Some timestamps: 3:06 Multiculturalism, Syd's experience being half-black and half-white 8:40 Microaggression 11:38 Experience as a teenager growing up in a predominantly white community, self-hatred and racism 41:34 Fat acceptance 53:51 Impostor syndrome 58:16 Do people get what they deserve? 1:03:11 Autonomy, choices and outcomes 1:09:05 Relationships, fear of rejection and emotional fears 1:24:58 Emotional availability 1:26:50 Emotional unavailability 1:28:46 The weak, dependent black woman 1:31:25 Going meta (if you have trouble conveying your feelings, you can say 'Hey, I have trouble conveying my feelings'") 1:33:45 Impostor syndrome (again) 1:35:35 Impostor syndrome definition 1:40:50 Irrational thoughts/fears 1:43:00 Meditation 1:43:45 Aphantasia (the inability to voluntarily create mental images) 1:45:20 Nadi Shuddhi technique

*"I get to be weak today. I don't have to be strong everyday."* That part literally made me burst into tears. For someone who has been dealing with 5 mental illnesses for more than a decade now and has been on this self-heal self development journey for 7 years. That part was like a *hug* to me. To give compassion to myself. Validating those days when it's too much for me and I can't manage, so I have to succumb and accept that, yep this is not a day for my resilient self. And that's totally okay.

i relate to her so much on the constructive narrative piecing her reality together. being mixed race is a doozy, no full identity, always in the middle to two worlds, and isolating in the end. im adopted as well, so that adds another layer of isolation and loneliness to the mix. i think despite my background, she might be the first person i could relate to in life

Syd is always so smart and eloquent, I love her rants on her stream but this was such an excellent interview, went by so quickly

This was a really good conversation, about halfway through now and he just gotcha'd her with the accepting her negative feelings. So good

Lots of respect for Syd, she seems like such a great person!

She's probably the healthiest person he interviewed, so much that he even ask HER about something he struggles with (fat acceptance). It's amazing to see this level of emotional intelligence that she exudes, the ability to be introspective, the mental clarity and articulation that she has on her experience and feelings, the way that she's naturally contemplative and analyzes her own mental processes, and that inner confidence. She truly appears to be a healthy human. And I get the impression that Dr K also is surprised by her, the way he says he feels bad because he has nothing to say to her, it's like she can totally arrive to her own solutions by herself. I loved this interview.

Honestly, the bit where you decide that you don't deserve the good you got (accurate), and it's still ok to get it and to be grateful for it - that was a gem I didn't expect.

Great quotes I want to save: ~ 1:02:20 "Growth is stepping away from the things we used to believe... Giving up with what used to work... Let go of what got you there... " ~ 1:08:40 Proud of her for taking the risk instead of proud of her for having the success - "I had autonomy in the choices I made but no autonomy in the success"

Every stream is so fucking good I love this format so much

This has been one of my favourite episodes in a while, I just love how genuine and kind Syd is

i miss the timestamps

Now she is the kind of friend I want. Just sensible and down to earth.

She is so likeable

Personal Notes 1:05:27 - No matter what I'm gonna be okay 1:07:25 - What I judge/respect/value you for is not your success, it's for your choices 1:10:24 - I know not to take it personally - Dr K calls bs (talking about the scenario we are afraid of happening) 1:13:55 - Start 1:15:56 - "You're telling me your emotional fears, this has nothing to do with them" "If you stack the odds in your favor and they say yes, what happens to your insecurities" 1:20:42 - The confidence comes when you put yourself out there and give them a chance to reject you 1:31:51 - If you have trouble communicating your feelings or even if you don't know what you feel, you can just explicitly say that to your partner 1:35:30 - Imposter syndrome is when your external value skyrockets out of propotions to your internal value

Ah yes. For us non twitch folk KZfaq is the place.

An amazing interview as always and I really can relate to the multicultural view held by Sydeon and experience she had, this has proved extremely helpful!

Great point about what is the problem vs the solution. Definitely will consider this in therapy more.

Gotta love Syd! I wish her all the best :)

Great interview

As a woman who has grown up obese my whole life, I have noticed not being treated as well as smaller people and often being looked down upon because of my weight. That lead to a lot of unhealthy mental behaviors on my part and really set me back with confidence, my self image and all of that. This is where fat acceptance comes in for a lot of people. It helps people feel seen and like they aren’t the odd one out. It makes you realize that you are a beautiful, worthy human being even if others won’t treat you that way. But also I think it’s important because by accepting your weight where it’s at, imo, it one is a HUGE part of well one starting to love yourself but also starting to become more mentally and physically healthy. Also actually losing weight the RIGHT way (more later). Many times fat people are just told “lose weight” people don’t care what you do or how you do it, they just care that you get smaller (for the most part). Cause a lot of the times for people, skinny=healthy and not, eating nutritiously and moderate exercise= healthy. Which leads to so many disordered behaviors that get ingrained into people’s subconscious and passed down in families and everything. Or at least that’s been my experience. Of course, people should be eating nutritious foods with some fun stuff in moderation and getting a moderate amount of physical activity, which is what I’ve been doing and will always encourage others to do. Another point I love to say to people: Loving yourself and accepting yourself doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to change anything. Also changing behaviors or appearance or anything doesn’t negate your love for yourself , sometimes it’s actually necessary because of how much you love yourself. This may be rambly and confusing, if you have questions I’d love to clarify

this was a good interview

Omg... The part about what we deserve is so motivational. I've always had trouble taking risk because I value myself based on outcomes and thus tend to favor the most secure, stable options. The catch 22 is that I can't have a better outcome if I never take the risk in the first place. Thanks for the clarity... Life is short... The worst outcome is death which is coming for us all eventually anyways, so why not take the risk to improve my life while I have the chance?

Thanks for coming on syd!

I don't see chapters as usual :( ...is it because this is a new video?

it would be awesome if HG did a video on Aphantasia. I have it too, and I've only learned a bit about it on Reddit, but I would love to watch a Dr. K breakdown :)

Such a great interview. Syd, I wish all the best things for you and your family! You rock!

The earl swearshirt line hit hard My school is 90% white and Asian and I’m in the 1% of black kids

1:27:20 is the best thing dr. k has ever said on his stream. Really makes you reconsider how you work as a person.

Please add the topic links back to the video description

one of my favorite Dr K interviews yet! and as a biracial person myself living in an almost full white country, very relatable also!

Nice Earl Sweatshirt reference. Chum is a great track.

I think I have impostor syndrome because people treat me like I'm an actual human being with intrinsic value and human worth...... which is not how I feel. But I guess there's been a lot of improvement already, even though it's still not good. It just used to be way worse. Or actually, it's gotten worse because I've progressed. I put down my emotonal shield, which is identifying as an outcast an a weirdo who couldn't be understood and evaluates themselves with their own standards, and only relates to other weirdo outcasts. It got me through our equivalent of elementary and high school, but had to be let go as maladaptive and toxic. And so, despite all the good progress in attaining intrinsic sense of value, and kinda because of it, everything that's left of all the feelings of isolation, unworthiness, and alienation hits way harder. And I can't put that dismantled shield back up anymore, and don't want to. This was supposed to be a short comment but here I go rambling again :D:

Love the double writing implementation mannerisms. 🤣 .

It is so, SO smart of her to have gotten a useful degree before doing full-time streaming. Inspirational, really.

Growing up as a nerdy kid I can very much relate to not fitting in. One thing people fail to talk about is how the gaming culture brings a lot of different races and people all over the world together. I am happy she found her place on twitch.

When you skip to like a third just to see how good the convo gets and then you stay til the end

wow I'm glad I'm finally took the time to watch this interview! it's my favorite one so far! great mix of a light heartenedness but still really thought provoking 🙌

Need timestamps

When she talks about is expected to be "a strong independent woman," I totally can relate because as a Latina woman, the same is expected from me, or at least that is what I feel.

Imposter Syndrome episode!

Interesting. I’ve always been the “weird” one in every single group I’ve been for a lot of reasons I guess. And it’s nice to accept that maybe you won’t be part of any group because you’re not similar enough to any group :/ it can be tough. I struggle to make friends nowadays because I’ve been taught that I’m going to be alone because I look certain way although I’m not from that ethnicity or I’m too athletic to be a gamer but not too much for an athlete. I don’t have a lot of friends and I probably won’t have in a long time. But people like me have to accept that fact but not give up on socialization. It’s interesting to see her as somebody that feels similar to me. Have a nice day everyone and love yourselves

Thanks Dr.K and Syd!

From a mixed person: THANKS!

im confused why he mentioned the weight loss movement? it seemed kinda random

I didn’t know Syd listened to Earl Sweatshirt. Amazing.

AS dr. k talks about being proud of what you put effort in for vs what you got lucky with makes me think if it is fair to assume if everyone has the same capability to put in effort. While effort is something i appreciate more than ''being smart'' wouldn't it be unfair to say that only being samrt is a trait you can be born with rather than a combination of the ability to put in effort and level of smartness?

Syd is POG!

Time stamps?

1:29:00 I don't think what you are talking about is weakness. Showing how you feel, being vulnerable and honest even when it could cost you is actually being strong. Shying away from it is not weak either, it is just behaviour learned when we did not have any other choice

I LOVE HER

What could happen, so kids don’t hate their bodies in the future? I don’t think it is just bullying. Authentic community and seeing yourself in idols seems to be at the heart of it.

Never seen this fella before, will I be won over? We shall see!

I'm dark dark darkskin and I feel like an alien for how people view my skin color...

1:14:55 lol this moment is great. Dr.K in shambles

No sus or among us jokes from the title, really proud of this community lol

i'm not really sure why dr k even started talking about fat shaming when syd never brought it up yet asked for her "expertise"....

"whats the but gimme the but is there really no but?"

Learned behaviours to situation.

She seems like a nice person

She's cool!

I'm sure I'm not alone in this but I've been waiting for this to happen. As well a the crush I have on her but that's not important right now.

Dr. K clearly was using western terminology to relate to Syd when he said endomorph, ectomorph, misomorph. We know the terms he's more comfortable with is kapha, vata, and pitta.

Maybe it's just me, but if i broke up with someone and didn't really have a reason, my answer to "why?" would just be "i don't know" XD

1:02:24 "GROWTH is stepping away from the things that we used to believe."

Commentors are so good at counting dude

Another perspective to black/white “culture” as an American combines classism with race. People from outside the US automatically become unified front in identity like oh I’m Puerto Rican or I’m German etc. and almost ignore that in their homelands there is a system of class and race as well 🧐 but Americans who id as black/white seem to = race to culture which I find confusing because being white in different parts of the US and or black are different experiences but the narrative of class, education levels, etc. seem to be lumped together

First 3 seconds of seeing Syd made me happy lol.

Such a fresh breathe of air watching this, very authentic. Thank you!

Dam, that part about pivoting if things go wrong hit different. I never really consciously noticed it until this year, but I do tend to have a very fatalistic mindset in a lot of areas, particularly physical ones. I was born physically handicapped, so that's where it's coming from I'm sure but I never figured out how to change that (because speaking rationally, my handicap can't go away or be fixed) Well, that was a shift. Didn't expect fat acceptance :O As someone who WAS a very overweight kid (partly because I couldn't really do sports or gym class) I notice myself dancing around an answer like Syd here. On the one hand, I *want* to encourage everybody who is overweight and struggles with it to exercise because it's been one of the most positive success stories in my life (interestingly in spite of my physical fatalism) and I started feeling so much better after going down to somewhat regular weight for my height. On the other hand, I know that the mere notion that your body is wrong hits very hard (both when it comes to weight and handicaps, so double whammy, yay). My stance nowadays is to not support the movement of fat acceptance, but also to not bring up weight in any way if not asked. I'll be very (maybe overly lol) encouraging when some of my overweight friends tell me they have started or are thinking of starting to exercise.

One Love! Always forward, never ever backward!! ☀☀☀ 💚💛❤ 🙏🏿🙏🙏🏼

Mother stuff? She's a mom or just hangs out with her mom?

Really glad to see someone talking about multiculturalism. I'm black, white, and Korean, and I 100% identify with and experienced everything Syd's said.

She looks like Frey in Forespoken! Awesome interview.

I think "fat acceptance" is about accepting that you are fat and you have some feelings about it. (could be totally wrong tho). For many years i was ashamed of many things, one of them being my weight. I felt unacceptable and worthless because i believed that i was unattractive and unlovable, my weight being the first of the many reasons i felt this way. The only thing that has diminished that shame was recognizing im ashamed and actively choosing to stop allowing it to control me. People will reject and judge me and deluding myself into thinking i had any agency in anything but my own actions is what caused me the most pain. Whenever i think i shouldnt do something because i am for whatever reason "unacceptable", id like to choose to do it anyways. Id imagine fat acceptance is operating on a similar wavelength. "im fat and im not going to be controlled by the feelings or judgement of myself or others".

1:37:03

As biracial, this is relatable to me. I've also been tackling with my racial identity.

Eat raw beef/butter/milk/fat, and try fruit/fruit juice.

I really DISLIKE the new CLICKBAIT titles with caps in it

1:15:40 Continue

Its always impostor syndrome for streamers! The multiculturalism is not something brazilians know much about it, we just see how you look like and thats it.

Wow, I could tell Dr K was more casual in this conversation with Syd. I'm guessing it's because he felt they had good chemistry and she wouldn't take it personally, but some of the things he said or comments he made were quite loaded and a bit confrontational ("Don't feed me that BS" etc.). I don't know her well but I hope she didn't feel too attacked by the convo. I'm glad the last half seemed to really resonate with her though. BTW she's a GREAT speaker and articulated her multicultural experience super well. She seems like a great ambassador for Twitch and I hope she continues her success.

31:00 (personal timestamp)

Aphantasia gang?

These ads are ridiculous. Ad break every 5-10 min

How could someone possible dislike Syd...

this is nice ✨✨

Is it me or does Dr. k seem flustered? 😳

Dr K's dad bod

38:00

"People think black people sound a certain way cuz of movies" Bruh. Try riding around the Metro in LA for a day lol.

When he asked if you are single, the panik in her face lol. And the panik was she hasn't told her chat about it 🤣😂🤣😂

She's super pretty...for a human!

Yo Sydney is so cool of a person, she's awesome

Props to Syd for teaching Dr. K the basics of racism lmao

1:10:00

Fourth?

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I appreciated the fat shaming talk. Dr K previously made criticism of the fat acceptance movement which I disagreed with but here he seems to understand it better. People mistake it for just accepting obesity and unhealthy eating but thats not the case its more about promoting mental health in overweight people and removing the shame around it, which can help improve their health overall.

“If I had that experience, then other streamers probably had that experience too”. “I had nobody growing up I could relate to on this, my siblings had very different experiences than me”. My big problem is that it’s difficult for me to surmise whether her race-fixation was primarily introjected, or if her perceptions of racism are accurate. Either way, it sounds like a terrible burden to carry. I just can’t tell how much is an inner problem that becomes somewhat projected outwardly onto others vs how much is a societal problem-it seems likely to be some combination of the two. She seems much more comfortable with herself now, glad to see and to have this subject combed over.