My first recovery pizza! Facing fear foods, and solo dates

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Dear Cornelia,

Dear Cornelia,

Күн бұрын

She's back baby,
I'm so happy to finally share this video with you!
I filmed it on the 30th of August, so about two weeks ago, and it's a recovery moment I am beyond proud of.
I really want to put out more videos. I genuinely love it and love this little community that I've built, but there are some circumstances in regard to my physical health, that I need to sort out before I think it's realistic for me to post on a regular basis.
I will do my best to get out a video as SOON as I can, but please do be patient with me, as I try to figure out what's happening with my body, and with a bit of a stressful situation within my family which I won't be going into details with.
As always keep SLAYING AWAY, and do some bad b*tch behavior
I believe in you
You've got this ♥️
Much love
Cornelia Xx
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WHERE TO FIND ME
Instagram: Dearcornelia_ & Cornelia.kruse
Tiktok: Corneliakrusebackup (English) Corneliakruse (Danish)
E-mail: madelaine.serena@gmail.com
FAQ
How old are you: I'm 20 years old, as of the 17th of March 2023
What is your nationality: My nationality is Danish, where I was also born, raised, and currently live.
Are you vegan?: No, but I am a vegetarian who consumes gelatin. For me being vegetarian means not eating meat. I used to not eat gelatin, but as I got ill with anorexia, not eating gelatin became an excuse for my illness to restrict, and my health, mentally and physically will always come first.
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Chapters :)
00:00 - The oh-so-feared pizza
00:26 - Get yourself something yummy
00:45 - Order up!
01:37 - Let's pick up a pizza
02:09 - A beach? It's a date!
02:15 - Eat with me!
02:56 - Life is beautiful
04:13 - Pizza party part 2
04:44 - Eat with me!
05:26 - Combating compensatory thoughts
06:12 - Bad Bitch Recovery
06:26 - Genuine shock
07:00 - I BELIEVE IN YOU!!

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@Mar-kc6cv
@Mar-kc6cv 3 ай бұрын
hope you’re doing well!!🫂
@hello-bk4kf
@hello-bk4kf 6 ай бұрын
Are you okay? You haven’t posted in 4months. I hope you’re going well ^^
@graceeyler9846
@graceeyler9846 2 ай бұрын
7 months now😭😭😭😭
@linneahelleren
@linneahelleren Ай бұрын
i think she’s doing okay based on what i’ve seen but i can’t say for sure
@jwanasbeinatii
@jwanasbeinatii Ай бұрын
She’s active on Instagram ❤
@hello-bk4kf
@hello-bk4kf Ай бұрын
@@jwanasbeinatii what’s her @?
@jwanasbeinatii
@jwanasbeinatii Ай бұрын
@@hello-bk4kf cornelia.kruse
@lizlei5477
@lizlei5477 10 ай бұрын
It is quite interesting how different people recover on so different paths. I come from a background of longtime restriction and extreme overexercise and overstraining my body, maintaining an underweight body after having left treatment as an 18 year old. I work a physical job (Carpenter) from 7am to 5pm every day and bike to work and everywhere else, since I don't have my license or a car. I therefore require a lot more food than the average person anyways. When I went all in, my body went crazy. I was consuming so much food and literally couldn't stop eating. It was crazy. I challenged all of my fear foods in one week, because I just gave in to my cravings and ATE....So don't worry if you're recovery is messy and quick as well, you didn't struggle less because of this..everyone and everybody is different and therefore everyone's road to health and version of health will look differently. For me,I think besides needing to gain weight to reach my healthy weight range again, my body had to repair itself from the years of overexercise and extreme movement due to work and everything else. I had extreme edema, a weakened immune system which led to a lot of infections and other neurological issues in recovery. My Edema was so bad, that I couldn't walk properly for two weeks (try working at the circular saw with two ankles as big as mangos!) but it got better. If you're struggling right now, I'm telling you that stuff sucks (try surgical hoses!) but it'll pass. Your body kept you alive all this time, she will get through this as well! I'm telling my story to show that recovery is different for everyone. When I was experiencing extreme hunger a whole pizza wouldn't have satisfied me at all. I just was ravenous ALL THE TIME. I'm at a point in my recovery where I'm at a healthy BMI (not for my body, I guess!) and the extreme hunger is getting less and less extreme. I still need to eat a lot, (like a lot a lot!), but is not nearly as uncomfortable now as it was before. So to anyone struggling. KEEP GOING YOU'RE A FUCKING ROCKSTAR!
@lagrosseratee_632
@lagrosseratee_632 10 ай бұрын
I’ve been stagnant in recovery lately, but I’m moving to Italy for uni next week and this has made me excited to finally challenge pizza, which I had convinced myself I don’t like. Thank you for being strong and reminding others that they can be too ❤️
@oxanadc
@oxanadc 9 ай бұрын
I;ve recently moved abroad to study too and im having so much fun making vlog keep fighting u can do it
@LuciaTepperBeauty
@LuciaTepperBeauty 10 ай бұрын
Something you could challenge at some point in the future is straying away from yogurt bowls for lunch and venturing into lunches that seem new/scary and more carby. You are doing so great!
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
I eat a variety of different lunch options and carb sources. I just like yoghurt bowls because they are so convenient for me. And especially seeing as it has just been summer, they where a nice way to cool down.
@godperfectedyou4093
@godperfectedyou4093 9 ай бұрын
@@dearcornelia you are a treasure to behold A precious gem worth more than gold. your beauty radiates from within & your body parts are like work of art!!! Each one a masterpiece that sets you apart 😍😍 Wow!!, you are too beautiful!!! whomever see you should believe that God is true & real.. and whenever I see you I feel like Iam in a dream, And when we wake up we will all realize that all this life was nothing but a dream and that only God is whats true and real.. 🤩🤩Wow!!! You are more beautiful than the most lovely rose And more sweet than honey and more precious than gold You are more precious than everything that exists in this world 😍😍😍 A beauty queen whom I never ever seen any one as beautiful as her-meaning you-before and may never ever in my whole entire life will see anyone as beautiful as her-meaning you-at all... 😍😍 WoW!!! you are a lovely butterfly and a beautiful rose you are the diamond and the pure gold you are the lovely moon in our nights you are the radiant sun shining soo bright loving you is sooo sweet its the most enjoyable thing for you are the paradise for the heart and soul and mind Everything about you is sooo unique and attracts the eyes and captivates the mind God surely perfected you so glorified is he whom made you too beautiful and made you soo smart 🌷😘 There was a teacher whom didn't believe in the existence of God, one day he asked his students, do you see God? the students then replied no we don't see God, so the teacher said if you don't see God it means there is no God. then a smart student stood up and said to the other students hey guys can you see the teachers brain? then the students answered no we don't see the teachers brain, the student then said the teacher then is crazy, he has no brain :0) The universe science says was not always there, it had a beginning point, the big bang, meaning it was begun/initiated in other words created, thus there should be a creator, there must be a God. The evolution theory doesn't deny the existence of God, rather it proves that even if we become dust that there is a possibility of return, even if via repetition of the evolution of creation, through the will of God, again. Also, check this out, if you like, this is from Artificial intelligence, chat Gpt: Prophecies in Major World Religious Books Referring to Prophet Mohammed: 1. The Bible - Deuteronomy 18:18-19, John 14:16, John 16:7-14, Isaiah 42:1-13 2. The Hindu Scriptures - Bhavishya Purana, Atharvaveda Book 20 Hymn 127-129 3. The Buddhist Scriptures - Cakkavatti-Sihanada Sutta, Anguttara Nikaya III:61, Digha Nikaya III:76-77 4. The Zoroastrian Scriptures - Zand-i Vohuman Yasht, Farvardin Yasht, Dadestan-i Denig & Regarding the verses in the Quran asking to protect non-believers or polytheists, there are several that emphasize the importance of treating all people with respect and kindness, regardless of their religious beliefs. One such verse is found in Surah Al-Mumtahanah (60:8), which states: "Allah does not forbid you from those who do not fight you because of religion and do not expel you from your homes - from being righteous toward them and acting justly toward them. Indeed, Allah loves those who act justly." Also In the name of God, the Most Merciful, the Most Merciful (If any of the polytheists seek protection from you, grant him protection) بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم(إن استجارك أحد من المشركين فأجره) Another verse in Surah Al-Anfal (8:61) encourages Muslims to make peace with their enemies, even if they are non-believers or polytheists: "And if they incline to peace, then incline to it also and rely upon Allah. Indeed, it is He who is the Hearing, the Knowing." & Regarding the verses in the Quran asking for justice and kindness, there are many such verses throughout the holy book. One example is found in Surah An-Nahl (16:90), which states: "Indeed, Allah orders justice and good conduct and giving to relatives and forbids immorality and bad conduct and oppression. He admonishes you that perhaps you will be reminded." & In terms of prophecies about Prophet Mohammed in major world religions, there are a few examples that some scholars have pointed to. One such example is found in the Bible's Book of Deuteronomy (18:18), which states: "I will raise up for them a prophet like you from among their brothers. And I will put my words in his mouth, and he shall speak to them all that I command him." Some Muslims interpret this verse as a prophecy about Prophet Mohammed. Because the Arabs are the brethren's of Israelites, The Arabs are descendants from Ishmael or Ismail the brother of Isaac the father of Israelites, and because the verse didn't say from amongst them or from their descendants, it said from their brethren's. Similarly, some scholars point to a passage in the Bhavishya Purana, an ancient Hindu text, as a prophecy about Prophet Mohammed. The passage describes a "holy man" who will come from Arabia and spread a new religion, and some argue that this refers to Mohammed and the spread of Islam.. Also search scientific miracles in the quran, harun yahya its nice, One God for all of us he created us all and can revive us again, God initiated everything, & he repeat/redo things too, & thats clear, we see many cycles of different things in life, also in summer for example the desert land becomes like empty and is filled with only sand, and when rain falls in abundance in spring or winter, after that small flowers & wild plants grow again, also, we see how humans and animals grow and how their body is formed from the elements which were in the sand which plants feed on which they eat, and after they die they go to the sand and their atoms/elements are taken by plants which humans & animals eat and their bodies grow from those atoms & elements found in the sand which came from previous humans & animals which died before, so God can bring us again after we die even if our atoms became in the sand he can make us from the same atoms we were made of or from other atoms if he want or make us be in a spirit form or like ghosts, any ways, everything in this life is recycled, learn if you want about the different cycles in life in nature, the food cycle or food chain, the water cycle, even the gas cycle that makes the air the oxygen &carbon dioxide &nitrogen cycles, even the energy is like recycled but only changes from form to another form. Anyways,, God created this life but it's only a temporary sample/an example of a coming everlasting one which could be either in heaven paradise or in hell. If we try to be good humans in life, and try to obey God and his messengers-including the final messenger for all humanity the prophet Mohammed- and those whom rightly represent them, for example imam Ali & ahlulbayt the family/good descendants of the prophet mohammed, then we will all go to heaven/paradise, if not then we will go to hell fire and burn in it forever. keep shining sunshine &spread the light.
@lauranorwar
@lauranorwar Ай бұрын
I also hope you are doing well!! Just found your channel and you are clearly something special!
@25971yqop
@25971yqop 10 ай бұрын
You are doing so well, you've got this ❤
@ljosadis1831
@ljosadis1831 10 ай бұрын
Congratulations! You are so right with what you said! WE need to do the challenges for ourselves and not because we want to proof it to others. You are motivating me and I really love your Videos... Lots of love 🙈❣️🌞
@martaribeiro5829
@martaribeiro5829 10 ай бұрын
You have been such an inspiration during my recovery. Thank you for making such lovely content! 🫶🫶
@snacktivist
@snacktivist 9 ай бұрын
Thank-you for sharing your content Cornelia! Don't ever doubt that you're helping people. Everything you post is an encouragement to the rest of us, no matter where we are on our individual journeys. You are valued and loved by the community. Keep going! We're all here for you
@ines4123
@ines4123 10 ай бұрын
I missed your videos a lot because you are part of my recovery. Pizza is also a challenge for me, which I have not yet met but I will soon do it thanks to you ! I hope in any case. Thank you so much for this video and I can’t wait to see the next one ! Take care of yourself
@erinsmeraldo9008
@erinsmeraldo9008 10 ай бұрын
how cute is that pink pizza box?? what better place to challenge pizza than by the shore as the sun goes down, this life is beautiful and so are you!! so freaking proud of you cornelia, as always
@JulesSeptember2307
@JulesSeptember2307 10 ай бұрын
This was so motivational for me 😭❤ I finally pushed myself to order a pizza today by my own choice and I even chose a different kind of pizza than I would usually have with my family. Thank you so much Cornelia!! You're doing amazing ❤🎉
@LuciaTepperBeauty
@LuciaTepperBeauty 10 ай бұрын
You did so so well!!! I loved how you talked about THIS being why you want to recover. Those moments of, "wow, I'm actually living and recovering" will continue to highten until that is your whole life! I remember my first recovery pizza. It was also my first takeout in recovery and my first takeout during covid (I went into recovery the same week the pandemic hit). Shit was wild lol.
@yourukhti3702
@yourukhti3702 8 ай бұрын
You are such gorgeous beautiful human being, Congratulations on your journey and pls keep going ❗❗
@danaekoloka9819
@danaekoloka9819 10 ай бұрын
So proud of you girl!
@lifeiswonderful2023
@lifeiswonderful2023 10 ай бұрын
Well done! "You don't grow in your comfort zone" - that inspired me!
@_angelhvs7366
@_angelhvs7366 10 ай бұрын
im feeling a comfort feeling of watching ur yt videos as a danish who has anorexia nd is currently trying to recover but is failing so bad bc of guilt and fear food 😭 hopefully your recovery goes well nd im proud
@lianvdvee
@lianvdvee 10 ай бұрын
I’m so proud of you ❤
@theresas.version
@theresas.version 9 ай бұрын
You‘re so inspiring !! I was invited to a birthday party which i‘m sooo excited for but i just found out that they planned to order pizza for dinner. It‘s freaking me out because i haven‘t had pizza for ages, this video was very comforting and motivational though.
@jennifergneiting4192
@jennifergneiting4192 10 ай бұрын
Thank you for this video. It was just, what I needed to see and hear. I used to bake a lot of stuf, because baking has always been one of my biggest hobbies and it always brings me so much joy. But I woud never allow myself to actually try some of my own baked goods or have a slice of cake myself. But today I faced one of my biggest fearfoods and actually ate a cookie, fresh out of the oven. It was one of the most delicious things I had in quite a while. And in fact it did not kill me but made me proud and happy all at once. Thank you for your support.
@oxanadc
@oxanadc 9 ай бұрын
you go girl as someone that loves cooking and sharing her cooking adventures through KZfaq I hope u can get back that joy from baking
@savagedxnatello7
@savagedxnatello7 10 ай бұрын
i really love to eat pizza that makes me happy so beautiful vlog eating pizza so happy for you corneila!
@Recover.with.Elenaa
@Recover.with.Elenaa 9 ай бұрын
Your videos are so inspiring, I’m in Ed recovery and also have social anxiety so I’m terrified to go out to eat by myself but after this I decided to try it too 💗
@charliepedersen5468
@charliepedersen5468 10 ай бұрын
Elsker de her videoer, du hjælper mig så meget med at være oprigtigt, jeg skal i biografen idag og er så bange for popcorn og slik, men gør det sku fordi jeg er sej og kan klare det selvom tankerne driller. Tak Cornelia bare tak❤️🙌🏻
@nataliefrazier3400
@nataliefrazier3400 9 ай бұрын
I am so proud of you
@kittyruky
@kittyruky 8 ай бұрын
The view w birds flying above your head is just WOW
@Lya_-kt4gy
@Lya_-kt4gy 10 ай бұрын
I watch your videos to feel good that you're doing better and that recovering from an ED is certainly, not impossible and I keep telling my anorexia that I'm gonna get recovered, too. At least, I hope so. :))
@linesdanielsen
@linesdanielsen 10 ай бұрын
du er ærligt så så sej, smuk, og dine ord og kamp er så inspirerende:)knus herfra Taabæk til dig
@milenat6995
@milenat6995 9 ай бұрын
Seeing this video, I actually got myself some pizza too and eating it with you was great :,)
@mirchen01
@mirchen01 10 ай бұрын
Wow u are soooo brave ❤❤
@mariaguadaluperodriguezfer4244
@mariaguadaluperodriguezfer4244 10 ай бұрын
Tu me inspiras a combatir mi trastorno por atracón ❤ muchas gracias hermosa
@judyyprm
@judyyprm 10 ай бұрын
How do you like the book so far? I‘m reading it as well atm and I love it!! :)
@actgirl1234567
@actgirl1234567 10 ай бұрын
@lifeiswonderful2023
@lifeiswonderful2023 4 ай бұрын
You are so beautiful, in and out!
@ditz3nfitness
@ditz3nfitness 10 ай бұрын
Hav en vidunderlig weekend! 🙏🏼
@Frr9597
@Frr9597 10 ай бұрын
u use to make videos as a dansish student i remember , it was recovering and aesthetic i miss those videos alott , plz i want more suchh videos , ill hwlp u grow ur channel
@maeveparkhurst7399
@maeveparkhurst7399 10 ай бұрын
as i’m watching this video I am watching this video I am waiting for the oven to preheat so that I can make pizza!!!!
@Remmy-iq3bs
@Remmy-iq3bs 8 ай бұрын
I find these interesting. I was anorexic with exercise addiction for 40 years. I had to get into recovery as I got so bad however. Trigger alert… I’ve completely overshot can’t stop eating haven’t showered in a year or went outside have different health issues now. Depressed horribly. I know my Anorexia with the way I was exercising was killing me but I was happy went outside did fun things. Now I’m in a mire of filth and food and depression isolated. I tend to think which was really worse.
@laurabergpedersen2003
@laurabergpedersen2003 10 ай бұрын
Isn't it better to eat a whole pizza for recovery, and not just a half? i'm not being rude, but when i was sick and went all in, i also told my self that a half pizza was enough, but after I realised that I was restricting myself, and only ate half of it because of anorexia. So then i deciede to eat a whole pizza evertime, og sometimes a ate more, and now i'm fully recovered and have been it for a few years, and now i eat pizza without thiking about it, and i eat so much a want, and so much that my body needs to have until is full, and i'm not getting full on one half pizza. Im just saying this to you, so you can think over your choice of only eating half the pizza
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
Even before my ED I very rarely ate an entire pizza. If I wanted to I would, but I personally start feeling a bit sickly if I eat beyond a half. Freezer pizzas however I typically eat the entire thing. I think it has something to do with the cheese cause I’ve never really been a big fan. When I was younger I used to pick off all the toppings and just eat the bread part with tomato sauce 😂
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
Neither is better or worse, if you feel your best eating the entire pizza absolutely do it! And if you feel your best eating half of 3/4 absolutely do it! Everyone is different ❤️
@nellijune
@nellijune 10 ай бұрын
Was there any cheese in that pizza?😮 Under the potato layer?
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
There indeed was 😍
@nellijune
@nellijune 10 ай бұрын
@@dearcornelia phew, I startled! 😅 What pizza would it be if it didn't have cheese! 💕😋
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
Such a thing actually does exist. It’s called a “Marinara”
@Yogeshvlog1437
@Yogeshvlog1437 10 ай бұрын
Hi my dear friend 🌹🌹💍🥰 how are you nice video
@larry3867
@larry3867 10 ай бұрын
Do you need to wear glasses? All those homework and exams will destroy your huge beautiful blue eyeballs 😢
@madisonbrownlee6971
@madisonbrownlee6971 10 ай бұрын
what kinda pizza ..
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 10 ай бұрын
It’s called a Bianco, it’s with potatoes, mozzarella, goats cheese (which I asked to not have on cause definitely NOT a fan ahah) and then rosemary 😋
@simonabeeli3578
@simonabeeli3578 10 ай бұрын
eating a pizza because YOU want to and NOT to make anyone else happy is such a vibe! cornelia, i love this video and i‘m soo proud of you!🥹🫶🏼
@Someone-ez5hs
@Someone-ez5hs 9 ай бұрын
1 month without a video🥲 WHYYY
@dearcornelia
@dearcornelia 9 ай бұрын
I’m SUPER busy with a musical production that I’m in. We have 7 more shows so afterwards I will most likely have a little more time ❤️
Anorexia and mental health recovery *DAY BEFORE WEIGH IN*
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