Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder

Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder - Amber Louise Ainsworth

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CW: Mentions of drinking, drug use, suicidal thoughts, depression, trauma, and occasional swearing.
Amber Louise Ainsworth is a DID system from the UK. Since realizing they are a DID system in early 2021 at age 38, they’ve been working through their healing: processing and sharing all their collective trauma. They have written several books, including several collections of poetry, and a book called “The revelation,” which details their first year of healing.
During this interview, you’ll hear from three of the alters in my guest’s DID system: Amber (who is the system host), Mia, and Berlou. We’ll let you know which alter is speaking when, by showing the alter's name in the top left corner of the screen and labeling their words in the subtitles. They talk about:
● What life was like before they realized they are a DID system with several alters
● How they discovered their first alter
● How their alters communicate with each other (or in many cases, how amnesia prevents them from communicating), and how they write books and poetry about their experiences
● What it feels like when alters fuse with each other and separate from each other, and how that helps them process and heal from past trauma
A few other alters in their DID system are also mentioned during this episode - and while those alters don’t talk during this interview, they play important roles in this story of discovery and healing.
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@HansSchmidtUnfoldingStone 7 ай бұрын

Thank you so much! I was trapped in psychiatry for 26 years and told I had neurochemical imbalances and bad genes, and that I would be on drugs and in and out of hospitals for the rest of my life. Never mind all the childhood trauma, abuse, neglect. Thankfully I started meditating and reconnected with all the voices silenced by ECT and drugs. Today I am 8 years+ free of psychiatry and putting all the pieces of the puzzles back together. How did I quit psychiatry? The voices/alters told me I could do it, and I believed them! Bravo to Amber et al!

@Star_Stories_37 7 ай бұрын

I think I am just waking up to this being my life.

@Lenergyiskey358 7 ай бұрын

Hey, I'm 56 and just been diagnosed. I'm still figuring it out. It's nice to see a more grounded expression of this by someone instead of the crazy world of DID on utube at the moment. I try not to judge but sometimes it feels just 'off' somehow. These channels can really confuse you. I relate far more to what you are describing. Thankyou 🙂 I work with my 'other mes' in a similar way you do. For years I have also been gathering tools and they have been slowly making themselves known to me. It is described to me by one as chip, chip, chipping away 😄. There are ones that just dont speak but I'm very aware they are there. The more covert mes are quite funny and have great insight into what's going on. I'm in Australia and trying to get assistance so I can heal because we are too unstable to work in any consistent capacity. It's extremely hard to get the right help. So you have to try and work with yourselves. I really hope that more awareness comes soon. The CTAD clinic on utube is a great resource. Happy writing and best wishes to you all 🤗.

@beyond6seconds 7 ай бұрын

Thank you for watching my conversation with @DID.we.write. and sharing your own experience -- I hope you're able to get the support and assistance you need soon!

@allisoncarmichael2610 Ай бұрын

Never felt more connected to another human. My experience is similar. This is massively helpful to to me. I am 60 diagnosed 3 years ago

@jamygarcia9566 7 ай бұрын

THANK you all SO much! We will look for you. Two and half years ago, our Painter began drawing. Memories. There must be over three h😮by now! Amazing.

@Robertsmith-un5cu 5 ай бұрын

I knew a woman who relived much of her repressed traumas using psychedelics. She mapped out her mind. She suffered more than any other person I ever met. She was very strong but ultimately just isolated herself and won’t reach out. Psychedelics are incredibly powerful. But not to be taken alone.

@pxgarden2451 4 ай бұрын

This is the fist time I HEAVILY related to a systems experience. Thank you very much for the interview! I will defenetly need to read their books now.

@stevelarson9445 9 ай бұрын

We were thrilled to see you all! So brave!!!!

@chrisjarmain 6 ай бұрын

I was officially diagnosed in late 2021!!! I am 32 now. So, i was 30 at the time. I find it difficult in the UK 🇬🇧 with the NHS as just not being believed. Although i have a diagnosis, i am being referred to the special Autism group/ section/ department. I have also been told by the NHS that i just have a "colourful imagination" They just tell me that D.I.D. is very rare, so it must be Autism! Terrible, really! Diagnosed 2 years ago, still no therapy for this issue. Im still no wiser for what i actually have... Its great to see orher systems! And helps clarify that i am not ok, that i do need help, and that im not lying. But hey, have to work with what we arw given. The NHS so far has been awful for mental health.

@mystplus 9 ай бұрын

Well done to Amber, Mia and Berlou for this - I could honestly listen to you all speak for hours! Thank you for being so open and sharing your experiences and being so honest and frank about how confusing it all can be - from one very confused system to another, we totally get it, and as horrible as this disorder can be to live with, it's always nice knowing we're not in this alone and we're not the only ones confused and struggling to make sense of everything.

@DID.we.write. 9 ай бұрын

🥹 aw fanks 🤣 yeah B has a slightly softer voice and that actually isn’t Amber’s voice haha she was Caris, Stef and Pen at least too at the time 🤣🤣🤣 she was basically patched together for the podcast hahaha literally a one time person 😂🤷‍♀️ we watched again and can really hear how it’s not Amber lol. And when I’m talking at the end dunno if it’s just “Amber” close but I’m def more grown up than usual haha. Fanks so much I really appreciate your comment and you all! 🥰🥹 Mia obv! 🦄💕🌈

@natusystem 7 ай бұрын

Hope this video gets more known, really good interviewer and video in general 💚

@andersonsystem2 9 ай бұрын

We are a diagnosed DID system this is a good interview. Thanks for sharing the content and giving people the right information on DID with someone with experience with DID awesomeness ❤ our alters have a Facebook accounts because they write as well.

@beyond6seconds 9 ай бұрын

Thank you for watching -- I'm so glad you enjoyed it! It's awesome that your alters share their writing too!

@DID.we.write. 9 ай бұрын

Fanks! Yeah we just watched again and we def miss a lot of info but I guess we show a bit of our truth. Cool what do you all like to write? We’re out of the habit I miss it but times are hard 😓 Mia 🦄💕🌈