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Thank you so much for this vlog. 😊❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for you bravery to talk about your journey. I hope this could reach more people and you'll be able to save lives. I'm glad that you're better now. Keep it up and I know you can do it! Take care! 😊❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ New subscriber here. 😊

thank u so much. for the awareness, vulnerability and inspiration. 💛

I deal with lots of depression and really relate to all you are saying. Thank you for sharing this so much :)

*thank you for sharing your story Marlina* *hope you feel better today* *ps have great 2020*

You are such a testimony. 🥺🙏 May God guide us everyone who are going through this such things.

be strong ❤️ we love you always ✨❤️

Thank you for being okay and seeking help ❣ You are one brave soul

This video was published 3 years ago. Pero until now, still saving lives. Thanks ate Marlina! ❤️ Ang hirap dati, kasi akala ko, ako lang mag-isa sa laban na 'to. Pero after ko mapanood itong video, dami ko natutunan. 😭 The moment I stopped filming videos for my KZfaq channel, yun na pala yung sign. Salamat ate Marlina. ❤️

Amongst all the vlogs about anxiety and depression, this is the most accurate. This is exactly what i was feeling.

Searched "depression vlogs" and ito lumabas. I can really relate. Thank you for cheering me up.

This is the time that i need to open myself,na ilang months konang nararanasan. Thanks po sa vlog nyo po🙏❤

I’m crying kasi ang anak ko eh meron din anxiety and depression so tuwing inaatake sya umiiyak sya umiiyak din ako kasi alam ko nahihirapan anak ko eh .She is still young pero I’m planning na I suggest ko na sa GP na resetahan na sya ng anti depressant kasi nagiging madalas na ang atake ng anxiety and depression nya .Please pray for my daughter Monica.

Hello I'm so proud of you, you're so brave to speak out how you gone through with depression, it's never easy at all. But just be open to your support system that's the only way they try to help you. Godbless and I will include you in my prayers

Thank you for sharing this..You're so strong..

i love youuu ate marlina. Im alwaysss hereeee. 😊😊😊😊

All the love Marlinaaa 🤗

sana may makaintindin sa nararamdaman naten akala kasi nila madali tong nangyayare saten kala nila yung depression e isang kaartehan sa katawan tapos sasabihin pa sayo wag ka magisip ng kung anu ano kahit naman wag ka magisip ng negative mararamdaman mo talaga yung lungkot etc..😔

Naiiyak ako habang pinapanuod ka. Thank you sa video mo! Ingat lagi

This is the real face of reality.. but I am glad you coup up and uplift yourself sa gnyang sitwasyon.. Lagi mo tatandaan tayo lang at sarili lang natin ang makakatulong sa atin sa lahat ng sitwasyon na darating.. Kaya LABAN lang! Remember, si GOD lang ang KAKAMPI natin sa lahat ng laban!😍😍 just keep on smiling! At xmpre keep on sharing your nice videos and photos!❤️❤️

I started to love your vlogs because of this.. I experienced the same..and still experiencing.. 💔😭

Hello ate, you are loved today and everyday know that 💕😘😘😘

Thankk you atee, sa sobrang depressed ko di nako nireglaaa jusme😂😂 Hindi nako natutuwaaaa🤦🤦🤦 Buti napadaan ako naiinspired ulit ako😁😁

People that still happy just to cover the darkness of their lives are the strongest people.. battling with depression everyday is not easy.. it's very difficult especially no one can understand your situation and you're in a battle alone with your self😪😪😪

I think im experiencing both depression and scary anxiety and I'm hopeful to get help soon 🙂 I'm struggling to keep up with online school, Spiralling in the thoughts of the society's expectations because of my life's traumatic experience including my sexuality, my close minded and emotionally negligent parents, and etc that I don't want to disclose about ....... although I'm very broken now i personally believe that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel ❤️

Hi, I feel what you feel since last year until now. I am still fighting with my own.

Laban lang po. NaHanap ko tong video ninyo kasi sobrang naTitrigger depression ko ngayon

THANK YOU SO MUCH❤ KAILANGAN NATING MABUHAY!

Thanks for this. 💖💖💖

I didn't know that I'm depressed. I always think I'm a burden. I was bullied elem. And hs. 2013 nag start ako ng college and hindi pa rin ako nakakatapos. 2019 na nag lipat ako ng school and nag start nanaman ako ng 1st year. Tumatagal na mas lalo akong nahihirapan. Nag break kami ng gf ko dahil sakin dahil sa kung anong meron ako mas lalo lang bumigat. I've been crying for 3-4 days na. Nag try ako mag reach out sa friends and i realized i have none. Hindi yung care na tulad ng tunay na kaibigan. My parents? Not a good listener. Tinatawanan ako. Umiiyak na ako tinatawanan lang ako. I cut myself. Nagkaka bandage na ko dahil binabali ko talaga yung buto ko. Hindi na talaga kaya pero sinusubukan ko pa. Watching this mas na trigger ako hindi ko alam kung bakit. Ang lungkot talaga. I lost almost everyone. My gf. My family. My friends. Sila lang meron ako e. Gamer ako and i love art and listening to music. I stopped gaming. I hate art, i stopped drawing and i deleted all my music. No one came thru. Sana ma realize ng mga tao na nasa paligid ko yung mga sinabi mo. Reason na nag break kami ng gf ko is yung naging iritable ako. Totoo. To the point na namura ko sya which is sobrang pangit para sa isang lalaki unknowingly na may depression ako. Wala kasi talaga akong kwenta. Ang hirap kasi talaga. Ang hirap na.

Be strong Marlina! ❤️

Waaaaaah 😭😭😭 cheering for you thankyou for your strength to share your journey to us 😘 hope you're fully okaaay praying for you

Be strong ate Marl💚

Thanks for sharing your real experience po..Well appreciated talaga po...

Quarantine brings me here :(

Love you ate Mumsy!!

Hello I was diagnosed of severe depression last 2018. I am planning to do a vlog as well. Thank you for sharing this.

I can totally relate. Thank you so much for this vlog po.

I know what is like to feel this way, if you want to heal your traumas, anxiety and insomnia just try to meditate on this.

thanks for sharing your story. I have had this sickness as well. It is a very bad sickness. I hope you are doing ok!!!

Thank you for cheering me up 🧡🥺🧡🥺

Crying while watching this:< thankyou ate for this vid:

Tama ka, kailangan nating mabuhay para hindi natin ma miss yung mga magagandang mangyayari satin. 10 years na akong ofw pero ngayong nakauwi ako, nagkaroon pa ako ng depression. Kailangan kung makabalik para makita ko pa yung graduation ng anak ko, debut, at kung anu-ano pa na mangyayari. Gusto ko ng makabalik sa dating ako na lumalabas kasama ang pamilya at mga kaibigan. Miss na miss ko na yung dating ako. Salamat sa pag-encourage. God Bless

Depressed din AQ sobra...tama yan at least mashare natin yung daloobin natin...sana magkaroon tayo samahan para MA's makatulong

I love you thank you for this Vlog. Nasa stage ako of being paranoid na ti turns of Depression . Subra kong naka relate sa experience mo . Salamat dahil ng pag search out ko dito ikaw agad nag pop up view then ayon dami kong natotonan salamat salamat.

this made me cry :( i am in a dark place now, i have not yet sought help because I’m still reluctant to take meds because I’m worried that I will get used to it. Anyway I love how you are helping fighting the stigma. And yes tuloy ang laban gurl 🥰

Depression and Anxiety is never a joke. Been in this very dark place after experiencing betrayal. And as I counsel Depressed Cheated Women nowadays and study the history of my childhood, I remembered na even when I was in grade school, may history na rin pala ako ng depression and anxiety noon. So back then in grade school, I really took the knife and tried it on my body to hopefully kill myself. Pero, thank God someone saw me so hindi natuloy ang attempt ko noon. Looking back, I also felt betrayed as a kid. No wonder I was easily triggered taking my life again after severe depression sa relationship ko noon. Kaya yes, I also really allow my mentees to dig deeper sa past nila even before betrayal. Kasi childhood trauma is really a great factor in any relationship trauma. It takes enough courage advocating on this topic and spreading awareness. Kudos to you for opening up in public. :)

I am crying while watching. Going through the same stage. Ang hirap. Parang walang nakakaintindi. I used to make contents. Hindi ko na tinuloy. Lahat ng bagay na gusto ko wala nang saysay.

I've seen your vlog today..and i dont know what to do with myself..i feel like i have no one to talk to..i cant sleep..i feel down..

I was crying while listening to your story because I can relate. My heart is breaking. I hope that we can all be healed. I pray for everyone struggling with depression. I also always feel tired and lost my motivation to live. I was triggered by a lot of things that happened in my life. Im still struggling till now. But I am glad that I have support from my family and my friends.

Damn, I'm crying ate 😭

Until now I am depressed too I hope I can control it well soon already btw Ate ang ganda mo po kahit depressed ~di tulad ko na chaka hehe

thank you

hi im experienced the same but no diagnosis yet but im glad you have the courage to make vlog about your journey hope to talk to you :)

Im ur new subscriber. Thank you for this video 😭 I also had depression

Depression is really hard I remember even nag travel Ako ibat ibang bansa pkiramdam ko lungkot ko hindi Ako masaya nawawalan k gana buhay gnun k tindi impact

Napaka swerte ng mga taong may kakayahan pumunta sa doktor. :( kahit dumting ung panahon na hindi ko na maintindihan ung sarili ko. Panahon na tinanggap ko na na mamamatay na ako pero napipigilan ako ng mga bagay na "pano pamilya ko?" Sino sususporta sakanila fi na ba ko magkaka anak? Kawawa naman ako di ko mararanasan ung pagiging ina.. kapalit ng mga gusto kong maranasan sa buhay ko ay ung pagsuffer sa kalungkutan.. umiyak ng pang habang buhay at mabuhay ng malungkot. Hindi kasi lahat ng family o friend natin o kakilala sineseryoso ang ganitongusapain.SO I KEEP it myslef na hindi lahat maiintindihan ako at baka ganito talaga ginawa ung buhay ko. Walang sayang pangmatagal..

Khit Ang naiisip n lng talaga pagnaranasan at Buhay at wakasan at dhil sa sobrang nahihirapan na Ang isipan, un n lng Muna Ang iisipin KAILANGAN Kong mabuhay.. 🙏 sana makawala na dto.

I was looking for a Free consult vlogs then I bumped po isa sa mga vlogs nyo, then napunta ako dito. Umiiyak lang ata ako throughout the vid :( napaka sakit. Di ko na rin kasi alam, Kala ko kaya ko na kasi nagiging aware na ako sa triggers and such pero lately I'm having episodes na naman, di ko na ma control nararamdaman at mga naiisip ko. Gusto ko na malaman ano na ba nangyayari sakin, plan ko talaga pag after school nalang pag may work na pero mukhang di na ako aabutin non.

recommended ni yt... pinanood ko.. nakakarelate ako, dumating pa ko sa point na pati anak ko sinasaktan ng utak ko, pero sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko anak ko and I always pray lalo na kapag may suicide thoughts sa utak ko na para sa akin at sa anak ko.. exercise and prayer! super nakatulong saken, sympre meds na din... thank you for cheering us! KAILANGAN KO MABUHAY para sa ANAK ko 😍

I don't really know if this is still a stress/depression kasi di naman ako nag iisip na magpakamatay, but I am scared to die and also because of my mom's death.

Nasa Point Ako ngayon na Hindi ko na maintindihan yung sarili. Hindi ko alam bakit sad Ako. Cguro SA sarili parang Wala akung tiwala. Parang Hindi Ako masaya SA paligid ko. Sobrang sad, umiiyak nalang Ako mag Isa.

Tama ka po napakahirap magkaruon ng depression super hirap.. pati rin po ako nagkaroon ng depression..

Hi Marlina, cheers to us who took the courage to share our Depression journey here on KZfaq. I actually uploaded a vlog about my depression and it took me 3 months before I really filmed it. Being able to put it out there and bringing awareness about our struggles is one greatest achievements! I hope you're doing better now *hugs* ❤

i have it also, it sucks

sobrang kaylangan ko to :(

I dont know kung depression yung nafifeel ko ngayon, pero may pagkakahawig nararamdaman mo sa nararamdaman ko ngayon, and habang tumatagal na pinapanuod kita o naririnig yung sinasabi mo na maypagkakatulad sakin, Bumibigat yung pakiramdam ko and umuiiyak na,

Your eyes says it all! ;( i am depressed also because my parents are split up. I did everything, to the point na magpapakamatay na ako di parin sila nagkabalikan ;(

Be strong ate ☺

"we have mastered the art of covering up." 😭

Uyyyy ateeeee. 🥺😭 THANK YOOOOUUU. 💔

i think its time for me to consult to a psychiatrist bc i'm looking for signs to do it na and this video happened to show in my yt feed upon opening the app. Atm i'm having suicidal thought again and i don't want to do crazy things as what i did before that's why i divert my attention to some things. I was once motivated to be a RMT and now in my third year, nawalan ako ng gana sa lahat kasi all of my problems from my chilhood up until now nag mixed na, and i don't know how to cope up all of them. Thank u ate this helped me a lot!

Thank you for sharing your experience, been battling this since last year. Still fighting.. 🤍🙏🏻

💕👊🏻💪🏻

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Can you explain what is bipolar disorder pls

I feel so sad I feel so alone. I have 2 kids and currently 4 months pregnant. I have a husband and a loving family but still I feel alone. My pain. Lage ako umiiyak. I know na hindi lang to dahil buntis ako kasi eversince naman ganto na ko and walang gusto makinig sakin, walang may time for me. Nagjournal na ko before para may outlet ako ng lahat ng sama ng loob ko. Whenever I try to reach out di nila ko sineseryoso. Ayaw nila umiiyak ako. Nagagalit sila. I try to keep everything to myself. Pag uminda ako at gusto sumandal maarte daw ako. I tried to think of anyone na pwede makinig sakin pero wala. I have no one. Iniiyak ko lahat kay God. Earlier before I saw this video. Nagvideo na lang ako kinakausap ko sarili ko nirerecord ko sarili ko kasi ako lang naman nakakaintindi sa sarili ko. Wala akong maramdaman na kahit sinong sincere na hindi ako huhusgahan at mamasamain na yayakapin ako papakingan ako at sasabihin na ayos ka lang ba andito lang ako makikinig ako.wala ako non. Pagod na pagod na ko pero nabubuhay pa din para sa mga anak ko. Sana meron akong makakausap na wiiling makinig sakin ng totoo. Pero wala. Kaya magrerecord na lang ako ulit ng sarili ko. Kakausapin ko na lang sarili ko. Yun lang ang magagawa ko.

sana po gumaling pko

May I ask what clinic/hospital did u visit?

Meron kaming life group noong college akala ko mapagkakatiwalaan sila ksi they are religious and faithful to God. They are mostly born again Christian's at akala ko makakatulong sila sa akin then one day sinabi ko na minsan gusto kong mawala na lang, yeah I had multiple suicide thoughts, narealize ko na they do not understand the pain and how serious I am Kasi tinawanan lang nila ako then one of them said na "bayaan mo siya mamatay" that kinda hurt my feelings then yung leader nung group na yun niyaya pang pala kami Kasi kailangan ng members para magpatuloy yung group nila after that year noong may mga freshman na di na kami sinasali. Minsan talaga dapat sinasarili mo na lang Kasi they wouldn't understand, katotohanan na Wala silang Paki, akala mo mababait sila pero hindi pala they were just thinking about themselves, mamaliitin pa pinagdadaanan mo. Fuck this world.

the thing here is that i dont think i have this person in life na pwede ako magseek ng help. hays

Look anxious pa maam.

everybody gets depressed like me in 2018 i wonder why

I already said to them i needed help, but no body cares i guess. 🥺

I already saw her eyes full of sadness and depression

I do have friends but I have this thought na I don’t matter to them as much as I think I do to them bfiesindjs

Makakatulong po kaya yung pag uwi sa province para maka cope up kahit papaano sa anxiety?

Hi! May i know the details of your doctor? I don't have an IG account. Thank u for your openness.

ilan po nagastos mo lahat lahat????

😢

I cried watching your vid.

hi sweet marina, may i ask kung pwede malaman kung saan ka nag pa psychiatrist?

🥺🥺

I'm searching " Advice for depressed people tagalog" at ito yung unang lumabas

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Magkano mag pa seek ng help sa doctor? I've been dealing slot and I think it's time for me to seek help. I'm so tired feeling this way :(

Aq din po nagkaroon ng depression hanggang ngayon😭😭😭

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Currently im experiencing the same. No one knows me here, I could share without judgements ,good thing . Last saturday I decided to commit suicide,but my mom suddenly came inside my room kaya di na tuloy, just many small bruises palang. My mom and people I love knews that I have depression, but it seems they still have the courage to stress me out. They even told me "im the one who create my own problem". Till now I really dont know what to do, but I just keep on praying. Im gonna go back to this comment once I'm healed already. Not today, but someday.

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