Yasssss! Plz let me know what you want to see in the coming weeks!

Thank you 🙏!!! I am so excited to be back! I’m excited to react to singers from all countries of the world!

Yeah I’m still trying to figure out what I’m gonna do on there because I really suck at makeup. Hahaha

@@ChrissCorner You can continue reacting to music videos as well. I remember you opened the door for me to watching reaction videos. You were the 1st "reactor" I watched and subscribed to 2 years ago. 😁

I missed you too! Please let me know what you want to see in the coming weeks!

Lol that’s what two years of severe depression, alcoholism, and the max dose of Zoloft will do to you. 🤣. I’m doing better now though. Still overweight and depressed, but not binge drinking daily and feeling like I can survive through each day.

@@ChrissCorner Just pray. Theres no other way to have a peace in your heart and mind. But still your so cute.

I’m going to stick to treating my severe mental illness with various medicines and intense therapy. Abilify is the only thing in over two years that has come even close to working. I really appreciate the sentiment, but saying that prayer can fix a severe mental illness is kind of rude because it diminishes the seriousness of mental health and mental illness + not everyone is religious or believes in the same faith. I’m not trying to attack you, but I have been super public about how bad my mental illness was, so like I just don’t know how someone who had gone full paranoid and insane can pray their way out of it. There are times where tons of medicine and intense therapy are the only option or someone is going to straight up kill themselves. In addition to returning to reactions I am also an avid mental health advocate now and Mua. Still, I do believe in a god of some sort, I just don’t believe it solves our problems for us. I do hope you stay blessed though. Thank you for watching and I look forward to having a regular schedule on my videos

@@ChrissCorner Good to hear that you're overcoming your depression. I'm sure Angelito doesn't mean to be rude but if he's Filipino then that explains why. I also have mild depression and when I'm opening up to my relatives (older I mean) they always tell me to just pray (coming from a religious country) like they're discounting the existence of depression being an illness. So I ended up trying to understand them having little knowledge of the illness instead of them understanding me. 😊 Sorry that I had to explain but I still hope that you continue to fight your illness and that you manage to win over it. 😊

Thank you for explaining that. And I’m glad that you have been able to get your depression under control. It’s definitely a journey for everyone, but it’s just hard to convey how close to death I was. Like even my therapist said I might have been a week or two away from death if I hadn’t moved home. It was such a dark time and I was literally paranoid and insane and convinced that I was going to die and that if the pain and hurt didn’t just cause me to drop dead that I needed to step in and end my own life. So I spent months just waiting to die until I completely spiraled and got $55,000 in credit card debt, gained 80 pounds, stopped going to work after months of plotting my death instead of working, finally resigned, and was basically planning to get blackout drunk and then jump off my former apartment’s ninth story balcony. It was a very scary time and I can honestly look back now with clarity and think omg that guy was freaking crazy and had no grip on reality! My entire life collapsed, but I am rising from the ashes. So lucky because after my life imploded I was able to begin recovery at my parents’ house. But yeah I’m relaunching and starting over. Currently unemployed, going to therapy two-three times a week, my parents gave me an interest free loan and then I had to pay them every last dollar I had left as a down payment. So I currently owe my parents $37,000 and I have like $60 in my bank account. Like my life is honestly so pathetic just looking at it from the outside. But I could still cry with joy everyday just to have mental clarity and to have this chance to fully recover and become whole through proper medication and intense therapy. I’m going to come out of this on top. Someway, somehow. Thank you again for adding some cultural context.