Hard to believe it’s been 3 months since Haley passed. Grief journey day 95. There comes a time in all of our lives that we realize all we have left of somebody we love is memories we have with them and a broken heart. When you take the time to sit down, stop all distractions, and look at God’s creation, those memories flood back in. When Haley got sick in 2015, we both knew that one day the cancer would ultimately claim Haley’s life. We didn’t know if that was within months, years, or longer. We decided to live each day the best we could and not focus on the future. Every day that she was sick we talked about the end. What would it be like, where would it happen, who would be there, what would the sounds be or the smells. We were always able to not worry about it because we focused on the present moment. But as I sat on the mountain top in Colorado without Haley and remembered all the great times we had; I couldn’t help but think “how did we get here?” It felt like yesterday we were playing with Weston at the park and now I am picking up the pieces of my new life without my soulmate. The last 16 years, especially the last 8 of her being sick, felt like we had eternity together and now I look back and I can’t believe how fast the time went. I wake up some days in complete disbelief that she is actually gone. For anyone struggling with grief and mental health, take the time to stop your busy schedule, find a good place in nature, sit down, and remember the good times. The times that blessed your soul with joy and happiness. Those moments will get you through. Live each present moment to the fullest. Don’t worry about tomorrow. God Bless!