Back here again huh? Yeah me too

Sometimes youtube do cool things, like recomnd me this thing, i love it

I can't believe I am just finding this now.....

RIP X

Was already a fan of your art Merkules, these lyrics just took it to another level. Anxiety sufferer myself so I can relate. Stompdown Killaz... Peace.

1:18 is the realest shit ive heard in a long time. describes how tough it can be to panic and the nasty circle of dismissal a lot of people experience trying to get help. i see a neuromuscular specialist regularly for parkinsons disease. ive had anxiety most of my life, pd makes it worse. i was chatting with my doctor and mentioned this song in passing - he, weirdly enough, asked to hear it. so im sitting at a neuromuscular center at 4 pm listening to merkules with my 50 year old ukranian neurologist, who confirmed that this is beautifully written, and in fact - goes quite hard. well done.

This is good, see... he’s not mumbling, and he’s speaking something that’s not so easy to explain.

2020 and still listening to this; it might just be me...

Depression and anxiety is no joke.. I feel every word you say my goosebumps never stopped until it was over. Everyday is a battle between wanting to die and being to scared to die who ever is suffering right now just know your not fucking alone.

who else gets goosebumps? 🙋‍♂️

4 years later this song will still give me chills the whole song this some real life shit this what makes you an artist

I’m leaving this comment in hopes someone likes it and I can get a notification on my phone in the coming years. This guy got me through some shit back in college. First song I ever heard from him. ENJOY!

Goosebumps is right. Merk speaks for a misrepresented generation

R.I.P Bro 1M 😔😔😔

2022 still bumping this, anyone else?

6 years ago and I come back often. Every word, everything said is relatable. This song is my medicine. Ladies and gentleman, you’re not alone. 🙏

****LYRICS**** Jocelyn Flores Remix (MERK) Caught in the attention, the darkest depression, lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits Is this all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, let me call the shots I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops, am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know 'till I get some. Bacardi and Coke, that's redrum Oh, you think I got it made, now, guess what? Look me in my face, motherfucker, I been fed up But you thought I looked happy...Huh, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that, though Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when there's something really wrong and you let it slip away This isn't just a part time thing, this is every single day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me it's okay, I'm goin' mental like a slave, and I can't ever get a say, and it's messin' with my brain They told me calm down, you need to breathe deeper Cole, it's just anxiety, you're not gonna die, can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, Ativan and Xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like.. "word" I think I heard of these, though 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun when I need those Every single night I'm in a cold sweat. Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet And then I'm overthinkin' every old text, and then I show up at the hospital, it's cold again They don't even take me serious, I've been goin' crazy, period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and y'all can't even see it, and it makes me furious But that's fine, though, y'all can keep your eyes closed then I'll consider takin' those pills that you gave me all at once, on the ride home The only reason that I won't, is for my girl and my family And my fans that'll hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me Yeah It's anxiety I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me I said it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me I look around and now it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me Yeah, it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me I've been feelin' down and now it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me It might just be me I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me It might just be me.. Add me on snap.. 'ajr123gmb'

GOOSEBUMPS EVEN ON THE 100TH TIME PLAYING BACK. DOPE SHYT.

crazy how 2017 was 3 years ago already, time goes man. Appreciate everyone around you, all love.

So sounds an angel with smoker lungs 🔥🔥🔥

I been listening for 2 years straight

Back 2 years later and this still hits hard. It helped me get through a real tough time in my life. I'm good now, drug free apart from weed, good Mrs, 3 beautiful step kids and a great life. Shit does get better bur you have to put the effort in to make them changes.

I hate when people say that I “just don’t want to get help” Na. I feel like I can’t be helped.

Anyone who sees this, I had anxiety myself, since pretty much my whole life. And now I'm feeling much better since a couple months. My biggest advice: take everything one day at the time. Don't listen to yourself when you overthink all those negative scenarios you're making up everyday. I know it's easier to say, but trust me. You'll become much more confident and you'll get there. Love

When you relate to every verse in a song.

I became a Merkules Fan because of this track

Will never stop bumping this, possibly my most relatable song. Much love

As a man with bipolar schizophrenia depression and anxiety the lyrics of this song speak to me on another level over any song I’ve ever heard.

*Stay strong brother, You're bars are deep and hard hitting. Loving this DOPE AF*

Everybody wants to go to heaven but are to scared to die

One of those days were you gotta listen to this on repeat a couple times

If youre reading this, you're loved and tomorrow the sun will shine.

This time I was faster than copyright

I got severe anxiety disorder and live with it daily and music like this really helps! I got goosebumps all over this track. So dope Merk keep ya head up boi and keep doing you, you the man big homie. Thanks for the music.

Anxiety is the real deal. It’s not just you remember that ❤ thanks for your music it helps me a lot !

just back here from 2017 .. daaamn almost 2024 ..

Haven't had a piece of music make me cry in years.. man I haven't cried in years. Thank you Merkules. Goosebumps

This is wonderful. All the words I can't spit out of how it feels to live with anxiety and depression. This is so comforting I play this when I start to stress and feel like people don't understand or judge or down play how bad this is. Thank u for being a voice for me and many others

2 of my favorite artist with one song ( fly high x ) MERK IS THE KING🕊🕊🙏🏽👑

That hits heavy when you can envision it in your own life

This is so under rated....

Damn son this went in deep, lovin it ! Benzo's and any benzodiazepine addiction is truly fucked up, especiaclly when you still need the medication to function properly as a normal fuckin' adult. Nice to see you bringing up anxiety- and panic disorders and all that comes with it, we in this together fam :D !

2024 check in how do i keep ending up back here

"Depression in my veins" Still hits me to the core.. Much love!

Flow, voice, love to the music. Just great rapper.

Love you Merk!

It’s already been 2 years. Rest in peace X. We all miss u... You were an inspiration to many of us....

2020 still one of the best!!

Man am i glad lyrical rap is coming back and us lyricists are getting out there, hella inspiring man keep it up

Got to appreciate a song that relates and helps people recover from what ever they're going through in life, Well Done Merkules.

1:29 I felt that with the look and the 'every artist that I know just does them for fun, when I need those'. I don't think those words could be said better.

This song... Goosebumps don't even begin to cover it, I felt like I was being punched in the chest, It's always nice when Artists can be open about real shit. Keep up the good work Merkules

Dam I’ve herd this song about 100 times today pure 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Lyrics: Caught in the sad trip, the dark is depressin', lost in the essence caused by the tension I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits, is it all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, lemme call it shots, I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops Am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop But I don't know til I get some, Bacardi and coke.. that's redrum, all you think I got it made now Guess what? Look me in my face.. motherfucker, I've been fed up But you thought I look happy.. Hhhm, holy fuck Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that dope Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane Like there's nothin' goin' on when it's something really wrong and you let it slip away, this isn't just a part time thing This is every singly day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me it's okay, I'm goin' mellow like a slave and I can't ever get a say and it's messin' with my brain They told me calm down, you need to breathe deeper, Cole, it's just anxiety you are not gonna die.. can I please teach 'ya? See, what I got here is pills, ativan and xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress So I'm like.. word I think I heard of these, tho 'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun when I need those, every single night I'm in the cold sweat Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet.. And then I'm overthinkin' every old text and then I show up at the hospital, it's cole again They don't even take me serious, I've been on the crazy period It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and 'ya all can't even see it and it makes me furious But that's fine, though.. y'all can keep your eyes closed and I consider takin' those pills that you gave all at ones on the ride home The only reason that I won't, it's for my girl and my family And my fans that are hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me Yeah It's anxiety I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else is there 'cause their life so carefree, I blame it on the world but now it might just be me I said it might just be me, I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me, I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me.. It might just be me, I take a look around and now it might just be me It might just be me, I take a look around and it might just be me I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out Everybody else is there 'cause their life so carefree, I blame it on the world but now it might just be me Yeah, it might just be me, I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me, I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me.. It might just be me, I take a look around and tho it might just be me, it might just be me..

fuck in a time like this. glad i found this. really speaks on the feelings most of us can’t talk about

Been listening to this at least twice a day since an hour after it dropped. Keeps my head straight

Im glad this video was on my recommended who else

Idk this guy but I clicked expecting fire. I’m not disappointed 🔥🔥🔥

Believe in yourselves and each other and never give up on your dreams and aspirations and remember to be kind and uplifting to each other and open minded and genuine and respectful and humble.

honestly as someone who has been depressed for a while and basically revovering I can just tell anyone who sufferes from it to keep going... since we all remember that one person we once where, we all want to be that happy person again. So trust me when i say that person isnt dead you just need to keep going and work on your issues everyone has people who care about them.

2019??? Anyone Edit: this is the most likes I ever had!!!

"Am i looking for attention hardly stop. But idk until i get some " never felt a merk bar as hard as that one

I love this song. It really helps my anxiety. Thank you for making this song. I suffer from high anxiety.

This helps me cope with my anxiety so much it let's me know I'm not alone in this

Deep af. This hit me hard man, my new favorite song 👌🔥

Anxiety is real thank you for this song . Thank you for explaining for me

5yrs later still banging❤

bro you voice is so smokey and smooth i love it so fukin much man merk u won a huge new fan much love homie

This is phenomenal. A Lyrical masterpiece. Stuck on repeat...

This guy!! Man I've been listening to him for years now!!!! I feel Merk! He's my dual flame!!!

As for me he is the most underrated MC

Damn merk a lot of your music has pulled me out of a dark place a few times... much love man no joke

Insanely dead point accuracey merk your unreal bro always take the words from me I relate too everything you say

Thank you, cole. You saved my life with this song back in 2017❤

I'm with others..wow..your flow is so smoooth..love your voice and your lyrics.. fire man fire..

I feel this more then most songs Merk. If it weren't for you, I might not be here. You're music lifts me just enough, to keep going.

That like to dislike ratio says it all. This is the first song or merks that I've heard and I gotta say it made a good first impression. Really glad I decided to check out some of his earlier tracks. He went from unknown to for me to one of my favorite artists. These lyrics just hit me straight in the heart. I have anxiety too (I think) but It feels stupid to tell my parents that. I've had heart attack scares and stroke scares. We've done all the testing possible to the heart and it's healthy and normal. But I still get those scares on a daily basis. It feels really good to have a song and artist to relate to. I've had Logic for some years but merks lyrics are more straight up and almost exactly like how I would describe how I'm feeling. Love this man and his work

2021 still bumping merk. Stomp Down till the day I die. Much love Cole.

Incredible. You capture the mood perfectly. I can't stop crying to this song.

I needed this in my life💔

This Remix still continues to heal me every time I hear it 4 years later.

This tune still gets me differently 2 years old and still feel it on a different level sick artist 💯

I've been listening to this song for years, it still hits just as hard every time.

Ive this remix sooooo many times and I still love it as if it was the first time i heard it❤❤❤

Thank you.. just thank you! 🙏

cant believe he takes theese personal lyrics and gives them to the world. thats true courage!

hes one of the most underrated rappers like ur the best i have ever blessed my ears with ur a miracle✨ Markus

Traveled from Halifax to PEI a week ago to see him and after meeting him as a person and knowing we relate on levels we didn't know really makes me respect him on a different level. You ain't alone and thanks for letting us know we arnt either. Your music is inspiring to the generation coming up. Really glad I got to meet you even if it was for a minute. Don't stop your music for anyoneill see you next time Goosebumps everytime

Please add this amazing song on spotify

Merkules is one of the top rappers today not just lyrical but the ability to tell a real story about addiction that can hit home to everyone .

Wow, listening to this again 3 years later when life has changed so much. This hits deeper than it used to.

Murkules I’ve listened to most of your albums and bro they’re on my most listened to at the moment. But I keep coming back to these video mixes to see your expressions. A facial expression shows so much more going into on. Love it! Respect 🇬🇧 👊🏻 you show real emotion when you rap it’s f***in’ amazing. If you ever come over the pond to England hit me up. I’ll be there

relatable for sure

Love you merkules . Especially this part of you. Keep getting stronger for us we are always united 💪 🙏

I usually come back to this song. Big respekt Merkules ❤

Thank you merkules for making a song I can relate too, thank you man. Much love❤️❤️❤️

"The only reason I wont is for my girl and my family for the fans who get goosebumps they understand me." Im cryin now lmao bro you went off. First time I ever heard your shit but I think you just got a new fan. Keep doin you bro

it feels like this was released yesterday xD I have listened on it since the release day. Merk is da king

Its been such a long road with you and your music. Got me threw some pre tough times G. Respect. Lone dawg for life.

damn, wish this was able to be on spotify so i can add it to my playlist....