatever you're going through no one is going to know the best except for you and those who are in the situations. I've been following you for a long time, and you're a lot stronger than you may think. You're a hero to those who have felt unseen and marginalized, you're a brother to those who feel alone and want to hang, and you're a voice for everyone who feels they don't have one. The pain probably feels like death... but you have so much strength in you that will continue to come out after each wave of grief has crashed against the shoreline. For whatever it's worth to hear from a stranger, I'm proud of you man, I really, honestly am.

Heya boogie.. I know your probably not going to see this, but I’ve been watching your videos for about 8 years now believe it or not! You helped me develop into the young man I am now and I’m extremely grateful to say that you’ve helped me in so many ways. The community is here for ya man, we love ya ❤️

Boogie, let me tell ya, there's just no way for you to heal and move on if you keep yourself tied to your ex-wife and the relationship that you're missing but just is no more. I know it's hard to let go of someone you love and care for, but it just needs to be done once both of you decided to go separate ways. Now you guys need to build your own independent lives and get over those romantic feelings you still have, before you can even start working on a healthy platonic friendship. You know, you are far from being there yet, since it's way too soon for that, the divorce has been just months ago and the wounds are still fresh. You can't fool yourselves and pretend to be all platonic while there are obviously still a lot of feelings involved that keep you from letting go of one another and have your own individual lives. Boogie, you still share your whole private “business“ with your ex even though you're separated. This must tell you that something's off here. And you know, maybe your ex-wife is playing along for now, but it's mostly due to her guilt that she's feeling since she was the one who filed for divorce, which also came with a bad timing for you as you were going through those surgeries and dealing with a lot of issues at that time. She sees your struggle and though she decided to end this marriage and relationship, she still feels obligated to make up for that extra stress and pain this divorce has caused you. So she's being now extra nice and supportive towards you to avoid hurting your feelings any further. But you gotta understand that, unlike you, she has mentally processed and accepted the end of your relationship at least to some extend already, before she broke up with you completely. Such decisions aren't made over night. They are a result of a long time of unhappiness and frustration. For that reason, her emotional attachment towards you and that relationship, is most likely not that big anymore, and all she's wishing for right now, is being freed from those burdens of the past. You, however, seem to still be highly invested in that relationship and weren't ready for the breakup yet. So, you clearly gonna need more time than her to deal with the circumstances the way they are now. Especially since this woman seems to be one of the few constant things in your life among all those minor and major changes revolving around you, and it's understandable that you're longing for all that reminds you of that stability you used to have before, whenever you're feeling insecure about your future or yourself. But you gotta admit it's a pretty selfish behaviour to keep your ex partner bound to you and thereby not allowing her to have a closure and to move on with her life, which she clearly wishes, otherwise she wouldn't have left in the first place. It's gonna be very hard for her to focus on future goals, like a new relationship, if she's still gonna have a feeling of owing you something and hurting your feelings. And this feeling won't go away as long as you keep involving her in your life like you do, creating an impression like she never left and you're still a couple having a relationship on a distance. This can get very toxic for both of you eventually, it's a forced and unhealthy situation you both are putting yourselves into. You need to snap out of it, really, or it's not gonna end well for ya. For her and your own sake, and for the sake of your friendship you need to make a clear cut. You can't keep up this illusion forever, there needs to be a closure in that chapter in order for you and her to be able to move on and start a new life. Therefore you must realise that it doesn't do neither of you guys any good if you keep making yourselves emotionally dependant of one another. Distance is necessary so you can come clear with your feelings and figure your lives out for yourselves. It's just not possible to get over an Ex while keeping in touch with him/her, the human brain/nature doesn't work that way. The contact is gonna trigger those emotions that are connected to the ex, and those emotions are gonna be there as long as the Ex is gonna be a part of your life. So, if you guys really wanna have a healthy (!) friendship to enjoy and be happy with one day, instead of a toxic coexistence full of guilt and empty hopes, you gotta let go first and give those wounds time and room to heal. This would also mean to cut off the contact completely for a while. Maybe even for years. But only then, when all is sorted out and overcome, you'll be able to meet on a neutral ground, with no jealousy or other salty feelings involved, so you can be fair friends to each other. I think, your ex-wife deserves this chance just as much as you do. You have to make a mature and wise decision here, even if it hurts. But trust me, you'll be glad about it one day. Anyway, I wish you all the luck and success and accomplishments on your future journey, Boogie! Keep that fight up, and sorry for the long ass text. Just needed to write all my thoughts down so you can better understand the concerns many people are expressing about this topic.

Boogie, we love you man! I understand that with the excersise and the divorce there are dualities. And I understand that that must be hard. But we are all here for you, so you can sort out what you need to do. We all struggle with dualities but at the end of the day all of us sort them out. Thank you for helping me with my anxiety, the creator summit video really inspired me and you've helped me quite a lot with my depression. Boogie, thank you for being the amazing personen we all know and love. Couldn't do without you man!

I think it's amazing that you're able to be so open and talk about what's going on in your life, you're an inspiration and keep moving forward! You got this!

STOP TRYING TO BE “FRIENDS” WITH YOUR EX. You need to let that go. It’s not healthy for either of you. Let’s be honest, SHE KNEW BEFORE YOUR SURGERY THAT SHE WANTED TO LEAVE. She just waited until you were slightly better to AVOID SO MUCH GUILT. Move on, Boogie. Start cutting the constant communication with her. Wishing you the best.

We love you Boogie!

You're an inspiration. I'm gearing up to have VSG later this year and your videos are very helpful and insightful. Thank you for being so candid with us.

Man. I come to this channel FOR THIS. I’m going through a separation right now and the burden of guilt, shame, sadness, mourning, and the burden of CARRYING others opinions can be deafening and debilitating. So ya, sometimes it’s nice to feel sympathized or empathized over. Thank you for saying that. And thank you for being honest about the seemingly contradictory dichotomy. Cuz it’s true. With any life change to that level there’s a tug of war. And it’s hard to walk through that and not feel literally crazy. So many days I’ve cried and felt confused or lost or angry or sad or even relieved. And so many days I’ve cried cuz I’ve felt ALL of that. But to hear you share gives me one more rope to hold on to and have strength to combat the voices that call me crazy, cuz I know I’m not. But it’s hard to not believe those voices when you’re in it. Thanks for being you Boogie. And for holding all of this with as much honesty as you can share. It matters and in a small way you’re helping me. So thank you ♥️ Wish you well my friend. Can’t wait to see 8 months from now for us both!

Boogie, just know that if it were possible, almost all of us fans would love to give you a hug! So many times during this, I just wanted to like reach out and hug him, because God knows he has times when he just really needs to know and remember how many devoted fans he has who really want nothing but the best for him and how much we love him back for what he's done for us.

Boogie I’ve never commented on any of your videos but listen man don’t worry and don’t feel the need to apologize because you still feel heart broken.. the broken heart is the worse pain imaginable and vent all you feel the need too because at the end of the day venting and sharing your feelings is the only way to be able to move on. Things will only get harder and you will only miss your ex even more as time goes on but I promise you a day will come when your heart will feel complete again and not broken. Don’t ever feel guilty as time goes on and you hurt even more that’s 100% normal.

YOU GO Boogie, i havent seen your videos in a while and im super surpriced how far you've come, maybe a year from now ill see an other video of your's and i wont even recognize you.

I really appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. It takes a special type of courage to open yourself up like that and share what you're going through. Thanks for that, definitely earned even more respect and affection from me.

Anyone who hasn't gone through what you're going through will see it as whining. The 100% honesty in your title is something that people aren't used to hearing or speaking themselves. You have the time to accomplish what you want to. But between what your body can tolerate and what your mind can motivate you to do, you'll hit your goal. Remember how many people are on your side. You've come this far and the rest won't be easy, but dude... A bypass followed by divorce and you're still here? You got it. P. S. This comment isn't targeting anyone who reads it. If you've never been through it but can understand the struggle then good on you. Mad respect. It's the ones who life a nice leisurely life who talk shit that is the intended audience of this comment. Anyone else? Thank you for supporting the man.

Boogie, thank you so much for making these videos, you share your experience and it helps a lot and shows insight into situations I never saw before

We all love you boogie. I have been a sub for years now with you. You and I are not much different. I too suffer from anxiety and depression. I have found your videos to be very helpful with some of the techniques that you share. You are at least helping one person. Thanks and keep running the race. Don't give up because you have all 4.4 million of us rooting for you.

You’re a very brave man to share so openly - it also sets such a great example to young men on how to communicate their feelings and that they can openly - I just went through divorce after 20+ years myself last year so I’m right there with ya! Much love! Viki

Boogie, I've been watching you for years now, and I must say that you've made an incredible transformation from where you once were. Be proud of your accomplishments, because we have to live for today and the victories we gain today! You are doing a great job with all you do, and I honestly mean that. In the end, we're all only doing the best we know how...and the best you can is good enough. We're all cheering you on btw. You're gonna continue to grow from here! YOU GOT THIS! Lots of love from everyone out here.

Love you dude

I genuinely can’t believe there were any dislikes on this video.. this is the first video I’ve seen of yours but I feel it’s just so obvious how hard you’re trying to better yourself and how fucking honest you’re being. Congratulations don’t let anything or anyone deter you from this path of success and bettering your life ❤️

You have so much courage. Bless you, boogs. Although you said it, just to reaffirm, it'll only be a matter of time before your goal is reached. With your daily activity and dieting, it's not an impossibility ! Much love and peace, brother ✌

Boogie, you always approach these videos with humility, even if you're telling yourself otherwise. I've been learning to enjoy life one day at a time: to be mindful of the current moment. I think you should just take it easy and enjoy where you are in your journey and where you are headed.

Wow boogie. I don't watch all of your videos but you are shrinking man. Every time I see a video you have become tinier. keep up the amazing work.

You're going in the right direction, I too suffer from intense positive/negative emotions and am also working through alcoholism/drug addiction. It's really difficult at times and some days it's a tight rope. Sometimes I fall off but most days I manage to walk the line. I know you suffer from joint pain and back issues but get as much gentle exercise as you possibly can (boy it helps) also you have a crowd of supporters cheering you on. Wishing you the best.

I teared up when you said ‘this year was supposed to be the best year of my life’. As someone who also has been through a painful break up, although our issues aren’t the same we still both have issues we’re dealing with that effect us the same way. Sending you all my compassion, encouragement, strength and hope from here in Wales, UK

You the man Boogie!! Thanks for the updates. Love u man!

This is the content I appreciate the most. Thanks for sharing it with us. Totally true that there's no such thing as an adult, we all just do our best with what we have, what we know, and what we are working towards. ❤

Its brand new territory for you, I hope it brings you comfort that you are on the right road. I've been living with bipolar disorder and a life so riddled with trauma that I've felt like a train wreck. You're doing the right things for the right reasons and any mistakes you might make won't do any harm because what I've learned for myself is that: intent matters. If you make decisions with the right intent, even if it's not the absolute best thing to do you will always be able to weigh the results after and find the next best thing. You're on the road to a better life and regardless of your results at the end of the next 8 months, if you commit yourself to this process, always doing the next best thing and never turning back, well then I believe you cannot possibly go wrong. Good luck boogie, I hope you can feel as proud of you as I am.

Boogie I love francis and I love all the nerd culture stuff but these videos really hit home for me, mental health is important and it's refreshing to hear such a positive and emotionally intelligent take on it from someone else. You help me not feel alone dude, I gotta get to one of these conventions some day or please announce it if your ever at a convention in Toronto I'd love to meet you.

Thanks for all the hard work you put into these videos for us Boogie :]

Your never alone you got us

Just subbed. It looks like you have inspired many and it is good to see your recovery and don't mind the time it takes. As you already mentioned it takes ages to get where you are and need to be.

I am so glad you are doing better ,Boogie! I will continue to pray for continued success! Vent videos are so important!

Move on from your ex-wife, dude. You'll be happier in the long run. I tried being friends with an ex of mine, but she never returned a message I sent sometime ago. I started seeing someone else. Whether or not it will work out is a different story, but time will tell on its own.

Love u Boogie!! !You're the man!

I honestly think you will find someone even better suited for you Boog. Seriously. I have gone through heartbreak, BAD heartbreak about three times. It NEVER gets easier to deal with, but it ALWAYS eventually gets better. Just put yourself out there and try to not bring any emotional baggage with you. Sending my love. You look great too btw man.

Thank you for uploading this. It really hits close to home for me. A little too close and these videos actually help me. Thank you for being so open and honest. Thank so very much.

talking to your ex is a terrible idea. You should stop that.

You are so damn inspirational. I am really proud of the fact that you are so strong. You can pull through. I know you can. I feel bad that I can't help you in this difficult time. Just know we all believe in you.

Boogie I just watched a video of yours from 3 years ago, and can I just say you look a lot better. Keep on being the inspiration that you are.

Thank you for sharing with us how your really feeling. You have no idea how much these videos help me. I get so excited every time you upload a new rambling video. It makes me feel better to know that these help you and so many others. and if others dont like this content than they dont need to click on it. Looking forward to the next one.

Steven, you aren’t alone, you need to know that. I wanna say that I am here, but yet again that is wrong as well, we are all here for u man. You are one of the strongest most powerful men ive ever seen not only on KZfaq but in general. Been watching you for the better part of 6-7 years now and I’ve only seen you come out on top. The moment you wake up in the AM make your bed and repeat in your head “I am unbeatable, I am unstoppable” and keep that in your head constantly throughout the day. I/we love you man!

Man we all have problems. I got a divorce 20 years ago and it was my world coming down. The best thing you can do is do you. Find your passion and use that as therapy. Still see a therapist, but move on. I blame myself for my divorce, but I also learned from it. A couple of years ago I was diagnosed with Ankylosing spondylitis. My world came to an abrupt stop. I will never get better only worse. However I still need to move on and not fall into that trap. You are still young and the sooner you get yourself on the right track the sooner you will find someone new to share your life with. I have and it's great. Hang in there and remember it does get better.

I don't know you, and I've never seen a video from you before, but I'm glad I did, proud of you for making this, in awe that you'd find the strength and courage to share such a heartfelt "secret diary" log with the unknown that is social media, inspired by your faith in how it can help both you AND others (it does), and proud of myself for seeing us all in how you're struggling with what you're thinking and feeling. Much love

Thank you for sharing your life stories. It makes me feel less lonely, that I'm not the only one out there that can struggle. I'm so happy to see your progress! You're an amazing human being and I wish you nothing but the best.

If it helps you to talk about it talk about it. If you think it will help others to talk about it talk about it. If people dont care they dont have to watch. Do what you feel is best. Great video keep it up. And best wishes hitting your goals.

Boogie, man, you have to start moving on ... and that starts by distancing yourself from your ex. I think subconsciously there is a small part of you that thinks if you make enough videos like this that she will run back to you with open arms and everything will be good again. That she is watching these videos crying into a tissue and the love is swelling within her ... it's not happening dude. Show her STRENGTH, not continued weakness ... get out there and find who you were MEANT to be with. I've been there ... and I FOUND 'the one' ... hopefully you will too. You deserve it.

I don't know how often you get out in nature, but I feel it could really help you. It sounds cliche, but it always helps me out. Going on a hike within the first 30 seconds of being on a trail my mind is completely cleared.

Man boogie I struggle with really bad depression myself. You are a much stronger person than I to push past it and still spread positivity. Keep it up man. Seriously your civility,relatability and honesty is a breath of fresh air of the offended yelling of society.

Hey man, just wanted to say I am so glad this is therapeutic to you, because it is VERY therapeutic to me. Wishing you the best.

Putting your life on full display like you do takes a lot of courage. I'm sure there's still details you keep to yourself but it's more than I'd ever feel comfortable sharing. I hope the best for you going forward.

I only wish you the best man. I know that things can be and usually are quite difficult, but you just have to keep pushing. You are doing awesome and you keep on looking better and better with each new video I see you make. I know that your heart and brain are still hurting and that it sucks, but you can pull through man. I know you have probably been doing this, but the one thing I try to do when I am feeling down and don't have anyone to talk to is I find a book I really like or a game I really like and just lose myself into it for a few hours. I just give myself a few hours of respite from the real world. It's the best advice I can currently offer and I really hope you start feeling better soon man. If I could, I'd give you a great big hug because you seem like you need one. But, since I can't, I'll just do this. *hugs*

Thank you for sharing. I had a friend who had the surgery and is now heavier than she was before her initial surgery. She is out of control in every aspect of her life. Your revelations made me cry for her. I miss her but she is a lost cause until she does the hard physical work. I see your successes and struggles and I realize that she has always had help, where you have had to face a lot of your hardships on your own. Perhaps facing certain obstacles solo can make you a stronger person. Your story continues to inspire me. I hope that someday you can somehow inspire my ex friend.