I hope you all enjoyed my reaction! What a trip down memory lane...Let me know if you have been here since the 2016 days and witnessed the changes to my diet and approach to food! Also I hope this video is edited ok I have never edited a reaction video before so still learning!

It actually makes me really happy that you have recovered so much from disordered eating that you can laugh about the bananas

I liked the part of the video when you told your past self that you are not lazy. It's important that we have our past selves back and be compassionate to ourselves

I love how you "spoke" to your younger self. With love and compassion. To me, that is true personal growth♥️

Sis was really getting her 5+ a day in one breakfast 😭😭

Your reaction to the bananas gets more and more funny throughout the video 😂

Your face looks so much healthier, pretty and animated. Well done.

It’s like watching a completely different person! I’m so glad you’re happy and healthy now❤️

I wasn’t vegan in 2016 but was definitely still impacted by the whole raw/smoothie obsessed culture, and it wasn’t until recently I realised how unhelpful it was for me as a teenage girl. Thank you for the honesty Madeleine, I’m glad young people now have influencers like you to look up to who promote a much healthier mindset.

Freelee will call you out and say you still didn’t eat enough 🤣 you should have put 30 dates in that smoothie and then you wouldn’t feel hungry 😂

As someone who is recovering from different eating disorder and trying to lose weight now. It’s so hard not go back to to those eating habits and watching you reflect back on you last eating habits make me realise how silly and warped my food rules were and how they’re not sustainable ways of eating. So, Thankyou! Also hilarious commentary xx

Just shows the kind of really intense influence that popular youtubers have on so many vulnerable minds... thank you so much for sharing your growth and talking about how you got here 💛💛💛💛

I'm only half way through the video and I just want to give past Madeleine a hug... I'm so glad you have a better relationship with food now x

Omfg I can’t believe we ate this way!! I remember Freelee n Durianrider telling us ‘if you’re eating properly you’ll never be hungry’ and that if you’re hungry you’re starving yourself🥴 I used to STUFF myself till it hurt thinking it was healthy. As if calorie intake isn’t a thing🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

Love that you got them offline. There are still so many 'healthy' KZfaqrs who keep profiting of terrible diet videos from years ago. Awesome you are different!!

"And the lady in the supermarket asked me if I worked in the monkey sanctuary when I had all the bananas" honestly tickled me more than it should. And wowwww how many bananas!! 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🍌 🤣🦧🐒🐵 Great video, balanced and honest 🙂💓❤

Maddie you are such an inspiration to young people out there! If I watched this video when I was younger I would’ve had hope that my disordered eating habits could change 💕 also thanks for the trigger warning and loving your content atm!!

My heart, I feel like your past self just looks so tired constantly. So love watching your cooking videos now and the joy and energy you have with cooking now!

"I don't wanna diet anymore, I just wanna eat food" I wish I will have the strength to say that myself one day and overcome this very exhausting Ed life! Thanks for the video, you’re amazing!!!

Hey Maddie, I’ve been here since you and Alex lived in your first flat/apartment on the channel, at the time I didn’t see this as being unhealthy either (having watched these videos when they were first published and I was still in my teens), but watching it back I can agree with you too, “it’s a mindset I don’t relate to anymore” is such a healthy mindset, it’s beautiful to see how your habits have changed and how you’ve come to find a healthier balance with so many aspects of life, it is very inspiring for your subscribers to go on self love and care journeys together, happy for you!

So many bananas! 😳🥴 I remember the days of trying to "fry" in water 😂

I found your channel around the wslf days lol. I always loved your energy, but I think a lot of us were struggling back then 😅. Thank you for reviewing some of your old content and discussing it in a gentle way. Props to your courage and change of heart 😊. Balance is so important, and enjoying your food is key!

I don’t comment on videos, but I needed to after watching this. Thank you for being so real, you are the inspiration I wish I’d had at 18/19. I wish you so much success and I hope you talk about this forever.

Thank you so much for sharing this with us! It can't have been easy to watch your old videos and see how your mindset around food used to be. But you've come so far! As a person who has struggled with all-or-nothing thinking, I love that your message now is about balance and intuition. ❤️

How did Alex feel about your eating at this time? I’m a new(ish) follower and would love to hear his take too as your partner 🌼

I really appreciate how you look back on your own past advice with a critical eye, and that you privated the videos. I love your recent videos!

Thank you for filming this! In the last couple of years I've really worked a ton to pivot from restrictions and aversions to intuitive eating and it's very encouraging to hear you talk about your journey. thank you!

I started watching you when you were doing WSLF. You've changed so much, in a good way. And you've also helped me A LOT with my approach to food. I have recovered from an eating disorder. This will be fun to watch. Ok, back to the video 😊

freelee owes us all an apology honestly

OMG. I remember this bob and fringe! it looked so good! still stunning. you are really blessed with beautiful hair

I just want to say that I think it's really great that you're talking about this

Can I just say how inspirational this video is? I am so hard on my past self and to see you being so respectful of your past self. Also how you always have spoke the truth - even if your truth was misguided in the past.

I‘m so surprised that you’re still able to eat bananas 😂 I wouldn’t even be able to see bananas if I had eaten that many for months 😅

So glad you did this video. When we see your old videos, you can really tell how much healthier you look now. Well done! ♥️

I can’t explain it but I just feel so much sympathy and empathy and have so much compassion for younger Madeleine❤️ I’m so glad to see how far you’ve come, not to say you’re in a perfect place right now, I dont know we all have good days and bad days, having a history with disordered eating also, it makes me feel so sad but also happy that we’re able to look back and reflect and appreciate and be proud of how far we’ve come. Sending so much love and would love some lunch videos! xx

This is such an interesting video and really lovely to see a youtuber sharing reflections on their past selves in this way, so i just wanted to say thank you for making such an open and honest video! It's also really heart-warming and encouraging for me to see how much healthier a lifestyle you are living now. Content like this really helps to contextualise the other content that's seen all over the place encouraging these diets that can feel really intimidating and lower my self-esteem. Thank you!

Thanks for sharing this, Maddie. So helpful to see you reflect on past disordered eating that we are all encouraged to think of as 'healthy'. I really empathise. Actually got a bit teary when you told your past self "you're not lazy". Well done on doing the work and getting where you are with food. 💜

Recovery takes time, I think this really shows how much you have grown and evolved! Everyone lives and learns, you have got such a healthier mindset and outlook now, proud of you ❤️

I loved this video! Not too long at all and can't wait to see others ☺️😉

Thank you. Thank you really for a video like this. You have come a long way and you are a true inspiration for us who struggled with the same habits. ❤️

such a healing video, thank you for sharing Maddie x

This video is amazing, I'm touched by your honesty, thank you!

This was highly entertaining 😁 Gonna go watch your "why I quit diets" video again now 💓

I found you're videos when I was developing eating disordered habits and its people like you that made me realise how much I was messing up my body. This video was so cool to see how you've changed I loved it!

It felt like I was watching my former self. I used to eat the exact same way as you. And I was miserable, my god. Cheers to us getting out of that mindset!

Loved this! Would be interested to hear more about how you started to eat more intuitively & gained a healthier relationship with food.

So proud of you for making this video! It should be shown in schools to show young people how you can get sucked into crazy diets quite innocently and by simply trying to be healthy. I’m so glad to see you looking so healthy and happy, it’s really brought a smile to my face this morning. Much love to you, Alex and Roxie xxx

The glow up though! Really proud of you girlie ❤️

Hi, Madeleine! Thank you for this honest video. I really appreciate you trying to promote healthy and balanced eating habits, even if that means making fun of yourself now and then. I think that could be very useful for anyone. There were and still are so many diets and lifestyles being presented to us as 'the best' or 'the healthiest', but I think every single one of us has to make a decision for ourselves taking into consideration our health and our situation so that we can better ourselves. We are always learning and adapting to what our bodies really need. Lots of love, stay safe! 🤗 🌹

I've been watching your videos since 2017; I haven't been watching them as much the past few months. But I'm diving back in, and this was so nice to see. You're forever my favorite KZfaqr. Such a genuine and transparent person.

Maddie, thank you very much for posting this. I recently stumbled onto Freelee’s channel and was sucked into the whole frugivore/raw by 4 idea (with the draw being to lose weight) and could feel it impacting me negatively. Thank you for sharing your experiences with this in such a honest, reflective way, it’s certainly given me a good reality check and yes your right, our bodies are our greatest indicator of what we need.

I don't know if you have it on the video but I do remember the DATORADE days. So glad lots of us have changed our mindset! It's great to see you healthier and happier 💚✨

I looooved this video!!! So nice to see how your views and habits changed!

Yay high carb hannah! I really appreciate this video, I don't know if I'm out of raw till 4's clutches yet, but it's great to see you react to your old self and to get your perspective now.

Thank you for the TW. I'm not gonna watch it because of it but your comments about your relationship to food now are so heart-warming and honestly really important! Also the background is on point, super calming and harmonious with the colours.

This is a really good video format! It really helps to look back at our evolution. I think you looking back at your history is probably beneficial to you but also to the rest of us, your viewers. I would watch the heck out of more videos of this format, whether they're more serious like your food habits or more light-hearted like maybe looking back at your old fashion and style? Whatever you do, I loved this video, and I think it's a great and impactful idea.

This video was a GREAT idea! It seems like such a beneficial video fir so many to see.

Loved this video! Thanks for going down memory lane for us:)

'Only six bananas' made me laugh so much, yikes!! So good to see your growth and awareness now

I am SO glad that you made this video! KZfaq recently recommended your previous vid about recovering from your ED and how you discovered Freelee/that way of eating, and it really made me a little sad. I went through something similar recovering from my own ED and fell hard into the orthorexia mindset. Thank you for sharing your journey and being such an encouragement!

Such a fun and yet informative video! ♥️

Hi Maddie Sometimes it's nice to look back to see how far we've come. We have been watching you since 2016. Hugs to you from across the ocean❤

I loved and needed this! You are a real inspiration today.

Maddie I love you for being this open and honest about this topic

I just wanna say, this is a really really important video for me and I'm sure others who are struggling/have struggled with eating disorders. I see soooooo much on KZfaq about how people have recovered or what I eat in a day videos after recovery but nothing that actually talks through problematic eating patterns/looking at old videos and identifying the problems. I know its probably triggering for some people but I find it really encouraging and its comforting to hear you talk so openly about it xxx

Watched this while eating tofu fried in coconut oil. Sooooo glad hclf isn't all over youtube anymore... and glad you recovered!

Only discovered you in 2019, but I went and watched your old food videos, and I love the way you approach food now in contrast to those videos ❣️💙💜💕!! You're an inspiration and a big reason why I eat more vegan food!!

Thank you so much for posting this. I used to watch you (over a year ago) when I started becoming vegan for health purposes. I immediately found WFPB, didn't see how horribly restrictive it was at the time, and it did awful things to my ED. I had to stop watching most of the vegan YTers I was following. I also had to stop being vegan in order to heal. It's a long journey. I'm not there yet, but I'm better than I was. So today I went looking at some of my old YT faves, and I found this video. The others seem to still be in diet/health mentality, but you are not, and I'm thrilled because I absolutely loved watching you. Thank you again! :)

I've been here on and off since back then. I've just resubscribed because I'm excited to see healthy relationship with food videos. I basically fear food and just want to eat well. X

The sugar 🤣 ah the Durianrider days 🙄🙄🙄

I love that you declared a trigger warning at the beginning of the video! More people should consider using them! Thank you! :)

I really liked this video, and you have really helped me to look at food in a more positive way. Would you consider doing a video about how you changed your mindset from seeing food as good/bad to just seeing food as food? It seems like such a simple thing, but it isn't!

Great video. Thanks for sharing, it really made me smile 😁

Thank you so much for this video! I have so much respect for you for not leaving those videos on your channel and for calling out your old disordered eating behaviours. I’ve been through a similar journey with an eating disorder, “recovering” from it, then spiralling into a WFPB strict oil free diet way of eating. Life is so much better cooking things with oil and actually eating them too!! Like I used to feel so jealous of my family eating shop bought biscuits or things I’d baked while I just snacked on fruit. I’m so much happier and feel so much better in myself now that I eat the biscuits and actually have a balance of all (vegan) foods. Also recently had proper pesto with oil not homemade oil and salt free stuff and it’s so much better. I stopped watching lots of youtube because I didn’t want to just watch what I eat in a day videos because theres just too much comparison there that I don’t think it’s ever healthy or helpful, but I’m starting to get back into your videos as you rarely post what I eat in a days anymore and I love your content. It’s nice to have someone to watch on KZfaq with a healthy relationship with food. ☺️

Excellent reaction video Madeleine and I didn't know you then and I wasn't vegan at the time and into viewing cooking and food video's on KZfaq. Madeleine has changed for the better since that time. This is an entertaining and informative video Madeleine.

Good that you can look at yourself with compassion, frankness and self love. Onward. Tuning in to your body every second is so key to well being. Blessings.

Im 28 years old and i have struggled with food since i started puberty at age 9. This video is so helpful. I would love to watch more on intuitive eating and how you have changed your midset around food x

Oh wow, I wasn’t a viewer of yours back in 2016, but I was right there with you on the freelee, HCLF, raw til 4, frying with water, misery bus. I love this video. It’s so important to normalise changing our viewpoint, and holding ourselves accountable. And you did that in such a kind, humorous way. You can see how you’re so much more in tune with yourself now. 😊

Your house in Cornwall was so pretty! I remember I first started watching your videos when you were living there. Loved the design. The flat you were in afterwards was cool too. This is an American obsessed with English homes.

Watching your old "what I eat in day" videos has actually made me really emotional. Having struggled with disordered eating myself, I can see so many similarities. It feels crazy thinking back to my past diets and realising the damage I was doing to myself (mentally and physically). I'm so happy that you're doing what's best for you 🤍 Thank you for such an important video.

Oh my god, this took me BACK! HCLF was such a wild ride, I used to be on the massive smoothie train and brown rice only, and it's crazy how relaxed I am now a days. Loved this - reminded me of how crazy KZfaq was in 2016 haha.

I just LOVED this video, you have such an amazing sense of humour and I can identify so much with your attitude and mindset regarding food (then and now) as I used to be the same! I am so grateful I have also come right especially as I am raising a little girl myself

This is such a brave and healthy video, thank yoooou

Omg I remember watching you when you just had a handful of followers and then proceeded to buy myself a blender and use like 8 bananas in my smoothies - my Mum thought I was mad! Look at how far you've come though 💗

OG subscriber here, I remember these videos! When I first went vegan, it was during the hclf era too, these meals are so similar to what I was eating in my early 20s. And I can totally empathize with feeling hungry but experiencing guilt about snacking because of volume of carbs I was eating at my meals. Lovely video as always Madeleine! Sending love from western Canada.

This was fun to watch! I hope you do more of these. Your erstwhile obsession with bananas reminds me of a diet a friend of mine was on. She was a big fan of Freelee the Banana Girl.

My eating has changed and developed for the better over the past 4 years and I can think back to some times that my eating habits were just horrendous. I’m so glad that I’ve learned how to listen to my body and eat in a healthy way. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone. Thanks for being one of the creators that has helped me learn along the way!

I think I started watching you in that time, well some video's at least. And I clearly remember your Boulimia ED story as well which I watched a few years ago. Just found your YT channel again, was curious how youre doing now when it comes to this. I found this vid, i know its some years ago already but im so so soooo glad to hear your relationship with food is better right now!! 🙏 ❤❤

I love the fact you have grown and learnt a lot in the past few years and now decided to share with others what and why went wrong there :D We really need to get rid of the diet culture mentality and stop assigning ourselves to all the different "diet camps" on social media - time we started to lead sustainable and healthy BUT non-restrictive lifestyles! Kindness is a big thing in veganism and we shall be kind to ourselves (and not make food rule our lives) as well! . Anyways, watching this was not only a lot of fun but also a great reminder about what really matters in food. Stay safe and have a wonderful rest of the week Madeleine!

You should do a video reacting to your 'no poo' days. I remember trying this after watching your videos and struggling 😅 now I look back and think, what's wrong with just using shampoo and having nice clean hair? 🤣

I needed this....thank you so so much

I definitely remember watching these videos back in the day! I was definitely inspired by hclf/wslf myself at the time but I could never fully commit so it was mostly just eating lots of rice and potatoes and frying my food in water. I would love to see you reacting to your Thailand trip videos, I remember all the people in Chiang Mai at the time just making videos of the loads of fruit they bought, haha.

Wow! I remember these days 😭😅 desserts of 5 bananas and 10 satsumas 🙄🥴🤔 eat the damn chocolate Laurel. To this day I’m surprised I have any teeth left, the amount of sugar I used to eat, even if it is ‘nAtuRAl’

I’m watching all these bananas whilst eating a bag of crisps 😂

I really appreciated this video

I struggle with finding good lunches to eat as well, it’s my least favorite meal too. I would love if you created a video based on different lunches. I’m currently swapping out unhealthy food choices for healthier ones and your videos have been a big help! Thank you and congrats on all the improvements you’ve made in your food journey!

I'm very proud of you for this content.

I loved this video! Didn't we all fall for the trap of 'healthy eating' back then. I totally recognize the replacing your eating disorder with other disordered eating, so happy I got out of that trat and allow myself to really eat whatever I (truly) want. By the way, what lipstick are you wearing? It's gorgeous!

I love this setting! :)

Wow I remember this!! I'm sure I found your channel because of this "eating raw food" thing which I got into back then. I remember in particular you cooking with water and putting frozen berries on your porridge and muesli, which I thought was strange haha. I have always enjoyed your videoes but I definitely prefer your newer ones, you and your channel have really evolved in a great way :)