I'm not even that big, but I really related to that part where you said, you always thought it was pointless to work out at the gym because it would've taken you forever to make progress.

This is the most accurate description of an eating disorder. I got chills when you said that you almost feel sick when you do eat but have more energy when you dont. That was exactly me. Thank you so much for sharing this, you are beautiful!!

when she was describing the story of seeing the picture at the party, my jaw dropped and i got goosebumps when she said david said “it’s you” i’m shaking.

Everyone says I looked so much better 95 lbs. They don’t know the hell I inflicted on my life to be that weight. I am now 180 lbs and am happier than I ever was at 95 lbs

The remark on the hunger going away, and having lots of energy.. completely agreed. I think that’s something people don’t expect.

The human mind is a brilliant machine, but it can be so cruel at times. Sometimes you have to step away from your own thoughts and ask someone you trust for advice/guidance. There is plenty of support out there, but you have to go and find it.

As someone who’s been obese and now has an eating disorder. I completely relate with you. Both ends of the spectrum feel so lonely and isolating. Both times it was a coping mechanism. First over eating and then restricting :(

I never, ever comment on videos... I was trying to find a private message feature. Anyway, again out of character, I just wanted to say that you are VERY brave and VERY clever, and this WILL help others, I'm sure.

I did have anorexia and now I have binge eating disorder! I don't know what to do... 😪

“How light would you like to be?” “Zero stone.” I felt that. 😭😭😭

Thank you for sharing. I had anorexia at 13 and dropped about 18 pounds of weight (103 to 85) because I was told by an aunt that I was getting chubby. I never intended to be that thin but it happened over a few months because I let the calorie counting and workouts take over my life. I remember running for 45 minutes at 10pm, all because I ate 10 grapes. I completely relate to your story and admire you sing vulnerable enough to share your past weight struggles. I think you look fantastic and enjoy watching your videos!

As someone who has had an eating disorder in the past too. I can sympathise with you so much! 😘 Love you x

Now your story about Balmain makes me literally sick, before I saw you as this successful person who made great choices about her career and had an amazing life and not much to worry about. I can relate to this part of your story when you "discovered" that you were so thin, because it happened to me when I was in high school and I thought that if I was thinner the boy I liked would find me attractive and fall in love with me... I wasn't eating and was running everyday until one day I wanted to adjust my bra and I could literally feel every bone in my chest area and I remember being really scared. Now I look at my younger sister and just hope that she will never feel the need to loose weight for somebody else. Anyway, I'm so happy that you're healthy now and that you feel good about yourself 💗

So good that you had the confidence to share it's not easy to open up about these life struggles. I hope young girls take heart and learn xo

I’m happy that I’m not alone.....This crap is emotional and hard.

Thanks for this video Sophie; I had anorexia for 16 years, and it took pregnancy and the birth of my little girl for me to reform my eating habits. Now - at 27 - I finally feel as though I've come through the worst of it, but there are still days when the old security blanket of deprivation entices me. Fortunately I've now got a living reminder that my eating habits and weight are important to maintain, which makes relapse a lot less appealing. If I'd seen this when I was younger and at my worst, I'm sure it would have provided reassurance that there is always hope for those of us enslaved to our calorie counting books. Thank you for being so courageous and sharing your story.

Thank you for the video and sharing. I hope other people however understand that weight loss for most people is 80% food, and only 20% exercise. This is why you can see people running marathons who still carry extra weight. You can exercise and exercise and exercise if you don't change the way you eat, you will not lose the weight. So your experience is not necessarily what is the norm for most people.

such an inspiring video, but I couldn't help but think about how triggering your Balmain story could have been!

Sophie, this video reduced me to tears. This is literally the motivation I needed to do something about my weight. I've spent years making excuses and pretending that I'm happy but the truth is I'm not. Thank you for speaking from the heart and inspiring your followers. I need to do this for a healthier body and mind... so I've downloaded MyFitnessPal ready for tomorrow! x

I know this was filmed a while ago but I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. It’s super brave of you to do so and congratulations on working through it and becoming the best YOU. 😘💯

I had anorexia when I was 16 until I was 23. In my worst I weighed 19 kg, in a hospital bed, being alimented by a tube, because I still refuse to eat. Now I'm 41 and I feel great. Thank you for telling your story.

I can totally relate to this, I'm going through a really bad period right now, getting caught up in a vicious binge/restrict cycle. I feel absolutely awful and I hate everything about myself right now. I don't even have anyone to turn to tbh, because whenever I start talking to my family about my food issues, they just get irritated and/or paranoid. I used to be severely anorexic, but then started gaining weight to the point of borderline obesity, and now whenever I try to shift the weight I just end up bingeing like crazy. I don't know what to do and I'm starting to lose hope that I'm ever going to get out of this. I'm just so lost and frustrated and terrified, I'm sorry I'm posting this sob story here but I just need to get it off my chest or I swear I'll explode.

She is correct the gym is motivating to me I’ve lost “70” sense June “19” till January 1, “20” and I did keto I do the same kept tabs , she is a really nice lady and very stylish lady with good sense of financial sense

sophie. you are a captivating story teller, undeniable charisma! thank you for sharing your story and journey - amazing the way our minds control us and blur things out.... have a great day and week...

Omg Sophie, your story had such an impact on me! When you started it by saying you were in a bad relationship and had blown out with your weight- THAT WAS LITERALLY MY WAKE UP CALL- I had no idea until now that this is ME! I have been in a toxic relationship and had gained so much weight! And then you continued by saying you were so tired and napped in the middle of the day- yesterday I blew off the gym because I was tired and napped instead.

Aw Sophie i just want to give you the biggest virtual hug ever! Good on you for sharing this. The more people speak out about mental health the more we can learn to understand and take it seriously as a society. Sending all my love to you x

This is one of the reasons I really appreciate you as a KZfaq content creator and as a inspiration to others. Beyond the expensive STUFF, is a beautiful woman who has had real struggles and has successfully found a healthy way to truly love themselves. It's beautiful. Thanks for sharing this part of you with your viewers! I appreciate it.

Sophie, thank you for this video. I have battled anorexia and over eating since I was 9. I still struggle with not feeling hungry and no one gets it. Thank you for letting me know recovery is possible and I'm not alone. I'm currently at my heaviest and it's a daily struggle to not revert back to bad habits but to lose weight the healthy way. You'd think at 32 I'd have it figured out by now. I adore your videos and how inspiring you are. Keep up the amazing work and I wish you all the best.

This is the best side of KZfaq. This is the power it has- for good. Thank you Sophie!!!!

I'm so proud of you, who would've known you went through this? Your're such a strong girl Sophie, and a great inspiration

Thank you Sophie! Vulnerability is the new black! So glad you have found balance in your life. I also wanted to say Thank you for the 2 spiritual channels you linked last time. My husband and I both love them. 🙌💕

You look so much like Monica Belucci, such a gorgeous actress. Lucky husband

I was almost a US size 20, then went through a separation and kicked my butt in gear and went down to almost a US size 10. I lost almost 100 pounds. The past few years have seen my put back a lot on, just with bad habits and loads of stress. Thank you so much for this. I adore your videos and this is really encouraging me to get back to exercising Covid or not.

How amazing you have been able to come out of that darkness without medical help. Thank you for sharing, for being open and inspiring. Love and light.

Our stories are almost identical. Thank you so much for sharing, because I feel way less alone with what I went through. When my college relationship ended, I thought it was because of my weight, so I lost it. As soon as I hit my goal weight, I lost my mind and couldn't bring myself to eat. When I was in treatment for anorexia, I didn't feel like they respected I'd recently come from a background of obesity and it was hard to navigate because of it. It's amazing how both ends of the spectrum are literal hell that I would never wish upon anyone. I'm now the fittest, most athletic, and healthiest I've ever been and could not be more proud!

I love perfect timing! just few hours ago I was telling myself "I would like to look like Sophie " (I'm on a diet & trying to exercise as much as I can ) ... I am now at the 14uk size . Thank you for telling us this story , it's a really motivation for me 😍. you're one of the best ! 👏👏

I love hearing you talk about your experiences. It's so real and spoken so eloquently. I'm glad your happy and healthy now! You look amazing 💕💕 xx

Such a moving story …. You have had such a journey that many can relate to doll. I have lost almost 2 & half stone which has taken about 18 months, so steady & slow. Still want to loose another stone but feeling great with my weight so far. I really admire your honesty. Thanks for sharing with us. Xxx

Sophie, I can't thank you enough for sharing this!! I had anorexia & bulimia throughout 6th & 7th grade in middle school, moved away from it after that but still spent most of my teens & 20s obsessed with my appearance & worrying about every little mm change in measurements. Now at 31, I'm 70 lbs overweight but thx to therapy I'm the most secure in myself I've been in AGES!! I am transitioning to weight loss now, but not because society is dictating what size I should be. My reasoning is for better health, self-care, & to prevent an Army-connected back injury from worsening. Again, thank you for sharing; it does help immensely those of us fighting with weight issues (either under or over) to hear others' struggles & journeys!! Hugs & love to you 🤗😘💓💖

This is such an inspiring video Sophie. I struggled with anorexia for years and the things you were saying about how you felt were so relatable to me, it was like you were inside my head. You've said all the things I never could. I was 6 1/2 stone at my lowest and the thought of putting weight on was the most terrifying thing in the world. I'm now over 8 stone and despite my fears, I finally think I look better now than I did before. Super well done you for beating it. Thank you so much for this video. I wish I could give you a hug! Big love xx

Thanks so much for your bravery! I'm so glad you shared this very, very important message of self love and self acceptance - as well as the "red flags" associated with toxic, controlling relationships! Well done 👍

Thank you very much for sharing. This is so inspiring. I'm currently a size UK 20 and I used to be a UK 12. I gained all this weight over the past year. I'm trying hard to lose the weight and your story has encouraged me. Thank you so much.

"There's still a bit of fat above your knee there" .. oh it's too accurate😂

I just started loving you more than I already did... it takes so much courage to open up like that... I hope one day I will be able to film a video of my struggle ... currently trying to lose weight and uploading videos actually gives me a big boost to keep going. Thank you for the video, it will help and support so many people, me included! I truly look up to you. 😘😘😘❤️

Thank you for your video! I used to be very thin and active but after over one year of university and my new boyfriend, I've gained 50 or 70 pounds and it's really gotten to me. I thought that it would take "a million years" of going to the gym but I've just changed my diet and it's been going well with no progress, so I joined my old gym today and bought gym clothes that fit so I will go :) Thank you Sophie!! xoxoxo

Sophie, Thank you so much for doing this video. I am on the larger side and lost 2 stone but have gained weigh again as I thought I was not good enough to be slim. You have made me realise that I am. Thank you so much, you are a beautiful person in side and out! Love Claire x

Brought me to tears, dealing with recovery right now from anorexia and it’s hard to accept my new body and weight gain thank you Sophie for this video

What a help it will be for people suffering with these issues to see such a strong confident person in recovery like this - you are amazing xxx

So much love for you! Thanks for sharing in the hopes that it will help others :) and a late congrats for 100K!! Xx

You're so inspiring♥♥ Thank you for sharing such a personal story

Sophie, you're such an inspiration. You had the courage to show whoever in the world your fragilities instead that only the glory of your beauty and your life right now. I never gone severely obese or severely skinny, doesn't matter. I had my misery for other reasons, and didn't love myself either. Just could feel again, hearing you talking, that feeling of absolute loneliness and that no one could ever understand me. You just put us next to each other. That feeling hunted so much that I could still cry remembering it. I am stronger now, and want to tell anybody please, please you MUST want to get yourself out of bad situations. You need to put some will in it, even to talk about it, but that will pay off. We are stronger than what we think, and the happiness that comes from overcoming solitude, whatever its addressed to, will make us so much happier and proud. Sophie, if you and david want to come next summer to Sardinia, you'll be my guests (you liked a pic on ista). Love you.

I'm so glad you shared this story. I've had the exact same problems in my life from having bulimia and being size 10 (which for my 6"2' height was extremely thin) to size 20 where I had no motivation for anything in my life. Now I'm working on myself to become a healthy size and maintain my weight the right ways. You're so inspirational, thank you for being so honest xx

Sophie you're beautiful now, just as you were then too. I'm glad you've overcome your demons. Love hugs n kisses from Australia Xx💖✨

You're one of the bravest and strongest people I know.

Had to jump off the treadmill (lol!) to write to you and thank you from me and everyone else who has felt the same/feels the same. Imagine how many people have experienced these emotions? Just yesterday my husband and I were talking about body image and how women desecrate themselves and he pointed out that men feel the same too. I think we sometimes forget about men. Your story was great to hear- you always put your message across so eloquently. Thank you😘✨

That little smile she has while she is talking about how she motivated herself to go to the gym and make herself feel better... gosh you are such an amazing and inspiring woman!

I too have been at both extremes, it's very hard to explain so thank you for your story.

This was SO inspiring!! Wow!

You're honestly my favourite youtuber, thank you for sharing your story! I've suffered with bullimia and anorexia when I was 17 - destructive relationship and my grandad dying just pushed me over the edge and I point blank stopped eating and I went to a size uk 4, 6 stone from uk 8 in a month.. it was awful. I fainted everyday, I looked ill but food made me feel disgusting - I felt proud that I wasn't eating, it's a horrible mindset. Honestly the only thing that helped me gain weight was falling pregnant. I was like, I need to eat in order for my son to survive and to this day I always remind myself I can never go back there because I need to be there for my baby. He's my everything. But honestly without my son, I don't know if I had the strength to recover myself, I hope I would have :/ I'm proud of you for getting healthy again, I know it's the hardest thing ever, you're so beautiful inside and out. Love you Sophie xxxx

Well done for sharing and in such an honest straightforward way. I am 43 and still have issues with food. Definitely stress related. I just want to relax as it is so exhausting. You look fantastic now. It's so lovely that you smile when you talk about David. You can tell you mean the world to one another.xxxx

This is almost similar to something I suffered with. All throughout my life i had been overweight, like borderline obese. At 12 years old i was a UK size 22-24. Then i got IBS and suddenly dropped to a size 16 literally over the 6 weeks holiday. When i went back to school as a year 10 everyone commented on how much weight i'd lost, all the bullying had stopped and my life was great. Then people stopped commenting on the weight i'd lost because they'd gotten used to it, so i lost some more and got to a size 14. The same thing happened, I lost some more and was a size 12. I'm pretty tall, at 6'1 and 70kg I was what you would consider a healthy weight. But to look at i wasn't healthy at all. I was white constantly with thick dark undereye circles, I would wear my school shirt with a long sleeve top under neath and my school jumper over top as well as tights under my school trousers and thick winter socks. I would shake constantly, my hair began to fall out and my periods stopped. My shoulder blades and spine stuck out to the point where doing sit ups was painful because my bones were digging into the ground. From one extreme to the other in the space of 2 years. I was swimming once and was on my 18th length, i remember it vividly, my vision began to blur and i just made it to the side of the pool before i lost consciousness. 2 lifeguards had to pull me out. My family began to argue over my health, my grandparents became increasingly concerned and I was constantly at the hospital for emergency blood tests to check my vitamins. I snapped out of it and gained weight back to a size 14. Then a 16. Then an 18. I'm inbetween a size 18-20 (aged 17) Which honestly is bothering me profusely but I know i cannot diet or attempt to be 'healthy' and stick to a regular exercise regime because A) I actually severely damaged the tendons in my right ankle from excessive exercising and B) because I know i'll hit self destruct again. I've just had to come to terms with who I am. If I can't appreciate me for who I am, and the fact i've fought all of that and i'm still here, no one can. I'm glad to hear you got out of it :) Keep fighting, i'm so proud of you ♥

Wow : you are a truly inspiring lady; so much respect for you. Warm regards from a 49 year old who has had a similar journey as you xx

Thank you for posting this video. I am sure you have helped others by posting this. I suffered with anorexia for 8 years. A good friend gave me the support to get healthy again. I fully recovered and am also a healthy US size 8. Loving your videos here in America! You are such a great inspiration!

Thank you for being honest about not having everything handled and under control every single day. You never have it sorted and when you do, then menopause comes along to kick your backside!

I gained 50 pounds in 3 months, and lived like that 5 years and now I'm on a diet for 7 days already😄, I'm pretty determined to loose weight this time, though I've tried a couple of times. Thank you for this video!!! I helps and motivates a lot! 😚

wow thank you, really thank you, your story is so much like mine. I'm still trying to accept myself at this healthy weight rather than before when I was under weight. ❤❤❤

I'm so glad you left this up. Some of the things really hit home. I'm recovering from Bulimia and tonight I slipped up after being good for two weeks. When I saw a doctor two weeks ago, he frightened me by telling me I could end up with a tube in my stomach if I don't get better. It's really horrifying to think I could end up like that. I've been practising intuitive eating and I've read Just Eat It and the second Brain Over Binge book so it's something. Thanks for sharing this video, Sophie, it found it just when I really need it. xx

This is the first time I’ve heard someone say out loud how I feel about food and the anxiety and stress of eating in front of people. Wow... I don’t know how I got here but I’m glad I did, to hear your story.

i was refreshing for 10 minutes, waiting for this video. you look stunning! but now im gonna watch video💘

well told sophie. so many of us have similar struggles..

Sophie for somebody that loves luxury items and love showing it you are by far the only one in KZfaq that I can see that shows off your luxury item that does not come out as bragging. That is why I am a subscriber of your channel. I love your genuine personality.

I understanded this video soooo much😪 when I was 9 I was diagnosed with anorexia and I'm way older but I'm still recovering😞but I am glad to have my family here to help me🙃

such an inspiring person you are. im so glad that u got out of it so u can now share your story to help other ppl. please keep sharing this part of your life and of cours the journy u had and still having bc i feel its so important. you are an amazing person and i love the fact that you are a strong woman as well. love you girl :) kisses from Israel!

So heartbreaking to hear you talk about the photo. Thank you for the video.

thank you for sharing this Sophie. A lot of people have told me I would never find someone to love me at my weight, and because I was not self-concious i didn't care. Now that I am married to my wonderful husband I have become a little self-conscious and I am unhealthy. I just turned 26 and I know I have to get it together for my health and a long happy life with him. He loves me as I am, but his comments are always positive and for the good. Nothing to shame me or to make me change physically. Im glad that David was a great husband and support as my husband. Thank you for sharing and giving me the extra push I needed.

Great video. Thank you for sharing. I also have flip flopped on my weight for years. After college I was bigger, then I moved away from home and began exercising obsessively. It never got to the point that I was counting calories but I was too thin. Now I am pregnant with our second and have gained a lot of weight but am happier than ever. You are right, it is all in how you think about yourself. I'm glad you are in a healthy place now.

You know Sophie I liked you from the first time i bumped into a video you made , i never asked myself Y i liked you and Y i subscribed to your channel , after all you are so young and i m 58 , well , i learn so much from you , with you it is deep , not only make up and nice handbags (which i like too) there is this combination in you of beauty , wisdom , honesty , good taste and depth personality , you come out as a strong wonderful women and i am lucky to be here in that good group of your subbies . good night from Israel :)

I know it's wrong but this video gives me motivation.

I literally got chills when u said ur husband was like "that's you". That hit me rly hard

Thanks for sharing. I was thin until my 30s then in my 40s, due to several medical conditions and medication, I have become Extremely obese. I don’t eat much and actually have malnutrition. I am very limited physically so I can’t exercise much. I am miserable and depressed. You have encouraged me💜 I have 2 surgeries in the next 2 months so between physical therapy, pool therapy and working with a nutritionist, I hope to loose weight and become healthier!

You're always so inspiring Sophie! Thank you for sharing your story! xxx Brooke

Always love your honesty Sophie! X

Thank you for sharing this. This is literally like looking in the mirror for me! I've been in recovery for almost 3 years now, but I've had his exact battle my whole life it feels like. I was obese for a long time and then one day like you said, something clicked. I lost half my body weight, but being 5ft 11, that was way too skinny for me. I literally survived on skinny milkshakes at one stage and eating around 600 calories a day. I felt like eating was the only thing I could control so I started writing down every single thing I ate and the calories in it. I was so unhappy in myself, it made me feel better to control it. I also completely relate to the eating something and then thinking about burning the exact calories. Anyway, I spiralled and got very ill, then one day I had a heart to heart with my mum and something just clicked in my head and I decided I needed to get help. Hardest fight I've had, but I'm determined to keep on winning this battle. I'm finally at a point where I want to be strong and healthy, not just skinny. Sending you love and hugs 😘😘

This vlog was so helpful. I was obese, got Atypical Anorexia, was 2 weeks from death, my stomach consultant saved my life while the ED team just watched me get sicker. Anyway I'm bk to being obese but relapsed in January into my anorexia again. Gp referred me to ED team but they rejected the referral because I haven't lost enough weight and not abusing laxitives like last time which isnt true. So my heads screaming that I'm not sick enough or thin enough. The ED services are screwed in the UK. Xx

I am struggling with anorexia and I completely feel the exact same way when you said that you feel disgusting when you’re full and great with a lot of energy when you don’t eat

you didnt look old in your wedding pics! So beautiful

Thank you for sharing your story, Sophie. From now on I will associate the word “brave” with your name, because you were very brave to get through both illnesses and incredibly brave to put it on KZfaq for the world to see. Thank you and well done.

Love you, Sophie! So glad you can understand and overcome such a horrible disease. I have lost 120 pounds and still have about 50 more to go, but I too didn't recognize myself in pictures. I never felt as big as I was, and now that I've lost a lot of weight, I still see myself as bigger. It's so weird what the mind can do. You are strong!

Bless you Sophie,you are one very strong and inspiring lady and you are just Beautiful inside and out,Xoxo.

Sophieee , love youuu

Me to a T. However I'm now heading back....I went from 136 kg down to 54kg where I thought I looked great. But for two years people and doctors kept telling me I was too thin. I started eating again to shut them up. But it didn't stop. I'm now back to 100 kg. The vicious cycle continues...... thank you for sharing. ❤️🇦🇺

Sophie thank you so so much for sharing this story. Your vulnerability is also your power and your power can become the source of strength for so many of your followers. I am thankful that I have not struggled with eating disorders, but I'll never forget this. You're an inspiration.

David sounds lovely. I'm surprised he didn't know already though.

This is such a sincere video. I love it. Thank you for sharing.

I may not have the confidence to speak about my weight loss journey, but you just spoke to me. Showing myself in public is still something I sometimes dread, but your story really has inspired me. Thank you for being amazing yet again. 💜

Excellent video Sophie! I am all for encouraging young women to be comfortable with their bodies and shape. Using your platform to inspire girls to look after themselves is fantastic. Anorexia at it's worst goes really deep and is a full blown severe mental illness. Very frightening. Thanks for this....so good that you share your experience with others x

I like you so much! you are so down to earth and genuine. I feel hope to lose weight. I trying to work out as much as i can now. and being healthy, i feel so much better.

Thank you so much Sophie for this video!! It's so honest and real! Your truly inspiring! Such a breath of fresh air! 🤗🤗🤗

its crazy what body dysmorphia does to us.. seeing a picture ourselves without realizing its us and seeing how SICK we truly are is so eye opening and i hope that shared experience among many other eating disorder sufferers is helpful for people who have trouble understanding this disease

It is so brave of you to share this story. I too have struggled with weight my whole life. It is so difficult and especially with societal pressures and prejudices. Obese people are seemingly still the only acceptable targets of prejudice and ridicule. It's really sad.