I am sending you a big warm hug. I am a believer in talk therapy plus medication. I learned that the right professional can share wonderful techniques to heal and change the brain. I am so glad that you are talking about your challenges because all of your challenges are real and also painful. Decide that you deserve to be happy and search for someone to help you move in that direction. You are not fine, you are facing a very big challenge. I am rooting for you and I am going to begin my day, every day, holding you in my heart, with love.