my horrible highschool experience... my advice

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Penny Tovar

Penny Tovar

5 жыл бұрын

today i go #DEEP about my horrible highschool experience as well as mental health advice so you can have a nice experience :) this advice is also for anyone with mental health struggles.
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@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
how was/is highschool for you? for me, it was very lonely, isolating and horrible.
@roseangeliefigueroa6843
@roseangeliefigueroa6843 5 жыл бұрын
I'm a freshman...so far so good
@mystictopazart4207
@mystictopazart4207 5 жыл бұрын
I'm in middle school, and it's pretty good but my crush literally sits near or next to me in every class 😑😑😑 *awKwaRD*
@trash9954
@trash9954 5 жыл бұрын
I'm in middle school and I'm always alone and I push myself away from others and I do not know why
@alaaraad1936
@alaaraad1936 5 жыл бұрын
The best and worst period of my life
@joylyndsouza5966
@joylyndsouza5966 5 жыл бұрын
My best friend backstabed me and now she acts like a fake friend
@sofiaxcosmo894
@sofiaxcosmo894 5 жыл бұрын
*D E E P C O N D I T I O N E R* *D E E P E R T H O U G H T S*
@dior2628
@dior2628 5 жыл бұрын
LMAOOOOOO
@Kneec4ps
@Kneec4ps 5 жыл бұрын
*N O I C E*
@bric2889
@bric2889 5 жыл бұрын
Ya girl feels just like the past penny, thank you for the video i really needed ti hear that 💙
@curlyheadedbeyotch6568
@curlyheadedbeyotch6568 5 жыл бұрын
sofia X cosmo I read this right when she said it lol
@paintandletters
@paintandletters 5 жыл бұрын
Bruh I wish my coping mechanism was studying and getting a 4.0
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
lmao you can try a hobby! maybe sports, drawing, or music
@paintandletters
@paintandletters 5 жыл бұрын
Bahahaha when the video ends but the counseling continues. Thanks girl :)
@catertots9059
@catertots9059 5 жыл бұрын
Bwahaha right?! Ive been over here drinking and smoking weed like a dumbass
@skyxxteq
@skyxxteq 5 жыл бұрын
Ikr? I just sit and eat a bunch of food or read or do anything but study goddamn it 😂
@waterfallstargirl
@waterfallstargirl 5 жыл бұрын
CurlyPenny literally me ♥️♥️♥️ 3.7 tho
@tyvon3360
@tyvon3360 4 жыл бұрын
i love how youtube’s algorithm decided to put this video in everyone’s recommended’s right when school is about to start
@Nour-ou8xr
@Nour-ou8xr 4 жыл бұрын
tyvon360 ikr
@josie3757
@josie3757 4 жыл бұрын
Yes
@rebecca4379
@rebecca4379 4 жыл бұрын
exactly
@wompwomp6210
@wompwomp6210 4 жыл бұрын
tyvon360 school already started a month ago for me 💀
@sisterjimin-ahshalallifegu8211
@sisterjimin-ahshalallifegu8211 4 жыл бұрын
Ikr
@cjrodriguez22
@cjrodriguez22 5 жыл бұрын
"Your body is a vessel for your soul. It is not for other people's enjoyment, it is not for other people to approve of, it is not for other people to rate, it is not for other people." - Penny Tovar Love this. 💕
@inana1480
@inana1480 4 жыл бұрын
YES!! I was thinking about writing it it's such a beautiful sentence ❤️
@PomadaGaming
@PomadaGaming Жыл бұрын
Damn
@dylanaprice5717
@dylanaprice5717 Жыл бұрын
Beautiful words! 🙏🏻❤️
@magalymartinez2985
@magalymartinez2985 5 жыл бұрын
I don’t know what was more deep the conditioner or the thoughts...
@magalymartinez2985
@magalymartinez2985 5 жыл бұрын
So this is why I have been having good hair days cuz curly penny liked my comment ❤️
@magalymartinez2985
@magalymartinez2985 5 жыл бұрын
Shock in Spanish
@isisrose3669
@isisrose3669 5 жыл бұрын
“I would say HELL YES,Cause it’s a million dollars “ We love a smart d e e p conditioner
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
😤👏🏽
@Septembre1
@Septembre1 5 жыл бұрын
Isis Rose we love a smart queen
@michellekahlez2105
@michellekahlez2105 2 жыл бұрын
@@PennyTovar LmFAOO
@socks8
@socks8 5 жыл бұрын
normal youtubers: mukbang penny: deep conditioner deeper thoughts™ this is why i love u
@Gmxyz883
@Gmxyz883 2 жыл бұрын
Lol not everyone does mukbangs
@Bxrben_Dr1p
@Bxrben_Dr1p Жыл бұрын
what "normal youtubers" do mukbangs? 💀💀💀
@livinlife123
@livinlife123 Жыл бұрын
normal youtubers don't do mukbangs
@ankitasaxena6729
@ankitasaxena6729 5 жыл бұрын
I was bullied terribly in high school...but in college/ Uni I got my confidence back due to its positive atmosphere!!!
@ankitasaxena6729
@ankitasaxena6729 5 жыл бұрын
@@ashleyhenriquez8218 I wish u all the best for your future
@keiishine
@keiishine 4 жыл бұрын
College sounds like heaven 😭
@ankitasaxena6729
@ankitasaxena6729 4 жыл бұрын
@@keiishine I wish tremendous success for u in all your future endeavors !!!!
@micaelabaltussen5728
@micaelabaltussen5728 4 жыл бұрын
Jasmine Anthony me too!! I had such negative thoughts about myself and now that I’m in university I feel so liberated and have learned to love myself and not care (or care less) about the things other people think about me
@tianavstheworld
@tianavstheworld 4 жыл бұрын
Hopefully these next few years become more positive for me
@vic-iz2bs
@vic-iz2bs 5 жыл бұрын
“Your body is a vessel for your soul and not for nobody else to judge “ i love that. That’s quite is going on my wall
@Nataly-lk9yj
@Nataly-lk9yj 5 жыл бұрын
Toriyaaah I loved when she said that too
@waterfallstargirl
@waterfallstargirl 5 жыл бұрын
😯♥️👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
@BasicStuff95
@BasicStuff95 5 жыл бұрын
You should give a TED talk
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
sis this WAS a ted talk
@naledijacobs2250
@naledijacobs2250 3 жыл бұрын
@@PennyTovar I think he meant another oone
@allypb1884
@allypb1884 4 жыл бұрын
the person behind your class that sits alone at lunch, go talk to them, i swear it will make you feel and be a better person. You don’t need to be there friend but at least let them know theirs someone that thinks about them
@howisgamora_
@howisgamora_ 4 жыл бұрын
I did this for a girl in year 6 because I always felt I 'stole' her best friend from her , she and her best friend were really close until the girl who was the best friend became a part of my friendship group and we pretty much became best friends so I tried including her and looking out for etc whenever I could for about a year until it came to our last day (of primary school) and she told me I was always the nicest person to her when everyone else made her feel invisible and she would genuinely miss me - I didn't think what I was doing did anything at the time but I was so happy to hear that and to this day it's one of the best compliments I've received :) moral of the story: be friendly and make someone feel included , it might help them more than you think :)
@Jefferson-xi8tu
@Jefferson-xi8tu 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this message
@sarathewonderful7561
@sarathewonderful7561 4 жыл бұрын
thicc mamacita this is a must. wish someone did this to me in middle school
@martas277
@martas277 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much
@katherinek3618
@katherinek3618 4 жыл бұрын
How is gamora? But you shouldn’t do that on purpose to be or feel that “better person”. It’s like making points in the computer game so... Just do nice things
@danicarakic2270
@danicarakic2270 5 жыл бұрын
*"you only get one body sis - you better start loving it now!!"* _deep_
@cuzumakemyearfquake
@cuzumakemyearfquake 4 жыл бұрын
Yea especially when i don’t have the body type others girls my age have. I’m teaching myself to love myself tho. Trust me you’ll be much happier being u!
@cuzumakemyearfquake
@cuzumakemyearfquake 4 жыл бұрын
@Tommy gibstain That’s not my problem. I’m skinny and when I eat I don’t gain weight bc I have a fast metabolism...
@shelby7188
@shelby7188 4 жыл бұрын
Yeah I’ll start loving my body once there’s something to be proud of
@teehee5700
@teehee5700 4 жыл бұрын
Yeah. Self harm ruined my body haha
@jvvv7
@jvvv7 4 жыл бұрын
Cuz u make my earfquake same and it’s annoying because everyone calls me anorexic and crap
@kannauss
@kannauss 5 жыл бұрын
anybody else thinks she looks like alessia cara and sounds like a mixture between cardi/alessia?
@strawberrybanana3885
@strawberrybanana3885 4 жыл бұрын
Omg yess
@tammat705
@tammat705 4 жыл бұрын
I AGREEEE
@sara_sara5928
@sara_sara5928 4 жыл бұрын
Girl yesssss
@TheRoyalDynasty
@TheRoyalDynasty 3 жыл бұрын
I most definitely can see this.
@unnathipai4590
@unnathipai4590 3 жыл бұрын
yess
@sh00kshister59
@sh00kshister59 5 жыл бұрын
Traumatized in spanish*
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
it honestly be like that
@map2001luvskitties
@map2001luvskitties 5 жыл бұрын
FAT mood
@victoria-fo7tx
@victoria-fo7tx 5 жыл бұрын
SH00K SHISTER *stop running in my lobby*
@siggiesmalls2358
@siggiesmalls2358 5 жыл бұрын
Hey Mr. Mosely!
@lexip396able
@lexip396able 4 жыл бұрын
Yo, this is freaky. You took me back to a very dark time in my life, incredibly dark, I was straight up evil, and broken. God is so faithful to pull us out of the pit. I'm alive because He is 🙌🏽
@aliyah4719
@aliyah4719 4 жыл бұрын
Amen 🙏🏽
@floresliz2596
@floresliz2596 4 жыл бұрын
Amen ❤️
@welikelethabo
@welikelethabo 3 жыл бұрын
I love your profile picture
@AWholeLottaLola
@AWholeLottaLola 2 жыл бұрын
_that’s right. Amen_
@Colin12475
@Colin12475 Жыл бұрын
God's dead.
@ah-bm7jk
@ah-bm7jk 4 жыл бұрын
High-school makes me feel claustrophobic.
@heyitskate7747
@heyitskate7747 4 жыл бұрын
Whizzer Browns Going Down same
@JayWCleaning
@JayWCleaning 4 жыл бұрын
Same
@tresapaul4530
@tresapaul4530 4 жыл бұрын
Yeah..
@freddy213
@freddy213 3 жыл бұрын
Same.
@cocosam8175
@cocosam8175 3 жыл бұрын
I cant breathe
@oxterna149
@oxterna149 5 жыл бұрын
And I'm complaining about to much homework
@Mel-ck6tr
@Mel-ck6tr 5 жыл бұрын
obviously u don’t have enough. It’s “too” *
@sophiacruz9990
@sophiacruz9990 5 жыл бұрын
Specified • yo same
@samicifuentez7682
@samicifuentez7682 5 жыл бұрын
Mel ! You*
@mouthbreather9435
@mouthbreather9435 5 жыл бұрын
Mel ! Yo leave her/him alone🙄
@b__mart
@b__mart 4 жыл бұрын
I’m so glad that someone else has actually been through the same thing that I did, and not just saying oH I hAvE nO fRiEnDs to be relatable. I also had no one to sit with or talk to or text at ALL and I used to go home everyday for lunch or go to the library. I felt it when you said it’s so painfully lonley. It really is. I always wanted to hang out with someone but I literally had no one to do so, and it sucks when people assume you have friends like “what do you usually do with your friends?” Or “why don’t you text a friend about it”. That’s how I spent all of grade 8 and my freshman year, I’m going into grade 10 now and I’m hoping it will be different.
@mariambinbraik3261
@mariambinbraik3261 4 жыл бұрын
emily I’m happy for you and I hope you feel good 💖.
@tanyafullerton8168
@tanyafullerton8168 4 жыл бұрын
I hang out with my friends, just sometimes I have a hard time relating to their personalities because I’m introverted and they are all extroverted.
@esther9210
@esther9210 4 жыл бұрын
And it hurts when u see ppl with friends😭but really try talking to other people you won’t regret it once u make amazing friends :)
@sarathewonderful7561
@sarathewonderful7561 4 жыл бұрын
emily grade 8 was so bad i had a few suicide attempts
@carlijn7385
@carlijn7385 4 жыл бұрын
God I'm going through the exact same thing :( I don't know how to talk to people I'm so insecure
@JulianSteve
@JulianSteve 3 жыл бұрын
Middle and high school were the worst years of my life. This woman speaking facts! Your best years are in college or if you do not go to college, your adult life will be better than in a school setting. I know some people may disagree, but majority of the people in the comments have it rough too like me😪💯
@user-ze3no2cm7z
@user-ze3no2cm7z Жыл бұрын
My late middle school years and my early high school years 💀 i was already skipping school sooo much. And because I didn’t go to school I didn’t stay caught up, and because I didn’t stay caught up I didn’t get the best grades, i didn’t have friends, i have social anxiety so I was too scared to talk to anybody about anything. Man, I’ve just started the new school year and I am already done. I try too and my mom doesn’t understand what I’m going through which makes it hard because it’s caused some fights. Sorry… this is like two years later and I am just ranting to you about my own problems 😑
@JulianSteve
@JulianSteve Жыл бұрын
@@user-ze3no2cm7z It’s totally fine, Skye. I talked about my experiences with male friendships recently in a video, so seeing your comment is crazy to me. By the way, the video came out a month ago and I talked about middle school/high school friendships with boys (plus more)😭💯
@mylene_b
@mylene_b 7 ай бұрын
Same ❤
@LithuniumSnowx
@LithuniumSnowx 5 жыл бұрын
I wish I could say I didn’t but I COMPLETELY relate to everything you said.. I didn’t have a single friend, I put my mom and my sister through hell (which they didn’t deserve) to the point where they felt unsafe in their own house.. self harm, being beat up at school constantly, I struggled with gender, aaaand then I dropped out of high school. and because of all the dumb shit I still to this day feel like I don’t belong anywhere. I might have a massive community/crowd around me that appreciate me and look up to me, I have good friends, I have my family, but still I just feel like an outcast, like I don’t belong, If that makes sense. Either way, I’ve come a long way and I’m 1000% happier but the shit did leave a lasting impact and I can’t wait to some day get completely over that. Cos I will Some day, I know I will heh. AnYWAYS I need to shut the fuck up, ILY and I love your t-shirt lol
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
Love you Lithunium! I know it can be hard, but never give up on yourself
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
and yaasssssss i love loz im playing botw right now it's amazing
@graceg4993
@graceg4993 5 жыл бұрын
Lithunium Snow I completely understand your struggles and I'm really proud of you for getting this far ♡
@sofiaxcosmo894
@sofiaxcosmo894 5 жыл бұрын
What?!?! omg two of my faves btw I loved ur recent wig transformation 😤😤
@sofiaxcosmo894
@sofiaxcosmo894 5 жыл бұрын
@@JJ-ec9lp ugh same and wHY DO I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE
@h2000sjaxkson
@h2000sjaxkson 5 жыл бұрын
My mom always said , it's better to have just one friend that will always be honest with you then 20 that will stab your back . And just be yourself 💖 and not everyone has to like you and u don't have to care if they don't .
@Nicole-wj1th
@Nicole-wj1th 5 жыл бұрын
Dwight K. Shrute yup mom told me that too and its so true like i would rather have one best friend that i can trust
@Weenadawg
@Weenadawg 4 жыл бұрын
That "friends with popular people" thing really resonated with me,, idk why I'm so scared of reaching out to the "popular kids" even when I know that they aren't that different from me...😭
@NikeNikolli
@NikeNikolli 4 жыл бұрын
Seriously.. popular kids or whatever are nothing. Theres nothing to be afraid of. Yes some people including me, used to get kinda nervous when we were abt to talk to them but pft its nothing srsly. Hope the best for your new school year💕
@beandlunt
@beandlunt 4 жыл бұрын
my middle school was horrible. i had suffered through severe social anxiety. i had it since elementary but had friends from kindergarten. in middle school all my friends made new friends. they would say, “you can be friend with both of us!” but no..i couldn’t. it’s easy for, and at the beginning me and my friends talked and agreed “i’m not gonna make friends” and maybe they were joking. but i wasn’t. i had no friends. i hated it. i cried everyday. a good day, was a bad day, just..better.
@sambadi608
@sambadi608 5 жыл бұрын
We love a counsellor galllll
@chrissyh
@chrissyh 5 жыл бұрын
AM I LATE OR DID SHE JUST CHANGE HER CHANNEL NAME FROM CURLYPENNY TO PENNY TOVAR?? 💔
@HM-xe3mq
@HM-xe3mq 5 жыл бұрын
we finally learnt penny's last name :0
@user-sq5tu1xf9s
@user-sq5tu1xf9s 5 жыл бұрын
Omg nooo
@graciebennett12
@graciebennett12 5 жыл бұрын
I just noticed yesterday!
@sydneyjaden359
@sydneyjaden359 5 жыл бұрын
She’s had a lot going on, probably making some changes for herself
@socks8
@socks8 5 жыл бұрын
she actually made a community post abt this! she just feels like theres more to her channel than just hair
@forenziepulse8619
@forenziepulse8619 7 ай бұрын
I’m 17 now in senior year still sitting alone at lunch. I feel like I’ve just gotten numb to being lonely and not having anyone to talk to. I feel like the only thing keeping me sane is going to the gym and working on myself even though I hate everything about me. But what hit me the most in this video is when she talked about wishing to just be like other people being “normal”
@MajoraMidna
@MajoraMidna 4 жыл бұрын
I completely understand wym. In high school I was an extreme loner. I would always let my anxiety/depressive thoughts hold me back from living my life happily. I did have a small group of friends but even then we seldom spent time outside of school. I utterly felt like I was part of nothing and the only thing I could do was focus on my grades like you said. As for my family, I was also really nasty towards them. I'm glad though that I could heal as well and move on from that point. College is a bit of a different story and I still struggle but I'm staying optimistic :)
@heavensway-ken.1226
@heavensway-ken.1226 2 жыл бұрын
Hey Hannah. I have a question for you. Did you grow up with a FATHER? if yes how was it like. Looking forward to your answer.
@plxtoz1899
@plxtoz1899 2 жыл бұрын
@@heavensway-ken.1226 I’m sorry this isn’t my question but what does that have to do with this lol
@adeliazulaikhaazmi
@adeliazulaikhaazmi 2 жыл бұрын
I'm currently in an exact situation that you've described above, any advice?
@metalrockstarizer89
@metalrockstarizer89 2 жыл бұрын
@@adeliazulaikhaazmi I got some advice for you: Don’t waste time on social media (that’s literally the root cause that causes all these mental disorders nowadays) Focus on your studies. Focus on yourself Surround yourself with people that like you and care for you the way you are Don’t push out positive people from your life only to just let negative people in Embrace your insecurities and weaknesses. Don’t try to be popular or cool. Be you.
@thanosbutididntkillloki5373
@thanosbutididntkillloki5373 Жыл бұрын
@@metalrockstarizer89 What if there aren't any people like me
@keana1057
@keana1057 5 жыл бұрын
Advice to freshman: Make as many friends as you can and stick with a positive attitude. It only benefits you later because if you don’t youll have a higher chance of feeling alone and it’s hard to bring grades up once they’re already down. *the key is stay ahead while you can* :)
@neko_doll5122
@neko_doll5122 5 жыл бұрын
1GirlOnFire1 well, I was the type of person that rarely fit in. and I'd rather make real friends instead of a lot of fake ones. sorry but this isn't great advice
@keana1057
@keana1057 5 жыл бұрын
Madelyne I’m not saying make “fake friends” I’m just saying put yourself out there and go for it. As an introverted person I regret not doing that and I really don’t have any friends because of it. In your freshman year is where everyone begins meeting eachother so it’s important to not become reclusive and expect everyone to try and be your friend when you just sit in the background, that’s all I’m saying :)
@amariahxo450
@amariahxo450 5 жыл бұрын
i had a lot of friends freshman year and lol i don’t have many now , they all moved or we fell out badly.
@spiralingshapes
@spiralingshapes 5 жыл бұрын
kinda hard to come out your comfort zone when u have really bad anxiety and get panic attacks quite often
@keana1057
@keana1057 5 жыл бұрын
yutasoftbot yeah I know, that’s how I am
@gabyRAWRS
@gabyRAWRS 5 жыл бұрын
My experience in high school was hell. completely hell ! The fact that I was in a abusive relationship for all 4 years made me hate myself for who I was I always felt wrong for doing what I did. I felt like I didnt fit in because I was either too quiet, not popular, not smart, or not fun to be around . For the some what of friends I did have I pushed away. I was always bullied by the mean girls because I didnt dress up because I ddint have what they did. Till finally senior year is what topped it for me . I got pregnant senior year by my abusive boyfriend. my mom found out and completely shut me out and told me I wasnt her daughter anymore my real dad wasnt in the picture and my step dad was completely disappointed with me . At the time and became the high school joke . Everyone made fun of me for being that girl who got pregnant in high school for being the dumb one to stay in a abusive relationship. I ran away and never spoke to my family was homeless bouncing from house to house. never went to the doctors to check how my child was doing. I hated everyone and my self let alone bring a child into this ass of a world. I had become so depressed during my pregnancy I tried killing myself 2 times. I hated who I had become what I've done and why I was even alive to see another day if I was such a disappointment. Until I had a eye opening experience. EMT sent me to the hospital after a emergency with self harm. That's where it ended i was done and I heard it . I got to hear my child heart beat and forgot about everything my pain my suffering.. everything was gone . My heart filled with joy and never have I loved myself more then I do now after that freak accident. I told my self Everyone was wrong that I was going to show them they were wrong I took my ass back to high school graduated in 3 weeks of being back got my diploma and walked the stage . I started college at acc in austin and got a great job with a tech company because of my college career path. My child came out healthy and is about to be 1 years old in a couple of days . I ended up fixing my relationship with my step dad and till this day he supports me and my son unconditionally he was there for me in the hospital when no one else was saw me walk the stage and do everything on my own. My mom never came back into my life but I still love her . In the end I turned out to be my best so trust !!! Everything does get better !!!!
@winter-wb7cf
@winter-wb7cf 5 жыл бұрын
Gaby Terrazas that’s amazing that you’ve come this far! I don’t know you but I’m proud and inspired. I wish you the best of luck in life and your relationships!
@comfyspoon39
@comfyspoon39 5 жыл бұрын
Omg I just literally cried while reading this. I wish you and your child the best
@jessicawold
@jessicawold 5 жыл бұрын
im so proud of you!!
@willandaa7263
@willandaa7263 5 жыл бұрын
Yessss girl im so proud!!!!!💖💖 keep it up your doing great love💙
@gabyRAWRS
@gabyRAWRS 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you all of you!
@melissamartins9745
@melissamartins9745 5 жыл бұрын
my senior quote is gonna be "dont treat me like a infant brainless platypus @5:09"
@kaylalovestosleep
@kaylalovestosleep 4 жыл бұрын
i'm gonna use this next year 🤣😂
@emanuel5944
@emanuel5944 3 жыл бұрын
Ima use this quote this year since I graduate highschool this year lol
@Jadie0073
@Jadie0073 4 жыл бұрын
I’ve always had trouble making friends and talking to people. I’m just the type of person to be really quiet around people I don’t know. In middle school I had a group of friends. I had to go to a different high school then them. But we got into a fight and no one would talk to me. I am a junior now and I’ve been sitting in the bathroom stall during lunch ever since the beginning of freshman year. I have just gotten used to it. I Used to cry a lot and I still do. I’ve just never really gotten over it. I’ve never put in effort to make friends. I’m just too shy and boring. I don’t Know how to start a conversation or keep it going. I’ve just been trying to get through high school. And honestly I don’t want friends. I Realized that through my whole life all they ever do is leave me. At the same time I feel like I ruined my whole life.
@leya3333
@leya3333 3 жыл бұрын
It’s not ur fault, you need to know ur worth and not let any one tell u different. Sis I’m in the exact same boat as u n the only thing we can do is pray for each other because it will get better ;)
@Elif-rz9zm
@Elif-rz9zm 2 жыл бұрын
i really hope you are doing better and i relate to you SO MUCH that you have no idea. because i feel the exact same :(
@jovary9681
@jovary9681 2 жыл бұрын
I feel lyou’re pain I’m going through the same thing
@althea9909
@althea9909 2 жыл бұрын
Wow the part about being shy and boring hits hard because that's what I am and honestly it's tough because i started sophomore year in new school.. no friends.
@vixi5787
@vixi5787 2 жыл бұрын
@@althea9909 same im not in a new school but i don’t have lunch with any of my friends and i’m scared of losing them so i never feel happy in the morning before school
@leo3396
@leo3396 5 жыл бұрын
I sent this to my daughter who is 15. I really loved this video. You are inspiring and you have a great perspective on life.
@Fiasquo
@Fiasquo 5 жыл бұрын
I felt almost exactly like this.but in middle school.i felt soooo alone. I had no one to sit with at lunch no one to partner up with. Heck I would sit in the bathroom at lunch beacuse I did not want to be be seen alone by all the other “cool/popular” kids.i was super insecure about my looks that I would not even look at someone in the eye for more than 5 seconds beacuse I was afraid that they would notice my features. I felt everyday would get worse and I always ask myself what is wrong with me? Why does no one like me? What do I have go through this? Honestly when I would see all of my so called friends hanging out and have fun I would feel so sad and defeated. Almost every night I would go home and cry at night. During school sometimes I would tear up a bit but I would not let it slip.i would always smile when someone would talk to me beacuse I did not want them to now I was sad and think something was up.literaly the smallest things like a friend I have not seen for a while smiled at me would make my day.thank you penny for sharing this. It makes me feel better that other people had gone through the exact same thing as me. Anyway thanks for listening to my ted talk. X
@onceuponadango361
@onceuponadango361 5 жыл бұрын
Same i went through this till middle school to the point where my dad would get angry and ask me if I need to see a doctor because i was just sad n gloomy all the time.
@luray_mua6890
@luray_mua6890 5 жыл бұрын
How old are you now and did it ever get better cause I’m having the same experience just I’m in my 2nd year of high school
@alexandram.6712
@alexandram.6712 5 жыл бұрын
I was really lonely in middle school too. I'd sit in class where everyone is talking to everyone else and I'd be quiet at my desk pretending to do work. I'd sit at the lunch table and none of my friends would talk to me. Then I went to a different table of friends. And they didn't talk to me either. It was really hard to not start crying. I spent those 2 years jumping around friend groups trying to find out where I belong. It's my 3rd year in high school now and I've finally found a group of great and dependable friends.
@annettegomez979
@annettegomez979 5 жыл бұрын
I would be friends with all of you guys 😭
@thevoid3976
@thevoid3976 5 жыл бұрын
This was me in in year 7 and 8, holy shit. I'm going into year 10 now (summer holidays), and I think I'm getting better. Baby steps guys, take it at a realistic pace, and *try* to stay optimistic.
@fancatlgyop
@fancatlgyop 4 жыл бұрын
This girl is absolutely stunning omfg
@faithh6307
@faithh6307 4 жыл бұрын
Best advice : don’t let anybody take advantage of you and walk all over you , and DONT I repeat DONT TELL ANYBODY YOUR SECRETS
@estisochorcova977
@estisochorcova977 3 жыл бұрын
I'm in a place where i would like my secrets to get out to just something happen in my life. it's a really toxic mindset but I'm not in a good place right now
@iamnothere6759
@iamnothere6759 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much
@Dear_Lea
@Dear_Lea Жыл бұрын
Lol, told someone my secrets and it’s the worse decision I’ve ever made in my life. Yeah, it’s better to be along than be friends with someone who will backstab you in the end. Sometimes people truly won’t change.
@gravesilk322
@gravesilk322 Жыл бұрын
Yeah too late I told my friends my darkest secrets and turns out they suck so
@faithh6307
@faithh6307 Жыл бұрын
@@gravesilk322 it’s okay , learn to take the lesson and move on ❤️
@innocent-child9320
@innocent-child9320 5 жыл бұрын
Penny is so right. College is hella better than high school. It's cool that she shared her advice. Popularity doesn't mean shit !
@LinababyLyrics
@LinababyLyrics 5 жыл бұрын
high school was TERRIBLE. academically i was doing fine but socially i was extremely depressed and was constantly picked on for the dumbest stuff (my race, my loud af personality). it got to the point where i just stopped talking all together and just kept to myself and my 2 friends (who i wouldn't trade for that huge group of friends you see at lunch). it wasnt until college where i found who i really was and found people who brought the best out of me, who support me, and want nothing but success for me. i can also confirm that *it does get better* ❤️
@mvryjose2449
@mvryjose2449 5 жыл бұрын
Gurl. GURL. I’m on the verge of tears .because. YES.
@sophiacruz9990
@sophiacruz9990 5 жыл бұрын
Maryjoe Aguillon same
@SaturnCrashing
@SaturnCrashing 3 жыл бұрын
yep.. junior/senior year got real lonely
@user-cp1rz7ns9y
@user-cp1rz7ns9y 5 жыл бұрын
other people: i have no friends **cries non-existent tears** me: *spots them laughing with friends* penny: *explaining* me: **actually crying**
@MiChiSe
@MiChiSe 3 жыл бұрын
Bro everyone hates me in school
@trahadbad
@trahadbad 2 жыл бұрын
@@MiChiSe same and i didn’t even do anything to anyone. nobody wants to sit with me ever
@althea9909
@althea9909 2 жыл бұрын
@@trahadbad that's the reason I avoid eating lunch in school and then devour the whole fridge after I get home.
@fovos7359
@fovos7359 2 жыл бұрын
@@MiChiSe 😭😭😭 No me. Everyone hates me even the air
@cierraroberts5777
@cierraroberts5777 5 жыл бұрын
About a week ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression and lately my life has been horrible my family life is a huge reason for how I am feeling and after I watched this video it made me realize that after I graduate high school I can move on and start over and this really really helped me I’m so proud of you for all that you have overcome I know how it feels and I’m just hoping I can do what you did thank you so much❤️
@hannasaunders8461
@hannasaunders8461 5 жыл бұрын
Cierra Roberts get well soon! im so sorry if ur life sucks right now, but you’re right! it will get better! keep going, i believe in you! ❤️
@cierraroberts5777
@cierraroberts5777 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Hanna Saunders
@whattodo8078
@whattodo8078 5 жыл бұрын
I have been through it Life does get better Everything in the life happens for a reason and people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime
@23AnaMarquez
@23AnaMarquez 5 жыл бұрын
I can promise right here on this comment section it will get better, this is just a small part of your life it will pass, so concentrate in being the best version of yourself to have a better life, the life you deserve 💕
@alyssamarie5515
@alyssamarie5515 5 жыл бұрын
I'm so happy that you still have the Zelda shirt ♥️
@iocallisto69
@iocallisto69 Ай бұрын
Love the shirt too lol.
@wtfisupkyle60
@wtfisupkyle60 4 жыл бұрын
When she said “Your body is a vessel for your soul” I felt that 😔
@dory1489
@dory1489 4 жыл бұрын
Me too, I almost started crying (I have body dysmorphia and am currently recovering from it)
@teehee5700
@teehee5700 4 жыл бұрын
ɢᴏᴏɢʟᴇ ᴋᴏʀᴇᴀ'ꜱ ᴘᴏᴡᴇʀ ᴄᴏᴜᴘʟᴇ good luck sister! Really hope you feel amazing after your journey!!!!
@dory1489
@dory1489 4 жыл бұрын
@@teehee5700 Thanks ❤
@cert1fiedoffender
@cert1fiedoffender 2 жыл бұрын
Because of covid, I wasn’t able to make strong connections with people during zoom classes, therefore none of them were considered friends. I started sophomore year three days ago except I moved schools. Everyone in school already knows each other. I don’t. I felt so bad about myself because no one came up and talked to me. I tried to make small convos with others, but none of them seemed that interested. I cried for 4 hrs in my room after the first day of school. I had to straight up lie and tell my parents that the first day was good :/. So yeah. I really wish I was able to go in person my freshman year. But again, it wasn’t an option. F in chat
@pigeonkakaww4666
@pigeonkakaww4666 2 жыл бұрын
Im crying right now for the same reasons lol
@myetha9665
@myetha9665 2 жыл бұрын
I’m a sophomore too and although I go to the same school , I feel like I don’t know them anymore and if I get along with them I’m not a friend that’s priority yk. It’s ok. We are in this together
@Benzyl_Penoxide
@Benzyl_Penoxide 2 жыл бұрын
I feel the exact same way. Well, tmrw is my first day of school (sophomore) I’m going to try to keep an open mind. By the way, if you ever need somebody to talk to I’m here
@bleh662
@bleh662 2 жыл бұрын
I’m a junior and this happened to me today :/ and I’m at a new school yoo
@althea9909
@althea9909 2 жыл бұрын
Wow that's literally me. Online classes all through freshamn year... no friends. Started sophomore year 3 days ago in new school and every new kid that joined already befriended the whole class while I'm here pretending to be busy in my phone and feeling like crap because no one seems to be really interested in talking with me. I don't know what to do because 3 more years of HS and I already feel lonely af
@g6nesis
@g6nesis 5 жыл бұрын
1:02 I BE SEEIN THAT ˢˡᶦᵖ
@izanai3790
@izanai3790 2 жыл бұрын
this was actually really inspiring. to be honest I'm just waiting for high school to end and I'm REALLY hopeful for college, like actually praying
@ai4456
@ai4456 2 жыл бұрын
sameee gl!
@haninebouchra3343
@haninebouchra3343 Жыл бұрын
Same
@livinlife123
@livinlife123 Жыл бұрын
i still have three years left :(
@Lia_03x
@Lia_03x 4 жыл бұрын
I can kinda relate to your story. When I was a kid, I always had friends and people to talk to. Freshmen year was okay, because I had my friends. But I started to notice that I didn’t really could relate anymore. And that’s ok because sometimes people grow apart. Sophomore year was terrible. I decided to stay a little away from those “friends” because I felt they didn’t like me anymore. I was too scared to find new ones. I felt I was not good enough and stupid and that nobody wanted to be my friend. That year was pretty lonely. I sometimes sat with one of my old friends during lunch, but it was weird for me. I isolated myself and started hating myself. Now I’m in junior year, and I try to focus on my schoolwork. I still hate myself but I try not to. I sit alone and distract myself by KZfaq, Reddit and reading books. It’s sad that the library isn’t open during the lunch break, because now everyone will see me sitting alone and judging me. I try to say to myself that I don’t need friends and that it’s fun by myself. It works sometimes. Most of the time not. This year I’m trying to stop hating myself, so I can be happy. It isn’t really working yet, but I will get there, I hope. In the meantime I’m not making any friends irl, because I’m afraid of people. I never say anything in school. Okay that was a pretty long story. Loved the video m. Thanks a lot. I cried multiple times. ❤️ have a nice day everybody
@stevie6072
@stevie6072 4 жыл бұрын
Omg girl be out there make new friends atleast try. Like she said find you peps you’ll find someone!
@ninastojanovic5792
@ninastojanovic5792 4 жыл бұрын
Hey you wanna be internet buddies?
@Lia_03x
@Lia_03x 4 жыл бұрын
Nina Stojanovic yeah sure
@stevie6072
@stevie6072 4 жыл бұрын
Nina Stojanovic I wanna be friendssss
@stevie6072
@stevie6072 4 жыл бұрын
Nina Stojanovic add me on snap : Stevie.hubbard
@chloexoxo4546
@chloexoxo4546 5 жыл бұрын
I literally relate to sitting alone in the library and dedicating your life to studying is literally me at the moment
@jed629
@jed629 Жыл бұрын
And now ?
@kayxola5625
@kayxola5625 5 жыл бұрын
Praying 4 your cousin RIP angel 💜
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
@israkhattab1890
@israkhattab1890 5 жыл бұрын
Tell us about your job as a nurse
@m1r1am
@m1r1am 2 жыл бұрын
I am in Highschool right now and all I can say, it’s horrible. It all started with a rumor which wasn’t true at all now everyone in school including the teachers hate me, I try to make friends but instead they just push me down the stairs… I just can’t wait to go to college and make this all stop, recess is the WORST
@Sien03
@Sien03 2 жыл бұрын
Forget about them past is past focus more on studies you can do it
@Maddie-je8ji
@Maddie-je8ji 2 жыл бұрын
Bestie it's the same for me too
@Sien03
@Sien03 2 жыл бұрын
@@Maddie-je8ji i hope you okay
@JustinW06
@JustinW06 Жыл бұрын
I've been down that road with lying rumors when I was in high school smh.
@mirenherrero2881
@mirenherrero2881 5 жыл бұрын
Kinda late to watch this video, but I just came across it and I literally cried. I am a sophmore in HS, and I am recovering from depression, and have had history of self-harm, anxiety, and severe selfhate. I literally listen to your story, and I think its literally me. I cried so much because I actually have so similar stories. I had an abusive boyfriend, when I was recovering and in treatment for depression, that took me to various suicide attempts. I also come from an incredibly amazing family, I have both of my parents and brother living with me and they are so suportive. I had no friends because I just cut them off, and as ironic as it sounds, my only source of confidence or support was and has been a teacher. I am so inspired by your story and I really felt identified. I love you so much and I really apreciate you sharing. Thank you so much x
@maksimlozanoski
@maksimlozanoski 4 жыл бұрын
Hope you are doing ok but listen. When I get sad or depressed sometimes I just think to myself why would I be sad. There is a whole universe out there with different types of intellectual life and landscapes and Im over here worrying about dumb shit. To tell you the truth we dont matter and nothing matters. We are just a grain of sand in the infinite universe. So there is no reason to be sad. Be happy 😀💪🤗
@ssfrandsen6774
@ssfrandsen6774 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you for mentioning the fact that your brain is still developing when you're in your teens. If it helps anyone else to know this, your brain isn't finished cooking until your mid 20s, it's a biological fact. So it's no wonder your brain can make you feel like shit when you're in a high-tension, judge-y environment like high school. I was depressed for about a third of my high school experience and looking back, I wish I had known more about why I felt the way I did. At the time, I couldn't understand that it was a temporary problem. I was lucky because my brain sorted itself out eventually.
@rebeccaoprea9917
@rebeccaoprea9917 5 жыл бұрын
Søs Frandsen don’t forget about the hormones. Live and learn . Young and dumb , older and wiser .
@guitarcrazy7962
@guitarcrazy7962 5 жыл бұрын
I’m 14 and this is 100% relatable, I have only just started making friends again after about three years and I am beginning to come out of this negative cycle. I also had depression, anxiety and eating disorders. There was nothing I would necessarily recommend, as therapy and anxiety/depression groups never worked for me, however (this is gonna sound so weird) vitamins really helped me to become happier. I take one/two drops of CBD oil in the morning and evening, as well as B-vitamin supplements (in the morning) and L-tryptophan at night. Please try this honestly and remember, you are loved xxxxxx
@seraphina453
@seraphina453 2 жыл бұрын
I hope ur doing good! Its been 3 years lol
@Manageplayer
@Manageplayer Жыл бұрын
Hey how are you doing now? Everything alright
@Bxrben_Dr1p
@Bxrben_Dr1p Жыл бұрын
lmao this persson is 2 years older than me if they were 14 3 years ago
@Mel-ck6tr
@Mel-ck6tr 5 жыл бұрын
*“Like in high school they treat you like a infant brainless platypus” yes that will be senior quote.*
@khushbooahuja8049
@khushbooahuja8049 4 жыл бұрын
I had alot of worst moments in my school life.when I was in 10th class.I used to be silent,simple girl with two ponytails,I only reply when someone talk to me that's it.most of my classmates were my coachingmates as well.Once in my coaching a boy(classmate) accidentally threw a jug of water on me.i don't think it was accidentally (he said cooler se current laga isliye girgaya) one of my friend which was my best friend in past not at that time was laughing at me and saying (you bathed) hahaha.. She said everyone in the school abt this everyone was laughing at me no one was with my side I didn't share this incident with anyone not even my parents Then after that many more incidents happened Like… 3 of my classmates punctured my cycle tyre.there was no cycle mechanic on my way that's why I had to drive with the punctured tyres That's why I started to stay alone in my school and coaching In coaching there was we 9 students only 3 girls (me included) and 6 boys.I used to go on time in coaching always. Once I went early 5 boys were present teacher didn't come yet… I went and sit on sofa(we used to sit there) they started using abusive language (not directly saying to me ) but indirectly they mean that the used b**bs and making fun of mensuration etc and finally teacher came. I got relief then I started to go late on coaching. But sometimes this incident happened with me ( when teacher was late) Once in school one of my friend clean her inked hands with my back. My uniform was spoiled. And It was mid session of school (it was secondary school also my school was ending ) my parents refused me to buy new uniform My parents asked Who Did This.I said My friend my father complained in my school abt that next day.and on that I silently cried in prayer I don't know why.I was hurt. one of my teacher saw me and asked what happened I said nothing… My teacher told this to my father ( when he went to complain)…I was more hurt to know that my father knew I cried… My father asked me why I cried. I lied that I didn't cried my friend was crying teacher thought its me . once again everyone laughed at me bcoz of my uniform And many more incidents happened can't share all. I already wrote too much
@SaturnCrashing
@SaturnCrashing 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing this. Realize that at least, you are stronger than me by opening up to your experiences and sharing it.. including sharing it to the many others who had similar experiences from just nasty immature people who should one day look back at the things they did and hopefully regret it dearly. But you are not alone.
@dee78xx90
@dee78xx90 2 жыл бұрын
Hi you must have graduated from school now right? Are u in college now? The others treated me differently too..but I went to a girls only school
@4everhope1
@4everhope1 5 жыл бұрын
SIS this is me, I'd literally save homework for lunch so I could have something to do in the library
@unaroberts3382
@unaroberts3382 5 жыл бұрын
Penny Great video as usual! As a freshman high school was ok, but after that year things were better! Anyone worried about high school, don't stress about it you will be your own worse nightmare. Just enjoy it and learn because before you know it be over. Enjoy those years 🤗 Everyone have a blessed rest of the week 😇
@MICSI_C
@MICSI_C 5 жыл бұрын
Girl you are so real...
@ihateuall1591
@ihateuall1591 4 жыл бұрын
this is somewhat me. i don’t care about anyone i don’t care about school and i don’t care about myself. i am depressed and when i go back (when corona is over) i know i won’t have any friends because i don’t care about them and all of them are either racist or not someone i would want to be friends. i am depressed and no one understands or they say they do but in a “quirky way” which is not me
@ecorose8874
@ecorose8874 4 жыл бұрын
I watch this every time I’m struggling because it truly speaks to me on a true true level...❤️💖
@hot.bowl.of.stew94
@hot.bowl.of.stew94 5 жыл бұрын
Would you be willing to talk more about your gender dysmorphia in another video? If you're comfortable with it, it would be really interesting to learn more about your experience. 😊
@TheCiddie
@TheCiddie 5 жыл бұрын
Yess I'm very interested in this too and considering she's very much a tomboy I think it would be a good video explaining some of that. Especially bc I'm going through that right now and I'm even questioning my gender identity too. I also just want fashion tips tbh
@zoelizabeth3
@zoelizabeth3 5 жыл бұрын
I think she might be mixing up body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria. You cannot have gender dysphoria and be cis, gender dysphoria is what makes a transgender person trans.. I don’t wanna assume what she’s gone through but you cannot alleviate true gender dysphoria and still be in the body you were assigned with at birth
@mersaursula
@mersaursula 5 жыл бұрын
auberginexdreams She probably just doesn’t really relate to the extremes of being a girl and she may feel left out and confused about her gender. You can still have gender dysphoria
@zoelizabeth3
@zoelizabeth3 5 жыл бұрын
Marissaaa that’s not really gender though, more like gender constructs. Insecurities in femininity as a woman and feeling masculine. Yes, there is more to being trans than just wanting male or female parts, but if she didn’t feel not only insecure but the need to trade her biologically female body for a male’s, than that’s probably not gender dysphoria in my opinion. Completely would need confirmation from the person themself, though.
@danafradi8607
@danafradi8607 4 жыл бұрын
You absolutely can have gender dysporia without being trans. Every trans person begins in a cis body with gender dysphoria, transitioning is a solution to that, but not all do that. That's like saying you can't be depressed until you've attempted suicide. That's silly
@aimeegriffiths1854
@aimeegriffiths1854 Жыл бұрын
Im in 10th grade, ive been doing online school for the past year and a bit and honestly Im struggling, I have no friends atall, I lost all my friends because of lack of communication. Im honestly going through the hardest time and I feel like I have noone to talk to. Every thing has been feeling so much worse lately because my 16th birthday is coming up and I dont want to celebrate it because I have noone to celebrate with and I always looked forward to having a "sweet 16" when i was a little girl so the fact that I can't have one has been weighing down on me ontop of everything else. Ive thrown myself into school work and doing art in my freetime wich helps me cope but whenever I'm not doing that i just feel extremely sad and lonely, I cant help but feel like my teen years are being wasted because im constantly at home. This video made me feel a little better and its comforting to hear someone else talk about being lonely and say that it will get better tho
@coquettayesha
@coquettayesha Жыл бұрын
I also lost my friends, and i always have nothing to do on lunch/break and it drains me
@giorgiolelmi8175
@giorgiolelmi8175 Жыл бұрын
Same with me here. I'm 8th grade and I'm extremly lonely. The only times I talk with people are the bullies who bully me. I'm facing a lot of problems with my family because of an accident that happened to my 2 year old brother. Now my mother doesn't live with us anymore instead he's living in a very dark and old worn out apartment where my grandfather lived. I can't even talk with my family much. That feels so sad and dark.
@-meowcat
@-meowcat Жыл бұрын
...How's it going now?
@paolam.c.3901
@paolam.c.3901 5 жыл бұрын
I been binge watching her videos for a couple of days now and I love how raw she is
@lillysky978
@lillysky978 5 жыл бұрын
I feel alone right now as my sophomore year. Glad to know you’ve gotten better. Gives me hopes. Love you and your hair penny ❤️
@samantharosado2226
@samantharosado2226 5 жыл бұрын
Please make more deep videos I love them your are the most sincere and honest person I've met! I enjoy hearing you talk so much.
@sophiadavis2490
@sophiadavis2490 5 жыл бұрын
I relate to this video so much and I havent even been to high school yet when you kept saying I don't know why I literally felt like crying and you are so strong for being this deep and open to the world
@grriever
@grriever 5 жыл бұрын
Ok I just found you and have watched several of your videos. This one is my favorite so far. I seriously love you and your attitude toward life, you got my subscription!! Also: high school was a vivid Hellscape, lonely af and depressing, thank God it only lasted 4 years otherwise I wouldn't be here.
@adriannacervantes5707
@adriannacervantes5707 5 жыл бұрын
Holding back tears when you talk about your depression and how it changed you. Such a crazy battle. Díos te bendiga💞💞
@Marina-es6ox
@Marina-es6ox 4 жыл бұрын
I agree honey, I agree so wholeheartedly! High school was a DARK time and now I’m in my 2nd year of community college and I feel so much better. Also, I’ve learned and grown - like you said - “learned better coping mechanisms.” How to deal with anger and those emotions that used to cause me to ruin the relationships with those I loved and cared for the most. If anyone in high school is reading this, know that it is 100% true, IT DOES GET BETTER. I used to wonder if I was going to feel that way forever or be surrounded by ignorant people forever. But believe me, High school will be over sooner than later. It will end eventually, and you’ll be off to the next part of your life. She is right, it does get better. Hang in there you guys and girls
@rainyday9002
@rainyday9002 Жыл бұрын
thanks! you made me feel 100x better :)
@keilamagana1271
@keilamagana1271 5 жыл бұрын
I've never experienced something like that in high school, but I'm having similar challenges like that now that I am in college. Watching your videos makes me realize that there's more to what meets the eye and that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Also that our wellbeing and our souls are far more precious than gold. You're amazing and keep doing videos like these! they' re so heartwarming and loved! May God keep blessing yo life girl
@lydiaslavalamp751
@lydiaslavalamp751 5 жыл бұрын
Omg penny ur so strong and brave for sharing ur high school experiences with us! thx so much for the advice too! 💖😚🥰
@preetizwinkels2884
@preetizwinkels2884 5 жыл бұрын
When the deep condition sessions goes deeper than you thought😭❤ you are such a awesome person and right know you are slayin all those people! And self acceptance is a so important❤ and shit happens so yeah that sucks but please dont stop with these sessions cause these are the best!🧡
@wavehotspot9414
@wavehotspot9414 3 жыл бұрын
I was super lucky, I learned from other people's experiences and my own. I'm lucky enough to have solid people in my life who understand me and love me for who I am. I've always had super bad anxiety so hs was my time to truly be myself and have fun :))
@aliali-xq2qn
@aliali-xq2qn 5 жыл бұрын
Seeing this side of you is amazing. Thank you for valuating life, and the courage to talk about these things.
@leslya7958
@leslya7958 5 жыл бұрын
You’re a great human being. The way you’re using this platform is admirable! You’re also super funny without trying ☺️.
@cathyo.3490
@cathyo.3490 5 жыл бұрын
Watching this literally made me feel better. Mental health is seriously not taken serious by people until they GO THROUGH IT. I literally went through the exact same thing. Anxiety, Anger, Depression. It was like I was in a hole and dirt was adding into it. I felt like there was no way out of that hole. I literally had no idea how to cope with it. I truly understand you when you said you felt alone even though you weren’t. I was mad at everyone because I felt like they weren’t understanding me but it was that mental block.
@h0cusl0cus9
@h0cusl0cus9 5 жыл бұрын
Someone needs to collab with penny and make a deep conditioner called deep thoughts
@emmamacgregor731
@emmamacgregor731 5 жыл бұрын
AMEN! Thank you for posing this, Penny. So wish I'd had this when I went through it. Girl....you are helping people. Well done!
@dasian9005
@dasian9005 5 жыл бұрын
Sometimes depression has no reasoning. We just have to be stronger and let ourselves feel the emotions not try to escape them. I’m glad you’re in a better headspace now and those days are wayyy over. Bigger better things now!!!
@tiannawataah
@tiannawataah 5 жыл бұрын
“I would say hell...yes because it’s a million dollars” ohh how I love you 😂❤️
@starrflowers1371
@starrflowers1371 5 жыл бұрын
This inspires me so much:’) I related to this video more than I thought I would and to see you now makes me believe it does get better💕
@abi7497
@abi7497 4 жыл бұрын
This made me feel so much better about my experience. I get sad watching movies/shows with high school involved because I always feel like I missed out on it all. I never went and was always angry and sad all the time. I’m so lucky to have made it out of there. Anyone going through this - it’s such a relief once you’re out! I just still feel guilty.
@trinitylee2695
@trinitylee2695 5 жыл бұрын
for me it’s really hard to open up about my past and internal struggles so i really appreciate you making this video. It helps me feel less alone :))
@cocosam8175
@cocosam8175 3 жыл бұрын
My high school was horrible too ...i had a lot of social anxiety and my friends used to mock me for that . They always judged me , laughed about me, made my self esteem more low,..... theyy were literally toxic ..i got no real friends in high school and no male friends. I was ssoo sooo broken and frustrated ......and now as i have completed my high school and started college i feel soo relief never to go that place again and never to face those toxic girls again. I hope it all gets better soon
@jed629
@jed629 Жыл бұрын
❤❤
@loisaili
@loisaili 4 жыл бұрын
I have a friend group from 7 people (or 8 idk) but I don’t have a best friend ☹️ And I’m too shy to talk to people I don’t know so well I hate it but I can’t really control it
@Farusiek
@Farusiek 4 жыл бұрын
Same here
@ungodlytaegi7352
@ungodlytaegi7352 4 жыл бұрын
Same here, haven't had a best friend since I moved to the UK
@vinregret
@vinregret 4 жыл бұрын
Honestly be grateful for those friends you do have. I used to have a close friend group and then they all ditched me
@sarathewonderful7561
@sarathewonderful7561 4 жыл бұрын
loisleentje be very grateful for those friends. some people have absolutely nobody
@martas277
@martas277 4 жыл бұрын
I have 0
@kc836
@kc836 5 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that. It sounds like it was a pretty traumatic experience for you. I can see that you're in a better place now and that you have learned and grown from that experience. Thanks for sharing!!❤
@ultravio.
@ultravio. Жыл бұрын
i watch this video every couple months. im in my last year and im struggling sm but this video always gives me hope. thank you
@curly.e
@curly.e 5 жыл бұрын
I’m still in high school. And so far it is horrible :( and notifications squad ❤️
@PennyTovar
@PennyTovar 5 жыл бұрын
you got this
@neko_doll5122
@neko_doll5122 5 жыл бұрын
it's a step everyone goes through, you'll be ok 😉
@bilov7991
@bilov7991 2 жыл бұрын
hey are u done with your highschool sis?
@curly.e
@curly.e 2 жыл бұрын
@@bilov7991 Hey, yes I’ve made it out :) (can’t believe I posted that comment so long ago and someone recently responded to it lol)
@mamajimothy1677
@mamajimothy1677 5 жыл бұрын
From an oldie but goodie, thank you for giving very insightful advise to the young ones that follow.
@berrygigadg
@berrygigadg 5 жыл бұрын
I love this young lady! So happy you got through it all because despite how cute and funny you are on the outside...you're absolutely beautiful on the inside...i can really tell how much you care about people.
@tirsarayenopazo2393
@tirsarayenopazo2393 5 жыл бұрын
I was just binge watching your videos and now I'M CRYING I REALLY NEEDED THIS thank you so much😭🙏💘
@97hottie
@97hottie 5 жыл бұрын
The last 3 years of school I went through depression and borderline disorder (quite borderline disorder). I am 21 now and I gratuaded last year in Sommer. Those 3 years were literall the darkest years of my life. And also I was bullied in Highschool for thank god not so long (6months but still that time was also like sh*t) My family didn't raised me with any self-confidence and that was one of the MANY reasons why I went through depression. I CAN ONLY AGREE WITH YOU PENNY: THOSE DARK TIMES WILL BE ONE DAY OVER. I also thought that I have to deal with depression and borderline for the rest of my life. I reached out for help and I went to a psychological therapist. She helped me A LOT. I couldn't even tell my friends especially my BES FRIEND hos bad I felt that time and I alost broke all of my relationships with my friends just because of 1 toxic friend. But now after that time I have to say that I am kind of thankfull for that dark time in my life. I know now that if I fell bad I can talk to my friends and if it gets worst that I can reach out for professional help. I am an introverted person and I dealed with my depression and borderline with sleeping because sleeping was the only time without thinking about my problems. I slept a lot during that time. I stopped studying for school, I gained wheight, I got acne, my hair started to fall out. But almost near the end I told myself: B*tch if you are not starting to study again you will not be able to graduate! I started to feel a bit better and now I am working on my self-confidence and self-esteem by going to singing lessons. And it is like that dark time prepared me for the life. I know now that I am strong! I MEAN EVERYBODY IS STRONG WHO IS DEALING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS BECAUSE IT TAKES SO MUCH ENERGY! At the end of the day it's only you and your thoughts. When I was bullyied in highschool (maybe 8th grade) I felt so much shame to seek for help. I thought that when I am going to tell my teacher that I am beeing bullyied by those 3 boys in my class ( they said I looked stoned because I have dark eye circles) I thought that my teacher is going to not taking me serious and will laugh at me. I told no one until about 1 year ago that I was bullyied back then. I REGRDT IT SO MUCH THAT I DIDN'T TELL MY TEACHER. AND NOW THAT ,,COOL BOY" that f*cker which used to bullyied me) is kind of a junkee now. CURLYPENNY IS RIGHT WHEN SHE SAYS THAT THE COOLNESS IN HIGHSCHOOL MEANS NOTHING. NOTHING IN THE WORLD! Long story short: -It is okay to talk to someone and reach out for professional help. -You don't need to be ashamed. -It is not your fault. -Try to start to work on yourself (selfconfidence, selfesteem, getting rid of acne and toxic relationships, ...) -THERE IS WILL BE A BETTER TIME TRUST ME!
@glassanddiaphane
@glassanddiaphane 5 жыл бұрын
I didn't have a horrible experience going through high school but I did get some nasty comments that affected my self-steem and my social interactions. Since I knew I was very different I didn't even try to fit in so I concentrated in beautyfying my brain by reading, listening to music and watching films, I would look for older people who were mature and interesting to enrich my own mind. It was a confusing time because I thought maybe I needed to change to please others, some comments made me doubt of my worth, sometimes people would push me to see if I would give up on things I considered wrong, but in the end I learned the only one I needed to be true to was to myself. I don't think this changed much until I was in my second year in college because it was something related to myself, not to the environment I was in.
@astrawulf1397
@astrawulf1397 5 жыл бұрын
Oh my gosh. Thank you. Just Thank You from the bottom of my heart for sharing this. I know 100% what you felt like and at last I can relate to somebody. I've always thought I was different and like you said why can't I be normal like the rest and just happy. I'm still dealing with my shit but you made my day at little less lonely and miserable. Love you❤
@lindseyhawes8829
@lindseyhawes8829 5 жыл бұрын
I’ve been going through it heavy lately and I’m not in high school and honestly this just made me feel a million times better. I have been so depressed and sad lately and this really made me think! THANK YOU
@redlobster8286
@redlobster8286 5 жыл бұрын
I wish I wouldve seen this 3 years ago I’ve been though an abusive relationship too but I believe it happened for a reason it really turned me into a different person and made me grow and learn to love myself and I’m still here standing to help my friends/family and prevent them from being in the same situation I was. If you ever feel the slightest amount that you are in an abusive relationship contact a hotline or reach out to someone who loves you and you can trust! Stay safe lovelies
@giovannir5955
@giovannir5955 5 жыл бұрын
Had to stop what I was doing the queen has uploaded! 😍
@serenity9695
@serenity9695 4 жыл бұрын
Honestly this is the best advice I've ever gotten. I struggle with a lot of mental illnesses and I have been in a dark place these days. This makes me feel less alone.
@kiahsands8541
@kiahsands8541 5 жыл бұрын
I am dealing with what you dealt with right now and I'm 29. I'm so glad you got past your dark times. 🖤🖤🖤🖤
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