I'm so sorry you're going through this. 😢💔 I'm glad my video was helpful to you.

Thank you! I agree and am thankful for that truth!

I am so sorry you're in this position right now. 💔 I am glad that this was helpful to you, but I wish none of us ever had to deal with this. 😢 I'm sending prayers your way. 💞

You're welcome. ❤️ I'm so sorry you've been going through this. I hope you are able to have a smooth physical recovery, and be gentle with yourself because the waves of emotions come and go and it's not something we just get over. Sending you lots of love!

You're welcome. I'm really sorry you went through this as well. ❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've heard of that happening. To my knowledge, sometimes it takes multiple doses. 😔 Hopefully you can connect with your health care provider about it very soon. ❤️

I'm really glad it helped, Diana. I hope everything goes as smoothly as possible for you. ❤️ I'm so sorry you've been going through this.

Thanks, Nicole. I hope you have felt supported in whatever your experiences have been. 💓

Thank you for sharing that. ❤️ I'm glad it helped.

Thank you for you kind words. 💞

Oh Jessica, my heart breaks for you. It hurts so much each time. 😭 I haven't yet shared in a video but I actually had a third miscarriage in January. 😭💔 Please feel free to connect with me on Instagram @tangerineblissmama or on Facebook if you want to keep in touch. I will be praying for you. 💞 I hope that they can get more answers for you!

I'm so sorry for your losses. 💔 Hopefully your cytotec experience will go as smoothly as possible. 💞 😔

I'm so sorry. I hope the physical side of things have gone as smoothly as possible for you. 😔 And then of course the emotions can be a rollercoaster. Praying for you. ❤️

@@TangerineBliss The physical part was painful but is over 😔 Thank you❤️

@@faifye7 A lot of people won't get what you're going through, but I get it and lots of other women do as well. 💞 Know that you're not alone. ((hugs))

I'm so sorry. 😰 Since I've had this multiple times now, I know now that depending on who prescribes you the medicine, sometimes a pain prescription and anti-nausea prescription are given as well. I bet if you call the office where you were seen you can probably speak with a nurse and request something stronger to help with the pain. It might be that they would just send that prescription in right away to the pharmacy for you.

@@TangerineBliss thank you! And yes you are absolutely right! I messaged my doctor today and he prescribed 800mg of ibuprofen. Was brave enough just now to take the second dose. Hopefully it’s not as horrible as the first time. Thank you for sharing your story, definitely don’t feel alone in this ❤️

I'm so sorry you're going through this. 😢💔 I just lifted you up in prayer. I would give you a big hug if I could. 💓

No thank you for this video you uplifted me and made me feel okay and if you can do it I can too thank you so much I’m sorry for your losses as well ❤️

Thanks for visiting!

I'm so sorry you're going through this. ☹️ I have heard that the HCG numbers can take quite a while to go down. I can only tell you based on my experience inserting the cytotec, I had cramping but no diarrhea. Feel free to send me a direct message on Instagram if you want to chat more, since this is all public right here, and I know it's all really personal and hard to talk about. ❤️

I asked my pharmacist about how to take the medication. I took mine orally. Ive had to do it a few times. Sometimes my levels took a while to drop also. Misoprotol works by disrupting folic acid reception so the cells stop growing/dividing, so do not take prenatals or anything with folic acid. It stops all rapidly growing cell growth, everywhere in your body. So many side effects are possible. I always had a hard time on this drug but in my mind it was better than D&C. Its basically like a cancer fighting drug. My mom was doing chemo at the time and it really made me understand what she was going through. Hang in there and talk to your doctor or pharmacist. Feel your pain girl! Stay strong!

@@sethpainter7143 I think you might be talking about methotrexate injections (chemotherapy) and not misoprostol pills (prostaglandin) that they are discussing here

I think I was about 13 weeks along by the time I had the surgery.

& for the 2nd? How many weeks Bliss mama?

I don't know much about how it works for an elective abortion at that gestation, but if you go to the hospital you might be getting a surgical abortion which would likely involve medication to soften and dilate you on one day and then going back in the next day for the surgeon to use suction and instruments to remove the baby and placenta. Were you given options to choose from? I'm under the impression that you'd have a higher level of care and likely less pain at a hospital vs a clinic, particularly that far along, given the anesthesia and everything available at the hospital. That might be something you can ask about depending on the options you're considering. Also covid definitely makes things more challenging regarding not having someone with you, but the hospital would probably offer you some medication for anxiety, and just going off of my hospital experiences, everyone has always been very caring, so hopefully that would be some comfort to you. I shared a picture on Instagram of my baby that made it to 15 weeks, your son or daughter would look a lot like that if you what you do involves seeing the baby. To my knowledge, Down syndrome causes some physical and intellectual disabilities generally at a moderate level, so your baby already has cute little fingers and toes, a face that probably resembles others in your family, etc. I hope you haven't been made to feel scared that you couldn't handle caring for a baby with Down syndrome; there is a lot of support available for families who have a child with special needs, and thankfully in the U.S. everyone has a place in our society. 💞 Feel free to message me directly on Instagram if you don't want to keep the conversation going here.

@@TangerineBliss This isn't my real name we can converse here if that's OK. I just subbed you in Insta with my real account. I'm not interested in a special needs child. I have a very healthy son who is gifted and I love the process of seeing him excel and look forward to the day he moves out and I can watch him live his life from afar. It's a beautiful process and I am not scared of Downs it's just not the life I want to live. My marriage is is too important and I love how as the child grows up (healthy children) they gain more and more independence. It's beautiful and healthy. I would rather abort and try again. Will you be trying again for a 4th? Also, your instagram post says 17.5 weeks but I'm assuming the fetus was dated as being 15w? I'm not sure if I want to see my son's fetus as I'm not sure if it will do more harm than good psychologically but I'm talking to him and will hold him in my heart for the rest of my life. I've already seen 5 ultrasounds and it's heartbreaking. So you labored this recent miscarriage? I know you said your past D&C was a lot of blood loss and you preferred induced labor. What type of pain relief did you opt for this time around (local anesthesia, general anesthesia,etc). I will definitely be at the hospital. I wanted to proceed a week ago once I received the karyotype chromosomal defect 100% confirmed but due to Covid things are taking a while. I will finally meet with the dr on Tuesday and as far as I can tell we will discuss the options from there and proceed ASAP. Right now D&C might be more straightforward but I'm curious how labor would be at this point as well. I heard labor can take several days though.. I have the next 3 days to research my abortion options (D&C or induction) so I can discuss my preference with the dr. Sorry for your loss. You have a beautiful family. I really appreciate your feedback as you seem to be very in touch with your body and what it needs to heal.

@@katierose1893 Thank you for sharing all of that, I have a better understanding of where you're coming from now. For clarity, the latest miscarriage video I made was about my loss a few months ago titled "Miscarriage at 18 weeks + Postpartum Infection" which you can see here if you want: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bcWJiqd3zp6-ZWQ.html When I miscarried in the hospital, it was really nice for me being able to hold my baby, take pictures, and say goodbye. I know that being induced doesn't always work quickly for everyone, but in my case only two rounds of cytotec were needed (they give it 4 hours apart). Of course it does take a while to get blood drawn and get everything ready and then keep an eye on you after everything has come out to make sure your blood loss is good, etc., so I would say a reasonable expectation is at least a solid day at the hospital, but that could easily become a day and a half (if not more, if that's what you've heard, but I can't speak to that personally). In my case, though, with losing a lot of blood after my D&C and then briefly passing out at one point, that too ended up being an entire day at the hospital, so the timeframe was fairly equal for me.

@@katierose1893 Yeah, the possibility of the placenta not coming out or even just not fully coming out was a concern cited to me as well. For me, I decided if I could avoid surgery that would be great so I'd at least try it. I don't know what the statistics are regarding those circumstances of needing to follow up with a D&C but I'm very grateful that once the induction was set in motion for me, my body was able to carry it out to completion placenta and all. It sounds like you have an awesome doula. ❤️ I agree with the waves analogy, and my kids have been a great distraction as well. Sometimes I have to give myself time to grieve because there is so much else going on. It's a strange feeling being pregnant one day and then suddenly not being pregnant anymore, so that's something I've had to process in those first few days as well. And the sad feeling almost like the baby never existed, but he or she did. For me, it has felt good to have some kind of keepsake to remember each one of my babies I lost. I would encourage you to get something to remember your baby, maybe a necklace or an angel ornament for example. Having something tangible to pull out of a drawer and look at while you process can be helpful.

@@TangerineBliss my doula has 27 years experience I'm just super lucky. I've released all the guilt. She even told me that Jewish and Muslim religions are very open to abortions as life is hard enough so it's not like every single religion is against it. My abortion is tomorrow. My doula reminded me that it's OK not to do things naturally (due to Covid I just want it to be done and go be back home). She also reminded me that it's OK to get help via medications. I will ask for anti anxiety medications the instant I arrive tomorrow morning. Also, I have a sleeping pill to take tonight. I haven't slept in days and my hands are shaking as my nervous system is in overdrive from the state of shock I've been in all month. I'm being kind to myself. You are lucky you were able to deliver the placenta, I just don't want any surprises and I was told the majority would still require this additional surgery. When they inserted the laminara today to dialate the cervix I screamed STOP and started to cry. It was just too much (physically and emotionally). I thought I would be able to handle it but I was shaking like crazy. It's just too much to handle. A compassionate nurse stayed by my side and I was squeezing her arm. She was so so supportive. Nurses like this are just angels. I love the idea of a necklace, that would be a good way to carry him with me in memory and have reminders. The doula helped me see that he has his own journey and perhaps he was meant to just be on this planet for the few weeks that he was here. I'm very attached to my only child. This is also helping me detach from my son and appreciate his own journey. I detach and let what is be but I don't disassociate. Honoring the other's journey as it is not my own and perhaps has nothing to do with me .

I'm so sorry you're going through this. 💔 I'm glad my sharing was helpful to you. 💞