I can feel the healing already. To other victims here, anger is normal and a healthy part of the process. Allow yourself to heal, and hell, even rage dance to this bop

This song will blow up. Even if it didn't mothica will someday eventually she works hard for her art and deserves the support.

*• Lyrics •* I'm a buzzkill... I'm a broken one. I'm a victim... Of the things you've done. I'm a phantom... Of who I thought I was. Ever since you. _(Ever since you)._ I don't talk about it. Unless I make a joke about it. That's just what you want? Huh? That's just what you want? Walking on the ceiling. Getting used to never feeling. You still having fun, huh? I don't trust no one. _I won't keep your secrets now._ _You can't keep my volume down._ *_I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high._* *_Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why._* *_And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie._* *_Ever since you. Ever since you._* *_Fucked up... Haven't made a sound._* *_Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud._* *_Better watch me... Burn this whole place down._* *_Ever since you. Ever since you._* Know what you did. Don't let it happen again. I pray for the kid. That calls you a friend. You pulled them right in. Told them their sins. Holy motherfucker. Do you have something to say? Cause this is the beginning. Of the price you're gonna pay. _I won't keep your secrets now._ _You can't keep my volume down._ *_I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high._* *_Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why._* *_And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie._* *_Ever since you. Ever since you._* *_Fucked up... Haven't made a sound._* *_Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud._* *_Better watch me... Burn this whole place down._* *_Ever since you. Ever since you._* _Ever since you. Ever since you._ *• End •*

She’s pissed off 🗡 🖤⛓ They know why. Set my alarm so excited

Even if you’re not able to get someone convicted, the feeling of finally being able to tell everyone “hey this is what HE did to me” and not caring who finds out is amazing and so healing. I like you showing the different sides of surviving a sexual assault. It’s not always sadness and depression sometimes it’s pure anger and hatred at that person for what they did.

I love the parallels of channeling your anger and emotions through art and violence

Randomly heard this on spotify honestly thought it was a mega hit. Am super surprised their music video has less than a million views. Swear this shit has to blow

She is such a powerful human being. She works so hard for her dreams and knows exactly she wants and how she wants it. She is so creative and she deserves to be huge but also want her to be our little secret.

I wish I could send this song back to my 14 year old self. This song is a cathartic healing experience. I've never heard a song that so perfectly captured the rage I felt after what happened. Thank you for making such powerful music, Mothica.

Found this song on Spotify and instantly loved it and the mv and artist is beautiful. Going to listen to more of her music 🥰

this song is going to help me heal so much. so many of her songs already have. if you happen to read this mothica, thank you. i cannot wait

every lyric of this song just Hits me. for so long I felt horrible for the anger i felt at my abuser, but I'm working on letting myself feel it without shame. this song is the voice of every abused kid finally fighting against every horrible thing their abuser taught them and i cant get enough of it

Even tho some people didn't believe me, this song helped me speak out and let everyone know what happened. I'm grateful for this song because I didn't feel alone even when everyone made me feel that way

This song hits me as an abuse survivor. Thank you Mothica💜

really digging this cultural wave of "callouts are over we're just flat-out killing our abusers irl now. 'oh buhhuh murder is illegal' don't get caught then. go get 'em champ!" like that sounds sarcastic but like unironically i love it and i hope it scares the shit out of these freaks

This song has made me feel so powerful. As a victim the rage and anger is powerful and this song always helps me so much. I feel one step further from those memories and one step closer to healing.

These two shots 1:42 right here is GENUIS because the in just those two shots you perfectly sum up this mv. It starts w you in battle armour showing it’s your words (your songs) that will allow you to win the fight, then a match cut to an artist which shows that your weapons are your art! Absolutely brilliant

I freaking love this song

dude i can’t wait for this

💋 RED HOUR ❤️

I cannot stop watching this

can we talk about how amazing mothica looks in this, and how fire the music video is thoooo

Two words.ICONIC and BADASS You absolute icon Mothica, keep doing what you're doing! Love you lots {Make moth emojis a thing!!}

here's a reminder that you dont have to forgive anyone or that forgiveness is part of healing i will never forgive them and this hasnt stopped me from truly healing, if anything the anger helped me push through everything

Mothica is such an underappreciated artist

"Getting used to never feeling." This. So relatable. Thank you for this great song!

Soup brought me here GG

Mothica is gonna blow up soon. I can feel it. She is hella talented and I absolutely love her voice and music!

1:42 reminds of BMTH Teardrops. BTW, I love this song, even if I'm normally more into metalcore, screamo, hardcore and punk.

another bop and we all know it

Mothica's got such a classical beauty

I found my favorite artist ever. Literally have had blue hour on repeat for 3 months, and now forever fifteen. Never vibed or been inspired by music quite the same. I feel it in my bones. Thank you Mothica. 💜

My daughter loves this song and was so happy to meet you at aftershock, wouldn’t stop talking about it back home

No one talks about how to leave the angry stage when you finally get there though. I’ve been stuck in this stage since they finally admitted what they did after years of gaslighting it like it never happened.. I fear I will be looking to shred them in my mind for the rest of my life and in a way, that means they’re still winning. What a cycle. A nightmare of a lifetime fearing touch from others due to some jerks isn’t fair at all.

I might need to use this... I might need to use this song for calling out the person who mentally broke me

Remember working one of their concerts. It was the warning, mothica, the Pretty Reckless, and Halestorm. They all killed it. One of my favorite concerts to see and work

Every single Mothica song speaks to a different part of my existence. It's almost spiritual to listen to her music. Like a lullaby from your mother. Mother Mothica taking over! 💕

This song came to me on Spotify and I’m so much better because of it , I wrote about my assault and I informed those involved that I would press charges if they ever move back anywhere near me and I wrote about my experience and I feel so much lighter in my soul.. it doesn’t hit you immediately every time it took me over 8 years to realize and remember my assault because I was date raped and I assumed since I knew my attacker it was consensual and now that most of that night came back I recall ,it was not and that made me terrified for weeks and sad and isolated from everyone I know and paranoid, it feels good to know you’re alone in wanting to talk about it. Thanks mothica xx

2:17 that shot give me chillllllllllllllllllls.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you.!

Been following you ever since you had 1100 followers on Spotify. Can't stop listening to your songs ever since.

from one survivor to another, love love love this song

Mothica this is absolutely amazing. the song, the visuals, all of it! I'm in love with this song forreal

It just keeps getting better and better. I'm grateful I get to watch this journey. Another Hit.

This song came on shuffle on my Spotify, I dont think ive added a song faster than this to my personal playlist

Woah!!! This is so underrated!!!!!!!

This song (just like all of your songs) is Incredible! It’s going round my head all day! Mothica you deserve so much! ❤️

I keep coming back to this song. So good!

Absolutely love this song, deserves way more attention. 🖤

Omg I love this song so much, I can't get it out of my head 💖

I absolutely love this. I hope it helps you to heal because this is beautiful 💜

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS and i am not disappointed xx

Absolutely love this song. I just found you and listened to all your songs but this is my favourite. This style really suits you. Keep evolving.

Found her through “forever fifteen” and now I’m listening to all her songs and omfg this is so good and powerful. Love how deep her music runs

This ladies, gentlemen, others including those who do not want to perceived. This, THIS. Is how Mothica. Thee, Mothica. Became incredibly famous, and I'm glad to be here to witness it.

Video after video. Keep em coming. All great.

My ears r blessed please that's my new fav song 😍

You're so inspiring omggggg, thank you so much for your music. Speaks volumes. Thank you so much ❤️❤️

Her music is so wonderful😍 And the videos are incredibly aesthetic

I haven’t connected with music for a long time until I heard yours. You are like this generations version of Lana Del Rey, and they need you. Keep this shit up girl. I’m rooting for you🖤

Wow!!! Its perfect. So grateful you do song and art. Its thoughts and words and colors and shapes that are assembled pleasantly.

Gielinor Games Gang represent lol

she’s my queen, i feel grateful for all your beautiful songs and the message you pass on in each one, it's a real satisfaction to listen to your music, my queen👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

i love this so much

This just FEELS like me...

i'm completely addicted to this song, i'm getting to know mothica now and i'm loving their music! she is so talented, deserves more knowledge

Can’t wait

I love your music so much it talks to me so much thank you for creating something so amazing!

Such a great job. I love you!!!!!!!

I feel Goddess Kali energy anger, Rebirth & rising like a Phoenix 🙏💜💜💜💜

So excited!!!

love this song

i stumbled upon this song because of a story im reading, and all i can feel right now is my fear turning into something great. i feel like this song is not something i can listen on the go, like i need to calm down in some place where i feel comfortable and let my demons become my allies :(( thank you for this song, mothica!!! this made my day ( and im crying but that's okay )

Discovered her with BmtH, but holy hell she’s talented

GG

Wow! Just WOW

The amount of emotion, pain and strength in each video is so damn impressive. You are seen, you are loved and you are valid @mothica.

Everything about her outfits is amazing. I need those earrings noww

It looks so cool! I’ve already listen to this song on repeat, I absolutely love it!

So in love with this and the concept behind it, it's honestly incredible

This is great! I’m so glad I found your music! Your sound is so unique and dark yet modern and catchy. Here’s to your continued success!

I can relate to this song so much it hurts, you said everything. 🙏🏻

I love the mix of calm and chaos it looks so perfect

Your my new favorite now and I really love this song 🤟😎🔥

THIS SONG IS SO FIRE OMG LOVE ALL YOUR SONGS SM!

Oooooooo I’m lovin all of your songs omg!!!

Such a beautiful way of saying so much with very little I love it

obsessed with this song

I am so in love with this, I can’t contain my excitement. This is my new song of the year.

me and my friend listen to your songs everyday. love u mothica ❤

Thank you SoupRs for introducing this banger of a song

I like her style!

I love this song

Omg I love this song!! So powerful!

I've already watched it 500 times and I think I'll watch it another 500 times. very cool shots, all those camera transitions and frame transitions are just fantastic, just like the song itself

And she does it again! This song is everything

This song deserves so much more love. I hope it goes viral❤️ Your emotions were portrayed perfectly.

I love her songs some hit so close to home I cry, don't stop making music please

This songs a masterpiece What a shame ive found it this late 💔

I love this.

thank you for you, and all your music and this song too. i feel like a buzzkill too. this song is catharsis. i love you