"unfortunately, I dropped her head while the sealant was still wet and it caused irreversible damage" that almost sounds like it could've fit with the character honestly, since she imbodies melancholy.

You should do more expressive dolls like this, this is so beautiful 😍

She is so beautiful, I've never seen this method before & I think it's brilliant! The details are stunning & you can see her emotions in her eyes. I see heartbreak, sadness & disappointment in them. She had a heart of gold until someone broke her & ate her from the inside out & left her. I personally, don't think she needed her undergarments because it would've been more distressing. But I do like the transparent white mash cloth because it makes her seem she is a ghost to afraid to leave under her sheet to be hurt again. Overall, an excellent piece of art & I can't wait for the next video! :)

What a beauty! She really has that sadness in her eyes, the theme of melancholy is not a simple one but you made it look gorgeous. I'm glad that you have finished this doll despite the difficulties!

me: *sees there's a new video on etellan's channel* me: CLEAR MY SCHEDULE THIS IS ALL I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT FOR A WEEK! I seriously adore your doll repaints they're so haunting and beautiful there's just something completely unique about them.

I don't know why, but I got emotional while watching this. I love her art, maybe it was just the theme that got me sad? Keep pushing through etellan! Just stay you in these uncertain times

Wow you really nailed the “deep set depression of everything around you fading away” expression. It’s hauntingly beautiful

I love how the music and editing of the video reflects the melancholy of the doll. It gives me such a mellowed feeling of tragic reflection that fits her so perfectly, I started tearing up during the final shots. I would love to see more artistic dolls like this in the future and even your other art! (If you would be comfortable with that of course)

Billie Eyelash: *cries black tears* Melancholia: *cries in gold*

wow the eyes on this doll look so 3D, I can't remember ever seeing something else like it. absolutely incredible job on all the details, she looks amazing

Struggling to fall asleep and then I seen you uploaded and now i don't mind 😊

I love it when you go dark. There's just more emotion to it.❤ I especially love how you did her eyes. The sadness and resignation in them actually hurts.

Please know that your work is stunning. It holds my interest, yet it is calming to watch and listen to your process. I find myself looking thru your back log of posts and each creation seems filled with the love and emotion, as if they could almost come to life. Beautiful.

I love everything about this INCLUDING THE GOLD NIPPLES, YAAAAS

you are a true artist. the end of the video brought tears to my eyes. i can feel what she feels. i know that feeling. i know how it feels to be completely gutted, with your heart aching so much it feels like it's coming out of your chest for everyone to see. really, your work is incredible, beyond my ability to explain how much it means to me. but it really really really does mean so much. if only my words could convey to you how much it means to me. you consistently produce work that echoes my own heart. there may be other doll artists out there who are more technically talented, and nothing against them, they produce absolutely beautiful masterpieces. but i like to compare it to the band Nirvana. kurt was never any good at guitar, infact musically their entire band was average at best in their instrumental talents. but the emotion they put into their work was so palpable, it shone through, that gutteral scream in their hearts came through in their music. and it made them one of the best bands in the world. there is so much that goes into art, and while raw skill and ability is important (which you certainly have in spades), the emotions that it invokes is the entire point of art. and that's where you excel, far beyond any other customizer. i love the cutesy and sometimes even dark dolls from dollightful, and she may sometimes be more ambitious and technically skilled in her technique, and she makes beautiful beautiful work. but you're the only person who's made me cry over a doll. you, and you alone have that talent, as far as i can tell. your art is raw and real, and doesn't ever hold back. i can hear the gutteral screams, a la Nirvana, coming from your art and quiet voiceover. you have real talent, and i'm so glad to have found your channel. thank you for enriching my life.

oh man this is one of the most beautiful dolls i’ve ever seen

The eyes of this doll are absolutely enchanting. There's such depth without the use of false lashes or resin eyes. One of my favorite faceups for sure.

There's something about your dolls that is so magical and so ethereal... O just love them.

I feel so attached to this doll.... It brought me almost to tears.... I felt what she felt.... It's heartbreak... Disappointment... And the "used to it" giving up feel.... Wow such a piece of art

For a second, I thought this was a corpse bride inspired repaint. This is truly beautiful, and I hope to see more of it in the future! It's great to see how much you improve from repaint to repaint.

The doll is stunning; you are such a talented artist. The music and just your general vibe and style of editing just fits so well with the melancholy theme. I love seeing your sculpting and resin work and the resin application was just so satisfying to watch. The faceup is by far my favorite part of this doll. It is just so detailed and clean and has so much emotion in her expression. As soon as I saw the thumbnail, I immediately thought of kintsugi, which is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery so that the seams look like they are made of gold or silver. I think that fits so well with this theme of melancholy because even though she might be horribly sad and feel broken, there is still beauty in her and even one's scars can be beautiful.

I love the way you repaint your dolls, your style is amazing. Love seeing your work!!

Please post more of your work like this!? I swear I've watched this video about a dozen times. I absolutely adore all of your work and the emotional stories you have behind them inspire me so much. Don't ever stop being you!

Oh my goodness, she’s just hauntingly beautiful... I really hope that you do more expressive dolls like this in the future, you are so talented! 🥰💖

My god the amount of money I would pay for a doll made by you if I had the money. They're all so detailed and just. Amazing.

Your ability to make your dolls look realistic yet doll-like is amazing.

I can’t even describe how much I deeply appreciate you, as the artist, allowing us to connect and interact with emotions so obviously and extremely intimate to you. Viewing even a small preview of the creative process leading to your finished work, it’s clear to me that every detail, grand or minute, was not only deliberate and delicate, but significant. What this doll has invoked in me has made a clear impression and while this is only the first video of yours I’ve had the pleasure of watching, I’m happy to say it will most certainly not be the last. Thank you and I love your art.

I am having the hardest day so far of this whole quarantine thing... this doll depects my emotions so much today. It is refreshing to be able to see your emotions come to life through art. Thank you. She is beautiful.

This is really cool! I love her sad expression and the golden tears look really beautiful! The resin stomach is... wow. I love it?? Never saw it before and I love the koi pond one!

Saw the notification and clicked right away! I love your content so much! 💛

I was literally sobbing for most of the video. That doll actually made my heart break. It was really relatable in real life situations. Thankyou

I love how your work always feels dirty, but the good kind, like the damaged and used kind, it always looks beautiful and handmade. I just really love your style and art

The doll really represents most of what you feel rn, right? It's good that you have a very unique way to cope and express yourself through whatever is happening. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us, and i hope to see more of what you, a dollmaker, could express your feelings into the making of a doll.

As I'm watching this, I appreciate the very real-ness that this doll shows. I love all the work you do and I hope you have many wonderful moments and creations in the future, Etellan.

This doll is so beautiful....The emotion that is in the eyes, the sadness it creates...I cried. This is just the best doll I've ever seen...thank you for posting this

Wow! I can't decide which part of this doll is more perfect. The incredible body modifications, the amazing and full of life face or the unbelievable hairstyle.

I wasn't planning on crying anytime soon, but my dog is dying from cancer, and I've been internalising everything since the start of it all. It got to the point of me getting sick, worse headaches than usual, and my narcoleptic self to basically stay in a comatose state. While watching this, I broke down for a bit. I didn't know how much I needed it. She's beautiful, your doll. And your art is bloody fantastic!

She turned out to be so pretty! Something about your videos are so peaceful!

I love how gentle and very caring you are with the doll.

Absolutely beautiful 😍 the face is outstanding, the whole peice turned out gorgeous! Love the expression the most but you put a lot of love into your dolls an you can see it in your works. An I understand the feel of dread when a project falls, breaks or make a huge mistake ect. I sculpt, an one day after spending near an entire day of sculpting a *very* special sculpture for my Moms birthday. But when I had went out to eat my sisters cat knocked it to the floor squished an covered in glitter an hair. Wanted to cry but the second try actually turned out better that the first that I had been fighting with all day so I kinda was glad the cat did what I couldn't an that's was trying again. Still wanted to turn her into a hat though! 😅

I have to say, since originally watching this video about a year ago, this is hands down one of the best dolls I've ever seen. I've become vastly more invested in doll repaints in that time, discovered many new channels to binge, my appreciation for the hobby has grown, and am really happy KZfaq reminded me of this video today!

This art piece is so original. Most people would have probably used black hair, and it still wouldn't have come out as perfect as this. The face and the golden heart are just so perfect. I could write a whole story, just by looking into her face. This is the definitions of art. She looks so sad and broken. I subscribed after 30 seconds. It's just so perfect. I don't understand how people manage to make such impressive pieces of Art. Great job! Keep up the amazing work.

I am so emotionally vibing with this face-up. I feel like it looks like me.

ur such an inspiration for me - all ur creations look so poetic and magical ♡

I actually loved the green mess on her chest and the green tones of belly and bones before you painted them. It fit her skin tone and looked so dramatic

I don’t think I’ve ever loved a doll more in my entire life. I was born in October and I love halloween and spooky, paranormal movies, books, etc. This is so well made and it’s right up my alley! Definitely going to subscribe and binge your channel! ♥️

this is the first video of yours i've ever seen, and while i was watching the face up i just kept thinking "okay that looks AMAZING, there's no way they could do anything to make it better" and then you Just Kept Making it Better!!! seriously in awe of your skills, looks incredible.

I can feel the emotion behind this doll, and it is absolutely stunning. You have a unique way to demonstrate your art and I find it beautiful. Please do more dolls like that.

I can't even express with words how pretty the doll turned out

her videos calm me and relax me when nothing else can.

This is by far the most beautiful doll I’ve ever seen in my life

From hat I see I am not the only one that felt very emotional watching you create this beautiful doll it almost makes me want to cry from sadness she is beautiful

I agree you should do more expressive dolls. In a world where everyone chooses to ignore the emotional impact. We need this. You are an amazing artist

The way you add 3D texture to a relatively 2D surface always amazes me! When you were doing the eye lashes at first it boggled my mind how you had such smooth strokes over what looks like a ripply eye bag area, and then I remembered how smooth the mold actually is. Bravo!

Wow. You really captured the sadness in her eyes and I love the hair and black/gold tears. Reminds me of Billie Eilish’s video to when the party’s over. You’re very talented.

the way the dolls face looks almost makes it look like one of those japanese urban legend illustrations and it looks really unique!

I have never seen such a beautiful style, This dall is truly how I feel. I could cry!!!!!!

Not only is your artistry astounding, you are obviously a very intelligent woman. I enjoy listening to your videos just as much as watching the art! Keep up the terrific work 😊

She's beautiful. And so apt for our times - sometimes out of times of great pain, art is necessarily born. Thankyou for your lovely creation.

My gods, the level of detail and realism you gave this doll was astonishing to watch come together. I. LOVE. THIS. ART. FORM. So much respect for you and other creators like you :)

I wish I could like this more than once, you're ability to capture not just the expression but actual emotion is so amazing, seeing this doll really reminds me of how awful and despondent the beginning of this pandemic was for me, and it's a good reminder that things are actually a little better now.

This doll truly speaks to me, this is the first one ever. She's looks like I I've felt the last few months due to mental abuse at the hand of an ex and the hardship I've been going through. She's absolutely beautiful and she looks how I feel on the inside. Great work.

The reality of art is you have to actually have talent or abilities to use, to begin with, to learn from mistakes. Not intending to sound harsh. I love your work. Love watching you make your beauties. See, the fact is simple: If you have zero talent and zero abilities, there's nothing to learn from or build onto. Because...You literally have nothing! That's what I have...Nothing! And before anyone says you can learn... NO! No, you can NOT! I do not care what anyone claims. It can NOT be done. You already have to have talent or ability to start from.

When u finished up her body i was just like "same," but once you finished her face I was just crying. Her expression is one that I've seen too many times in the mirror but it gave me a real healthy cry session. Thank you for sharing your art work with us♡

The way you did her eyes is just beautiful beyond words.

He eyes are fantastic, so much dimension. She looks completely emotionally spent.

Wow so expressive. Trauma and loss are often described as "a hole in my chest" or "a gaping void in my stomach". Every Well done

The beauty but sadness in your doll speaks volumes. There are no words for how... Meaningful your doll is. I may be late here, but honestly. Your doll is beautiful and so meaningful to me and... Omg.. I honestly started to tear up just by the sight and work you do to this doll. I can't describe the feelings right now, but I can tell one word that reached me first. I thought of this as I watched your doll being created: I'm not alone. The feelings and thoughts you and many others go through and the sight of her. It just.. it speaks so much to me. Thank you. So, so much for creating that doll and through the community, it is... Wonderful. Your work speaks so much to me and your creation is just stunning.. thank you.

Your works are so full of life, so beautiful. It is always a treat to get to see your works. Melancholia is beautiful in its sadness and your interpretation shall stick with me. Thank you for sharing this doll with us!

Aww yeeeeee, time for my etellan fix

Been binge watching your videos today and I keep thinking to myself "this is my favorite one" in every vid then I get to this one and I'm like OH HELL YEAH NVM IT'S THIS ONEE you're so inspiring! I love this doll so much!! 💙

How come I’ve never heard of you before. You’re an amazing artist and I’ve immediately fallen in love with your work. Keep it up, you’re great:)

It’s breathtaking you froze an emotion in time. It’s like you put your soul into this creation

You have by far become my favourite custom doll artist at this point in time. As some folks pointed out already, there might be artists around that may be able to build more technically demanding dolls, but there's nobody who's dolls have me sobbing because they overwhelm me with emotion that hits so close to home, but yours. The face-ups you do are so special, it sometimes makes me feel like it's almost an intimate connection, a way for you to channel your own feelings that I as the viewer and appreciator of your art, can easily relate to because I have been ridden by sorrow and intricate emotions myself. But I don't wanna make it seem like there a just things more on the sad side of life I relate to, since your work is very inspiring at the same time and makes me very happy to just know I get to exist at the same point in time as your art (:

This is absolutely gorgeous. Love your work

This my first video of yours and I am subbing. May be because I feel *("EXACTLY")* like this from past few months and this connected with on whole new level. You're work reach out the people like us who are unable to express it and yet you can recreat exactly what we feel.

I like watching your videos when I’m looming because your voice is so calming and all the dolls you make are a piece of art

I really don't know what to feel when I see this doll, she's gives off so much emotion and none at the same time. Amazing work once again Etellan, hope you're doing well and are safe. ✨

I was diagnosed with melancholic depression recently so this doll video hit hard... love her btw, very intricate and beautiful

her art always feel so alive and real!

Surprised youtube hasnt demomonitized this, and rly happy about that, bc its so pretty uwu

this is the most beautiful and emotional doll ive ever seen. the expression is so well done, you can really feel it and it akl tells such a lovely story

This brings a whole new meaning to a heart of gold

She's hauntingly beautiful. The video was also really pleasant to watch, the music and the doll did make me feel the melancholy. You have such a unique style, I love your art!

i always love your dolls, but this truly is one of my favorite doll customs i've ever seen, period.... just something about it feels so compelling and so sad, everything from the body mods to the face up.... i love it so much!!!

your work is always so inspiring !

Holy canole, your creations are so amazing! I love the message this doll sends to the viewer!

Your videos and dolls are always a treat. Even more so in times like these 💗

All of your work is so stunning and ethereal. I look forward to seeing all your next projects!

The second I saw this doll, I thought “corpse bride” and now, two years later I can confidently say that she does indeed resemble Emily. Though, I would like to say your artwork is beautiful in its own way.

I absolutely love this! Its so sobering. I really love her and with the veil and final pictures I'm getting corpse bride vibes, if it was darker, more Brothers Grimm than Tim Burton. Beautiful

Wow just wow! This is my favorite doll custom I’ve ever seen! Absolutely nailed it. Beautiful.

You bring such a level of artistry to your customs, I'm so impressed and inspired

Right now I’m crafting I love to watch your videos while crafting

Concept, execution, and doll... This turned out amazing and inspiring!

Hauntingly lovely! Beautiful work!

This doll is so amazing! A piece of art to be sure.

Omg, I really like your style ! Your doll are gorgeous !

Incredible piece of art.

I love how every doll you make looks more beautiful than the last. Your artwork is amazing.