I've never released a song about this boy.
I wrote this in August 2016. I still had long hair if that tells you how old this is.
He was the first guy who ever actually pursued me. No one had ever made me feel so wanted and I was absolutely crazy for him. Things started off really intense and lovey dovey but slowly began to fizzle out over the course of five months. He didn't have the sense to end things with me as he lost interest and I didn't have the self respect to walk away from someone who no longer cared. Our love died a slow, painful death and it took me meeting someone new to even realize that I could walk away, that this guy wasn't "all I could get". This song is me realizing I should've been more appreciated than I was and that him leading me on really hurt my self esteem.
Of course, the "someone new" in the bridge turned out to be the guy Italy is about so obviously I didn't really get into a better situation HAHA but that's a story for another time ;)
I'm so pleased to share this chapter of my life with you guys and I hope you'll handle it with care. Enjoy Florida 🌊
Verse 1:
Boy I bet you think about me all the time, in Florida not far from me I'm on your mind
You asked if I would drive down to see you, as if I haven't done enough for you
You didn't wanna try, you took over my mind, you kept me tossin' turnin' in the middle of the night
Your car broke down and you didn't get a ride, didn't even see me when I took that plane ride
Now I'm going through it but I won't give you a call, you let me walk away like it meant nothing at all
Now you're all alone in a brand new state you can miss my voice you can miss my face cuz
CHORUS:
I was the best you ever had, you'll never find better than me
You should've realized what you had, now I'm nothin but a memory
Verse 2:
You wanted me to stay and be a secret, you'd hold me long as nobody could see it
You never asked if I would be your lady, my family tried to tell me you were shady
So much drama tried to keep it all inside, it kept me awake in the middle of the night
I tried so hard I just wanted to be right, I tried too hard put up too much of a fight
I let you slide when I shoulda let you go, now I'm doin good and you're the one who's all alone
I know you think about it and you know
CHORUS:
I was the best you ever had, you'll never find better than me
You should've realized what you had, now I'm nothin but a memory
You treated me wrong, I wrote so many songs, I should've known in April you were already gone
I cried so many tears, I just needed you here, you never came to see me over half of a year
I'm with somebody new, he cares more than you, it's healing my anxiety to not be so blue
So say what you want, do what you gotta do, I know deep down you know the truth
CHORUS:
I was the best you ever had, you'll never find better than me
You should've realized what you had, now I'm nothin but a memory
OUTRO:
Oh you know I loved you boy, we really could've had it all
You could've been the one, but you just let me fall
And now I guess we'll never know, I guess we'll never know